Paris Day 3

Yup, its been the 3rd day in Paris, and there's really nothing but tiredness... Didn't go to any places, except for the hall. So freaking regretted staying at this hotel its an hour ride from the hall, wasting so much time travelling...

And the strike that's happening around here, scary... Funny pple kicking bikes are scary too... SiGh.

Pavilion is ok, things are fine, just some pple detest the existance of others... Crap right?

Its 6am now, i need to leave my room in 15 min time but i'm still so sleepy... Hai...

Somebody, HELP!!!

PS: its not going to make it to my best country list.

Flying off soon

Been rather caught up with a lot of things recently. And its getting on my nerves.

Shall not dwell too much on it..

I'm not really happy recently, so many things going on in work, in life and in love. Many times, I just choose to remain silent and stay away from these rowdiness. As these occurings become often, I find myself less involved, and that's when i realised my life is getting plain. You know, like when we were in school, we always tell ourselves not to let life be led by nothing, but let it be led by yourself. As I try to come back to life, there are deterrence in so many ways.

I'm taking a step back, doing what i should do, and trying not to step into other's boundaries, but when I do that, will these people do the same? No, they just keep coming forward, threatening to conquer you.

I know i'm young, i know i'm junior but i know what are the things i should do and should not do, i'm tired of your sickening talks, your seemingly harmless words are in fact hurtful. You can act like a spoilt brat and act as a saint, no one will criticize you, because of who you are, but not everyone are as lucky.

You know, i'm starting to detest life as a working adult, it kind of sucks. The money keeps coming in, and it keeps going out, non-stop. Everybody expects so much out of it, but nobody stood in my position and think about it.

I've been rejecting, saying no, turning down pple, and i'm kind of sick of it but when i do say yes, i made a promise to keep, but i hardly have that confident to do that anymore because i dun have the time and the strength to do it anymore.

Being able to stay at home and rest is the most precious moment nowadays.

Yet, i'm flying off again soon. I'm not a least bit excited about it...

Farewell to her, Mrs Lee Kuan Yew

It never occurred to me that this day will come... We are not related by blood, not by name, only similar because i, too, am a woman, living in Singapore. I am in no way comparable to this woman. Just like how i respect the person who built this nation, i give her my utmost respect as a woman... THANK YOU! MAY YOU REST IN Peace...

Hui Ge and Ruth Wedding 19.09.10

Being there for a wedding is a tiring affair, just the dolling up and the things to bring and how to make it a beautiful night.... I love going for wedding banquets, because those are the very few occasions when i can dress up and be pretty and also to meet up with some good old friends. This time round, its different.

Not just being there for the banquet but also for the entire day, from when the groom comes knocking on the door to going to the groom's place, then photoshoot and back to nian jia. Have to admit, it was really fun but at the same time, extremely exhausting.

A night before that faithful day, we stayed over at Ruth's place, I couldn't sleep coz the pillow was too hard and the air con was too cold, i tossed and turned till my alarn rang. And ya, the day began.

The bros are so irritating, they gave us $1 coins and we had to count them to $388. Hahaha!!!

Wasn't really pleasant when we heard some nasty things from the relatives but well, just act as though its none of our business and just do our thing. Come on, its a lot of effort from us too, we just want it to be a marvellous day for the newly-weds, let's not be a wet blanket.

As usual, where there is Lin Na, there is Cam whoring! Hahahahaha!!! We cam whored the entire DAY......... HAhahahaaha!!!!

Some photos to share... I can't wait for Ruth to send me the video montage, its really damn hilarious! 

 

 

 

  

 

 

心情

心情不好。很累。忙。吵架。叹..........

1 long weekend I can't seem to afford

Took Monday off which means I have an extremely long weekend from tomorrow (Hari Raya) onwards. I feel really guilty taking this off day because i know i have piles of work undone.

China show hasn't been settled, contractor hasn't been decided, air tix hasn't been booked, and everything is just a mess. I have plenty of papers on my desk and I just can't seem to get them done properly one by one without being disturbed. SiGh....

Truth is, I feel irresponsible for taking that off day. Hai.... But I think I need that... Its going to be a really busy weekend. Its Melissa, Boh Teck and Ling Hui's Birthday altogether.

I'm meeting Dear and bro for lunch at Fish&co (some place we had great memories about) but i'm too broke to buy them a pressie so it'll be my treat.

And I'm meeting Hui on Sunday night for dinner. YEAH! And that's part of the reason why i took leave on Monday.

Before I can go back to office, I think i need to take some time to study the quotation I have. Ahhhhhhhh........ This is horrible. I feel so messed up!

Next weekend is Ruth's wedding, HA!

Man, I gotta pull my socks up really really tight and high.

Good Night! :)

My winnings!

I bought a few new things recently, there are not things which I really need but I will need them eventually. :)

What did I bought?

My friend went to the Comex show the other day, so i asked her to help me take a look at hard disk, and she helped me got Seagate 500GB hard disk at $89. I don't know whether that's a good price but I thought its not too costly. I've been looking at hard disk for so long but i never am willing to spend money on it, but recently, I went through my photo folder, and I realised, its time to get one otherwise I might lost all those photos of great memories.

I also bought 2 pair of shoes in JB. Hee~ I'm a proud member of SUMMIT (equivalent to Charles&Keith), and I bought a pair of normal black heels and a pair of sharp tip flats. So happy... There is this height for heels that I am comfortable with but after the previous one spoilt, i couldn't find the right height and heels, coz of that, there are many blisters on my poor feet and now I finally found the correct height again! HAHAHAHA!!! These 2 pairs cost me less than $50!

Another I bought is really an impulse buy. I was really frustrated with myself previously because I really worked very hard to save money, trying to save every dollar I can, and I got so angry that i kept torturing myself, depriving myself of good food, great bargains and all those things i can do with the money I have. And well, I had a tiff with Mr Hoo the night before. So, making use of the meeting-free day, 2 hour lunch time, I went to the shop next to our office and went for 1st time trial facial at $59.90. Face uncleansed for months, and the great massage they offered, I signed a package of $1200. And I signed it with Mr Hoo's credit card (I will pay him back k). Which after that, I immediately regretted. O well... Wad's billed cannot be unbilled right? I have the next year's facial settled. HoHo!

Don't worry. The above are not done in a couple of days, its done within a span of 2 months. I'm happy doing those things, and I will do them again if given a chance.

Many things happening in Sep through to Nov.

The next exciting thing is HUI'S BIRTHDAY and RUTH'S WEDDING, all happening this month! WAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Making each 1 count

Well, noticed my frequent absence on my blog? Ya, I know. Keeping my blog very personal for the past few years already but I never kept a password to it. I thought since it is online, its meant to be read and seen by anyone.

Well, you never know who will bumped into this blog and get something good out of it right? Perhaps when comparing to this boring person (ME!) they have a much better life. Hahaha!!! Ok, my life is great, its just that i treat this space more like a place for me to vent my complains on. I must say, this is really one of the best places for me to do that.

So, ya... Life has been I don't know. I can't find a word to describe life now. Saying that its boring, or tiring, or funny, no... None of those words fit.

I realised I've been trying to be someone else. Someone who I don't even know. I've started to take my job very seriously, I mean, i was serious back then but not that serious now. Back then, its just a job to me, now, its a source of living. In this real world, we need to please more than just ourselves. That's very fake, I know, but sometimes, you know you can't escape that.

I'm still standing firm on my principles but there are times, I had to let them go. Very strangely, i started to spot my bad habits too. Some bad habits that i need to change to make myself look better infront of others.

Hahaha! That's the real world right?

Darling and I have been really bumpy recently. I've tried really hard to be understanding towards him, really very hard, but sometimes, i'm just too tired, and i just let my emotions run, that's when all those bullshits will begin. But I told myself, I have to, and I will make all this good, for the both of us. And I hope, he feels the same way too. I really hope he will.

Its not that I don't trust, its the actions that create doubts. Anyway, I promised to forget about everything, I promised all this will be great. And I will keep that promise. For always.

Here's me and my darling! Hahahahahaha!!!

Nights!

Its been awhile again.

Busy with work and busy with life i would say. Living life rather tiredlessly. Rountine life. But when i tried to break out of this rountine, i tire myself which is the 1 thing i hate the most. I hate feeling tired, because then i won't feel like doing anything. Sigh.

Well, i promised myself to live life happily! So I will do just that!

Sep is arriving, I will be looking forward to 2 to 3 more trips by year end, for work again. HAhahahaaha!!! Anticipating Paris! But also the most worrying one. :)

JIA YOU!

It was a bad day yesterday

Yesterday is a bad day... Aside from an awesome dinner, the rest of it was just a mess.

The same problem I had a couple of years back is back again, i went to the doctor again but they are already closed. I was so sad. I got turned away just like that, feeling like a total loser last night, and I swear i was tearing until halfway through I told myself, "Come on la... Forget about it..."

I walked home, watched GLEE and head on to bed, i think i only fell asleep an hour later. It was so tiring to force myself to bed when my head is telling me otherwise.

It was really a crap day...

I can't help it but there is really a problem with this relationship... Is ignorance such a bliss?

Where are you when I needed you most...

Nothing achieved

Life's been choatic i would say. I haven't been sitting down doing my own thing for a while. Have been helping darling out with quite some stuff, spending lesser time with myself, more with everyone else.

Everyday in office, I will be working, I will be thinking, when i'm not working, i'm looking at the shop's website, and i didn't even thinkg about posting anything on my blog.

I feel that nothing much has been achieved in the past month. I've been waiting for hours to pass, waiting for days to pass, waiting for weekends to arrive and do more other things. Feeling a little bit more tensed up than those few months of luxury i had.

Its really fast how times fly. Said this so many times but it never changed. Soon, ting is coming back already. I will be working in the association for a year too. Darling has been out there on his own for 4 months already. Everything is going on so fast.

Since i paid off my poly debt, i've been running short of money and that insurance i bought, i really regretted. Hai... I dun want to be working to pay off debts. I want to save and buy the things i like and i want, why can't I be a rich girl with few thousand dollars in my bank?! Hai....

Anyway, business at darling's end is ok. He's been complaining he is tired... He needs to hire someone soon!!!

In my entries, I mentioned my lonely journey to KL myself for work. I had hell as usual, each time I go on overseas shows, there's bound to be some sort of crap which I need to deal with.

Good thing about going alone was that I don't need to answer to no one but i thought I was very discipline. Despite the fact that a lot of my job is about waiting, and i was glad i had the patience to wait for a very long time for things to be done.
The hard part was when exhibitors started coming in, but i think i was pretty lucky, they were all quite fine, and when there are problems, i take my hats off for myself, because i actually know how to solve it.

Having gone to quite a few shows already, i'm glad, really glad that i've absorbed many learning points which in KL, was put to practical use.

Another good thing happened, i met a nice girl in KL. She reminds me a lot of Melissa Lim. And she is one of those few Malaysians who I know can speak really fluent english. I envy her courage and ideals in life, something which I once had, but has slowly fade away because of the reality in life. Perhaps, when she starts working like I am, she can hold on to those beliefs. FYI, she is also 22.

Bosses were very nice to come to KL for "business trip" and at the same time, to assist me in my 1st lonely trip. Although they can be naggy sometimes, I must admit, they are nice bosses. :)

KL - i think i forgot to update

I think i was too tired already. I was online everyday after work when i'm in KL but i totally forgot about logging on to blog. HAHAHA!!!!

Anyway, i'm back home and I will be loading some pics up soon.

Going back to office brings me a sense of joy and pain; joy being, needless to be alone. Pain being, piles of paper work to do, and ya, i dun think phone call will stop.

Sigh...

Embrace it remember? Yes, i do.

Take it and leave it... Come and gone...

KL Day 3

First day of show started fine. The booth assistant is really good and friendly. A msian that loves singapore, even more so than a singaporean, me. Hahahaha!!!

Still the same, rather tired lor... Jia lat...

I thinking sat night how to go to airport ehh... haaiii....

Sian.......

我的小脾气不再是你的容忍范围了...就算只是撒娇的脾气，也不比当年了... 或许可能，下一步，难上加难...

KL Day 2

Didn't sleep well last night, woke up a few times in the middle of the night... Hai...

Woke up early 7am, prepared and went down for breakfast, the breakfast here is not nice at all..... SERIOUSLY........ Think I'll have cup noodles in the morning. :)

Reached hall before the door was opened, had to wait for so long with a huge bag of stuff.

Things that were left undone yesterday remained the same, i was kind of pissed and when i saw Afai (contractor), i told him he lied to me. HA! He was nice enough to rush for me each time i call him or went to find him. Although it still took a little while, but i was too tired to be bothered le.

By lunch time, exhibitors came in 1 by 1, they are all ok bah except for 1 which pissed me off from yesterday. Dun even know WHY they are under Spore Pavilion.

Chatted with some pple and they kept asking why was i at the hall yesterday, why this and why that, is this not normal? I tot that's wad we do every time... Nevertheless, I was doing my job.

Waited for all exhibitors to arrive and i was so hungry and thirsty and hungry by 2pm, i went off and drank 2 cans of 100+. Hai...

All exhibitors cleared only at 7pm... :(

My stomach was so freaking hungry and i am so damn tired and sticky... I went to cold storage, bought necessary stuff had tom yum noodle at secret recipe again. I bet the waiter and waitress must be thinking i am very weird. HAhA! I think i'll go again tmr for dinner. HAhA!!! Curry laksa or chicken chop??? Heee~~~

Back in hotel around 8pm, washed up and had everything arranged very soon and on my laptop since.

Gonna be 10pm soon, really tired today. Tmr is the 1st day of show, i hope things will be fine. *crOss Fingers*

My legs are aching... i wanna go massage... I wanna take leave on Monday and Tuesday... I wanna tell boss tmr....

missed home already... Always happen on the 2nd day...

3 days away from home... Sat come fast fast k. :D

Tmr will be a better day!

Creating smiles within smiles... Dreams within dreams... Inception.

KL day 1

Really alone this time. Feels so weird... All alone...

The Pavilion is fine... Just a few small hiccups which isn't a big problem. Most of the things are up already, so I left the hall around 8plus...

I'm kind of sad now... Hai... Didn't get to see darling before i flew, can't see him online tonight also. I am bored...

KL is so different from JB, but there's this sense of familiarity... Its good that most of the chinese speaks chinese, and i dun need to come across malays.

Had dinner alone at Secret Recipe. I got drenched by rain, and i bought an umbrella. Sounds so pathetic right? Hahaha!!!

Sitting infront of my lappy again, doing nothing but staring at it. I'm just waiting for tmr to come, and for tmr to end, and then the next 3 days after that. And I believe i will be taking 2 days leave before starting work again. Been so tired recently...

No mood to take pics, will be funny if i am self-taking pics. HAHAHA!!!

boRing!!!!!!!!!!!

So many emails in my mail box, which hai... I wish i dun need to know...

If only you are here with me, Darling...

Leaving for work

I'm travelling to KL on Tuesday but there is a pile of work still waiting in the office..

All of a sudden, everything just came at 1 time. This is so scary... And I dun like to do budgetting, financial projections... All the adding up is so freaking scary... This damn woman kept pressing and pressing for it when they are the ones who sat on it for so long. Now that we are busy with our things, they press and press for it.

knnbccb

Hai... No mood to pack luggage also.

Blog

Blogging is my best way of communication to all my friends out there. I may not know who are reading whatever crap i'm writing but I know, there are people who cares.

Thanks much much for showing me that little teeny weeny bit of care by reading the simple words I've typed.

Picking up pieces of my emotions, and I need to get ready for my KL trip... For work again, yes. :)

I may not like travelling so much for work but I will always accept every single opportunities i'm offered to go overseas. Because it helps me widen my perspective, it helps me learn more about the way other people lives, and it helps me treasure what I have in this little state I called, Home.

Yes, i'm complaining about the times i fly for work, but I liked it even more, I know I won't regret every single miles i'm travelling.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

APPLE TEO IS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ignorance?

Why must you do/say things which I never like to hear? Why must you allow our relationship to be tested in such a way? Are you trying to end this or are you trying to make me give way to you? If you think I will let you have your way, you can leave right away.

Don't treat me like an idiot... I feign ignorance because I don't want to damage anything we built up, but don't you think its stupid when you know very well there are people around me who will tell me plenty of things about you?

I told you I don't like, I told you not to do it, how many times in our entire relationship have I ever asked for you something, demanded for something, requested for something, this is one of the very few times i did that, but why must you challenge me? Why must you challenge my patience and my tolerance...

Why do you say things to others and feign ignorance in front of me... Do I look like an idiot to you???

Wad THE F*CKING HELL is wrong with that HEAD of yours?!

CHALLENGE ME?! I'm on! This relationship is at stake, you make your choice. I'll willingly ACCEPT ANY CHALLENGE from ANYONE! Including YOU!

Shattered by the thoughts of your betrayal... Slowly... But Surely... I no longer know what are my options... I no longer know the way you think... I no longer knows how not to cry for you...

Days of silence

I'm not in my best mood recently. Too much changes occuring, too much new stuff to adapt to, and I think i am giving myself too much unnecessary stress. Its ya, unnecessary.

I realised, everytime this kind of things happen, i will start feeling really tired and true enough, i've been damn f*cking tired.

But well, gotta accept everything as it is. I need to work hard work hard for it!

Complain I may, but life, I still gotta live.

Embrace it, and smile. :)