Whirlwind

Still, not in the best mood these couple of days. Work seems like a war zone, and it definitely feels like it.

Tomorrow, new colleague coming in. Many weird weird feelings. I don't like the way my "leaving colleagues" are acting. They are acting funny. HAHA!

I should just stick to my routine lah hor. HAHA!!!

Just another NAG post

Today, after a day OFF, the first thing i was told is, new colleague coming in on 1st July. HAHA!!! I hate that idea. Knowing that its gonna be so strange. Why must it be decided that way?

Anyway, went to visit Ah Mah yesterday also, Ah Mah isn't feeling that well. She's been going in and out of hospital since before i left for Japan. She looks fine that day when i saw her. Today, Mama and Kor went to visit her again. Well, Ah mah says her days are numbered, and she worries she can't see Kor gets married...

Her worries are understandable. And I understand too. I shall no dwell too much into it.

Maybe I can move out to stay with my friend? :) The idea has been there for so long...

Life is unpredictable... I totally agree to that.

I'm drained... But I'm still squeezing... Expectations should never run high... Never...

Kuala Lumpur

Today I kind of realised that with my colleagues' departure I will have to go for the overseas show which will be happening in the 2nd part of the year. And ya, one of them told me.

I will be going to Kuala Lumpur next month for MIFB. *lAughs* FINALLY, I AM travelling alone for TRADE SHOWS! Like as if i am happy............... I am not lor.... I have no idea wad has been going on for this show and ya, suddenly i gotta go for it, and its now simply going for the fair.

The prep for this show is almost ending, all i need to do is basically be there and help out, but you know when things happen, i think i will just cry. HAHA!!! Kidding....

Been rather busy in the office since my return from Japan. My cough and blocked nose dun seem to be subsiding, everything seems like a blur.

Jia you for new obligations and new challenges!

I NEED TO LOVE MY JOB!!!!!!!!!!!

Earth-shaking II

Nah... I just wanna continue from my previous post. After absorbing it a little bit the entire afternoon.

My thoughts after being blanked-out is, Come What May. As simple as that. Why? Because i set my target at the very beginning when I joined this company that I will stay here for at least 2 years, 1stly to gain experience, 2ndly and not really important, to make my resume looks better.

Everybody needs to move on and that's wad my colleagues are doing now and I shall not and i believe i will not be a deterrence to their departure.

Its not a pretty day today. I am hoping for a better tomorrow.

Can there be a better tomorrow?

Earth-shaking

This morning, i wanted to write an entry but i didn't have time to pen it down. So I was busy typing and replying e-mails, and when the afternoon came, i had lunch and i do my usual stuff and relax a little...
Then I saw my colleague having a meeting with all my bosses.

Its been a month that i felt something wasn't right with this colleague and my feeling was right all along...

2 of my colleagues resigned.

My thoughts? Blank.

Smile...

Embrace wadever that's coming....

Right?

Mull over...

Something isn't right again. Today i realised my Uncle asked me to sign an insurance which is $2400 a year, and it is a 1-time payment per year. Is there something wrong with his HEAD?! I am really pissed off now. I asked him specifically not to let me sign a policy out of my ability and he freaking did just that. The 1st time, i received 3 letters which adds up to $100 a month which fine, i accept. But ass, $2.4k a year, and i have to pay it in a month, in a year. Does he take my "I am saving up for my studies" as "never mind just deduct"... I hope i can cancel this policy, otherwise i am in for it. Seriously. How can i pay $2.4k suddenly?! I haven't even pay off my poly fee! Gosh... I really feel like scolding him... Gonna call him up tmr. This cannot do.

Was talking to darling today, and i got so worked up with all the things he said. Sometimes, i feel like he is blaming me for his financial problem. I didn't ask him to spend so much 3 years ago, he spent it all on his car and his ex-es, not me. The most i spent from him is i think the Proposal ring he bought. He always say i demand for so much when he has nothing to give me, but i already back off and give up so much IDEALS for him, just because he couldn't do it. I really gave it all up, but there are certain things which i dun want to and i dun think i should give up.

But, I can't blame him, can i? If he had settle for someone else, that someone else wouldn't want so much from him. I hate it when he use that kind of tone to talk to me, its like i made all the mistakes and he has nothing to do with it.

I'm sad... Yes, I am. Who doesn't know he's stress about his work, about his future, who doesn't know? He thinks everyone knows except for me. But i know it all, i just didn't want to say it out because i dun wanna give him more stress, because i am his dumb gf, who knows nothing but to piss him off. But no... I know... I always know...

I tried... But why must crazy and unexpected things happen?

I wish I have a lot of money to solve all this crazy problems! I wish I am from a rich family, i wish my parents would understand more, i wish my Bf will understand more... I wish...........

Sigh....

Its late. I'm going to bed.

Japan Day 6

I'm coming home tomorrow.

:D

Japan Day 5

I am so tired now. Don't feel like writing much today.

We set out on our trip at 6am today. DAMN FREAKING TIRED CAN! I woke up at like 5am, which is like 4am in Singapore.... CRAP.

The journey was like 2 hours +++....

The day went by like some kind of wind, i dun quite rmb much.

Gonna turn in early.

GOING HOME SOON!

Japan Day 4

A morning that we only need to set out at 8.45am. I woke up at 7.30am and decided i don't wanna go for the hotel's breakfast. I boiled some water and cooked cup noodles. Opened the window wide and sat in front of the view of Shinagawa, having my Nission cup noodles, heavenly!

Anyway, went on for a morning lecture about the Food labelling laws in Japan and DAMN i was so freaking tired! The setting is exactly the same as a classroom, and the guy was talking like a lecturer! Plus what they say have to be translated into English, that interval was horrible. I was dozing off ALL the WHILE! Trying SO hard to keep myself awake and i resorted to pinching my hand (which is wad i did when i was sleepy in school -_-), finally ended, we headed off for lunch on our own.

I FEEL SO LUCKY to be walking with Asmine and co, we had such a great MEAL and that's wad I call authentic Japanese Food! :) It was a $13 lunch. Rice with scallop and salmon pieces, a Miso soup, a side dish and Oolong tea. A little bit ex but all the meals have been like that in Japan.

Went on to a confectionary factory. It was producing cake. The cake is like Kueh lapis, layered cake but its round instead of our usual ones. Heard its delicious AND expensive. A cake of 10cm is around $15, anyway, their cake are going into Singapore market, will be selling at Isetan Scotts, so may be able to try. We had one to bring back and i think i will bring back to Singapore. Its too big for 1 to finish it.

Decided to have a soak in the bath tub and came online a little.

Went out for dinner and shopping. Didn't shop much coz the shops close very early. AND people, i BOUGHT AGNES B BAG! Took me 2 days to finally decide. A bit guilty after buying but its really a good buy considering the price. :) Shall keep it from Darling for the moment. Ha!

Early morning tmr! Gotta set off at 6am so i shall turn in early today.

3 more DAYS to HOME!!! looking forward!

Japan Day 3

Awfully tired day today and an awkward one too.

Today, its down to business for most of the participants. The visit to Fooma Japan, its a trade show happening in Japan where lots of food automation companies display their newest technology. And well, as you may have known, I am not in a Food Manufacturing company, I am working for a Food manufacturing ASSOCIATION, there's a huge difference there ya. Naturally, all those i just mentioned aren't relevant to me at all.

Aimlessly, i followed Xiao Fei looking for the things that she was looking for for her company. She was kind enough to let me follow her. Although I still feel really awkward because 1stly i really dunno wad a food factory really looks like, 2ndly, i have zero idea about food processing.

So walked the entire morning till 4pm. It was so tiring, my legs were killing me!

Then we continued with a talk about convenience store kind of stuff. Something interesting to share, Japan's food market isn't easy to break in considering the cost and, seriously, nothing we see in Singapore can be compared to the creativeness of the Japanese. Their printing tech is far far ahead of us and their factories are non labour-instensive, almost fully automated.

Following that was the worst. Networking which i was really relunctant to go in the 1st place and i kind of regretted i didn't follow my instinct. It was so embarassing to stand there and do nothing. People are busy exchaning card, and i just stood there, taking photos (act busy). The reason why i didn't network with the delegates was because they are not interested! What they are looking for is finding partner to either work for them or let them work for you. My card will go into trash. It was a torturing 2 hours. :(

Dinner ended and we headed back to hotel. After bathing and all, i am online, again, waiting for people i know to be online for me to talk to.

I'm in love with Japanese politeness despite communication barriers, they never fail to be interested. But I still love my country more. :)

Home is better.

PS: Ting, i can buy for you. :)

Japan Day 2

2nd day in Japan. Woke up early in the morning to prepare for set out for a lecture by Dai Nippon about the design and printing technology in Japan. It was an hour bus ride to the place and the lecture was a bit dry but the back part of it was really interesting.

Wen to Meiji factory and it was an eye opener!

Its a much better day today than yesterday. I decided to keep quiet most of the time because i really dun wanna start convo which i know will be redundant. So i slept my way thru while on bus and listen to my IPOD. I know i'm being a lil bit outcast but haiya, doesn't matter lah.

Came back to hotel and then went out with the group of bosses for dinner and shopping. I bought a pack of Fancl collagen tablets, feel so happy. I finally bought something and, i think i'm gonna go buy the agnes b bag i saw.

HAhaa!!! And i will go buy plenty of snacks which we cannot find in Singapore!!! Already a lot liao but gonna buy more. My luggage should have enough space lah. HAhaa!!!

Had an awesome dinner just now and ya, that is real authentic japanese food...

Tmr is another long long day... Gotta wake up really early... Sigh...

Its great to know that 2 days are over, 5 more days to go... TEO AI PING JIA YOU!!!

I know I can do it...

My first day in Japan

First time travelling away on my own, not with any colleagues but with some distant people who well, we know each other but not that well. You know, whenever travelling with colleagues, we always know we have each others; back to fall on but this time round, i don't have that kind of feeling.

Did internet check-in on my way, having some stranger sitting beside me for the 7 hours of flight. Darling drove me to the airport and accompanied me will i entered the departure hall and i walked alone towards the gate for boarding. Just kind of feel lonely. Its was alright in Singapore but once i board the plane, sat on my seat, this feeling of loneliness overwhelmed me. I told myself, well, some day, this would come, and its now, no point thinking negative. Braced myself and I arrived at Japan.

Walked with people who i barely know. Visiting the Supermarket studying their trends and then carried on to shop the mall. Japan's products are amazing, filled across the shelves, so different from Singapore. Plenty of things to buy and look. But i was so tired coz i didn't sleep much onboard.

We finally reached hotel and i took a quick nap.

Then we headed out for dinner together.

Back in the hotel, all alone again. Papa called me and that feeling overwhelmed me again. This is how crappy it feels. I am so thinking of going home already.

Tomorrow will be the start of 5 days of hectic schedule. Sigh...

Its 10.25pm Japan Time, 9.25pm Singapore time. I'm waiting for someone I know to be online so i can chat with them. I guess this is call homesickness.

The weather is cold here and I didn't bring any windbreaker, can you believe it? Its supposed to be hot can... Sigh...

Really a lot of things to buy but I think i won't spend so much money. Gotta save up. That's important.

I'm waiting for Saturday to come. :)

Loves...

I'm flying off again

Singapore Food Expo 2010 finally ended, after many weeks of prep, it boils down to the final 5 days from 28th May to 1st June.

I didn't have much photos to upload this time round coz i just find myself so tired and not excited at all. Crawling my way to Expo from the first day onwards to the very last. Not sure why, but just really tired. There were quite a few hiccups for the show, so many people just wanna look for trouble with us and which part of "ORGANIZER'S OFFICE" do they not understand, fancy dashing into the office and doing what they think they MUST do when its just a lucky draw coupon. There are really a lot of siao lang in Singapore. I've been trying to tell myself, they are just like you and me, just gotta be a lil bit more patient. While i think that way, another thing  happened...

"Where can I get the coupon?"
"Get them by purchasing from the stalls"
"I buy over thousands of dollars, nobody give me!"
"There are limited number of coupons, they may have run out, you can get from newspaper and magazines also"
"Still need to go buy newspaper! Don't know what you all doing LOR! So troublesome!"
".............................."
(Smiled and listened to her crap)

Mind you, this are Singaporeans who speak very good English and because of one lucky draw coupon and an 80cents newspaper cut-out, she can stand there and make a fuss about it. WHAT THE HELL?! AND you think i believe you bought thousand dollars worth of stuff and pple don't wanna give you coupon, LIAR!

Anyway, the 5 days were all about the craps from the public and the exhibitors. Some people just can't be any more understanding than throwing their weights around.

O well... The rest of it, i spent my time staring into thin air, finding a decent toilet, going to John Little and just talking to pple.

Peter and Steven were very nice to give us a day off on Wed, right after the show but I had to go to SPRING for the Japan Mission briefing.

Yes, I am flying Japan tmr night for a week. I am so tired and so blank now i can't think properly what am I supposed to prepapre... And I forgot to change money until Papa reminded me this morning... Sigh...

Not a lot of money left to splurge as I wish. I need to save money!

Ting is back in town but i'm flying off, our schedule are so packed we can barely find a time to meet, and when i returned next week, she'll be flying back to Vietnam, WTF!

See, this is work we're talking about.

Everybody thinks flying to different countries is really fun and all, but it really isn't when you are there for work, a lot of responsibilty lies on you. Ya, I will still sight see and take LOADS of photos! Hahahaha!!! (THAT'S THE SPIRIT, PING!)

I shall find time to upload my photos!

signals from somewhere

I'm home from a freaking long day at the Expo, it wasn't a good first day, i lost my appetite, I got shouted for some stupids reasons, I lao sai-ed, and a superbly awesome tiff with MR HOO! Damn, the day sux!

So i'm home, washed up and waiting for my hair to dry, i was browsing my FB page and i came across a friend, no, i won't say she's a friend, just somebody i knew from a few years back, and its through the tiny window of FB that i saw what i did.

She is so young, even younger than me, but she already has a kid, the kid has no daddy, and that's something that kind of made me think deeper. How can life be such a child play? How did one decides to do what they did without thinking of the consequences? And how did one's family allow such things to happen?

I look at myself today, counting from Day 1 that I am with Mr Hoo, so many things happened, tonnes of fights i had with my family, gazillion try-an-error was done to come to where we are now, barely making it. How can one just skip all this steps and reached the destination?

I'm 22, and i'm struggling with myself about the steps to take, yet those who are so much younger bypassed all that i've taken. Its funny how this society crafted us, how everyone's thinking changed.

Am i being conservative or am i just looking for a fair justification of what the F*ck is going on?

I'm being random.

The night has reached its end. I need to fall dead on my bed now...

GOOD NIGHT!

PS: MR HOO SAYS "WHY ARE YOU SULKING?! I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!"

I love you too, Darling...

Busy and Not

Counting down to SFE 2010 which is in a couple of days' time. I am in my office now, just doned with some stuff and starring into the screen again. How contradicting. Lynn is really busy because she is the in charge, the rest of us - I don't really know what exactly are each of us doing.

Thinking about the journey from home to Expo is such a huge turn-offs. I asked my friends to come find me and the usualy reply is, "nothing better to do meh, go all the way to expo to eat" and i would laugh along. HAHA!!! 5 DAYS to and fro......... Although I know Papa will most probably offer to drive me there but I doubt i'll be asking him to send me everyday. And the timing sux TOO! Hahahahaha!!!

It gets better!

Right after the show, I'm flying Japan that weekend. HOR! Not prepared at ALL! I am so down down down... Although I really want to go Japan but its gonna be so sian by myself. *sigh*

3 weekends BURNED... *pOOf*

Anyway, I am so falling asleep in office now.

Darling's business is a bit slow recently, can business please get BETTER?

Ciao!

15th May 2010, my 22nd BD and also...

This is my lovely 22nd BD. Mixed feeling but well spent evening. Thanks to our thoughtful Amy and Yenn and venue kindly provided by Jason. With my lovely Darling as the main actor. :D I love them, I love my Darling. :) 

没想到你做到了... 雀跃万分...谢谢你，让我知道，你还是爱我的...

14th May 2010 6pm to 12mn together with HUI

I had so many thing that i've been wanting to do but doesn't have the chance to or I just don't have someone to do it with me. On my BD eve, my best friend did it with me, and i feel SO happy!

Hui and I met up at Outram around 6pm and we walked to Link Hotel for our Ala Carte Japanese Buffet. Its YUMMY! We both LOVE the food, i hope. HAHAHA!!!

I opened the pressie that she chose but given by ting and her. I love the pressie. Its a pair of hair shaped earrings from Swarovski. I really love it, its so pretty and shiny, elegant and somehow, so my kind of style. HoHo! And there was a small request that came along with the gift, and it feels so weird when i read it on the letter Hui wrote to me.

I guess its coz we haven't been writing much, it sounds like a request yet its something that I will willingly do it even without being asked to. They wanted me to wear the earrings for my ROM, which I promptly agreed to do so. Why not? The best gift from my bestest PEEPS. Love them to BITS!

After dinner, Hui and i headed to Singapore Flyer, and i was so so so excited to board it, although kinda ruined by the bunch of pple we shared it with but nah, i had Hui and I had my greatest mood. The half an hour ride wasn't much but i'm just really happy that i did wad i wanted to do since... since Flyer was built. HahA! And i did it as a BD wish.

Hui and I walked all the way to the newly opened Marina Bay Sands and just walked around in the unfinished building. And i marvelled over how efficient my country is.

We walked to esplanade and couldn't decide where to head to, and took a bus back to batok. And I was on the bus when it strucked 12am, me being officially 22. :)

It was indeed a great day spent. I lOVe it! I love every minute that built up to it, I love every minute after it, I love being me!

Thanks Hui for spending the night with me.

Birthday

Many things happened this Birthday. I think I enjoyed it better, at least one year later, i'll still rmb what happened, its too hard to forget (hinT hiNt)...

I'm waiting for all the photos to be sent to me, so i can upload in 1 shot. :D

Nothing else but good food, good movies and great companies!

Met up with Aiai last Friday for dinner (we booked each other so very very long) at SAKURA, the one at Science centre. AiAi made reservations for 7.30pm. Its also her treat that night, my Birthday treat (I hope this kind of relationship lasts for many many years to come). After work, i headed to JE to meet her.

Our first big plate is SALMON SASHIMI!!!! WAHAHAHA!!! Its so so so YuMMY! But i think its a little bit not as fresh, or maybe they didn't cut it as nicely, it didn't really taste fresh enough for me, Aiai ate the WHOLE plate... HA!

While we were slowly having our very few rounds of buffet, her friend, Ruth (happens to be Billy's GF), called, saying she gotta stay at home waiting for Billy, and asked if Ai can hang out with her. So I told Aiai to ask her along too.

We went on to WALA, Holland V. Haven't been there since i don't remember actually. Ruth drove us there, she had a soft drink, we stood there for a while, listened to the live band but the live band ended after i finished half a bottle of heinken, then we waited for Ruth's friend, Yong Ann to come.

After quite a bit of driving here and there, we went to Balestier for the famour Bah Kut Teh. HAhA! I think it was like 1 or 2am by then, and it was supper already. HA! The Bah Kut Teh is nice but not as nice as the one near Darling's place.

We went to West Coast after that, and caught some couples in "ACTION", Hee~ I bumped into Wyman and Liang Chai at the Mac. We sat around, talked a little then headed back. I rmbed i concussed around 4am.

It was really a long night spent with Aiai. Never really spent such a long time with her, we usually had dinner and left but this time round, it lasted so long and met some nice new people.

Woke up rather late the next day and slacked at home till Darling finished work and picked me up to go JB. Customer was a little jam, Darling's car was a little bit too cold.

We opened the window and the vapour forms, and there, my masterpiece!

Darling and I had Teppanyaki for dinner and watched IRON MAN 2! Gosh, the MOVIE IS AWESOME, must-watch if you haven't!

The night went by rather quickly, you know how they say it, good times never last. Before we knew it, the movie has ended, and we were on our way back home. This is one of the few moments i love, the long trip home after movie, Darling and i talked about a lot of things.

We played BSB's 1st album and sang out lungs out together. I love it, after such a long time, all the travelling, and his work took those precious little moments away from us. I'm glad we still have it.

Next morning, after our usual bah kut teh breakfast at Kulai, we head back in to Singapore! WAHAHA!! While Darling has stopped singing, i continued playing some other songs and sing along with it. Hee~ And camwhoring never stops on his car! :D

I was considering for too many days whether i should get a lash extension or not... And finally, i decided to DO it!

The whole process was like 1 and a half hour or so, and i was tearing like mad... I think its the kind of glue, and its natural i hope. Ha!

The outcome is great! I love how it looks on my eyes, but it certainly has its price. It kind of hurts the rest of the day whenever i touched it until the next day it felt better.

Washing face is a little bit mafan, coz i can't rub as hard, but at least, i dun have to draw eyeliner on top now. HeeE~~~

I love life as it is now... Live it...

Birthday for Lynn, Birthday for Me!

Chocolate overdose i feel. Stomach a lil bit painful but its worth it (RIGHT?!) HAHA!!!

Lynn's BD is today, mine is next week, so they did it together yesterday. Awfully Choc's Banna Choc cake... Its YUM!

Had half day leave yesterday doing my hair nice nice. Got my straight hair back but its very very dry... The side are all damaged, must jia you with treatment etc.