Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Sick and tired of trying...

I'm sick and tired of trying to make my family feels right... I'm sick of hearing quarrels everyday b4 i sleep. I sick of my mother's nagging... I'm sick of my father's drinking... I'm sick of my brothers' luxury... i'm sick of them... Sometimes, i dunno y, yes, maybe i'm the youngest and they care for me most but caring and overprotecting are 2 utterly different things... I hate it when my ma tries to tell me that everything i do is wrong. She just wanna find fault in wadever i do. Y must i be the one keeping the laundry when i wear the least clothes? Y am i the one when they used to go to school they dun? Y must i be obligated to be there when they are not? WHY?! I am jealous of them being able to be wad they are and still gets praises, i'm sick of being the best in all else except for theirs... I HATE being in this environment... Should i just give up?! I really want to... I really do... I am drained... There's more problems, but i think these are enough for blog...

Hai... I met up with the very sick Xueting today... I dunno bout her, i just want a company... Someone to pei me for a while... I know she dunnoe that but that's wad i'm looking for. Though i didn't say anything... I dun usually say anything lah... I dun feel like saying anything either. I just want someone to be by my side. SHe happened to be the one, the very sick one.

I'm tired of going on this way... Been trying to stay up and feel alright, to go out as usual and to laugh like i always do. Like i felt b4, i haven't been smiling like i used to... I lost the ability to smile. Many pple try to make me smile but i just can't. Not even Eddie... Eddie stepping into my life is almost a miracle, coz i never thought he would and i would accept his entrance. Probably i was moved by his touches... He's unlike Desmond, Billy, Firdaus and Rusdi... Different... I found something in him that i wanna know more... However, the last few days had been tough to get by. I tried my best to help my sister through hers, now that it's over, i am relieved. Well, poly life ain't that fun at all... Even though it made me cherish my old friends more, it brought us apart too...

Too many scandals in my life... I wanna stop it... I have pple coming up to me to tell me that they wanna find the answer with me when i barely talk to them more than 5 times... Y? Do i look so wanna be loved or am i that charming? Please... I am not... I feel so disgusted by these pple... Such craps...

Can i just lay low once more and shut up everything in my life except for studies, myself, my pals and him?! It's such a selfish thought...

Thanks for coming into my life but I'm not sure is this the right time...

Monday, May 29, 2006

SiCkening...

I doubt i'll ever have the time to blog in details again. Everyday seem so busy and tiring... Occuppied by all aspects of my life... goSH...

Anyway, i was out all day from friday to Sunday... I a bit cannot tahan liao...

Today, went to go k-ing with my Ai AI... HAHA!!! And we sang our lungs out. Then, took lots of pics... Was very busy with my phone today... HAHA!!! My AiAi and I act very Ai Mei in K box lor... HAHA!!! Will post up some pics for u to view a little.

Anyway, Ting went to cut her hair just now... Very funny. After she called me, Eddie smsed me... Can see he's helping me to cheer her up. I So So happy to know that sister is off the hook and life would be much easier without another jerk in her life... HAi... Felt so cheated by somebody i dun like... HAi...

Went to Vk to went for Eddie. During so, was talking to sister. Then, went on for our dinner... Then, he's tired, sister is tired, so am i... Hai... So, go home...

Reached home and i a bit gong now le... Need to do my stuff b4 sleeping... Hai...

I still got project not done... SiCkening... Lots of stuff to Do... ARgH!!!! Going CRAZy!!!!

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Some Pics...

1st time pinning my hair up in OHS... GoLD VIP uniform...
3 oHs LadiEs...
My dear Acting cute lEh...

Today is...

Last night at work wasn't that pleasant, lots of scoldings being thrown around. Well, part of working i supposed. I was pretty pissed off with all the new staff lah... Seriously, they cannot make it... Lost HopE le... Hai... Stayed on for OT, dear and me kind of went bizzare after that lah.. We were totally making a fool out of ourselves... And we splashed Sprite on Sean simultaneously... HAHA!!! Sean was all soaked with SPriTe!!! HAHA!!! So FunNy... Anyway, i was really tired after the whole thing... Working has become an energy-taking job, it used to come from the heart.

O ya, while waiting for bus to work... Sickening jennifer hit my butt... HA! Going K tml with her... WhaHAHA!!!

Reached home at around 3.30am... After bathing and all, i fell dead on my bed till 12plus next morning. Woke up with Yuting's sms... Then, with Eddie's... So, i woke up and started doing my OCOM speech which i didn't do coz i went to work. Had lots of problem sending it out to Mrs Lim... Anyway, i did it just now so doesn't matter le...

After that, finally sat down and ate my cold lunch... Watching TV at the same time. Then eddie smsed... So i went to bath and OuT... I'm the COOl GiRl todaY wor... HAHA!! Went to walk around Orchard and everywhere near there... Tell u all something, i bought a sweater, converse sweater... It's half a hundred dollars, wad i earned yesterday was all gone... Hai... So Sad... But i bought it, it was the last piece at Heeren but i still take it coz if i dun, i will nv go buy it again... That's So ApPLe!!!

I'm the one spending today lor... HAHA!!! I treated Eddie for a meal coz i owe him a lot of meals and then i bought the sweater. He didn't buy anything, except for his comic... HAhA!!! So cuTe right?! But he did spend on parking and all.. Hee~

Hai... In the midst of everything, Xueting called me now and again to tell me some of her stuff... It kind of hurts to see her like that, without knowing wad to do... Hai... ConFusing ThiNg... Well, i guess Eric is right, "If u wanna play, make sure u can afford to play..." True... True... Doesn't matter, i still love my sister... 我会永远支持你的。

Well, overall the day has been good. Nothing else to say le...

I heard you today and I am touched by your words...

Friday, May 26, 2006

LoVe ToDay!!!

Couldn't wake up this morning, so i didn't bath, straight away rushed to school. In the bus, i couldn't open my eyes lor... Totally closing le... Bought a cup of Coffee when i got to school...

I think today was ok bah... I had quite a fulfilling day. I could understand most of the P&C Lecture and i paid more attention than usual during OCOm and understood wad Mathew Pon said during tutorial. Better than the last few, when i'm totally puzzled... Hee~

Was caught in the library by Justin and was pretty much forced to do a film for his friends bout social physcology... HA! Anyway, was pretty choatic lah... Heh hEh!!!

Then, i stayed in the library and blog... HEh HeH... And talk to my Dear on MSN...

O ya, the whole day, i only had sandwich for meal then Chicken rice for dinner... HAhA!!! Went to Wendongji and patronize my lao ma... Wah lao, like Zoo like that. Everyone staring at me... "Wah, look alike leh.." I'm like, i wanna eat lor... Heh HeH... Just wanna help my ma a bit lah... LoVe My LAo Ma ok?! Although she's naggy... HAHA!!!

Went to Mac with Yuting to use wireless again... Si bei tired after that. Decided not to wait for Eddie, went back home. After bathing, still went to meet him lah... So HaiYo.. Had a great night out.

Overall, i had a really great day today... Comparing to my exhausted self yesterday, it's great... Love today!!! 25/05/06

SW tml... NEtBAll NetbaLL NetBAlL!!!

I see you guiding my way...

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

LAlALA

Sometimes, i find going to school to be such an exhausting task. Somehow, i can't find a good reason for me to be in school besides learning. Used to go to school, tired, but always had fun... Now, kind of boring... Everyone kept asking, "How are you?", my reply, "Good"... Seriously, it's "not that good" but i dun really want to say it out bah... A way to keep myself going...

I'm kind of getting tired of entertaining pple nowadays... Feel like i'm closing up again. However, still active outside school. I love the feeling of seeing juniors everywhere in Batok and saying Hi Hi everywhere... Love that kind of feeling... That's where i truely belong but then again, life has to go on... I'm growing up everyday... Just a phase of my life that i have to get used to...

After BSTA tutorial yesterday, i went to WM to find the baking cookies stuff, still cannot find lor... A bit fed up with it lah... K, maybe i'll go Cold storage and take a look later... Hai... Went home, and slept till 5pm... Really damn tired, dunnoe for wad reason... Anyway, there was no dream in the sleep which i kind of wanna lah... But well, dreamless sleep is the most comfortable. I woke up and felt like i've slept the whole day... Heh heH

Went out at bout 5.30pm and met up with sister... Then we talked a little... Well, nothing much to post. Around 7pm, she left and i began focusing on MIEC work... Geez... Cracked my brain so hard and i finally completed the 6 long qns excluding qn 3 though, coz i really dun understand wad is it talking bout. While doing, Jun Chen gave me a missed call, i thought he pressed wrongly, coz its weird for him to call me lah, then suddenly i heard somebody calling, "Apple.." So i turned around and ermm... JUNCHEN!!! Heh HEH! Then saw his claimed-to-be-like-Melissa girlfriend... HAHA!!! Lao... My dear very pretty k, where got look like...

Took me around an hour and a half to complete everything, just right for Eddie to come by. Anyway, i on my lappy and started to put my presentation for MIEC into slides when Jennifer came asking and asking... HA!!! I so refuse to tell... She said she got the Chong Dong to go into VK to find Eddie... HAHA!!! IF she did, dunnoe wad will happen le... HAHA!!! Anyway girl, dun think so much lah, focus on ur studies and ur Ee instead of me and my so called, "bf" k... HAHA!!!

I got kind of tired after that. At bout 10plus, Joan smsed me and asked me whether are we still doing our MIEC... HA... Nearly forgot, so went back and faster logged on to net and send wad i have to them. After a little bit of chit-chatting here and there, everything was settled.

Ermm... Then, after some talkings on the phone, i went to bed le... Fell asleep after some tossing and turning...

Couldn't wake up this morning... Hai... I still got a really long day in school b4 everything ends... Couldn't join my juniors for training today coz of my classes... Wad a pity lor... So wanna join them.... Forget it lah... HAi...

I really need some nice sleeps lor... Been really tired last few days...

Looking forward to tml's SW, back to OHS, and probably Saturday's shopping... Gosh... Need to plan my time more le, CT coming really soon lor...

Darling says my eyebag getting worse lor... Hai... Need to sleep!!!

Haven't felt the way I feel for a long time... It's nice to have you around... 似乎找到了失去的自我...
After chatting up with Dear and Darling, i packed up my stuff and went to bed. Of coz, didn't went into my sleep smoothly, my nose was blocked again... So, i had a little bit of struggle b4 i fell asleep. After falling asleep, Christopher Honey called... I thought he got something to tell me so he called so late, then he asked me who is Ken and then, "A, Who r u?" "Apple" "HUh?! How come i call u? I thought u Jessica?!" I'm like, "Go to hell lah, Bye bYe!!" Then fell asleep...

Early in the morning, Yuting called, and i a bit bad lah, can't really hear her coz i'm really sleepy so i tried to answer correctly then hung up.. Hee~

Went to school after some messed-up moments and i still felt really sick... So, discussed the CIp project with the girls and we are tasked with individual work now.. HA! Nice one..

After that, went to CIP lecture and learn Dreamweaver, and i was really having a headache then plus the lecturers High-picted, screeching Voice, i ji tao pain till finish... Buay tAhan...

Anyway, after that, i went home straight... Really feel my head spinning... Didn't even bother to walk too much.. Ji tao sit, stand, rest, board bus... HAHA!!! Back home, charged my Lappy and went to nap for 1 and a half hour... HA!

Woke up, prepared and went out to meet Dear and her friend... Yuting later joined us too... Was concentrating on my BSTA work which i'm pretty confuse lah.... Then, Eddie came while Sa and Yuting left to buy their stuff... Sat there, finished my work and chatted with Eddie till 10plus...

Jennifer was asking me bout Eddie... HAhA!!! I said i wun tell anyone until the time is right lor, so no use asking me... HAhA!!! Just read my blog to see the outcome... HAHA!!! I'm so CuTe...

Ha! k, i need to go finish my Classwork for tml... Night pple...

CiAO!

Despite the fact that the barrier exists, my heart still drifts to you... Set adrift on memory bliss...

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Long Long Long BlOG....

Went back to Orchard Hotel on Saturday... It was such a tedious day back at work though wad i did was pretty easy but then again, seems like i'm the only one doing it.

First off, i was late for work for some reasons, when i reached, nothing was going on coz guests haven't arrive and all, and everything were prepared. So, Aunty Santy asked me to top up the sugars... Ya, so while doing that i heard Wee Loon reprimanded Aunty Santy for something but i didn't say much. Then, Wee Loon noticed me and i knew that from that point on, i'm in trouble. Coz he likes ol staff too much. True enough, my name was called the whole day through as long as he's around...

So, i started to prepare the geradon(still dunnoe how to spell), and the stewarding is still the same i guess, kind of messy though. I can't find enough Saucer lor, needed only 78... Hai... Anyway, one of the stewarding lady very funny, she dun let me take procelain spoon, but i didn't do muc reasoning with her lah, afterall, she really needs them for the blue box 1st. K, so i went on to table setting. Wah... So long never go back and things change so much. All the double-happiness show plates were DIRTY!!! And i mean, DIRY!!!! It's like pple getting lazier nowadays. So, i took out 20 pieces and decided to wipe it myself later. Such disappointment. And they dare to say the showplate is $69+++... Gosh... Sweated like mad as usual in stewarding... HAi...

K, during the turnover, the same thing happened, "APple, Wine glass..." "Apple, table setting..." "Apple, suzanne..." "Apple, Number plate.." "Apple, wad u doing?!" I'm like, "Yes Loon?" "Wad TiAn CheNg?" "No, Christoper said..." "Roy asked me to..." So, my head was pretty much spinning all the way lah... And pple try so hard to find faults in wad i do... Like Dear told me aunty santy said the saucer and side plate i got, have stains but hello, out of the 70plus saucer i took, only one she found stain. Out of the 140plus side plates i got, only a few are stained. I wanna stress to everyone, that NOTHING IS PERFECT!!!! So dun expect everything to be spick and span... GoSh... Doesn't matter anyway.

After meticulously putting the huge wine glasses on the 2 VIP tables, was told to gather. I was kind of looking for Melissa, frantically and at the same time, she was doing so too... Then we both realised that we're only one person away.... HAHA!!! And kind of laughed bout it... Afterwhich, everyone were listening to Loon's reprimanding and some briefing bout 3-pt system and all... By then, i was really tired and hungry. Btw, i forgot to mention, I ushered for more than 3hours!!!!!!!! And during that time, i stood there selling smiles to all potential future teachers... Hai... At that time, the pianst came out to play the piano... Good ambience ar, even when i'm ushering... Tell u, an Ang moh took a snap shot of me ushering... I'm like wad??? I didn't realised he was talking my pic until after the flash... A bit stunned but well, he's a tourist so doesn't matter, it's not like i'm naked or wad... Hee~

Anyway, stood there selling smiles for more than 3hours when Miss Wong came over and asked y am i still ushering, i'm like, "Nobody ask me to go up leh..." Then she said, "Usher for wad? The time already over le..." So i think she called Loon or someone and told them that they asked me to go up... HAhA!!! So funny, 1st time user need Miss Wong to ask to go up instead of going down... HAHA!!! O ya, speaking of ushering, i saw Mr Brandt, i saw him went up the escalator and then down. Afterwhich, he went up the lift. Suddenly, he walked pass me with casual clothes... HAHA!!! And he gave me his really wide smile like he always does... Love this GM so much... HAHA!!!

After i went up, coffee break started and all the black jackets, including Lau were like, "Look out for pple who TA BAo..." For pple who dunnoe, it is a hotel policy that guests cannot take-away food, for coffee break and Buffet... They kind of caught pple attending this similiar seminar taking away food so all are reall cautious bout it.

Was told to do area cleaning while the guys were doing the heavy turn-over... Then, was told to set up the 2VIP tables... Wah Lao.. I am really disappointed with the new blood lah... K, at 1st when Chris asked me to do the above 2 stuff with a girl who i dunnoe, i was determined to teach her new things... But, forget bout it lor, she really slack lah... I thought i was slow enough le, didn't know she's even slower... HAi...
Disappointed...

Then, after all the choatic setting up and all. Was told to do VIP table with Dear, Apple (Happen to have a new APPLE in OHS) and myself. So ya, was really happy to work with Dear coz we always had fun working together and able to crack some jobs all the way till job ends, so it's always great to work with Dear... As for the new Apple, new VIP server up for the 2 of us to train... HAHA!!! So weird and i immediately thought of Carolyn but comparing both, Carolyn is more hardworking lah... But on other aspects, dun say le... U know wad i mean...

K, Jessica they all got not enough nametag and wants to lend mine and i had to use this name tag from one of Indian lady from stewarding... Please lor and the whole night they are like, "LACHIME, dun break my glass..." And Lachime here and there... Wah lao, i'm doing them a favour ok... That's wad i get for helping?! Jessica, u win liao... HAHA!!! Kidding...

O ya, i fell down in the Kitchen lor!!! It's like so funny!!! The chef wad like,"VIP PICK UP" So i kind of rushed a little then i slipped and fell... Sickening... And the kitchen of Chefs and the stewarding staff saw it lor... I stood up and laugh laugh laugh... So paiseh... My butt kind of hurt coz of it lah... Good thing i didn't sprain my wrist... HEE~

Well, the night went by pretty ok... Nothing exciting happened.

There's a VIP event coming up on the 1st of June, which is the opening of some St Regis showroom and OHS is tasked to serve the pple outside catering, and i think Mr Quek will be going... And they kept asking and asking and asking, i'm like, "i got tutorial lor... If i rush, i can only reach by 6pm lor.." It's obvious that they really need staff but too bad... I did agree to reach by 6pm but dun really know they need or not. O ya, btw, St Regis is the upcoming new hotel in Orchard... The lengend of hospitality. Another boast for the tourism industry... Hee~

So, i guess everything back at the hotel is pretty good lah... But the staff kind of degraded a little, doesn't matter, i'm sure they'll train them up (Looking on the bright side)... HAHA!!! Still love the pple there and still enjoy working as a banquet waitress...

K, after work, Dear, Xueni, Xin Yee and I went for supper, FISH&CHIPS!!!! K, doesn't taste like it was b4... HA! Anyway, just wanna go visit Orchard Tower a bit coz that's like our only hangout for supper after work... Hee~ After eating, Dear and i went to take 174M... K, and we walked the very scary path back to my house at 1plus am.... Kind of scary...

So, we chatted from anything to everything until 4.30am... HA! Too tired, we slept... Hee~ Kind of squeezy on my same bed but did slept lah... Next morning, Sa woke up earlier than i did and after brushing up, we chatted for a bit more and went out for breakfast... Can u believe how much we have to say to each other??? SO MUCH... Never get tired of it... HA!!! Love HEr... My Dear Leh...

Anyway, she left after that, and went to work again... Haiyo... Must be really tired lah... Poor her...

I went home and started doing my photo assignment and completed it. Afterwhich, I started arranging some of the stuff in my new lappy and did a wallpaper of my own... Love it... Wanna add Eddie's pic in as well...

Later, i went to bed, to rest... I can bearly move my butt lor... So tired from everything... Hee~ After that, got up and bath and stroll out of my house... Wondered around central waiting for him. Suddenly rmbed my sister, so i sent her a msg, she got a little shock and called me... Hee~ Kind of a funny reaction from her, so we talked a little and all... Ya, then Eddie called... So i walked towards the shoP. I saw Richard and he's like, "A, he just left leh, i think there lah..." Then i said, "Thanks, Love U!" HAHA!!! I didn't notice he kept saying something to Suan Eddie and me lah, coz i was on the phone... Hee~ So, anyway, went off on his car... TO JP!!!

Haven't been there for a long time le... It's nice shopping around. Had delifrance for dinner and i was so disappointed with the pasta... K, the breads are great not the pasta... I condemned it lah... HAHA!!! So, Eddie was telling me all those cold jokes that he and his customers were saying... K, very lame... And i shivered all the way... HAHA!!!

Then, we went on to shop shop... He was looking at some watches, which wah lao, so EX lor... Then we went to Levis shop and he was looking at the shirts... I was like swinging from side to side trying to find something that'll interest me since Levis is pretty much out of reach for me... Then, he kept insisting i tried on the clothes that he chose... Ok, i entertain him but none of those are to my likings, i just wear for him lah... EnTertaIn u see... Heh HeH! Then he bought me a 501 skirt and a long sleeve, V-cut shirt... Imagine Levis... How Much? I can't... ANyway, really wanna thank him lah... My very EX bD present... It's really the thoughts lah.. ThanKs EddIE Darling!!! HAHA

K, back home, started doing up my notes and stuff for today... Slept at bout 1am... Started to feel very sick... My nose was blocked lor...

Anyway, met up with Yuting and went for dinner with her though we did shop around and i bought my new lappy case... Then, chatted up with Yuting and then left... Sister called saying she wants to chat up... So, ok, met up and and heard her vexing words... I really felt for her but can't do much... HAi... Left feeling down for her... Love, wad a marvellous word...

Anyway, i came home, bathed, and sat there like a pig...

Finally, i finished this very long blog...

Love U pple... Miss U...

I miss you...

Saturday, May 20, 2006

MArvellous Friday!!! LOVE IT!!!

A very long Friday for me. Not in School but outside school.

Well, SW today was better than the 1st... At least did ball handling which is kind of basic but well, i can't force them to do something difficult with me. Wah, the PUVA correct me leh... Please, i got my reason for trying balls like that, it's correct, u can't blame me when they are new and can't catch my balls, i already threw it real soft le but well, doesn't matter lah, i wasn't in the mood to argur anyway. She asked us to run with our hands in front, like all the time, i'm like, "who plays netball like that?" K, probably she forgot i told her i'm from netball b4. Anyways, i was having a bad stomach pain, i couldn't really do well, so just let it be. It ended 1/4 b4 10am. So jieping and i rushed to CATS. Gotta know more pple, Aaron, Wen Qi and Xi Yao... Very difficult to rmb their names... HAHA!!! Well, they're in my team. Actually, i dun exactly know wad are we suppose to do lah.

K, so after CATS, i immediately start to find staff for Lawrence coz i put his aeroplane but i'm good enough to find replacement. However, i only got 2 lah. So, location and stuff was discussed. Finally, my lappy is here!!! The uncle very good lor, he didn't give me those pissed off face and chit chatted with me a little. Nice uncle, then he complaint that he got a lot more orders to go. Kind of wasted some of my time lah but nvm, he just wanna complain a bit. I was happy enough to get my lappy. The uncle got no plastic bag lor, i literaly dragged the laptop bag out of school. Hai... Waste money then the Cab uncle si bei Dao lor... So angry...

K, kind of delayed my time a little. Back home, faster fix up the lappy, charged it and quickly left to meet Hui Mui... Met up, and she gave me a present that the girls got for me... I was surprised and overjoyed. Like, hello, they rmbed my BD and they rmb me... HAHA!!! We had our lunch at KFC and talked about the different things that are going on and crapped a bit. Hui Mui asked me something which i'm quite bothered about lah, "U got bf is it?" Heh HeH! And i told her it's a secret and when i got bf, i'll report to her at once... HAHA!!! K, will review the fact another time...

Went back to school with her and visited Miss TEO!!! Finally i saw her and i said to her, "I MISS U!" And she came over and gave me a hug... So cute... Truth is, really miss her lah, in fact, i'm missing the whole school. So, sat down and she treated me with fruits which i didn't want in the 1st place coz i was too full but she insisted lah, so i ate it. Then, we kind of complained to each other bout our lives now... HAHA!!! Weird to see me sitting there talking to a teacher. Then, i met Miss Chong, talked a little to her only coz nothing much to say... HEH HEH!!! Then, i wanted to leave le, but well, stayed around and talked to HM and see their D&T thingy. Met Miss Lim and talked to her a bit. She wanted me to bring back my folio and artefact, but heh heh, reluctant to and she doesn't have the key so i say forget it, take it another time.

Yuting smsed me and said she reached WM le so i quick-step to WM. K, when i decided to watch movie, i already decided to go home late and also not going to pray with ma, so i called ma and told her, she kind of nagged at me with her little voice lah... HAHA!!! Used to it. So, sat down at one of the sits at WM and talked to Yuting... Chit Chatted for quite a while until she decided to go eat Chicken Rice.

5pm, MI3... HAHA!!! K, the movie is awesome, go catch it! But i was freezing in the cineman. Imagine me wearing a tee and fbt pants... totally freezing in there lor! Cannot take it... After the movie end, i ran out of the cinema... KAo...

So Yuting and I went to 7-11 buy alcohol... HAHA!!! K, bad of us but i'm officially 18 k... Of coz we didn't buy those with high alc level. But we still turned red and all.. Started to mumble craps. She wanted to see Eddie so she waited with me. We went up, and I talked bout rebonding and Eddie said she needs half rebond only. k, 2 of us a bit dizzy lah, both of us very red... HAHA!!! I pei Yuting go take bus but without pei-ing her, her bus already come so she run while i went back up. Erm.... Richard was there... HAHA!!! And talked a little here and there... K, it was a bit embarassing lah... Coz a bit of speculation huh... HAHA!!!

K, u guys stop speculating le, i wun say anything either, just wait and see bAh...

Love today coz i did so many things that i want especially going back to HGV and talking to Miss Teo, she's such an inspiration.. LOVE HER!!!

Fulfilling my dreams... Will u guide me along?

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Tiring day in school...

OCOM presentation weren't as bad as i thought lah. I was able to deliever everything well, with a little bit or stammering but without any, "ar... Ermm..." Hee~ Not bad leh... Despite the unpreparing, we receive some praises, and i'm pretty happy bout it. So, awaiting the official thing to come, but b4 that, need to touch up everything and make my speech longer... HeH hEh

I was very tired today coz didn't have an early night yesterday coz i was rushing the OCOm thingy so, ended up sleeping at aroung 1plus, and couldn't get up in the morning, and i was late lor... But well, doesn't matter bah, it's bout 5min late... HAHA!!!

Anyway, went to school with Xueting, happened to see her in the interchange, and we talked bout some stuff... Then went separate ways.

Received news that my Lappy can only be sold for $200... Coz of the damn vertical line on the screen... Dunno wad the hell is that but wad to do? No choice, gotta give up. Wah lao, this Mel uncle very weird de leh, i told him i'm in class, cannot talk to him, he kept calling... Lao... So noisy... HAhA!!! Anyway, i'm anticipating my New lappy next week.. SO HAPPY!!!!

The day ended with ITR tutorial... I was almost dead at that point of time... And i survived the day without a sip of Coffee... Wah... And my eyes were hurting a lot... The eye-liner sort of faded away coz of all my tears, not crying, coz too tired u see...

Interesting where my life is going... I find it kind of weird to walk this path but i never did regret taking it. Sometimes, i can't get used to it but then, i looked around, i should be happy that i'm blessed with wad i have. Maybe i need something more to spice it more but then, it's fine the way it is without spices. However, i do missed some of the old days when all the old pals come together and do rubbish together...

Saw hun today, he called me, and i was so happy to see him... Then, met Xiao Qiang, Zhi and Ming, and i had a great few minutes with them. I guess i'm missing them too much... It's great to see old friends in school, the feeling cannot be described... I miss them a lot, i miss the old days in 5A1... When we struggle like hell together, when we went for Steamboat and were shocked by the life prawns and the admiring of the Merlion... Love them so so Much... Hard to get together again... Treasure every piece of memory i have now...

Anyway, i sat down and do my MIEC and managed to complete it, dunnoe whether correct not, kind of hard... I need to start revising le... So cham...

K, think will end here... I'm looking forward to Friday and Saturday, when i can meet up wth my netball juniors and on Sat, back to OHS to work, to see some of the pple that i missed SO SO MUCH...

Mystery to you, sweet to me...

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Happy For myself...

I was thrilled today... U dunnoe wad happen... HA!

Anyway, i dunnoe who's Ba-zie... Who's Ba-zie??? I really dunnoe... Dun be an anonymous leh... HeE~

To add on... On my Birthday, I:
12. Received Happy news bout my sister
13. Received a large chocolate bar from my Lao ma

And... On the 1st day of being officially 18, I:
1. Had a birthday bash from my fellow GR8 pple
2. Bite off a bread stick to represent blowing a candle
3. Met up with my Dear to do her lappy
4. Went to coffeeshop to see pple eat Nasi Lemak
5. Found myself in Love...

Have I found you?

HapPY BirThDay!!!







I've received a huge surprise from this bunch of girls who i just got to know... What a pity we're not in the same class... Sad to say, some of my closest friend haven't gave me such surprises... But then again, old friends are still my best friends.

This girls drew those for me... Simple, Cheap, yet with lots of sincerity... And it's the weirdest thing to hear pple singing Happy Birthday Song infront of the whole TRM team... HAHA!!! SURPRISE!!!! I was sO So touched... Unspeakable words, unexplainable feelings, a receive such wishes from this group of girls who i hardly know... LOVE U GIRLS!!!! Thank You...

PS:By the way, who is that that left a comment... NAME PLEASE!!!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Emotional 18... Legally 18...

I'm officially 18 today. It doesn't really feels right though.

12am last night, i received a lot of sms-es... Let's see, b4 i turned 18, I had a chat with my sister bout some of her thing. She left me thinking a bit too much. Then, her bf wished me Happy Birthday, and left me wondering. Somehow, she allows me to think bout this thing called, "LOVE"... Y do we yearn for love? And i couldn't sleep after that, thinking bout everything Xueting had told me in the letter and during our phone call. After that, i thought bout wad Renny told me... I couldn't find a way to put those puzzles together. Well, i guess i'm just worried bout her.

Another sms was Bt kor, he said a lot in this sms and i was touched somehow. I dunnoe why but it did. He wishes me a lot of things, gave me a lot of encouraging words, and i miss him and his preaches... He will always be my kor.

I thought bout wad happened yesterday, after Xueting left. It was amazing... Do i deserve something like that? Can i take it? I guess i'm gonna keep wad had happened a little secret shared only with myself.

Turning 18 ain't easy. I dun really wanna grow up that fast... Reality seems to always move so fast. I thought it should be a great thing turning 18... Probably for certain parts of it bah... Maybe... Well, really want this Birthday to be a memorable one.

On my Birthday, I:
1. Had my 1st try on NYDC pasta
2. Had a huge box of present from my sister
3. Ordered my new Laptop
4. Received a Hong bao from my Pa
5. Slept thinking bout my sister and her bf
6. Slept thinking bout him
7. Slept thinking bout what Yuting told me
8. Have to complete my presentation for OCOM
9. Cried
10. Realised I've grown up
11. Think I've fallen for................

On my 18th Birthday, i looked back at my life, it is time to make this a beautiful year for me.

Happy Birthday to myself and thanks friends from around with all your gifts and wishes... LoVe u ALL!!!

It is too sudden... Love You...

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Another breakfast...

Last night managed to put some stuff on the blog after i got home. Well, there's nothing much i wish to add on le, that's how it went bah.

This morning, went out for breakfast with the very tired Eddie. Seriously, i'm tired too... HAHA!!! My same old dish, "Anything" and he needs to crack his head to get me something. He had been treating me quite a few times le, so i said, i'll treat him this time round, but he already paid, instead, i treated him drinks. So, i forced the last spoonful of hokkien mee into my mouth, we chit chatted a little and off to the carpark. He met one of his customer and baby, talked a little and heh heh... Dun think i didn't see lah, i did... Shhh... *secReT* O ya, while eating, this kopi uncle very cute leh, he talked talked, then ask me, "wah, u eat so big plate ar?" Then i said, "Not i buy one leh..." Then he took my phone and asked, "Wad is this huh? Radio ar? Very nice leh..." I'm like, "It's handphone nah..." Then eddie added, "Uncle, u like her is it, take lah..." I'm like, Hello, "take lah" I'm like a human myself... Not for sale you mei you... TAo Yan...

So, got onto the car and he went to work. I went to buy my shampoo... No surprises today... That's cool.

Anyway, actually meeting up with ting and hui de, but pa suddenly told me we're going for dinner to celebrate Mother's Day. This one i cannot reject, coz it's like the whole Teo's family going. 2tables, mai Siao SiAo... Heh HEH! K, so sort of celebrated my birthday too with Rachel, my cousin who's having her BD TODAY! Which i dunnoe lah... I didn't know we got so many Taurus in the Teo's. Had mango cake... It's YumMy... Other than that, it's just eating and keeping quiet. hee~

Anyway, almost at the end of the dinner, Eddie smsed me says he's in a jam... So i said i'd entertain him. Talk some craps yet another time... How come got so much craps to say? Coz he is Eddie... HAHA!!!

Kk, i finally submitted my CIP workshop, damn the Mel this afternoon. Wanna submit then say got problem. Tml is the deadline lor... Anyway, submitted le. Ooo... Just now, Jia wen smsed me bout our OCOM project... Embarassed coz i haven't find anything related yet. So, i guess i need to go find it le... Heh heh!

Meeting up Xueting tml for Lunch. K, felt very bad bout today lor, in the end, i met none of the both of them and Hui cannot make it tml... SoRry Girls... NvM, still meeting one of them. Lots to disclose during the lunch i guess... HeH HEH HeH!!!!

Should i go running tml morning? Like, really running? ermm.... Worth considering since i kept walking up early the last few days... HEH HEH!!!

Beer? Kiss? Hug? LoVe? HAHAHA!!! Not good to be drunk u know... DaNgerOus...

Loving You...

Saturday, May 13, 2006

tired...

Just got home from the night out.

It was kind of a bad dates with so many different clicks at one time... K, next time wun ask my school friends to go out with my work friends... The whole atmosphere was so weird.

Anyway, Poseidon is greAt... Can't wait to catch MI3 and the rest of the upcoming movies...

Late... Wanna sleep... NiGht...

Tough...

Haven't blog for a couple of days now... Ermm... Rushing all my work, so didn't really have the time to blog, when i wanna blog, i feel like sleeping, so i thought i would leave it till today. FREE!!! HAhA!

Let's start with Wed... That was the day when i started feeling very tired and not having enough sleep. Started to feel the workload. U see, i know i can't go on in Poly feeling slack, and leaving everything to last minute resort. So, i kind of started doing the tutorial qns, seriously, looking into each and everyone of it and doing them. K, to much of my surprise, I was able to understand BSTA better that way lah. For MIEC, still struggling. CIP, still hanging there coz of all the software, hardware thingy. And she talked bout Java which, i supposed will be damn complicated. So wed was the beginning of hell for me.

We have this MIEC presentation on a question bout quantity demanded and demand for good. And it's like a group presentation. Since i'm the leader, i think i gotta start the ball rolling, so i asked them for answers that day so i can compel and make them into slides. So, wed night, i got wad i had, and i went to MAC to do the slides. K, a little pissed along the way lah. Coz i seriously have to explain. But well, if i dun do, no one would, RIGHT?! Goshh.... At the end of it, Eddie came to entertain me after his work. By then, i'm really tired le. Kk, so at the very end the slides, i gave up, i stopped deco... HAHA!!! Then, after talking for a while with Eddie, we went home. Stressed....

Thurs morning, another huge struggle to get up from bed, this time round, i only got up at 7.40am. Rushed the way out to school. And thurs happen to be the longest day for me... Wad sucks the most was, i did so much for the slides, the tutor didn't use... SO MAD... Like, Hello, the rest of them presented, we didn't leh... So So, sickening... But then again, good thing was, gotta go back earlier... Went to eat dinner with Yuting then went back.

Then, after lots of resting, i started the calling session... A lot of them dun wanna pick up my call... So Mad... After gathering much info bout pple's prefernces, time, and venue, finally ended the list to bout 20. Was so surprised!!! But then, dun think so many will be there lah. Anyway, it's more of a gathering today then to celebrate my BD... That's good too, coz today is not my BD... HAhA!!! I called Dear and chatted off with her for bout an hour and she went to bed.

I went to the living room, in search of some snacks to grab and sat there in front of the fan. Then, the phone rang. I thought it's my Ma's friend, so i kind of picked it up and said, "HELLO?!" (in a high pitch end) And the other end was like, "May i speak to Ai Ping"(In chinese), sounds pretty weird, coz i haven't had guys calling my house unexpectedly. He asked, "Have u eaten?" I'm like, "ermm... U hold on for a while." Took my cordless and went to my room. "HEY, EddIe!!!!" It's like such a shock that he called? HAHA!!! Anyway, talking bout the same old crap and bout him wanting a desktop and me wanting a laptop... HAHA!!! So CuTe... Anyway, ended the call at 12plus. I ji tao fell asleep.

Middle of the night, i woke up. Saw Yuting's msg, she said she couldn't sleep and that she had a bad day... Hai... Such a Sin... As in the new poly life... Too much bothering us, so much more than it used to be. Anyway, i didn't reply her, coz it's 3am when it was sent at 1am. Well, wad can i say? I dun really know. Let's just put it this way, "it is only the beginning of our new life. Why struggle with unnecessary problems when there's more to wonder?" And seriously, Yuting, it hasn't begin with wad's going on, y get bothered? SMile... There'll definitely be chances...

Anyway, slept off after the sms.

Early in the morning, my phone rang, i thought who the hell would call me that early, like 8am... And it's Eddie... I picked up the phone and went, "Hello... Ya?!" He went, "Hey, wake up already? Wanna go for breakfast?!" I'm like, "Huh? Where are u? I just woke up..." "I'm at custom." So i say " Orh, when u bout to reach then tell me bah..." Then, i dropped dead beside my phone... HAHA!!! 20min later, he called, and i'm like, "u here le ar?!" He said he would wait opposite my place... So i kind of rushed, brush my teeth, grab my jacket and capm and dashed out of my house. HAHA! Then, once i cross the road, i saw his car... HAHA!!! Just in time... So had a very full breakfast.. Haven't had such great breakfast for very long le... Hee~ Tell u hor, that uncle very funny one, he wanna do something, he wun say 1st de leh. I'm like in a hell of a shock the whole morning. Until, i reached home at bout 10am and slept again... HAHA!!!

Kk, going for movie with lots of pple later. Definitely less than 20... Relieved. Gonna enjoy myself... LOVE ME!!!! And I lOVE U!!!!

I can't believe I made it through...

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

MonDay BlUes...???

It was a tedious day in school, somehow the different pressure is starting to set in. Gosh... So wad should i actually do? HeH HeH! The issue on Friends, not really bothered cos somehow, i know will be able to find that "Click" with each and everyone of them, for now, let's take things slow. Wad i'm facing, is the stress from work lah, sometimes, dun really understand wad the lecturers say. When i do the tutorials, a lot of time i'm stuck. I hope i'm not the only one like that in class... Seriously... Really...

Yuting told me she read my blog... Heh HeH! So weird, she read my blog... Hee~ Anyway, it's a better way to know me faster bah... But then again, she knows me better than my blog. HAHA!!! Craps... Just now, i joke to her bout a 50cents thingy... Had a hell of a laugh there. Well, will make that joke to any of u someday... hee~ So CuTe...

Ermm... Need to buy Strait Times tml for the Digital Life... MuSt RMB!!!! GoSh GoSh... Every CIP workshop need to bring... Heh HEh...

Kk, i need to start contacting pple to go out on Friday le... If not, everything will be damn messed up... LoVe Me pple!!! Love U SOOOOoooo!!!!

I finished one of the CIP work... K, took me bout an hour to complete the slide shows... HaI... At least i make it lah... Heh hEh! Still got 2 more tasks to do sia... GosH... So StReSS...

OOo... Tell u all something, somebody came to take phone number from me o!!! It's so funny... i was choking a snicker down my throat when this guy came to take my number for his friend... All staff of Zinc... So FUnNY!!!! Many situation somehow in this new LIFE... Love It!!!

Ermm... Kk, i need to go print out the names for my group members... Speaking of printing, i printed a lot of notes and tutorial lOr!!! It's like the ink and papers are all running out, so is my CASH... GOSh...

Awaiting the romance to begin, but then, you have not appear...

Monday, May 08, 2006

Another week has gone by...

I went to Westmall today to get my eyeliner but then, it's not selling le... I wonder is it that they've stop the stock? Please DUn!!! It's so gOOd... SilkY Girl... HAi... Hope i can find it soon, i only have a little bit left... GOSh...

Then i headed towards my house there de Mac with my Lappy. Asked Yuting to join me, so we sat there and used the lappy to do our stuff.. I was reading the PM budget speech. GOSh... Long... Couldn't connect to the wireless so i basically just read the text. Then, off the lappy and chatted with Yuting... Hee~ And i told her a secret that i didn't tell anyone... HAHA!!! After that, she told me(refering to all Dragon horoscope), that this year we'll have lots of Lan Tao Hua... HAHA!!! The real one will come in 2008... Well, her pa is the fortune Master, so i guess should believe it a little. But then again, when it wants to come, we can't stop right?? Hee~ It's just an advice to listen to.

Recently, my fave phrase are, "Love U" "Miss U"... HAha!!! So, dun feel weird O!!!! Kk.... New week starting, new anticipation... See You!!!

LoVe YoU!!! CIAo!!!

What if all that have happened are meant to be? What if I say, I wanna be with You? What if I say No? What if? Full of queries, full of uncertainties... When the time is right, you will come find me... Love you...
I went to Westmall today to get my eyeliner but then, it's not selling le... I wonder is it that they've stop the stock? Please DUn!!! It's so gOOd... SilkY Girl... HAi... Hope i can find it soon, i only have a little bit left... GOSh...

Then i headed towards my house there de Mac with my Lappy. Asked Yuting to join me, so we sat there and used the lappy to do our stuff.. I was reading the PM budget speech. GOSh... Long... Couldn't connect to the wireless so i basically just read the text. Then, off the lappy and chatted with Yuting... Hee~ And i told her a secret that i didn't tell anyone... HAHA!!! After that, she told me(refering to all Dragon horoscope), that this year we'll have lots of Lan Tao Hua... HAHA!!! The real one will come in 2008... Well, her pa is the fortune Master, so i guess should believe it a little. But then again, when it wants to come, we can't stop right?? Hee~ It's just an advice to listen to.

Recently, my fave phrase are, "Love U" "Miss U"... HAha!!! So, dun feel weird O!!!! Kk.... New week starting, new anticipation... See You!!!

LoVe YoU!!! CIAo!!!

What if all that have happened are meant to be? What if I say, I wanna be with You? What if I say No? What if? Full of queries, full of uncertainties... When the time is right, you will come find me... Love you...

Seems to be fading away...

Went through some of my old friends' friendster just now. Suddenly, i realised i'm missing out a lot on their lives... One in particular, Melanie... I wonder how is she doing le? She used to be someone who i was hang around with, no matter where we go bah... And seems like she's the only one who i say a lot to. Her absence in my life hasn't been a hard time but then when i thought bout it, i dun really know wad is going on in her life, nor does she knows anything bout mine. And seriously, she's also the only person who i can frankly say anything. The one who knows me most is not anyone so close i suppose... Miss her too much to catch up le. We can never be the same like we were b4, but will still ask her out every now and then... MiSs u Mel...

Also, i went to looked at kaiwen's... Ermm.. A very strange name to call now... We've known each other since P3... Havn't met up after she transferred school and moved house... HeH...

Missing out too much on my friends' lives... Am i so occupied by every other thing, than some of the greatest friends? Probably... Everybody seems to be drifting apart already... Hai... We are on our own? Talking to Yuting just now, i always had fun talking to her, she always left me wondering, and that's wad been connecting us together as the best of friends, when all else had failed.

Ermm... Xueting... She's also pretty busy with her everyday life... GoSh... Hope she'll be Ok Ok, better than Ok...

LiNg Hui... Where r U?! Hee~ She's a bit missing nowadays... HAHA!!! miSs u Girl...

New friends doesn't seem to be taking any space in my heart... It's kind of weird... Please, let my heart open up...

I heard a life story of this guy, he had a life of ups and downs, and been through the gate of Hell and back... Kind of dramatic in some ways yet, he is sitting right in front of me saying that. Guess he should treasure life more than b4... Wad a LiFE.... Hope mine would be as dramatic but less trauma... Hee~

Missing all of you sO very MUCH!!! Come back to my life...

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Ermm...

I went out for dinner today with u know who... And had a long sit at KoPitIam... Kind of a crappy night... Anyway, had my stomach filled and safely reached home... Besides that, today was pretty boring... Nothing much happened...

Hee~ Tml must start reading up on the CIP assignment le... I'm so doomed... HahA!!!

Saturday, May 06, 2006

My Dear & Me...





QiAn & PiNg
IdIot & APpLe
D E A R S....
Woke up at 6.35am today... WAhAhAHA!!!!! Reached school at around 7.40am with Trish... 1st lesson, SW, Netball... The cool thing is, the person taking charge of us knows who Kailing(my coach) is, and she even knew she went for a knee op. Kind of a coincident to meet someone who knows my coach... HAha!!! So, by right, i should trust she is someone who knows netball, since she knows Kailing... K, i'm making an assumption but hopefully this assumption is right... Anyway, the training began, we ran 2 large rounds of the track but after that, it started to rain so we began with physical... Well, i hate PT lah hor... But then, it wasn't that tough compared to wad i did b4 with my previous team. Ya... Anyway, i had quite a few laughs during the training. Suppose the pple there will be better.

Was a little bit late for CATS but wadever... Anyway, the lecture was talking all the way. I did listen lah, but at the same time, slacking... Hee~ And my darling sms-ed me saying she wants to meet me... Hee~ HaPPy to meet my Darling... U know wad, we went shopping at Orchard, and i was in FBT shorts and the NP shirt(the one robert design) OMg!!!! It's a bit too casual to be wearing like that for the whole day in town. And, while shopping, coz Sa and i got used to calling each other Dear, some lady thought we really are lesy... GoSh... But i cleared the air... OmG... NVM lah, she's still my DeaR... HAhA!!!

Then, dear and I went to take PiCs... Cute right?! Me in Casual wear and 1st time with my dear.... HAHA!!! NICe... LoVe It!!! Then, i walked her to OHS... Wanted to go Far east with Terry one, but he took a long time and tiredness was starting to set in, so i decided to leave... Anyway, Bt kor called off the meeting up and Something kind of happened to Ting which i dunno y, didn't pursue much le... When it's time, she'll tell... So i went back on 174 after getting my New CAP!!! Hee~

KK, i bought Ramen for my dinner... Compared to yesterday, my appetite is better today... O ya, Dear forced me to eat some food with lots of chilli and dunnoe y, she bought 2 desserts for me... Trying to stuff me to death?! NO wAY DEAR!!! U can nv shake me OFF!!!

Kk, i crashed OHS today... Surprising quite a lot of pple with my presence... Hee~ WaHAHAHAHA!!! Me and My MarVellous entrance...

I met these 2 guys. One guy says he's 30, but doesn't look so. The other says he's not 30 but look So... HAHA!!! Ain't that funny? I met 2 of guys who should switch their age... HAHA!!! K, if u know who, just Shhhhh... Dun say anything huh.... HAHA!!!

I dun think i'm gonna go for the interview liao le... So boring... Dun really wanna work lor... Tiring...

I sent an sms to the wrong person today and found it weird with his reply, "U miss me isn't" For god sake.... PLEASE....

K, i'm really tired le... Need to catch some sleep... NiGHT!!!

CiAo!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

Friday, May 05, 2006

Lost iN a fAmiliar place...

Ermm... Again, i had a great sleep, so much so that i overslept this morning... I woke up at 7.20am when i'm supposed to wake up at 7... But well, was able to get there in time to meet Ting.

Ermm... I guess the embarkment of this week, a new week, kind of took a different way for me as compared to last week. I had a hard time understanding i guess... But anyway, i tried my best to work hard. Kind of hard to fit into the class bah... All of them seem to be those real smart ones... Well, i have to work extra hard i guess... Nothing to worry bout? Please... I got dozens of stuff to worry... I need to focus on my modules le... No time for me to slack anymore...

MIEC tutorial was great, i like my Tutor, Mr Pon... Hee~ He's a funny person, injecting many of his humour to the lesson... LOVe It... So the day kind of ended with all the tough Tutorial qns... Hai... I dun really like how my class is now... Hopefully, it's coz we're still new to each other... Hard to fit in? Doesn't matter right? I'm AppLe...

K, i felt kind of lost today after school. I kind of walked my way from NP to the petrol station, in my mind, blank... When i reached central, i decided to go get a packet of Choc to accompany my way in WM... Then, saw the Uncle and the other guy in the SAloN... After which, went to WM, i loiter there for very long but no appetite, so i decided to get SuShi... Sat at the interchange, mind still thinking wad to eat coz i know wun be full with Sushi... So i sat there for very long... Till i saw TYS... MY FRIEND!!! Hee~ Chatted lots with him... Miss his craps a lot... So i kind of went to eat with him and his friend, with the exception of myself eating... Really have no appetite... After that, ting called me, said she wanna eat dinner, i thought she was alone lor, but well, nVm... Had a short chat with her too...

Meeting with Bt kor tml... K, feel very bad bout last few times when he wanna meet but can't, and tml, determined to go meet up with my loNg losT kor and see his BoTak hair... HAHA!!! Hope ting can come too...

Ermm... I very tired now, but my heart kept wondering away... Well, i'm gonna sleep so as to replenish for tml 8am SW...

I guess it's hard to get used to this life, called "POLY LIFE"...

Trying to love myself more...

Thursday, May 04, 2006

I'm kind of missing myself a lot... I haven't found time to reflect on myself... I quiet down a lot from before... Is it the new environment? Is it the New friends? Or is it just myself...

Before falling into my sleep again, let me find some answers to the unknown...

I still...
Who are you now
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny itJust can't let you go
Chorus:I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
I wish I could find you
Just like I found you
Then I would never let you go
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no from you

All that u need to know bout me... My idol says it all...

MarVelLous...

HeY hEy!!! I fell in love with today... HAHA!!! Though i gotta wake up early 7am, but i had lots of great times today. 1stly, i was able to have a good night sleeps without all the waking ups or having dreams which always kept my head occupied. Then, when i was waiting for bus in the interchange, i met Trish and i had a partner all the way till school to talk to. Then, when OCOM tutorial started, i was amazed. It was much better than the lecture... HeH! More interesting and for the 1st time i met my tutorial mates... Kind of happy... Hee~

After break, went on for BSTA tutorial, hee, the tutor kind of reminds me of Mdm Khong, with very good English of coz. Kind of like her way of talking and then gotta mix with other T-mates. HAhA!!! HApPy! Right after BSTA, carried on with ITR... GoSh... By then, my gastric was hurting. Still, i had a great time paying attention and contributing ideas the the group discussion... Hee~ That was when i told Ting that will meet them in school later instead of batok and that's when Robert came to say i act busy... Hai... I got accused...

Anyway, my gastric was hurting a lot when tutorial was coming to an end so i kind of tolerated the pain all the way till i met YUting and Xueting... HaI... O yA, b4 that i went get an FBT pants at Co-op... Hee~ Bought it for $10.. If u can find cheaper de hor, tell me K...

Then, after meeting ting and yuting, we walked to Petrol station to have more buses to get to Batok and that's where we met IzWan... hee~ The Guy from OHS, the one who i called for training, who i brought around during his 1st visit to OHS, who i got a long really well when i was a coordinator... Kind of miss those times interacting with all the staff without boundaries, now, got so many BOUNDARIES that i can't cross. Hai... Sad... Anyway, Ting suddenly told me she haven't ordered her Pics for FOC, i'm like, "HUH?!" and rmbed that it's Wed le... So i kind of called robert for help... Anyway, she got really irresponsible GLs... Sad for her...

Reached Mac, ate our dinner, relieved my gastric, and began doing wireless at MAC.... HAHA!!! Well, we chatted online... Ting kind of told me certain things which i shall not disclose but advice were given, hope she'll be ok... She told me she got drifted away from me coz of SCANDALS... HAHA!!! It's like so FUNNY!!!! Well, Well, it's not everyday that u hear scandal from Me... hee~ *SlaP myself Up and Down* Anyway, rest assure, i'm fine... But, i got things to share with her lah, will leave it to another time when we have longer meeting times.

Like it today, though i'm damn tired now... I didn't do my MIEC tutorials... hee~ Beat me for that but i'm a bit too tired to pick it up now... Hai... Hope nothing will happen tml... Anyway, friends, ladies and gentlemen, everyone from SEC SCHOOL, POLY, OHS and CLOSE FRIENDS, hoping u can join me on 12th MAy to somewhere, which i haven't decided, to Pei Me... If u know me, u should know y... 3days after that day... So, leave a comment or send me a mSg? DeaL? Kk, Waiting... Dun come if u r a stranger to me... hee~

Only when Life turns around, I saw the importance of being myself...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

The more u say, the more i type

Last night, before going to bed, i was teaching Jennifer Geog. I kind of realised i forgot quite a bit of stuff le... She was asking bout the drainage system, i couldn't find the notes that Mr Alex Lo gave us a few years back bout drainage system, so i kind of drew it out in PAINT.... Amazing? HAHA!!! So cute of me... I can really be a tutor... HAhA!!! Anyway, i can help, so i help... Hee~

Anyway, i couldn't sleep last night... Wah laO... My eyes were very much closing when i laid onto my bed but when i really decided to sleep, i COULDN'T! Can u believe that? I need the aid of my mp3 to get asleep... Gosh... However, that didn't really work, i woke up a lot of times in the middle of the night, singing along in my head, knowing i cannot really sleep well with that, i off the mp3... Still, i kept waking up. No idea y... The last time i woke up b4 9am was 6am, and i rmbed clearly that i told myself, " I still can sleep for 2 hours..." HAhA!!! Isn't that kind of cute... I woke up later feeling pretty restless but still need to proceed on to school...

Right, i love TRM? Hee~ It's very related to the Tourism that i studied in Sec and that's something good, Tourism was one of my fave topic when studying and i can relate pretty well... Hee~ HAPPY!!! Also, Ms Ho annouced the date for our camp... It's gonna be a service boot camp. Kind of looking forward to it... Hee~ LAlA!!!

K, funny thing happened during our 2hours break b4 the make-up lesson for BSTA. The 4 of us, Edith, Joan, Jellyfish and I, sat down, on the same table in Canteen 1, charging our lappy and chatting on MSN... HAHA!!! Our table was in total silence... Kind of funny... HAHA!!! Didn't played it b4...

Kk, BSTA finished pretty early, it was said to be till 7pm but the lecture kind of just finish it in 45min or so. HeE~ So, we left the LT... I wanted to go back le but rmbed my darling called me, so i called back and decided to go meet Yuting and her at Lot1. I practically dragged my feet back to Batok, bought a can of Latte and dragged myself towards the MRT station and reached CCK. Had our dinner, with lots of craps as usual from my dear. HaHA!!! Then, we went to walk around Lot 1, buying different stuff... I was looking for my sports brA when i saw Converse's high cut sneakers... Wah Lao... Itch... HAHA!!! But can't buy lah, it's like $59.90... Hai... Broke... Went home a couple of hours later. It's really nice to meet up with Dear and Yuting... Haven't see Yuting for a long time le, she's almost the same. And for my dear, she's always the same lah... HAHa!!! Well, at this point of time, old friends still play a part in me... They'll always do... MiSS theM lOts... Kk, i kind of make an appointment with the both of them on the 12th... I'm wondering whether the meeting with my Juniors will clash with it not, hope not, coz wanna celebrate a little... HaI... We'll see...

Ermm.... I was printing all the lecture notes and Tutorial qns just now then did some of it... A bit stress ar, but i had fun looking thru them, like a normal student... Hee~

O ya, just now, i ran from LT22 to Atrium... That's common, but within 5min? HAhA!!! 5min b4 lecture began... WAHAHAHA!!! Kk, dun wanna say the reason, very long-winded...

Robert just told me, "Like wan the whole world to know i tok to u for 5hrs. lolx" HAHA!!!! CuTe... I very li Xiao hOr... And he say i sound Bad... HAHA!!! That's like so not the truth... He said i dun sound like myself... Hai... So Sad...

Anyway, overhear MM Lee talking in the News... Election is like so close to us le... Serious thing going on in the state sia... AdmIre MM Lee So So mUch.. Y? Ask u, how many pple can see a historic figure still alive? I CAN!!! WE CAN!!! HAHA!!! Many reasons to admire this man... MANY MANY...

Right Right, should stop... Another early morning tml... NIGHT PPLE!!!

CIAO!!!

If only I can see you again...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Boring Labour Day...

K, something to mention, i chatted with Robert Chai for more than 5hours yesterday... goSh... I can't believe i got so much to say, or rather, we got so much to share... Kk, he's the guy who i cursed and swore at, during the 2nd day of FOC, coz he kept singing and singing, and i'm so pissed. Then, got to see him during the Sentosa trip, then chatted up in MSN, then on PhOne... GoSh... This is like the procedure to making friends.. HAHA!!! Kk, heard a lot from him, said a lot to him and some of the most bo liao to high-profile secrets were being shared. End of the day, didn't sleep well... HAHA!!! CuTe....

K, nothing much happened today, boring all the way... I didn't eat anything since i woke up till i decided to get my butt up and go buy dinner. Kk, decided to buy KFC and feast a little... HAHA!!! K, i'm still me, i wun be bothered by pple saying i'm FAT, coz i'm happy the way i am but then again, i promised nv to gain anymore weight, this is the very limit. Hee~ Wadever... Anyway, live HaPPy can le, dun wanna suffer so much... Hee~

Ermm.... There's something i feel like saying but dun really wanna say, it's kind of awkward... HeH HeH! Well, that is the kind of feeling that i yearn... So mUch... Hai... Well, not the right time to speak of you-know-wad.

Just now, Bt kor smsed me, felt kind of weird, haven't got a msg from him for a while le. Kk, time to spend some time with this kor of mine le... So i suppose i have to make myself free this weekend... Hee~

Tml will be full of Lectures again... Tutorial will start on Wed... Heh hEh!!! LonG dAY!!! And tml got make up lesson for BSTA... gOSh... till 7pm???!!!! But well, that's gonna be life now... Hee~ ANyway, i'm ready for it... LAlA!!! HAte the choosing of clothes early in the morning... Hai... Such a waste of time.

Kk, a lot of occasion coming, labour day is over, Election day coming, then Vesak day, mother's day and MY BIRTHDAY!!! WAHAHAHA!!! heH HeH, where's my present? Hee~ Kk, Dunnoe wad should i do that day... Still thinking... it's a monday though. Well, till then...

I'm walking pass where I found you, but I couldn't see you... I dare not turn my head around...