Another DAy...

Dun really have much to say...

Had BCA presentation, got so many mistakes.

Went to Mac for Hotcake breakfast, my first try on hotcakes since i dunnoe when, i dun really have a good impression of hotcakes...

Then, went back to Batok to find things to munch on. Thought of asking Hun and PH out to do homework. Wanted to do it in the afternoon but PH finish school at 5pm.

Walked pass VK, saw Girlfriend=Darl sitting outside. Went to BOO him.. Wanted to send him his songs but he was charging his phone. Hee~ Then, sent it to Shikin's phone instead. Richard came out and treat me his korean food. Dried cuttlefish which i told him wasn't my fave. Then he gave me sweets... GINSENG?! NO WAY! HAHA!! Not even mama can make me eat Ginseng... K, a bit picky with that but the taste and smell of ginseng makes me feel like vomitting. But the peanut candy is nice...

Back home, watched Journey to the West with Kor Kor... So sian, watch so many times liao. Then, i accidentally fell asleep again...

Woke up, went to do my POA. Ermm... A bit confusing but well, still did it. Around 6plus, PH called me, so i woke Hun up and yaya, went to Mac later on. That's where all the pics came from.

I finished my POA there and then and kind of figured out some MAEC thingy. Ya...

Considering on whether to go K with Fish and all on Thurs not. Feel like going to Vivo more.. Hai... WAit till then i guess.

PH, Hun and I decided to meet up one day every week to do our work and study together. Like that idea... I named them, "My boyfriends". HAHA!!!

I love it when choatic moments come the friends of my life.. Who would expect all these? Fate brings us together, now it brings us closer... Friends...
Posing For my CAM!















Can see they love each other... LoVey...














My korean Sweets from my Failed Korean BF














HUN HUN HUnny














The 3 of uS... 1... 2... 3...

NiGHtS!!!

MooD Swinging back and forth...

Well, I really had a good night sleep, no idea bout wadever in my deep sleep but i knew i had an sms on my phone. Well, i was in concussion.

Woke up in the morning and my hair was like, ehh, a big ball. HAha!!! Ok, then the wax went up and it was alright.

The sun was shining brightly early in the morning. Why i notice? Coz it was shining right into my eyes and i couldn't open my eyes in the bus. Hee~ Reached school and we were supposed to do the Meeting thingy for WCOM. My group's slot was 9.30am, so we went to canteen one and waited. The meeting was so funny you know... Well, i think its because Mei Qing was our CEO and she just made it so funny. HAHA!! We ended with, a big hand in hand hush... HAHA!!! She's cute.

MAEC was the same, difficult to understand.

Went to canteen and eat with Yee Shan and co. met Izwan from OHS... HAHA!!! He is still as funny. Hee~

After that, went to library and got so confused with the room thingy. Was able to get a room at 2pm for an hour. So, they came at around 2pm. Ya, and we began discussion and it was a fruitful discussion. I'm glad i'm with the group. (:

Well, left at around 3.30pm. It was pouring yet another time. Took 174 with Val back.

Went to WM and shop for some food. Bought Peanut butter, loaf of bread and breakfast cereals. Ya... Went back then.

K, i was shocked by a CENTIPEDE!!!! Yes, a centipede. It wasn't huge but it was considered big. I was like, "OMG!!!!!!!!!!!" And from then on, my eyes were on the floor. Hee~

At home, 4 slices of bread with peanut butter made up my dinner. YuMMY!

I fell asleep on the sofa again. I woke up and realised my mouth was open, not drooling... HAHA!!!

Well, watched TV and was so envious with the beautiful house pple have. Hai... Wanna arrange my room too..

Ehh... I am having a bad cramps now...

Very frustrated with some stuff going on. When can i really learn to be selfish? I tried hard for working in OHS, it is difficult to turn away from them but i did that, and now, it is just the process. With friends? I dunno how to... Well, i guess i am just tired. Ignore my comments.

HM smsed me and said that they are having a friendly match tml, can't make it to see or play, i hope they do well. Do miss the team. Have fun girls and play hard.

Questions on marriage. I planned to get marry at around 24-26, the best, at 25. After graduation, i will be about 21. If i can get into Uni, will take another 2yrs, by then, i'll be 23. In Uni, will look for an eligible guy and probably choose him as my future boyfriend. Then, i'll be out in society when i'm 24. Have a love running for a coupld of years and there, i can get marry at 26.

Or, if i dun get into Uni, i'll be out in society when i'm 21. I'll then be able to find a bachelor who is rich and suave and dream for a while before deciding to get marry. Ermm... I guess i won't be able to earn my 1st million bucks like that. Heh HeH! Pray hard that my hubby got that million bucks account. Hee~

Being kind of practical with the criteria of a husband. Well, he can just be a plain guy with nothing. We can build wad we want together and earn our 1st million together too. Ultimately, a guy who loves me more than i love him. Not realistic? Well, that's wad i think, wad i want, do hope it will come true. (:

Well, love doesn't comes by everyday... Love ain't easy if it is not right. Love, wad a marvellous word...

Some say love, it is a river, that drowns the tender reed. Some say love, it is a razor, that leaves ur soul to bleed. Some say love, it is a hunger, and endless it can be. I say love, it is a flower, and you, is only seed. It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance. It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance. It's the one, who won't be taken, who cannot seem to get. And the soul, afraid of dying, that never learns to live... -The Rose-

Well, that wraps up my blog for today...

Ciao!

Weekend ended

Let me begin with yesterday. I think my internal alarm is well set at around 7plus am. I woke up at 7plus yesterday and was wondering whether there was school or not. HAHA!!! Then, i woke up again at 9am. I was like, "OMG, not again." Hee~ Anyway, finally, cannot stand the waking up, i got up at 10.30am. So CoOLL!!! Hee~

Wanted to start doing some homework but hee, the Discoovery channel caught my attention. It was bout a ship called, Canada... It sunk. Something like that. Watched till 11plus. Dearr haven't sms me so i figured she was still sleeping. Went to bath and all, then started to do Excel. That's when she kind of smsed me.

So we met at around 2.45pm. And i was pretty pissed with my hair.. Well, went on out.

Reached hotel, there were so shocked with both of our hairs... HAHA!!! A big change i guess. Well, it was a good thing some of them said it looks nice... Relieved... BUT BUT!!! HONEY was like, "SHIT!" when he saw the both of us from far... HAHA!!! BUT nVm... I DUn care!

After many many talkings and chattings, we went to Subway for the 1st meal after her $3 Chicken. Then, we went to the toilet at B1, hee~ We went to shop around then. Wisma, Taka, then fareast... All the way till the sky turns dark. Dun even know wad we were shopping bout. K, black pants, didn't get that. Bought a S&K's Tee, with Dearr... hee~ Anyway, dearr was looking for RING but cannot find one. We took Pics together again... Cute as ever.

Ate a lot that day... Chicken, Subway, KFC, Laksa... Heh HeH! My feet were hurting very much...

Anyway, reached home and was almost dying.. Helped mama Massage and then massaged myself... Then, sleep.

Woke up at 12pm sharp this afternoon and the 1st sms i saw was, " I Love you Darl Darl..." HAHa!!! So sweet right, the first thing u saw in the morning is such a sweet sweet thing. Dear, Aiai, LAo Gong, when will i received one from u all?? Hee~

Then, makan makan lunCh, then began started sending surveys to friends to help me do.

Completed Excel at around 5plus.

Then, shitted.

Rushed out of my house at 6pm.

Met up with Darl who now is my girlfriend and helped him DL-ed games for her Jie. And ya, we talked crap again. Hee~ Always...

He sent me home and it was pouring. GoSh... I bet it's gonna be a great night sleep.

A few times, his phone rang and i kept insisting it was his girlfriend... Very funny the way he reacted. Cute Ok!!! To play this sort of thing. Well, but there will always be a time when we odd to be serious.. I dunno how though. :)

Came home and here i am, blogging. I think i did wad i should already... So ya, I hope so lah... Haven't do tutorials though... Hee~ Gotta stay tml for FABM project. Yup...

K, i'll end here...

Loves...

The first sight I see when I open my eyes, was your loving words, bringing me far far away... The touch you gave, caught me by surprise yet it came on time... The smile you showed tells me something that I don't wanna know... The look you gave, I can't take it anymore... The love we had, does not exist anymore... Is that right? Or are we deceiving ourselves more? Or was that just a wishful thought? Maybe... Who knows? Still, I am looking at you smiling but my world goes on without you... No matter where it goes, I believe you'll still be there, be it a lover or a friend... Love you...

Step Up...

GoSh... A very long day today...

Rushed to school, do 3 roleplays and so many brain cells dieded... Well, it was fun to a certain extend.

After school, met Ping Hong and Hun, decided to have dinner together and go walk walk...

Went home, put stuff down and went out. Hun took a long time to appear... Cannot stand it.

Reached Lot 1, were shopping for clothes, THEIR CLOTHES! I'm broke, can't shop, was their fashion consultant for a minute...

Then, Uting and Ming appeared, went to buy tix and watched STEP UP...

The music makes u wanna move, the lead actor is just too cool.. The dance steps can blow ur mind off in an instant... Gosh... In love with it so much...

So now, i'm tired... Gonna sleep already... Loves...

I want it the way you imagined it...

The girl whose hair is so long is crazy this morning... She was sitting opposite me. Then, suddenly she sent me an sms and said, "Apple, look at me leh, i wanna smile to you" I was like, "........................." HAHA!!! And she is none other than Tricia Tay... Heh HeH!

Nothing much happened in school today lah... Just learning and learning...

Went to library with Darl just now, he needs to borrow books... No idea why...

Felt like cutting hair. Cut it... But it's so ugly... Hai... Dun talk to me when u see me le lah... Feel so ugly... I'm gonna wait till it gets long again.. Feel like dying with this hair... Hai... UGLY... ArGH... Hai... Forget it, cut le, wait for it to grow bah...

Dearr, your chinese really cannot make it lah, i nearly cannot understand ur reply.

AiAi, i LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!

Sister, if u r reading, not gonna go Badminton on Saturday le...

It's sian... My haIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forget it...

Boring...

Who knows wad? This week had been really tiring for some reason, have absolutely no idea why...

Early in the morning, went for FABM lecture, so boring... She didn't really teach much, just looking at the seniors do their presentation. Then, had 3hours break. Went to Alumni to eat. Then went to library to kun... We all fell asleep lah...

Woke up, walked to blk72 for POA tutorial. Had POA tutorial 2 days in a roll... GoSh... Alright lah, tutorial ended at 4pm. Deaar told me she cut her hair... OMG! K, i just saw the pics, looks alright...

Tempted to cut mine too coz it's very irritating at the shoulder. Maybe i should just put on my cap and go school or just tie it up... Will see how... So sian...

Anyway, after school, i dragged my feet back home again... So tired...

Reached home, had dinner, bathed and rest. HA!!! Was going through the MAEC tut just now and i realised i scribbled my answers down le.. So, didn't do much.

Dearr called and chatted a bit.

Ooo... Lao Gong smsed and said he loves me last night, SO TOUCHED!!!! HAHA!!! Very Cute wor... LoVe u Too Lao GOng... PlUs DEAR!!!

Well, thinking should i skip WCOM tml not... Hai... Tiring... Can't wait for the weekend to come...

Shall end here... NiGHtS!

正在寻找那曾有过的一切...

Tuesday?

Couldn't get up this morning and decided to skip BCA lecture. However, i was still in the state of drowsiness even when i slept for an hour more... Was so tiring...

So BCA TUT/WKSHOP began and we were pretty much slacking away. Didn't really get down to business in anyway. I did tried to ask them wad are we supposed to do but their reply was, u know... HA! So i blogged some pics on bout fine dining at chijmes and my korean boyfriend... Hai... So disappointed bout the korean boyfriend though.

So, around 1pm, we were dismissed, went to Alumni for lunch, had Seafood hor fun, not bad wor but the pepper got no taste, so weird.

Went for POA make-up after that... Was dozing off in class lah, quite a few of us were all dozing off... Too tired, no mood.

Finally lesson over. Walked towards lift and suddenly 2 things happened at the same time. Jiawen opened the door and Yee Shan dashed towards the lift and Jiawen was like, "OUCH!" And i thought out of nothing Yee Shan pushed Jiawen to the door and she hit the door but it was JIawen who kind of lost control and ran into the door. SO FUNNY! HAHA!!! We were laughing like crazy lah...

Then, went to take bus, was lucky again, 61 came and i ran towards it. Hee~ Reached home, drank some milo and went to take a nap for an hour. Gosh... Almost couldn't wake up...

7plus pm, went to MAc to do POA. Completed an entry of Journal at MAc too then decided to go home at 9.10pm.

So, i'm still left with MAEC. GoSh... ANother MAc day tml? We'll see...

Must really be careful bout the amount of sleeps i'm getting, so scary to fall asleep and dunnoe what's going on around.

I haven't call gombak sports complex coz i wanna go play badminton this weekend, should call tml or something.

Gosh... Damn tired...

Deaarr sent me an sms today and i laughed my head off... Her chinese sort of like, cannot make it... Deaarr, read more chinese papers lah...

Ting smsed me too.. She said she loves me... I know that...

So Lao Gong, when will u sms me and say u love me? HUH? HUH? HAHA!!! So demanding...

Did some research on the cuisine to do... Hee~ Find it not bad...

I am really thirsty now... Gonna drink water and sleep le.. another 9am class tml..

Ciao...

在你梦里的我是如何的？是否与现实是一样的？

PiCtures....

This is ME......... APPLE...... PING........














Fine Dining Workshop

The wines we had... Superb...














My TiraMisu... Look at the caramel, taste Yummy... Chijmes...














My FilleT... Chijmes style... DeliciouS...














After Carlton, on the way to OHS. Grafitti...














So cool right? Wah... How i wish i have that at home...














Korea

Most expensive teddies in the world... LV bears... CuTe...














My failed Korean Boyfriend... So disappointed... Hai...
















It's nice to have pics on my Blog... Many many style... A gazillion of sensations... HA!

A long fulfilling day...

HAHA!!! It was a bad beginning today. Really tired from everything that happened during the past weekend and my morning till afternoon sux a lot.

Began the morning feeling really sleepy. The alarm rang at 7am, i woke up but fell asleep. Rang every other 5min after that but i fell back to sleep. Woke up at 7.30am, but fell back to dreamland and finally got up at 7.55am. So, i rushed like hell out of my house. HAHA! That's wad i get for sleeping in.

WCOM tutorial started and my mind kept ston-ing away. HA! And Joan was really weird this morning... Not like herself. We did the Minutes thingy and ya, sounds so funny to call in Minutes... Heh HeH! Well, got it done and ya, went off to buy some food and on to MAEC lecture.

I was kind of dozing off bit by bit so i tried hard to jot things down so when i look through, at least i can understand. End of Lecture, went to get my contacts... Hee~ Sky BlUe... Pretty...

Then, off we went, back home. On the bus, Darl suddenly smsed, got a shock coz i thought he is OFf... But well, obviously, he wasn't. As usual, talked a little and ya.

So angry with the Deposit machine, so many days i still haven't deposited my cash... GoSh... SO mad... Well, went back to rest after that.

The cookies i got from Edith are SupERb! GoSh... So tasty... Haven't tasted such normal yet delicious thing for so long... Have i eaten too much hotel's pastries that i forgot wad normal cookies taste like? HA! Kidding...

I took a nap on my sofa and before i knew it, it's 3pm. Packed and off to school again. This time round, to discuss LMS, IAC... Getting on my nerves sometimes but hai... Still need to do...

Meeting over, i went back home. I stoned all the way back again... Very tired... Was basically staring into the thin air and thinking nothing.

So, i kind of decided to do BCA myself since it requires so much, finished the practice and i finally decided to go Lawrence's chalet coz afterall, it's been so long since we last saw each other and it is his BD... So went down and i went to the wrong chalet... Cannot stand it... So luan... In the end, Benson gotta come fetch me... I nearly dieded on his bike... Like hello, haven't been on such a big bike b4 and he was going so low at the curb, scared me and as always, helmets fight. HAHA!

Reached, wished my dear LAW LAW Happy birthday... Hee~ He saw me and got a slight shock due to my hair and eyes. He leaned so close to my face and looked at me and said, "WAhh... Grow up liao ar..." Then Skinny was like ," wAD? Wad grow up?!" HAHA!!! Still as funny as before. Those were the type of things that i felt back then in OHS... Always laughing even when i'm down... Well, those were the days. Anyway, i sat down and started eating coz i was hungry.. Hee~ Then one of his friends came, Tracy who dun really know anyone there so i was trying to make her talk talk a bit and offer her this and that when i'm not the host. Weird huh? Hee~ SHe didn't talk much though. Haha! Then, many many pple came and i know none of them so i kind of like sat aside and stared at Skinny... Hee~ then, decided to leave since i dunnoe wad to do there besides munching on chicken wings. Hee~ Ya, bid bye to BD boy and left with skinny. He walked me out and asked me a question which i thought he shouldn't know but well, who knows news can travel so far... HAHA!!!

Ok, somethin very coincidental happened, we saw aunty yim... Eh... Like hello, downtown east? Aunty yim? very not link... HAHA!!!! But kind of just walk away...

Reached home and finished my Excel F... Hai.. Stucked at G... Dunnoe wad to do lah...

To wrap up the day, initial part was blue, later part was great. I thought it's gonna be a real bad monday but it turns out alright. If i kind of look back, i did many things today. YUp...And i didn't know i can do so much a day.. But i still didin't touch my tut.. Need to do tml.. Hai...

Well, here's for my sister... No matter what happens, the sun will always shine... Look to the direction where it will appear and hope will forever be glowing. Even if there is a storm, do rmb, i am always there to be that shelter, maybe not that big to cover you but at least be there for you as a company, a friend and a sister... :)

Oooo... By the way, i have a lao gong, he is Andy Chua... He also happens to be Dear's Boyfriend and Xueting's Scandal... HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The departure of a certain place brings too much memories back... Whenever you see them again, those images just kept playing and you would smile unknowingly but those were the days which differ from now. It can be at the same place but with different people. It is so disheartening to see it now... I do miss what was there before but like I always tell myself, things move on... They always do, even if you don't...

Somebody sent this to me today and I find it very meaningful, so i'm gonna share with you...
有个小岛住着很多感觉。 一天,岛沉了，感觉都坐船离开，只剩下爱没离开。其它感觉都不愿载爱， 只有时间肯载爱。为什么？ 因为只有时间才能证明爱的存在...

So many things

Dun like the feeling of not blogging for the past few days... Last few days were so exhausting, i worked 3 days in a roll, including 2 school days, kind of regretted doing so.

Had my grooming workshop on Wednesday. It was nice learning wad we've learnt but in some ways, it is not a whole package thing. She kind of roughly went through certain things like, posture, sitting, and how to come a neat hair, really briefly. The focal point was on face care and making up. So fun... Through the class, i've learnt that i got a healthy skin and round face. Supposed to have only short hair but well, i had my long, it was pretty... HAHA!! BhB... Anyway, then she went on saying bout our eyebrows... Hee~ Felt flattered coz she said i got nice eyebrows, so proud of myself, coz i trimmed them... So, any customer? hee~ Eh... Making up, nice playing wih cosmetics... Actually wad she had taught were known to me, i just didn't wanna use it. Hee~ So, worth the $25, average i guess.

So, went back really late that night, couldn't stand still. Honey called me to help him on Thurs coz the coordinator got something on. Ok, so i agreed since it wasn't servicing.

I skipped lecture so i dun have to rush so badly. Went back to batok, then to VK, then passed darl his ASUS P525 info and kind of asked a favour... Hee~ After that, rushed off... Was raining heavily and i was freezing in my bus, shivering... It was a good thing that the rain at Orchard was subsiding. So, walked into hotel, changed up and went up to help Xueni with her slotting and cutting menu then with the floor plan. Spotted terry sleeping in the Conference centre... HAhA! After that, went to usher for YIHUA! Gosh... 8plus, went down and started doing the assignment thingy... Eyes were on the Desktop for the rest of the night, my eyes nearly dieded. And i was basically typing everything that they needed. Heh Heh... In the midst of typing, Darl asked me to call whether i can talk not, so called to chit chat, so inconvenient without ear piece.
Talked some craps as usual and kind of find it funny... It's good i guess... No barriers but there were embarrassing moments when we reached u know wad topics... HAH! I miss chatting with him, always fun to. Hung up when he reached Custom.

Next day, i couldn't make it... Skipped LMS and slept all the way till 1pm... Bathed, took my lappy and went to MAc to do SAM e-learning. 44qns took me 1hour plus... Eyes dieded again. This time round, my whole body felt jelly... Like wad the hell is going on? Hai... Walked to VK to get my pins coz i left it there the day b4... Darl was cute...

Took bus to Dover, waited for Sister to appear. And i met Elaine... She asked, "Y are u here?" I said, "To go toilet" HAHHAA!!! We were both laughing like crazy...

So, all the way to City Hall, ting and i were talking bout many many things... Many things...

Reached City hall and met Andy and Dear. Walked to Carlton and it started raining, BIG! K, dun wanna say much bout there coz ya, it's a hotel afterall... The only thing i can say is that, it is a place that differ too much from OHS... Very much... Not used to it, dun like it... So, it is the first and pretty much the last.

Saturday morning, woke up really early to go chijmes... GoSh... It's beautiful. Like it... But the morning was tiring. Met Astley after that and he was complaining bout our school going so early then he had to do turnover... HAHA!!! Miss Ng thought something happened and y was i talking to a guy from there. HAHA!!! Nono, ex-colleuge. And heard some stuff from him... Hee~

Went to city link's giodano and bought some clothes hastily coz i dun wanna wear the formal thingy, $80... GoSh... No cash to spend liao le.

Anyway, last night at OHS kind of sucks a bit. I was so tired, so not in the mood to work. Imagine having to work with so many newbies. Hai... Well, i swallowed, complained and tears were at my eyes but the night went by. Last night, last time, sprayed my whole head just for them. Looked at the fuking face of Yihua who tried to pick on the friends i brought in and see the coordinator made me mad, plus Yusoff's making fun, not in the mood, am pissed. I guess that is the last.

And ending for a long while.

Ok, i slept like nuts after reaching home from Newton last night. 2pm i woke up, felt damn tired. Wanted to go get my lappy but i dozed off on my bed, woke up, it was 6pm, and Darl said he would send it to me... HA! ma fan Him le...

Wanted to go play badminton but well, too tired to. Didn't do a lot of things... Ha! I am just too tired.

Not gonna work for a while, i'll have sufficient time now.

Loves, Ai Ping.

You asked me so much yet my response stays still... Have you ever thought why? Or how? Have you ever wonder about me, or kind of just think? I don't know how much you know or how much you don't, are u just acting oblivious? Not feeling a bit of my words? I'm just dragging on...

Sian...

No school today but i felt like going out to do something. Didn't go K box that George organised coz there were too many things to do.

Stayed at home and slacked quite a bit and completed POA. Then, smsed Aiai. Told her can go see shoes with her then need to go Mac and do hw...

So, met up with her but she was half an hour late... -_-" Coz of her Mr Wai... Heh Heh! Doesn't matter, went on to walk around WM and see her shoes. Hai... I saw a nice heels... HA! Doubt there'll be any occasion that i can wear... After that, went to Mac and have our dinner.

Haven't gone to that Mac for a while to have dinner le and it felt kind of distant coz last few months, i was a regular of it. Well! Hee~ Then, talked to Aiai bout some OHS thingy and some Darl thingy. Sister came a while later.

AiAi ate one last Mentos before she left. Hee~ Love HeR too...

So i continued with my homework and Sister continued with her study. For the next hour or so, i completed MAEC, besides the website qn, finished my FABM tut and roughly half of next week's MAEC's tut.. Yup... Wanted to do POA's classwork but was thinking, the lecture want us to do in class so ya, leave it to tml.

9.30pm, ting and i went to WM, i wanted to buy Sushi to makan but too bad, it was empty. Met Kailing and ting's jie there. Heh heH! Kailing looks different in wad she's in. Hee~ Different feel from the coach i knew.

Walk around Shop N save and bought seaweed, after that, i'm here. HA!!

I realised Darl trimmed off a lot of my top hair... How to tie properly? Hai... Look so qi guai, dunnoe how to handle... So chaM... He is weird today again... But well, he's always so.

A very long day tomorrow... Dunnoe how to survive... 9am to 8pm...Almost 12 hours... GoSh... Must drink coffee tml morning... Must rmb...

Is my last para always chim? Maybe i should make it simpler...

Just want a simple something from a simple person. Nothing irregular, just a simple love, and a simple person to hug... Is that simple enough? That's all I ask...

All around me...

Ping Hong And I...

Everyone you can know...

Dear and I

We're CuTe...

It's ALL HER!!!!!!!!

Again...

昨晚想了很多事，那些事似乎一直环绕着我，但我却没有好好地真正想过... 没有一刻，我有用心想。 至从那时，我完完全全地停止了一切想像...

很想告诉你我在想什么，很想说出不该说的话，这段时间，有点累... 已经不知道我们之间到底是什么，也不明了你说的话是否所实... 可以在我耳边说吗？

笑容已不再灿烂，心里已渐渐忘记，不过，回忆依然有如坏掉的录音机，不断地跳针，一直让我想起你这个不完美的男人...

Will there be a day when you are totally out of my life? A day when i no longer depend on you for my smiles? You asked me why don't i just leave? But i would like to know, why don't you just leave? Y kept coming when you know, no ending can surface?

I am really tired dragging myself so far... But there is no doubt that the feeling is there... Still there, blooming like ever before. Tears no longer come, not because they dun want to but because i stop them from coming... Just like i did for the love...

Participation in your life takes too much off of me, but something at the back of my head kept telling me not to let go... Y am I so foolish when I odd to be wise? Y must I carry hope when no more exists? But u came by and said, hope bears flame at the very sight of you...

Cupid came at the wrong time, the wrong moment... When the time is right, cupid ain't there, i think cupid shot the wrong arrow on the wrong people... Cupid, you made a mistake, did you? If not, this wouldn't have been so hard...

Wishing to be in your arms once more... Silently... With no strings attached at all... Can that be true?

Why is your love such a fleet? Why isn't it clear at all?

那纯纯的爱, 还在吗?

Feel so tired now... Wanted to cut hair, waited for 4 long long hours b4 it was my turn... It's not like i went there to rebond hair...

I'm not really in a good mood now, dun really know why. Feels fuK... After reading Andy's blog, really feel like killing pple from OHS. Like stop making use of pple only when u need them. How many pple must u all make them feel this way. Not many are so willing to work under such pressures and get those ass scoldings for no reason. Look how practical can the world be? When u need help, "i beg you", when u dun need help, "who the hell are you?" U know wad, Fuk off with this kind of thing, let's just wait till one day when they need us all and we refuse to go... So fed up even when i'm not there.

Hai... AIai just told me Honey asked Xiuying to be the coordinator. I find it kind of weird coz Xiuying only got 2 months, what's the use of having her there for 2months only? Probably can help him stand in for a short while. I dun understand. Sometimes, he didn't really think well too. Y make someone feel so attach to a place he/she won't be in for long? It would only distract him/her when school reopen and he/she cannot concentrate. For XY's case, she won't be able to concentrate for her O's next year. Like i said, only thinks bout themselves and not others... Selfish.... Way too selfish... Hai... Feel so disgusted for a place that i've given so much respect for... Saddening to see how things change when that pillar was removed only a while ago... Such tragedy.

Got so pissed helping pple to book for work also. Dunnoe which coordinator is in charge of what. Everytime call office, no one picks up. Dun wanna call their hp coz it is not nice, coz hp, their private stuff, y bother with it... Experienced that, that's y dun wanna do that. So? How? Maybe i should just stop doing this kind of extra things. I dun really get any benefits from it. Sometimes, even got blamed for it. To hell it goes...

After this week, i'm gonna leave everything to themselves. I think the hotel got no lack of staff now, so i shall stop troubling myself to bringing pple in. Waste of my own time and money. Any repayment? MAny unanswered calls. PISSED!!!

I just wanna go back to my good old days as a student, not worrying anything but books, friends and life. That's it, without work, i can have more time for studies... Let me complete my 40hours!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, i trimmed my hair finally after 4 long hours of wait and the shop was almost empty by then... So tiring k... But got a ride back... HA! That's good enough le... O... I helped MAd sweep the floor. Both of them were so tired... The people just kept coming, none stop, kind of scary... If u think about it, if that happens everyday, they're gonna die... And i overheard MAd sayin that they earned more than $1600 just now... I was like, waHHHH!!!! And i gave both of them some massage... Poor thing...

Sounds weird, but MAD plays badminton... HAHa!!! And i was telling him, ASK ME TO GO! HAHA!! HEh HeH! See next Sun how, go play, that is if, i am fit enough to... Hai... School, so tiring...

Well, i think i am gonna be damn busy again...

Good night pple, time for me to turn in...

Whenever you touch me, I can't help but remember the past... I am pretty lost at the moment, very tired from all the battles... Torn by the shadows of you, gripped by a lock unknown... How can I break free and be away from all... Find a paradise for me to heal... Where can that be? Where can that possibly be? Dragging on...

Uting's BBQ

WoAhhh... Reallt tired after yesterday. gOSh... Went out of my house at 3pm, rushed to deposit cash, then rushed to WM to get something pretty for Uting and Si En... HA! i got chocolates for both though. Anyway, they love to eat... Then, rushed to lot 1. So rush...

Met up with Uting and Ming Son, and went to get some soft drinks and tidbits, walked to her place.

BBQ started with no one who knows how to start fire. Ming son was struggling to keep the fire going then after he ran off. I was like, Hello, i've never done this b4... I only stood beside and fan. With nobody the help and it was getting late, i decided to just try my luck. Crap... Started with a few charcoals then the fire started, charcoal started burning brightly, that's when i put more charcoal and more starters. HAHA!!!! Crap... Yulianto and his friend came and they helped me too... HAHA! After very long, the charcoals were steaming hot... Pretty... Hai... I got a bit pissed with Uting's "relatives" in the midst, basically, they just kept coming and ask, "Hao le MAh?!" Then kept complaining the fire not working... Ass... If they know, they come and make lah, i m not from NP nor brownies, how to start fire? Anyway start got fire very good liao le... Hai... After a while, i gave up bbqing... Stopped, sat down, drink water... Dehydrated...

Anyway, after that i didn't touched the pit much le... Kind of just sat and talk to old friends... Hee~

Oooo!!! After the cutting cake, it was really funny, i took cream and put on Uting's, Hun's, Fish's, Trish's and Ming's face... After that, the chased me like siao lah... HAHA!!! I was running and my jeans was falling off!!!! OMG!!!! They had a hard time catching me, and i got a hard time running away from them. In the end, i gave up and my face was full of chocolate... yuCks... That's the price to pay for being funny...

BBQ ended, everyone left except our sec school pals. We started to help Uting finished the last bit of food left on the pit and ya, we finished them. Ah HAHAHA!!! Cleaned up the mess and left for Alif where Kok Hong, Wei Yi and Silong were...

Sat there and chat a bit here and there and Uting was Drunk again. Heh HeH!!! She went to my house to stay. Hee~ She asked me a very crap qn, because she was sleeping on the floor, she asked, "Ping, wad if i turn around and saw somebody staring at me through?" I was like, "HUH?! then assumed that it's me... HAHA!!!" funnY... Anyway, we turned in at around 3plus. Woke up just now and went for breakfast with Ming.

Now, i'm home, wating for time to pass, then go and meet Deaarr.... Cut hair... My hair is getting on my nerves these few days... So big... So ugly... ArGhh... That's the trouble of short hair, when it started getting real thick, u can feel it... GoSh...

Well, the BBQ was alright and it marks Uting's growth to the age of 18 but it wasn't exactly yesterday... Next Wed... Good for her... Happy that she found someone she can like... All the bEst my girl...

K, my arm is hurting from yesterday... Ass... Still got lots of stuff to do... Well, later tonight i guess... YEAH!

GonNA bath....

On my date.... HA!

Heh HeH... Woke up early at 8.55am even though my class starts at 1pm. Went to school early for LMS project discussion. Hai... Quite angry initialy, meeting time was 10am, everyone were late... Thought i am the latest, the rest were later.. I sat at the atrium and STONE...

Anyway, they came around 11am, went to library, booked a room and started discussing. It was a pleasant one... At least we did wad we are supposed to, no slackers at that point. Discussion ended at 12.55pm, almost everything done... HAPPY...

Started feeling tired during LMS, after touching up on the stuff, i kind of just rot away... Heh heH!!! 3pm, IAC... Hai... It was fun lah, the guy was funny, entertaining and finished the assignment within a short while. Dismissed at 4.55pm.

Smsed Bt kor and went to the toilet. Waited for him till 5plus... As usual, stone in canteen. Saw his colourful helmet but he went all the way up the slope... HA!

So, we went to VIVO for a movie... Got a bit pissed with VIVO coz everything like so messed up and can't seem to get out of the maze. HAHA!!! Anyway, the theatre was normal i think... Nothing special... Heh heH! Sinking of Japan is a not bad movie, not as bad as what my friends said. There were a few points when i kind of dozed off, coz i was really tired... Heh HeH!!! Not coz the movie is boring... Serious...

Then, KOr acted secretive, refused to tell me where he wanna bring me for dinner... CrAZyy.... So blindly went with him. Went to Carlton to park his bike... GoSh... And ya, Andy, it's CArlton hotel... HAHA!!! Then went to eat Yu Pian Mee Fen, tell u, i addicted liao le lah... HAHA!!! And we were talking bout "back then"... HeH hEh! So funny ar... DeaarRrr....

Anyway, after dinner, he sent me back... Kind of freaked a little when he sped... K, i dunno whether that was speeding not, but feels like speeding to me... Kind of scary... Said BYE and go home bATH!!!

Wah... I feel like sleeping now but then dun feel like sleeping... SiAo! Heh hEh!!!

It's Uting's BBQ tml... Still gotta go get her present and all... AHhhh...

Finally, the week kind of calmed down a little. Beginning of this week, i dieded... Heh HEH! Good thing am able to revive. Well, i guess i need some balance in life. Yeah...

Should find a new blogskin le... Getting really plain...

Just too deep to understand... Just how can I wake up?

Feeling so Weird nowadays...

Many things happened today!

There's a lot of worms near Canteen 3... Freaking scary lah... Jiawen and I were screamin and shouting at the sights of those black worms... They're everywhere! So disgusting u know... My hair were raising every single time. GoSh..

Then, after MAEC tut, went to OHS, the cashier was so dao.... SO angry... Everytime take pay must see that sort of face. Crap... Got my pay, went to Office find XUeni.. Then gave her all the names of friends and the numbers and wadever necessary thingy and Terry was asking me bout MOS thing... Hai... I doubt will be going le... Nobody seems interested... Must tell terry later... Hai...

Just now, i washed hair for Darl... HAHA!!! Went there to send him his songs, then the 3 of them werer busy with each other's hair. Then while Shikin was doing other's hair, Darl asked her to wash but she was busy, he looked at me and ask me to wash and since no harm, i washed his hair... SO funny k... scratching other people's head feels weird. But was fun playing ShAmPoo Mei... After washing off, i saw the colour, crazy lah, ask me wanna make that colour not, i look at it and went, OMG.... It's green... Not my colour... BlEh... Left after that...

Ehh.... Dozed off a little on my settee then 2kor came back, kind of complaining that he was hungry so i got up and cooked pasta for him... He said it's nice... So happy... After the much failure fillet the other day that deaarr and i cooked, this is a comeback that i made to please my brother. K, Deaarr and darl, next time u all come, i cook pasta, taste better, no raw one... Hee! Then i'll do the western 4 courses... HAHA!!!

Anyway, i slacked the rest of the night... The best night so far...

Tian Cheng called and i'm going to Ritz to work... AH hAHAhAHA!!! So happy... Different environment to try out.

Ooo... Forgot to mention, walked to bus stop with Andy Chua just now after i left OHS... Waited for bus together and my bus came 1st so i said BYE!!!

DeaArr is such a pig...

Tml, i got secret date... Shh... Wait for pple to spot me and him then act embarrass... AH HAHAHA !!!!

YaYa... Somebody miss me... Somebody i didn't expect. HAHA!! Feel so funny...

OOo!!! IT'S EDITH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY 17TH EDITH!!!!!!!!!!! HOPE U LIKE THE NARUTO!!!! LoVes....

Sometimes when I ponder over everything, it seems like a dream... If only things can get better... Between u and I, can we be the same again? Maybe not... Caught in dilemma coz of you...

Funny things yet it was serious...

I really fell asleep on the table just now... It was a great 20min nap. No dreams though... HAHA!!!

POA tutorial was pretty good. At least i understand everything after all the explanation, it wasn't as difficult but really gotta read carefully.

Anyway, tut ended and it was raining heavily and the damn bus took so long to arrived and it was so packed, having a great headache by then.

Reached interchange and i was waiting for Yuting and Qiang to reply me whether to go dinner not, then all of a sudden, i rmbed it is wed and lao ma is at home! So i was like, OMG! Called home and mama said she is sick, not cooking so i gotta buy myself. Heh HeH!

While walking to the coffeshop, went pass VK and the siao lang shouted at me. I was like on the phone with my ma! Anyway, i went to buy fish Porridge so mama can eat also. Went back and Darl took my lappy and said, "We got a lot of viless" HAhA!!! Guess wad is that... HAha! It's VIRUS!!! I kept hearing viless, wireless or wadever less... In the end it was Virus... Heh HeH! Well, at least he learns. K, he just wanted to crap with me so ask me to go there, crazy. I was having a bad headache so i didn't entertain much and left. I did apologized for my cold reaction.

Anyway, reached home and kind of sat there and died... Then, my head was really killing me so i kind of lay down and rest and slept fot an hour... Before i fell asleep was talking crap with Darl through sms.

Woke up and was very gong... Went to have a good bath from head to toe.

Slacked all the way till 9plus and i got my butt up to do some work.

Darl suddenly smsed me, asked me to help him find a song so i said alright will find. Dunnoe wad happen again, our convo gets a bit serious. I really dunnoe how to answer his qns. Simple, the way he phrased, answer could be simple and straight but i struggle a lot to come out with one ambigious answer so he won't get the wrong idea nor will i get the wrong idea.

Richard told me something bout new girlfriend and i laughed it off... Then Darl came asking bout all those... Conspiracy? Heh HeH! I dunnoe...

He made me smile again with all the words he said... Yet every single thing that he said made me fall deeper, wondering where are all these heading to... Does he really mean what he says? Can I trust him? Can he be him again? Is he truthful this time round? Dreaming dreams that are too perilous... Pacing towards an unthinkable end... Still seeking possibilities within the impossibles... Foolish me, in a foolish world, still believing in a foolish love... Love of my life... Unbearable...

In school... feeling bored...

I'm in school now... I am really tired, and i really dunnoe why. Is this a normal thing? Like go to school and u'll definitly feel tired? Gosh... I can't stand this... I really wanna sleep well on Friday.

Had so much to do for BCA but good enough, we've got things done 3/4. I'm glad although the group ain't full.

Well, more to come, i haven't done anything for LMS and IAC. Do hope it's alright.

Cannot tahan all these.

I just rmbed Richard told me the other time that he's going to Korea on Nov2 which just so happens to be tomorrow. So cool right? He is so rich, always going overseas with his lao po. Ah... Envious... So i smsed him just now to wish him Bon voyage and to rmb my Korean boyfriend gift. HAHA!!!! I was being lame.

Called and chatted with Dear last night and ya, many many things to complain and laugh about. SHe's my dear, i love her.

I dunnoe how to survive later's POA tut, i'm already feeling tired now. Many Many things to do.. SO angry...

O... There's no WCOM lecture tomorrow. So i can go by 2pm but i gotta go OHS again to take my pay. Gosh... Wad a hassle...

Well, many things to reflect on, many things to wonder, i dun understand too much and there are just too many things to see. I havey yet to venture out of the little red dot nor have i started contributing to it. When will be the day when i can live at another city, feel another feeling. When?

When will i find a man who is as charming as Brad Pitt, when will i have my first little baby? O... I would love a huskey too... When?

When can i live by myself and feel unrestricted, when can i do things like an adult can?

Just when?

QUite dreaming...

Well, i'm gonna take a nap b4 class starts at 2pm.

Loves...

MoVe MoVe mOve

Woke up very late this morning. I had no idea why. Felt really tired in my head and my mind just ain't working well. Something must be wrong with my body system, i need to be more health conscious. I may just die suddenly. Rmb? The concussion sleep?

It was a pleasant day today, the rain made the sky clear and the air blend in so well in my lungs and i am just happy that the haze ain't that annoying anymore.

Made a trip to OHS today but the damn cashier weren't around. Couldn't take my pay. Maybe i'll go there again on thurs. So tiring... Brought Joan and YAzid along this times. Honey owes me $6 now... HA! Well, doesn't matter anyway.

He was being cute just now. I told him bout FABM attachment thingy and i said i work so need to sign, then he told me, "Honey, u not working, u are helping me." I was like, "Where is the difference?" He is so cute... Well, i guess burden on him is larger now... He seems so sian everytime i see him. But... He is still very cute... Heh heh

On the bus back to batok, i dozed off with my chin against my lappy cover. Woke up and my chin hurts. HeH HeH! Anyway, i dragged myself home, was really tired.

Reached home and slack, dozed off on the sette again.

Woke up and i began cracking my head to solve the POA qn. With Edith's help, i finally figured them out. Step By step, girl, step by step.

Around 7.15pm, rushed out to meet Ting. heh HeH! I gave her a Candy treat... It's Halloween in the US... So far, Dear, Darl, Richard, Joan and Jiawen got a candy treat from me. No one else gonna get it le, coz halloween is gonna be over soon.

Then we walked round WM looking for stuff. She was looking for tops, pants, nail polish and handphone accessaries, but she got none... Isn't she marvellous? Ha! In the end, she bought Popiah and Rojak... No link...

I got my FAN and went back home. Finished eating and started slacking in front of the TV watching True Story... Somebody killed somebody, somebody got caught, somebody decided to turn over a new leaf and now somebody is showing somebody gratitude. Isn't that good? Should have more of these people. Learn from your own mistakes.

Then, i started typing the journals for FABM. 2 journals... Not bad ar... After writing the journals, kind of reminded me of LAu. HA.. U know, he is always o particular bout grooming. Never fails to catch my frindge during important events. Missing him already.

Hai...

Sometimes, i hate doing certain things but i know they are good. Wad the hell!

I think there is something wrong with my father. He kept asking me whether i got school not when i told him many times that i've started school. He suddenly asked me dun be afraid. I think he is drunk or something...

I have been missing a lot of our past... What I used to hold...

Deep state

Sickening, i went into concussion this afternoon when i reached home. GoSh... Scare the freaking hell out of me when i woke up. I remembered i struggled to wake up in the middle of the sleep but my eyes just can't open. When they opened, i felt my eyes rolled to the top and i just went into a sleep of wad i thought would be, of no return. i woke up at 5.30pm and got a shock... Was so scared i couldn't wake up anymore... Was that the feeling of dying? GoSh... It's so scary...

goSh... I spent an hour trying to figure how to do the POA qn... Gosh... Dunnoe how... Hai...

Ting just called me... She scared me with her first unclear sentence... I heard she said, "My cousin drop into the MRT track" I was like, "HUH?!" Then she repeated... It's not the cousin, it's her phone... It is so......... OmG... She said it's her bad day... Sister.. Cheer Up... It is just a material i guess although i know it hurts... Hai... Dunnoe wad to say either... Save up and get a new one i guess... Smile k...

Today, my chat with Darl sounds weird... Dunno how to really describe it... He kind of... Eh.... forget it.. Think i dun say better... Sounds weird but i didn't put much into consideration. Heh HeH!

Anyway, i told him I love Dear, and she loves me but i am not lesbian... Bunch of craps...

Andy Chua said i didn't mention him on my blog. Ok... So here goes... Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua Andy Chua... enough?? ya i think so... HAHA!!!

I rmbed somebody called me out loud while i was at VK, i was like who?! And dear heard it too...

Terry Tan called me to ask wad should they buy for Uting... HAha!! then i told them something she LOVES!

I was shock that i couldn't wake up, i was shocked by Darl's words and i was shocked by sister's misfortune... And for me... I am down coz i am just too stress over 6 projects and many many tutorials...

Life is pretty miserable... 无法好好的想想一切... 时间不够，身心疲惫... 停止一切一会儿好吗？生命弄人... Smiling ain't easy now...

Found oUt!

Many Many things to blog about. Lots of stuff happened from Friday onwards.

Went to school without any food in my tummy on Friday. Had LMS class and finally got quite a few stuff cleared in our heads bout wadever we must do. After LMS, met up with Ting and went to work.

Sprayed my hair black just for work, pretty troublesome but that's wad i get for being vain. HA!!! Quite irritating to spray hair u know. So went up to work, Yusoff asked me to go get the menu for VIP, so i went down and get it but i couldn't find our dear coordinator. So i was pacing around to find her. Then, she finally came. She haven't cut her menu. GoSh... So i was helping her and she kept doing other things and complaining.. Wadever. Took me a while to finish cutting the menu coz of the penknife... So pathetic...

Went up, they were having briefing. So i stood near the door. Then the damn Yihua open the door like pushing some rocks, hit right onto my thumb. FuK! Then i moved away from the door. Ass...

6 to 5 VIP tables... Wasn't really happy with the people i'm working with so my face was pretty black the whole day through till the ending part of the night. Ermm... Dun like such working style. They left without informing whomever, wadever. HAi... Anyway, weren't any coordination in the whole thing so well, wasn't a great night. Was really tired walking on and on and on like nobody's business, but who am i to complain to any of them? HA!

Anyway, night ended, went to office to wait for Xueni and Angel to go for Supper. Then, took transport home. Reached at 2am.

Next morning Darl smsed and couldn't really read properly coz i was really tired but i did replied him, and i knew wad he was trying to say. Hee~ I'm smart ok... Heh heH!

Then, some freak called wanting to chat, i was kind of pissed, i was trying to rest rmb? Ass that person, i just told him "i'm sleeping, bye..."

Very angry with these Despo kia...

Anyway, Saturday, very pissed with Darl... Late for meeting time with Jiawen and Edith, in the end, need Dear to help me meet them.

That sickening Security taking her own sweet time to write the vouchers, damn, feel liks slapping her lah, the queue was like so long, still act like she can handle everything... Fuk Off...

Then i rushed to changing room, faster change like siao... Saw Edith and Jiawen... HAHa! Helped Edith make-up... HAHA! Her face so small...

Anyway, rushed like nuts and went up for briefing. Then very "sway", check grooming. My nails were AhEm, LONG!!! But Terry was kind enough to let me off. VIP with Elsie.

Wah... Elsie really very Aunty u know... She's so young yet so aunty... Cannot stand her, very funny u know... Ok lah, had fun working with her... Good communication...

Went around helping pple and went to see Jiawen and Edith need help not then aunty Lau Hong Eng very cute lah, she asked me whether Edith is my sister not.. HAHA!!! But i think they were doing alright.

Asked Mao need help there, he dun wanna reply me so i assume nothing is wrong, who knows end of the night, Ting's partner screwed... Many Many tears incident ar... But Ting, Mao asked me to tell u that he is really sorry, he was really just playing with you and not putting blame on u... And really, he tells u everything coz he trusts that you know wad to do, he didn't tell the other guy coz he knows he cannot make it. The rest of the stuff that he added was for fun... So, forgive him.

Well, new staff, new attitudes, no use blaming them when they are such screw-ups, if we can do it ourselves, we just do it ourselves. If we are lucky, we met good staff, it'll just lighten our loads, if we're unlucky, wad to do, be happy, work ourselves.

Yesterday Yusoff said something bout drinking soft drinks and i find it pretty true. "Drinking soft drinks is a privilege, not a entitlement." True right? True enough that the hotel is rich, soft drinks very cheap, just drink but we can drink it coz it's a privilege given by the hotel and not an entitlement. TruE TRuE...

Well, many things are changing in the hotel and a few leaving as well... Will it ever be the same again? I doubt so... One thing is for sure, i'll missed everything from when i first stepped in.

Anyway, woke up early today coz going to Vivo with Dear for the Orientation thingy. There's really nothing to orientate about... Went there, sat down, talk to the restaurant manager and that was it. HAHA! It is a Beer house at Vivo City, looks pretty nice... I think i'm gonna work there... HAHA!!! Great Great... Another new job found...

Shop around Vivo, huge yet nothing much to buy coz i couldn't afford. I bought chocolate and candies.. Hai... Fail...

After that, went to JE to take pictures... HAHA! So long never take le... Dear and I was like so nerd...

Went to Batok next. Guess who we accidentally BUMPED into while going to Coffee Bean? My closest "Kin"(Brother and sister leh) besides my family... Dear and I were surprised... HEh HeH! Li Xiao them and felt so weird. Went out and look at their stunned face... And her face was like... HeH HeH! Cute ar... Not good to do things so silently ar... HAHa!!! No lah, it was just a joke made out by Dear and I... It was funny though... HAHA!!!

Went to look for Darl to get a free ride back... So funny ar... No lah, wanted to ask him something, then asked him to send me back also lah coz Dear meeting her friends... Heh HEH! So poor thing lah Darl. His hand got blue black from the glucose... Then the nurse was so bad, anyhow poke, hello, it's the vein rmb? goSh... Well, he's Ok lah... Then we chitter chatter a bit and reached my house... Ah HAHA!!! Reached home in an instant.

Unpacked stuff and now online doing nothing... Hee~ No lah, after this, gonna go type out script for LMS... HAi...

Dear said whenever we got nothing to say, say I love you.... AH HAHAHA!!!! I love You, DEar!!!

Posted???

Try unfolding the truth that lies within... Try understanding what I'm thinking about... Try making sense with the thoughts that kept playing... Try holding on to the moment when you got everything... Try loving me again... Love ain't easy at all...

Tired...

I'm so busy with school work. I dun understand why i am so busy this semester u know. This whole week and last weekend was all busy busy, and these few days, my eyes are on the computer screen for practically the whole night. Is it because i was lazy last semester? Or is it coz this semester is very tight? Really dunnoe. Ok, the good thing is, i felt the nerves, felt the strained on my brain and the rush to complete things and the ultimate satisfaction of submitting wadever i'll strained myself for.

Well, i just completed the Draft report of the LMS project. So tired.... Nobody was online to discuss wadsoever. However, did inform all to do their part. Hope they did. i know one of them did, coz she was the only one online discussing with me. Kind of pissed coz u know wad? I'm not the leader but i did the extra parts... Hai... Wadever, i'm done, i'm satisfied. Well, coz i'm not brining laptop and i won't be joining them with the IAC discussion tml coz i need to work, i think i should do that extra part.

Ooo... I forgot to say yesterday i met Ying Ren at SIM... Such coincidence. He saids he couldn't regconize me... ANd i couldn't regconize him either, his hair all over his face... HAHA...

Then, i met Kok hong just down at the escalator. No actually i was standing outside May Fashion and he was on the escalator going down and we were talking like that, a distance apart. So funny. He's so cute... KoK HoNg Ok!

Andy Chua smsed me today... He's being funny.. I was in LT when he smsed and i was like huh?? HAHA!!!

Well... Have u heard Michael Learns to Rock's 25 Minutes... It's a nice song... Love it!

I think my eye sight dying soon... I should stop looking at computer screen so much... It's so harmful.

I met all my tutors already... I think i should be happy coz they all seems good but i doubt there'll be any other who'll actually make me like them like i did before with the others.

Aiai wanted to meet up for dinner but i couldn't, i am half-dead and i got so much to do. Sorry, AiAI...

My days are quiet without you... My days are empty without you... Will dreams come true? They do if you really want them to, even though they may not be possible... If only I could turn back time, I would do it all over again, do it the right way, do it with everything I am. Yet time can never turn back, it is just too fast for me to hold on... Will you be there for me when I need that shoulder again? As a beloved friend...

Dozed off unknowingly thinking of you... Cradled in your loving arms, sunk in the thoughts of you and I...

Boy, I miss your kisses, all the time but this is, 25 minutes too late... Though you travelled so far, boy I'm sorry you are, 25 minutes too late... Too late for you perhaps...

Gasping for some fresh air...

I came to gasp for some air. The damn internet explorer corked up, and deleted my whole god damn entry of complain. Ass....

I am so tired from all the naggings from my mother, so tired of all the workload that i have, so pissed off with the time, GoSh!

Things to do:
1. BCA Unit B and C skills review
2. SAM installation
3. POA tutorial
4. POA Quiz
5. MAEC tutorial
6. FABM Tutorial
7. FABM Journal
8. LMS Report Draft
9. BCA PBL learning template

Projects:
1. BCA PBL
2. FABM individual Project
3. FABM Group Project
4. LMS Peace and War Report
5. IAC survey project
6. WCOM report

See.... SO many many things to complete with such short notice. What to do? I completed one pile, then the other pile comes up.

I still need to work for the damn FABM attachment, 40hours! I ain't gonna be free this weekend coz i'm damn busy working OHS and trying to complete BCA, SAM, POA, MAEC. DAmn... Dun even know whether i can go out a chill a little not. Hai... Nah, i guess it's alright... I can make it right? Maybe some stress, ok, a lot of stress... HAi...

Kk, should put the load down for now... Rest... Gasp for air...

This morning, Xiuying smsed me say she's not going to work, ask me to tell coordinators... HA!!! Omg!

Just now, somebody suddenly called me when i was stoning from all the work, and he is somebody who i dunnoe at all, a guy from friendster... CrAp...

Then, i rmbed chatting with Robert on MSN, and wondering when can we break out own 5hours chatting on the phone record and sighing coz life is such crap at this moment.

I rmbed eating Curry that my mother cooked. It was Delicious!

I rmbed my lao ma nagging at me coz i asked her for money for the fine dining and grooming courses for my course. I shouted at her coz i was already so frustrated and her voice was getting on my nerves.

Now, i feel like sleeping... There's POA, MAEC and WCOM tomorrow... No need laptop, good good. 1st MAEC tutorial, looking forward to see the tutor.

My POA tutor is Lee Lee Boon, she talked too much... I went into her class with my eyes open, listen to her, my eyes went half-open and nearly closed, until she finally began her class, i woke up. goSh... She asked me whether i got sister not... *YawN* Only got brothers... Fake sister can? Xueting.. HAha!!

At least i rmbed her name...

I need to buy a txt for BCA and install the SAM disc by this weekend. So troublesome...

Hai... I'm gonna stop doing things. Wanna turn off and sleep...

有时侯， 真的不想那么辛苦，觉得我大可放弃一切，嫁给一个有钱人算了... 累了，疲惫不堪... 这生命的意义在何处？这人生的定点在于那儿？这美丽的脸蛋儿又有何用？真的会好吗？真的不会后悔？我的一生会是如何精彩，　如何狼狈？谁能知？

CooKIng!!!!

I had this freaking dream today! I woke up at 1pm and just lazed on my bed, but i kind of dozed off again. Then, i dreamt of this ancient castle and some ah peh was imprisoned and we went to save him. In the end, he died in front of me... WAD THe?! So freaky...

Went to Clementi to meet Dearr, she ate the very disgusting Wanton Mee and we went for TANG YUANB!!!! HAHA!!! Then, we walked around again, buy her BRA! Then i went to LP zone see see, bought a jacket... HAppY! Waste money... Hee~

Then, we came to my house. Bought some stuff to cook. Called Ting and Yuting, none was free to come by. Only Deaarr and I... HAHa!!! However, Darl smsed me while we were cooking, so i called him to come... Ah HAHAHA!!!! Enjoy food OK!

I saw his car coming in when he came, told Deaar, then my Deaarr shouted from Lvl8 "EDDIE!!!!!!!!!!!!" HAHA!!!! OMG! I didn't really know wad happen during the shouting, i was frying egg. HEh hEh!!! So omg!

Mess things up a bit lah. Dunnoe wad the hell happen, probably the new stove, some of the fries went black... So cham... But the 2 enjoyed eating? I think... Heh HeH! It smelled so badly at home lah... I still think pasta is a better choice to cook... No oil, no smoke. Heh heH! Finish cooking, i mopped the floor, do the dishes b4 i sat down. Lao, my toes kept cramping... GoSh... Hurts badly...

Darl very funny, didn't bring specs then afraid can't see when he drives back.. I find it so funny lah... HA!!! Da kor suddenly came back and heh heh, scare us... But nothing happened lah... Hee~ Darl left and Dearr went to my room to watch GONG. Then i helped her shave eyebrows... Heh HeH! So fun...

OOOO... Darl saw this DVD on the table so he on to see... It was so RA! GoSh... I was like looking and thinking y is it on my table... Of coz, i didn't buy it, my kor did, and it was on the table!!!!!!!!! Like hello, its so shouldn't be there. HAHA!!!

I had a great night... Although food wasn't that tasty, it was edible and i had fun looking at Dearr wash my wok... AH HAHAHAHA!!!! O... And i had fun seeing Darl cooked the FISh! So FuNNY!!! So cooL... Let's do it again this weekend!!!!! With Sister!!!! HeH HEh HEH! Got work... Hai...

I just finished rushing out the FABM slides... Now my neck is hurting... Sit so long... GoSh...

So boring now... Going to sleep soon... 9am class... Printed so many notes... Last for several weeks, i am so blessed to get those inks! Wadever...

CiAO!

You are so cute... (DeaRR) I love you...

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After coming home from school today, many things to do, i can barely take a rest. After i was done, i sat down and enjoyed my late lunch. Omg, i forgot wad i ate for lunch... Ehhh.... O! I had Sushi... HAHa!!! For a moment, i thought i will never remember. Hee~

Then, it started pouring when trish called me. Rmb, she gave me the wrong book, so was going to change with her. When i reaced interchange, rain kind of subsided, we changed the books and went to WM to get my ink. Then we stroll around a little bit. Somebody walked pass her and scratched her arm, hai... She said she must've offended the person... I wonder.... HAHA!!! Anyway, she very cute lah, i saw the scratch liao, then when i came home, she came to tell me again... Trish, r u slow or wad? HAHA! kidding... She is very cute sometimes lah... HA! TrIshy...

After reaching home, i started browsing through some of the old smses... Came across so many that still touched me today. Some still make me smile for no reason. I had thousand of smses in my previous phone that i didn't erase coz sometimes it is nice to go back and read through them and feel the feeling that i once felt again. Naive in a way but it's a good way to remember the different pple who said the different things. Some i dun even remember but when i look at it, it came right back. HAhA! There are just too many memories to keep, too many to take away. It took me 5 years to get rid of my primary school and early sec school letters between my, then, pals, how many more years will it take me to erase all those memories, now that i've grown up more? I guess it won't go even if i delete them, some things just can't go. Right? (:

Well, i fell asleep on my bed while waiting for Deaarr's call... And i realised i am very tired so i called off the meeting today with her. We planned to do POA together at Mac but i'm just too tired. Woke up at 7am ok... HAHA!!!

I was lazy to go downstairs to get my dinner so i decided to cook myself. It had been so long since i cooked rice myself, and my rice came out a little bit too sticky... HAHa!!! Lost touch... But my Cheese Omelette and Potato came out well... YuMMy! My own cooking... Ha!

After eating, i slacked in front of the TV until 10.30pm, went to bath then do my POA. Completed it and followed by WCOM, finished... I'm left with BCA and FABM tutorial. HA!!

No school tomorrow, where should i go? Feel like going to sing... Wait for Uting to tell me. But another part of me felt like staying home. HAha!! Ass...

Xiao Qiang said i'm such an irony the other day. Heh HeH! Me!!! Ironic!

Many pple asked bout my hair... HA!!!

Well, i'm tired, should turn in lah...

Selamat Hari Raya Puasa!

CiAo!

Even if I forget about everything, you remain in my mind...

Yours truely...(SMS style)

也因为有你一路陪着我，所以我才能度过那么多美好的时光… Hope in my future journey, u will play a part in it too… really glad dat I hab u around…thanx for putting up with my everything. -Xueting

I confessed to u, but u r not there... -Melissa

I love you. -Melissa

Ther r no exact rite or wrong.. Depends on situation n thinkin.. Frm e 1st day i saw u till e day i decide 2 get ur number hu knows m i wrong or rite? It is not ur cheerful or red cheeks tat attract me.. But e real u tat u try so hard 2 hide.. B true.. Miss u.. _orange 2 u_ -Kelvin Tan

By e way, i miss u alot, and i Love U.... -Firdaus

do u ever recall the day we first met? our first hello? the day we became frienz? well, i do. n will always remember 4 tat very day, i knew.. i'd cherish U. -Si En

Its just life that i preach. Im just normal. Haha. -Bt kor

当你心情不好时侯，想一想我， 当伤心流泪的时候打个电话给我， 当你需要人帮助时记得来找我， 当全世界放弃了你的时候更别忘了你还有一个...我。 -Eddie

你知道的， 我正在默默地支持你，所以要加油哦！ 继续前进！！ -Ling Hui

Thanks Ai Ping... For allowing me into part of your life. I've truely enjoyed times spent with you guys, and am v proud of you all too that you've graduated and ready to embrace e next phase of your life. Take care, and may our paths cross again! -Miss Alicia Ang

Well done aiping now to decide whats next -Mr Loh KP

Seriously speaking i very worry abt u..... -Christopher Honey

Hopefully the swing will end once u awake... Haha... Same to u... Love u deep deep till feet... Haha! No need reply i just want to see y cheerfull apple that's all i ask. Sweet dream.... -Christopher Honey

Hey i'll miss u man.. Ha -Ben Koh

HAha... Hey.. Thanks for ur card.. Like very thick skin ask from u then got.. Erm.. Sorry for my coldness ba.. I m a person tat takes a long time to get close with a person.. So pardon me for my attitude.. But deep in my heart i treasure u.. So dun be disappointed.. Haha.. Thanks n nite.. Cya soon -Aiying

Sian.... Gonna miss you liao.... Sob.... -Sean

Live happy, live strong... -Richard


Sometimes, you wish to end this boring life, but always, there will be something that stops you from letting it go. Sometimes, failure takes away your everything, but there will always be something there to remind you to stand up once again. Sometimes, things happen, and you can't face the facts, but there will be something there to bring you back to life...What is that something that bring you back to this life full of dramas? That something, may be your sweetheart, may be your crush, may be your family or it may be your friend. For me, it is you... You are the one who makes me feel wanted when i thought i've lost it all, you are the one who cheered me up when i'm on the edge of breaking down, and most of all, you are the one who have brought me through the raging storm. I know, you are my safest place to hide. Thank you...-Myself

Some Pictures...

Ah hAHa!!

Wad a day... I enjoyed my whole day doing homework and getting angry at nothing. Or was there something? Think so... 1st i couldn't figure out wad the hell is Datafile for BCA then i came across downloading datafile from a website, downloaded, i can't open... WT! Then, i gave up. I wanted to do POA, realised the book weird weird de, so i asked trish did i get the wrong book and this lady said "ya, i got the wrong book" Omg! HAHA!!! I'm partially at fault too, coz i just found out. HA!! Did some staff on FABM tutorial, but didn't complete. Completed MAEC and WCOM. Hai... So much left to do.

Well, i'm happily admiring my hair in front of the mirror, so pretty!

Darl smsed in the morning to tell me he got a new niece who just came onto earth today, weighs less than 3kg, and is very cute. O! It's a girl... He said he dunnoe how to carry so i told him what mama told me, cannot hurt the head, dun trapped the hands and feet. That's it, i concussed again. HAhA!!! Anyway, he should be happy for his sister, got another child and most importantly, both are safe and sound... Such a blessing...

Anyway, I cannot stand the boredness so i called Deaarr, chat chat a little bout her head and all the incidents that happened after i left her place. Heh! Many many things happened and someone very excited.. HAHa! No lah, kidding.. Say some more, she'll break up with me... Ah HAHA!!!

O... I was telling Terry where we went last night after he left then he told me he went to MOS, then i asked him nv bring me... He said this week but i'm working lah, then he said, after work. I said, I ask Deaarr and he was like, "WHO?!" HAHA!!! When I said Melissa, he went "ChEY!" HAHA! So funny...

Ehhh.... 9am class later. WCOM tutorial and MAEC Lecture. Meeting DeaaRr to do POA together tml.. Ah HAHA!

Love me!

Love you deeply...

Uting and Ah Po

Uting: "Ah Po, do u think the Prestige is nice?"
Me: "Huh? Wad the hell is that? HAven't heard of it."
Uting: "U know lah! Toopid! The Magician one..."
Me: "Oooo... HAHA!!! I know!!! Ok ar, think should be nice... HAHa!"

Another day...

Uting: "Ah po, where u going?"
Me: "Huh? Your husband tell u ar? HAHa!!! At lot 1"
Uting: "Wad husband? What you doing there?"
Me: "Meet Boh Teck Kor."
Uting: "You and him only? For wad?"
Me: "Ya, returning him pants... Where r u?"
Uting: "WM lor, lunch"
Me: "O... I see... With who? Movie later?"
Uting: "Ming lor... Wad movie?"
Me: "Dunnoe, anything?"
Uting: "Departed?"
Me: "See how, i call u later"

Movies talk with Uting... HA!

Goodbye beloved LAu...

Well, Well, wad a wonderful day... I just came home from Lau's farewell dinner.

After meeting Kor in the afternoon, i went to WM to meet Yuting and Ming for a movie, wah, u know how boring the Departed is? Almost died in the cinema. HAHA!!! And it was so Long u know. Hai... 6.08pm, i called Dear and quickly rushed home.

On the way, smsed Darl a bit here and there and then i realised it was Deepavali an hour ago. HA! So bad to forget our festive season. ANyway, he knocked off early, wanted a movie or something but nah, promised to go see our beloved Lau. HA!

So, rushed everything, got out of home, meet up with Dear on the train and there we went to Bugis. Shopped a little at the junction then meet up with Yee Siang, went to Levis and saw this really nice Denim... OMG! It's so pretty, costs $100 plus i think, then i saw this nice nice collar shirt which cost $99.50.. OmG! Then came the jeans... $200... HAHa! Can't afford any of it but all are so pretty!!!!

Meet up with Xueni and all, and from there, met up with all. We went to TiAn tIAn Huo Guo... Heh HEH! Ate so much, my stomach cannot stand, took many many pictures, snapshots or wadever. Feels so good to be with all the banquet pple, it has been so so long...

After dinner, it was around 11pm, decided to go sit around some places to have some fun and chats. Chose Release's for a drink. HAHa!!! Bought a Chivas and there, we started our rounds of drinking... HAHA!!! Dear cannot make it, i think she should be in the middle of her giddiness... HAHA!!! Poor Dear... I had some too, still can make it, but just went red... That's me! Red APPLE! Hee!

After the whole Chivas is gone, we called it a night. Honey took the 3 marbles our of the chivas cup, i got one of it, so nice, gonna post the pic one of these days. Hee~

Well, it was a successful farewell dinner, nobody threw nobody any wet blanket and we all gave our well wishes to Lau. I do hope he make it good out there. Gonna miss his scoldings and bitchings. OHS will be different without him. Still, pple move on, so must he.

Kk, i haven't sleep yet coz i figured i should get some school work done, get prepared of wad i need to do tml so i dun have to panick wadsoever. yuP!

GetTing buSY!

CiAO!

Sometimes I wish things should go my way, sometimes, I hope you will always be there, but many times, what I wish never came true because it can never happen nor can it ever exist at all. I miss you...

OmG!

Haven't been blogging regularly last couple of day, i was just too lazy and tired to touch the keyboard at all.

I had a slight fever last night and my whole body's muscle are aching from the other's day badminton game. HA! I told Richard to do warm up and cool down but i myself didn't do that, laziness... HA! Anyway, the right side of my body hurts, especially my butt, i dun understand why does the butt always hurt so much after running. HAHa!!! Part of my body...

Last night, Dear's Turkish embassy lady called and asked me whether i remembered working for her for the reception or not, i was like, i'm not the one and she just asked whether i wanna work not, i said will get back to her but when i called the number, it kind of just transfer to some voice mail or something... OmG! HA... Anyway, i'm not working.

Yesterday was my IS class, i was pretty sad initially coz none of my classmates were in the same class as i am and i kind of just stood there by myself. So Sad right? LMS was kind of boring, i guess it's suppose to be like that but well, the lecture's voice is those that is very high... And i think one day, when i'm not in a good mood, that voice will slowly get on my nerves. HAHA!!! The 2 hours were alright, at least i met some nice pple, in a nice group.

Next was IAC, HA! I got a Foreign lecture, as in Ang Moh... He's so cute.. HAHa! Looks like some scientist.. Heh HeH! Anyway, the whole thing was quite fun..

Class ended, and it was time to go home. Went to WM and get some hair thingy and my dinner, and home i went.

I spent the rest of the night ston-ing until bout 8plus, fever came up and i felt very uneasy.

I turned in at around 12.30am, ignoring wadever calls i got at home. Didn't even come online.

I need to go get a bath. Gonna meet my BT kor/Jie(getting confuse which is he/she) to return his pants and probably a lunch. YeS!

CiAO!

Tired...

Didn't blog last night coz i got a terrible mood swing. I guess everytime when school starts, when pressure aroses, my mind thinks too much and i get tensed.

Well, there's just too many things to do in school and too many things to deal with. Hai... I think i'm gonna think bout wad to do properly, and not mess things up like last semester.

I skipped lecture today... HA! So bad... And went to play badminton. SO HAPPY! So long never play badminton le, and it felt so good to sweat it out like that.

Was really tired after everything, took a bath and sat down to rest. 5plus, went out... For the next 2-3hours, i was somewhere... HAHA!

Didn't really have much to blog bout. I'm tired, i need to print out some stuff and i need to get some sleep...

Afraid my eye will have some problem... It seems a little bit yellowish-red... ALthough its not obvious but the colour difference is visible. Darl dropped a drop of eyedrop, and it's itchy now... Dun dare to rub. I hope my pretty eye will get better.

Recently, i kept changing myself... I'm getting so different. HAhA! Nah... I'm still me i guess.

I see you happy, I see you sad, but I can never see myself Happy but always see myself sad. What's the purpose of life when all I can do is cry? Which is the right way to go when I've reached such a crossroad? 有时想想，我只是一个我， 为何要那么为难自己呢? 十八罢了，应该开开心心，勇敢的面对人生... 我还要谈个海枯石烂的爱情，赚到第一笔一百万，步人美丽的红地毯，牵着我的白马王子，生下一群可爱的小宝宝... 太多事做了... 不能说放弃...

Long LoNg day...

I had a very long day today... I also dunno why.

I woke up at 7am in the morning, took my bath and wonder wad i should wear to school. I took my Levis denim and Giodano long sleeve, wore it and decided not to change. Tired. Sat there and waited until it reached 7.50am. Get prepared and walked out.

9am Lecture on BCA... Our lecturer was kind of long-winded but Ok, i still can tahan. Then, went on for Tutorial and Workshop. After some explaining and all, we asked the tutor wad must we do? So, after explaining to us, he said we can go if we know wad to do. Ya, so we left.

Reached Central, pondered whether to go VK 1st or to WM. After thinking, i went to VK 1st. Asked Richard whether can send him at that time not, he said alright, so i sat down, did wadever wadever. My eye was itching at that time.

Ehhh... Intend to leave after sending Richard the songs, but thought that i should just send Eddie his songs and at the same time, send Andy his themes. So ya, all at once so i dun have to go so many times. Everything took so long, my eye hurts, was hungry and was tired. Ting suddenly came into VK, haha! She happened to saw me in there and came in to join me. After everything, we went off, she walked me to WM and walk a bit then i waited for Bus with her. Told her some stuff which was kind of shocking and i felt good after saying it.

After sister left, i went to WM to see wad to buy for lunch. Walk and walk until i reached Old Chang Kee, they sell rice. HAHA! So, i bought their fish sambal or something. Strolled to interchange restlessly. Reached home, very tired, after lunch, i dozed off on the seat.

Woke up, 4pm liao... HA! Rushed out without bringing anything.

Waited for Xiu Ying and took 174 with her to work. Talk to her about every little thing i can say and ya... She's nervous. Can understand, my first time? HAHA!!! After struggling with the Uniform, the hair and the torn stockings, Dear brought them up to work. I was at the office there putting their bags. Wanted to eat Subway when Terry called.

Went to Conference Centre to wait for Honey. GoSh... An hour plus, i was tired.

He drove us to Yvonne's place to eat Yu Pian Mee Fen... HAha!!! YuMMy... But i was a bit stone. Heh Heh!

Dear and I took MRT back and chit chatted some stuff. She was having her pain in the stomach while i am having redness in my eye.

Reached home, bathed, eye very pain. Been dripping eyedrop since, may be seeing Doc tml if it doesn't go off.

Printed all my stuff, and i got nothing to do liao... Another morning class tml... So tired... Should be glad its only 2hours.

Many Many things to do when it is only the 2nd day of the semester. BusY bUSy!

Fell in love? Fell out of love? Should I be happy at all? A Barrier? I only remember SHECRET...

MooDy...

I hate the haze... It made my eye so red and swell. It feels so weird having an eye swelling. Itching too but i dun dare to rub... Ass... Can the wind blow the other side? PLEASE!

It's so boring now... I got nothing to do, no where to go, nobody to entertain. Wad a boredness!

Just now, while I was reading my Mag and enduring the cramps from the monthly dampness, somebody called my house. I picked up the call...

Me: "Hello"
Person on the line: "Can I speak to Mr Teo Choon Teck(My Father)?"
Me: "He's not around."
Person: " Can I have his contact number?"
Me: "Can I know where are u calling from?"
Person: "What is your relationship with him?"
Me: "His daughter."
Person: "Who?!"
Me: "HIS DAUGHTER! Who is this?"
Person: "This is Jason ....."
Me: "From?"
Person: "I'm not supposed to review where am I from."
Me: "Then I am sorry I can't review his number."
Person: "I am Jason from a bank(Sounding ridiculous)!"
Me: "I know you are from a bank but which bank?(Pretty Pissed)"
Person: "We don't usually review where we are from."
Me: "Are you sure? Then I can't tell you my father's number."
He got pissed and gave in, told me where is he from.
Me: "Right, you just gotta tell me where you are from?!"

Please... For god sake, do i sound so dumb as to give u my pa's number when i dun freaking know who the hell are you? And as dumb as it sounds, u said u can't review where u are from but in the end, still told me where u are from. Ridiculous! If you can't review then y did that in the end? Coz i am a girl and i sound young, u can push me around like i'm some sort of stupid ass... Hello, as young as i am, i am capable of talking and thinking! Use your brain, Mr Jason wadever from wadever!

I wasn't in a good mood, not in the right physical condition, suffering from the worse cramps ever, and u called sounding like i owe u a living? GoSh...

Anyway, i am still not in a good mood, the cramps are killing me, and my left eye is swelling... There's a morning class tomorrow... Wad else? MamA kept telling me to go my cousin's place tomorrow for his afternoon buffet coz he's holding his banquet tml night and i'm not attending. I dun wanna go. 1stly, we're not close. 2ndly, i dun wanna sit there and stone, and lastly, i will be tired after class. Then, she finally said she would take some food back for me, so i said wadever. Then, she kept telling me that if there is space at the restaurant tomorrow night, she'd call me down to join in the wedding dinner. OmG... PLease... It's not a big wedding, and almost my whole family is there already, still wanna squeeze in meh... Rather stay home and watch TV. OmG! SUddenly, she said she wanna go set her hair, i do hope she dun have VK in mind since the Hilltop Garden is only a short walk from central. GoSH...

Feel so tired now... A lot of pple smsed me today... Although i dun really wanna reply any, i replied all coz it's only right. Not like they are asking rubbish from me. I may kill someone who sent me and say "Go to hell"... HA!!

Well, the haze sux. Everyone is suffering from it... ArGh...

First day back to school, nothing unusual, just lecture... And went back home after that. BoRing!!

It's only 8.30pm, and i got nothing to do... Let my thoughts run wild...

I couldn't sleep last night, I thought of you again. Sounds foolish but true. The tears that run dry for so long found its way back to my rosy cheeks. Images of you and me flashes pass my mind like a movie being replayed again and again. The first dinner we had, the first time you kissed me on my cheek, the first time I kissed you goodbye, the first time I made a card for you, the first time you hugged me so tight, the first month we had, the first shopping spree we ever had, the first time u held my hand, then first gift you gave to me, the first time you said "I love you", the first time u took my breathe away... The first time I smiled after so long... It was because of you... I dun really understand what went utterly wrong, why can't everything stay the way they were, why can't things be a little bit more normal like any normal love? I didn't know after everything, you still exist in my life. I didn't know I've caused you so much pain, i dun want to... Do you know i felt those too? It has been so long, things quiet down, everything except for our hearts. I cruelly said No to everything but they were opposite on the inside, those are the best answers right? Or am I wrong again? If there is any truth left, it is that story kept in my heart. No longer true are our words, no longer available is your heart for me...

Kind of lost yet the path is clear to follow, albeit my will defies it... Been missing what I shouldn't be missing...

好无聊，拍下当初的回忆，放下了像机，把一切，一张一张地删除。剩下的只有虚幻的想象...

Some finishing...

Ting smsed me and woke me up and she asked me some questions before she called. Made me nervous for a second but this girl ar, wanna go rebond, stand outside the salon and called me for help. Funny! HAHA!!! After that i gave Linda and Trish a call to confirm the time to meet up.

Didn't have much appetite, only finished half a box of rice and i couldn't go on. Took my bath and went out. HA! Didn't put on eye-liner today coz i didn't feel like doing so, instead i wore my specs out. Heh HEH!

Anyway, my bag was filled with 3thick books. Exchanged with both the girls, still it was heavy. GoSh... Went to WM with them and bought some of the stuff we need for school and yes, i got my converse BAG!!! HA!!! HapPY... Another spending... GoSh...

Around 3.30pm, i said bye to them and went to draw cash for my sister. HAHA!! This is the 2nd time i drew cash for someone sitting in VK doing their hair. HAHA!!! Find it so funny lah. Imagine u r the hairstylist, someone came to do their hair, later this someone's friend came in to pay up and this someone's friend is not the boyfriend... I would find it odd if i am the one working in there. HAHA!!!

Yuting sent me an sms which shocked me a lot... I dun really know wad happened and i didn't pursued much, hope she's feeling alright.

Anyway, the 2 Uncles in VK kept insisting Ting's hair cost $200 and i was totally stunned, like when did rebonding become so ex? I held on to my $200 refusing to barge. HAHa!!! Then, finally Darl asked for 3 pieces of my blue notes, relieved... HAHa! Waited for sister for bout 11min, and at the same time, entertaining myself with nothing but Richard's cutting and Eddie's hair drying.. HAHa!! Also, talking to sister. HeH HeH...

AFter she was done, she rushed back home while i dragged my heavy bag home. HAHA!!!

Reached home and i stoned infront of the TV with a packet of Soya Bean... Then, went into my room and arrange my file and all for school and printed out the lecture notes for tomorrow.

School is starting!! Just as everyone from Primary, Secondary and JCs are going on their holiday, we, poly students are starting school. Ooo... Well, we had weeks, it's their turn. Am i excited? No, not really. However, i do look forward to meet up with my class again, to learn new modules and to once again start fighting this endless war. Didn't do well last Semester, i think i need to work hard. Seriously.

Ok, so let me sum up this holiday. I did many things this holiday, many self-reflections, many get-togethers, many new experience and many work days..

Love ended unexpectedly but feelings linger on and i told myself to stop. Well, many things went through my mind this holiday bout this person. I can only tell myself that it is no longer possible to put things back together no matter how much i want it to or he wants it to, and i've said, it is better this way i guess.. Right, Darl? Always...

I picked myself up bit by bit and transferred everything to my friends and of course, he is one of them. Had our Secordary school gathering at Downtown East chalet and i am really happy bout it coz almost everyone turn up, all the great old faces. I am lucky to have met those pple.

Not to forget, one of the most important meeting was held in Spore month ago, and i played a little part in it. Worked for Creative Eateries during IMF event, an eye-opening experience although it wasn't very pleasant working for them but i did have fun... Having my hair made by pple and face made-up by pros, yes, it was fun!

O... WHo can forget Orchard Hotel, the place that i have been going in and out for the past couple of years. HA! Worked with them on many days and many nights this holiday, and even though there were many grumblings said, many disappointment, I still love working there. With Dear, Honey, Sister, Yuting and so on... U know, i'd never exchange it for anything else.

However, Bt kor is right. We shouldn't be stuck there. While we are still young, we should find some other jobs to open ourselves up a little bit more. I guess so... We'll just see wad other opportunities will come, and i shall try it out.

Well, the past is history, i need to look forward to tomorrow. I had a great holiday... Did u?

I had a hard time letting go as well...

I found my old friends too...

Where would i be without all of you? My friends... And you...

You came into my life, you took my heart away but you walk away too... I tried hard to forget you but to no avail. I know you are away from my life now and I don't cry for you anymore but somehow, your face still appears in those lonely nights... In my dreams, in my mind... I can't erase you off from my life... Can you erase me off from yours? I can't help but laugh at the moments we had, I can't help but smile because of you but I know, those can never be... Can I stop loving you? Can I forget what you have done to me?

You are indeed a man of love... One who caught me unsuspiciously...

没想到过了那么久，你依然一直出现在我的脑海里... 我需要多久才能忘了呢？第一次的相遇，第一次的无法... 不知道你能懂吗？真可笑...

I lost myself the moment I found you... I was dead when I lose you... But now, I'm reviving without you... Am I really?