Gone are the days when i smiled a lot... Today, while ushering, i realised my smiles were so fake, i felt really bad for some reasons... A few times, i saw Mis Wong, Lau and Chris walking pass, i tried to put on a real smile but somehow, it couldn't come out. In the office, i laughed along with Jessica's jokes but then i know none of those were really from the heart. Where am i?
I decided to stay on in the Hotel even though i've finished work. I dunnoe y, perharps i know i will be gone pretty fast. I wish i could stay but nope, i'm not. B4 leaving, bt kor told me not to have some much feelings for the hotel but how to? I really dunnoe how to. I mean, look at the amount of pple i know here, look at the warmth that i've got here, it's hard to just leave them there. Although there were tough times but after each of it, i will still go on. I stopped doing a lot of things now but at the same time, when i need to do things, i gave it my best shot. Everyday seems like a last day to me. A part of me wants to leave this place, but another part, most of the part dun want to. Ha! Too bad, as time goes by, i have to, even if my heart lingers on.
Just now, while talking to Chris, i felt really bad. Coz i made him worried with my unsmiling. He said i looked like i've fallen out of love but well, that's not the case. Emptiness might be part of the reason but not all. Anyway, really wanna thank Chris for everything. And this opportunity to do this job.
Hui Mui left me a comment again... It's really nice to have such friend who never call me but in some ways, kept track of wad's going on with me. I miss the team a lot. I think i'll go down for training on Tues coz i'm not working on Monday and working at 3pm on tues, so Hui Mui, be prepared to welcome me back hor! Hee~ I miss netball too... I haven't touch the ball for a long long time. I guess i've lost touch on it le. Sad to say that...
Dreamt of Chris, Ivan, Xueting and Ling Hui yesterday. Y? Heh hEh! Dunnoe... Miss them too much maybe... Hai...
Firdaus called me just now just to say Hello. He actually wanted to meet up with me but well, i'm at work. I miss him too... Afterall, he's one guy who played a part in my life. Amin just asked bout him yesterday and he called me today...
Well, my mood is still quite at the bottom but it's too obvious already. I'm trying to keep the spirit up a little to avoid any worries or any other things from other. I'll try my best to be the best of me for the next few days...
Lau is sick... Feel so sorry for him. Work so hard and now, he fell sick. Hope he gets well soon...
I'm trying to... But no promises...
No comments:
Post a Comment