Almost over...

WAhAHa!!!! K, nothing much happened in my boring life again bUT, i did went out and met some of the old pals back at the Hotel...

1st up, i took a cab down coz i was damn late, then they changed the location and i worried i wun have enough cash for the fare but well, i managed to paid it off... Wipe sweat off...

After waiting for the few gals, we went for a dinner at PasTaMAnia... k, i was very disappointed with the pasta served, very Not nice lor... However, the Chocolate Mousse was good... hee~ After having a full dinner and chatting up with them.. We finally decided to go separate ways. Jess and Xueni went for a movie, ying went back and lastly, Sa Jason and me head back to the hotel just for the sake of me seeing the hotel again... (Thank u my friends for granting my wish..) WahAHAHa!!! So, i went back and saw some familiar faces.. From Orchard Cafe, the Tamil guy who i dunnoe the name but knew him while ushering... Then, saw Tian Chen, Zhang Shuang, ming yi, Chen Lei, Hu wei and terry... Then crap crap and all when to Conference... Saw Chris then Tony.. Chris always say i Fat... Wah lao... Bearly a week and he said that... Gosh...

Inside the office, nothing much has changed, my "I'm Leaving" postcard is still there, my "Our staff is trained to Kill" is still there, the rest remains almost the same... Took a look around and i saw the card i gave to Ivan was still there... Wahahaha! Then crap a lot with the staff and managed to ask everyone whether they missed my not and i got some pretty satisfying answers... Hee~

I even managed to talk to the La Terrasse girl who, i forgot her name... (Oh MY!) Hee~ After that, even saw wilbur and played with him... And once again, he said "Good Luck" to me... WahHAHAHA!!! ThaNks, dude...

K, i really missed the place i guess but i'm glad i still contact the friends around.. The atmosphere is still rich...

Went home with Sa, En, and Jason... Wah lao, while on the Train, this lady with a really good English accent was screaming and shorting bout someone bullying her mum... WAh lao... the whole train was totally staring at her... Dunno wad's wrong with her... K, i respect her for standing out for her mum but she's in public lor... And really, y would someone paid a hooligan to bully her mother? Gosh... And seriously, wonder whether she's Singaporean not, coz she kept saying, "U're a SIngaporean, u should be ashame!" Wah lao, suddenly everyone in the train started shouting "Shut up" at her but she refused to... Gosh... Gosh... Wad a scene...

Anyway, it's almost 3.30am le but i still can't sleep, i'm not feeling at all tired u see... HAi... Always having sleepless nights... No idea y though. Kind of just listening to songs...

I rmbed someone asked me whether i wanna get a boyfriend not and my answer was, "No." "Coz i dun feel like having one." ERmm... I dunnoe.. Really dun fee like having one... But dun worry, i'm still straight though i always act that Sa is my Darling... WAHAHAHA!!! k, she is my darling Hor!

Ermm... I gotta chat with Kriston the other day over MSN and i was really surprise that a guy like him is a Piano Teacher... Seriously, i'm still amazed by it lah... WAHAHA!!

Desmond Tan SMSed me yesterday... He was just chatting with me over our recent lives... Do hope he's doing well and wun go the wrong way again... ANd hor, he started asking me to compare between his kor and him...Wah LAo!!! Buay tahAn!!! but sadly, i was busy clearing up my room, so ya, no choice, gotta cut the conversation short..

K, tml going to play badminton with Yuting Lor... WAHHAHA!!! Happy Leh... Will end here...

Ciao!!!

Only when you've left then u can feel the pain...

LaLAlA

I got myself registered for the FOC camp today... And i handed up all my forms on the way... So, i'm pretty much done with school enrolment and all... Now, i can relax and not have to rmb those datelines...

After going to Ngee Ann, went to Pizza Hut to have my lunch with ting and yuting... Then, i stomach pain so ji tao go home le... It was bout 12pm when i reached home... So i slacked around until 3 plus and i began to clear my room's rubbish... Still not my room yet... Sad...

Booked the court for Friday le... WahAHAhA!!! Can go exercise...

It rained today so i didn't make it for Netball in school... Well, lots of chances...

Going down to meet some ex-partners in crime... WAHAHAHA!!!

CiAo!!!

Short BlOg...

Yet another day passed by... Quite nice to sleep and go out... WahAHa!!!

Went to Np today but came home empty-handed, coz we were too late and we weren't aware of it so went to westmall again... Talked a little with ting and hui, bought my dinner and headed home... Quite a boring day...

Gonna head down to Np again tml... Actually wanted to go Netball de but promised to pei ting go check-up so can't go...

Not really missing work, but missing the pple there.... Hai... Hope everything is well...

Borrowed a book today, hopefully can finish reading... Wahhaha!!!

That's it... CIaO!!!

Missing?

1st day away from work, wad's the feeling like? COOL!!! i slept till 3 just to replenish my lost sleep.. Hee~ Woke up and slack... it's been a long while since i woke up and slack, coz usually, i woke up and rushed to work...

The missing of work came just now.. In the night... Everything happens in the night... Suddenly rmbed that the last uniform number i got was 252, L size. Also, the 1st thing that Lau told me when i went to work that day was, "Apple, ur last day right? (Glance at his Suit)" And the both of us laugh... HAHA!!! Dunnoe since when, i began bringing his suit down to the laundry for washing... Each time, i find it a pleasure... HAHA!!! Coz i dig dig his pockets to see got anything inside not. HeH! Childish... Wahahaha!!!

The day b4 my last day happened to be JP's(F&B Director) 30th Birthday... And guess wad? I said Happy Birthday to him and the funny thing was, i felt really weird after saying it... HAHA!!!! i knew he smile though.. That was actually the 1st time he looked at me when i said, "Good evening" and then took a second glance and smile when i said "Happy Birthday"... My day of ushering was all smiling and laughing to each and everyone of the guests and staff... I guess i knew it was the last day so i smile and laugh to everyone... wad is good bout service line is that each time u smile to ur guest, when they smile back, it feels good, a sense of satisfaction i guess. Also, to lead some lost souls to the correct place is a nice thing to do. Although it's just ushering, i found meaning in it, found joy in it.

Next, the 1st time i initiated lots of craps with Ivan... Wahaha!!! And each time, he suan no like nobody business but to me, i buay tahan but console myself by saying, "thank you ar, its my last day liao, nvm" HeH! Seriously, Carolyn, jess, me and him laughed and talked really loud! Wahaha!!!

That day was also the last day i saw Lau drink so much coz of the BD thingy and he came back with his ears and face all red... Gosh.. Scary... And that was the 1st time i saw his talking to his wife on the phone... It was, OH so sweet... HAHA!!! "I'm coming home soon, checking some e-mails now.." HeH HEh!!!

End of the day, i went to talk to the Night auditors, Wilbur and Ben... WahAHa!!! I'm like, "Hey, last day leh, talk leh..." Hee~ Wilur was like, "huh? Dun bluff, wad last day.." So i explained to him y and all, and he shook my hand and wish me all the best... I think if somehow Melissa and him sees each other more, they might be some chances... HAhA!!! DA LU MEI!!!!

Amazingly i didn't approached Chris a lot that day, instead i approached Roy more... Kind of telling myself that well, it's done, i've been bothering Chris for too long so dun wanna talk to him or fan him that day... And true enough, we didn't talk much...

Speaking of Chris, suddenly rmbed Elsie and yihua's case... This one, i must mention... The other day, Yihua wrote Elsie's name in the booking book without our permission and i was very mad bout it so then nvm, let it be. On that very day, Elsie came very early and Jessica told me she messed up our table. I got even more mad... During their break time, the few noon staff came over and take coupons, on the spot i asked Yihua, "How come Elsie is here so early today?" He's like, "wad?! I ask Wee loon le." I'm like, "Ask wee loon then no need to tell us ar? We are coordinators btw..." Heh! Didn't think much after that, coz i knew i was right... In the end, somebody complained to Chris and then Chris came to tell me... I was really bothered by it lor... Coz i know Chris was blaming me for it.. However, if i really have attitude problem then y must yihua be the one to complain? If i really have attitude problem, many others would have complained. Probably Chris was right, he said, "He is a captain afterall, if u wanna say him, pull him to one side. " But for me, it's not like that coz really, if someone is wrong in something, i dun care where he/she was, infront of which president, i'll scold, coz the fact is, he's wrong... Even when Chris was wrong, Lau would scold him infront of everyone but of coz, Lau holds a different position... But, the same rules apply... i was very sad and pissed off at that time coz out of everyone, Chris's disbelief shocked me... At the end of the day, i recovered from it with friends' support... Anyway, it's over, just hope yihua wun do it again and carolyn and jessica wun make the same mistake as i did. 4get about it...

Well, once in a blue moon i'll go back to OHS and walk around. i really wanna go try the High-tea at LA Terrasse and buy the pastries from Orchard Cafe... HAHA!!!

Mark Su su told me he always visit Huating restaurant de, but i never see him leh... HAHA!!! Nvm, wun see him there le, quit liao!!! WahAHAHA!!!

Somehow, i know i will miss working at orchard hotel... The memories were fond... I grew up a lot there... For the time being, there's no urge to go back but the urge of remembering everyone... HAHA!!! I'm proud of myself as a banquet waitress and coordinator coz i learnt too much there... I know where's Tony Ramas, Esmerada, Beer Garden, Executive club, huating, la terrasse, Hospitality room, and all... WaHAHahA!!!

For now, i'll rest as much as i need and then start to shop shop and time to go through my NP stuff le...

Ciao!

WAHhahA!!!

Ok, let's update bout wad happened after my last blog. Began working after the long chalet mood i had on Monday and Tuesday at BQT's and Lawrence's chalet respectively.

On the chalet, i had lots of fun with the pple there, especially the China pple who i dun used to talk so so much to b4. That day began with the paying of register fees to Np and then Ting and i went down to Orchard when we decided to go K box. However, after checking out the price, Ting decided not to go. So we took bus together, while she went home, i went to OHS. Wait for Chris and all. I went to Subway there to wait when i saw Kelvin, wad a coincidence lor, so we chatted bout our recent lives and all and his Gf came, so he went off.. Following that was a Call from Chris saying that they're all Orchard tower eating. So i went over. Then, went back to hotel to help them wiped Wine glass, pathetic, for the Mdm Tan's BD event. WaHAHA!!! I buay tahan the conversationg they were having just coz of gloves... WAh...

Then, took Chris's car down and almost immediately, the fun began. Blended in quite fast and started talking and eating. Suddenly, we were talking bout "heart" problems. I began with Ah mao, then with jessica and lastly Carolyn... Fun leh... Coz it's very rare to have such opportunity to do this kind of things with pple we only see at work. I didn't slept that day, only took bout 10 mins break and then back home, and off to work... I was damn tired that day, eyes almost shutting as i proceed with my work.

That night, went to Lawrence/Skinny's chalet... Wah lao, Choatic u know... The pple were like drunk?! K, i saw Benson, Ryan, Skinny's brother, who i think is called Donald and Kriston if i'm not wrong. The 1st 2 were known when i was with Des, the last 2 were known through friendster. Wahaha!!! And there was this gay gay guy called, Paul, wah, he very scary, ting and i got phobia leh... Ha!!! Then, we played Risks... HAHA!!! Till 6 am lor... I was so tired le... Concuss very soon after that... It was so cold i couldn't stand it anymore, i went to sleep at the staircase area, outside the door... Then, i woke up coz of the coldness again, open the door, saw the empty space, and slept right into it. Then, i realised, it was Skinny's place.. I was so tired, i didn't realised anything lor. Ting told me i got pissed off with her when she woke me... HAHA!!! So funny...

K, went to work again after that, this time round, i went mad... I was totally talking to myself all the time and trying to entertain everyone with my craps... HA! Well, in my mind, i thought that it's not gonna be long for me there lor, so y not make the last few days very happy?! And so i did.

Up until yesterday, i couldn't wake up from my sleep and i felt very very warm throughout my body, so i knew that i was having a fever... Smsed everything to everyone and i went back to bed... Wah lao, along the way, lots of calls and smses... I buay tahan, really dying le and still so many things to say to do... Cannot stand... ANyway, i did inform those things and i went back to sleep.. Slept all the way to 5.30pm lor... Concussion u know...

K, this morning, i woke up and went to work, was slightly late lah, but no choice, i'm just too tired... Lau officially annouced that i'm leaving, and thank me for helping... Was glad that he actually mentioned it in front of everyone and he asked me whether i'm gonna go back to help not, i ji tao looked at the ceiling... HAHA!!! When i'm free bah.. 1st, i need to have enough rest for my health sake. I still love working there, but just let me take a break from OHS and the staff there...

Today, i talked a lot to Carolyn, Jessica and Ivan... HAHA!!! They were all around in the office leh, so i'm like a bit wire disconnected, so i began with all my craps... And well, they were even more crapier than me lor... 1st, the 3 of them, gang up and squeeze me out of the team by just saying, "U r not human wad, Apple..." And then started with, "Ah Po..." wah... Tell u, i was so so "cake" lor.... But never mind lah, i really had fun with them, crapping.. And Ivan treat me the very last time with Chocolate biscuits... Gosh... Interesting... I was wondering where he got all his food from when later in the night, realised there's a fridge under his table... Dun mean to be rude, i just accidentally found it... WAhaHA!!! I really DIDN'T KNOW!!!! Totally AMAZED!!!

I see there'll be some problems with Jessica and Carolyn accomodating with each other, for some reason, Carolyn a bit stubborn and Jessica too soft hearted... Just like i was... So, i kind of just gave her some advice b4 she left just now... I just thought i'm gonna wash my hands off everything but i didn't know i would actually tell Jessica wad i told her... Heh! Sorry, maybe for the last time bah...

Right, from tml on, i wanna sleep as long as i like! Dun stop me!!!! AND, i can go for Netball training with my juniors next WEEK!!! AND, i can go out with friends!!!! AND, i can stay at home watch TV!!!! Basic luxuries like these were deprived of when i was working... Well, it's all coming back, b4 school starts.

There kept asking whether i'm gonna go back not, so sorry to say this, but i wun be, for the time being. I wanna stand my ground right now... Dun force me... Thank you... (Though i know none of the staff read my blag except for my darling, but well, just wanna say it out...)

CiAO!!!!

Equality to all?

Hai... Sometimes, my mother cannot let me loose a bit de... She's holding so tight that i can't breathe. Every now and then when she calls me, we'll end up quarrelling, if not, i will get very too lan and ji tao scold her. Wad's the point of being daughter and mother when one can't give in to another. She always listen to wad my kor said but never believe in wad i said. I feel so damn... Wad am i in her eyes. Something she may be proud of but never appreciate. Feel so guilty after scolding her just now, coz i wanted to go chalet... Everytime, she makes me feel that way but am i really in fault. I may be in some ways but can she understand me? i'm turning 18 this year, give me some space to breathe, to walk faster or even to run. Dun hold on to me like i can never walk by myself. She even thinks that Chris got motive in sending me to the chalet... Please lor, friends leh.. Wah Lao... How many girls have kor sent home liao, y didn't she asked. How many things have kor done against her will, y didn't she bear grudges? Y just mine? A girl, the youngest, no, not an excuse at all... I just hate the feeling that when i'm not wrong, i need to give in. Where's the fairness? Wad equality to all, bullshit. Maybe she shouldn't have given birth to me... That'd be better.

Hai... I never sleep well these few nights, i'm just trying to enjoy myself at work until my last day there... Hai... I guess i'm gonna start missing pple.

Lesson started today with Carolyn. Nothing much to teach though, it's really the basic basic things that she should know. Glad she took up the job coz then i can leave. No matter where the 2 goes, i can't really bother anymore, got my own life to live.

Felt happy today coz i managed to smile everywhere i went. To guests, to friends, to collueges... Everyone... Although i'm really tired but well, doesn't matter, i can sleep all i want from Sat on... Wahahaha!!!!

Guess i wun be able to go down for training tml or thurs le, working... Sorry girls...

K, shall stop here... Blog again next time!!!

Read... I dunno wad topic to put.

Yo YO.. I'm still in Offic now... Heh Heh.. Using the web illegally leh... HA! Well, doesn't matter right? I mean, it's not like i'm doing illegal things, i'm just merely bloggin... HeH! I'm not in a bad mood today... Somehow, i managed to laugh and smile with my friends and collueges.

1st off, HM called me to wake me up for training today... Actually, after hanging up her call, i sort of hesitated whether to go down for training not, but still, woke up and went. They started with physical training, which i sat and watch... Actually, i felt that physically they are good, only a few slackers lah... Heh! Afterwhich, passes... A lot to improve on. Something, they need to do, if not, dun even think of going to matches le... Anyway, i had more fun today at training than the other day's one. Coz i did join in, i had a chance to see more and really understand wad's going on.

After training, went to eat lunch with a few of them, wah, fulfilling sia... I had Chicken Rice, which i'm still drooling over... HAHA!!!! It's nice to eat Local delicaies once in a while rather than always western or rice..

I gotta rushed to work so i went off 1st. Gosh... I slept in the bus lor... For almost the whole ride and i only woke up when the bus was at Glen Eagles... If i continued to sleep, i might just reached PS... HAHA!!!

I told Jessica some stuff bout working here... I really lost faith in the pple who i used to trust a lot. If somehow, my existence is nothing to them then brush me out of this place. I told Chris that i dun feel like working anymore, and he told me, "Nvm, when she comes down, i let u go up." It's not bout going up or having her around, it's just that i have no more motivation to work... The passion that used to burn brightly is never gonna rekindle... Unless something really happen which i doubt. I dun really mind Carolyn being around in the office, coz it really doesn't matter coz afterall, i wun be here for as long as she is gonna be. It's not like, i hate the sight of her, it's just that, i dun like her attitude. Sometimes, pple dun get this clear. I feel so sick staying here. The pple in the office aren't the ones who i wanna see or talk to. Only when friends like, Xueting, Wan Yu and Melissa come to work then i'll feel happy. At least, there's something that i really look forward to. Other than that, it's really meaningless.

Today, Lau was in a good mood, he talked a lot, joked a lot and come physical with my head. I did entertained him. Coz there's not much times left for us to play...

O ya, Vincent Ah peh came back today. I was SO SO HAppy to see him. When i stepped into the Hotel, he's the 1st person i saw and i practically jumped and shout at him. HAHA!!! It always felt good to see old faces joining the team again... But of coz, i'm not exactly in the team... One foot out already. So i kind of talk to him bout some stuff...

True enough, things change, change for a purpose but can some things remain the same? Things like wad everyone likes everyone as who they WERE. However, life doesn't go that way right? We can only remember the things that we like bout this person but not to see it again and again. Sad...

Well, my spirit is not down, is UP! Very UP, wad's driving me on, is my old funky and caring friends, my hardworking juniors and myself. O, and the sentence, "YEAH, i'm leaving next week!!!!" :)

It is hard to let go but I have to...

Hai...

Ermm... Hui Mui, this is my reply to u... There's still hope in Netball, there are some potential players in the juniors but not all... With proper training, everything will be good enough for the team to survive. However, u seniors should consult and talk to ur teachers more... They a bit self-centred leh...

Ermm... I had a long chat with Xueting just now... I guess she's the only one who can feel wad i'm feeling bah... I dun feel like going to work anymore... So dun fit in there le... Pple look at me like i'm not a staff there anymore... Nobody takes me as me... I hate the feeling...

Hai... I wanna go training tml again... hopefully i can wake up bah...

Nothing much to add on le, it'll just add on to my pain.. I wanna carry on to put some effort into my life rather than work...

Attitude? Me?

Today, i went back to school to check out on the New netball team and also to play but well, i didn't manage to play coz the time for their training is so short and most of the time, they were doing the same thing... So Ting and me kind of just stand by the side looking... Hai... I dun wanna say much... Lost hope u know.... Still wanna go down on Thurs when there's more pple that i know...

Today, i went to work happily coz i fulfilled wad i wanted to do for so long, that is to go look at the training(though i'm not really happy bout it), however, work weren't that great. It's really realxing though, nothing much to worry bout. So i kind of went upstairs to walk and see the Fancy Faire... Then, Chris told me that somebody complained that i got attitude problem... I was quite surprised coz i didn't know i did or said something which made that person wanna complain to Chris... So i kind of thought bout wad i did, but i couldn't find anything that i did which is considered "Attitude". Probably, i'll get a bit fierce during payment time, other than that, i didn't really do anything. I was quite bothered by it the whole day. So i went around asking pple, do i really got attitude problem. Most said no... Still, i'm sad...

While walking to the MRt with Jessica just now, i told her bout how upset i was bout this "Attitude" thing, then she told me not to be so bothered by it, afterall, if u didn't do it, then u didn't do it. When we departed, i smsed Chris to apologize bout it coz i really dunnoe wad i did and pple complained. He told me to be tactful... I was quite mad coz it seems like he's saying, "ya, u got attitude problem, u really need to be more tactful." However, i do know that he's probably sleeping bah... Like my reply was, it doesn't anymore whether i'm tactful or not, i'm leaving soon... After wad happened, the more i wanna leave this place.

Wee Loon came to bicker with me over little things, so i got quite mad and told him, " U dun have to ask me to do, i wun be coming back already, dun even ask me to come back." He said, "Ok lor, dun ask me to sign the vouchers next time." I told him, "Dun sign lah, staff dun take pay lor... " and i totally ignored him for the rest of the day...

Wad a damn day...

Anyway, i received the enrolment package le... School is starting on 24th April... I can't wait to end this job and start school.

K, end here, wanna go read thru everything on the enrolment thing le...

Ciao...

Only on this day, i can smile...

Went to Skate today!!!! With Xueting, yuting and Yujun!!! HAHA!!! Best day i had in so so long... Wah... I fell down u know... It was such a funny fall... I dun even know y i fell... And seriously, i didn't fall at all up until when we're leaving... And i got so wet!!!! HAHA!!! But it's great...

After that Ting went back and the 3 of us went to K box... Sing our hearts out... Hee~ My whole body was still wet though and kind of feeling uneasy but well carried on singing, cherishing every moment of it coz i haven't had such fun for quite a while le... It's the greatest to have friends around to laugh together...

Ermm... Did i mention that i dreamt of Chris, Ivan, Xueting and Ling Hui? Heh Heh! Chris and myself in one dream while Ivan, ting, hui and me in another... Kind of weird though... I woke up puzzled... Ha!

Ermm... Tml wanna go training in school... Gonna act school kids, wear PE shirt and say, "I'm from the APACHE house de" HAHA!!!

Well, well... My 2kor called back just now... Hope he's doing all good at Tekong... My another kor(BT kor) smsed me just now also... He's also at Tekong... HA! Both my blood and unblood kors are in NS... Hope both of them are doing well..

K, going to DL some songs and Upload some pics... Then go sleep le...

Ciao!!!

Still... Stuck...

Cannot stand my mother, u know... ONce i came back, she kept mumbling bout wad i must help her with... I buay tahan lor... Already very pissed at work le but still need to listen to her...

Actually, today, it was ok lah... Nothing much happened. At least i can quietly work myself. I just dun like that fact that pple kept instructing me to do things, like as if i dunno wad i'm doing. Hai...

Before leaving this job, i actually found warmth in the area. I've grown to detest some pple but at the same time, grown to like some pple. Like Aunty Santy, i dun used to talk to her, now, i talk to her almost everyday and she'll always leave food for me even though i dun really have time to eat them. Sometimes, she can talk a lot but well, aunty mah, i dun mind. Then, there's Ivan... Although pple do speculate bout him but besides his likings of cleanliness, other than that, he's actually a nice guy. He gave me another chocolate today, which i didn't have time to eat... HA!

Also, Melissa, through the times, got really close with her le... Very sad that she didn't get into the same school as me.. But well, we'll reamain as friends. Once in a while, go crazy... U know, she's my Girlfriend LeH!!! HAHA!!!! Hor, Darling?! Hee~~~

I'm gonna miss lots of pple after leaving... One thing is for sure, i wun miss certain pple... The hatre will remain...

Still, i dunno wad's bothering me... Feel stuck... Nothing much can help me regain my true laughters.... I'm missing those good old days again.

O ya, another thing that i've learnt, there a Hospitality Room in Orchard Hotel... HAH!!! Chris told me it's on Level 4 and Ivan told me that there's some numbers to it which he forgot le... Heh HeH~

I beginning to question myself, do i really wanna quit? Am i really happy bout quitting? I think i wun be coz then i'll be letting go of wad i tried so hard in. However, i gotta move on, School is much better than this. I can go higher... y not? y stop? Just let it go...

There are some things that i wanna say but i can't say it here, too many pple reading, sometimes it'll travel too far for me to know...

Just let it go....

Not sure...

Gone are the days when i smiled a lot... Today, while ushering, i realised my smiles were so fake, i felt really bad for some reasons... A few times, i saw Mis Wong, Lau and Chris walking pass, i tried to put on a real smile but somehow, it couldn't come out. In the office, i laughed along with Jessica's jokes but then i know none of those were really from the heart. Where am i?

I decided to stay on in the Hotel even though i've finished work. I dunnoe y, perharps i know i will be gone pretty fast. I wish i could stay but nope, i'm not. B4 leaving, bt kor told me not to have some much feelings for the hotel but how to? I really dunnoe how to. I mean, look at the amount of pple i know here, look at the warmth that i've got here, it's hard to just leave them there. Although there were tough times but after each of it, i will still go on. I stopped doing a lot of things now but at the same time, when i need to do things, i gave it my best shot. Everyday seems like a last day to me. A part of me wants to leave this place, but another part, most of the part dun want to. Ha! Too bad, as time goes by, i have to, even if my heart lingers on.

Just now, while talking to Chris, i felt really bad. Coz i made him worried with my unsmiling. He said i looked like i've fallen out of love but well, that's not the case. Emptiness might be part of the reason but not all. Anyway, really wanna thank Chris for everything. And this opportunity to do this job.

Hui Mui left me a comment again... It's really nice to have such friend who never call me but in some ways, kept track of wad's going on with me. I miss the team a lot. I think i'll go down for training on Tues coz i'm not working on Monday and working at 3pm on tues, so Hui Mui, be prepared to welcome me back hor! Hee~ I miss netball too... I haven't touch the ball for a long long time. I guess i've lost touch on it le. Sad to say that...

Dreamt of Chris, Ivan, Xueting and Ling Hui yesterday. Y? Heh hEh! Dunnoe... Miss them too much maybe... Hai...

Firdaus called me just now just to say Hello. He actually wanted to meet up with me but well, i'm at work. I miss him too... Afterall, he's one guy who played a part in my life. Amin just asked bout him yesterday and he called me today...

Well, my mood is still quite at the bottom but it's too obvious already. I'm trying to keep the spirit up a little to avoid any worries or any other things from other. I'll try my best to be the best of me for the next few days...

Lau is sick... Feel so sorry for him. Work so hard and now, he fell sick. Hope he gets well soon...

I'm trying to... But no promises...

Unable to smile...

I haven't been in an exactly good mood the last few days. For some reasons, i've been feeling rather down. I really dunno wad is it that is bothering me so much.

On Wednesday, i went up to do service with Siqi, nothing seemed to be a problem, we didn't do badly together, and we do compromise as well. However, something was lacking, not in our partnership but something is lacking within myself. I was feeling kind of tensed up there. While standing at one side during one of those rare free times, Chris suddenly approached me and said, "Apple, wad happen to u these few days, u dun look good, u r not smiling..." I looked at him with a stunned look. 1st of all, i didn't know he was noticing so much, 2nd of all, i didn't know my feeling down looked so obvious in his eyes or perharps in many, it's just that they dun wanna say so. So i smiled to him and told him, i'm ok... There's plenty of things to tell him if i want to but somehow i chose not to coz the outcome is still the same.

I stopped talking to Chris and Lau last few days, i tried to avoid long conversations with them, i dun wanna stir any anger in them or in any ways say any wrong things, dunnoe y i'm doing so though, i'm just doing it. I'm trying to keep my distance from them, for wad? i dunnoe.

Ivan came today and i was stunned coz he's not wearing suit. I thought who is so bold as to sit on his chair and used his computer, then i realised it's him lah... K, i kind of miss having him in the office, coz at least he's the only one who i can joke around with and wun be afraid of saying the wrong, no politics to hide from him. But well, having him in the Office can be quite difficult to work too...

Anyway, i do appreciate everyone's concern bout my not laughing and smiling enough, probably not at work, smiling used to be my forte but nowadays, it's hard to bring my smile out. That's wad i told Chris too...probably coz i'm leaving or perharps, coz i'm starting school or maybe coz i'm growing up a little bit too fast...Probably, Perharps, Maybe... Nothing is definite at this point for me. I just know, i'll missed everything...

I am disappointed somehow with pple's performance... But then i told myself not to care anymore... Maybe this is y it's hurting me too... However, i did not restrain myself from trying to work things out. Sad to say, nothing is going right... I'm losing it once more... Soon, it'll be gone and i hope a new system will come and made things better in future.

I wonder wad is 2kor doing now... He must be complaining to himself bout he's BOTA hair... Hee~ Hopefully the 1st day has been good for him...

CiAo!

HahA!!!

Today, nothing makes me laugh except for this e-mail... Ermm... It's sent by bt kor so i went to play it and ha, it's a prank... After the mail, i laugh like crazy... K, some of my friends will receive it, and then u'll know the funny part... HAHA!!!!

PS: Bt kor, dun tell anyone who my crushes are O!!!! HAHA!!!! Crap!

Stuck...

Hai... Just now, i went to arranged my things... Very sad u know. I've done so many times of arrangement, yet each time i got so many things to throw away. It's so frustrating... Things are just accumulating and accumulating... There are things that i can't bear to throw away. For example, some old soft toys given as BD present over the years by different pple, also, all the photo frames as well... And of coz, the worksheets, books and files...

While going through them, a lot of feelings came... I mean, afterall, those stuff were wad i did everyday before. Written by myself, all the inks... I kept a file of my compos... Not gonna throw them away. Those inspirations came at the moment when i've written it, i'm not gonna throw them away just like that. Also, i kept some D&T papers too... Hee~ I saw all the drawings went from bad to good... HAHA! Kind of miss school again. Miss all the mugging we had. All the scoldings we got. All the little little things that happened. Sad to depart from those naive days, dun really wanna grow up that fast. Can time just turned back a little while, and let me feel wad i felt b4? Last night, i was going through some old pics and they brought me back to those times. Felt so real, yet so far... Hai...

Well, i guess all these are inevitable. Time goes on and on and so does life. Year by year i grew up and at every stage i learnt different things, find a different me, but none can change the fact of life. Still, i'm gonna move on, no matter how hard it is to depart or how hard it is to face the real world, that's wad we gotta go thru. At least i tried to make the best out of everything i do, that's the most important part.

I haven't give myself much time to think bout when to leave OHS. It's the 7th today, wonder which day is good enough to leave... Time to give some deep thoughts bout it. I suppose it wun be easy leaving a place that i've spent so much time in and learnt so many things from, but well, unless i wanna forever stay there, if not, i gotta go... Let's just make it another fond memory bah..

Ermm.... There is so many things that i wanna talk bout but i dunnoe where to begin. Feel very uneasy in my chest, wad is that thing that is bothering me? I seriously dunnoe. Mood swing again? Hee~ No... That's not it, i just feel very uncomfortable having things stuck in myself but i dunnoe wad exactly is it. Damn...

Well, when i figure out wad is that in me, probably i'll tell you.

HAI!!!! MISS SCHOOL SO MUCH!!!!!! BYE HILLGROVE!!!!!

Sometimes when u see the sunset, u'll feel sad. Why? That's because it's the end of the day...

Nah... I changed my mind... Nothing much to blog.

Here's something to share... I got into Ngee Ann Poly, Tourism and Resort management... Hee~ Quite Happy cos i managed to get into the course that i want and also, it's my 1st choice. However, up till now, no one is in the same course as me yet. However, there are some who are in the same school as me. Most of my classmates actually went into Np as well.. This is one of the parts which i'm really happy about. We moved on, taking the same steps...

Right, i took off on thurs and went to Sentosa to tan with ting and Hui... Hee~ Never actually gone to a beach and lie down and tan like that, that was the 1st time. Then, i went down the water and felt the coldness and the breeze... HAHA!!! It was great to actually do that once in a blue moon. B4 washing up, we saw this very cute Japanese Boy Boy.. Hee~ He was building sand castle so we helped him and played with him. He's so cute, got small eyes like mine... HahA!!! Took pics of him.. HAHA!!! Then, we went to Marina and eat Long John.. Afterwhich, shopped around for a while and then went to somewhere's starbucks... Wah lao, my 1st try on Passion tea.. It's so sour... Not my type of tea...

The next day, went to work totally burnt... HAHA!!! So funny, i was like so red that pple thought i drink or wad... Then, my boss said i looked like chimpanzee which i dun really get wad he means... Then, i kind of distracted everyone during briefing with my burning face... HAHA!!! So funny... See the expression on everyone's face... Hee~ It's common though, just that my face is slightly more reddish than b4... HAHA!!!

Lau was in a very good mood that day... He kind of talked to me about a lot of things and stretched towards his personal life and all... I find it weird for him to be telling me all these... But, well, there's not many pple that he can talk to bout all it... And well, i'm leaving soon, so no harm letting me know. Not gonna review any of the details to anyone, his life... respect...

K, so i was very stunned with Jessica's recommendation on who should take up the coordinator's job. I really dunno wad to say lah and seriously, my gut feeling is telling me that Chris will definitely bring her in. Well, if that's wad they need, i can't really object to anything. Sometimes, i'm angry for the fact that pple dun even ask me for opinions just coz i'm leaving soon, but soon doesn't mean now, at least let me know and hear my opinion lor... Well, since it had already been said, i guess i can't do anything anymore, god bless them... Seriously, i'm not going back if that really happens... However, that's not the main reason lah... It's just that i'm sick of everything there. I wanna take a break from Orchard Hotel, but of coz, i'm still very much attached to it.. Well, time will drift us apart...

Many things that i've done well and many that i've made mistakes, they're all done in OHS. No regrets stepping in, no regrets stepping out either. i've met a lot of friends that i really treasure and will never forget. Somehow, OHS will become just another memory of mine...

Si En said something yesterday, she said, "Dun worry, if u wanna go, the leave without looking back, Xiao Sa yi Dian..." I was shocked that she told me that but that's the truth.. Xiao Sa yi dian...

Everything is coming to an end. I'm embarking on the next phase of my life soon. I'm ready and set to go further...

Well, i'm off the next 2 days. A lot of time will be spent on cleaning my area, completing some files to handover to the next whoever-it-will-be coordinator and also for Jessica to look through. She's still very not clear on wad is going on. Minor stuff can be forgiven. I need her to look into things more rather than looking at the surface and do. Gosh.... Sounds like yet another difficult task. I really dunnoe y i always gotta do all these. On the other hand, i am learning more than other pple... i should count myself lucky... :)

K, i need to go help Ivan find his songs liao... CiAo Pple...

Life is not as good as before... It has taken a toll on me...

Ta Da!

I got lots to blog bout... Tml? hee~ Night....