Some finishing...

Ting smsed me and woke me up and she asked me some questions before she called. Made me nervous for a second but this girl ar, wanna go rebond, stand outside the salon and called me for help. Funny! HAHA!!! After that i gave Linda and Trish a call to confirm the time to meet up.

Didn't have much appetite, only finished half a box of rice and i couldn't go on. Took my bath and went out. HA! Didn't put on eye-liner today coz i didn't feel like doing so, instead i wore my specs out. Heh HEH!

Anyway, my bag was filled with 3thick books. Exchanged with both the girls, still it was heavy. GoSh... Went to WM with them and bought some of the stuff we need for school and yes, i got my converse BAG!!! HA!!! HapPY... Another spending... GoSh...

Around 3.30pm, i said bye to them and went to draw cash for my sister. HAHA!! This is the 2nd time i drew cash for someone sitting in VK doing their hair. HAHA!!! Find it so funny lah. Imagine u r the hairstylist, someone came to do their hair, later this someone's friend came in to pay up and this someone's friend is not the boyfriend... I would find it odd if i am the one working in there. HAHA!!!

Yuting sent me an sms which shocked me a lot... I dun really know wad happened and i didn't pursued much, hope she's feeling alright.

Anyway, the 2 Uncles in VK kept insisting Ting's hair cost $200 and i was totally stunned, like when did rebonding become so ex? I held on to my $200 refusing to barge. HAHa!!! Then, finally Darl asked for 3 pieces of my blue notes, relieved... HAHa! Waited for sister for bout 11min, and at the same time, entertaining myself with nothing but Richard's cutting and Eddie's hair drying.. HAHa!! Also, talking to sister. HeH HeH...

AFter she was done, she rushed back home while i dragged my heavy bag home. HAHA!!!

Reached home and i stoned infront of the TV with a packet of Soya Bean... Then, went into my room and arrange my file and all for school and printed out the lecture notes for tomorrow.

School is starting!! Just as everyone from Primary, Secondary and JCs are going on their holiday, we, poly students are starting school. Ooo... Well, we had weeks, it's their turn. Am i excited? No, not really. However, i do look forward to meet up with my class again, to learn new modules and to once again start fighting this endless war. Didn't do well last Semester, i think i need to work hard. Seriously.

Ok, so let me sum up this holiday. I did many things this holiday, many self-reflections, many get-togethers, many new experience and many work days..

Love ended unexpectedly but feelings linger on and i told myself to stop. Well, many things went through my mind this holiday bout this person. I can only tell myself that it is no longer possible to put things back together no matter how much i want it to or he wants it to, and i've said, it is better this way i guess.. Right, Darl? Always...

I picked myself up bit by bit and transferred everything to my friends and of course, he is one of them. Had our Secordary school gathering at Downtown East chalet and i am really happy bout it coz almost everyone turn up, all the great old faces. I am lucky to have met those pple.

Not to forget, one of the most important meeting was held in Spore month ago, and i played a little part in it. Worked for Creative Eateries during IMF event, an eye-opening experience although it wasn't very pleasant working for them but i did have fun... Having my hair made by pple and face made-up by pros, yes, it was fun!

O... WHo can forget Orchard Hotel, the place that i have been going in and out for the past couple of years. HA! Worked with them on many days and many nights this holiday, and even though there were many grumblings said, many disappointment, I still love working there. With Dear, Honey, Sister, Yuting and so on... U know, i'd never exchange it for anything else.

However, Bt kor is right. We shouldn't be stuck there. While we are still young, we should find some other jobs to open ourselves up a little bit more. I guess so... We'll just see wad other opportunities will come, and i shall try it out.

Well, the past is history, i need to look forward to tomorrow. I had a great holiday... Did u?

I had a hard time letting go as well...

I found my old friends too...

Where would i be without all of you? My friends... And you...

You came into my life, you took my heart away but you walk away too... I tried hard to forget you but to no avail. I know you are away from my life now and I don't cry for you anymore but somehow, your face still appears in those lonely nights... In my dreams, in my mind... I can't erase you off from my life... Can you erase me off from yours? I can't help but laugh at the moments we had, I can't help but smile because of you but I know, those can never be... Can I stop loving you? Can I forget what you have done to me?

You are indeed a man of love... One who caught me unsuspiciously...

没想到过了那么久，你依然一直出现在我的脑海里... 我需要多久才能忘了呢？第一次的相遇，第一次的无法... 不知道你能懂吗？真可笑...

I lost myself the moment I found you... I was dead when I lose you... But now, I'm reviving without you... Am I really?

All about the last few days.

I'm Home!!!! Hee~ After work last night, i went to Yuting's house to stay. Let's begin with yesterday.

Woke up at 9.30am and i was feeling really tired coz i couldn't sleep the night before till 3plus am and YUn Wu smsed me and said funny funny things and made me laughed. Heh! Took my bath, prepared my stuff, and i went out of my house at 10.10am. I wanted to go Coffee bean to grab a cup of espresso but then i thought of saving up. Instead, i went to 7-11 and get a Nescafe Latte like i always do and bought a bread at the bakery. While i was keeping the change, I heard somebody called "APPLE", it kind of shocked me, coz in the middle of unopen shops, somebody called out. HA! It was Richard. Said my "HI" and i went to wait for my bus.

Was a very difficult ride for me coz my stomach was hurting, needed the toilet so much! So i endure and endure till i reached OHS. By then, the pain had pretty much subsided, but after changing, the pain came back so i figured why not i go shit than to suffer the rest of the day? HA, so i went to the toilet with my phone and telling Dear i was shitting... HAHA!!!

O... Met Andy Chua in the locker, so nice to see him u know, like after so long and he still looks so quiet yet NOT! Hee~ HAha! He was waiting for his hair spray while i finished tying my hair and all. Then, Dear came, Tingling came, Carolyn came and lastly Fish came. HA!!! So after all the changing and locking up stuff, we went up together. Reported for work.

Mmm... So we began with checking tables, changing the settings and preparing for setup for the night. Around 3pm, we asked to go for a drink, bunch of girls went into the bar to drink water.. HAHA!!! Came back, began laying all the cloths... I kind of suan Renny a bit.. HAHA!! Made him speechless again. HAHa!!! Hopeless...

Anyway, after that drink we had, the rest of the afternoon was BUSY BUSY BUSY! Nobody stopped i guess, we were either doing this, if not, that. Until 5pm staff came and everything got a little choatic. Ran in and out of Stewarding again, digging for dinner spoons, chopstick and wadever that was lacking. GoSh... So, everyone gathered and listened to briefing. When Lau called Carolyn and i out, i was looking at this girl who was standing infront of Lau and she was looking at him so i was thinking, did he call me or was there another apple... So i asked, "U called Apple right? Me right?" And he gave me the anwser, "Yes, is there another APPLE around, my apple is the round red one..." I jitao went, "......................................" HAHA!!! So cute lah...

In total, there was more than 100 staff that went to work. Most got their 3 to 4 or 2 to 3 some even 1 to 1. See... I got 3 to 2... HAHA! Lucky huh! There were even drink servers... Heh HeH!
End of the night i was quite tired, went off after we got released.

The canteen was in a state of undesirable chaos, nobody can see nobody, nobody can hear nobody, the 2 coordinators were stuck... HAHA!!! I was standing one side, let pple go 1st. HAHA!!! Then, i digged pass pple and sat down behind the girls. Xueni heard me and she pass me some vouchers to close. While closing, Yee Siang's hand stretched out to the vouchers, my reaction, take away from him... HAHA!!! So, one by one, everybody left. However, i was able to get my pay, so no worries. Went to buy something at 7-11 then went up to the bar to sit and makan tidbits. Was looking at Desmond Tan's phone and got a few songs from him.

Then, went to Conference Centre to chit chat with Honey, used the internet and did nothing. Honey was talking bout life again... Hee~ He told us they earned 10 over thousands that very night which is pretty obvious.

Oo... Something stinky happened at the foyer. Was pretty unplesant.

So waited and waited until Dear and all finished work. Went for supper at Orchard Tower with Uting, Dear and Andy Chua... Head back home after that, yuting's home to be exact.

Took my bath and i laid on her sofa to watch tv while she played games. Hee~ I dozed off a little but after went to her room to talk to her. We decided to lay there and chat when her sister suddenly came back. HAHA!!! Then, we went to her parents' room, continue to chat until the sun is up. HAhA!! Decided to sleep at 7plus am... HAHa!!!

Head home at 12plus. Concussed till 4pm just now. Wad a day right... So abnormal.

I was Dl-ing notes for school just now. Yes, school is starting in a day time and although i dun like the sound of it but i still gotta prepare for it, part of my life. Gonna go buy some stationaries tml and hopefully buy a bag. Hee~

O ya, i forgot, Xiuying came to OHS that afternoon... Hee~ And i was like aunty like that, telling she and her friend bout every little thing but i wasn't able to bring them around coz i was working. So i said will bring them down on their first day of work which is Tues... Yes...

I told Yusoff that i'm gonna tell Honey he owes me $4 and he laughed and said, y not ask him to give $6, one hour mah, and laugh like crazy. I dun find it funny... Then i told Honey he owes me $4 and he laughed and said he'll give me an hour. WTf... Wad's so funny? But i told him nvm, coz it's just a favour done conveniently for my friends as well as the hotel.

GoSh... Only 2 days passed but so much seemed to have happened. My O my...

OOooo... Did i mention? I bought a 1G memory card... Cost me 50 bucks... GoSh... Cannot stand myself for spending and spending...

Darl has been a bit weird... HAHA!! Dunno wad to say...

Dear has been the same... SHECRET... See something familiar in my blog today??? HAHA!!

Kk.. I shall stop my story here.

LoVe Me!

CiAo!

PS: Timetable for the new semester ain't very long but as tiring and as difficult...

Nothing to do...

K, i'm bored... Just woke up from a short nap.

Supposed to be outside now but change of plan, i'm back home. HA! So, i'll just go out later again.

Boring!!!

Dear has been to Sentosa 2days in a roll, must get ready to see her black. HA!!!

Dun really know wad happened to Darl, dun really wanna know either, my conclusion, to leave him along for a while until his mood swing stop. PuZZling... ConfusIng... Mysteriously... HAHA!!

I'm dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow, I'll be holding u tight and there's no where in the world I'd rather be, than here in my room, dreaming about you and me. -Selena-

到底... 究竟... Just wad is it?

Everytime when things are starting to settle down, it will come all over again. However, the funny thing is, i no longer feel sad. I realised all that had been said were as sentimental as before but none has a great impact on me anymore. I was wondering whether he is just trying to try me out or that is wad he really feels. I'm puzzled.

When it is impossible, i can see it. When it is possible, i dun seem to admit that i can see it. So, wad is exactly between us? Impossible or possible? Wad can be done to completely wash away those lingering feelings within each of us and allow us to become who we were at the very very beginning. A person who i happen to know coz he provided that service that i need and released myself from all the details of him.

HAHA! Laughable. Mockable. Provokable.

So, wad should i say? Wad can I do? Ermmm... To walk away and forget about this person, erasing everything including the part when we were friends? Or to remain where I am, talk as and when and play like nobody's business just like how i would treat every friend but knowing in mind that he was the one?

Crap...

伤了心， 说了再见。倒回头，看一看失去的，知道不会有结果了。站了起来，回头笑了笑，庆幸我不再伤心了。 不过，你的存在，又或者，我们比此的存在，使得比此患得患失。 这种感觉不只一直充斥着你的思绪，它也不断地拨动着我的思绪......

SO? Wad is true and wad is not? Wad is bright and wad is dark? Wad is right and wad is wrong? Wad can i see and wad can i not? Wad will i do and wad will i not do? Wad to expect and wad not to? Wad should i say and wad should i not? Wad to do to make things right? Wad to do to stop everything at the moment? Wad can i do to make him stop thinking? Wad i can do to leave this 3-sided polygon? Wad can i think anymore?

I dun think i'm wrong. But am i wrong to keep a relationship so pure, friendship? Am I wrong to slowly make him feel but that was not my intention at all...

Did he fell for me unintentionally, which kind of sounds wrong?

So wad exactly is wrong? Wad did i do wrong? Or wad did i not do wrong?

Well, no point thinking so much right? Time will tell... I just gotta live as happy as before! Being the best i can be! Be HAPPY! BE ME!!!

Midnight...

2 years ago, I worked from 5pm to 7am for once and i thought i would never do it again. Yesterday, Xueni called and told me to work for Midnight and i went, "HUH?! WHY?!" She said Lau said so... This time, it is for the same purpose as before, setup for fancy faire.

Before that, i went to orchard with Yuting, back to BAtok to watch World Trade Centre which happens to be a marvellous show and then i rushed back home and rushed out again to orchard. I reached Security point at 10pm sharp.

Went up and work started with skirting the oblongs. Some freaking splints went into my nails and my fingers and all over, my right hand is full of little wounds which hurt like hell. After Ob1&2 wedding was over, partition was open and they started moving all the IBMs and square table in. While i pulled all the oblongs out to the foyer. So tiring. I guess the coffee i had helped a lot coz i didn't felt tired till 4am... Dear and I were boxing up all the square tables and IBMs. Yusoff asked me to skirt one of the oblong table for the organiser. First he said Ivory skirting, then the lady dun want, i took it out, and went to the store, climb the freaking cardboard, and held on to it like i'm holding on to my life and pushed the damn blue skirting out of the basket and down the cardboard early in THE MORNING! Good exercise ar... Then, i skirt the blue skirting but the thing was short which i dunno, and the endings didn't meet, looks very weird but the lady said it was alright since it is on the inside and it's leaning against the wall, but Yusoff asked me to re-skirt... Ass... Unwilling to, but i still did it, coz he was right.

After that, was told to steam all the skirtings in the Grand ballroom. I was like OMG. My fingers are hurting like hell from all the boxing up and the wounds now i need to burn my hands. HAHA!!! Not that serious lah, i burnt my hands b4 coz i dunnoe how to use the steamer, but now i do. However, i weren't able to steam all the skirting coz the extension wasn't long enough. Hee~ So, Dear and I took turns to do the steaming. Around 6am, Honey came to work and ya, he called the previous night and asked bout some booking thing which kind of scared Dear and I. Heh... Didn't really dared to talk much to him. Lau came at 6plus am after going home to bath, and he finally said, "ask them to go home.." Which by then, i am half-dead. Not tired physically coz we didn't do things like carrying heavy oval trays and walking up and down, and we were not wearing heels so ya, just tired mentally coz it was way pass sleeping time at 7am.

Then, went to Mac for breakfast with terry and Dear and after taking our ICs and all, took MRT back with Dear. We were both dozing off on the train and i woke up with a shock and woke Dear up coz i thought it was Yew Tee but nah, it was kranji. HAHA!!!

Reached home, bathed my dirty body and went into coma. HAhA! Many pple smsed and called, i picked up and replied but all done half-awake. So by right, i slept from 8plus am to 4plus pm. HAHA!!! Still tired now...

Well, it has been so so long... So unpredicted yet so fun. I haven't had such a satisfying work day for very very long. Doubt it'll last long. HA!!!

Dear told me our working shift are changed to 12pm on Friday which i was kind of pissed. I can work 12pm but why didn't she ask for our permission? I really wanna know... Can't she has some respect for us.. Wad puzzles me still, is that, dun she have to ask? Like whether we can or not? Or did she just think that we are free to work anytime? Arrr... Wad the hell...

Hai... What a day for me!

Wanna go play game... hee~

Good to be good...

Was supposed to meet Yuting and Xiao Qiang to treat him a meal coz of his BD, but this fellow went drunk last night and couldn't make it. The guys went to Billy's house to DRINK! HA! Moreover, it's Jack Daniels and Vodka, something wrong with their mind man... But it's better to drink at home than to drink at clubs. Good choice? Heh! So, I met up with Yuting for a lunch. Went to Food court to eat YU pian Mee fen... HA!!! So YuMMy... Yuting was telling me bout work last night and wad Fish and dear told her. HA!

Then, i waited for 106 with her, when the bus came, she gave me an unwilling face but too bad, she'd to work. Hee~ O ya, she asked me Dear got Boyfriend or not.. And i kind of laughed... Hee~

Then, i came home, stone in front of my lappy, sending pics from my phone. Was kind of tired, so i laid down and rest a little. Chat with Xiao Qiang a little online. Then, around 6pm, i slowly dragged myself out again. This time round to Mac with my lappy.

I was really pissed off just now coz it is not the 1st but the 2nd time that i've waited for Darl for so LONG! Wah... This time, before i went out of my house, i even asked whether he's working OT not, but he didn't reply and i purposely went there late but he is later... OMG! After using the wireless for a while, i offed my lappy and stone(AGAIN!). Explored my phone a bit but still, he's not here yet. Getting frustrated, smsed him and it's quite obvious he was busy. I laid my head on the table and wait, wait and wait... HoLY!!!! 7plus, he came. He kept apologizing which he should! and then treated me a MAC meal... HAHA!!! Of coz lah, 1hour plus leh...

After that, he looked at my phone and all, and started looking for songs in my lappy. HAHA!!! Sometimes find him very cute, always make me laugh for no particular reason. Oooo... I dunnoe was it because i am too tired or was it coz he is too entertaining, we had a lot to chat about today. From this to that, from top to bottom. He kept aiming my mole to talk about, and kept repeating questions that i got fed-up and i slapped him, he got a shock, HAHA!!!! So funny, u should've seen his expression, SO FUNNY! HAHA!!! Cannot tahan!!!

Then we left Mac around 9plus and he kindly offered to take my lappy while i was pressing my phone, little did i know what his motive was(to pretend he's dropping it), scare the hell out of me!!!!!!! Then he said, "How come a lie that has been told for a hundred times still has effect on the same person?!" And laughed... DAMN! HEllo, it costs over 1K alright... Hai...

He sent me back again, as always and we had another chat in the car. Hee~ And no(NO DEAR), no outrageous stun this time. HAHA!!!

My secret: Somebody made something for me, but i dunnoe wad... (Secret without "H") HA!

Anyway, i'm glad that we are the way we are, at least we are able to laugh and crap better than before. No boundaries to keep, no secret unable to unfold, no barricades to overcome. Isn't this better? I think so... :)

Not working much this week, gonna relax and spend time with friends till school reopen. Need to meet up with AiAi, Ling Hui, HuI mUi and possibly Jiemin Mei...

O... Did i say, i got my NEW PHONE!!!! NEW BABY!!! N73! Hee~

BLEW!

I rmb when i 1st started work, i only had 2 pathetic trainings. The 1st was Roy teaching us how to pour wine, as simple as that. 2nd training was a talk by Lau and the tour around the hotel and that was it. Damn, nowadays, staff dunnoe how to cherish those full-scale training they received, oval trays, round trays and wadever, they end up so screwed. I can still recall how Jesper thought me how to use serving gear minutes b4 the event began, and how i stood one side to see how a fish is cut. Today, they dun even have to get rid of the head and tail. Conclusion? Generations after generations, be it babies or new blood, they are getting worse.

I'm so sick of complaining bout the the screwed up things that had happened the past few days that i was working. Some talk, no work. Some work with attitude. Some thinks they are correct yet they are not. Some come take money. Some treat it as nothing. Some do rubbish. Some just dun listen. Some too slow. At least be willing to learn, that's all everyone ask. Now i can really see how they are struggling to find GOOD staff. Such disaster!

I blew my top a few times just now when i went over to help Felicia's station and kind of scolded this girl and got pissed with this guy. Hello, u are a GUY! At least take an oval tray heavy enough for ur weight! I saw Xin Yee dying there carrying those heavy heavy trays. And this guy think i cannot take that tray, and offered to help! F**K! Go help urself!

Was told Lau is gonna leave for real this time round. And he was adding all the e-mail of anyone he can.. HA! So funny ar... Good lah, a man should strive for the best.

Ermmm... A few pple that i hate but none can be spoken of coz they are all around.

End here... NIGHT!

Get the idea straight...

OMG! This guy from my school came to ask me whether there's any space for him to work in OHS, so i say, he just gotta go fill in the form then wait for the call. He actually said that, "I'll get back to u another day if i wanna work" Hello, you came to ask me! Then, he told another person that I AM looking for pple to work in OHS and the person came to ask me for the form? Like hello, which part of "u going to fill up the form" that he dun understand. And hey, dun u have a least bit of respect for others? Fancy giving my number to other pple like that. GoSh... 1st of all, i'm not the one who went to you to say i need u to work, 2nd of all, i said u need to go HR yourself to fill up the form, 3rdly, i DID no say i am looking for pple to work. HELLO, do u think i am THAT free?! I would rather sleep my day through than to do this kind of extra job. For god sake, PLEASE!

GoSh... Talking bout looking for staff, i rmbed Yusoff said that i'm Chris's secret weapon... -_-" Funny ar...

It has been very very hazy this whole week. I hate the smell of smoke... Damn... Y must they burn things and pollute the air? The earth is already dying, but they dun even care... I dun want my little island to submerge like a submarine, i want it to see the daylight. I dun want my babies to live in water, i want them to live on the land, lively, like i am! HaZy HaZy! So unhealthy... Take care alright pple...

School starting in a week time.

Dear told me someone called her 10 times early in the morning. Also, that some guy we hate pissed her off, o Jing Hua also... HA!

Crap... Nothing much to write on...

MooN CakEy MooN CAkEy...

Wanna rest a bit then prepare for work... Hee~

F**ked Up

Instead of killing pple, I nearly killed myself just now... I kept telling myself to keep my cool. Staff nowadays cannot make it. Cannot... I say CANNOT!

Died when the Peranakan dinner began and instead of being the food server i was originally told, i seemed to be a runner but it's running to the stewarding back and forth that RUNNING! My feet hurt now... BADLY!

Something pretty frustrating combined with funny happened just now... And from this situation, i realised Lau is a man full of ideas and he is so good at finding solutions to unsolved maze. A person to admire. LKG...

Will end here, very tired now... Going to bed soon!

CiAo!

HaZy...

Finally, i dragged myself off the chair to bath and now blog.

Work today was tiring i guess. I was having headache for no reason... Then it got better. Work went smoothly till 5pm when i start feeling really tired. GoSh... So long nv work 7am liao, cannot stand it.

Made a very funny mistake today but it was alright i think.

I am still very unawake. Tml's work time is changed to 12pm coz they need us to work till 11pm.

Pple at work sux. Their attitude sux, their working standard sux, their knowledge sux, they themselves sux. I'm starting to hate everything all over again like i used to... Is there really nothing that can make me love it more than i used to? Or is the environment made like that?

I'm concussing...

O... very hazy these few days... Bad for health...

No more... No fun... No time... No Love... No meaning... No life... No you... Yes, I know what I'm thinking about...

Just an entry

Ar... I had a long chat with Xiao Qiang and Joey last night.. HA! It's pretty weird for me to have long chats with them but then again, they are friends who i will never miss a chance to have long chats with. Contradicting? Pretty much.

I'm gonna go get my phone later. Excited at the thought of it. HAha! How many times can i buy a phone right? Although my mum claims that i always do but no... So far i've only got 3 phones myself. Compare? I started using Hp when i was Sec.2 i think, and the 1st was my 2kor's phone, followed by an exchange with my da kor and then i decided to get my own one when i was in Sec3. After a while, my 2kor gave me 3200 so i gave mine to Lao Pa. A year later, i got the most satisfying phone i've ever got, my current one. It's almost 2yrs old le... HAHA!!! Changing my Baby to a new one... New change i guess?

Ermmm... It's so boring to stay at home everyday. Good thing there's work from tml onwards. O... I promised Xiao Qiang to treat him a meal for his BD present. HAHa!!! They went to eat Zhu Ciao yesterday and cost around $70 and he paid for it... HAhA!!!! I only promised a fastfood treat... Heh HeH!

I got a freaking dream just now. Damn, too much working with CE le... I actually dreamt that there was some sort of test bout making food and i only have half an hour to do 3 western dishes... So weird... HAHA!!! Canapes Canapes till i go crazy. HAHA!!!

CAn't wait to work!!!

Do not wanna think about what others think because ultimately, it is myself who is handling my life, every single detail of it.

Heh HeH HeH

Somebody say I fat and dun dare to admit leh... Such pathetic fool shall not be taken on the same level as i am... So wad if i'm fat, I admit... Think u can make me break down ar? So Sad... U failed to do so... I didn't know such pple still exist in Singapore, i thought Singaporeans are those who dare to admit wad they did, O yA, I forgot, there're still a handful or idiots and cowards around. Doesn't matter, empathy goes out to YOU... Friends, dun get too work up with such pple lah, pathetic fools who knows no nothing but use that ugly hand of theirs... Let's just pity him/her...

I just love my friends...

Well, well, forget bout such pple, let's talk bout today...

I woke up and do nothing. Law Law sent me an sms and scare me... It was a joke but it looks real. I sent to a few pple and laugh the hell out of it. Then, took a bath and went out.

O, felt very bad to Yuting.. Shall not elaborate.

Anyway, bumped into Darl at the MRT station while sms-ing him. HAHA! Ermm... After that, he said he sent me a bad news... Dunno wad to tell him either, can only ask him not to feel sad. Failing once doesn't mean failing forever. Well, I hope he gets over it soon enough, afterall, there's still another chance to do it all over again, but this time round, not with my hair... HAHA! (: Smile a bit more Darl, its just another stage of life.

Then, I met Ting at the interchange and Dear came along. Went to KFC and had our dinner. Then, went to buy the net, rubber band thingy for working. Afterwhich, Dear went to get sister's cash and ya, went back home.

Reached home, was telling mama wanna go buy phone tml, dun forget... HAHA! Happy, gonna get my phone tml... Hee~

Hui Mui told me that she didn't know i think so much, and i kind of laughed bout it coz i seemed to be the one who thinks the most among all that i know. Well, it's good to ponder over things sometimes but dun go overboard, may get depression... HA!

Anyway, I find it funny how everything turns out in life... It looks funny from certain point of views, well, that's where things come together and become the whole big picture. Marvellous...

Ermm... O... Jiawen and Edith reminded me that i can't colour my hair next week, coz when school starts, i have a work fulfillment for FABM's module... So sad... Hai...

CiAo!

Out today...

Went out this afternoon for a feast at swensens, can't believe i kept spending such cash. Anyway, had that lunch and took a bus to Orchard.

Met up with Jiawen and Edith and went to OHS HR to fill in the form. Did my booking for this week. Gonna be working on Thurs, Fri and Sat... Ha! Gonna tire myself and earn that much cash to shop. Heh HeH!

Watched 2 movies today, Rob-B-Hood and Stay Alive. Different types of movie but both were just as enjoying.

I bought a watch and a shirt? Is it consider shirt? HA! Wadever... Cost me $39 in total. HAHA! Finally got my watch, something i like. HA! Still hunting for a bag and a necklace. WAit, will be getting it soon.

Well, too much pondering these few days, i shall leave this blog empty so my mind can rest.

CiAO!

Here, these are the stuff...

Really alright...

Ermm... I stayed up last night online, coz i just didn't feel like sleeping. I had some chats with Bt kor, and kind of briefly told him bout wad happened recently to myself. Didn't really elaborate too much, but he was kind enough to say those things to me. He always does...

Then, had some chats with Ting... We've been missing too much of what was left, we just want them back when we can't. I suppose when a whole lot of pple come together once more after so long, emotions run high, and we just hate to let go when we have to. Time passes by, we move on, the past remains as history, everything must change... However, if time can turn back, I'd do it all again, like what the song said. I would... Impossible as can be but that is if... Young adulthood is about to be over, adulthood is coming our way, the only thing we can do, is to face it like we should, as adults. Life, it's how we wanna draw it.

Woke up pretty late today, and realised it was late. Ate the things Ma cooked and as always sat there and watch TV. There's really nothing I can do nowadays. Sit there and rot i guess. Then, Yuting smsed me and asked when i'm free for a movie so i said tomorrow. Suddenly felt like eating Tang Yuan... hee~

Smsed Darl to tell him i got his songs... Didn't really wanna go out today coz i just feel like ston-ing at home but around 4plus, decided to go send it to him, save the trouble for next week. Dear called me and chat up bout her SHECRET and how the laundry aunty scolded her and lots of unpleasant things that happened the last few days... Heh HeH... Pretty scary how pple can be so unreasonable.

5.55pm, went out, i knew i was late, but who knows that i sat there and waited more than 5min. GoSh... 2hours OK! -_-" Before that, met ting, so funny, i didn't notice her and she just came by smiling in front of me... HAHa!!!! She was going for a movie. Heh hEh! Feel so dumb sitting outside VK lah... Basically stone till i nearly sleep. Lao...

7plus 8pm, then he finished. Nearly died of boredom u know... Good thing my mood wasn't really that bad... Heh! So, i saw his NEW CAR! It is a simpler car, Honda right? Should be lah... very comfy in there, smelly(new car u see) and then, saw the lights and everything, Lao, it's purple-blue, lavender ok... So cool... So rich... JeaLouS...

Heh HeH! He kept apologizing for letting me wait for 2hours, initially i said never mind after some thinking, it felt wrong, so i say, "I'm glad u know ar... Next time tell me ar... At least i can stay at home sleep." Heh HeH! So dumb to sit there do nothing... GoSh... Anyway, after eating and some chatting up, time to go.. Outrageous thing happened again, as USUAL, i guess i need to get very used to it... HAHA!! Hai... But, still, NICE CAR... Heh HEH!

Ermm... Then, i forgot, i didn't deposit my cash... And i forgot to buy snacks home to munch... Hai... So sian...

Today, my hair is short... It will remain so for very long... Hai... Kind of feel a bit sad coz of my short hair... When i look at girls with long, silky hair, i felt a bit of pinch in my heart coz i used to own that sort of hair, and even better. Then, i would tell myself that it will come back one day. Many opinions bout my hair. Girls like it, guys say it doesn't look good on me. So, which should i listen to. As days passed by, i told myself that wad others think doesn't really matter that much, wad i think bout myself is the most important, so i started taking care of wad little hair i have now and is determine to make it the best. It has been a long long time since i have the idea of colouring my hair and this time round, i really wanna do it. 1 week more, u will see another me. OK? It's a good thing that i didn't cry after cutting away my hair. (: Yet, it's a little saddening... Well, well, its not that bad right? Not considering the fact that i cut it coz of some test and not in some high-class salon... :( Argh... Dun wanna say liao... Heart bleeding liao... HAha!

End of this blog, i shall say... I am a new person myself. I no longer cry over spilled milk. I have my way of thinking. My way of loving. I started to wonder when can i stop the love for that someone, i know it has minimised but when can it stop?

Makes me wonder... How many pple really fall in love before... As in truely fall in love... Madly, Deeply... Before he came, i haven't. When he appeared, i had. But now, no longer... Yet that sort of love takes too much away from somebody and costs too much to afford. But then again, some pple are willing to just give up everything for it, to pay every single penny for it. Why? Why? Why? Can't seem to find an answer for it. Can't really understand why pple do it. Can't comprehend. Some pple treats love as a game. Play with this someone who u can gain from but wad's the use of doing so... Wad do they really gain from it? To pull that sort of trick to find love? To receive material comfort or just simply enjoy the joy of cheating? Funny how the mind works without the heart. Funny how human play with such things.

I wonder...

有时候想想，生命只有仅仅的几十年，为何不好好拥有我所能拥有的， 而不为了一些我得不到的而伤心。 从前的我是一个不在乎一切的人， 对每一件事都尽我所能， 遇到不如意时，就会笑着走。因为我总觉得，不发生都发生了，没必要去思索太多。 直到长大了，我才渐渐了解，没那么简单。但我依然坦然面对这生命，我的生命，变化无常的人生。 Still, I am me, no matter how life changes, how many things turned away, how the wind blow the other way, how tough everything gets. Moving on as always... Smiling...

BSB - Memories

Memories, the love I left behind
I still think about it all the time
Nothing stays the same
Maybe I'm to blame
I'd do it all again

Through these eyes
I've seen a thousand lives
And its taking years to realise
Nothing stays the same
No one is to blame
But I
I'd do it all again

Does it really matter if you got it right
Does it really matter who was wrong or right
All I know, yes I know, that I can make it through
What about you

There ain't no way its gonna change me
'Cause all the fear I've left behind
If only time will tell you what its meant to be

There's a place
I can't let go
Only know the dreams I used to know
I wish it was the same
I gues no one is to blame
But I
I'd do it all again

Does it really matter if you got it right
Does it really matter who was wrong or right
Looking at my life today and I'm alright
Yes, I'm okay
Now I see the world in a better way
Now I know, yes I know, i can make it through

Memories
The love I left behind
Wish it was the same
I guess no one is to blame
Nothing stays the same
Everything must change

I'd do it all again...

ChALEt!

Well, I'm back... Ah HAHA!!! 3days2nights of chalet ended with lots of laughters, anger, pains and sweat... I shall elaborate on them, one by one.

I overslept on the meeting day to chalet. I was seriously in a condition whereby nothing can disturbed me in my sleep. Basically coz i was coughing all the way the night before, so i fell deeply into some dreamland without dreams... HAHA!! Anyway, met up with Si en at Gombak then yuting at JE. Went to the control station having the idea of going to Pasir Ris to get the food instead of taking cab from JE to PR, Then made Xiao Qiang angry coz he was at IMM liao... HAhA! Anyway, at the end of 3 days, i'm glad i made this choice coz the whole chalet food thingy cost over $100... And i am only talking bout the part which i paid excluding wad Yong Soon and Trish bought...

1st day of chalet was total slacking... We checked in and everyone just sat there and watched TV while i was packing up everything nicely. When i got the time to sit down, Yvonne and Wai Leng actually wanna go out, Tampine Mall if i'm not wrong, to shop... I was like dazing there all the way, trying to ignore them. Please, i was damn tired and i just settled down wor... Heh HeH! Anyway, they went out to explore something i guess while i was in the room eating tidbits... Hee~ Then, dozed off at one corner.

Woke up and was there watching TV again until i asked them wanna BBQ some stuff today not. So yuting and I went to book a pit and started doing all those stuff making ourselves happy. The whole thing made me damn smelly. GosH... It was nice BBq-ing out there when there's not many around, just us? HA! Everyone had their share i guess except for those who came later...

Ooo... I remembered i kept walking in and out of the chalet to fetch pple in... Heh HeH!

Ehh... Kok Hong, terry and Wei Yi came late in the evening. Kok Hong and gang were sitting outside talking and the rest were inside playing. I just felt sian so i walked in and out to see where can i be entertained or give entertainment. Found the entertainment from Kok hong and all with their chatting up. HAha! Came to a point with many "PIAK PIAK" and "CHOP CHOP" something going on... And i was like, WAD?! HAha!!! Well, it's a bit too deep for pple to understand lah, so better dun understand it k...

4plus am, the 3 of them decided to go. So Ting and I walked them out then went back. Down to the few of us left to chat chat. So, after some chats, everyone went in. Found a bad spot. Xin Zhi pulled off the blanket covering my legs, and somebody kept moving her legs behind my head. Can't sleep, went onto the floor, took my bag laid there. I dozed off a bit then they suddenly started talking bout pple snoring and all, and woke me up. I couldn't fall back to sleep after that, too cold, too hard on the floor. Sat up and tried to sleep but which freak can do that. Cannot stand the limited space and limited cloth so i decided to just get out of the room until somebody wakes up to give up their space. Qiang joined me outside. And we began chatting again bout every little thing that we can think of, from Sec school to now... We all have our regrets, we all do. Rong Hun came to join us after that. Then Fish came. 7plus 8am, went in... Find a space and squeezed in... Very pissed off still, coz no space at all... I laid there and wait for everyone to shut up and those who should wake up, wake up and those who haven't sleep, find their space. Finally, most were quiet. Qiang was lying beside me by then. I kind of just dozed off after that.

10plus, danial smsed me, very tired, so i kind of threw a bit of tantrum. Then Darl smsed.. I was like, Wah lAo, tired... entertained a few smses and i say i wanna sleep. Heh HEH! 11plus, pple were like playing drums like that.. I finally woke up at 12pm. In totat, less than 4 hours of sleep.

Ting was screaming and shouting bout going Escape and some cycling... I was ston-ing there. Some reluctantly went out of the door at 2.30pm with the aim of going escape. We walked there but it was closed... OMG! So went skating instead. But skating was only Ting, Lengy and myself. Almost broke my leg skating... Like hello, who will go skate that damn slope 3,4 times just to try to help a friend? Lao... And then, i tried to use Qiang's bike to laze a little but after a while, the back hurts. And at this time, my ma called. I was talking on the phone and trying to catch up with all the cyclists which includes my sister who is happily behind PH's bike and Lengy, who took off her skates and walked back. HAHA!!! It was a good thing i caught up with them lah... HAhA!!! And i was sweating like crazy, good coz can lost weight... HAHA!!! Good exercise wor...
It's not a good thing to know how to skate when all else are cycling. So my legs kind of broke for the rest of the day. HAha!!!

Ermm... After reaching the chalet. I sat there and rest, so did the rest. Got up to prepare the food again... Shit... I was sianly doing everything, MYSELF! So sad... Got bullied... Ting came to help poked the sausages, and TYS was looking at buying things that were lacking. Then, Joey came. TYS started building the fire while i sat there and helped whenever i can. Qiang came out to help and ya, i should say Hun also, he came out and stand there and waited to help... HAHa!!! Zhi came out to pretend to help. I think they came out coz they knew i was mad that they were slacking... HAHA!!! I guess it doesn't matter bah... Hai...

When the sun set, the fire was burning, and i was BBqing... My yellow tee was all dirty... Chicken blood water, Teriyaki sauce, chocolate, charcoal... U name it, my shirt got it. HAHa!!! Just kept bbq-ing and bbqing until almost everyone ate. I sat down with En and started eating and chatting with Trish and Joey. Hee~ U know, sometimes it's great to just work the hell out of myself and then sit down and rest with friends to chat and even better to get fed... HAHA!!!

Was out there the whole time till the most of the food finished. I was beat.

Ah Loh came and was eating out there. Joined by the bunch of us talking bout recent life. Kok Hong and gang came later.

The fire died off... And that was the end, for some... Fish, Trish, Zhi and Joey left... Loh left a while later.

The night was still young and i kind of forbid pple to sleep after some choatic punishment on Silong and Wei Yi... MAKE-UP!!!!!!!!! It was so torturing for them u know... I made up Wei Yi once during the last chalet then this time round, with Silong... Ah HAHA!!! They're so pretty!!! MuHAHAha!!!

I was really tired after that... Packed up the stuff outside with TYS and ya... I called it a day at 4plus it think. Laid down on the floor again this time round, with a blanket and a pillow... Ting asked me "Do u Miss me? Do u miss ur Dear? Do u miss your Honey? Do u miss ur Darl Darl?" And i answered, "Alright for all..." HEh HEH! After a while, i fell asleep.

When i woke up, it was 8.30am. Most were still sleeping... I went to sleep again and woke up half an hour later. One by one, everyone woke up... Washed up and around 10.30am, we checked out. Everyone were tired.

Took MRT back... Was dozing in the train the whole journey but with nothing to lean on, i nearly fell many times... HAha!!! When we reached JE, Qiang suddenly asked me do i know Andy... I was like, "Andy... Andy Chua?" He said the one from BVSS... Ooo... Then, Andy smsed me... HAha!!! Feel so bad coz i never see him... Sorry ar Andy, very tired u see...

My stomach was hurting and i ran home... Relieved myself and went to bed. A few pple smsed i think, entertained a bit and slept again... All the way till 6plus... Now, i'm still a little tired...

Well, well, overall, the chalet was great. It did brought back what we used to have, and wad i always felt. It's great to see all the great buddies and to be able to see them and play and talk crap and get angry with them, i dun wanna lost this feeling... No, not at all. Although it's just as tiring, it's still awesome. And although we spend a lot, i guess it's worth it? HeaRt pain... HAhA!! It's tough organising things... Well, i think i should still say it's a success? Perhaps... Dun count me into oraganising again ok? HaHA! Unless nobody wants to... I LOVE U PPLE!

Hee~ K, i'm done blogging...

Wanna go arrange my file... Very messy...

3 blogs in a roll... Last for the day.

Errmm... Well, i was basically sitting infront of my lappy the whole afternnon until Dear called me. Met up with her and listen to her talking bout her SHECRET. HA! So sweet ar, SHECRET coz i dun have one. She overslept on the train and actually bumped into me when i was boarding the train to meet her at CCK.

Reached there, ate Long John with her. Then went to More than Words and i got 4 different flavours of lollipop. HAHA!!!! All with Disney Characters on it. So Cute... K, call me childish but i'm only 18.

Reached home around 7plus and i took a bath. Watched TV and realised Wednesday is boring, no shows on that is interesting. GoSh... So i came online and do nothing but sing 千里之外 with my sore throat. HAHa!!! Very cute ar.

Xueting called me to tell me bout her very Odd interview and i was trying to picture the situation and the interviewer... HAHA!!! It's funny...

Tomorrow will be the chalet but i haven't pack anything. Lazy to do that... HA! But will lah, coz i can't wear a single undergarments for 3days, that's disgusting... Heh HeH!

O... Thanks Andy Chua, for ur concern as well. Sometimes, ur English do astonish me a little. But anyway, i am like u said, StRONG, as ever. I'm fiNe! hee~

To AiAI... Thanks too... You are but another Angel in my life who always trys to make me feel fine... An angel who pinches my butt, OuCh!

So... I got nothing better to do and i took a lot of pictures with my phone... So sian... Mama is acting weird... Suddenly she kind of agreed to go do the handphone thingy with me... Like WTH! Can't say that earlier meh, now i can't get my phone coz of her temperamental self... So SAd LAH! Can't take pictures which are clearer anytime soon... SAD!!!

SHOOT ME!

10,000 promises made, 10,000 promises you gave to me... What about your 10,000 promises? I'll take you back, but I'll close the door, because I don't want, 10,000 more... -BSB's 10,000 Promises-

爱离窗外越来越远
下着大雨那一夜
我哭红双眼
你没有不对 （都是我不对）
我才发现这早已经是从前... -吴宗宪 's 窗外-

无聊， 真无聊... 长大了... 我真的懂得比较多吗？

Pictures...

Things i need to use b4 going out. Although i dun always use the Wax
Things I MUST bring out.

New Shoes... Hee~ Ting, find it familiar mah?
The watch that Yusoff damaged, now only the Head remains... R.I.P
Chocolate from Hong Kong, given by Yuting
I have no idea why this teddy is sitting on my shelf but i

do remember it was a BD gift from Fish and Joey.... It is clear

that they dun listen to what i say... HAHA!!!

The cover of the Mickey Mouse Chocolate from HK Disneyland. Sweet...

More to come...

Dun worry... I'm still me (:

It was funny how pple around reacted to my "TALK"... Different opinions from everywhere but then who exactly knows how i really feel.

Dun try to make any assumption of what i feel K...

No longer sad for no reason, no longer moved by sweet words, i understand how things go. I've grown up just that little bit to be sure of wad i'm doing. Probably it's really time to find a TRUE love! HA!!! Or not? Since i got Dear and Honey... HAHA!!!

Well, a history to awake from. Learn from my mistakes... Once bitten, twice shy. Can? Can do.

Seriously, i can hardly cry for love anymore. Remember i asked someone to make me cry last night? Xueting tried to, but i couldn't. I doubt i can anymore. The last time i teared was when ting told me, "I dun regret asking u to go recess with me..." It was a sweet thing said.

As for him, he will remain as DARL, just like Dear and Honey. No more than that i guess. But of coz, nobody knows how deep my relationship is with DEAR... HAHAHA!!! My HUSBAND cum WIFE ok! HAha!!! Funny Huh?

Advice heed, message heed. Thanks vk, for the words of greatness, which makes me understand how everything should goes. THANKS... (Although u shocked me many times).

I do appreciate what all my friends did... Friends are the best for always.

爱情也不过如此嘛！不再寻觅，只求你的出现，真正的出现。

Before school semester begins again, i need to lay low and remain quiet, to rethink wad i really want in future, a future made for myself to survive the harsh condition of family, friends and definitely, love. (:

Pple, i'm fine the way i am. I really am picking up myself bit by bit from where i began as a child. Believe in me. One day, u'll see me smiling like the sun is shining and without failure, i am there for u, any of u when u need me... Just give me a ring.

不善于言语，千言万语只限于一声深切的感谢...

However, i'm still sad coz mama dun wanna go change the user to me... I cannot get my PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The N73 that i want!!!!!!!!!!! SO sad... Hai... Should i wait for mama? Or should i just get a new line? I dun wanna get a new line coz then i have to waste a lot of smses telling pple i've changed number, nor do i want long lost friend who wants to find me, can't find me. So sad... I think i should wait bah... Sickening...

Hope Jeddy is oK le... Think Aiai will take care of him... AiaI, remember to update me bout Jeddy... Also, work hard for your N level k... Call me if u need any help... That is if i remember what u're gonna ask. Hee~

Chalet coming up tml, will be missing for 2days plus... I hope it's gonna be great... Another chalet to heal all of my pain... HAHA!!!

O... Dear told me this astonishing news last night while we were chatting on the phone and i got a serious shock. I went to friendster and saw that sickening PICTURE!!!! HOLY! I started cursing and swearing at the screen OK! Like hello?! There's no "WE" in the picture... There's only "U and I" Different from any "WE" i was like WTF! Ass... Please... When something is over, it's over and when i got nothing left already, u dun say there is... No means NO!!!! NNNNN OOOOO NO! OmG... If u wanna know wad the hack i'm saying, i will gladly tell u but not here... ShIt...

O... Recently, my blog have been having all this comments bout earning money or something, but i didn't talk bout me wanting a job or earning easy money... I rather earn hard money than to get it easy. We gotta learn things the hard way to have a good taste of life... Ya...

NA NI NA NI POO POO!!!! <- I got addicted to it... HAHA!!!

Live strong, my friend said...

Crap Day...

I am very angry with the blog, with my ma and with myself. GoSh... This is such a bad DAY!

Ass... Like hello, how many times has this blog stopped me from blogging? How many times has it deleted my type-written paragraphs of emotions? So mad... Please stop doing that to me again... I'm not gonna retype anything, tired of making repetition when i'm not wrong.

Another bad thing happened today when i went to VK... No use saying... Dun wanna say it here either... I just feel bad for being made like that. Y must i be such a slut... Hai...

Then my ma dun wanna go change the account name to my name then i can't change the phone... She is so unreasonable when i am not using a single cent of hers to buy wadever i want. She just kept saying i keep wasting money to be the slave of such IT product. But hey, she never turns around and scold my brother. She even sponsor them sometimes. UNFAIR! YEt nothing is fair in this world.

Life is crap at this very moment. Can i ask someone to make me cry so i can cry the f*cking ass out so i can feel better in every way? HoLy!!!!!!!!!! ShuT UP!

Dun believe in Life is Just... Sometimes making a move may cost everything little thing in your life. Life is not just... never... Ponder and think before u make that decision to do anything smart of foolish coz if u dun, u will be called the FOOL!

Dear... Honey... Sister... Yuting... HelP ME!

PS: Things are going bad but i got a gift for that person... Sister taught me... NA NI NA NI POO POO

Why must it turns out this way? 我应该忘了吗？ 这谬误... 这无法更改的谬误...

No topic...

I had 2 tiring days at work... I seriously have no idea why since i only start work at 5pm. Am i really getting that old? I learnt to stop complaining while working. The only thing that i said out of frustration is, "Can i go drink water?" "I'm tired..." Unable to find a real purpose working at this place where i once had so much respect for, no longer able to understand why things are operating the way they are and despite the fact it is grand, internally, it is not as grand as it looks.

Anyway, it was another tiring day working last night. Can't imagine the amount of distances i've walked the past 2 days. Nothing much to say... I'm gonna say wad i've always said... It's almost the same...

However, in spite of all the saddening changes in the hotel, i still like it there. At least with most of those who are just like i am. Hee~ Not gonna elaborate on that. Thank god the love for it is still around. Afterall, i'm gonna be in the service sector.

Ermm.... Too add on to today, i'll be working for 4 consecutive days without rest. I'm beat.

These few days had been a struggle for me. Hard to get by knowing the fact that u r there, yet u are not. A task to get over the reality that none exist anymore. Ultimately, the war between myself and I of missing too much of you. However, this is a good chance to forget bout wad was left behind, a great opportunity to write a stop to all. Yes... I guess that is right...

Hey, do u know I miss you? Do you know I thought of you?

珍惜所失，保有回忆... 没了... 等待... 算了... 放弃... 唯有你一人使我患得患失...

OHS...

Dear very Bo liao... She wanted to feign that she wasn't working yesterday. In the end, she confessed herself that she's working when i'm not a least bit suspicious. Nothing better to do... HA! But funny the way she did everything.

Ermmm... It was NLB's D&D last night... OMG! Librarians are never boring.. The way they eat, play, dance is unexpectedly scary... Who will dance like nuts when there was no alcohol... So funny... And dunnoe wad smoke they use for the effects, nearly choke me to death when i'm portioning the dessert. Gosh... It was really tiring working VIP last night... It's been so long since i felt so tired working VIP. Guess who i worked with... HA! Some things just dun change, do they? And agreed to work OT last night... It was OK... Nothing much to elaborate on...

Then, my cravings for Gong Gong came upon so when Honey asked me where i wanna go and that he would bring me to, i said, NEWTON!!!! But i didn't know he was serious bout it... He actually went to call Terry and Felicia... GoSh... Then i dragged Yuting along... Dear cannot go coz of her papa... can understand... And fish went too... So happy... Gotta eat GoNG GonG...

Reached home pretty late, after bathing, i concussed.

My throat is still hurting, probably from the smoke and the seafood.. Gonna buy herbal tea later... My voice is pretty sexy now... HAHA!!!

Ar.... Need to go prepapre le... Working tonight TOO... WahAHAHahA!!!!

Am I the only one who is falling out? Because that's how i feel... Maybe that's the best way it should be...

Day OUt!

Went out today with Dear... Didn't expect Yvonne and Yuting to be there as well... But doesn't matter, adds up to more fun... Yuting is so cute, she challenged me to touch the MRT hand grips with our nose... So we had scissors papers stones, loser must do it. She lost, and she was trying to reach the grip with her nose... Laugh the hell out of me... HA!!!

After reaching Orchard, started shopping around for Dear's shoes... That was when my stomach starts to act up again... Hai Hai... Couldn't find anything that attracts me... Very lost, just following them as we walk and walk and walk... I did spot a nice bag but decided not to get it... It was $39.90 if i'm not wrong... but nah... Didn't get it...

Went on to Shaw to see my PUMA sweater which i still didn't buy... Come on, it's $69, i'm not rich, gotta think bout it... HA! It's nice but i don't really have the courage to buy it.. HA! So just walked around... Went a level down and saw LEVI's for LADIES? I think... So i kind of just went over to see the shirt i saw at JP. It was short so kind of just forget bout buying it... Who knows i'd come across another shirt which happens to be the last piece and it is M size... So i tried it on. HA! Fit nicely... $35 if i'm not wrong... Didn't think much, bought it... HAHAA!!! Then while Dear was looking at other Tees... I was attracted by MICKEY! Hee~ So i walked over and saw some Tees on sale... $11 per piece... Grabbed one and tried it on... Pretty... Got it again... Can u believe that?! OMG! Just afew steps and i got 2 tees spending $46 in a roll... GoSh... Well, at least they're nice... Hee~

Got home early, called papa and he told me they are at Ah mah house... Gosh, didn't tell me... In the end, i decided not to go and my stomach was hurting a bit on the bus. Ya... reached central, went to WM's breadtalk and buy bread for tomorrow morning... Got home... A bit restless...

Ya... Last day of work tomorrow with CE... God am i glad it's gonna be over soon... Hee~ But still working at OHS on Fri and SAt... YeAh Yeah...

Anyway, i'm gonna get my new phone by next week... So happy... KiSS ME!!!!

Ermm... Darl told me he bought a new car and just now he was saying, when he got his car, I must be his first customer... HA! Like taxi? 1st customer? HEh! K, i haven't got anything for his car like i promised... NVM... Still got time... Hee~ Andy and Richard gave me weird looks again... Like kissing??? SO DOTSSSSS.... And richard just kept reminding bout my hair... OMG!

Well well... It's late... Should turn in soon... Another 12hours work tomorrow...

NiGHt!

Thank you for the compliment, thank you for the concern... But no thanks, because I've decided to remain silent, in this world of my own...

Follow-up

Gosh... I'm down with a slight fever le... Hai... Not really in the mood to blog much but i shall touch on some stuff...

On friday, my first day back to OHS with short hair. Kind of funny, coz i felt pretty messy with my hair swinging around and i was afraid i would get caught for hair over collar. And quite "sway"ly, the "principal" came up for that event... Like how unlucky i am, but she didn't complain or wadsoever... 3 persons made comments bout my hair. Chris Honey said, "Ermm... Prettier like that.." Eric Tan said, "Wah, y ur hair so messy?!" And lastly Lau said, "I'm liking your hair more..." I didn't have a lot of fun that there... Did linens counting after so so long, was pretty torturing when there were so many linens and with 2 girls who are pretty new... Anyway, after that, Dear and I went for supper at subway and she was saying she wanted cookies and cookies and cookies but in the end she didn't buy any to go... LamE...

Woke up early on Saturday for work with CE... Launch of August Magazine... I was the Bartender! HAHA!!! So funny... I was just doing wad i can there that night... And i was telling Harris that there would be many sex that night... HAHA!!!

Sunday was the 1st IMF event at Parkview square... Gosh, u can never imagine how marvellous that place looks... I was like admiring at the artworks on the walls. Basically every corner is a piece of art. And they have this wine cellar which is so HIGH, and whenever they wanna take a bottle of wine from the cellar, there will be a divine angel that flies up to get it... Like fantasy ar?! HA!!! O ya, it's called Divine's Bar btw... So gorgeous...

Monday, another IMF event at NMOS which is the National Musuem of Singapore... I was pretty lucky, coz i'm posted to Zone 3, which is the bottom level... Was slack there... Not much service going on, i was just stopping pple from bringing any drinks into the biennale exhibition and clearing glasses... Ya... Was having a terrible pain in my stomach, shall not elaborate on why. My station IC was Jaslyn... Working with George. Yup... When everything ended i was so happy, though in pain, i still happily cleared the glasses up and down. Hee~

Ooo... Jason Yang was weird, coz during the finall briefing, he suddenly said, "Can i know who is Teo Ai Ping?" I thought i did something wrong, so i was like, "Ermm... I am..." And he said, "O.. So u r Teo Ai Ping" I said, "Ya... Wad happen?" And his fantastic reply was, "No, i just wanna take a look at ur face..." HA! Like WT! Heh HeH!

End of the event, while taking pay, they called out again, "Teo Ai Ping" And i heard them say, "She's not here right?" And i was like, "I'M HERE!!!!" The 3 of them were like, "O, so u r the one..." I was thinking which one?! Fabian was saying, "No lah, thought u r the one with a lot of potential... very Quiet, silent-killer..." I looked at him and i smiled and humbly said, "Coz i worked in banquet..." But in my mind, i was thinking, "Do u really think i believe wad u r saying?" HA!!! Then they carried on crapping while i was concentrating on my 300bucks when Jason passed me all the receipts of those who were not there, and i asked him y must i be the one taking? He just said, just pass to them... Ya, very funny...

BAck home, after bathing and all, i fell into my deep sleep till 2plus pm... Damn tired i tell u... and now, Fever... WaD The!!! Hai...

Took a pill, had lots of water and i'm going to bed soon... Ya!

Will meet Dear tml...

NiGht!

You just wouldn't leave, would you? But I don't really want you to leave either...

Tired...

Too tired to blog yet... So here's some pics from work on IMF and non-IMF days...

Absolutely drained...

I am really exhausted now... Totally out of energy and drive... Seriously ain't easy to regain my youthful spirit like when i was 16. I used to work everyday at OHS and dun feel much but just sleepiness yet now, only 3 consecutive days of working and i'm already dying... Gosh... I really must admit that i'm old.

Y i'm tired, Friday 5pm-11pm; Saturday 1pm-12am; Sunday 9am-8.30pm... I barely slept bout 10 hours these 3 days... And seriously, i hate working for the company... Sux in every way u can think of...

Anyway, it's just a brief blog... Allow me to finish work tml and have lots of rest then will describe every little thing on Tues...

One of the reason y i dun like the company is that, i think they lied to us... $600 for 4days of work. If we really calculate as one day $120 for IMF events. 3 days, it will be $360 plus Saturday's launch of August mag which was $70, total: $430... CHEATED!!!!! I think i need to take money from pApa to buy my new phone, at least half of it... Hai...

K... Wanna go eat dinner le... Night...

I'm tired, I'm drained, I'm exhausted and i'm breaking down... But I still think of you...

ByE for a few days...

I'm gonna be working for 4 consecutive days if u count today in... Yup... So, i doubt i'll be blogging frequetly these few days...

Dun miss my grunchy, happy, emotional and funny blog!!! HAHA!!! LoVe u ALl!

Will be back to describe all crappy and great situation on Tues probably...

Ermm... Feel very bad just now coz i told Darl that my hair is starting to curl and so i was sad... Then he replied that he was sad too, i asked him y, he said coz he made it that way... I got so guilty lah... I was only complaining casually to him... He is still very bothered by his test i think... Shouldn't have said wad i said... Hope he's sleeping well lah...

Anyway, i need to get up early tml to get my PANTYHOSE tml... HAHA!!! niGht all...

想说．．．

一次无意的话语
开始了第二次的微笑
延续了第三次的晚餐

我们不小心遇上了爱
但却刻意的爱上对方
是不是根本不该开始
是不是说错了话
为何原本单纯的招呼
变成了如今的玩笑

在那美丽的夜空里
感受到无丝的美好
在离去的那夜
只剩下泪流满面的我

分开了
离去了
失去了
凋谢了
飞逝了
流失了
搁浅了
最后，发现，你走了...

离人之间的暧昧是如何出现
分离的意义又在何处
道别的时候
我忘了说
因为爱你并没错
错在我看不清
错在我无法自拔
就算错了
我仍放不下
你...

忘了你？
难．．．　
爱着你？
更难．．．
放弃你？
难上加难．．．

模糊的人生
我的人生

Tired...

Taken yesterday...

Went out for movie today again... The host was the movie i watched with qiang, zhi, PH, Hun and Yuting... Yes, i'm still anti-korea... But the movie is ok...

Walked around... Spotted Puma belt... GoSh... Maybe i should get the Puma rather than the Guess one... GoSh...

I'm really tired this couple of days... No idea y though...

Ermm... Still pretty pissed off with the company... Ass...

Getting results on Friday...

And, Ting is back... GoOd to know she has landed...

Any other things? Ermm... Nothing much...

To be or not to be? Doesn't concern the blog...

Well, wanted to stay at home and really slack again today but Cindy called and asked me to go interview with her, so i said Ok...

She was a bit surprised with my new look, and felt sad for me... Hai... Who doesn't? Even myself. Wad the... Doesn't matter i supposed... Nothing beats a little bit of courage to do outrageous things... Ya!

So, went to Lok Yang with her for her interview. The boss seems pretty good, a bit naggy though but Cindy got a good chance of working there. Heh! Seems like paper is not really an important thing, she can well easy get a job that closes to 1k, and now going to 2. Papers are just something to add on that you got that something yet it doesn't proves that u got everything. All the best to her...

Went to JP to watch Monster House... FINALLY! It was an awesome movie...

Then, we walked around JP, then decided to go Clementi to have our Dinner... Had Japanese Curry Rice, YuMmy... And left Clementi FuLL!!!

Val smsed me that we're not gonna be working tml.. U know how pissed off i am... 1st, they didn't inform us bout having a briefing, then cancel the briefing for no apparent reasons. And then, telling us that we will be working these few days when afterwards, a friend said our names are not on the list. Went through so much trouble and in the end, we were told, "They choose pple from the list. If they need us tml, they'll call us b4 3." Guess wad? Kiss me ASS! BiG Company handling huge events? Big company, screwed! For goodness sake, hire someone to coordinate everything properly, dun treat us like we are some maroons who needs money urgently! And looking at the way they work, no, they dun look like any big company... Coz none seems a least bit on the higher end. I thought they would be as strict as OHS, no, they are way below the standard that i was taught. For god sake, reflect a little. If they dun wanna hire me for IMF, then forget it, i'll condemn the company. If they hire me, i'll do the job well done and never have any contact with this company anymore... Screwed...

So, my hair is still short, HAhA!!! ACtually it will remain as such for a pretty long time... I just dun wanna remember much bout my long hair gone, so i'm reminding myself that i am having short hair. GoSh... It's a good thing i didn't cried last night, and i am not really bothered by it. HA! Like as if... -_-" Doesn't matter, I'M BrAVe!

It was Hui's BD half an hour ago... HaPPy 18th to her... We're all growing up in such an instant yet we aren't able to grab hold of the wonders we all have around us but then again, having the bits and pieces are already enough..

When was the last time you said, "I love you" to somebody? Can u remember? If you do, then is it from the heart? if you don't, why don't you rmb? Is it because you choose to forget bout it or because you haven't love at all? I dun remember when was my last time, coz i choose not to rmb... Why rmb something when now, that something no longer exist? Hee~ But never forget, you are not loved does not mean there is no love... Somewhere out there, someone is waiting to love you more than anything else...

Chris Honey forwarded a friendster msg to me. It is a website which i received it once many years ago, it touched me... After that, i continuously received this mail from almost everybody, even those that i dunnoe, and it lost it's meaning. I started deleting them. Many years later, the most unlikely person sent it to me again... This time round, i am touched once more, like i did many years ago... Take a look at it, you'll love it...
http://www.clementsen.com/email/friendship.php

Sorry for what? Sorry for leaving? How intriguing a relationship can get when all it matters was to be sorry for something... Halt your words of guilt because in love, nobody is sorry to anybody, it is only somebody not cherishing somebody... So, what are you? What are your sorrys for?

New PiCtures Uploaded...

This is SO RETRO(After his test)
After all that can be done to return the normal me...
In a restless state catching prawns...
In Style...
My Hair
Still the cute me... HA!
Miss my Black NAILS? Hee~
It's all Me...
See the Mess? No, u should look at my hair.

Slackish DaY...

After i said i wanna concuss last night, Dear called to ask me to go catch prawns... HAhA!!! Didn't really feel like going but then still agreed to coz Dear going... HAHA!!! (All coz of her...) Persuaded Honey to come fetch me instead of me going to orchard to wait for them. I was really tired and i fell asleep on my settee while waiting for them. 12plus then they came... Gosh... Had a tiff with my mother again, she just dun want me to grow up. Wad to say? Wad to do? It sucks to grow up being a girl with 2 brothers up there, coz that way, i am seen as the weakest and cannot live on my own. At least, that's wad she thinks.

Anyway, dear was saying that my hair is really short but nice... Heh HEH! And Honey called me KuKu.. Sad... Anyway, i asked him again later on and he said that it's a bit too mature for me... HA! So we catch prawns from 1am to 4am, then bbqed the poor little ones. I caught 2 prawns only... It was fun doing that, u know, when the thing got caught onto ur bait... HAHA!!! But really tired coz i woke up at 6am for the whole hair thingy...

Reached home at around 5am, everyone was asleep, good, peace...

Woke up at 1pm just now, and nobody was around. I looked at my hair while brushing my teeth, felt a little twitch in my heart coz just 2 days ago, my hair WAS long, really long... Hai... However, it is gone, shall not brood over it, it'll grow back anyway. Just praying that Darl will pass his test coz i sacrifaced so much of my hair... Hee~ Well, its good to have a new style, a new me. (:

So, i was slacking the whole day today, i didn't arrange my room like i told myself to, i was just sitting there, watching TV and i realised today is Sep11... No wonder there was a documentary on United Flight 93 on the Discovery Channel. Interesting how an event like that affects so many pple's life around the world.

At around 6.30, i took a bath and went out to buy dinner and wax for my hair. Got all my stuff, head back home around 7.30pm when i met Wei Seng, just said a simple BYE to him...

So, i watched TV again. Came online but MSN doesn't seem to be working. So, blogging now...

Took some pics with my new hair style... Heh HeH! I look so CoOl... Hee~

I do hope darl is doing ok... You know, be calm about the test and all.

Oooo... Ting coming back soon, miss her a lot... Can't wait to see her soon.

Ooo... MAd and richard were pretty surprised bout my hair, their expressions were pretty funny. Mad kept telling me that he very 佩服我... And he just can't stop looking at my short hair... Very sad at that point... Hai... Heh HeH! Thanks for that anyways... Ha! Still, wad's important is that somebody pass his test. *CroSS fingeRS*

So, what exactly are we? 笑了， 到底是怎么一回事？告诉我好吗? 所有的话的意思... 我实在不了，一点儿也不了。应该停止吗？You confuse me... I am now half-asleep again because I just can't understand...

New hairstyle...

Well, this is how i break the news, my hair is now short... HA!!! Pretty shock ya? Me too... Woke up early in the morning, went to bedok with Darl where he began his test... Well, nothing much to elaborate on... It was just cold and chilly in the salon... And my hair was under his care... The picture above wasn't even the product he got in the 1st place, he made it like that later... My head was like a balloon initially... HAHA!!! Very retro u KnOW... HAHA!!! Then, after his test,went back to batok and he helped me do wadever necessary to the hair that i was left with... Anyway, he's pretty upset over his test so i kept trying to make him feel better in any ways i can...

Got to know one of his customer, aunty Jean... Very cute aunty... She's fun-loving.. They bought 4D and they were saying, if there strike it, they'll give me hongbaos... HAha!!! So FuNNy right?

Well, try to recognize me OK? With my new hairstyle, i doubt many can recognize me anymore... I think Ting will be shocked when she returns... HAHA!!!

Yesterday was a blasT! Great meal at Cafe Cartel with the BD boy and girl. Great Movie as well... LITTLE mAN! Laugh the freaking hell out of me... HA!!!

Really tired lah... Woke up so early, slept so late... Hai... Gonna concuss soon...

Love whatever because you made them...

Thursday, a great day...

Woke up at around 9plus today thinking i got work but then realise, nah, no work... Slept all the way till 1pm and got up. No appetite to eat the chicken rice papa bought coz he added those intestines which are so disguting. Stopped eating, changd up, went to HGV.

Reached school then realised that i'm playing? HA! I thought HM's "Play with me" means just purely playing instead it's going on court. They were having a match with the club pple. Find it pretty meaningless since the younger ones haven't really got their basics right but well, to brush up i supposed.

I felt like laughing when the coach was training them. Nah, it was just running and running and running which kind of tire them out. Well, doesn't matter. The whole time i was sweating under the big round sun. HahA! Ooo... And hearing terry TAn shouting upstairs that i'm extra.. HAHA!!! Played on for the 2nd game with my slipper and DAMN, it hurts... So i ran over to get a pair of shoes from one of the juniors... HAHA!!! Cute ar...

I think the Chi(which means aunty in malay) was a bit Too Lan with me coz i kept blocking her. After that game, i called it quits.

Well, overall, a fun day back in Sec school with the girls and am glad to see some improvement in them. Hope they'll get better and better. Details? Shall not elaborate. Hee~ Know more very cute girls but always make me goes, "Kids nowadays..." HA!!!

After everything, walked with HM and marianne to central where Marianne went off to WM while HM and i sat at S-11 pondering wad to makan. I decided to eat Prata then that weird uncle told me, "5 O'CloCk..." HAHA!!! I figured he was telling me that they will start selling prata and 5. In the end, HM and I ended up in WM's KFC sharing a set of 2piece chicken meal. Afterwhich, i got my eye-liner, we went to breadtalk walk around, then went to singtel to M1 to singtel again.. Looking at our desirable phones... HAHA!!! Then, she went to bank in cash with me then i go li xiao Darl a little then went off after my bus.

Reached home, took a great bath, sat for a while, went out to have my tooth filled. The clinic wasn't open till 6.30pm, and i gotta wait and wait and wait, so i went round to shop and SHop N SAve, spent around $13 there, now i understand y aunties always buy so many things there because when u get there, u'll start thinking wad your fridge doesn't have... HAHA!!! Went to wait for the clinic to open again. I actually sat outside their doorway not knowing their doors weren't locked... OmG! But the sign was "CloSe" HAHa!!! Anyway, waited and waited, finally can go in. Had the tooth filled, and there goes my $35... HAHA!!! Good lah, at least the hole ain't there, can eat properly... Hee~

Back home, i stoned in front of the TV till 9pm, a little hungry, took out snacks and munch all the way. HAhA!!! So sian ar my day... But then again, it is a great day coz at least i didn't get angry coz of someone else, i dun need to face pple with a fake smile and i dun have to worry bout making mistakes... HAHA!!! BeSt!

Oooo... I forgot to mention yesterday that, last night, while work was ending, Ziyang called me... he siao One LAh! Scare me, ask him who is he, and he said, "Your father LAH!" Dots... Anyway, his motive was to tell me that he's booking into NS on friday and he wanted to bid goodbye to me... A bit shocked, yet touched as well... At least he rmbed me lah... FRiEnd... That history was so FUNNY!!! HAHA!!!

Anyway, this is the day... Enjoying tml again... Probably going to Expo to find Yuting... Hee~

CiAo!

Tal Vez Tal Vez Tal Vez...

3 longs days...

Finally... I have the time to spare to blog... The pass 3 days were tiring, disastrous and most of all, irritating. HEH! Beside the negative comments, there were still some happiness that lurks within, with a teeny weeny bit of gossips... HAHA!!!

Let's start with Monday. Working at 12pm. 1st thing to do was to top up Ice water for 24 tables, it was a buffet lunch. K, so i was happily doing it, then started to clear 2 tables from previous bunch of pple, then Andy Tan was talking in this angry tone to Li Hui, so i was thinking y was he so fierce, so i said in a joking way, "Y u so fierce?!" Then he got pissed, "Y i so fierce, u all so slow, buffet starts at 12.30pm u know!" I got a bit shocked but i knew it was my fault. Guess wad? Everything was done way b4 guest arrival so no point getting work up at minor things. Then came Samuel Tan, WTF! So wad if he's the AM? Look at staff as human please... 1st time hearing him say something was, "If u all dun abide to our rules, then u can get out of here!" I glared at him for saying that because, u need us to work, for the very least, respect us as human beings. Then that day, he pin-pointed one goblet that was not top up, and he shouted, "XIAO MEI, WAD IS THIS?" And he looked straight at me... Hello, although i was the one pouring ice water but i wasn't the ONLY ONE pouring. Pple do make mistakes right? BUZZ OFF! When i hear him talking to Chris, it's like he knows everything and Chris dun, he is correct and Chris is not... For god sake, Chris is there longer than he is. Although he WAS a manager from somewhere else but he is only an AM here! So pissed off with this guy... No idea y Eric got this sort of brother... Eric is way TOO GOOD compared to HIM! BlEh!

That day, work ends at 9pm.

Tuesday morning, woke up feeling pretty tired. Went to work, same thing as Monday afternoon, top up ice water and all... Cleared up the room after the buffet. While the full-timers went for meeting, PT stayed on to complete their stuff. I got nothing to do coz nobody told me to. Then, Yusoff smsed me and asked me to skirt 7 oblong tables with brown skirting and 3 oblong table with Maroon skirting... I ji tAo went, "OMG! 10 oblong?!" HAHa!!! Anyhow, i began my journey to calm my soul... HAhA!!! At the end of the 7th oblong, my thumb and index finger hurt so much that they're sore... Good thing the other 3 maroon ones were done by Gao Lei. Those were in OB1.

After dinner, went back up, set U shaped from the 7th oblongs i skirt, done. Yusoff briefed to me wad to do for the upper half of OB2 b4 he left. I need to remove the joint U-shaped skirting coz most of the tablecloths were dirty. From there, i started another journey of calming my soul... Ha! After that, i arranged everything properly, put new writting pad, pens, goblet and mint sweet bowls. Done with U shape, on to coffee station. Set cocktail fork, saucer, cups and wiped teaspoonssss... Then, i did area cleaning...Fine... That was Ob2.

Went on to Ob3, Honey told me to set the VIP table, 12pax. Zheng Hong told me i have to wiped the cutleries myself, and wiped the glassplate myself too... I was really tired by then. And it was during that time that i realised i was the only girl around. Everything other place were really quiet... Wiped, polished and wadsoever, set the settings... And while setting, found out that i cut myself while looking for clean knives, and it hurts... After setting and all, i was about to die off. Honey told me to fold 15 bread basket napkins when this very weird thing happened. This Uncle who was vacuumming the floor came over and talk to me, so ok, casually i replied his simple qns, then he asked me my name, so i said, "Apple." He smiled and said his name is "Ali" and lift up his hand to shake mine... I was like laughing lah... Y this uncle so funny, but found it weird and there was really nobody around le, so i quickly finish folding and went to the office when Honey asked me to go change, relieved... That was Ob3.

See, throughout the whole day, i walked like siao char bo from ob1 to ob2 to ob3, from foyer to backarea, from kitchen to stewarding, from B1 to level 2 to level 3. Freaking tired i tell you... All that was in me was drained and i was the only girl around... GoSh...

Early Wed morning, Yusoff called me... I can't elaborate the story here but the thing blew up... The lost of the stack of papers in Ob2 which i set made everybody from banquet to sales go HU-HA! I think the whole banquet team was admonished for that and I think i got famous, for the wrong reason.. Anyway, i feel really sorry to Yusoff and Zheng Hong...

Thought i can go off early today but in the end, they choose to release pple who start work at 5pm instead of me, who started at 11am. Even Dear was let off early. I was struggling on level2, folding napkins, helping Aunty Santy, Felicia and Zheng Hong turn over level2 which i didn't help much and then with food tasting. By 10.30pm, i was feeling tired... Yawning started... 11.10pm, finally can go le... Changed up, went to front office, took my pay. Wanted to go home but went with Xueni and all for Supper...

Reached home, bathed... Now, i'm about to concussed le... No MORE WORK FROM TML TILL SUNDAY!!! SO HAPPY!!!

Kk... Will be going to HGV tml... HAhA!!! HapPY!!!

Concussed... CiAo!!!

I smiled for you...

Ob1, Ob2, Ob3...

I worked in ob1, ob2 and ob3 starting from 12pm onwards all the way till 12am... Incredible the way i was switched from place to place without my realising until Honey told me bout it...

HA! Speaking of Honey, something really funny yet awkward happened! Couldn't help but laugh when i recall... HAHa!!! Shall review it another day...

Really tired after another 12hours of work... I seem to be spending more time at OHS again.... Back to b4? Nah... Forget bout it...

Look forward to thurs, coz i can rest and go back to HGV... MuhAhA!!!

Wanna sleep Lah... NiGHt!!! 11am tmL!

HAha!

So tired... Started work at 12pm... Damn pissed today bout every single things that happened... Dun feel like writing anything bout it...

Talking to Dear now...

SiAn... Dun wanna blog le...

A day for nothing but relaxation...

Heh heH!!! Had a great sleep last night but i did woke up a few times... Ate my lunch then went out to meet Cindy...

Wanted to watch Monster house with her but the time not fixed. Also, due to Darl lor...

After his work, forced him to watch movie with us but we watched frostbitten... The ending of the movie sux and it's not english.... GoSh... Darl went off in the middle probably got a date or something.

Well, after the movie, cindy and i walked around to see some shoes... I wanna get black shoes for work... Dun wanna wear cock shoes le, hurting my feet a lot... Should take some time out to shop for one... Then, bought breads and left WM...

Dying from all these passion crisis... How i wish things can just stop at the moment that i want it to... How i wish i can have wad i want and live the way i want. It's so dumb to torture myself like that. Can't i just be someone who is daring enough for everything? Hai... If only i've known u earlier or perhaps never even know you. SO SICKENING! ME!

I have the urge to lay by your side, to feel you once again. However, the more irresistable you are to me, the further I sprung away from you... I just want to know you once more, to never find that answer at all. You aren't as perfect as I thought but that imperfection attracted me to you, unsuspiciously and quietly... 如果说失去的再也找不回，不如让我永远没遇上你... 事实的转变让我措手不及， 但也让我无法自拔。或许你说的没错， 我已被推入烦恼的深渊。

第一次的相遇，是偶然
第二次的遇见，是巧合
第三次的邂逅， 是爱情
那我们是什么？

Good NiGht...

EaRned!

O Great, i can blog!!!! Gosh... After 2 days of long working hours, i was in a state of a walking zombie with little emotions... It was a good thing i was worked 6pm on friday. I had a good sleep but still woke up feeling pretty tired. After slacking a little, i went to Aiai's place to see my GoD-son, Jeddy... OMg... He is SO So CuTe... Small and adorable... But aiai was telling me that he is very naughty... HA! So i concluded, "Boys will be boys" even though Jeddy is a DoGgy... Anyway, didn't get anything for him coz i was too busy to even Shop... Should find some time to get something for the little one. Hee~

Work on Friday was alright. There were 3 VIP tables, with Dear, Elsie and I working togther.... GoSh(You know wad i mean...) Well, the event went on as usual, nothing special... I was wondering am i getting old, coz my feet hurts a lot when i stood for so long or due to the fact that i've worked for 3 days and so the feet hurts... Maybe i'm getting a bit old somehow.. Hai... So Sad...

Went to eat supper with Dear after that coz she didn't have her dinner that night. Went back to hotel to return Felicia's penknife, if not she'll start grumbling again. Terry asked us to go Newton eat but too bad, we had our supper. So we left the hotel and went our separate ways... I could bearly open my eyes by then... HAHA!!! The whole journey was like a dream to me, half-asleep. Reached home, prepared the stuff for the next day's work... Gosh... Concussed at 2am...

Woke up at 6am, took a bath and went out again... Can u imagine? Gosh... Met up with Val at City Hall and then to Swissotel, The patara. Very pissed, bought the white shirt and yet they reject it... DaMN ANGRY! $29 leh... GoSh... Anyway, 9am work started. Funny how this company works, fancy wiping wine glasses without water, not to say hot water... I was like using all my strength to remove those stains... Cannot make it... Still, they were dirty but they just used it. HA! Wadever! Work was fine except pple kept swarming in through the pathetic door... Gosh... Ermm... The IC was Jason, he somehow remind me of somebody who i just can't remember... BUt he sounds very pervert... HAHA!!! But he's actually a nice guy... HAHA!!!

Work ends at bout 4 but that JAson talked so much until 5plus... GoSh... Walked from the supreme court all the way to National musuem, wah LAo, i feel like killing pple lah... It was a good thing that i brought clothes to change... HAHA!!! Learnt from my previous lesson. Reached National Museum, took pay and left. Val and I were struggling to get to Dohby Ghuat, dunno the way to it, in the end, we took a cab there... Waste money... U know how messy is the Dohby Ghaut MRT? Wah LAo... I was looking for signboards here and there... OMG! Finally found the correct platform.. Damn working hours, i couldn't find a seat lah, my legs were killing me on the train from there to batok... Like freaking tired lah...

Went to Westmall to get a few unimportant things... MAke-up remover... HAHA!!! O ya, i bought perfume LE!!! Hee~ It's Escada, $30plus... Ok lah... Then went to deposit cash and straight away go home...

After bathing and all, i concussed on my bed at 7pm... Until 10pm... HAHA!! Now, i'm awake... Can rest tml... HAHA!!!

Wed: $84
Thurs: $51
Fri: $30
Sat: $70
Total earned: $235

HAHA!!! Recouped everything i spent the other day... But i did spent on some stuff as well lah...

Perfume: $30plus
Food: $20plus over the pass 4 days

About so lah.. HAHA!!!! So Happy but so tired... Really need to have plenty of rest b4 the next war begins... On Monday.

Next Week...
Mon: 12pm
Tues: 12pm
Wed: 10am
Thurs: Netball 2pm
Fri: Rest
Sat: BD outing
Sun: Hair makeover

See... My whole week is PACKED!!!! Except for Friday... GoSh... Wad a HolIday!

Ermm... Maybe this is the best way for everything to settle down. I'm focusing more on working to keep myself always occupied from everything. I can barely open my eyes in the night when i'm fast asleep, neither do i have the time in the day to think of anything. Isn't it better this way? I guess this is how i can forget about it easily, rather than brooding over it every night... WAHAHA!!! Soon, u'll find me again...

Forgetting is never easy, forgiving ain't hard but forgoing everything is difficult because our hearts can never be torn apart... Yes, that is how the game of life, the game of love is played, dare to bet and one day, you'll find that everything will be all worthwhile... *In ThE MiDst Of My ChoAtiC mOmEntS*

你是否还会如此想我？是否还拥有当初的思念？是否依然守着对我的承诺？又或者当初的承诺是虚伪的？我想我再也找不到答案了... ：） I'm still me from before, but had grown up a little bit more...

Absolutely Drained...

GOSh... Cannot believe I actually worked 14hours... OMG! 11am all the way to 1.30am... HAHA!!! Feel like a super woman all of a sudden... My feet are hurting non-stop...

Teachers' Day lunch, dinner yesterday was cool. Lunch was OUR HGV!!! HAHA!!! Saw all the teachers and felt great being able to serve them, wasn't that one of the best gift ever? To serve them like they served us as their students. Really delighted to see all the old teachers... THANKS TEACHERS! HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

Night's dinner was Yang Zheng Pri School... Quite boring among the 6 events going on last night... HA! I was serving them... So Fun doing VIP with a new girl... HeH hEh!!

Stayed on for OT.... Wah KAo! I feel like killing the stewarding pple... Every throw there, wanna find Dinner fork, spoon, teaspoon, dessert fork, was like digging a gold mine without gold... My fingers hurt from all the digging... CrAp... After finding, went to clear all the silveries, bowls and plates... The trolley was so so heavy, Dear and had such a hard time pulling and pushing, but when terry came, he only need to pull the trolley and the trolley MOVEs! OMG! I was so stunned so i concluded, HE IS VERY FIT!

Got home and fell dead on my bed after bathing...

This morning, woke up and went to work again... Feel like fainting... Then the damn 174 took so long to come and it was full of pple... Ass... So slow... Reached hotel, changed, went up to work.

Eric Tan saw me, and he said, "Apple, u, with me" HAHA!!! So Funny... So we were doing muslim lunch with Guest-of-honour, Minister of Home Affairs, Ko Peng Kee, if i'm not wrong... Dear made a mistake which she trembled over... HAHA!!! SO funny....

After that, it was clearing, clearing, setting, pushing chairs, putting covers and walking like nobody's business... So TiRed... I was so hungry U know... I kept grumbling bout it... Hee~

After work, cannot tahan, went to eat at orchard tower...

At home now... Feel like concussing... Ya... Gonna sleep early today so tml have more energy. Working 6pm tmL! WahAHAhAA!!! I'm gonna go bonkers soon...

Everybody going overseas le... yuting went to Hong KOng... Xueting went to Vietnam... SiAn... I'm still in Spore, my beautiful HOME!!! HAHAHA!!!

Ooo... BTW, our A1's ChAlet iS CONFIRMED on the dates 28th, 29th, 30th, Costa Sands Pasir Ris... Pass the MSg ON to all A1 pALS!!!

K... Wanna SaY BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is my way of forgetting you... Slowly, everything will be over...