New hairstyle...

Well, this is how i break the news, my hair is now short... HA!!! Pretty shock ya? Me too... Woke up early in the morning, went to bedok with Darl where he began his test... Well, nothing much to elaborate on... It was just cold and chilly in the salon... And my hair was under his care... The picture above wasn't even the product he got in the 1st place, he made it like that later... My head was like a balloon initially... HAHA!!! Very retro u KnOW... HAHA!!! Then, after his test,went back to batok and he helped me do wadever necessary to the hair that i was left with... Anyway, he's pretty upset over his test so i kept trying to make him feel better in any ways i can...

Got to know one of his customer, aunty Jean... Very cute aunty... She's fun-loving.. They bought 4D and they were saying, if there strike it, they'll give me hongbaos... HAha!!! So FuNNy right?

Well, try to recognize me OK? With my new hairstyle, i doubt many can recognize me anymore... I think Ting will be shocked when she returns... HAHA!!!

Yesterday was a blasT! Great meal at Cafe Cartel with the BD boy and girl. Great Movie as well... LITTLE mAN! Laugh the freaking hell out of me... HA!!!

Really tired lah... Woke up so early, slept so late... Hai... Gonna concuss soon...

Love whatever because you made them...

Thursday, a great day...

Woke up at around 9plus today thinking i got work but then realise, nah, no work... Slept all the way till 1pm and got up. No appetite to eat the chicken rice papa bought coz he added those intestines which are so disguting. Stopped eating, changd up, went to HGV.

Reached school then realised that i'm playing? HA! I thought HM's "Play with me" means just purely playing instead it's going on court. They were having a match with the club pple. Find it pretty meaningless since the younger ones haven't really got their basics right but well, to brush up i supposed.

I felt like laughing when the coach was training them. Nah, it was just running and running and running which kind of tire them out. Well, doesn't matter. The whole time i was sweating under the big round sun. HahA! Ooo... And hearing terry TAn shouting upstairs that i'm extra.. HAHA!!! Played on for the 2nd game with my slipper and DAMN, it hurts... So i ran over to get a pair of shoes from one of the juniors... HAHA!!! Cute ar...

I think the Chi(which means aunty in malay) was a bit Too Lan with me coz i kept blocking her. After that game, i called it quits.

Well, overall, a fun day back in Sec school with the girls and am glad to see some improvement in them. Hope they'll get better and better. Details? Shall not elaborate. Hee~ Know more very cute girls but always make me goes, "Kids nowadays..." HA!!!

After everything, walked with HM and marianne to central where Marianne went off to WM while HM and i sat at S-11 pondering wad to makan. I decided to eat Prata then that weird uncle told me, "5 O'CloCk..." HAHA!!! I figured he was telling me that they will start selling prata and 5. In the end, HM and I ended up in WM's KFC sharing a set of 2piece chicken meal. Afterwhich, i got my eye-liner, we went to breadtalk walk around, then went to singtel to M1 to singtel again.. Looking at our desirable phones... HAHA!!! Then, she went to bank in cash with me then i go li xiao Darl a little then went off after my bus.

Reached home, took a great bath, sat for a while, went out to have my tooth filled. The clinic wasn't open till 6.30pm, and i gotta wait and wait and wait, so i went round to shop and SHop N SAve, spent around $13 there, now i understand y aunties always buy so many things there because when u get there, u'll start thinking wad your fridge doesn't have... HAHA!!! Went to wait for the clinic to open again. I actually sat outside their doorway not knowing their doors weren't locked... OmG! But the sign was "CloSe" HAHa!!! Anyway, waited and waited, finally can go in. Had the tooth filled, and there goes my $35... HAHA!!! Good lah, at least the hole ain't there, can eat properly... Hee~

Back home, i stoned in front of the TV till 9pm, a little hungry, took out snacks and munch all the way. HAhA!!! So sian ar my day... But then again, it is a great day coz at least i didn't get angry coz of someone else, i dun need to face pple with a fake smile and i dun have to worry bout making mistakes... HAHA!!! BeSt!

Oooo... I forgot to mention yesterday that, last night, while work was ending, Ziyang called me... he siao One LAh! Scare me, ask him who is he, and he said, "Your father LAH!" Dots... Anyway, his motive was to tell me that he's booking into NS on friday and he wanted to bid goodbye to me... A bit shocked, yet touched as well... At least he rmbed me lah... FRiEnd... That history was so FUNNY!!! HAHA!!!

Anyway, this is the day... Enjoying tml again... Probably going to Expo to find Yuting... Hee~

CiAo!

Tal Vez Tal Vez Tal Vez...

3 longs days...

Finally... I have the time to spare to blog... The pass 3 days were tiring, disastrous and most of all, irritating. HEH! Beside the negative comments, there were still some happiness that lurks within, with a teeny weeny bit of gossips... HAHA!!!

Let's start with Monday. Working at 12pm. 1st thing to do was to top up Ice water for 24 tables, it was a buffet lunch. K, so i was happily doing it, then started to clear 2 tables from previous bunch of pple, then Andy Tan was talking in this angry tone to Li Hui, so i was thinking y was he so fierce, so i said in a joking way, "Y u so fierce?!" Then he got pissed, "Y i so fierce, u all so slow, buffet starts at 12.30pm u know!" I got a bit shocked but i knew it was my fault. Guess wad? Everything was done way b4 guest arrival so no point getting work up at minor things. Then came Samuel Tan, WTF! So wad if he's the AM? Look at staff as human please... 1st time hearing him say something was, "If u all dun abide to our rules, then u can get out of here!" I glared at him for saying that because, u need us to work, for the very least, respect us as human beings. Then that day, he pin-pointed one goblet that was not top up, and he shouted, "XIAO MEI, WAD IS THIS?" And he looked straight at me... Hello, although i was the one pouring ice water but i wasn't the ONLY ONE pouring. Pple do make mistakes right? BUZZ OFF! When i hear him talking to Chris, it's like he knows everything and Chris dun, he is correct and Chris is not... For god sake, Chris is there longer than he is. Although he WAS a manager from somewhere else but he is only an AM here! So pissed off with this guy... No idea y Eric got this sort of brother... Eric is way TOO GOOD compared to HIM! BlEh!

That day, work ends at 9pm.

Tuesday morning, woke up feeling pretty tired. Went to work, same thing as Monday afternoon, top up ice water and all... Cleared up the room after the buffet. While the full-timers went for meeting, PT stayed on to complete their stuff. I got nothing to do coz nobody told me to. Then, Yusoff smsed me and asked me to skirt 7 oblong tables with brown skirting and 3 oblong table with Maroon skirting... I ji tAo went, "OMG! 10 oblong?!" HAHa!!! Anyhow, i began my journey to calm my soul... HAhA!!! At the end of the 7th oblong, my thumb and index finger hurt so much that they're sore... Good thing the other 3 maroon ones were done by Gao Lei. Those were in OB1.

After dinner, went back up, set U shaped from the 7th oblongs i skirt, done. Yusoff briefed to me wad to do for the upper half of OB2 b4 he left. I need to remove the joint U-shaped skirting coz most of the tablecloths were dirty. From there, i started another journey of calming my soul... Ha! After that, i arranged everything properly, put new writting pad, pens, goblet and mint sweet bowls. Done with U shape, on to coffee station. Set cocktail fork, saucer, cups and wiped teaspoonssss... Then, i did area cleaning...Fine... That was Ob2.

Went on to Ob3, Honey told me to set the VIP table, 12pax. Zheng Hong told me i have to wiped the cutleries myself, and wiped the glassplate myself too... I was really tired by then. And it was during that time that i realised i was the only girl around. Everything other place were really quiet... Wiped, polished and wadsoever, set the settings... And while setting, found out that i cut myself while looking for clean knives, and it hurts... After setting and all, i was about to die off. Honey told me to fold 15 bread basket napkins when this very weird thing happened. This Uncle who was vacuumming the floor came over and talk to me, so ok, casually i replied his simple qns, then he asked me my name, so i said, "Apple." He smiled and said his name is "Ali" and lift up his hand to shake mine... I was like laughing lah... Y this uncle so funny, but found it weird and there was really nobody around le, so i quickly finish folding and went to the office when Honey asked me to go change, relieved... That was Ob3.

See, throughout the whole day, i walked like siao char bo from ob1 to ob2 to ob3, from foyer to backarea, from kitchen to stewarding, from B1 to level 2 to level 3. Freaking tired i tell you... All that was in me was drained and i was the only girl around... GoSh...

Early Wed morning, Yusoff called me... I can't elaborate the story here but the thing blew up... The lost of the stack of papers in Ob2 which i set made everybody from banquet to sales go HU-HA! I think the whole banquet team was admonished for that and I think i got famous, for the wrong reason.. Anyway, i feel really sorry to Yusoff and Zheng Hong...

Thought i can go off early today but in the end, they choose to release pple who start work at 5pm instead of me, who started at 11am. Even Dear was let off early. I was struggling on level2, folding napkins, helping Aunty Santy, Felicia and Zheng Hong turn over level2 which i didn't help much and then with food tasting. By 10.30pm, i was feeling tired... Yawning started... 11.10pm, finally can go le... Changed up, went to front office, took my pay. Wanted to go home but went with Xueni and all for Supper...

Reached home, bathed... Now, i'm about to concussed le... No MORE WORK FROM TML TILL SUNDAY!!! SO HAPPY!!!

Kk... Will be going to HGV tml... HAhA!!! HapPY!!!

Concussed... CiAo!!!

I smiled for you...

Ob1, Ob2, Ob3...

I worked in ob1, ob2 and ob3 starting from 12pm onwards all the way till 12am... Incredible the way i was switched from place to place without my realising until Honey told me bout it...

HA! Speaking of Honey, something really funny yet awkward happened! Couldn't help but laugh when i recall... HAHa!!! Shall review it another day...

Really tired after another 12hours of work... I seem to be spending more time at OHS again.... Back to b4? Nah... Forget bout it...

Look forward to thurs, coz i can rest and go back to HGV... MuhAhA!!!

Wanna sleep Lah... NiGHt!!! 11am tmL!

HAha!

So tired... Started work at 12pm... Damn pissed today bout every single things that happened... Dun feel like writing anything bout it...

Talking to Dear now...

SiAn... Dun wanna blog le...

A day for nothing but relaxation...

Heh heH!!! Had a great sleep last night but i did woke up a few times... Ate my lunch then went out to meet Cindy...

Wanted to watch Monster house with her but the time not fixed. Also, due to Darl lor...

After his work, forced him to watch movie with us but we watched frostbitten... The ending of the movie sux and it's not english.... GoSh... Darl went off in the middle probably got a date or something.

Well, after the movie, cindy and i walked around to see some shoes... I wanna get black shoes for work... Dun wanna wear cock shoes le, hurting my feet a lot... Should take some time out to shop for one... Then, bought breads and left WM...

Dying from all these passion crisis... How i wish things can just stop at the moment that i want it to... How i wish i can have wad i want and live the way i want. It's so dumb to torture myself like that. Can't i just be someone who is daring enough for everything? Hai... If only i've known u earlier or perhaps never even know you. SO SICKENING! ME!

I have the urge to lay by your side, to feel you once again. However, the more irresistable you are to me, the further I sprung away from you... I just want to know you once more, to never find that answer at all. You aren't as perfect as I thought but that imperfection attracted me to you, unsuspiciously and quietly... 如果说失去的再也找不回，不如让我永远没遇上你... 事实的转变让我措手不及， 但也让我无法自拔。或许你说的没错， 我已被推入烦恼的深渊。

第一次的相遇，是偶然
第二次的遇见，是巧合
第三次的邂逅， 是爱情
那我们是什么？

Good NiGht...

EaRned!

O Great, i can blog!!!! Gosh... After 2 days of long working hours, i was in a state of a walking zombie with little emotions... It was a good thing i was worked 6pm on friday. I had a good sleep but still woke up feeling pretty tired. After slacking a little, i went to Aiai's place to see my GoD-son, Jeddy... OMg... He is SO So CuTe... Small and adorable... But aiai was telling me that he is very naughty... HA! So i concluded, "Boys will be boys" even though Jeddy is a DoGgy... Anyway, didn't get anything for him coz i was too busy to even Shop... Should find some time to get something for the little one. Hee~

Work on Friday was alright. There were 3 VIP tables, with Dear, Elsie and I working togther.... GoSh(You know wad i mean...) Well, the event went on as usual, nothing special... I was wondering am i getting old, coz my feet hurts a lot when i stood for so long or due to the fact that i've worked for 3 days and so the feet hurts... Maybe i'm getting a bit old somehow.. Hai... So Sad...

Went to eat supper with Dear after that coz she didn't have her dinner that night. Went back to hotel to return Felicia's penknife, if not she'll start grumbling again. Terry asked us to go Newton eat but too bad, we had our supper. So we left the hotel and went our separate ways... I could bearly open my eyes by then... HAHA!!! The whole journey was like a dream to me, half-asleep. Reached home, prepared the stuff for the next day's work... Gosh... Concussed at 2am...

Woke up at 6am, took a bath and went out again... Can u imagine? Gosh... Met up with Val at City Hall and then to Swissotel, The patara. Very pissed, bought the white shirt and yet they reject it... DaMN ANGRY! $29 leh... GoSh... Anyway, 9am work started. Funny how this company works, fancy wiping wine glasses without water, not to say hot water... I was like using all my strength to remove those stains... Cannot make it... Still, they were dirty but they just used it. HA! Wadever! Work was fine except pple kept swarming in through the pathetic door... Gosh... Ermm... The IC was Jason, he somehow remind me of somebody who i just can't remember... BUt he sounds very pervert... HAHA!!! But he's actually a nice guy... HAHA!!!

Work ends at bout 4 but that JAson talked so much until 5plus... GoSh... Walked from the supreme court all the way to National musuem, wah LAo, i feel like killing pple lah... It was a good thing that i brought clothes to change... HAHA!!! Learnt from my previous lesson. Reached National Museum, took pay and left. Val and I were struggling to get to Dohby Ghuat, dunno the way to it, in the end, we took a cab there... Waste money... U know how messy is the Dohby Ghaut MRT? Wah LAo... I was looking for signboards here and there... OMG! Finally found the correct platform.. Damn working hours, i couldn't find a seat lah, my legs were killing me on the train from there to batok... Like freaking tired lah...

Went to Westmall to get a few unimportant things... MAke-up remover... HAHA!!! O ya, i bought perfume LE!!! Hee~ It's Escada, $30plus... Ok lah... Then went to deposit cash and straight away go home...

After bathing and all, i concussed on my bed at 7pm... Until 10pm... HAHA!! Now, i'm awake... Can rest tml... HAHA!!!

Wed: $84
Thurs: $51
Fri: $30
Sat: $70
Total earned: $235

HAHA!!! Recouped everything i spent the other day... But i did spent on some stuff as well lah...

Perfume: $30plus
Food: $20plus over the pass 4 days

About so lah.. HAHA!!!! So Happy but so tired... Really need to have plenty of rest b4 the next war begins... On Monday.

Next Week...
Mon: 12pm
Tues: 12pm
Wed: 10am
Thurs: Netball 2pm
Fri: Rest
Sat: BD outing
Sun: Hair makeover

See... My whole week is PACKED!!!! Except for Friday... GoSh... Wad a HolIday!

Ermm... Maybe this is the best way for everything to settle down. I'm focusing more on working to keep myself always occupied from everything. I can barely open my eyes in the night when i'm fast asleep, neither do i have the time in the day to think of anything. Isn't it better this way? I guess this is how i can forget about it easily, rather than brooding over it every night... WAHAHA!!! Soon, u'll find me again...

Forgetting is never easy, forgiving ain't hard but forgoing everything is difficult because our hearts can never be torn apart... Yes, that is how the game of life, the game of love is played, dare to bet and one day, you'll find that everything will be all worthwhile... *In ThE MiDst Of My ChoAtiC mOmEntS*

你是否还会如此想我？是否还拥有当初的思念？是否依然守着对我的承诺？又或者当初的承诺是虚伪的？我想我再也找不到答案了... ：） I'm still me from before, but had grown up a little bit more...

Absolutely Drained...

GOSh... Cannot believe I actually worked 14hours... OMG! 11am all the way to 1.30am... HAHA!!! Feel like a super woman all of a sudden... My feet are hurting non-stop...

Teachers' Day lunch, dinner yesterday was cool. Lunch was OUR HGV!!! HAHA!!! Saw all the teachers and felt great being able to serve them, wasn't that one of the best gift ever? To serve them like they served us as their students. Really delighted to see all the old teachers... THANKS TEACHERS! HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

Night's dinner was Yang Zheng Pri School... Quite boring among the 6 events going on last night... HA! I was serving them... So Fun doing VIP with a new girl... HeH hEh!!

Stayed on for OT.... Wah KAo! I feel like killing the stewarding pple... Every throw there, wanna find Dinner fork, spoon, teaspoon, dessert fork, was like digging a gold mine without gold... My fingers hurt from all the digging... CrAp... After finding, went to clear all the silveries, bowls and plates... The trolley was so so heavy, Dear and had such a hard time pulling and pushing, but when terry came, he only need to pull the trolley and the trolley MOVEs! OMG! I was so stunned so i concluded, HE IS VERY FIT!

Got home and fell dead on my bed after bathing...

This morning, woke up and went to work again... Feel like fainting... Then the damn 174 took so long to come and it was full of pple... Ass... So slow... Reached hotel, changed, went up to work.

Eric Tan saw me, and he said, "Apple, u, with me" HAHA!!! So Funny... So we were doing muslim lunch with Guest-of-honour, Minister of Home Affairs, Ko Peng Kee, if i'm not wrong... Dear made a mistake which she trembled over... HAHA!!! SO funny....

After that, it was clearing, clearing, setting, pushing chairs, putting covers and walking like nobody's business... So TiRed... I was so hungry U know... I kept grumbling bout it... Hee~

After work, cannot tahan, went to eat at orchard tower...

At home now... Feel like concussing... Ya... Gonna sleep early today so tml have more energy. Working 6pm tmL! WahAHAhAA!!! I'm gonna go bonkers soon...

Everybody going overseas le... yuting went to Hong KOng... Xueting went to Vietnam... SiAn... I'm still in Spore, my beautiful HOME!!! HAHAHA!!!

Ooo... BTW, our A1's ChAlet iS CONFIRMED on the dates 28th, 29th, 30th, Costa Sands Pasir Ris... Pass the MSg ON to all A1 pALS!!!

K... Wanna SaY BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is my way of forgetting you... Slowly, everything will be over...

Y am i so busy?

Heh HeH HeH HeH HEH!!! Couldn't sleep last night coz of the HEAT! GoSh... I took off my pants to sleep again... However, the warmness just dun wanna go... Hai... So at around 2am, i cannot stand it, i took my mattress, went to my parents' room to sleep... HAHA!!! So cool with the air-con, and i fell into my dreamland from then on...

Woke up early in the morning and felt really tired but still gotta go school for the IMF briefing... Such trouble... Met up with Val and went to change up... Sickening... Still need to wear and all... Gave us all talks then the mock-up of the different stations. Told us to hold trays with 4 glasses of juices and walked the stairs... gOSh... Not a big problem... Need to act in front of everyone, quite a problem... Hai... Was very sian and i was very hungry... So i lun until everything finished. Then i purposely dun wanna work on the 1st of sep coz i wanna go OHS to work... Instead working 7am on the 2nd of sep... HAHA!!!! I am so cunning... Heh HeH!!! 2plus we were dismissed and i rushed off like nobody's business coz i cannot stand the coldness of the LT. I forgot all bout cancelling the cruise trip... Heh HeH!!! Dun really wanna go for the cruise trip coz i was thinking 300 really expensive and i need to work 3 4 days just to earn for it.... And really afraid it would end up like the previous camp. So ya, Miss Ng says she wanna call me tmr... Hope i'll be free to pick up her call coz i'm working tml... GoSh...

Ooo... Was busy organising the chalet thingy... So BUSY! I called the Downtown eAst resort and waited so long for someone to pick up the call, in the end, cannot book by calling... Sickening Lah... Kk, so i got a bit angry lah, came online but realised i dun have credit card to pay online, in the end i still need to go AXS to book and pay, wad CRAP! ASs... See lah, 1st time organising... So Sickening... Anyway, got a short list of pple going to the chalet le... SO HAPPY!!! Hope they wouldn't tell me last minute that they dun wanna come... NO... I must trust MY ex CLASSMATES!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! I believe their words, hope i wun get heartbroken... Hee~ Great, must go divide cost le...

Ooooo... Funny Smses from Darl... So funny LAh... He acts like a kid when he's so oLD liao... Cannot stand him some time... HahAhA!!!

Richard very Scary today again... BUT that is pretty true for SERVICE excellence... Heh heH!!! WAd The...

I spent a lot of money these 2 days... Very sad... No cash in Wallet, spent over my limit in my account... ARgH...

Spent on:
1. Foot reflexology $26
2. Levis Sneakers $59.90
3. Long Sleeve LP zone Tee $9
4. Black long pants for IMF $14.90
5. 40 pockets clear folder $4.90
6. White formal shirt OSMOSE $29
7. Army Tee $4
8. Pizza Hut Pasta $14plus
9. KFC 2piece Chicken meal(Shared with Dear) $3
10. Tang Yuan $1.50
Total amount spent last 3 days: $167.70

Things i NEED to BUY:
1. Eyeliner (RUNNING OUT) $7.90
2. Perfume (RUNNING LOW) Need to get Cheap de

Things I WANT to BUY:
1. Levis Specs approximately $200
2. Guess Belt $99
3. Handphone

OOO Handphone will be between WANT and NEED coz my HP a bit crazy recently... ArgH... Spoiling!!! SO SAD!!! So Expensive... OMG!!!!

Cannot stand the financial i'm giving myself at 18 years of age.. HA! I can do away with the Specs and the perfume i think and just use the old specs till school bout to open and get a deodrant instead of perfume. Also, dun buy the belt... ermm... Should think bout it...

Kk... Working tml at 11am, thurs at 11am, fri at 6pm, sat at 7am... GoSh... Need to get up early to AXS to book the chalet tmr... HAi... Wonder can i ask Yuting to go do it not... Coz it's so rush tmr... AiyO... LuAn!

Kk.. Go prepare some work stuff then gonna turn in le... NiGht PplE!

CiAO!!! MISS mE OK?!

Je vous Aime... Aishiteru... Te quiero... Ich liebe sie... L'amo... Ik houd van u... Amo-o... I love you... Wo Ai Ni...

Tal Vez...

French, Japanese, Spanish, Italian, German, Dutch, Portuguese, English, Chinese(pin ying)

Tired... Dun talk so Much...

Ermm... After yesterday's tiring day out, planned to stay home and rest. However, i didn't. Initially thinking of going to JB but after some long thoughts, decided not to. So, dear and i planned to go eat tang yuan at clementi. Heh HEh! So, ya went out today to eat tang yuan and walked around the area.

I spent more than a hundred bucks today, which I MUST earned back coz my bank account dun look good at all. Hee~ K, i bought my black long pants for the IMF thingy, a shirt from LP zone, a 40-pockets clear folder, facial mask, facial foam and most importantly, LEVIS sneakers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So HAPPY!!! HAHA!!! Instead of getting a converse, i got levis, pretty OK... HAHA!!! Worth it.. But that's about $60 lah.. HEh HeH!!!

Oo... After a couple of hours walking round clementi, Dear and i decided to go for foot reflexology. Wanted to find cheap ones at clementi but dun have, only got a lot of salons. Went to westmall, checked the price, it is $26... Hee~ So ya, the 2 of us just walked in and have our feets massaged... SO COOL.. Painful at some places though. The guy was telling me that my neck and shoulder not very good, bladder as well and said that i dun sleep early. HAHA!!! Neck and shoulder plus dun sleep early is true. For the bladder, not very sure lor... Anyway, after 40min of massaging, i was feeling very sleepy liao... HAhA!!! So SHu Fu... Heh HEh!!! Wanna go again... Hee~~~

YaYA... I'm memorising the IMF menus now which kind of sux... I dun wanna memorise le... I only rmbed the 1st menu. Forget bout the rest. Not happy, dun hire me lor!

Hee~ Tmr got no money to take but have to go training, should have just go OHS work... Hai...

As the night draws closer to me, I felt your presence... That presence long gone from me... No idea where should I begin the story, don't even have an idea where it ended, in just that split second, you took my heart away... I tried so hard to push you aside but just like a spring, you'd sprung right back to my mind. Feel like hugging you again... Feel like kissing you right on your lips again. Perhaps I can... But will they feel the same again? Gone are the the days when I smiled along with you, when I know your smiles were because of me, when my smiles were because of you... They're all gone... Enclosed in the cruel diary of life... 想念你的拥抱，思念一切的美妙...

Long bLog... Make it till The END!!!

It's not that i dun wanna blog these couple of days, the days were just too packed for me to even log on to internet. Do u know how much i wanted to annouce the exam is over???? But i rushed to work after exam on friday... Irritating Honey... Anyway, i still wanna say it now, EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IT'S HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY!!!!!

K, on friday, after exam, i checked my phone, had a missed call, it was Honey, so i called him back and asked him wad happened? He said i was supposed to work 12pm on friday! I'm like, "Huh? I just came out from my last paper leh..." K, he was saying they didn't inform me or something and asked me to rush down to orchard at 4plus. Then need to go for the LV study trip cum IMF briefing. Took up bout half an hour of the time. Rushed back home and took a cab down to Orchard. Crap lah, $12 trip u KNOW! ASS! SO angry... Haven't felt that kind of rush for a while le.

Reached OHS, 1st person i saw, SISTER!!! HAHA! SO happy can work with her and Dear... HEh HEh! That day was OHS own D&D... GoSh... DO u know how freaking scary it was to serve the own staff when we cannot offend these pple coz they all work at the same place and it'd be a great task to ask for any favour if we offend them. Crap... It was a good thing i'm just serving drinks and it was a buffet dinner. Our own staff are there too... Banquet department is by far the most hyper pple i guess... U know the whole team kept going "YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!" And the MC was asking, "Wah lao, who's wedding HUh?" PPle actually replied that it was Lau's when Lau got married earlier this year... HAHA!!! Most of them got dead drunk... It was a really tiring day. There were only less than 10 staff there to clear more than 30 tables... OMG!!! And it's Ballroom 2 and 3... 2 ballrooms ok... We were walking and clearing like nobody's business... Gosh... And dunnoe y they dun put 3 deck trolley at the back lane so we can clear there instead of we GIRLS carrying oval tray again and again... Until the end of the night... 11pm...

Cannot stand the tiredness... And our banquet coordinatorS got drunk and none can do their job of giving us the voucher, so i helped Xueni bring down to the staff... Hai...

After changing and all, Dear, ting and i went to Mac to have our supper, which was in fact my lunch and dinner... It's only under this kind of circumstances that i will starve myself willingly. HAHA!!!

Reached home, concussed...

Next morning, couldn't get up, idiot dear, asked her to call me but she didn't, in the end, i gotta rushed like crazy and go meet her at gombak mrt station. Was really tired i can bearly feel my feet. However, still dragged ourselves all the way to Sentosa... Cannot make it...

Coincidentally, some of my course mates were working for Siam Kitchen as well, it is part of Creative eateries of course. I thought the standards was very high, in the end, i was not any better. HAHA!!! Probably coz it was outside catering bah, and was on the beach so ya... Anyway, the tiredness sets in around 1plus... My feet started to lost feelings, and felt like floating.. HAHA!!! And it was so stuffy and pple could dehydrate at any moment, and that was the reason y i kept stuffing myself with ice water which i think turned into sweat later coz i really didn't feel any urgency for toilet. GoSh... 4pm arrived, and slowly 5pm arrive, got our pay and off we went. Dear was talking her craps as usual and the other 2 guys and myself were busy entertaining her... We rested on the bus on the way back to harboufront, when i think i fell asleep a little with Dear on my shoulder. It was at that time when Lex took our "sleeping beauties" pic... Sickening...

So, we went to the shopping mall in search of food although Dear was pretty much unhappy with the "person" who seems like storking us... HAHA!!! SO funny... We went to one place and they were right behind us... Heh HeH! Until we finally agreed to eat Pastamania with MArcus and lex. K, and it was at that time that somehow the Lex brother thingy came along which laughed the hell out of us. HA! Quite embarassing though... It's afterall, me, they were laughing bout... DOtS... Ok, Who's MArcus and LeX? Marcus is Melissa's 11years friend, who happened to work in OHS b4, who i am supposed to know but in reality, no, i dun. However, on first glance, he resembles Wei Yi which then linked him to Mad... HAHA!!!! FunnY ar... As for Lex, his name is Alex, but they all call him Lex, and he is Marcus' friend. Ya, that's bout the introduction part. Doubt i'll go work like that again... Can't sit down, legs died off for a moment. HAHA!!!

Went to get Darl's comic for him at Westmall, where i met Terry tan's friend who i forgot his name. He's so funny lah, he saw me twice and didn't see me, and we were at such close proximity and the third time he dawned that i am who he thought i am. HAHA!!! So, said Bye to him when i reached lvl4. The shop keeper actually thought i work in VK, she asked, "This comic is the Eddie from the salon right? Does YOUR salon open on weekends?" I was like, "Ermm... Yes, THEIR salon is open on weekends.." I passed her the namecard that i took from VK the other day... So funny... I laughed a bit... Heh hEh!!!

Went down, waited for Darl to drive in... I walked, walked, and tripped... HEH! But didn't fall lah, good thing nobody saw it.. Hee~ Then he drove in, went onto his car and i told him i very tired, he also say he very tired so drove a bit, he drove me back. He changed his engine to original one so there's no VOOM VOOM sound... So funny, the way he described it. Actually i didn't noticed coz i was too tired. Then wad happened the other day happened again, fancy having 2 legs out of the car and yet i was still that vulnerable but good thing it wasn't as deep as b4... GoSh... Dun dare to take his car liao... Heh Heh!!!

Anyway, i laid on the settee and fell asleep, 10pm, went into my room and fell head on till the next morning until Ting smsed me to go out... YAYa, met up with them at around 3pm and went to beach road. Ermmm... Didn't buy anything much, just a tee... Heh... An ARMY tee... So nice, it's $4 only u know... Cool... kk, then we walked, wanted to go bugis in the 1st place, but decided to go my house to cook again, but then my brother is at home then decided to go CCK, then batok for a pasta... HAHA!! FUnny... Was a tiring day walking around but a good day meeting up with Hui and ting... Haven't met up with Hui for very long le... Glad to see her... AlIVe and Kicking... HAHA!!!!

Grabbed an alcohol, headed home... Came online ya, blogging now...

Darl asked me to go JB which seems ridiculous for me to go alone to custom to wait for him although i did consider a bit... But now after much pondering, guess not lah... Some more going to his house.. HAHA!!! Got rape HOW?! HAHA!!!! KIDDING!!!

K, a little bit tired le... Wanna go slack a bit then sleep liao.. O, can't need to wait for Darl to call then tell him i going not.. Hai.. must wait.. If he never call hor, i will kill hIM! HAHA!!!

Btw, i'm drinking Sangria now... Which is quite nice... Hee~ Not for kids under 18. Yes, i proud that i'm 18 already!!! HAHA!!!

I guess feelings will just fade away gradually when another come into my life... I guess you wouldn't love me anymore when another comes by too... Afterall, I am not that special. I am just a normal girl who happen to step into your life at the wrong time, as the wrong person, with the wrong intention and in the end, the wrong outcome. It is not like you cannot find another just like me or better than me or perhaps, you don't even have to find... You already got one... Sometimes I just can't resist what you say to me, I think I will never know those were true or not or just something you want to say to make me feel better or just... or just... Perhaps words with no meaning? Maybe... How I wish I can forget about you... The man I truely love... “你可以不爱我， 但是我还是爱你的...” That's what he said...

Busy bUsy BuSy...

Will be taking the last paper tmr... Gosh... We're like the only ones who have paper tmr... All my friends from other courses seemed to have all completed their papers but i'm still struggling. Anyway, ITR paper is one of the papers that i am most confident of... Hoping it wun be any tougher. HAHA!!! Of coz, the happiest thing is that it's the last paper...

Gotta stayed back tmr after the paper for some briefing bout some Las Vegas study trip. I think travelling is the only benefit of TRM... HAHAH!!!! Sin City!!!

Oo.. In the blog that was errored and deleted last night, i mentioned the dates that i'm gonna be UN-free!!!!

29th 1st 2nd 16th 17th 18th 21st: IMF briefing, training, working
7th: Maybe going to see sunrise with Dear(MAYBE!)
9th: Booked by Bt kor and Dear
10th: Booked by Darl for the hair thingy
30th or 31st: visit HGV for teachers' day
3 days of the last week of sept: 5A1(2005) chalet which i haven't got time to book...

See how busy the days are? HAHA! I'll still work, earn money buy HP, buy specs, buy belt, buy sneakers, buy lots of clothes... HAHA!!! SPendthriFt, ME!!!!

I was really tired today, wasn't exactly in the best mood. Have been having sleeps full of dreams. It's like everytime i fell asleep, i'll dream of something or somebody... List of people that i dreamt of recently:
- Billy, CHung Ee together with 5a1 people
- Some unknown people in my house
- Eddie Hoo and my MaMa

Surprisingly, no dear in my dream... HAhA!!! She just told me my surname is LIM! Coz i married her, so ya, call me Mrs LIM!!! HAHA!!! Wad CrAp!

Finally, I am able to start stopping... Happy? No... Sad? No... Emotions shall stop taking me over...

I DID!

Who says i never blog? I typed a whole good passage to post last night but some freaking connection problem deleted everything... So i was tired and pissed. Decided to forget about it.

Wadever, just forget bout wad happened yesterday, actually nothing much happened. MamA brought me to bai bai then came home and study le.. Somthing happened lah, but nah, lazy to type it out...

Well, BSTA paper is tough... So tough... Ok, my stats aren't good at all so it's natural for it to be tough. Hope can pass... Hai Hai...

One last paper tmr... FINALLY!!!!

Wanna go rest then study le... CyA!

A recovery so hard...

Well, i guess i should get over everything? Sudden surge of pressure came over me last night although i believe that it will come back again later on or tomorrow when i feel that i haven't prepared much. It's just the lack of confident and the disappearance of my pillar of support which used to be the whole 5A1 class, the different teachers and definitely myself. Well, i should face up to the fact that those were the past and i should start to slowly build up those pillars again. Slowly, bit by bit...

Went to school today and i was fortunate enough to find a table of empty seats at the atrium, so i waited for the rest to join us. Out of no where, this malay girl just sat down in front of me without even asking, Hello, politeness please, at least give some gesture that u wanna sit on a place where someone was. Am i invisible??? Then, her friend came, sat down next to her, and she looked at me like i'm some sort of weirdo... I was so pissed off oK... Then came another friend, and guess wad, none asked b4 they sat down. I was there 1st ok? Not that i'm being juvenile to compete for who came 1st or anything but at least have the courtesy to ask b4 u sit down. I was so pissed u know... I stared at the 3 of them so many times and they just looked at me like i was the one who came after them. OMG! So pissed, so i just stood up and walk away with a real pissed face... SO IMPOLITE... PiSsed...

Anyway, CIP paper is over, man, am i glad it's over. Well, not that confident with all the answers but i know the answers are somewhere there... No worries, will be able to pass this paper... Yup... The upcoming one will be tough... BSTA paper... Hai.. Jia You i guess...

Well, i woke up this morning and i looked into the mirror and realised my hair looks so ugly... Hai... Like i'm so dependent on rebonding... HA! Well, maybe a change of hairstyle is a good idea. Anticipating the 10th of Sept. However, want it earlier... Hai... Darl described to me, that he will be test on, cutting, washing, perming... If i'm not wrong that's it. He's so excited bout making my hair curl while i'm just excited bout cutting my hair. HAHA!!! But he said if i dun like the perm, he'll do the rebond back for me... Hope he holds onto his words... Ha! Oooo... He wanna give me a bread which Andy bought just now but i refused to take. Like hello, stop stuffing pastries to me, they're all flours... GoSh... And i begged NO NO NO for like so long, and he kept grabbing my bag and grabbing my hand, so i shouted for mad's help but mad just said, "i can't see anything" Idiot... HA!!! VK got new name card again, yaya, that's the one that Richard asked me to comment on the other time... Ya... Looks Ok... HAHA!!! But i still like the 1st one that i grabbed onto... Classic...

Anyway, i left after Richard came back from his relaxation. So beat after all the thoughts i had last night and the lackof sleep...

Sometimes, i really feel like walking away from everything... Leave home?HA! But where can i live? Singapore is so small, i can be found within 2,3 days... Ha! That is if i really run away from home which is another "ridiculous" and impossible thing to say... Wadever... I guess after all my thinking, reflection or wadever u wanna call it, i'm still myself. A part of this life with my family and friends.

I found myself trapped in a maze that I single-handedly create myself... At first, I know u were there to guide me through, even if I am lost, I know you will be there, by my side to overcome every single obstacle with me but all of a sudden, without warning, u walked away, and left me wondering in the dark dark world. I can't seem to find the way out of it, not without your hand, not without your smiles... Y must u walk off? Even the rain shows that it is subsiding... Y didn't you show me anything?

Even when it's all over, u told me u cannot let me go... You dun wanna stop your touches on me. You do not wanna put a halt to everything. You told me how much u miss me, u told me u want me to be by your side, you kissed me ever so deeply...

How to just make you my friend again? Why does my heart follows u but my mind follows the truth? Are u such a sensation that mesmerized my heart with all of you... How come I still feel you? Friend... Can I make you my friend at all?

对自己的承诺， 因为你都破裂了... 放手的那一刻， 我告诉自己要学着放弃。但放了手却不代表放弃你... 每一天都在一点， 一点地放松。直到今天， 我发现， 放走的只是对你的思念而不是对你的爱... 说要放弃却发现， 一点儿也放弃不了... 放手只是不想你难做， 放手只是让自己觉得已经没有再伤害别人， 你， 和自己。 虽然已没常见面但感觉依然存在，仍期盼下一次的见面， 但下次却可能只有在梦里... 看到手机里的每一句词，感受到从一开始的甜蜜，到最后的一句, 还以为就如此停止了， 没想到却持续到如今离人之间延续的暧昧... 说我不想你， 只是在怜悯自己， 因为我知道心里从未忘了你替我寻回的笑容与给我的爱... 没了你真的好像没了自己...

我们是否还在欺骗自己？是我们都放不了吗？还是我们只想一直继续这场没有结局的游戏？

你对我说过：“放弃？ 让它随风而逝？ 继续？ 让时间证明一切？” 我回答：“放弃？真的能随风而去？　继续？　寻找未知数？”

显然的，我放弃不了，但也无法继续了．．．　我们都很清楚．．．　

一场难舍难分的游戏　－　爱的绝择

I don't even know am I pretending...

Ridiculous...

Suddenly got this very bad feeling bout the entire exam. Feel like I'm not going to do well at all and i am serious. I dun even know what i've studied for tmr's paper went into my head not. And the last 2 papers, i haven't really touch them at all. How? Feel so lost... Wanna tell myself that everything is gonna be fine but everything doesn't seem fine at all... Have u felt like that before? How i wish i can just shut myself off from the outside world and do things on my own, without having to answer anyone's enquiry. I hate being someone who everyone can approach to. Given the circumstances that i have now, can i just turn away from everyone and do everything on my own? Am i really in the right class? The right course? The right place? How come some people can be so easy? They just drop out of it? Haven't they waste enough time? I dun have any courage to do anything that outrageous but that doesn't mean it didn't cross my mind. How can i not fall from where i used to be? How to find myself from where i was b4? Is it too hard for me now? Am i giving up again? Well, i guess i'm just too stress... Need to discipline myself a little bit more. Well, the thoughts of every other thing shall, from this moment on, be shut down from my mind.

Emotions ain't a good thing to play with. Why must so many things happened at this point of time? I dun really want anymore advice anymore. I'm on my own.

If it wasn't me... If I am more direct... My life is full of indirect... Y can't i be more selfish??? Have been telling myself again and again to be selfish... I did... But most of me remain naive... Disability to advantage myself. Suck so much...

CIP= Computing and Info Technology
1. Web design and computer security
2. Health, access and the environment
3. Ethics and intellectual property rights
4. E-portfolios
5. Emerging techonologies
6. PBL
7. VoIP- Voice over Internet protocol

Like how much do i remember bout wad i've read through the last few days... Now, everything seems blank in my mind... I tried so hard yet nothing seem to be there... What's exactly wrong with me... I need to have that drive to work hard.

I dun like it when my mother starts nagging at me when i wanna concentrate on certain things. Sometimes i just wanna ignore her, she just kept digging and digging and digging. Most of the times, i'm doing everything but she just dun appreciates it. She can notice that the dishes aren't washed but she cannot see that the floor is clean. She jut picks on things that i didn't do. Y must i be the one? This question doesn't seem to have an answer, it just keeps coming back. Is there some remedy for it? To sure this god damn problem? I know she cares, i can see it from her but y can't her care covers everything i dun like bout her?

Y must my father be such a person who always make my mother shouts? Y can't he just sit down and reflect wad is so wrong with him that his life is almost a ruin? Y can't he just stop his nonsense and be a real man that face up to reality?

Y must my brothers be people who dun care? Dun they ever fear? Dun they care at all? Life is such a swift for them, they know that they can't do it, there's still the parents behind to push them forward.

Y must i be the one who is being restricted of so many things? Y must it be me who have to study well and achieve good results? Y must i carry the burden of wad my brothers didn't do well? Y? I just wanna work for the things i want not what they can't get.

Y must my mother threaten me that if i wanna be with a guy who is of inferior education knowledge as I, then i have to quit school?

Where is the fairness that i always hear about? Where is the rights of a girl like me? How can I possibly be such a super woman? Ridiculous...

Ridiculous... Just ridiculous...

I'm stressed out... And I missed you again...

Well...

Not much going on today but one event filled the day pretty much. U wun know wad...

So, after my afternoon blog, i went back to mugging. Then, my da kor asked 2kor and me wanna eat pizza not so i say, if it's his treat. HA! Ya, so the 2 of them paid for it while i went to get drinks for us. Ya... So b4 the pizza came, I was still mugging on my CIP. Ethics and all... GoSh...

Anyway, pizza came and we were eating it... The 3 siblings... Kind of weird lah, 1st time we round up like that. The BBQ one taste pretty good. Had 3 slices and i cannot make it liao. We left 4 slices there, untouched. HA! K, went back to my room and i couldn't find my celly, yet another time. Wad's worse? I found it laying on the floor, open it up and saw a new message so i knew it vibrated and fell onto the ground. Wanted to roar at the person who sent me the sms. It was Darl... Started cursing him while replying... HA!

Then i carried on mugging til 5.30pm, went to take a bath... Came to check my lappy after that and i saw an instant message from Sufang, my classmate. I find her very cute cute de... She told me to Jia You out of the blues. But it was nice of her.

Anyway, was waiting for my bus when this couple came over and sat beside me. Then that guy kind of talk a bit like Desmond Chia, i was kind of shocked lah, but knew it wasn't him, if it's him, i'd have just take a cab to central. HA!

Boarded the bus and the uncle kind of gestured to me a bit, and i realised it was that was that bus uncle who always go VK de... HA, so i smiled to him. When i alight, said Bye to him too...

Yup, thought VK would be closed by then but i saw Richard's wife sweeping the floor outside then i saw darl. SO i stood outside wait a little. Kind of weird to stand outside and wait so i paced around... Hee~

Ya, so he was done and we walked to Malay shop? That's wad we call it i guess. HAha!!! Actually i was very full lah but dunnoe y i order Mee Siam.. OmG.. and cannot finished it... Such waste of food... Hai... Got reprimanded a bit. While eating, Darl's disciple(that's wad he said coz he taught him how to cut hair) came over and sat down then they were using his dialect that i dun even know wad is that name. GoSh... But somehow i could understand a little coz some of the words are pretty obvious and knew they were saying something bout me... Ermmm... But dunno the whole content. So smart, talking infront of somebody instead of behind... HA!

Then we were sitting there talking and drinking drinks. He was telling me bout his test on the 10th which was when he will do a lot of things to my hair. So, i was paying all my attention on him. So he said, if he passed on both model test then he would be able to get a cert or something and then he can fly... HA! FLY... YayA... Good for him i guess... OOoo... He told me somebody banged onto his newly bought bike... Which is so OMG! It's only a month old... Poor thing... Good thing the person did pay back.

Anyway, went to Westmall to get his Comic and i went to get some breads from breadtalk for the night then he drove me back. HAhA!!! Haven't been on the car since... U know... Ya, so we were on his car, he was heating up the engine he asked whether i got smell something not, ya, there was this sweet-smelling scent on his car, he asked do i know wad scent is that. I dunnoe... Then he took out this aroma oil to show me and said the name is on it and he added, "This is my favourite smell." So i took it and looked at the very small word, "APPLE" I said, "O IT's ME!" HA!!! And then he laughed and said, "Ya, that's y it's my fave..." Caught by great surprise, i just laughed it off... Wad can i say at that point... "Thank you" perhaps? Well, i dunno... I just laughed.

He gave me a huge shock when i alighted his car and left me feeling embarassed, awkward, surprised, shocked, electrocuted, happy, sad, funny and u name it, i felt it... A surge of ultimate emotions... O My GOd... Wad can i say...

Anyway, after calming down from the shock, i started mugging again... Till 9plus, decided to slack. Watched National Day Rally, and hearing wad PM Lee was trying to emphasize. To build a country where everyone have a sense of belonging, to be proud of wad we are, to make the younger generation understands. Hai.... Some young people just dun care... Afterall I'm truely a Singaporean, although i haven't sat on SIA planes... HAHA!!! I will, someday...

Continued watching CSI:NY and CSI:Miami till 12am, then i came into my room and finally finished all the lecture slides for CIP. Alif came to talk to me coz i bumped into him when i was with Darl earlier and he was questioning me... HAHA!!! Nice guy, nice advice, will heed ur advice, to dream.... HAHA!!

Something to share...
一瞬间的相遇是难忘的
一瞬间的爱是甜滋滋的
一瞬间的吻是叫人难以抗拒的
一瞬间所说的情话是最动听的
一瞬间的我与他是最幸福的
但只可惜那都是一瞬间的事
但留下的不是一瞬间的回忆
而是一辈子的记忆...

I can't believe you did that to me... That feeling... Untouchable... Uncomprehensible verbally... How I wish that moment last forever... Yet I hope it would end...

Crazy moments with sister

Great days... Mugging...

Think I should blog a little before i continue studying.

Yesterday, Ting asked me out to study. So ya, went out. Geez... Once i board the bus, on the way to central, i realised i forgot my celly... Like WTH, i knew something was missing but i only knew it when i was on the bus. So, after alighting, i kind of rushed all the way to Coffee Bean to find ting but there were so many people yet none was her... I was like, "How? No hp to call..." Ya, so i went to mac to try my luck, nope, couldn't find her. Decided to just go back home to get my phone. Ya, and that's when i started to pant a bit from all the rushing... Reached home, and i got 2 missed calls from ting... Called her immediately and explained to her wad happened. Then, she told me to meet at Gombak's mac coz westmall was just too crowded(coz of wilbur Pan). Ya, so i went there and waited.

Bought our drinks and took out the notes. Started browsing through my BSTA. I was looking at the Probability chapter. Although i have studied Probability back in Sec school but this one is kind of different. There's joint and conditional probability which are pretty confusing. I tried to understand what is it... Well, the whole time we were there, we kind of looked at our notes, chat a bit, looked at notes, chat a bit. End of 2 hours and ya, we decided that, we have no mood to study at all. HAHa! Me and my sister... Anyway, we were thinking of where to settle for dinner and she wanted good food which well, i dun really know the definition of it. SO, we pondered for a while and decided to just walk around to see wad we can find. In the end, decided to cook ourselves at my place... Heh Heh!

Went to Shop N Save and Prime to get our ingredients for pasta... HAha!!! WEnt to my house, and started cooking. Amazingly, we have appetizer(Soup of the day, Chicken and mushroom soup), our maincourse(Cream of mushroom Pasta) and lastly, dessert(Chocolate cake).. HAHA!!! We were so so full... The 2 of us were so crappy. We took out the cake and put the candles on, and blew the candles... Like Hello, our birthdays were for so long... HAHA!!! Funny ok... HAhA!!!
After our crazy moments, i walked her down then she went to find her MAmA while i head back home.

Wasn't in any mood to touch my notes so Saturday was pretty much slacking for me... Wanted to burn some midnight oil. Well, i did, but i burned it online... HAHA!!! Was chatting with Yuting, Robert and Dear until 1plus2, told myself to go SLeep lah... YAya...

Wanted to wake up at 9am today but guess the oil i burned last night took a good old toll on my body, so i kind i sleeped till 11plus just now, with the same alarm that wakes me up almost everyday. HAhA! Darl... Yes...

Anyway, cooked something to eat just now, and now i'm infront of my lappy, blogging. Later, will still be infront of it to study CIP followed by ITR.

Well, well, i got 3 more papers to go, CIP, BSTA and ITR. Gosh... Need to buck up... i still got tmr to study... Great.. Jia You myself...

Am I still pretending or am I truely myself now? I'm confused...

O yeAh O YeaH

Over with MIEC exam!!! HAHA!!! Got a mix feeling bout it. Why? The paper was not easy at all, it's pretty tough... I was so totally cracking my brain to answer the questions... Hopefully a pass is not difficult to attain. On the other hand, what i'm happy bout it is that at least i got the concepts of MIEC, i didn't sit there with my head blank, i completed the paper within the 2hours... :) One down, 3 more to go.

I'm in a really good mood today for a reason that shall remain a secret. I delighted that this part of my life is over. It is great to know that i can wake up tomorrow and be alive and kicking... The past 2 weeks were hard to get by but i'm just glad it is over. From today on, i'm gonna live a healthy life... Yeah!

Ooo... I couldn't sleep last night, so i got up at 3am and have a sip of the wine Lao Ma bought. K, i know why i was drunk the other time i drank it, its like so strong... I only took a couple of sips last night and i basically dropped dead on my bed 5-10min later until this morning... GoSh... A good sleeping pill...

Thinking bout plans for chalet in September. Definitely can't make it in the first couple of weeks coz most of the pple are busy, so am i... Thinking... Hee~

My hp bill came the other day... Happy to see that it is $32... Hee~ YaYa, should maintain it...

看着对岸与我的距离，了解了我们现在的陌生... 当初我们走得太快，远远走得比时间还快...
太阳依然东升西落， 而你却不在我身边... 现在只想牵着你，不要放开... 好想好想让你的未来都有我在... ... Stay awake just to see you asleep...

ExAm!!!

Well Well... In the midst of studying today, i kept getting distracted for no reason... Suddenly thought bout mugging back in Sec. School, thought bout eating chocolate, bout what happened recently and so on and so forth... So i decided to stop studying for a while and came online for a let out. And the result was that chinese blog... HaHA!

Emotionally I'm still considered stable, physically, I think i am still fit... Ya, nothing is very wrong with me except for my cravings for food... Hee~

Anyway, last few days, including today were spent studying for MIEC... Not a very wise decision to focus on one sole module but I'm really weak in MIEC. I didn't fare well for CT, and i doubt i the rest of the % can be high enough for me to achieve anything. So ya, need to grab hold of the 50% chance of getting a C... YaYA... At least a 30/50?? HoPE... YayA... Kind of nervous bout it... It has been so so long since I was introduced to any new subjects, new things to learn... Argh... Hopefully, the last few days of studying will help... *hoPe* So, 1st exam in Poly, at Blk56, 05-11, Seat no.3... Heh HEh hEh... jIA yoU for TMr... Will do my very best...

I wonder how will I get by this year... For 2 consecutive years, my birthday had been surprise after surprise... Heh hEh! Some of u will know wad i mean... Well, well, let the feelings GO... Finish my Exam and i can dream wadever i want... WAHAHAHAHA!!! For now, I'm so so by myself... HAHA!!!

All the Best To myself for one of the toughest module tmr!

PS: Can't decide on the font of my blog... Hee~

Sometimes I just wish every little things that are happening now are real...