Seems to be fading away...

Went through some of my old friends' friendster just now. Suddenly, i realised i'm missing out a lot on their lives... One in particular, Melanie... I wonder how is she doing le? She used to be someone who i was hang around with, no matter where we go bah... And seems like she's the only one who i say a lot to. Her absence in my life hasn't been a hard time but then when i thought bout it, i dun really know wad is going on in her life, nor does she knows anything bout mine. And seriously, she's also the only person who i can frankly say anything. The one who knows me most is not anyone so close i suppose... Miss her too much to catch up le. We can never be the same like we were b4, but will still ask her out every now and then... MiSs u Mel...

Also, i went to looked at kaiwen's... Ermm.. A very strange name to call now... We've known each other since P3... Havn't met up after she transferred school and moved house... HeH...

Missing out too much on my friends' lives... Am i so occupied by every other thing, than some of the greatest friends? Probably... Everybody seems to be drifting apart already... Hai... We are on our own? Talking to Yuting just now, i always had fun talking to her, she always left me wondering, and that's wad been connecting us together as the best of friends, when all else had failed.

Ermm... Xueting... She's also pretty busy with her everyday life... GoSh... Hope she'll be Ok Ok, better than Ok...

LiNg Hui... Where r U?! Hee~ She's a bit missing nowadays... HAHA!!! miSs u Girl...

New friends doesn't seem to be taking any space in my heart... It's kind of weird... Please, let my heart open up...

I heard a life story of this guy, he had a life of ups and downs, and been through the gate of Hell and back... Kind of dramatic in some ways yet, he is sitting right in front of me saying that. Guess he should treasure life more than b4... Wad a LiFE.... Hope mine would be as dramatic but less trauma... Hee~

Missing all of you sO very MUCH!!! Come back to my life...

Ermm...

I went out for dinner today with u know who... And had a long sit at KoPitIam... Kind of a crappy night... Anyway, had my stomach filled and safely reached home... Besides that, today was pretty boring... Nothing much happened...

Hee~ Tml must start reading up on the CIP assignment le... I'm so doomed... HahA!!!

My Dear & Me...

QiAn & PiNg

IdIot & APpLe

D E A R S....

Woke up at 6.35am today... WAhAhAHA!!!!! Reached school at around 7.40am with Trish... 1st lesson, SW, Netball... The cool thing is, the person taking charge of us knows who Kailing(my coach) is, and she even knew she went for a knee op. Kind of a coincident to meet someone who knows my coach... HAha!!! So, by right, i should trust she is someone who knows netball, since she knows Kailing... K, i'm making an assumption but hopefully this assumption is right... Anyway, the training began, we ran 2 large rounds of the track but after that, it started to rain so we began with physical... Well, i hate PT lah hor... But then, it wasn't that tough compared to wad i did b4 with my previous team. Ya... Anyway, i had quite a few laughs during the training. Suppose the pple there will be better.

Was a little bit late for CATS but wadever... Anyway, the lecture was talking all the way. I did listen lah, but at the same time, slacking... Hee~ And my darling sms-ed me saying she wants to meet me... Hee~ HaPPy to meet my Darling... U know wad, we went shopping at Orchard, and i was in FBT shorts and the NP shirt(the one robert design) OMg!!!! It's a bit too casual to be wearing like that for the whole day in town. And, while shopping, coz Sa and i got used to calling each other Dear, some lady thought we really are lesy... GoSh... But i cleared the air... OmG... NVM lah, she's still my DeaR... HAhA!!!

Then, dear and I went to take PiCs... Cute right?! Me in Casual wear and 1st time with my dear.... HAHA!!! NICe... LoVe It!!! Then, i walked her to OHS... Wanted to go Far east with Terry one, but he took a long time and tiredness was starting to set in, so i decided to leave... Anyway, Bt kor called off the meeting up and Something kind of happened to Ting which i dunno y, didn't pursue much le... When it's time, she'll tell... So i went back on 174 after getting my New CAP!!! Hee~

KK, i bought Ramen for my dinner... Compared to yesterday, my appetite is better today... O ya, Dear forced me to eat some food with lots of chilli and dunnoe y, she bought 2 desserts for me... Trying to stuff me to death?! NO wAY DEAR!!! U can nv shake me OFF!!!

Kk, i crashed OHS today... Surprising quite a lot of pple with my presence... Hee~ WaHAHAHAHA!!! Me and My MarVellous entrance...

I met these 2 guys. One guy says he's 30, but doesn't look so. The other says he's not 30 but look So... HAHA!!! Ain't that funny? I met 2 of guys who should switch their age... HAHA!!! K, if u know who, just Shhhhh... Dun say anything huh.... HAHA!!!

I dun think i'm gonna go for the interview liao le... So boring... Dun really wanna work lor... Tiring...

I sent an sms to the wrong person today and found it weird with his reply, "U miss me isn't" For god sake.... PLEASE....

K, i'm really tired le... Need to catch some sleep... NiGHT!!!

CiAo!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

Lost iN a fAmiliar place...

Ermm... Again, i had a great sleep, so much so that i overslept this morning... I woke up at 7.20am when i'm supposed to wake up at 7... But well, was able to get there in time to meet Ting.

Ermm... I guess the embarkment of this week, a new week, kind of took a different way for me as compared to last week. I had a hard time understanding i guess... But anyway, i tried my best to work hard. Kind of hard to fit into the class bah... All of them seem to be those real smart ones... Well, i have to work extra hard i guess... Nothing to worry bout? Please... I got dozens of stuff to worry... I need to focus on my modules le... No time for me to slack anymore...

MIEC tutorial was great, i like my Tutor, Mr Pon... Hee~ He's a funny person, injecting many of his humour to the lesson... LOVe It... So the day kind of ended with all the tough Tutorial qns... Hai... I dun really like how my class is now... Hopefully, it's coz we're still new to each other... Hard to fit in? Doesn't matter right? I'm AppLe...

K, i felt kind of lost today after school. I kind of walked my way from NP to the petrol station, in my mind, blank... When i reached central, i decided to go get a packet of Choc to accompany my way in WM... Then, saw the Uncle and the other guy in the SAloN... After which, went to WM, i loiter there for very long but no appetite, so i decided to get SuShi... Sat at the interchange, mind still thinking wad to eat coz i know wun be full with Sushi... So i sat there for very long... Till i saw TYS... MY FRIEND!!! Hee~ Chatted lots with him... Miss his craps a lot... So i kind of went to eat with him and his friend, with the exception of myself eating... Really have no appetite... After that, ting called me, said she wanna eat dinner, i thought she was alone lor, but well, nVm... Had a short chat with her too...

Meeting with Bt kor tml... K, feel very bad bout last few times when he wanna meet but can't, and tml, determined to go meet up with my loNg losT kor and see his BoTak hair... HAHA!!! Hope ting can come too...

Ermm... I very tired now, but my heart kept wondering away... Well, i'm gonna sleep so as to replenish for tml 8am SW...

I guess it's hard to get used to this life, called "POLY LIFE"...

Trying to love myself more...

I'm kind of missing myself a lot... I haven't found time to reflect on myself... I quiet down a lot from before... Is it the new environment? Is it the New friends? Or is it just myself...

Before falling into my sleep again, let me find some answers to the unknown...

I still...
Who are you now
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny itJust can't let you go
Chorus:I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
I wish I could find you
Just like I found you
Then I would never let you go
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no from you

All that u need to know bout me... My idol says it all...

MarVelLous...

HeY hEy!!! I fell in love with today... HAHA!!! Though i gotta wake up early 7am, but i had lots of great times today. 1stly, i was able to have a good night sleeps without all the waking ups or having dreams which always kept my head occupied. Then, when i was waiting for bus in the interchange, i met Trish and i had a partner all the way till school to talk to. Then, when OCOM tutorial started, i was amazed. It was much better than the lecture... HeH! More interesting and for the 1st time i met my tutorial mates... Kind of happy... Hee~

After break, went on for BSTA tutorial, hee, the tutor kind of reminds me of Mdm Khong, with very good English of coz. Kind of like her way of talking and then gotta mix with other T-mates. HAhA!!! HApPy! Right after BSTA, carried on with ITR... GoSh... By then, my gastric was hurting. Still, i had a great time paying attention and contributing ideas the the group discussion... Hee~ That was when i told Ting that will meet them in school later instead of batok and that's when Robert came to say i act busy... Hai... I got accused...

Anyway, my gastric was hurting a lot when tutorial was coming to an end so i kind of tolerated the pain all the way till i met YUting and Xueting... HaI... O yA, b4 that i went get an FBT pants at Co-op... Hee~ Bought it for $10.. If u can find cheaper de hor, tell me K...

Then, after meeting ting and yuting, we walked to Petrol station to have more buses to get to Batok and that's where we met IzWan... hee~ The Guy from OHS, the one who i called for training, who i brought around during his 1st visit to OHS, who i got a long really well when i was a coordinator... Kind of miss those times interacting with all the staff without boundaries, now, got so many BOUNDARIES that i can't cross. Hai... Sad... Anyway, Ting suddenly told me she haven't ordered her Pics for FOC, i'm like, "HUH?!" and rmbed that it's Wed le... So i kind of called robert for help... Anyway, she got really irresponsible GLs... Sad for her...

Reached Mac, ate our dinner, relieved my gastric, and began doing wireless at MAC.... HAHA!!! Well, we chatted online... Ting kind of told me certain things which i shall not disclose but advice were given, hope she'll be ok... She told me she got drifted away from me coz of SCANDALS... HAHA!!! It's like so FUNNY!!!! Well, Well, it's not everyday that u hear scandal from Me... hee~ *SlaP myself Up and Down* Anyway, rest assure, i'm fine... But, i got things to share with her lah, will leave it to another time when we have longer meeting times.

Like it today, though i'm damn tired now... I didn't do my MIEC tutorials... hee~ Beat me for that but i'm a bit too tired to pick it up now... Hai... Hope nothing will happen tml... Anyway, friends, ladies and gentlemen, everyone from SEC SCHOOL, POLY, OHS and CLOSE FRIENDS, hoping u can join me on 12th MAy to somewhere, which i haven't decided, to Pei Me... If u know me, u should know y... 3days after that day... So, leave a comment or send me a mSg? DeaL? Kk, Waiting... Dun come if u r a stranger to me... hee~

Only when Life turns around, I saw the importance of being myself...

The more u say, the more i type

Last night, before going to bed, i was teaching Jennifer Geog. I kind of realised i forgot quite a bit of stuff le... She was asking bout the drainage system, i couldn't find the notes that Mr Alex Lo gave us a few years back bout drainage system, so i kind of drew it out in PAINT.... Amazing? HAHA!!! So cute of me... I can really be a tutor... HAhA!!! Anyway, i can help, so i help... Hee~

Anyway, i couldn't sleep last night... Wah laO... My eyes were very much closing when i laid onto my bed but when i really decided to sleep, i COULDN'T! Can u believe that? I need the aid of my mp3 to get asleep... Gosh... However, that didn't really work, i woke up a lot of times in the middle of the night, singing along in my head, knowing i cannot really sleep well with that, i off the mp3... Still, i kept waking up. No idea y... The last time i woke up b4 9am was 6am, and i rmbed clearly that i told myself, " I still can sleep for 2 hours..." HAhA!!! Isn't that kind of cute... I woke up later feeling pretty restless but still need to proceed on to school...

Right, i love TRM? Hee~ It's very related to the Tourism that i studied in Sec and that's something good, Tourism was one of my fave topic when studying and i can relate pretty well... Hee~ HAPPY!!! Also, Ms Ho annouced the date for our camp... It's gonna be a service boot camp. Kind of looking forward to it... Hee~ LAlA!!!

K, funny thing happened during our 2hours break b4 the make-up lesson for BSTA. The 4 of us, Edith, Joan, Jellyfish and I, sat down, on the same table in Canteen 1, charging our lappy and chatting on MSN... HAHA!!! Our table was in total silence... Kind of funny... HAHA!!! Didn't played it b4...

Kk, BSTA finished pretty early, it was said to be till 7pm but the lecture kind of just finish it in 45min or so. HeE~ So, we left the LT... I wanted to go back le but rmbed my darling called me, so i called back and decided to go meet Yuting and her at Lot1. I practically dragged my feet back to Batok, bought a can of Latte and dragged myself towards the MRT station and reached CCK. Had our dinner, with lots of craps as usual from my dear. HaHA!!! Then, we went to walk around Lot 1, buying different stuff... I was looking for my sports brA when i saw Converse's high cut sneakers... Wah Lao... Itch... HAHA!!! But can't buy lah, it's like $59.90... Hai... Broke... Went home a couple of hours later. It's really nice to meet up with Dear and Yuting... Haven't see Yuting for a long time le, she's almost the same. And for my dear, she's always the same lah... HAHa!!! Well, at this point of time, old friends still play a part in me... They'll always do... MiSS theM lOts... Kk, i kind of make an appointment with the both of them on the 12th... I'm wondering whether the meeting with my Juniors will clash with it not, hope not, coz wanna celebrate a little... HaI... We'll see...

Ermm.... I was printing all the lecture notes and Tutorial qns just now then did some of it... A bit stress ar, but i had fun looking thru them, like a normal student... Hee~

O ya, just now, i ran from LT22 to Atrium... That's common, but within 5min? HAhA!!! 5min b4 lecture began... WAHAHAHA!!! Kk, dun wanna say the reason, very long-winded...

Robert just told me, "Like wan the whole world to know i tok to u for 5hrs. lolx" HAHA!!!! CuTe... I very li Xiao hOr... And he say i sound Bad... HAHA!!! That's like so not the truth... He said i dun sound like myself... Hai... So Sad...

Anyway, overhear MM Lee talking in the News... Election is like so close to us le... Serious thing going on in the state sia... AdmIre MM Lee So So mUch.. Y? Ask u, how many pple can see a historic figure still alive? I CAN!!! WE CAN!!! HAHA!!! Many reasons to admire this man... MANY MANY...

Right Right, should stop... Another early morning tml... NIGHT PPLE!!!

CIAO!!!

If only I can see you again...

Boring Labour Day...

K, something to mention, i chatted with Robert Chai for more than 5hours yesterday... goSh... I can't believe i got so much to say, or rather, we got so much to share... Kk, he's the guy who i cursed and swore at, during the 2nd day of FOC, coz he kept singing and singing, and i'm so pissed. Then, got to see him during the Sentosa trip, then chatted up in MSN, then on PhOne... GoSh... This is like the procedure to making friends.. HAHA!!! Kk, heard a lot from him, said a lot to him and some of the most bo liao to high-profile secrets were being shared. End of the day, didn't sleep well... HAHA!!! CuTe....

K, nothing much happened today, boring all the way... I didn't eat anything since i woke up till i decided to get my butt up and go buy dinner. Kk, decided to buy KFC and feast a little... HAHA!!! K, i'm still me, i wun be bothered by pple saying i'm FAT, coz i'm happy the way i am but then again, i promised nv to gain anymore weight, this is the very limit. Hee~ Wadever... Anyway, live HaPPy can le, dun wanna suffer so much... Hee~

Ermm.... There's something i feel like saying but dun really wanna say, it's kind of awkward... HeH HeH! Well, that is the kind of feeling that i yearn... So mUch... Hai... Well, not the right time to speak of you-know-wad.

Just now, Bt kor smsed me, felt kind of weird, haven't got a msg from him for a while le. Kk, time to spend some time with this kor of mine le... So i suppose i have to make myself free this weekend... Hee~

Tml will be full of Lectures again... Tutorial will start on Wed... Heh hEh!!! LonG dAY!!! And tml got make up lesson for BSTA... gOSh... till 7pm???!!!! But well, that's gonna be life now... Hee~ ANyway, i'm ready for it... LAlA!!! HAte the choosing of clothes early in the morning... Hai... Such a waste of time.

Kk, a lot of occasion coming, labour day is over, Election day coming, then Vesak day, mother's day and MY BIRTHDAY!!! WAHAHAHA!!! heH HeH, where's my present? Hee~ Kk, Dunnoe wad should i do that day... Still thinking... it's a monday though. Well, till then...

I'm walking pass where I found you, but I couldn't see you... I dare not turn my head around...

DONE IN VK SALON...

Short something....

I'm kind of tired now.. However, just wanna say that i've got a new blogSkIn!!!! WaHAHAHA!!!!

K, and i forgot to bath today... Heh~ And it's like so late le, so i'm not gonna bath... K, i know i'm dirty, this is just one of the rare rare times that i am dirty...

Just now, my new table was put into my room, though it isn't really my room yet but most of the stuff are in place le, kind of angry lah, coz i need to throw a lot and i mean, A LOT of things away. Guess wad? I threw away all the letters i had... K, i struggle a lot to do that, i didn't have any space to put so many things anymore... I really hesitated a lot, up till i was really couldn't find a place that is private enough to keep my Primary to Secondary schools' secret, i decided to throw them away. Straight down the dump... K, i really had a hard time doing that.. Somehow, all the memories were in there... All of my life's memories... Well, a new chapter right? So, a new beginning for it all... Afterall, i still got my diary to recall every single things and my friends are still around to once in a while, remind of the stuff... Throwing the letters away doesn't mean all bad, at least i threw away those sad history, those falling in and out of love, those fighting with friends and those struggling i had. Now, it's the new me... WeLCOme!!!

Going to town tml to pass notes to Yunwu.... Hee~ And Ming kind of asked me to go shop with Eunice... Kind of weird but well, anyway, it's town too... HeH Heh!!!

I think I am...

UpDating...

Alright, so the week in school ended pretty fast and pretty easily. So far, no task was given but lots of getting ready to be done. Basically coz next week will the the week where all the projects and homeworks come. WahhAHA!! And then, i'll be damn busy. HEh Heh!!!

K, on thurs, after school, actually wanted to go KAp with Jellyfish and Edith but while on the bus, Rong HuN called me out and asked me whether wanna go to school to take our O level certs, so after a bit of hesitation, i decided to go... HAAH!!! wah lao, and Hun told me that he forgot to ask me... HAHA!!! So bad... ANyway, i walked with Rong hun to school then back to Westmall where the rest had finished eating, so i bought a dessert, Mango Longan, which, well, weren't wad i thought it would be, so after eating half of it, i cannot tahan, i asked whether the rest wants to eat not, without much hesitation, they finished it sia... I'm like, "So nice meh?!" HeH, i suppose they like sour stuff bah... Not me... Hee~

After that, we did a bit of girls' shopping and left the guys out there, then, we were looking at different ear studds... HAhA!!! And i saw a lot more APPLE than i did b4... Hee~ Got really tempted to buy but hee, not much money and moreover, i already got enough studds to fill my ear... So i juts help fish look around and choose a little.

Then, Ting came, we went to look at some footwear... HEh HEh!!! Again, very tempted but then again, i am disciplined enough to just look without taking the cash... AhEm.... HAHA!!! AFter that, Ting and i decided to go coz she wants to get her hair cut. K, i kind of thought bout cutting my hair ever since i brought my darling there, but as each day passed by, i realised how broke i am so i ended up, sitting there, looking at pple's hair got cut. Heh hEh!!!

Met up with Hui and we head towards KFC... Right, my appetite weren't really good so i ate the very little Shrooms meal... So, we kind of just sat there, till sunset, catching up bout our new lives... Yup, so we left at bout 7 if i'm not wrong... Went to find photocopy machines and we came across this push cart, with Punk Star Tees, at 1st it was Hui who got fancied then i got strucked too... HAHA!!! So, we bought 2 of the tees, similiar patterns, for $36... HEh HEh!!! K, i wasted money again, but it does look nice...

Afterwhich, Ting left while Hui and I went back... Was totally beat that day... Late at night, i was chatting up with Robert and he kind of just told me how pissed he was with the cAmp crew and the dnd that's coming out. Anyway, i just listened and really appreciate wad this guy tried to do to make it fun for us... Poor Him...

Next morning, i woke up, and i was damn tired, coz we ended the chatting at 12plus and i woke up at 6am, coz i got an 8am class... goSh... It was my 1st SW class, which means, Sports&Wellness... It wasn't those classes where we have to write down notes or anything but for a start, its some briefing bout wad we're gonna so for the next 12 weeks. HahA, it's like PE lah but we get to do different sports. I chose netball coz out of all the choices given, nothing fancy me, except Netball and Touch Rugby, and since i got the idea of joining touch Rugby for my CCA then i should join Netball for SW. ANd ya, that's kind of wad happened. And gotta meet 3 more girls from the class, who happen to be Edith's friends. So, we had our breakfast together. Then, this Debbie kept looking at me so initially i just joked around saying i'm straight. When we stood up to leave, she suddenly said, "O, u look like the (girl from superstar)!" I dun really know who that person is coz u all know, when superstar came out, i was working like nuts, so i'm like, "Huh?! Orhh... Relax..." That was the result she kept looking at me... Scare me... Seriously, i'm really looked forward to SW next Friday.

CATS lesson was kind of boring but i enjoyed the lecturer talking, it may be bored but it's like Sec school... HEh! i like that FEELING.... Though i know it's nt gonna be long... The lesson ended fast with lots of cool questions. Hee~

Then, i went to buy yet another txt which costs me another 20plus(heartache)... Then, accompanied Edith to buy her lappy case... Then, Trish called me, and we went home together... Along the way, we talked bout some of the stuff that we would usually talked bout, and it felt great to be able to still be in touch with this friend of mine... Hee~ And i felt sad for her hair too... HAi.. Poor thing... I understand her feelings... Dun worry, trish, the frindge will grow back... Smile K!

Decided to go have my hair cut, finally!!! After all the ponderings from the beginning of the week. Hee~ Drew the cash, went to cut at VK salon, again... 3rd time in a week there... I waited for awhile for 2 boy boy to finish their haircut... Both are so cUte!!! Their Ah Mah was talking to me bout the elder boy, hee~ And i offered them Chocs... So CuTe... The 3 yr old boy boy was so shy, he wanted take choc from me, but i said i want a Kiss, but he paiseh... HAhA!!! So Cute... GoSh...

So started my haircut... Just wanted to trim, but this guy, i dunnoe wad's his name but address him as uncle, wanted to cut my frindge... So i'm like, dun cut too much can le... Then, he kind of did all his little stuns to give me my look. Not much changes, look to believe... HAHa!!! In the end, realised he cut off lots of my back... But that's my damage part bah... Nvm.. Worth the $18... I stayed on in the Salon coz i didn't wanna go home, if i did, i would sleep... Waited for Yuting to come coz promised to go take her lappy with her... During which, no customers came, so i was watching the other guy played Xbox and the other watching as well. And as always, talked crap... HAHA!! K, so this uncle stood up and said, "Since u got nothing to do, let me play around with ur hair..." So, ya, i let him play lah, coz i'm too tired to do anything... And please lor, he made all those funny hairstyle to make me SO "CUTE"!!! Buay Tahan... Anyway, he kept pinching my face.. I got so mad lor, nobody touches my face so many times de lor, i know i'm cute,AheM, but dun have to pinch lor... Sick... k, this guy dunno wad is respect, though i'm younger lah, but i'm human enough to treat me with respect right? But he just took my stuff and rummaged through them... GosH... To think he took my Bank receipt to see... And like i said, too tired to do anything... So SAd... NVm... Wun be there till next month, or at least for 2 months... HAhA!!! But just walking pass...

Anyway, met up with Yuting, went to JE... Wah lao.. Walked for so So long, wasted money on Cab and finally got to ACER building... By then, i was already dying... Guess wad? We walked all the way to JE entertainment centre from ACER... At that point of time, i concluded, "Today, i felt like i am pranked..." WAh lao... Very tired... REached home, drank my fruit juice and ji tao laid on my bed and sleep... From 7pm to 10am this morning... WAHAHA!!! It was the longest sleep ever... More than 12hrs, enough for me!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm all awake now...

That's the update for the last couple of days... LoNg Live mY pASsIOn!!!

What you see or seem, is but a dream within a dream...

HeHe~

I seriously think that my lappy got something wrong lor, i already reduce it's power to the lowest yet the battery runs out so fast. Was so pissed off lor... I haven't finish saving my notes leh... Then there's only 3-pin plug there, no 2-pin de... So Sickening...

K, during my frustration of the lappy hibernating, i rmbed Xinxian said that we can go find Chris Black for Naga pics... So i went there, and wah... So many pple there... And i saw Sissy Boy... HaHa!!! But like wad Hui told me, he's quite a flirtatious person... Then, all the fellow Naga1 pple start to appear from no where, i was kind of shock lah... Then, we talked talked, actually decided to leave le, but Min Jia told me she forgot bout the pics so i went back and helped her order them... That's when Davio saw me, so i said hI and he's like, "R u from Naga?!" Then i gave him a face and he thought i was saying No, but wah lao, i'm so a nagarian lor... And he's like, "U r from Naga? R u Sure?" HahA!!! K, it's only natural pple dun realise my presence, coz i was basically a swine during the camp... Nobody noticed Me... HeH HEH! Guess wad? I thought i'm suppose to quit using the name APPLE now that i'm in school le but dunnoe y, pple prefer to call me Apple... HAhA... So i supposed my Nick is better-rmbed than my name... HAhA!!! Wad CrAp... Ai Ping sounds GOOD also Ok!

K, so went to eat eat with them but left quite early coz Mama pApa wanna go buy bed... Waited for bus 61 for a long long time... Reach home, went out... HAHA!!! I got my own bed and TabLE now!!!! BETTER ones!! Then, i'll have my ROOM!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!

Ermm.. O ya, FOC is holding a Dnd, i didn't really consider it much lah, coz my conclusion was, no, dun wanna go... But then, thinking of all the fun that would happen... hai... Still, i didn't put much thoughts into it.. Just now, Chris was asking, and the girls were saying, i stood there, listen, didn't have much to say... Still, not thinking much bout it lah... Heh HEh!!!

K... I wanna go check out Mel and friendster, then Concuss Le... Long day tMl...

NiGht!!! CiAo!!!

Looking around...

2nd day in school... Finally got to know bout my own course... Intro to Tourism and Resort Management... Wahhaah!!! I loVe my lecture... 1st impression COuNts! Though she's not those very fashion young teacher, but i guess she's those sophisticated, middle-aged one... She make the class laughed a lot of times during her short 1 1/2hr.... Wahhaahah!!!!

An hour break at canteen 1 and then off to lecture on CIP... Ermmm... Met Eunice and Yen there... Wahahah!! The lecture was pretty brief though, not much touched on... Need to buy yet another book... Wah lao... another 25 bucks flying off... DoT DOt... So BroKe....

Then went to Block 72, lvl 5 and asked bout the configuration of the lappy, then after the details, we realised no need to register like wad the lecturers said... So ya... Anyway, might go back to school tml to do some stuff bah...

Met up with Yuting later on at westmall for dinner... Then we kind of shopped around a little, and she bought quite a few tops... I bought 1 top... Ermm... i really gotta shop buying clothes le....
Almost broke liao... If all these go on, i'll be killed by my lao ma... HAhA!!!

Haven't heard from Bt kor for a while le. I supposed he is, like my 2kor, doing some important thing at tekong and not coming back for the week... Hope he is doing alright.

Right, let's have a summary bout Poly life... Seriously, i haven't really blend into Poly life yet. When i look around, i still find it unfamiliar and strange... And i dun see any familiar faces, unlike my friends... All my pals from sec are all distributed to different schools... A little sad but the good thing is, we still get to meet, bump into each other once in a while... That's the coolest thing... Coz of the cancellation of tutorials and workshop this week, the studying part is pretty slack... So i haven't really get used to anything yet... Well, more to come next week right? I really am looking forward to it...

No school tml... Something to rejoice bout? Probably for now... Heh... But still going back lah... Dot doT...

Somebody said She loves me today... AND IT's like SO MANY TIMES!!! Guess WHo? It's a SHE!!!! HahA!!! She's my DEAR hor... Bleh...

Looking for what is important in Life...

1st day after so many months...

BACK TO SCHOOL!!!! This time round, it's a new school! I already forgot the feeling of going to a new school coz that kind of happened 5 years ago.. Hee~

I met up with Yuting this morning to go to school. Actually i wasn't suppose to meet her but she asked me to pei her go SSC to ask for her student card so ya, i agreed, sacrifacing my Apple sleep again... Hee~ So reach school, did all the necessary stuff and then went to canteen, she departed with us, i sat down and talked to Ming Ming, Jory and PAmy... Then went to find Jellyfish and Jieping... Ate Lunch, walked a bit with Edith and finally reach LT22... And then, my 1st step into a LT for a lesson... Heh hEh! Sat at the 3rd row, 1st sit. Class kicked off with the teaching of Mel and continued with the 1st chapter of Business Statistics... Heh Heh!!! It was kind of cool though there are some parts that i dun understand but well, it's like normal science classes, except its a maths class... HAHA!!! The lecture ended at 2.20pm. 40min earlier than expected. Went to eat dessert with Edith and Jellyfish. After that, contacted Dear and decided to meet up.

So, i went to bank in my cash then went to MAc to wait for Dear... K, when she arrived i told her some stuff and shared everything that happened in school today. Then we went to shop shop a little at Westmall with the very heavy bag... Heh heh! She wanted to go trim her hair so i brought her to VK salon... And well, ya, the craps started with the hair dresser and us. While crapping, i received a sms, and guess wad, somebody say she not enough cash, ask me to go draw for her... HAHA!!!! So funny LOR!!!

O ya, i bought 3 books, for business statistics, Microeconomics and Oral Com, all in all costs me $86.10... I was like, GOSH!!!! Suddenly felt the pinch in my heart when i pressed the buttons for my PIN... GoSh... Heartaching... However, no choice right?

My Papa is making plans for my room le... I'm kind of happy coz after 2years and counting of waiting, finally, there's a bed coming along... WAHAHAHAHA!!!! Afterall, i'm turning 18 le... So, PLEASE, let me have my ROOM!!!!

Conclusion, the day spent in school was good, still anticipating better ones to come along...

K, tml another day in school, longer day... WahAHAhAha!!!!

Need to start loving school...

Tired... Wanna Sleep...

CIAO!!!

dunnoe was topic to put.

Went back to work yesterday... Totally driving myself crazy. I walked the damn ballroom for several times lor, and it's not one ballroom lor, it was like the GRAND ballroom LOR!!!! A torture to my poor feet in heels... Was working like the whole day, i didn't skive any bit... Hee~ K, kind of reminds me to back then when i began working at banquet as a nobody. HeH... A strange new world perharps? It's still a strange new world to me coz every now and then, new blood are inserted to this place, and a lot times, i find myself lost in this scandalous world. Heh! Know wad i mean?

After dinner, went back up for briefing and HAha... Lau was doing the briefin, has been a damn long time since i heard him gave briefing, and of coz, as a normal staff, listening. O ya, kind of lost hope with the new PT staff there, dunno y they dun understand wad is dun talk... Kept talking until Lau called them, then, still denied that they talked... I'm like totally standing behind them listening to them talk and laugh like nobody's business... GoSh....

It was a Grand ballroom event, and the atmosphere was so nice... Suddenly felt so warm there, coz i haven't do Grand ballroom event lkike that for so so long... Just like when i 1st began. U know, the huge ballroom, the few dozens staff, the captains, the stage, the lightings, the candeliers, the normal 3 tables, every single thing there, draws me back to when i 1st began... Anyway, i was under Tian Cheng's Station, k, it's good working with him, he didn't stand there and watch like some other PT captains do, all the time... And along the way, lots of craps came out.

K, in the midst of the event, i received 2 smses, one from yuting, the other from xueting... From yuting was minor thing. From Xueting, i got the shock of my life... Geez... I haven't had such shock for very long le... I jitao stunned, and dunnoe wad to do, and kind of stoned and the back of the ballroom for a while then asked Tian cheng some stuff... K, seriously i dunnoe wad to say lah... So just, all the best for my sister bah... It's her life she's leading right? :)

Anyway, after work, went to eat supper with Dear, ying and En... As always, we had lots of conversation from work to school to pure craziness... Hee~ Then, left to take NR8... Really tired last night... I walked so so much...

Ah mao asked me to go Sentosa, then he said he'd called me the after his midnight... But i already decided not to go. Didn't tell him though, until he called this morning, i was seriously very tired lah, so i told him, i'm not going.. So sorry, dude...

Anyway, starting school tomorrow le... Was a great news to know that there're pple starting class at the same time as me... Hee~ Got pple pei me... It's already bad enough that i'm the only one from my previous class in this course... But still, met new friends... GREAT GREAT!!!

Will blog tml night about the new semester in a new place, in new clothes with new friends.... New life... Officially embarking on the New phase of life as a student again...

It's time to turned towards that new life...

Hee~

HeH Heh... Guess wad? I totally missed the whole Orientation thingy, AMazing race i supposed. Coz i went to configure my Lappy with Ming and all... Wah Lao.. So paiseh lor, i didn't know BA cannot go SOE to configure de.. I just went blindly with Ming coz he said, ya, that's the place... Then the lecturer was like, "U school of BA should go there, y u come here?" I totally speechless lor, i haven't felt so paiseh for so long liao lor... Wah lao... I ji tao, "Huh I dunnoe leh..." But this guy, peter Leong, Ming's friend, said, "Nvm, later we go SOBa, we got lots of time." Wah... Kind of saved me from the awkward situation... Hee~ The configuration took very long lor, so i basically missed the whole Amazing race and CCA fiesta. In the end, i only joined my course pple for lunch and i went off to look at the CCA booth myself. Kind of just walked through nia...

After that, i went to Canteen 2 to wait for Yuting, and at the same time use my lappy... Then, Ming and his friend joined me. He was eating and his friend was sing his lappy. After a while, Yuting came, then i pei her go Mel order her lappy. Then, we sat in the Library and talked bout the CCA thingy. Qiang, Ming and Zhi came to join us shortly, but left after a while. So, we kind of wander around. Until Yuting decided to go home and i went to meet the Nagas...

Went to KAp in a gang, and began our crappy cheer as NAga... HAHA!!! So funny, we attracted so much attention lor... I was like, GoSh... Then, everyone were so hyper lor, they talked like nobody business, as if KAP was theirs... I was very tired though, however, this time round, i did join in the crap... HAHA!!! Gotta to talk to most of the NAga1 dudes more... Shafiq, Raf, Ming... waHahA!!! And StePh... She's like so CuTe... HAha!!!! K, indeed i dunnoe anything, i didn't know she is from Malaysia and that she gotta go back to Msia everyday.

Anyway, the fun kind of faded off, so Ming Raf and I decided to go play Pool at Timah Plaza, joining us was Debbie.. WahAHa!!! Was nice playing with them... No gaPs... FrieNds... Then, Taz, Justin and all came... K, i dun really know how pple there gotta to know i'm APPLe instead of Ai Ping... Some knows coz of MSN, then rest, i seriously have no idea... Even Justin knows... WeIrd... HAha!!!

Well, Jessica called me in the midst of the game to ask me go work at 12pm tml... So ya, after some pondering, decided to. Coz i got no Cash Liao... Wahahaha!!!

Hao lah, i very tired now... Need to Sleep Le... CiAo!!!

Oc??? GoSh... Dun talk to me bout that...

Can u believe how boring were the games organised? Damn SIAN!!! I tried 2x harder than during the FOC to get hyper but each time the teammates failed me. K, in the midst of it, i gave up, started to feel tired and sleepy. SuCks... Dun like the teammates at all, ATTENTION-SEEKER... WAnna seek attention also no need to make until so obvious de lor, one look and i know. Some bitch again??!! *mEan* Well, detest such pple, and they dun really know wad is teamwork... Right, so the fact is, i hate the group which somehow, one day, might be my Classmates... That Sux... However, i will not detest my course, LOVE IT!!! Hopefully i wun get team up with such pple.

This Orientation Convention sux like hell, i thought it's gonna be damn fun but ended up like that. And i thought FOC was boring, this one, cannot compare... Like FOC more... At least the GLs cared. The SB here, nothing to say, one came to "Sell Flesh", the rest are ok, but always getting confused, please lor, u r the SB, u should be bringing the Freshies around instead of asking... Then, we were all standing in the sun, didn't call us to drink more water, didn't bother to offer us drinks, and they, themselves, sat in the shades, wad is this??? Showing us how sucky the seniors are? Thanks, i know le.

Hai... Hoping that tml will be a better day, without those sucky pple around.

Right, so school starting soon, though i still got bits and pieces around, i trying to stay focus and go to school like i always do. Everything feels so different though, the canteen is like so strange. The pple are so unfamiliar and worse, i'm afraid i would lose my way in the huge campus... Well, will get use to it right? HOPE!!! Also, to find some good friends, and not hypocrites... HeH!!!

Ermm... Lots of things i wanna say but somehow it's stuck in there again. Hate that kind of feeling... Probably, it's really coz i'm growing up... U know, b4 i left OHS's BqT coordinator post, i got this feeling too, at that time, i dun really know wad was it that's bothering me. My, then, conclusion was, maybe coz i'm leaving OHS, maybe coz i'm growing up, maybe coz i'm going back to school. Now, i know why, it's not because i'm leaving OHS, coz i'm doing fine without working, and still will, once in a while meet up with them. It's not coz of school starting, coz no matter wad, it's still school, regardless of the changes, it's still studying. It's precisely coz i'm growing up.... Growing up is such crap... U know wad it means? Growing Up= More responsibilities, no more privileges like kids. More burdens to hold on the very narrow shoulders. More financial control. More self-disciplines. More "NOs". Why?! Why must i grow up??? So many more "Moressss" I miss life as a young adult. This is life i guess.

Right, after 28th April, i wanna stop work le, i wanna cope with studies 1st then start earning again, anyway, my allowance will start next mOnday...

Life starts all over again for Teo Ai Ping.

I'm going back to Teo Ai Ping...

Drained... Again...

Gosh... I a bit tired with all the tight schedule... So many stuff going on at once, i can't really catch my breathe now. I really gotta slow down my pace and start thinking a bit more than doing blindly... Let time slows down please...

Starting school next Monday le... Tml onwards, i'll be going to school again and again, for orientation. Man, it's going so so fast...

Yesterday, went back to work, Lau asked me, yet another time, when am i starting school... Wah Lao... Cannot tahan him leh, for once, rmb can or not.. His excuse was, "Sorry lah, i old liao..." So lame lor... As always i will go around asking pple whether they missed me not, and of coz, i wun missed out Ivan, so i asked, "Miss Me not?!" And he said, "No leh... Only when i feel like li xiao-ing pple then i rmb Apple, Ah Po..." I'm like, "Wah... Thank You ar..." Then we laugh all the way... Other than that, i hate working... The pple still got attitude problem. But, i love working with PT staff... They're gReAt!!! Wah LAo.. Whole day being a guinea pig, drinking tea, then i got cheated to drink Syrup... SiCk!!!! SO SWEET!!!! I ji tao puke... That Lau hor... Cannot stand.. Manager leh, still wanna play... Hai...

Anyway, i'm a bit too tired... I wanna cut myself off the world again... I gotta rest... I might not blog for a while le... Kk??? HAhA!!!! No lah, joking... This is my only place to vent out my emotions... Maybe, i wun be here so often... kk... Tired, wanna sleep le...

CyA!!! CiAo!!!

Time is moving faster than I can catch... It is so swift that I can't see myself clearly anymore... It is quicker than the future now... Let me be an onlooker...

FOC!!! FOC!!! ALANTIS!!!!

People!!! I'm back from camp!!!!! WAh... I'm so damn tired now... After coming back yesterday, i went to bath and then ji tao lie dead on the bed... And slept all the way till 11.30am this morning... Serious;y, haven't had such a long sleep for a long long time..

So, let's start off with the 1st day of camp. It sux on the 1st day. We waited for so long b4 getting ourselves into the different groups. Then, the rest of the day was just learing cheers, playing childish games and trying to know pple. HeH... For me, i just sat there and observe. I didn't really wanna know too much. However, the comedy by the 3 GLs were cute, laughed my head off... Tried to know all the pple there but kind of hard... End of the night, went in the lecture hall, watch a short clip that the school did, bout the haunted ground there, a girl died there i supposed... Not really sure, i was too tired to watch properly. After that, they showed 2 movies, The Eye 2 and The Exorism of Emily Rose. I slept for the 1st movie coz watch b4 le, but totally fascinated by the 2nd... Thrilling... Afterwhich, went for the Night walk... Wasn't really scary though, i was more afraid of seeing cockraoches than those weird figures... I was scared twice, the 1st banging door, and the last, screaming red cheongsam girl... HAha!!! That wraps up the 1st day.

2nd day, full of cheering, so damn pissed with all the waiting. It totally turned everyone off lor... Can u believe it when we woke up early in the morning, ate our breakfast and the rest of it was just, screaming and shouting all the while, until Lunch... I was so so so turned off lor, no even the yandao GLs could turn me on... I think there were some cock up, that's y we did nothing...

The next half of the day was better, had the station games... i hurt myself. HAhA!!! the caterpillar game. Kept rubbing my hands against the floor, 2 bloody blisters came out. Sort of hurting now... Then the geisha thing, flour was all over my face lor... HeH hEh!!! The waterfall was cool...

Actually, i was in sleeping mode all the while so i didn't make a lot of friends lah, but can still consider friends, those crap around de.. Hee~ 3rd day, dun really rmb wad le, but there's the water bomb game... That's cool, but got fucked by the station master badly, everyone i meant. In the end, the DH gotta come apologized to us, saying that they went over board with the scolding. Hee~ So funny. Well, didn't really take it to heart, used to getting scolded.

Camp fire that night... It was sort of lame lah, we did a lot of crap games, using everything on us to make the longest track, all of us lay down on the floor trying to squeeze 300plus pple in one convention hall... HAHAHAA!!!! That's funny... Then, the cheering and all, kind of got turned off coz it was a bit too long... HeH heh!!! Lastly, there's all the breaking down, dance floor open to all. K, i saw so many crap dances, that i kind of just walk away coz i didn't have the mood to dance with those pple... hee~ It was so DOt Dot DOT!!!!! Cannot make it.. But, i saw one girl dance very well... HAha!!! Moreover, its not clubbing lor... No drinking, then no dancing!!! WahAhAha!!! There's no lights off that night, we all had fun...

However, i was too tired, i wanted to rest a bit on my sleeping bag but ended up falling into a deep sleep, no one could woke my up.

I didn't get any scandals there, WahAHAHAhAhA!!! It was so funny... Yuting got ONE!!!! Heh HEH!!!

A guy did caught my eyes, he got the same style that i'm trying to get... Gothic, punkd, rugged style... Heh hEh!!! So CuTE... Then the sissY Boy, also Very CuTe.. HahA!!!

How come i always give pple the 1st impression that i'm Cute???!!!! HeH hEh!!! i'm liike turning 18 le lor... Hai... Guess that's my asset... CUTENESS..... APPLE!!!!

That's all for CAmp... I slept with Yuting that last 2 nights... Dunne where Ting were, so didn't ask her to join. Bet she had lots of fun too... Will catch up with her some other days...

NAGA!!!!!!!! --> Christopher(* YOu can't SEE ME!!!) Xin Xian... Purple... Vanessa... Daphane... Sarah... Justin... Davio... Ronald... Colinn... COOL PEOPLE!!!!!

O ya, i turned very dark over the last few days at camp and also due to the last sentosa trip... WAHhAhAha!!!!

Now, back to myself... I'm losing myself again... Haven't been talking like myself. Haven't been going nuts for a while. I miss my old self. WAd exactly happen to me? I dunnoe. New life??? Probably, it'll be hard for me to switch myself to the new life. Well, no matter wad, i'm Ai Ping right? Down-to-earth like i always am, no matter how difficult it will be, i'll hold on tight, and conquer them. Y?! I'm APPLE!!!! hee~~~ Poly will just be another cornerstone for me to overcome. Will life be hard again? Yes!!!!! But i welcome it, with open arms... AppLe Style!!!! I guess some friends will leave my life soon, and some new ones will enter. I really hope i wun lose them for good. Really hope...

Past few days were....

B4 going away for 4 days of camp, i wanna update my blog a little.

Let's begin with 5th April, it was Xueting's bd... K, it was hell of a fun to celebrating it for her... To summarise, I love Her!

Saturday, went back to work. Gosh, the day was full of torture. I started work at 8am and ended at 11.30pm... YES! The whole day there! Damn, i was tired. Can u believe they actually tortured me like that. K, the beginning of the day was relaxing but when it comes to lunch and all, i started walking around, clearing like nobody's business. By 3, i was totally dying. Moreover, i didn't have any appetite the whole day through. I had a waffle on the way to work, during lunch, i left more than half of wad i'd taken. I just kept drinking coffee to keep myself awake. When bout 5pm came, i was quite happy that i'd be going home very soon when Chris said he need me to stay, without asking, he told me to go have my dinner. I ji tao give him my "omg" face. My legs were hurting and my eyes were closing. Plus, my mind ain't working well. Wad's more was that i need to carry on standing up till 11pm. So, reluctantly, i went to have my dinner. I didn't eat at all, i ate some potatoes from Si En and drank soup and a can of Coffee, to add that in, i had 3 Nescafe that day. My face was dull the rest of the night. I swore if they ask me to usher, i'll kill them. In the end, Roy did! I was like, "Please lor..." No choice i guess? Stood there for more than 2 hours. I cursed and swore at the function's organiser. Y? Simple, she fucking push the damn coffee break for 300 over pax to 11pm!!!!!!!! That's like the time for staff to go home!!!!! I was so angry i didn't care she was standing there, i just say to Zheng Yu. The guests themselves were unhappy that they dun have anything to eat! No coffee, no Tea!!! Those that are smart knew that it was the organiser, those that dun, will start scolding the hotel... GOSH!!!! In the end, Lau went to tell the organiser that by right our coffee break dun go over 11pm, and that other organisers would be going to the ballroom to do setup, if she wants to extend, she would need to pay. And well, pissed as she was, she had to agreed. SO GOD DAMN PISSED WITH HER! End of the end, i still gotta stand in the bus from Orchard to Batok... My legs were numbed...

Next morning, woke up early, coz of Sentosa... It was the best for the others. For me, it was ok, coz i was just too tired to join in the fun, u see. It's either i'm sitting my the side or i'm at the corner of the sea watching them play. I was just too tired... Guess wad?! I managed to swim from one shore to the other!!!! 1st time u know?! Coz i just didn't have the courage the swim the last few times, but this time round, Melissa encouraged me and wah!!! I swam!!! I didn't Drown... CHOY!!!

One thing that i'm happy bout going back to work is that all the staff welcomed me, except a few... Auntys were all very happy. I'm glad to be working with them again, as banquet waitress. Carolyn kind of showed me her attitude again, i was kind of sad bout that but well, doesn't matter, i dun owe her a living, i dun need her to book for me, on the other hand, she needs my help. So, wadever she wanna do, kiss my ass 1st... LAlalala!!! Very bad of me... To put it in a better way, no matter wad, i'm more experienced than she is so who cares bout her existence!!! BleH...

Kk, camp starts tml, today to be exact. Leaving home at 8am. Miss me OOOO!!!! I'll definitely miss my home and all my pals... My dear, honey, darling, dar and kor... Hee~

Ciao!!!

Boring...

Got digged out of my bed early this morning just coz the construction workers are here to fix the new windows... I was so pissed off lor... Then dunnoe wad's wrong with my ma, she kept nagging and nagging and nagging, driving me completely out of my mind... Gosh... Well, everything was all cool after that, we were basically sitting down there, watching Tv, while the workers got busy... I'm feeling so tired now u know...

Gonna go out for a dinner with Ting today... It's her BD today... HAPPY 18th SISTER!!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! We're all growing up u see... So fast, like a breeze....

My ma kept nagging that y i quit so early... Wah lao, the obvious reason is, i'm so tired of working lor, wanna rest and enjoy a little bit of my time mah... Then she kept nagging bout it, so i decided to contact Jessica, told her that i wanna go back to work... However, they got not many functions so no space for this weekend...

Yesterday while talking to Ting over the phone, she was saying that she felt weird talking to me over the phone, coz we haven't been contacting recently, like i'm busy?! HEh HeH!!!! Busy slacking... WAHhaah!!!!

So boring AT HOME!!!! Some excitement?!

BoRing...

To answer the question, Soler is a band from Hong Kong. A band consisting of 2 guys, Julio and Dino, a mix of Vietnamese and Italian but born in Macau. That's y i find them real interesting. Their music to me, is pop/rock bah... Sounds good..

These few days are pret-ty boring. Nothing much going on, doing some boring stuff at home.

Looking forward to Wednesday and Thursday and Sunday, coz, Wednesday is Sister's 18th Bd, gonna go out with her and hui. Thursday, going for a DND with WenhUi at MOS... Ooo... LAstly, Sunday going to Sentosa with Ex-collueges from OHS, wAHAHAHa! i'm gonna tan myself before going to the FOC camp next monday... WAhAHA!!! time to shop for camp stuff too... Kind of broke already, wahahahaha!!!!

CiAo!!!

Soler...

I bought an album... Ermm... Soler... Wahahaha!!! they are 2 very good-looking caucasians who speak CHINESE and CANTONESE!!! U know how charming it is to see caucasians speak our language... Gosh... Damn charming... Of coz, looks are not just the reason i bough the album, they sing well too... CHARMs.... i'm totally hypnotized by their charms... gosh.... *faiNt*

Wad Kind of LoGic?!

YoYo... Nothing special happened today... Only went out to play badminton nia... hee~ It was fun but didn't exercise for quite a while le, then suddenly play, feel very tiring... Ji Tao wanna vomit... So it was all running and hitting for the 1st half an hour and walking and hitting for the next 1 hour... Heh Heh! Pathetic... Lack of stamina...

Went home sweaty and smelly but didn't feel like bathing yet and i logged on and check out some of the stuff then crap along with some friends on MSN... WAHHAA!!! That's me...

The rest of the night was just pure watching TV... SURVIVOR!!!! Wah lao, i dun even know wad is going on u know... i used to catch every episode of it but this time round, too focus in work, so i kind of missed almost 1/2 of it... Hai... Never mind, always can catch up with it.

Yuting suggested to go watch movie tml... Ya, wanna. I should start restraining from spending so much le... I think i'm gonna be pretty broke soon so i need to restrain... WAnna start school with some cash in my pocket.

Ermmm.... So boring at home, wanna go out then my ma kept nagging... Sometimes cannot stand her lor, when i work, she alsodo laundry like that, now i didn't work, then she expects me to stay home all day just to look at the laundry, if rain then keep the laundry, WAD'S THIS?! Born to be servant mEH! For god sake, when i'm working who's doing it?! Like that, then i shouldn't have quit, i should've stay at work... It is so god damn it UNFAIR! PhEw! Sick and tired of all these damn fucking things... Can i just wash my hands off...

Feeling so sickening at home... Obligation... Shut up, i'm too young to have one, let me break the rule for once, will you. Let me control my life, will you. I'm not born to be the stupidest at home, in fact, i'm the smartest! Not to boast anything, just stating the fact, so please, respect me...

By the way, I feel like quitting Poly u know... I dun feel like going to study since there's no faith in me from my family... i think i'll go quit it tml... (People, give me some encouragement, will you? Afterall, it's APRIL FOOL!!!!! I'm just kidding, i dun quit, quitting is not in my Dic) WAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Living in a living hell, allow me to have my peace, allow heaven to take me in, dun snatch away my opportunity, it is my life I'm LEADING!

Almost over...

WAhAHa!!!! K, nothing much happened in my boring life again bUT, i did went out and met some of the old pals back at the Hotel...

1st up, i took a cab down coz i was damn late, then they changed the location and i worried i wun have enough cash for the fare but well, i managed to paid it off... Wipe sweat off...

After waiting for the few gals, we went for a dinner at PasTaMAnia... k, i was very disappointed with the pasta served, very Not nice lor... However, the Chocolate Mousse was good... hee~ After having a full dinner and chatting up with them.. We finally decided to go separate ways. Jess and Xueni went for a movie, ying went back and lastly, Sa Jason and me head back to the hotel just for the sake of me seeing the hotel again... (Thank u my friends for granting my wish..) WahAHAHa!!! So, i went back and saw some familiar faces.. From Orchard Cafe, the Tamil guy who i dunnoe the name but knew him while ushering... Then, saw Tian Chen, Zhang Shuang, ming yi, Chen Lei, Hu wei and terry... Then crap crap and all when to Conference... Saw Chris then Tony.. Chris always say i Fat... Wah lao... Bearly a week and he said that... Gosh...

Inside the office, nothing much has changed, my "I'm Leaving" postcard is still there, my "Our staff is trained to Kill" is still there, the rest remains almost the same... Took a look around and i saw the card i gave to Ivan was still there... Wahahaha! Then crap a lot with the staff and managed to ask everyone whether they missed my not and i got some pretty satisfying answers... Hee~

I even managed to talk to the La Terrasse girl who, i forgot her name... (Oh MY!) Hee~ After that, even saw wilbur and played with him... And once again, he said "Good Luck" to me... WahHAHAHA!!! ThaNks, dude...

K, i really missed the place i guess but i'm glad i still contact the friends around.. The atmosphere is still rich...

Went home with Sa, En, and Jason... Wah lao, while on the Train, this lady with a really good English accent was screaming and shorting bout someone bullying her mum... WAh lao... the whole train was totally staring at her... Dunno wad's wrong with her... K, i respect her for standing out for her mum but she's in public lor... And really, y would someone paid a hooligan to bully her mother? Gosh... And seriously, wonder whether she's Singaporean not, coz she kept saying, "U're a SIngaporean, u should be ashame!" Wah lao, suddenly everyone in the train started shouting "Shut up" at her but she refused to... Gosh... Gosh... Wad a scene...

Anyway, it's almost 3.30am le but i still can't sleep, i'm not feeling at all tired u see... HAi... Always having sleepless nights... No idea y though. Kind of just listening to songs...

I rmbed someone asked me whether i wanna get a boyfriend not and my answer was, "No." "Coz i dun feel like having one." ERmm... I dunnoe.. Really dun fee like having one... But dun worry, i'm still straight though i always act that Sa is my Darling... WAHAHAHA!!! k, she is my darling Hor!

Ermm... I gotta chat with Kriston the other day over MSN and i was really surprise that a guy like him is a Piano Teacher... Seriously, i'm still amazed by it lah... WAHAHA!!

Desmond Tan SMSed me yesterday... He was just chatting with me over our recent lives... Do hope he's doing well and wun go the wrong way again... ANd hor, he started asking me to compare between his kor and him...Wah LAo!!! Buay tahAn!!! but sadly, i was busy clearing up my room, so ya, no choice, gotta cut the conversation short..

K, tml going to play badminton with Yuting Lor... WAHHAHA!!! Happy Leh... Will end here...

Ciao!!!

Only when you've left then u can feel the pain...

LaLAlA

I got myself registered for the FOC camp today... And i handed up all my forms on the way... So, i'm pretty much done with school enrolment and all... Now, i can relax and not have to rmb those datelines...

After going to Ngee Ann, went to Pizza Hut to have my lunch with ting and yuting... Then, i stomach pain so ji tao go home le... It was bout 12pm when i reached home... So i slacked around until 3 plus and i began to clear my room's rubbish... Still not my room yet... Sad...

Booked the court for Friday le... WahAHAhA!!! Can go exercise...

It rained today so i didn't make it for Netball in school... Well, lots of chances...

Going down to meet some ex-partners in crime... WAHAHAHA!!!

CiAo!!!

Short BlOg...

Yet another day passed by... Quite nice to sleep and go out... WahAHa!!!

Went to Np today but came home empty-handed, coz we were too late and we weren't aware of it so went to westmall again... Talked a little with ting and hui, bought my dinner and headed home... Quite a boring day...

Gonna head down to Np again tml... Actually wanted to go Netball de but promised to pei ting go check-up so can't go...

Not really missing work, but missing the pple there.... Hai... Hope everything is well...

Borrowed a book today, hopefully can finish reading... Wahhaha!!!

That's it... CIaO!!!

Missing?

1st day away from work, wad's the feeling like? COOL!!! i slept till 3 just to replenish my lost sleep.. Hee~ Woke up and slack... it's been a long while since i woke up and slack, coz usually, i woke up and rushed to work...

The missing of work came just now.. In the night... Everything happens in the night... Suddenly rmbed that the last uniform number i got was 252, L size. Also, the 1st thing that Lau told me when i went to work that day was, "Apple, ur last day right? (Glance at his Suit)" And the both of us laugh... HAHA!!! Dunnoe since when, i began bringing his suit down to the laundry for washing... Each time, i find it a pleasure... HAHA!!! Coz i dig dig his pockets to see got anything inside not. HeH! Childish... Wahahaha!!!

The day b4 my last day happened to be JP's(F&B Director) 30th Birthday... And guess wad? I said Happy Birthday to him and the funny thing was, i felt really weird after saying it... HAHA!!!! i knew he smile though.. That was actually the 1st time he looked at me when i said, "Good evening" and then took a second glance and smile when i said "Happy Birthday"... My day of ushering was all smiling and laughing to each and everyone of the guests and staff... I guess i knew it was the last day so i smile and laugh to everyone... wad is good bout service line is that each time u smile to ur guest, when they smile back, it feels good, a sense of satisfaction i guess. Also, to lead some lost souls to the correct place is a nice thing to do. Although it's just ushering, i found meaning in it, found joy in it.

Next, the 1st time i initiated lots of craps with Ivan... Wahaha!!! And each time, he suan no like nobody business but to me, i buay tahan but console myself by saying, "thank you ar, its my last day liao, nvm" HeH! Seriously, Carolyn, jess, me and him laughed and talked really loud! Wahaha!!!

That day was also the last day i saw Lau drink so much coz of the BD thingy and he came back with his ears and face all red... Gosh.. Scary... And that was the 1st time i saw his talking to his wife on the phone... It was, OH so sweet... HAHA!!! "I'm coming home soon, checking some e-mails now.." HeH HEh!!!

End of the day, i went to talk to the Night auditors, Wilbur and Ben... WahAHa!!! I'm like, "Hey, last day leh, talk leh..." Hee~ Wilur was like, "huh? Dun bluff, wad last day.." So i explained to him y and all, and he shook my hand and wish me all the best... I think if somehow Melissa and him sees each other more, they might be some chances... HAhA!!! DA LU MEI!!!!

Amazingly i didn't approached Chris a lot that day, instead i approached Roy more... Kind of telling myself that well, it's done, i've been bothering Chris for too long so dun wanna talk to him or fan him that day... And true enough, we didn't talk much...

Speaking of Chris, suddenly rmbed Elsie and yihua's case... This one, i must mention... The other day, Yihua wrote Elsie's name in the booking book without our permission and i was very mad bout it so then nvm, let it be. On that very day, Elsie came very early and Jessica told me she messed up our table. I got even more mad... During their break time, the few noon staff came over and take coupons, on the spot i asked Yihua, "How come Elsie is here so early today?" He's like, "wad?! I ask Wee loon le." I'm like, "Ask wee loon then no need to tell us ar? We are coordinators btw..." Heh! Didn't think much after that, coz i knew i was right... In the end, somebody complained to Chris and then Chris came to tell me... I was really bothered by it lor... Coz i know Chris was blaming me for it.. However, if i really have attitude problem then y must yihua be the one to complain? If i really have attitude problem, many others would have complained. Probably Chris was right, he said, "He is a captain afterall, if u wanna say him, pull him to one side. " But for me, it's not like that coz really, if someone is wrong in something, i dun care where he/she was, infront of which president, i'll scold, coz the fact is, he's wrong... Even when Chris was wrong, Lau would scold him infront of everyone but of coz, Lau holds a different position... But, the same rules apply... i was very sad and pissed off at that time coz out of everyone, Chris's disbelief shocked me... At the end of the day, i recovered from it with friends' support... Anyway, it's over, just hope yihua wun do it again and carolyn and jessica wun make the same mistake as i did. 4get about it...

Well, once in a blue moon i'll go back to OHS and walk around. i really wanna go try the High-tea at LA Terrasse and buy the pastries from Orchard Cafe... HAHA!!!

Mark Su su told me he always visit Huating restaurant de, but i never see him leh... HAHA!!! Nvm, wun see him there le, quit liao!!! WahAHAHA!!!

Somehow, i know i will miss working at orchard hotel... The memories were fond... I grew up a lot there... For the time being, there's no urge to go back but the urge of remembering everyone... HAHA!!! I'm proud of myself as a banquet waitress and coordinator coz i learnt too much there... I know where's Tony Ramas, Esmerada, Beer Garden, Executive club, huating, la terrasse, Hospitality room, and all... WaHAHahA!!!

For now, i'll rest as much as i need and then start to shop shop and time to go through my NP stuff le...

Ciao!

WAHhahA!!!

Ok, let's update bout wad happened after my last blog. Began working after the long chalet mood i had on Monday and Tuesday at BQT's and Lawrence's chalet respectively.

On the chalet, i had lots of fun with the pple there, especially the China pple who i dun used to talk so so much to b4. That day began with the paying of register fees to Np and then Ting and i went down to Orchard when we decided to go K box. However, after checking out the price, Ting decided not to go. So we took bus together, while she went home, i went to OHS. Wait for Chris and all. I went to Subway there to wait when i saw Kelvin, wad a coincidence lor, so we chatted bout our recent lives and all and his Gf came, so he went off.. Following that was a Call from Chris saying that they're all Orchard tower eating. So i went over. Then, went back to hotel to help them wiped Wine glass, pathetic, for the Mdm Tan's BD event. WaHAHA!!! I buay tahan the conversationg they were having just coz of gloves... WAh...

Then, took Chris's car down and almost immediately, the fun began. Blended in quite fast and started talking and eating. Suddenly, we were talking bout "heart" problems. I began with Ah mao, then with jessica and lastly Carolyn... Fun leh... Coz it's very rare to have such opportunity to do this kind of things with pple we only see at work. I didn't slept that day, only took bout 10 mins break and then back home, and off to work... I was damn tired that day, eyes almost shutting as i proceed with my work.

That night, went to Lawrence/Skinny's chalet... Wah lao, Choatic u know... The pple were like drunk?! K, i saw Benson, Ryan, Skinny's brother, who i think is called Donald and Kriston if i'm not wrong. The 1st 2 were known when i was with Des, the last 2 were known through friendster. Wahaha!!! And there was this gay gay guy called, Paul, wah, he very scary, ting and i got phobia leh... Ha!!! Then, we played Risks... HAHA!!! Till 6 am lor... I was so tired le... Concuss very soon after that... It was so cold i couldn't stand it anymore, i went to sleep at the staircase area, outside the door... Then, i woke up coz of the coldness again, open the door, saw the empty space, and slept right into it. Then, i realised, it was Skinny's place.. I was so tired, i didn't realised anything lor. Ting told me i got pissed off with her when she woke me... HAHA!!! So funny...

K, went to work again after that, this time round, i went mad... I was totally talking to myself all the time and trying to entertain everyone with my craps... HA! Well, in my mind, i thought that it's not gonna be long for me there lor, so y not make the last few days very happy?! And so i did.

Up until yesterday, i couldn't wake up from my sleep and i felt very very warm throughout my body, so i knew that i was having a fever... Smsed everything to everyone and i went back to bed... Wah lao, along the way, lots of calls and smses... I buay tahan, really dying le and still so many things to say to do... Cannot stand... ANyway, i did inform those things and i went back to sleep.. Slept all the way to 5.30pm lor... Concussion u know...

K, this morning, i woke up and went to work, was slightly late lah, but no choice, i'm just too tired... Lau officially annouced that i'm leaving, and thank me for helping... Was glad that he actually mentioned it in front of everyone and he asked me whether i'm gonna go back to help not, i ji tao looked at the ceiling... HAHA!!! When i'm free bah.. 1st, i need to have enough rest for my health sake. I still love working there, but just let me take a break from OHS and the staff there...

Today, i talked a lot to Carolyn, Jessica and Ivan... HAHA!!! They were all around in the office leh, so i'm like a bit wire disconnected, so i began with all my craps... And well, they were even more crapier than me lor... 1st, the 3 of them, gang up and squeeze me out of the team by just saying, "U r not human wad, Apple..." And then started with, "Ah Po..." wah... Tell u, i was so so "cake" lor.... But never mind lah, i really had fun with them, crapping.. And Ivan treat me the very last time with Chocolate biscuits... Gosh... Interesting... I was wondering where he got all his food from when later in the night, realised there's a fridge under his table... Dun mean to be rude, i just accidentally found it... WAhaHA!!! I really DIDN'T KNOW!!!! Totally AMAZED!!!

I see there'll be some problems with Jessica and Carolyn accomodating with each other, for some reason, Carolyn a bit stubborn and Jessica too soft hearted... Just like i was... So, i kind of just gave her some advice b4 she left just now... I just thought i'm gonna wash my hands off everything but i didn't know i would actually tell Jessica wad i told her... Heh! Sorry, maybe for the last time bah...

Right, from tml on, i wanna sleep as long as i like! Dun stop me!!!! AND, i can go for Netball training with my juniors next WEEK!!! AND, i can go out with friends!!!! AND, i can stay at home watch TV!!!! Basic luxuries like these were deprived of when i was working... Well, it's all coming back, b4 school starts.

There kept asking whether i'm gonna go back not, so sorry to say this, but i wun be, for the time being. I wanna stand my ground right now... Dun force me... Thank you... (Though i know none of the staff read my blag except for my darling, but well, just wanna say it out...)

CiAO!!!!

Equality to all?

Hai... Sometimes, my mother cannot let me loose a bit de... She's holding so tight that i can't breathe. Every now and then when she calls me, we'll end up quarrelling, if not, i will get very too lan and ji tao scold her. Wad's the point of being daughter and mother when one can't give in to another. She always listen to wad my kor said but never believe in wad i said. I feel so damn... Wad am i in her eyes. Something she may be proud of but never appreciate. Feel so guilty after scolding her just now, coz i wanted to go chalet... Everytime, she makes me feel that way but am i really in fault. I may be in some ways but can she understand me? i'm turning 18 this year, give me some space to breathe, to walk faster or even to run. Dun hold on to me like i can never walk by myself. She even thinks that Chris got motive in sending me to the chalet... Please lor, friends leh.. Wah Lao... How many girls have kor sent home liao, y didn't she asked. How many things have kor done against her will, y didn't she bear grudges? Y just mine? A girl, the youngest, no, not an excuse at all... I just hate the feeling that when i'm not wrong, i need to give in. Where's the fairness? Wad equality to all, bullshit. Maybe she shouldn't have given birth to me... That'd be better.

Hai... I never sleep well these few nights, i'm just trying to enjoy myself at work until my last day there... Hai... I guess i'm gonna start missing pple.

Lesson started today with Carolyn. Nothing much to teach though, it's really the basic basic things that she should know. Glad she took up the job coz then i can leave. No matter where the 2 goes, i can't really bother anymore, got my own life to live.

Felt happy today coz i managed to smile everywhere i went. To guests, to friends, to collueges... Everyone... Although i'm really tired but well, doesn't matter, i can sleep all i want from Sat on... Wahahaha!!!!

Guess i wun be able to go down for training tml or thurs le, working... Sorry girls...

K, shall stop here... Blog again next time!!!

Read... I dunno wad topic to put.

Yo YO.. I'm still in Offic now... Heh Heh.. Using the web illegally leh... HA! Well, doesn't matter right? I mean, it's not like i'm doing illegal things, i'm just merely bloggin... HeH! I'm not in a bad mood today... Somehow, i managed to laugh and smile with my friends and collueges.

1st off, HM called me to wake me up for training today... Actually, after hanging up her call, i sort of hesitated whether to go down for training not, but still, woke up and went. They started with physical training, which i sat and watch... Actually, i felt that physically they are good, only a few slackers lah... Heh! Afterwhich, passes... A lot to improve on. Something, they need to do, if not, dun even think of going to matches le... Anyway, i had more fun today at training than the other day's one. Coz i did join in, i had a chance to see more and really understand wad's going on.

After training, went to eat lunch with a few of them, wah, fulfilling sia... I had Chicken Rice, which i'm still drooling over... HAHA!!!! It's nice to eat Local delicaies once in a while rather than always western or rice..

I gotta rushed to work so i went off 1st. Gosh... I slept in the bus lor... For almost the whole ride and i only woke up when the bus was at Glen Eagles... If i continued to sleep, i might just reached PS... HAHA!!!

I told Jessica some stuff bout working here... I really lost faith in the pple who i used to trust a lot. If somehow, my existence is nothing to them then brush me out of this place. I told Chris that i dun feel like working anymore, and he told me, "Nvm, when she comes down, i let u go up." It's not bout going up or having her around, it's just that i have no more motivation to work... The passion that used to burn brightly is never gonna rekindle... Unless something really happen which i doubt. I dun really mind Carolyn being around in the office, coz it really doesn't matter coz afterall, i wun be here for as long as she is gonna be. It's not like, i hate the sight of her, it's just that, i dun like her attitude. Sometimes, pple dun get this clear. I feel so sick staying here. The pple in the office aren't the ones who i wanna see or talk to. Only when friends like, Xueting, Wan Yu and Melissa come to work then i'll feel happy. At least, there's something that i really look forward to. Other than that, it's really meaningless.

Today, Lau was in a good mood, he talked a lot, joked a lot and come physical with my head. I did entertained him. Coz there's not much times left for us to play...

O ya, Vincent Ah peh came back today. I was SO SO HAppy to see him. When i stepped into the Hotel, he's the 1st person i saw and i practically jumped and shout at him. HAHA!!! It always felt good to see old faces joining the team again... But of coz, i'm not exactly in the team... One foot out already. So i kind of talk to him bout some stuff...

True enough, things change, change for a purpose but can some things remain the same? Things like wad everyone likes everyone as who they WERE. However, life doesn't go that way right? We can only remember the things that we like bout this person but not to see it again and again. Sad...

Well, my spirit is not down, is UP! Very UP, wad's driving me on, is my old funky and caring friends, my hardworking juniors and myself. O, and the sentence, "YEAH, i'm leaving next week!!!!" :)

It is hard to let go but I have to...

Hai...

Ermm... Hui Mui, this is my reply to u... There's still hope in Netball, there are some potential players in the juniors but not all... With proper training, everything will be good enough for the team to survive. However, u seniors should consult and talk to ur teachers more... They a bit self-centred leh...

Ermm... I had a long chat with Xueting just now... I guess she's the only one who can feel wad i'm feeling bah... I dun feel like going to work anymore... So dun fit in there le... Pple look at me like i'm not a staff there anymore... Nobody takes me as me... I hate the feeling...

Hai... I wanna go training tml again... hopefully i can wake up bah...

Nothing much to add on le, it'll just add on to my pain.. I wanna carry on to put some effort into my life rather than work...

Attitude? Me?

Today, i went back to school to check out on the New netball team and also to play but well, i didn't manage to play coz the time for their training is so short and most of the time, they were doing the same thing... So Ting and me kind of just stand by the side looking... Hai... I dun wanna say much... Lost hope u know.... Still wanna go down on Thurs when there's more pple that i know...

Today, i went to work happily coz i fulfilled wad i wanted to do for so long, that is to go look at the training(though i'm not really happy bout it), however, work weren't that great. It's really realxing though, nothing much to worry bout. So i kind of went upstairs to walk and see the Fancy Faire... Then, Chris told me that somebody complained that i got attitude problem... I was quite surprised coz i didn't know i did or said something which made that person wanna complain to Chris... So i kind of thought bout wad i did, but i couldn't find anything that i did which is considered "Attitude". Probably, i'll get a bit fierce during payment time, other than that, i didn't really do anything. I was quite bothered by it the whole day. So i went around asking pple, do i really got attitude problem. Most said no... Still, i'm sad...

While walking to the MRt with Jessica just now, i told her bout how upset i was bout this "Attitude" thing, then she told me not to be so bothered by it, afterall, if u didn't do it, then u didn't do it. When we departed, i smsed Chris to apologize bout it coz i really dunnoe wad i did and pple complained. He told me to be tactful... I was quite mad coz it seems like he's saying, "ya, u got attitude problem, u really need to be more tactful." However, i do know that he's probably sleeping bah... Like my reply was, it doesn't anymore whether i'm tactful or not, i'm leaving soon... After wad happened, the more i wanna leave this place.

Wee Loon came to bicker with me over little things, so i got quite mad and told him, " U dun have to ask me to do, i wun be coming back already, dun even ask me to come back." He said, "Ok lor, dun ask me to sign the vouchers next time." I told him, "Dun sign lah, staff dun take pay lor... " and i totally ignored him for the rest of the day...

Wad a damn day...

Anyway, i received the enrolment package le... School is starting on 24th April... I can't wait to end this job and start school.

K, end here, wanna go read thru everything on the enrolment thing le...

Ciao...

Only on this day, i can smile...

Went to Skate today!!!! With Xueting, yuting and Yujun!!! HAHA!!! Best day i had in so so long... Wah... I fell down u know... It was such a funny fall... I dun even know y i fell... And seriously, i didn't fall at all up until when we're leaving... And i got so wet!!!! HAHA!!! But it's great...

After that Ting went back and the 3 of us went to K box... Sing our hearts out... Hee~ My whole body was still wet though and kind of feeling uneasy but well carried on singing, cherishing every moment of it coz i haven't had such fun for quite a while le... It's the greatest to have friends around to laugh together...

Ermm... Did i mention that i dreamt of Chris, Ivan, Xueting and Ling Hui? Heh Heh! Chris and myself in one dream while Ivan, ting, hui and me in another... Kind of weird though... I woke up puzzled... Ha!

Ermm... Tml wanna go training in school... Gonna act school kids, wear PE shirt and say, "I'm from the APACHE house de" HAHA!!!

Well, well... My 2kor called back just now... Hope he's doing all good at Tekong... My another kor(BT kor) smsed me just now also... He's also at Tekong... HA! Both my blood and unblood kors are in NS... Hope both of them are doing well..

K, going to DL some songs and Upload some pics... Then go sleep le...

Ciao!!!

Still... Stuck...

Cannot stand my mother, u know... ONce i came back, she kept mumbling bout wad i must help her with... I buay tahan lor... Already very pissed at work le but still need to listen to her...

Actually, today, it was ok lah... Nothing much happened. At least i can quietly work myself. I just dun like that fact that pple kept instructing me to do things, like as if i dunno wad i'm doing. Hai...

Before leaving this job, i actually found warmth in the area. I've grown to detest some pple but at the same time, grown to like some pple. Like Aunty Santy, i dun used to talk to her, now, i talk to her almost everyday and she'll always leave food for me even though i dun really have time to eat them. Sometimes, she can talk a lot but well, aunty mah, i dun mind. Then, there's Ivan... Although pple do speculate bout him but besides his likings of cleanliness, other than that, he's actually a nice guy. He gave me another chocolate today, which i didn't have time to eat... HA!

Also, Melissa, through the times, got really close with her le... Very sad that she didn't get into the same school as me.. But well, we'll reamain as friends. Once in a while, go crazy... U know, she's my Girlfriend LeH!!! HAHA!!!! Hor, Darling?! Hee~~~

I'm gonna miss lots of pple after leaving... One thing is for sure, i wun miss certain pple... The hatre will remain...

Still, i dunno wad's bothering me... Feel stuck... Nothing much can help me regain my true laughters.... I'm missing those good old days again.

O ya, another thing that i've learnt, there a Hospitality Room in Orchard Hotel... HAH!!! Chris told me it's on Level 4 and Ivan told me that there's some numbers to it which he forgot le... Heh HeH~

I beginning to question myself, do i really wanna quit? Am i really happy bout quitting? I think i wun be coz then i'll be letting go of wad i tried so hard in. However, i gotta move on, School is much better than this. I can go higher... y not? y stop? Just let it go...

There are some things that i wanna say but i can't say it here, too many pple reading, sometimes it'll travel too far for me to know...

Just let it go....

Not sure...

Gone are the days when i smiled a lot... Today, while ushering, i realised my smiles were so fake, i felt really bad for some reasons... A few times, i saw Mis Wong, Lau and Chris walking pass, i tried to put on a real smile but somehow, it couldn't come out. In the office, i laughed along with Jessica's jokes but then i know none of those were really from the heart. Where am i?

I decided to stay on in the Hotel even though i've finished work. I dunnoe y, perharps i know i will be gone pretty fast. I wish i could stay but nope, i'm not. B4 leaving, bt kor told me not to have some much feelings for the hotel but how to? I really dunnoe how to. I mean, look at the amount of pple i know here, look at the warmth that i've got here, it's hard to just leave them there. Although there were tough times but after each of it, i will still go on. I stopped doing a lot of things now but at the same time, when i need to do things, i gave it my best shot. Everyday seems like a last day to me. A part of me wants to leave this place, but another part, most of the part dun want to. Ha! Too bad, as time goes by, i have to, even if my heart lingers on.

Just now, while talking to Chris, i felt really bad. Coz i made him worried with my unsmiling. He said i looked like i've fallen out of love but well, that's not the case. Emptiness might be part of the reason but not all. Anyway, really wanna thank Chris for everything. And this opportunity to do this job.

Hui Mui left me a comment again... It's really nice to have such friend who never call me but in some ways, kept track of wad's going on with me. I miss the team a lot. I think i'll go down for training on Tues coz i'm not working on Monday and working at 3pm on tues, so Hui Mui, be prepared to welcome me back hor! Hee~ I miss netball too... I haven't touch the ball for a long long time. I guess i've lost touch on it le. Sad to say that...

Dreamt of Chris, Ivan, Xueting and Ling Hui yesterday. Y? Heh hEh! Dunnoe... Miss them too much maybe... Hai...

Firdaus called me just now just to say Hello. He actually wanted to meet up with me but well, i'm at work. I miss him too... Afterall, he's one guy who played a part in my life. Amin just asked bout him yesterday and he called me today...

Well, my mood is still quite at the bottom but it's too obvious already. I'm trying to keep the spirit up a little to avoid any worries or any other things from other. I'll try my best to be the best of me for the next few days...

Lau is sick... Feel so sorry for him. Work so hard and now, he fell sick. Hope he gets well soon...

I'm trying to... But no promises...

Unable to smile...

I haven't been in an exactly good mood the last few days. For some reasons, i've been feeling rather down. I really dunno wad is it that is bothering me so much.

On Wednesday, i went up to do service with Siqi, nothing seemed to be a problem, we didn't do badly together, and we do compromise as well. However, something was lacking, not in our partnership but something is lacking within myself. I was feeling kind of tensed up there. While standing at one side during one of those rare free times, Chris suddenly approached me and said, "Apple, wad happen to u these few days, u dun look good, u r not smiling..." I looked at him with a stunned look. 1st of all, i didn't know he was noticing so much, 2nd of all, i didn't know my feeling down looked so obvious in his eyes or perharps in many, it's just that they dun wanna say so. So i smiled to him and told him, i'm ok... There's plenty of things to tell him if i want to but somehow i chose not to coz the outcome is still the same.

I stopped talking to Chris and Lau last few days, i tried to avoid long conversations with them, i dun wanna stir any anger in them or in any ways say any wrong things, dunnoe y i'm doing so though, i'm just doing it. I'm trying to keep my distance from them, for wad? i dunnoe.

Ivan came today and i was stunned coz he's not wearing suit. I thought who is so bold as to sit on his chair and used his computer, then i realised it's him lah... K, i kind of miss having him in the office, coz at least he's the only one who i can joke around with and wun be afraid of saying the wrong, no politics to hide from him. But well, having him in the Office can be quite difficult to work too...

Anyway, i do appreciate everyone's concern bout my not laughing and smiling enough, probably not at work, smiling used to be my forte but nowadays, it's hard to bring my smile out. That's wad i told Chris too...probably coz i'm leaving or perharps, coz i'm starting school or maybe coz i'm growing up a little bit too fast...Probably, Perharps, Maybe... Nothing is definite at this point for me. I just know, i'll missed everything...

I am disappointed somehow with pple's performance... But then i told myself not to care anymore... Maybe this is y it's hurting me too... However, i did not restrain myself from trying to work things out. Sad to say, nothing is going right... I'm losing it once more... Soon, it'll be gone and i hope a new system will come and made things better in future.

I wonder wad is 2kor doing now... He must be complaining to himself bout he's BOTA hair... Hee~ Hopefully the 1st day has been good for him...

CiAo!

HahA!!!

Today, nothing makes me laugh except for this e-mail... Ermm... It's sent by bt kor so i went to play it and ha, it's a prank... After the mail, i laugh like crazy... K, some of my friends will receive it, and then u'll know the funny part... HAHA!!!!

PS: Bt kor, dun tell anyone who my crushes are O!!!! HAHA!!!! Crap!

Stuck...

Hai... Just now, i went to arranged my things... Very sad u know. I've done so many times of arrangement, yet each time i got so many things to throw away. It's so frustrating... Things are just accumulating and accumulating... There are things that i can't bear to throw away. For example, some old soft toys given as BD present over the years by different pple, also, all the photo frames as well... And of coz, the worksheets, books and files...

While going through them, a lot of feelings came... I mean, afterall, those stuff were wad i did everyday before. Written by myself, all the inks... I kept a file of my compos... Not gonna throw them away. Those inspirations came at the moment when i've written it, i'm not gonna throw them away just like that. Also, i kept some D&T papers too... Hee~ I saw all the drawings went from bad to good... HAHA! Kind of miss school again. Miss all the mugging we had. All the scoldings we got. All the little little things that happened. Sad to depart from those naive days, dun really wanna grow up that fast. Can time just turned back a little while, and let me feel wad i felt b4? Last night, i was going through some old pics and they brought me back to those times. Felt so real, yet so far... Hai...

Well, i guess all these are inevitable. Time goes on and on and so does life. Year by year i grew up and at every stage i learnt different things, find a different me, but none can change the fact of life. Still, i'm gonna move on, no matter how hard it is to depart or how hard it is to face the real world, that's wad we gotta go thru. At least i tried to make the best out of everything i do, that's the most important part.

I haven't give myself much time to think bout when to leave OHS. It's the 7th today, wonder which day is good enough to leave... Time to give some deep thoughts bout it. I suppose it wun be easy leaving a place that i've spent so much time in and learnt so many things from, but well, unless i wanna forever stay there, if not, i gotta go... Let's just make it another fond memory bah..

Ermm.... There is so many things that i wanna talk bout but i dunnoe where to begin. Feel very uneasy in my chest, wad is that thing that is bothering me? I seriously dunnoe. Mood swing again? Hee~ No... That's not it, i just feel very uncomfortable having things stuck in myself but i dunnoe wad exactly is it. Damn...

Well, when i figure out wad is that in me, probably i'll tell you.

HAI!!!! MISS SCHOOL SO MUCH!!!!!! BYE HILLGROVE!!!!!

Sometimes when u see the sunset, u'll feel sad. Why? That's because it's the end of the day...

Nah... I changed my mind... Nothing much to blog.

Here's something to share... I got into Ngee Ann Poly, Tourism and Resort management... Hee~ Quite Happy cos i managed to get into the course that i want and also, it's my 1st choice. However, up till now, no one is in the same course as me yet. However, there are some who are in the same school as me. Most of my classmates actually went into Np as well.. This is one of the parts which i'm really happy about. We moved on, taking the same steps...

Right, i took off on thurs and went to Sentosa to tan with ting and Hui... Hee~ Never actually gone to a beach and lie down and tan like that, that was the 1st time. Then, i went down the water and felt the coldness and the breeze... HAHA!!! It was great to actually do that once in a blue moon. B4 washing up, we saw this very cute Japanese Boy Boy.. Hee~ He was building sand castle so we helped him and played with him. He's so cute, got small eyes like mine... HahA!!! Took pics of him.. HAHA!!! Then, we went to Marina and eat Long John.. Afterwhich, shopped around for a while and then went to somewhere's starbucks... Wah lao, my 1st try on Passion tea.. It's so sour... Not my type of tea...

The next day, went to work totally burnt... HAHA!!! So funny, i was like so red that pple thought i drink or wad... Then, my boss said i looked like chimpanzee which i dun really get wad he means... Then, i kind of distracted everyone during briefing with my burning face... HAHA!!! So funny... See the expression on everyone's face... Hee~ It's common though, just that my face is slightly more reddish than b4... HAHA!!!

Lau was in a very good mood that day... He kind of talked to me about a lot of things and stretched towards his personal life and all... I find it weird for him to be telling me all these... But, well, there's not many pple that he can talk to bout all it... And well, i'm leaving soon, so no harm letting me know. Not gonna review any of the details to anyone, his life... respect...

K, so i was very stunned with Jessica's recommendation on who should take up the coordinator's job. I really dunno wad to say lah and seriously, my gut feeling is telling me that Chris will definitely bring her in. Well, if that's wad they need, i can't really object to anything. Sometimes, i'm angry for the fact that pple dun even ask me for opinions just coz i'm leaving soon, but soon doesn't mean now, at least let me know and hear my opinion lor... Well, since it had already been said, i guess i can't do anything anymore, god bless them... Seriously, i'm not going back if that really happens... However, that's not the main reason lah... It's just that i'm sick of everything there. I wanna take a break from Orchard Hotel, but of coz, i'm still very much attached to it.. Well, time will drift us apart...

Many things that i've done well and many that i've made mistakes, they're all done in OHS. No regrets stepping in, no regrets stepping out either. i've met a lot of friends that i really treasure and will never forget. Somehow, OHS will become just another memory of mine...

Si En said something yesterday, she said, "Dun worry, if u wanna go, the leave without looking back, Xiao Sa yi Dian..." I was shocked that she told me that but that's the truth.. Xiao Sa yi dian...

Everything is coming to an end. I'm embarking on the next phase of my life soon. I'm ready and set to go further...

Well, i'm off the next 2 days. A lot of time will be spent on cleaning my area, completing some files to handover to the next whoever-it-will-be coordinator and also for Jessica to look through. She's still very not clear on wad is going on. Minor stuff can be forgiven. I need her to look into things more rather than looking at the surface and do. Gosh.... Sounds like yet another difficult task. I really dunnoe y i always gotta do all these. On the other hand, i am learning more than other pple... i should count myself lucky... :)

K, i need to go help Ivan find his songs liao... CiAo Pple...

Life is not as good as before... It has taken a toll on me...

Ta Da!

I got lots to blog bout... Tml? hee~ Night....