Equality to all?

Hai... Sometimes, my mother cannot let me loose a bit de... She's holding so tight that i can't breathe. Every now and then when she calls me, we'll end up quarrelling, if not, i will get very too lan and ji tao scold her. Wad's the point of being daughter and mother when one can't give in to another. She always listen to wad my kor said but never believe in wad i said. I feel so damn... Wad am i in her eyes. Something she may be proud of but never appreciate. Feel so guilty after scolding her just now, coz i wanted to go chalet... Everytime, she makes me feel that way but am i really in fault. I may be in some ways but can she understand me? i'm turning 18 this year, give me some space to breathe, to walk faster or even to run. Dun hold on to me like i can never walk by myself. She even thinks that Chris got motive in sending me to the chalet... Please lor, friends leh.. Wah Lao... How many girls have kor sent home liao, y didn't she asked. How many things have kor done against her will, y didn't she bear grudges? Y just mine? A girl, the youngest, no, not an excuse at all... I just hate the feeling that when i'm not wrong, i need to give in. Where's the fairness? Wad equality to all, bullshit. Maybe she shouldn't have given birth to me... That'd be better.

Hai... I never sleep well these few nights, i'm just trying to enjoy myself at work until my last day there... Hai... I guess i'm gonna start missing pple.

Lesson started today with Carolyn. Nothing much to teach though, it's really the basic basic things that she should know. Glad she took up the job coz then i can leave. No matter where the 2 goes, i can't really bother anymore, got my own life to live.

Felt happy today coz i managed to smile everywhere i went. To guests, to friends, to collueges... Everyone... Although i'm really tired but well, doesn't matter, i can sleep all i want from Sat on... Wahahaha!!!!

Guess i wun be able to go down for training tml or thurs le, working... Sorry girls...

K, shall stop here... Blog again next time!!!