Heh HeH HeH HeH HEH!!! Couldn't sleep last night coz of the HEAT! GoSh... I took off my pants to sleep again... However, the warmness just dun wanna go... Hai... So at around 2am, i cannot stand it, i took my mattress, went to my parents' room to sleep... HAHA!!! So cool with the air-con, and i fell into my dreamland from then on...
Woke up early in the morning and felt really tired but still gotta go school for the IMF briefing... Such trouble... Met up with Val and went to change up... Sickening... Still need to wear and all... Gave us all talks then the mock-up of the different stations. Told us to hold trays with 4 glasses of juices and walked the stairs... gOSh... Not a big problem... Need to act in front of everyone, quite a problem... Hai... Was very sian and i was very hungry... So i lun until everything finished. Then i purposely dun wanna work on the 1st of sep coz i wanna go OHS to work... Instead working 7am on the 2nd of sep... HAHA!!!! I am so cunning... Heh HeH!!! 2plus we were dismissed and i rushed off like nobody's business coz i cannot stand the coldness of the LT. I forgot all bout cancelling the cruise trip... Heh HeH!!! Dun really wanna go for the cruise trip coz i was thinking 300 really expensive and i need to work 3 4 days just to earn for it.... And really afraid it would end up like the previous camp. So ya, Miss Ng says she wanna call me tmr... Hope i'll be free to pick up her call coz i'm working tml... GoSh...
Ooo... Was busy organising the chalet thingy... So BUSY! I called the Downtown eAst resort and waited so long for someone to pick up the call, in the end, cannot book by calling... Sickening Lah... Kk, so i got a bit angry lah, came online but realised i dun have credit card to pay online, in the end i still need to go AXS to book and pay, wad CRAP! ASs... See lah, 1st time organising... So Sickening... Anyway, got a short list of pple going to the chalet le... SO HAPPY!!! Hope they wouldn't tell me last minute that they dun wanna come... NO... I must trust MY ex CLASSMATES!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! I believe their words, hope i wun get heartbroken... Hee~ Great, must go divide cost le...
Ooooo... Funny Smses from Darl... So funny LAh... He acts like a kid when he's so oLD liao... Cannot stand him some time... HahAhA!!!
Richard very Scary today again... BUT that is pretty true for SERVICE excellence... Heh heH!!! WAd The...
I spent a lot of money these 2 days... Very sad... No cash in Wallet, spent over my limit in my account... ARgH...
Spent on:
1. Foot reflexology $26
2. Levis Sneakers $59.90
3. Long Sleeve LP zone Tee $9
4. Black long pants for IMF $14.90
5. 40 pockets clear folder $4.90
6. White formal shirt OSMOSE $29
7. Army Tee $4
8. Pizza Hut Pasta $14plus
9. KFC 2piece Chicken meal(Shared with Dear) $3
10. Tang Yuan $1.50
Total amount spent last 3 days: $167.70
Things i NEED to BUY:
1. Eyeliner (RUNNING OUT) $7.90
2. Perfume (RUNNING LOW) Need to get Cheap de
Things I WANT to BUY:
1. Levis Specs approximately $200
2. Guess Belt $99
3. Handphone
OOO Handphone will be between WANT and NEED coz my HP a bit crazy recently... ArgH... Spoiling!!! SO SAD!!! So Expensive... OMG!!!!
Cannot stand the financial i'm giving myself at 18 years of age.. HA! I can do away with the Specs and the perfume i think and just use the old specs till school bout to open and get a deodrant instead of perfume. Also, dun buy the belt... ermm... Should think bout it...
Kk... Working tml at 11am, thurs at 11am, fri at 6pm, sat at 7am... GoSh... Need to get up early to AXS to book the chalet tmr... HAi... Wonder can i ask Yuting to go do it not... Coz it's so rush tmr... AiyO... LuAn!
Kk.. Go prepare some work stuff then gonna turn in le... NiGht PplE!
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Tired... Dun talk so Much...
Ermm... After yesterday's tiring day out, planned to stay home and rest. However, i didn't. Initially thinking of going to JB but after some long thoughts, decided not to. So, dear and i planned to go eat tang yuan at clementi. Heh HEh! So, ya went out today to eat tang yuan and walked around the area.
I spent more than a hundred bucks today, which I MUST earned back coz my bank account dun look good at all. Hee~ K, i bought my black long pants for the IMF thingy, a shirt from LP zone, a 40-pockets clear folder, facial mask, facial foam and most importantly, LEVIS sneakers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So HAPPY!!! HAHA!!! Instead of getting a converse, i got levis, pretty OK... HAHA!!! Worth it.. But that's about $60 lah.. HEh HeH!!!
Oo... After a couple of hours walking round clementi, Dear and i decided to go for foot reflexology. Wanted to find cheap ones at clementi but dun have, only got a lot of salons. Went to westmall, checked the price, it is $26... Hee~ So ya, the 2 of us just walked in and have our feets massaged... SO COOL.. Painful at some places though. The guy was telling me that my neck and shoulder not very good, bladder as well and said that i dun sleep early. HAHA!!! Neck and shoulder plus dun sleep early is true. For the bladder, not very sure lor... Anyway, after 40min of massaging, i was feeling very sleepy liao... HAhA!!! So SHu Fu... Heh HEh!!! Wanna go again... Hee~~~
YaYA... I'm memorising the IMF menus now which kind of sux... I dun wanna memorise le... I only rmbed the 1st menu. Forget bout the rest. Not happy, dun hire me lor!
Hee~ Tmr got no money to take but have to go training, should have just go OHS work... Hai...
As the night draws closer to me, I felt your presence... That presence long gone from me... No idea where should I begin the story, don't even have an idea where it ended, in just that split second, you took my heart away... I tried so hard to push you aside but just like a spring, you'd sprung right back to my mind. Feel like hugging you again... Feel like kissing you right on your lips again. Perhaps I can... But will they feel the same again? Gone are the the days when I smiled along with you, when I know your smiles were because of me, when my smiles were because of you... They're all gone... Enclosed in the cruel diary of life... 想念你的拥抱，思念一切的美妙...
I spent more than a hundred bucks today, which I MUST earned back coz my bank account dun look good at all. Hee~ K, i bought my black long pants for the IMF thingy, a shirt from LP zone, a 40-pockets clear folder, facial mask, facial foam and most importantly, LEVIS sneakers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So HAPPY!!! HAHA!!! Instead of getting a converse, i got levis, pretty OK... HAHA!!! Worth it.. But that's about $60 lah.. HEh HeH!!!
Oo... After a couple of hours walking round clementi, Dear and i decided to go for foot reflexology. Wanted to find cheap ones at clementi but dun have, only got a lot of salons. Went to westmall, checked the price, it is $26... Hee~ So ya, the 2 of us just walked in and have our feets massaged... SO COOL.. Painful at some places though. The guy was telling me that my neck and shoulder not very good, bladder as well and said that i dun sleep early. HAHA!!! Neck and shoulder plus dun sleep early is true. For the bladder, not very sure lor... Anyway, after 40min of massaging, i was feeling very sleepy liao... HAhA!!! So SHu Fu... Heh HEh!!! Wanna go again... Hee~~~
YaYA... I'm memorising the IMF menus now which kind of sux... I dun wanna memorise le... I only rmbed the 1st menu. Forget bout the rest. Not happy, dun hire me lor!
Hee~ Tmr got no money to take but have to go training, should have just go OHS work... Hai...
As the night draws closer to me, I felt your presence... That presence long gone from me... No idea where should I begin the story, don't even have an idea where it ended, in just that split second, you took my heart away... I tried so hard to push you aside but just like a spring, you'd sprung right back to my mind. Feel like hugging you again... Feel like kissing you right on your lips again. Perhaps I can... But will they feel the same again? Gone are the the days when I smiled along with you, when I know your smiles were because of me, when my smiles were because of you... They're all gone... Enclosed in the cruel diary of life... 想念你的拥抱，思念一切的美妙...
Monday, August 28, 2006
Long bLog... Make it till The END!!!
It's not that i dun wanna blog these couple of days, the days were just too packed for me to even log on to internet. Do u know how much i wanted to annouce the exam is over???? But i rushed to work after exam on friday... Irritating Honey... Anyway, i still wanna say it now, EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IT'S HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY!!!!!
K, on friday, after exam, i checked my phone, had a missed call, it was Honey, so i called him back and asked him wad happened? He said i was supposed to work 12pm on friday! I'm like, "Huh? I just came out from my last paper leh..." K, he was saying they didn't inform me or something and asked me to rush down to orchard at 4plus. Then need to go for the LV study trip cum IMF briefing. Took up bout half an hour of the time. Rushed back home and took a cab down to Orchard. Crap lah, $12 trip u KNOW! ASS! SO angry... Haven't felt that kind of rush for a while le.
Reached OHS, 1st person i saw, SISTER!!! HAHA! SO happy can work with her and Dear... HEh HEh! That day was OHS own D&D... GoSh... DO u know how freaking scary it was to serve the own staff when we cannot offend these pple coz they all work at the same place and it'd be a great task to ask for any favour if we offend them. Crap... It was a good thing i'm just serving drinks and it was a buffet dinner. Our own staff are there too... Banquet department is by far the most hyper pple i guess... U know the whole team kept going "YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!" And the MC was asking, "Wah lao, who's wedding HUh?" PPle actually replied that it was Lau's when Lau got married earlier this year... HAHA!!! Most of them got dead drunk... It was a really tiring day. There were only less than 10 staff there to clear more than 30 tables... OMG!!! And it's Ballroom 2 and 3... 2 ballrooms ok... We were walking and clearing like nobody's business... Gosh... And dunnoe y they dun put 3 deck trolley at the back lane so we can clear there instead of we GIRLS carrying oval tray again and again... Until the end of the night... 11pm...
Cannot stand the tiredness... And our banquet coordinatorS got drunk and none can do their job of giving us the voucher, so i helped Xueni bring down to the staff... Hai...
After changing and all, Dear, ting and i went to Mac to have our supper, which was in fact my lunch and dinner... It's only under this kind of circumstances that i will starve myself willingly. HAHA!!!
Reached home, concussed...
Next morning, couldn't get up, idiot dear, asked her to call me but she didn't, in the end, i gotta rushed like crazy and go meet her at gombak mrt station. Was really tired i can bearly feel my feet. However, still dragged ourselves all the way to Sentosa... Cannot make it...
Coincidentally, some of my course mates were working for Siam Kitchen as well, it is part of Creative eateries of course. I thought the standards was very high, in the end, i was not any better. HAHA!!! Probably coz it was outside catering bah, and was on the beach so ya... Anyway, the tiredness sets in around 1plus... My feet started to lost feelings, and felt like floating.. HAHA!!! And it was so stuffy and pple could dehydrate at any moment, and that was the reason y i kept stuffing myself with ice water which i think turned into sweat later coz i really didn't feel any urgency for toilet. GoSh... 4pm arrived, and slowly 5pm arrive, got our pay and off we went. Dear was talking her craps as usual and the other 2 guys and myself were busy entertaining her... We rested on the bus on the way back to harboufront, when i think i fell asleep a little with Dear on my shoulder. It was at that time when Lex took our "sleeping beauties" pic... Sickening...
So, we went to the shopping mall in search of food although Dear was pretty much unhappy with the "person" who seems like storking us... HAHA!!! SO funny... We went to one place and they were right behind us... Heh HeH! Until we finally agreed to eat Pastamania with MArcus and lex. K, and it was at that time that somehow the Lex brother thingy came along which laughed the hell out of us. HA! Quite embarassing though... It's afterall, me, they were laughing bout... DOtS... Ok, Who's MArcus and LeX? Marcus is Melissa's 11years friend, who happened to work in OHS b4, who i am supposed to know but in reality, no, i dun. However, on first glance, he resembles Wei Yi which then linked him to Mad... HAHA!!!! FunnY ar... As for Lex, his name is Alex, but they all call him Lex, and he is Marcus' friend. Ya, that's bout the introduction part. Doubt i'll go work like that again... Can't sit down, legs died off for a moment. HAHA!!!
Went to get Darl's comic for him at Westmall, where i met Terry tan's friend who i forgot his name. He's so funny lah, he saw me twice and didn't see me, and we were at such close proximity and the third time he dawned that i am who he thought i am. HAHA!!! So, said Bye to him when i reached lvl4. The shop keeper actually thought i work in VK, she asked, "This comic is the Eddie from the salon right? Does YOUR salon open on weekends?" I was like, "Ermm... Yes, THEIR salon is open on weekends.." I passed her the namecard that i took from VK the other day... So funny... I laughed a bit... Heh hEh!!!
Went down, waited for Darl to drive in... I walked, walked, and tripped... HEH! But didn't fall lah, good thing nobody saw it.. Hee~ Then he drove in, went onto his car and i told him i very tired, he also say he very tired so drove a bit, he drove me back. He changed his engine to original one so there's no VOOM VOOM sound... So funny, the way he described it. Actually i didn't noticed coz i was too tired. Then wad happened the other day happened again, fancy having 2 legs out of the car and yet i was still that vulnerable but good thing it wasn't as deep as b4... GoSh... Dun dare to take his car liao... Heh Heh!!!
Anyway, i laid on the settee and fell asleep, 10pm, went into my room and fell head on till the next morning until Ting smsed me to go out... YAYa, met up with them at around 3pm and went to beach road. Ermmm... Didn't buy anything much, just a tee... Heh... An ARMY tee... So nice, it's $4 only u know... Cool... kk, then we walked, wanted to go bugis in the 1st place, but decided to go my house to cook again, but then my brother is at home then decided to go CCK, then batok for a pasta... HAHA!! FUnny... Was a tiring day walking around but a good day meeting up with Hui and ting... Haven't met up with Hui for very long le... Glad to see her... AlIVe and Kicking... HAHA!!!!
Grabbed an alcohol, headed home... Came online ya, blogging now...
Darl asked me to go JB which seems ridiculous for me to go alone to custom to wait for him although i did consider a bit... But now after much pondering, guess not lah... Some more going to his house.. HAHA!!! Got rape HOW?! HAHA!!!! KIDDING!!!
K, a little bit tired le... Wanna go slack a bit then sleep liao.. O, can't need to wait for Darl to call then tell him i going not.. Hai.. must wait.. If he never call hor, i will kill hIM! HAHA!!!
Btw, i'm drinking Sangria now... Which is quite nice... Hee~ Not for kids under 18. Yes, i proud that i'm 18 already!!! HAHA!!!
I guess feelings will just fade away gradually when another come into my life... I guess you wouldn't love me anymore when another comes by too... Afterall, I am not that special. I am just a normal girl who happen to step into your life at the wrong time, as the wrong person, with the wrong intention and in the end, the wrong outcome. It is not like you cannot find another just like me or better than me or perhaps, you don't even have to find... You already got one... Sometimes I just can't resist what you say to me, I think I will never know those were true or not or just something you want to say to make me feel better or just... or just... Perhaps words with no meaning? Maybe... How I wish I can forget about you... The man I truely love... “你可以不爱我， 但是我还是爱你的...” That's what he said...
K, on friday, after exam, i checked my phone, had a missed call, it was Honey, so i called him back and asked him wad happened? He said i was supposed to work 12pm on friday! I'm like, "Huh? I just came out from my last paper leh..." K, he was saying they didn't inform me or something and asked me to rush down to orchard at 4plus. Then need to go for the LV study trip cum IMF briefing. Took up bout half an hour of the time. Rushed back home and took a cab down to Orchard. Crap lah, $12 trip u KNOW! ASS! SO angry... Haven't felt that kind of rush for a while le.
Reached OHS, 1st person i saw, SISTER!!! HAHA! SO happy can work with her and Dear... HEh HEh! That day was OHS own D&D... GoSh... DO u know how freaking scary it was to serve the own staff when we cannot offend these pple coz they all work at the same place and it'd be a great task to ask for any favour if we offend them. Crap... It was a good thing i'm just serving drinks and it was a buffet dinner. Our own staff are there too... Banquet department is by far the most hyper pple i guess... U know the whole team kept going "YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!" And the MC was asking, "Wah lao, who's wedding HUh?" PPle actually replied that it was Lau's when Lau got married earlier this year... HAHA!!! Most of them got dead drunk... It was a really tiring day. There were only less than 10 staff there to clear more than 30 tables... OMG!!! And it's Ballroom 2 and 3... 2 ballrooms ok... We were walking and clearing like nobody's business... Gosh... And dunnoe y they dun put 3 deck trolley at the back lane so we can clear there instead of we GIRLS carrying oval tray again and again... Until the end of the night... 11pm...
Cannot stand the tiredness... And our banquet coordinatorS got drunk and none can do their job of giving us the voucher, so i helped Xueni bring down to the staff... Hai...
After changing and all, Dear, ting and i went to Mac to have our supper, which was in fact my lunch and dinner... It's only under this kind of circumstances that i will starve myself willingly. HAHA!!!
Reached home, concussed...
Next morning, couldn't get up, idiot dear, asked her to call me but she didn't, in the end, i gotta rushed like crazy and go meet her at gombak mrt station. Was really tired i can bearly feel my feet. However, still dragged ourselves all the way to Sentosa... Cannot make it...
Coincidentally, some of my course mates were working for Siam Kitchen as well, it is part of Creative eateries of course. I thought the standards was very high, in the end, i was not any better. HAHA!!! Probably coz it was outside catering bah, and was on the beach so ya... Anyway, the tiredness sets in around 1plus... My feet started to lost feelings, and felt like floating.. HAHA!!! And it was so stuffy and pple could dehydrate at any moment, and that was the reason y i kept stuffing myself with ice water which i think turned into sweat later coz i really didn't feel any urgency for toilet. GoSh... 4pm arrived, and slowly 5pm arrive, got our pay and off we went. Dear was talking her craps as usual and the other 2 guys and myself were busy entertaining her... We rested on the bus on the way back to harboufront, when i think i fell asleep a little with Dear on my shoulder. It was at that time when Lex took our "sleeping beauties" pic... Sickening...
So, we went to the shopping mall in search of food although Dear was pretty much unhappy with the "person" who seems like storking us... HAHA!!! SO funny... We went to one place and they were right behind us... Heh HeH! Until we finally agreed to eat Pastamania with MArcus and lex. K, and it was at that time that somehow the Lex brother thingy came along which laughed the hell out of us. HA! Quite embarassing though... It's afterall, me, they were laughing bout... DOtS... Ok, Who's MArcus and LeX? Marcus is Melissa's 11years friend, who happened to work in OHS b4, who i am supposed to know but in reality, no, i dun. However, on first glance, he resembles Wei Yi which then linked him to Mad... HAHA!!!! FunnY ar... As for Lex, his name is Alex, but they all call him Lex, and he is Marcus' friend. Ya, that's bout the introduction part. Doubt i'll go work like that again... Can't sit down, legs died off for a moment. HAHA!!!
Went to get Darl's comic for him at Westmall, where i met Terry tan's friend who i forgot his name. He's so funny lah, he saw me twice and didn't see me, and we were at such close proximity and the third time he dawned that i am who he thought i am. HAHA!!! So, said Bye to him when i reached lvl4. The shop keeper actually thought i work in VK, she asked, "This comic is the Eddie from the salon right? Does YOUR salon open on weekends?" I was like, "Ermm... Yes, THEIR salon is open on weekends.." I passed her the namecard that i took from VK the other day... So funny... I laughed a bit... Heh hEh!!!
Went down, waited for Darl to drive in... I walked, walked, and tripped... HEH! But didn't fall lah, good thing nobody saw it.. Hee~ Then he drove in, went onto his car and i told him i very tired, he also say he very tired so drove a bit, he drove me back. He changed his engine to original one so there's no VOOM VOOM sound... So funny, the way he described it. Actually i didn't noticed coz i was too tired. Then wad happened the other day happened again, fancy having 2 legs out of the car and yet i was still that vulnerable but good thing it wasn't as deep as b4... GoSh... Dun dare to take his car liao... Heh Heh!!!
Anyway, i laid on the settee and fell asleep, 10pm, went into my room and fell head on till the next morning until Ting smsed me to go out... YAYa, met up with them at around 3pm and went to beach road. Ermmm... Didn't buy anything much, just a tee... Heh... An ARMY tee... So nice, it's $4 only u know... Cool... kk, then we walked, wanted to go bugis in the 1st place, but decided to go my house to cook again, but then my brother is at home then decided to go CCK, then batok for a pasta... HAHA!! FUnny... Was a tiring day walking around but a good day meeting up with Hui and ting... Haven't met up with Hui for very long le... Glad to see her... AlIVe and Kicking... HAHA!!!!
Grabbed an alcohol, headed home... Came online ya, blogging now...
Darl asked me to go JB which seems ridiculous for me to go alone to custom to wait for him although i did consider a bit... But now after much pondering, guess not lah... Some more going to his house.. HAHA!!! Got rape HOW?! HAHA!!!! KIDDING!!!
K, a little bit tired le... Wanna go slack a bit then sleep liao.. O, can't need to wait for Darl to call then tell him i going not.. Hai.. must wait.. If he never call hor, i will kill hIM! HAHA!!!
Btw, i'm drinking Sangria now... Which is quite nice... Hee~ Not for kids under 18. Yes, i proud that i'm 18 already!!! HAHA!!!
I guess feelings will just fade away gradually when another come into my life... I guess you wouldn't love me anymore when another comes by too... Afterall, I am not that special. I am just a normal girl who happen to step into your life at the wrong time, as the wrong person, with the wrong intention and in the end, the wrong outcome. It is not like you cannot find another just like me or better than me or perhaps, you don't even have to find... You already got one... Sometimes I just can't resist what you say to me, I think I will never know those were true or not or just something you want to say to make me feel better or just... or just... Perhaps words with no meaning? Maybe... How I wish I can forget about you... The man I truely love... “你可以不爱我， 但是我还是爱你的...” That's what he said...
Friday, August 25, 2006
Busy bUsy BuSy...
Will be taking the last paper tmr... Gosh... We're like the only ones who have paper tmr... All my friends from other courses seemed to have all completed their papers but i'm still struggling. Anyway, ITR paper is one of the papers that i am most confident of... Hoping it wun be any tougher. HAHA!!! Of coz, the happiest thing is that it's the last paper...
Gotta stayed back tmr after the paper for some briefing bout some Las Vegas study trip. I think travelling is the only benefit of TRM... HAHAH!!!! Sin City!!!
Oo.. In the blog that was errored and deleted last night, i mentioned the dates that i'm gonna be UN-free!!!!
29th 1st 2nd 16th 17th 18th 21st: IMF briefing, training, working
7th: Maybe going to see sunrise with Dear(MAYBE!)
9th: Booked by Bt kor and Dear
10th: Booked by Darl for the hair thingy
30th or 31st: visit HGV for teachers' day
3 days of the last week of sept: 5A1(2005) chalet which i haven't got time to book...
See how busy the days are? HAHA! I'll still work, earn money buy HP, buy specs, buy belt, buy sneakers, buy lots of clothes... HAHA!!! SPendthriFt, ME!!!!
I was really tired today, wasn't exactly in the best mood. Have been having sleeps full of dreams. It's like everytime i fell asleep, i'll dream of something or somebody... List of people that i dreamt of recently:
- Billy, CHung Ee together with 5a1 people
- Some unknown people in my house
- Eddie Hoo and my MaMa
Surprisingly, no dear in my dream... HAhA!!! She just told me my surname is LIM! Coz i married her, so ya, call me Mrs LIM!!! HAHA!!! Wad CrAp!
Finally, I am able to start stopping... Happy? No... Sad? No... Emotions shall stop taking me over...
Gotta stayed back tmr after the paper for some briefing bout some Las Vegas study trip. I think travelling is the only benefit of TRM... HAHAH!!!! Sin City!!!
Oo.. In the blog that was errored and deleted last night, i mentioned the dates that i'm gonna be UN-free!!!!
29th 1st 2nd 16th 17th 18th 21st: IMF briefing, training, working
7th: Maybe going to see sunrise with Dear(MAYBE!)
9th: Booked by Bt kor and Dear
10th: Booked by Darl for the hair thingy
30th or 31st: visit HGV for teachers' day
3 days of the last week of sept: 5A1(2005) chalet which i haven't got time to book...
See how busy the days are? HAHA! I'll still work, earn money buy HP, buy specs, buy belt, buy sneakers, buy lots of clothes... HAHA!!! SPendthriFt, ME!!!!
I was really tired today, wasn't exactly in the best mood. Have been having sleeps full of dreams. It's like everytime i fell asleep, i'll dream of something or somebody... List of people that i dreamt of recently:
- Billy, CHung Ee together with 5a1 people
- Some unknown people in my house
- Eddie Hoo and my MaMa
Surprisingly, no dear in my dream... HAhA!!! She just told me my surname is LIM! Coz i married her, so ya, call me Mrs LIM!!! HAHA!!! Wad CrAp!
Finally, I am able to start stopping... Happy? No... Sad? No... Emotions shall stop taking me over...
I DID!
Who says i never blog? I typed a whole good passage to post last night but some freaking connection problem deleted everything... So i was tired and pissed. Decided to forget about it.
Wadever, just forget bout wad happened yesterday, actually nothing much happened. MamA brought me to bai bai then came home and study le.. Somthing happened lah, but nah, lazy to type it out...
Well, BSTA paper is tough... So tough... Ok, my stats aren't good at all so it's natural for it to be tough. Hope can pass... Hai Hai...
One last paper tmr... FINALLY!!!!
Wanna go rest then study le... CyA!
Wadever, just forget bout wad happened yesterday, actually nothing much happened. MamA brought me to bai bai then came home and study le.. Somthing happened lah, but nah, lazy to type it out...
Well, BSTA paper is tough... So tough... Ok, my stats aren't good at all so it's natural for it to be tough. Hope can pass... Hai Hai...
One last paper tmr... FINALLY!!!!
Wanna go rest then study le... CyA!
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
A recovery so hard...
Well, i guess i should get over everything? Sudden surge of pressure came over me last night although i believe that it will come back again later on or tomorrow when i feel that i haven't prepared much. It's just the lack of confident and the disappearance of my pillar of support which used to be the whole 5A1 class, the different teachers and definitely myself. Well, i should face up to the fact that those were the past and i should start to slowly build up those pillars again. Slowly, bit by bit...
Went to school today and i was fortunate enough to find a table of empty seats at the atrium, so i waited for the rest to join us. Out of no where, this malay girl just sat down in front of me without even asking, Hello, politeness please, at least give some gesture that u wanna sit on a place where someone was. Am i invisible??? Then, her friend came, sat down next to her, and she looked at me like i'm some sort of weirdo... I was so pissed off oK... Then came another friend, and guess wad, none asked b4 they sat down. I was there 1st ok? Not that i'm being juvenile to compete for who came 1st or anything but at least have the courtesy to ask b4 u sit down. I was so pissed u know... I stared at the 3 of them so many times and they just looked at me like i was the one who came after them. OMG! So pissed, so i just stood up and walk away with a real pissed face... SO IMPOLITE... PiSsed...
Anyway, CIP paper is over, man, am i glad it's over. Well, not that confident with all the answers but i know the answers are somewhere there... No worries, will be able to pass this paper... Yup... The upcoming one will be tough... BSTA paper... Hai.. Jia You i guess...
Well, i woke up this morning and i looked into the mirror and realised my hair looks so ugly... Hai... Like i'm so dependent on rebonding... HA! Well, maybe a change of hairstyle is a good idea. Anticipating the 10th of Sept. However, want it earlier... Hai... Darl described to me, that he will be test on, cutting, washing, perming... If i'm not wrong that's it. He's so excited bout making my hair curl while i'm just excited bout cutting my hair. HAHA!!! But he said if i dun like the perm, he'll do the rebond back for me... Hope he holds onto his words... Ha! Oooo... He wanna give me a bread which Andy bought just now but i refused to take. Like hello, stop stuffing pastries to me, they're all flours... GoSh... And i begged NO NO NO for like so long, and he kept grabbing my bag and grabbing my hand, so i shouted for mad's help but mad just said, "i can't see anything" Idiot... HA!!! VK got new name card again, yaya, that's the one that Richard asked me to comment on the other time... Ya... Looks Ok... HAHA!!! But i still like the 1st one that i grabbed onto... Classic...
Anyway, i left after Richard came back from his relaxation. So beat after all the thoughts i had last night and the lackof sleep...
Sometimes, i really feel like walking away from everything... Leave home?HA! But where can i live? Singapore is so small, i can be found within 2,3 days... Ha! That is if i really run away from home which is another "ridiculous" and impossible thing to say... Wadever... I guess after all my thinking, reflection or wadever u wanna call it, i'm still myself. A part of this life with my family and friends.
I found myself trapped in a maze that I single-handedly create myself... At first, I know u were there to guide me through, even if I am lost, I know you will be there, by my side to overcome every single obstacle with me but all of a sudden, without warning, u walked away, and left me wondering in the dark dark world. I can't seem to find the way out of it, not without your hand, not without your smiles... Y must u walk off? Even the rain shows that it is subsiding... Y didn't you show me anything?
Even when it's all over, u told me u cannot let me go... You dun wanna stop your touches on me. You do not wanna put a halt to everything. You told me how much u miss me, u told me u want me to be by your side, you kissed me ever so deeply...
How to just make you my friend again? Why does my heart follows u but my mind follows the truth? Are u such a sensation that mesmerized my heart with all of you... How come I still feel you? Friend... Can I make you my friend at all?
对自己的承诺， 因为你都破裂了... 放手的那一刻， 我告诉自己要学着放弃。但放了手却不代表放弃你... 每一天都在一点， 一点地放松。直到今天， 我发现， 放走的只是对你的思念而不是对你的爱... 说要放弃却发现， 一点儿也放弃不了... 放手只是不想你难做， 放手只是让自己觉得已经没有再伤害别人， 你， 和自己。 虽然已没常见面但感觉依然存在，仍期盼下一次的见面， 但下次却可能只有在梦里... 看到手机里的每一句词，感受到从一开始的甜蜜，到最后的一句, 还以为就如此停止了， 没想到却持续到如今离人之间延续的暧昧... 说我不想你， 只是在怜悯自己， 因为我知道心里从未忘了你替我寻回的笑容与给我的爱... 没了你真的好像没了自己...
我们是否还在欺骗自己？是我们都放不了吗？还是我们只想一直继续这场没有结局的游戏？
你对我说过：“放弃？ 让它随风而逝？ 继续？ 让时间证明一切？” 我回答：“放弃？真的能随风而去？ 继续？ 寻找未知数？”
显然的，我放弃不了，但也无法继续了．．． 我们都很清楚．．．
一场难舍难分的游戏 － 爱的绝择
I don't even know am I pretending...
Went to school today and i was fortunate enough to find a table of empty seats at the atrium, so i waited for the rest to join us. Out of no where, this malay girl just sat down in front of me without even asking, Hello, politeness please, at least give some gesture that u wanna sit on a place where someone was. Am i invisible??? Then, her friend came, sat down next to her, and she looked at me like i'm some sort of weirdo... I was so pissed off oK... Then came another friend, and guess wad, none asked b4 they sat down. I was there 1st ok? Not that i'm being juvenile to compete for who came 1st or anything but at least have the courtesy to ask b4 u sit down. I was so pissed u know... I stared at the 3 of them so many times and they just looked at me like i was the one who came after them. OMG! So pissed, so i just stood up and walk away with a real pissed face... SO IMPOLITE... PiSsed...
Anyway, CIP paper is over, man, am i glad it's over. Well, not that confident with all the answers but i know the answers are somewhere there... No worries, will be able to pass this paper... Yup... The upcoming one will be tough... BSTA paper... Hai.. Jia You i guess...
Well, i woke up this morning and i looked into the mirror and realised my hair looks so ugly... Hai... Like i'm so dependent on rebonding... HA! Well, maybe a change of hairstyle is a good idea. Anticipating the 10th of Sept. However, want it earlier... Hai... Darl described to me, that he will be test on, cutting, washing, perming... If i'm not wrong that's it. He's so excited bout making my hair curl while i'm just excited bout cutting my hair. HAHA!!! But he said if i dun like the perm, he'll do the rebond back for me... Hope he holds onto his words... Ha! Oooo... He wanna give me a bread which Andy bought just now but i refused to take. Like hello, stop stuffing pastries to me, they're all flours... GoSh... And i begged NO NO NO for like so long, and he kept grabbing my bag and grabbing my hand, so i shouted for mad's help but mad just said, "i can't see anything" Idiot... HA!!! VK got new name card again, yaya, that's the one that Richard asked me to comment on the other time... Ya... Looks Ok... HAHA!!! But i still like the 1st one that i grabbed onto... Classic...
Anyway, i left after Richard came back from his relaxation. So beat after all the thoughts i had last night and the lackof sleep...
Sometimes, i really feel like walking away from everything... Leave home?HA! But where can i live? Singapore is so small, i can be found within 2,3 days... Ha! That is if i really run away from home which is another "ridiculous" and impossible thing to say... Wadever... I guess after all my thinking, reflection or wadever u wanna call it, i'm still myself. A part of this life with my family and friends.
I found myself trapped in a maze that I single-handedly create myself... At first, I know u were there to guide me through, even if I am lost, I know you will be there, by my side to overcome every single obstacle with me but all of a sudden, without warning, u walked away, and left me wondering in the dark dark world. I can't seem to find the way out of it, not without your hand, not without your smiles... Y must u walk off? Even the rain shows that it is subsiding... Y didn't you show me anything?
Even when it's all over, u told me u cannot let me go... You dun wanna stop your touches on me. You do not wanna put a halt to everything. You told me how much u miss me, u told me u want me to be by your side, you kissed me ever so deeply...
How to just make you my friend again? Why does my heart follows u but my mind follows the truth? Are u such a sensation that mesmerized my heart with all of you... How come I still feel you? Friend... Can I make you my friend at all?
对自己的承诺， 因为你都破裂了... 放手的那一刻， 我告诉自己要学着放弃。但放了手却不代表放弃你... 每一天都在一点， 一点地放松。直到今天， 我发现， 放走的只是对你的思念而不是对你的爱... 说要放弃却发现， 一点儿也放弃不了... 放手只是不想你难做， 放手只是让自己觉得已经没有再伤害别人， 你， 和自己。 虽然已没常见面但感觉依然存在，仍期盼下一次的见面， 但下次却可能只有在梦里... 看到手机里的每一句词，感受到从一开始的甜蜜，到最后的一句, 还以为就如此停止了， 没想到却持续到如今离人之间延续的暧昧... 说我不想你， 只是在怜悯自己， 因为我知道心里从未忘了你替我寻回的笑容与给我的爱... 没了你真的好像没了自己...
我们是否还在欺骗自己？是我们都放不了吗？还是我们只想一直继续这场没有结局的游戏？
你对我说过：“放弃？ 让它随风而逝？ 继续？ 让时间证明一切？” 我回答：“放弃？真的能随风而去？ 继续？ 寻找未知数？”
显然的，我放弃不了，但也无法继续了．．． 我们都很清楚．．．
一场难舍难分的游戏 － 爱的绝择
I don't even know am I pretending...
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Ridiculous...
Suddenly got this very bad feeling bout the entire exam. Feel like I'm not going to do well at all and i am serious. I dun even know what i've studied for tmr's paper went into my head not. And the last 2 papers, i haven't really touch them at all. How? Feel so lost... Wanna tell myself that everything is gonna be fine but everything doesn't seem fine at all... Have u felt like that before? How i wish i can just shut myself off from the outside world and do things on my own, without having to answer anyone's enquiry. I hate being someone who everyone can approach to. Given the circumstances that i have now, can i just turn away from everyone and do everything on my own? Am i really in the right class? The right course? The right place? How come some people can be so easy? They just drop out of it? Haven't they waste enough time? I dun have any courage to do anything that outrageous but that doesn't mean it didn't cross my mind. How can i not fall from where i used to be? How to find myself from where i was b4? Is it too hard for me now? Am i giving up again? Well, i guess i'm just too stress... Need to discipline myself a little bit more. Well, the thoughts of every other thing shall, from this moment on, be shut down from my mind.
Emotions ain't a good thing to play with. Why must so many things happened at this point of time? I dun really want anymore advice anymore. I'm on my own.
If it wasn't me... If I am more direct... My life is full of indirect... Y can't i be more selfish??? Have been telling myself again and again to be selfish... I did... But most of me remain naive... Disability to advantage myself. Suck so much...
CIP= Computing and Info Technology
1. Web design and computer security
2. Health, access and the environment
3. Ethics and intellectual property rights
4. E-portfolios
5. Emerging techonologies
6. PBL
7. VoIP- Voice over Internet protocol
Like how much do i remember bout wad i've read through the last few days... Now, everything seems blank in my mind... I tried so hard yet nothing seem to be there... What's exactly wrong with me... I need to have that drive to work hard.
I dun like it when my mother starts nagging at me when i wanna concentrate on certain things. Sometimes i just wanna ignore her, she just kept digging and digging and digging. Most of the times, i'm doing everything but she just dun appreciates it. She can notice that the dishes aren't washed but she cannot see that the floor is clean. She jut picks on things that i didn't do. Y must i be the one? This question doesn't seem to have an answer, it just keeps coming back. Is there some remedy for it? To sure this god damn problem? I know she cares, i can see it from her but y can't her care covers everything i dun like bout her?
Y must my father be such a person who always make my mother shouts? Y can't he just sit down and reflect wad is so wrong with him that his life is almost a ruin? Y can't he just stop his nonsense and be a real man that face up to reality?
Y must my brothers be people who dun care? Dun they ever fear? Dun they care at all? Life is such a swift for them, they know that they can't do it, there's still the parents behind to push them forward.
Y must i be the one who is being restricted of so many things? Y must it be me who have to study well and achieve good results? Y must i carry the burden of wad my brothers didn't do well? Y? I just wanna work for the things i want not what they can't get.
Y must my mother threaten me that if i wanna be with a guy who is of inferior education knowledge as I, then i have to quit school?
Where is the fairness that i always hear about? Where is the rights of a girl like me? How can I possibly be such a super woman? Ridiculous...
Ridiculous... Just ridiculous...
I'm stressed out... And I missed you again...
Emotions ain't a good thing to play with. Why must so many things happened at this point of time? I dun really want anymore advice anymore. I'm on my own.
If it wasn't me... If I am more direct... My life is full of indirect... Y can't i be more selfish??? Have been telling myself again and again to be selfish... I did... But most of me remain naive... Disability to advantage myself. Suck so much...
CIP= Computing and Info Technology
1. Web design and computer security
2. Health, access and the environment
3. Ethics and intellectual property rights
4. E-portfolios
5. Emerging techonologies
6. PBL
7. VoIP- Voice over Internet protocol
Like how much do i remember bout wad i've read through the last few days... Now, everything seems blank in my mind... I tried so hard yet nothing seem to be there... What's exactly wrong with me... I need to have that drive to work hard.
I dun like it when my mother starts nagging at me when i wanna concentrate on certain things. Sometimes i just wanna ignore her, she just kept digging and digging and digging. Most of the times, i'm doing everything but she just dun appreciates it. She can notice that the dishes aren't washed but she cannot see that the floor is clean. She jut picks on things that i didn't do. Y must i be the one? This question doesn't seem to have an answer, it just keeps coming back. Is there some remedy for it? To sure this god damn problem? I know she cares, i can see it from her but y can't her care covers everything i dun like bout her?
Y must my father be such a person who always make my mother shouts? Y can't he just sit down and reflect wad is so wrong with him that his life is almost a ruin? Y can't he just stop his nonsense and be a real man that face up to reality?
Y must my brothers be people who dun care? Dun they ever fear? Dun they care at all? Life is such a swift for them, they know that they can't do it, there's still the parents behind to push them forward.
Y must i be the one who is being restricted of so many things? Y must it be me who have to study well and achieve good results? Y must i carry the burden of wad my brothers didn't do well? Y? I just wanna work for the things i want not what they can't get.
Y must my mother threaten me that if i wanna be with a guy who is of inferior education knowledge as I, then i have to quit school?
Where is the fairness that i always hear about? Where is the rights of a girl like me? How can I possibly be such a super woman? Ridiculous...
Ridiculous... Just ridiculous...
I'm stressed out... And I missed you again...
Monday, August 21, 2006
Well...
Not much going on today but one event filled the day pretty much. U wun know wad...
So, after my afternoon blog, i went back to mugging. Then, my da kor asked 2kor and me wanna eat pizza not so i say, if it's his treat. HA! Ya, so the 2 of them paid for it while i went to get drinks for us. Ya... So b4 the pizza came, I was still mugging on my CIP. Ethics and all... GoSh...
Anyway, pizza came and we were eating it... The 3 siblings... Kind of weird lah, 1st time we round up like that. The BBQ one taste pretty good. Had 3 slices and i cannot make it liao. We left 4 slices there, untouched. HA! K, went back to my room and i couldn't find my celly, yet another time. Wad's worse? I found it laying on the floor, open it up and saw a new message so i knew it vibrated and fell onto the ground. Wanted to roar at the person who sent me the sms. It was Darl... Started cursing him while replying... HA!
Then i carried on mugging til 5.30pm, went to take a bath... Came to check my lappy after that and i saw an instant message from Sufang, my classmate. I find her very cute cute de... She told me to Jia You out of the blues. But it was nice of her.
Anyway, was waiting for my bus when this couple came over and sat beside me. Then that guy kind of talk a bit like Desmond Chia, i was kind of shocked lah, but knew it wasn't him, if it's him, i'd have just take a cab to central. HA!
Boarded the bus and the uncle kind of gestured to me a bit, and i realised it was that was that bus uncle who always go VK de... HA, so i smiled to him. When i alight, said Bye to him too...
Yup, thought VK would be closed by then but i saw Richard's wife sweeping the floor outside then i saw darl. SO i stood outside wait a little. Kind of weird to stand outside and wait so i paced around... Hee~
Ya, so he was done and we walked to Malay shop? That's wad we call it i guess. HAha!!! Actually i was very full lah but dunnoe y i order Mee Siam.. OmG.. and cannot finished it... Such waste of food... Hai... Got reprimanded a bit. While eating, Darl's disciple(that's wad he said coz he taught him how to cut hair) came over and sat down then they were using his dialect that i dun even know wad is that name. GoSh... But somehow i could understand a little coz some of the words are pretty obvious and knew they were saying something bout me... Ermmm... But dunno the whole content. So smart, talking infront of somebody instead of behind... HA!
Then we were sitting there talking and drinking drinks. He was telling me bout his test on the 10th which was when he will do a lot of things to my hair. So, i was paying all my attention on him. So he said, if he passed on both model test then he would be able to get a cert or something and then he can fly... HA! FLY... YayA... Good for him i guess... OOoo... He told me somebody banged onto his newly bought bike... Which is so OMG! It's only a month old... Poor thing... Good thing the person did pay back.
Anyway, went to Westmall to get his Comic and i went to get some breads from breadtalk for the night then he drove me back. HAhA!!! Haven't been on the car since... U know... Ya, so we were on his car, he was heating up the engine he asked whether i got smell something not, ya, there was this sweet-smelling scent on his car, he asked do i know wad scent is that. I dunnoe... Then he took out this aroma oil to show me and said the name is on it and he added, "This is my favourite smell." So i took it and looked at the very small word, "APPLE" I said, "O IT's ME!" HA!!! And then he laughed and said, "Ya, that's y it's my fave..." Caught by great surprise, i just laughed it off... Wad can i say at that point... "Thank you" perhaps? Well, i dunno... I just laughed.
He gave me a huge shock when i alighted his car and left me feeling embarassed, awkward, surprised, shocked, electrocuted, happy, sad, funny and u name it, i felt it... A surge of ultimate emotions... O My GOd... Wad can i say...
Anyway, after calming down from the shock, i started mugging again... Till 9plus, decided to slack. Watched National Day Rally, and hearing wad PM Lee was trying to emphasize. To build a country where everyone have a sense of belonging, to be proud of wad we are, to make the younger generation understands. Hai.... Some young people just dun care... Afterall I'm truely a Singaporean, although i haven't sat on SIA planes... HAHA!!! I will, someday...
Continued watching CSI:NY and CSI:Miami till 12am, then i came into my room and finally finished all the lecture slides for CIP. Alif came to talk to me coz i bumped into him when i was with Darl earlier and he was questioning me... HAHA!!! Nice guy, nice advice, will heed ur advice, to dream.... HAHA!!
Something to share...
一瞬间的相遇是难忘的
一瞬间的爱是甜滋滋的
一瞬间的吻是叫人难以抗拒的
一瞬间所说的情话是最动听的
一瞬间的我与他是最幸福的
但只可惜那都是一瞬间的事
但留下的不是一瞬间的回忆
而是一辈子的记忆...
I can't believe you did that to me... That feeling... Untouchable... Uncomprehensible verbally... How I wish that moment last forever... Yet I hope it would end...
So, after my afternoon blog, i went back to mugging. Then, my da kor asked 2kor and me wanna eat pizza not so i say, if it's his treat. HA! Ya, so the 2 of them paid for it while i went to get drinks for us. Ya... So b4 the pizza came, I was still mugging on my CIP. Ethics and all... GoSh...
Anyway, pizza came and we were eating it... The 3 siblings... Kind of weird lah, 1st time we round up like that. The BBQ one taste pretty good. Had 3 slices and i cannot make it liao. We left 4 slices there, untouched. HA! K, went back to my room and i couldn't find my celly, yet another time. Wad's worse? I found it laying on the floor, open it up and saw a new message so i knew it vibrated and fell onto the ground. Wanted to roar at the person who sent me the sms. It was Darl... Started cursing him while replying... HA!
Then i carried on mugging til 5.30pm, went to take a bath... Came to check my lappy after that and i saw an instant message from Sufang, my classmate. I find her very cute cute de... She told me to Jia You out of the blues. But it was nice of her.
Anyway, was waiting for my bus when this couple came over and sat beside me. Then that guy kind of talk a bit like Desmond Chia, i was kind of shocked lah, but knew it wasn't him, if it's him, i'd have just take a cab to central. HA!
Boarded the bus and the uncle kind of gestured to me a bit, and i realised it was that was that bus uncle who always go VK de... HA, so i smiled to him. When i alight, said Bye to him too...
Yup, thought VK would be closed by then but i saw Richard's wife sweeping the floor outside then i saw darl. SO i stood outside wait a little. Kind of weird to stand outside and wait so i paced around... Hee~
Ya, so he was done and we walked to Malay shop? That's wad we call it i guess. HAha!!! Actually i was very full lah but dunnoe y i order Mee Siam.. OmG.. and cannot finished it... Such waste of food... Hai... Got reprimanded a bit. While eating, Darl's disciple(that's wad he said coz he taught him how to cut hair) came over and sat down then they were using his dialect that i dun even know wad is that name. GoSh... But somehow i could understand a little coz some of the words are pretty obvious and knew they were saying something bout me... Ermmm... But dunno the whole content. So smart, talking infront of somebody instead of behind... HA!
Then we were sitting there talking and drinking drinks. He was telling me bout his test on the 10th which was when he will do a lot of things to my hair. So, i was paying all my attention on him. So he said, if he passed on both model test then he would be able to get a cert or something and then he can fly... HA! FLY... YayA... Good for him i guess... OOoo... He told me somebody banged onto his newly bought bike... Which is so OMG! It's only a month old... Poor thing... Good thing the person did pay back.
Anyway, went to Westmall to get his Comic and i went to get some breads from breadtalk for the night then he drove me back. HAhA!!! Haven't been on the car since... U know... Ya, so we were on his car, he was heating up the engine he asked whether i got smell something not, ya, there was this sweet-smelling scent on his car, he asked do i know wad scent is that. I dunnoe... Then he took out this aroma oil to show me and said the name is on it and he added, "This is my favourite smell." So i took it and looked at the very small word, "APPLE" I said, "O IT's ME!" HA!!! And then he laughed and said, "Ya, that's y it's my fave..." Caught by great surprise, i just laughed it off... Wad can i say at that point... "Thank you" perhaps? Well, i dunno... I just laughed.
He gave me a huge shock when i alighted his car and left me feeling embarassed, awkward, surprised, shocked, electrocuted, happy, sad, funny and u name it, i felt it... A surge of ultimate emotions... O My GOd... Wad can i say...
Anyway, after calming down from the shock, i started mugging again... Till 9plus, decided to slack. Watched National Day Rally, and hearing wad PM Lee was trying to emphasize. To build a country where everyone have a sense of belonging, to be proud of wad we are, to make the younger generation understands. Hai.... Some young people just dun care... Afterall I'm truely a Singaporean, although i haven't sat on SIA planes... HAHA!!! I will, someday...
Continued watching CSI:NY and CSI:Miami till 12am, then i came into my room and finally finished all the lecture slides for CIP. Alif came to talk to me coz i bumped into him when i was with Darl earlier and he was questioning me... HAHA!!! Nice guy, nice advice, will heed ur advice, to dream.... HAHA!!
Something to share...
一瞬间的相遇是难忘的
一瞬间的爱是甜滋滋的
一瞬间的吻是叫人难以抗拒的
一瞬间所说的情话是最动听的
一瞬间的我与他是最幸福的
但只可惜那都是一瞬间的事
但留下的不是一瞬间的回忆
而是一辈子的记忆...
I can't believe you did that to me... That feeling... Untouchable... Uncomprehensible verbally... How I wish that moment last forever... Yet I hope it would end...
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Great days... Mugging...
Think I should blog a little before i continue studying.
Yesterday, Ting asked me out to study. So ya, went out. Geez... Once i board the bus, on the way to central, i realised i forgot my celly... Like WTH, i knew something was missing but i only knew it when i was on the bus. So, after alighting, i kind of rushed all the way to Coffee Bean to find ting but there were so many people yet none was her... I was like, "How? No hp to call..." Ya, so i went to mac to try my luck, nope, couldn't find her. Decided to just go back home to get my phone. Ya, and that's when i started to pant a bit from all the rushing... Reached home, and i got 2 missed calls from ting... Called her immediately and explained to her wad happened. Then, she told me to meet at Gombak's mac coz westmall was just too crowded(coz of wilbur Pan). Ya, so i went there and waited.
Bought our drinks and took out the notes. Started browsing through my BSTA. I was looking at the Probability chapter. Although i have studied Probability back in Sec school but this one is kind of different. There's joint and conditional probability which are pretty confusing. I tried to understand what is it... Well, the whole time we were there, we kind of looked at our notes, chat a bit, looked at notes, chat a bit. End of 2 hours and ya, we decided that, we have no mood to study at all. HAHa! Me and my sister... Anyway, we were thinking of where to settle for dinner and she wanted good food which well, i dun really know the definition of it. SO, we pondered for a while and decided to just walk around to see wad we can find. In the end, decided to cook ourselves at my place... Heh Heh!
Went to Shop N Save and Prime to get our ingredients for pasta... HAha!!! WEnt to my house, and started cooking. Amazingly, we have appetizer(Soup of the day, Chicken and mushroom soup), our maincourse(Cream of mushroom Pasta) and lastly, dessert(Chocolate cake).. HAHA!!! We were so so full... The 2 of us were so crappy. We took out the cake and put the candles on, and blew the candles... Like Hello, our birthdays were for so long... HAHA!!! Funny ok... HAhA!!!
After our crazy moments, i walked her down then she went to find her MAmA while i head back home.
Wasn't in any mood to touch my notes so Saturday was pretty much slacking for me... Wanted to burn some midnight oil. Well, i did, but i burned it online... HAHA!!! Was chatting with Yuting, Robert and Dear until 1plus2, told myself to go SLeep lah... YAya...
Wanted to wake up at 9am today but guess the oil i burned last night took a good old toll on my body, so i kind i sleeped till 11plus just now, with the same alarm that wakes me up almost everyday. HAhA! Darl... Yes...
Anyway, cooked something to eat just now, and now i'm infront of my lappy, blogging. Later, will still be infront of it to study CIP followed by ITR.
Well, well, i got 3 more papers to go, CIP, BSTA and ITR. Gosh... Need to buck up... i still got tmr to study... Great.. Jia You myself...
Am I still pretending or am I truely myself now? I'm confused...
Yesterday, Ting asked me out to study. So ya, went out. Geez... Once i board the bus, on the way to central, i realised i forgot my celly... Like WTH, i knew something was missing but i only knew it when i was on the bus. So, after alighting, i kind of rushed all the way to Coffee Bean to find ting but there were so many people yet none was her... I was like, "How? No hp to call..." Ya, so i went to mac to try my luck, nope, couldn't find her. Decided to just go back home to get my phone. Ya, and that's when i started to pant a bit from all the rushing... Reached home, and i got 2 missed calls from ting... Called her immediately and explained to her wad happened. Then, she told me to meet at Gombak's mac coz westmall was just too crowded(coz of wilbur Pan). Ya, so i went there and waited.
Bought our drinks and took out the notes. Started browsing through my BSTA. I was looking at the Probability chapter. Although i have studied Probability back in Sec school but this one is kind of different. There's joint and conditional probability which are pretty confusing. I tried to understand what is it... Well, the whole time we were there, we kind of looked at our notes, chat a bit, looked at notes, chat a bit. End of 2 hours and ya, we decided that, we have no mood to study at all. HAHa! Me and my sister... Anyway, we were thinking of where to settle for dinner and she wanted good food which well, i dun really know the definition of it. SO, we pondered for a while and decided to just walk around to see wad we can find. In the end, decided to cook ourselves at my place... Heh Heh!
Went to Shop N Save and Prime to get our ingredients for pasta... HAha!!! WEnt to my house, and started cooking. Amazingly, we have appetizer(Soup of the day, Chicken and mushroom soup), our maincourse(Cream of mushroom Pasta) and lastly, dessert(Chocolate cake).. HAHA!!! We were so so full... The 2 of us were so crappy. We took out the cake and put the candles on, and blew the candles... Like Hello, our birthdays were for so long... HAHA!!! Funny ok... HAhA!!!
After our crazy moments, i walked her down then she went to find her MAmA while i head back home.
Wasn't in any mood to touch my notes so Saturday was pretty much slacking for me... Wanted to burn some midnight oil. Well, i did, but i burned it online... HAHA!!! Was chatting with Yuting, Robert and Dear until 1plus2, told myself to go SLeep lah... YAya...
Wanted to wake up at 9am today but guess the oil i burned last night took a good old toll on my body, so i kind i sleeped till 11plus just now, with the same alarm that wakes me up almost everyday. HAhA! Darl... Yes...
Anyway, cooked something to eat just now, and now i'm infront of my lappy, blogging. Later, will still be infront of it to study CIP followed by ITR.
Well, well, i got 3 more papers to go, CIP, BSTA and ITR. Gosh... Need to buck up... i still got tmr to study... Great.. Jia You myself...
Am I still pretending or am I truely myself now? I'm confused...
Saturday, August 19, 2006
O yeAh O YeaH
Over with MIEC exam!!! HAHA!!! Got a mix feeling bout it. Why? The paper was not easy at all, it's pretty tough... I was so totally cracking my brain to answer the questions... Hopefully a pass is not difficult to attain. On the other hand, what i'm happy bout it is that at least i got the concepts of MIEC, i didn't sit there with my head blank, i completed the paper within the 2hours... :) One down, 3 more to go.
I'm in a really good mood today for a reason that shall remain a secret. I delighted that this part of my life is over. It is great to know that i can wake up tomorrow and be alive and kicking... The past 2 weeks were hard to get by but i'm just glad it is over. From today on, i'm gonna live a healthy life... Yeah!
Ooo... I couldn't sleep last night, so i got up at 3am and have a sip of the wine Lao Ma bought. K, i know why i was drunk the other time i drank it, its like so strong... I only took a couple of sips last night and i basically dropped dead on my bed 5-10min later until this morning... GoSh... A good sleeping pill...
Thinking bout plans for chalet in September. Definitely can't make it in the first couple of weeks coz most of the pple are busy, so am i... Thinking... Hee~
My hp bill came the other day... Happy to see that it is $32... Hee~ YaYa, should maintain it...
看着对岸与我的距离，了解了我们现在的陌生... 当初我们走得太快，远远走得比时间还快...
太阳依然东升西落， 而你却不在我身边... 现在只想牵着你，不要放开... 好想好想让你的未来都有我在... ... Stay awake just to see you asleep...
I'm in a really good mood today for a reason that shall remain a secret. I delighted that this part of my life is over. It is great to know that i can wake up tomorrow and be alive and kicking... The past 2 weeks were hard to get by but i'm just glad it is over. From today on, i'm gonna live a healthy life... Yeah!
Ooo... I couldn't sleep last night, so i got up at 3am and have a sip of the wine Lao Ma bought. K, i know why i was drunk the other time i drank it, its like so strong... I only took a couple of sips last night and i basically dropped dead on my bed 5-10min later until this morning... GoSh... A good sleeping pill...
Thinking bout plans for chalet in September. Definitely can't make it in the first couple of weeks coz most of the pple are busy, so am i... Thinking... Hee~
My hp bill came the other day... Happy to see that it is $32... Hee~ YaYa, should maintain it...
看着对岸与我的距离，了解了我们现在的陌生... 当初我们走得太快，远远走得比时间还快...
太阳依然东升西落， 而你却不在我身边... 现在只想牵着你，不要放开... 好想好想让你的未来都有我在... ... Stay awake just to see you asleep...
Friday, August 18, 2006
ExAm!!!
Well Well... In the midst of studying today, i kept getting distracted for no reason... Suddenly thought bout mugging back in Sec. School, thought bout eating chocolate, bout what happened recently and so on and so forth... So i decided to stop studying for a while and came online for a let out. And the result was that chinese blog... HaHA!
Emotionally I'm still considered stable, physically, I think i am still fit... Ya, nothing is very wrong with me except for my cravings for food... Hee~
Anyway, last few days, including today were spent studying for MIEC... Not a very wise decision to focus on one sole module but I'm really weak in MIEC. I didn't fare well for CT, and i doubt i the rest of the % can be high enough for me to achieve anything. So ya, need to grab hold of the 50% chance of getting a C... YaYA... At least a 30/50?? HoPE... YayA... Kind of nervous bout it... It has been so so long since I was introduced to any new subjects, new things to learn... Argh... Hopefully, the last few days of studying will help... *hoPe* So, 1st exam in Poly, at Blk56, 05-11, Seat no.3... Heh HEh hEh... jIA yoU for TMr... Will do my very best...
I wonder how will I get by this year... For 2 consecutive years, my birthday had been surprise after surprise... Heh hEh! Some of u will know wad i mean... Well, well, let the feelings GO... Finish my Exam and i can dream wadever i want... WAHAHAHAHA!!! For now, I'm so so by myself... HAHA!!!
All the Best To myself for one of the toughest module tmr!
Emotionally I'm still considered stable, physically, I think i am still fit... Ya, nothing is very wrong with me except for my cravings for food... Hee~
Anyway, last few days, including today were spent studying for MIEC... Not a very wise decision to focus on one sole module but I'm really weak in MIEC. I didn't fare well for CT, and i doubt i the rest of the % can be high enough for me to achieve anything. So ya, need to grab hold of the 50% chance of getting a C... YaYA... At least a 30/50?? HoPE... YayA... Kind of nervous bout it... It has been so so long since I was introduced to any new subjects, new things to learn... Argh... Hopefully, the last few days of studying will help... *hoPe* So, 1st exam in Poly, at Blk56, 05-11, Seat no.3... Heh HEh hEh... jIA yoU for TMr... Will do my very best...
I wonder how will I get by this year... For 2 consecutive years, my birthday had been surprise after surprise... Heh hEh! Some of u will know wad i mean... Well, well, let the feelings GO... Finish my Exam and i can dream wadever i want... WAHAHAHAHA!!! For now, I'm so so by myself... HAHA!!!
All the Best To myself for one of the toughest module tmr!
PS: Can't decide on the font of my blog... Hee~
Sometimes I just wish every little things that are happening now are real...
有一些话想说...
终于开始了新的生活。
曾有一时，你的一切是让我微笑的原因。也是你，让我找到我失去的微笑。你的手触动了我的心， 你的每一句话感动了我的生命。 但我早该知道， 这一切只是一场美丽的梦...
虽然应该醒来了，但一部份的我仍在梦里， 坚持不要结开这个节。如果说我不能拥有美梦成真的一天， 那么请让我拥有这场梦的主宰，不要夺走我唯一剩下的快乐...
在你说出我不想听的话时，我哭了... 从没想过原来你所说的一切能那么轻易地动摇我安静的世界。你对我说了“对不起”，我只能说， “这一切不是你的错。”
缘份这种东西并不是谁能控制的。或许它在我们之间开了个小玩笑， 但也因为这玩笑让我好好地爱过了一回。真希望这缘不要走的太远。
假如我们还能继续的话， 不知道结果会是如何？不知道我能否依然爱你... 如果可以再假如， 再说吧...
仍没后悔爱上这个本来不该爱的人。
以后我们的一切就交还给友谊的关怀与体贴去经营吧... ...
我还是我， 张爱萍。Smiling On...
曾有一时，你的一切是让我微笑的原因。也是你，让我找到我失去的微笑。你的手触动了我的心， 你的每一句话感动了我的生命。 但我早该知道， 这一切只是一场美丽的梦...
虽然应该醒来了，但一部份的我仍在梦里， 坚持不要结开这个节。如果说我不能拥有美梦成真的一天， 那么请让我拥有这场梦的主宰，不要夺走我唯一剩下的快乐...
在你说出我不想听的话时，我哭了... 从没想过原来你所说的一切能那么轻易地动摇我安静的世界。你对我说了“对不起”，我只能说， “这一切不是你的错。”
缘份这种东西并不是谁能控制的。或许它在我们之间开了个小玩笑， 但也因为这玩笑让我好好地爱过了一回。真希望这缘不要走的太远。
假如我们还能继续的话， 不知道结果会是如何？不知道我能否依然爱你... 如果可以再假如， 再说吧...
仍没后悔爱上这个本来不该爱的人。
以后我们的一切就交还给友谊的关怀与体贴去经营吧... ...
我还是我， 张爱萍。Smiling On...
New Skin...
Hee~ I got a new blogskin... Nah... I kind of just edited their "pick New" skin.. Took me so long to get wad it is like now... But, i did it after i finished studying, so i didn't waste time... However, i haven't really finished studying, still need to do overall revision...
I kind of like wad i did to the skin... But some effects doesn't seem available... Coz it's different on my Desktop and Laptop... Well, doesn't matter... Still looks good.
Kk... Need to go do my revision... CiAo!
I kind of like wad i did to the skin... But some effects doesn't seem available... Coz it's different on my Desktop and Laptop... Well, doesn't matter... Still looks good.
Kk... Need to go do my revision... CiAo!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
TuesdAy Like today...
I woke up at 9am today... Darl is again my great alarm clock, coz he smsed me b4 my alarm rang... HA!!! So i went to wash up and all, began mugging... WahAHAHA!!!
MuG mUg muG until very hungry so i went to eat the FiShbALly noOdles that PAPA bought... Guess wad? There were 6 fishballs inside... Heh Heh... *gRiN* Finished it.... SO So Nice... After that, went back to study... No idea why, i kept sneezing and sneezing and sneezing like nobody's business and i finally used up the box of tissues.... HAHA!!! I think there must be a lot of pple thinking of me, if not, i wun sneezed until like that... Hee~
Darl was sms-ing me telling me bout his long trip to bedok, so i entertained him, since he woke me up and i can study... hee~
After a while, Yuting called me... So i slowly touched here and there until the rain came upon... Wad ThE! But still, gotta go out coz Yuting waiting... YayA... U know wad? I nearly fell down lAH... And it's like i nearly split onto the wet wet floor... Scare the living daylight out of me, although there wasn't much light around due to the rain... HeH HeH!
Anyway, met up with Yuting, i was busy being surprised coz i thought Yuting was at Westmall, she suddenly appeared in front of me... U pple know me lah, i dun really look when i walk... She suddenly stood up, so i was shocked... When another shock came by... I turned my head to the right side and i saw some freak opening his arms... Heh hEh! It was Darl... Scare me again... He just came back from Bedok... NuTs...
YayA, so went to have a tea at coffee bean with yuting and we chit chat quite a lot... Had quite a bit of laugh... And stop joking bout Silk Pro and Silky girl.. Sickening... Then, met up with Qiang, Hun, Ming and Zhi... And began eating... They were talking their games while Yuting and I look at each other and smIle... HAHA!!! CrApS!!!
These guys ar, cannot make up their mind one lor... So sickening... Go Mac say wanna eat ice cream then sit there dun wanna move... ArgH!!!! buAy tAhAn!!!
So we walked from westmall to photocopy shop, to Mac, to Westmall, to photocopy shop then went back... Wah Lao... I wanna CrY Ar!!! But it's only with them that i can feel this kind of feeling lah... Still the same old 5A1 i know... WAhAha!!!
Anyway, went to SlAp dArl just now and I told Mad bout my hair... He looked stunned... Then i kept repeating, "NVm, nVm" HAHA!!! he wanted to trim it for me, i say no need coz it doesn't matter lah... And darl needs my hair on the 10th... Heh HEH HeH!!! But Mad still looks worry... Ooo.. And he looked sick, he looks like those drug addicts... HEh HEh! So i asked did he take drugs... But of coz not, coz he cuts hair and he just bought a PHONE! dAmn...
Anyway, Darl was asking me bout borrowing books coz he never borrowed book from national Library b4... K, if i was the me from a month ago, i would find it weird but now, no... Coz my Aunt, being 40, just borrowed book this year and she thought she needs to pay for borrowing, laugh my head off... Heh HeH! So it's normal for a Msian not knowing how to borrow... So i explained to him and all and even borrowed my IC to him lah... So scared he'll lost it... Ex wor...
Well, he just got his Com, so got lots of things to learn... In fact, i just hung up on him after asking all his questions...
Back Home, carry on mugging MIEC... goSh... So tedious... I'm done with the first 6 chapters? Ya... I'm left with the 4 market structures to study... Ya... Another Mugging day tomorrow... Will Enjoy it... Although it felt weird without candies to guide me... HeH! But nah... Got Milo... No Tea... ArgH... Wanted to buy just now... Sickening...
YayA... Gonna go brush up and probably turn in soon...
Ooo... Aiai told me bout my god-Baby... JeDdy... The Silky Terrier(oMg! Another Silk somthing? Silky Girl, Silk Pro, Silky Terrier? GoSh...) HAhA!!!! He iS so So cUte... MuAck Him... Will visit him after My eXam... heh HEH!!
I used to love you too much... Now, I love you but I'm learning to love myself more... Because then, I will forget about those painful love...
MuG mUg muG until very hungry so i went to eat the FiShbALly noOdles that PAPA bought... Guess wad? There were 6 fishballs inside... Heh Heh... *gRiN* Finished it.... SO So Nice... After that, went back to study... No idea why, i kept sneezing and sneezing and sneezing like nobody's business and i finally used up the box of tissues.... HAHA!!! I think there must be a lot of pple thinking of me, if not, i wun sneezed until like that... Hee~
Darl was sms-ing me telling me bout his long trip to bedok, so i entertained him, since he woke me up and i can study... hee~
After a while, Yuting called me... So i slowly touched here and there until the rain came upon... Wad ThE! But still, gotta go out coz Yuting waiting... YayA... U know wad? I nearly fell down lAH... And it's like i nearly split onto the wet wet floor... Scare the living daylight out of me, although there wasn't much light around due to the rain... HeH HeH!
Anyway, met up with Yuting, i was busy being surprised coz i thought Yuting was at Westmall, she suddenly appeared in front of me... U pple know me lah, i dun really look when i walk... She suddenly stood up, so i was shocked... When another shock came by... I turned my head to the right side and i saw some freak opening his arms... Heh hEh! It was Darl... Scare me again... He just came back from Bedok... NuTs...
YayA, so went to have a tea at coffee bean with yuting and we chit chat quite a lot... Had quite a bit of laugh... And stop joking bout Silk Pro and Silky girl.. Sickening... Then, met up with Qiang, Hun, Ming and Zhi... And began eating... They were talking their games while Yuting and I look at each other and smIle... HAHA!!! CrApS!!!
These guys ar, cannot make up their mind one lor... So sickening... Go Mac say wanna eat ice cream then sit there dun wanna move... ArgH!!!! buAy tAhAn!!!
So we walked from westmall to photocopy shop, to Mac, to Westmall, to photocopy shop then went back... Wah Lao... I wanna CrY Ar!!! But it's only with them that i can feel this kind of feeling lah... Still the same old 5A1 i know... WAhAha!!!
Anyway, went to SlAp dArl just now and I told Mad bout my hair... He looked stunned... Then i kept repeating, "NVm, nVm" HAHA!!! he wanted to trim it for me, i say no need coz it doesn't matter lah... And darl needs my hair on the 10th... Heh HEH HeH!!! But Mad still looks worry... Ooo.. And he looked sick, he looks like those drug addicts... HEh HEh! So i asked did he take drugs... But of coz not, coz he cuts hair and he just bought a PHONE! dAmn...
Anyway, Darl was asking me bout borrowing books coz he never borrowed book from national Library b4... K, if i was the me from a month ago, i would find it weird but now, no... Coz my Aunt, being 40, just borrowed book this year and she thought she needs to pay for borrowing, laugh my head off... Heh HeH! So it's normal for a Msian not knowing how to borrow... So i explained to him and all and even borrowed my IC to him lah... So scared he'll lost it... Ex wor...
Well, he just got his Com, so got lots of things to learn... In fact, i just hung up on him after asking all his questions...
Back Home, carry on mugging MIEC... goSh... So tedious... I'm done with the first 6 chapters? Ya... I'm left with the 4 market structures to study... Ya... Another Mugging day tomorrow... Will Enjoy it... Although it felt weird without candies to guide me... HeH! But nah... Got Milo... No Tea... ArgH... Wanted to buy just now... Sickening...
YayA... Gonna go brush up and probably turn in soon...
Ooo... Aiai told me bout my god-Baby... JeDdy... The Silky Terrier(oMg! Another Silk somthing? Silky Girl, Silk Pro, Silky Terrier? GoSh...) HAhA!!!! He iS so So cUte... MuAck Him... Will visit him after My eXam... heh HEH!!
I used to love you too much... Now, I love you but I'm learning to love myself more... Because then, I will forget about those painful love...
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ToWn ToWn Town
Went to town today... Hai... I was quite tired lor... Then the bus went off right infront of me again... I hate it when it happens... It always happens... Sickening...
Anyway, I was very late... Met up with Jiawen and Joan at Kino... Then went for lunch although i didn't eat a proper meal coz i wasn't hungry... Had Joan's cookiess, like the chocolate chips, it's YuMMy... Hee~
Then, went on to shop around and around and around Taka... I saw a really nice GUESS belt... For god sake, Y must it appear at this time?! Argh... When i'm all broke... It's so nice... But it's $99.... Guess Wad? It's on my waiting list... HAHA!!! After exam, i'm gonna work work work to get the belt... Arghh... I'm gonna get it!!! By any MeANs!!!! HAHA!!! OOo... And Giodano got really nice Tees... And Zara too.. I'm like so broke to get anything... I bought 2 pathetic blue pens... So sAd... Ok, at least i bought pens... Bought something... DOTs...
After that, we went to drink something at coffee bean, and talk some craps... Ok, i saw a very suave guy... I'm serious... The 2 girls didn't noticed i was looking at this guy sitting opposite us.. He's so cute u know... He's face is like blushing... So cuTe... HAHA!!! Shhh... I'm looking at guys... Hee~ Anyway, after that, we went off, ya, and that ends off the day out...
Oo... I went to buy a small slice of chocolate cakes for Lao ma... Her BD today... Hope it's nice... Hee~
Ermm... Dear called me just now, telling me bout the newly renovated OHS Ballroom... ermm.. I wanna go see... MUSt See... Hee~ Can't wait to go back to work after exam... Wanna earn moNey...
K, another slack day today... Need to wake up super early tmr to study study study... MIEC... Hai...
Ooo... I ate a doughnut just now... WahAHAHA!!! YuMMy!!! Love doughnuts.. Never fails to brighten my day... Heh Heh Heh...
OK, i finally finish my Antibiotics... Geez... Its so not nice to eat medicine... Especially antibiotics when u have to complete the whole big packet of more than a dozen pills... GoSh.. Good news is, I finished it toDay!!!
O yA... AiAi granted me wish of becoming her new pUppy's GoD-mother... WahHAHa!!! So now, i'll DeCLaRe, I'm the goD-mother of AiAi's PupPy... WAHAHAHAHA!!! WaNNA SEE IT!!! MuSt be Cute...
YayA... O ya, saw Richard'd new Apple i-pod U2 or somthing... So cool lah... Rich man... Hai... I'm so GreeN... Too bad cannot be i-pod's godmother... HAHA!! KiDDing...
List of need-to-save-and-buy:
1. Converse sneakers
2. New Specs
3. Guess belt
4. New Haircut and highlight
5. New Hp(Still considering)
Ending my Blog... NiGHt!
CiAo!
Anyway, I was very late... Met up with Jiawen and Joan at Kino... Then went for lunch although i didn't eat a proper meal coz i wasn't hungry... Had Joan's cookiess, like the chocolate chips, it's YuMMy... Hee~
Then, went on to shop around and around and around Taka... I saw a really nice GUESS belt... For god sake, Y must it appear at this time?! Argh... When i'm all broke... It's so nice... But it's $99.... Guess Wad? It's on my waiting list... HAHA!!! After exam, i'm gonna work work work to get the belt... Arghh... I'm gonna get it!!! By any MeANs!!!! HAHA!!! OOo... And Giodano got really nice Tees... And Zara too.. I'm like so broke to get anything... I bought 2 pathetic blue pens... So sAd... Ok, at least i bought pens... Bought something... DOTs...
After that, we went to drink something at coffee bean, and talk some craps... Ok, i saw a very suave guy... I'm serious... The 2 girls didn't noticed i was looking at this guy sitting opposite us.. He's so cute u know... He's face is like blushing... So cuTe... HAHA!!! Shhh... I'm looking at guys... Hee~ Anyway, after that, we went off, ya, and that ends off the day out...
Oo... I went to buy a small slice of chocolate cakes for Lao ma... Her BD today... Hope it's nice... Hee~
Ermm... Dear called me just now, telling me bout the newly renovated OHS Ballroom... ermm.. I wanna go see... MUSt See... Hee~ Can't wait to go back to work after exam... Wanna earn moNey...
K, another slack day today... Need to wake up super early tmr to study study study... MIEC... Hai...
Ooo... I ate a doughnut just now... WahAHAHA!!! YuMMy!!! Love doughnuts.. Never fails to brighten my day... Heh Heh Heh...
OK, i finally finish my Antibiotics... Geez... Its so not nice to eat medicine... Especially antibiotics when u have to complete the whole big packet of more than a dozen pills... GoSh.. Good news is, I finished it toDay!!!
O yA... AiAi granted me wish of becoming her new pUppy's GoD-mother... WahHAHa!!! So now, i'll DeCLaRe, I'm the goD-mother of AiAi's PupPy... WAHAHAHAHA!!! WaNNA SEE IT!!! MuSt be Cute...
YayA... O ya, saw Richard'd new Apple i-pod U2 or somthing... So cool lah... Rich man... Hai... I'm so GreeN... Too bad cannot be i-pod's godmother... HAHA!! KiDDing...
List of need-to-save-and-buy:
1. Converse sneakers
2. New Specs
3. Guess belt
4. New Haircut and highlight
5. New Hp(Still considering)
Ending my Blog... NiGHt!
CiAo!
Monday, August 14, 2006
From Joan
Saw this on Joan's blog... Interesting, so I copied it... hee~ here Goes...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Ai Ping
2. Apple
3. For some reasons, Pighead, Idiot, Zhu, Ah Po....
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUTYOURSELF:
1. My NoSe
2. My Height
3. My little eyes... Yes, they're small but CuTe!
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKEABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My wideness
2. My short face
3. My big thighs
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. ChinA
2. SinGapore
3. ChinA-SinGapore, HAHA!
THREE THINGS YOU CAN’T STAND:
1. Troubles
2. Lameness...
3. Arrogance
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Cockroach (One will bring me on my tabLe)
2. BuTteRfly (YES!!! SO DiSguSting)
3. GinSeng...
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1. CSI
2. Charmed
3. Desperade Housewife
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESEANIME:
1. Samurai X
2. Cardcaptor Sakura
3. The thing that is a combination of human and demon?
THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:
1. 183Club - Yi Ba San
2. Harlem Yu - Jing Jing de
3. BSB - How did I fall in love with you?
MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER ANDOVER AGAIN:
1. TitAnic (Already watched it for more than 5 times)
2. LAke House (RomAntic...)
3. Stephen Chow and Jacky Chan's Movies
THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1. Monster House
2. The Break Up
3. Harry Potter Sequel
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Water
2. Toilet
3. Bed
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHTNOW:
1.Garfield Tee
2. 19 Black Bands
3. 6 ear studs
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Happiness
3. Hugs and Kisses
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THEOPPOSITE GENDERTHAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Butt (*important HA)
2. Hair (Style it pLease)
3. NosE (Pretty ones...)
THREE BAD HABITS:
1. Biting the back of pens, pencils, all stationaries to be exact.
2. Saying "Sickening"
3. Showing my bunny teeth... HA!!! It's Cute...
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Sleeping
2. Reflecting (Both in front of the mirror and in my mind)
3. Watching TV
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLYBADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go OUT!
2. HUG HIM
3. Make a new pair of specs...
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING ORCURRENTLY PURSUING:
1. Hotel GM, HAHA!
2. Owning a pastry shop... But i can't bake...
3. Tai Tai... HA!!!
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ONVACATION:
1. Taiwan, Taipei
2. USA, NewYork, California
3. Spain, Barcelona
THREE KIDS’ NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Ai Ping
2. Ai Ping
3. Ai Ping (Wad The....)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFOREYOU DIE:
1. Be A Billionairre
2. Find the man that loves me more than I love him
3. Marry that man and have a family...
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARESTEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (orguy):
1. I wear panties
2. I have boobs
3. I love MEN!!!
INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES:
1. Ermm... AJ MClean
2. Tom Cruise
3. ermm... Leave this blank...
Ya... Hope u have fun looking...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Ai Ping
2. Apple
3. For some reasons, Pighead, Idiot, Zhu, Ah Po....
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUTYOURSELF:
1. My NoSe
2. My Height
3. My little eyes... Yes, they're small but CuTe!
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKEABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My wideness
2. My short face
3. My big thighs
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. ChinA
2. SinGapore
3. ChinA-SinGapore, HAHA!
THREE THINGS YOU CAN’T STAND:
1. Troubles
2. Lameness...
3. Arrogance
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Cockroach (One will bring me on my tabLe)
2. BuTteRfly (YES!!! SO DiSguSting)
3. GinSeng...
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1. CSI
2. Charmed
3. Desperade Housewife
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESEANIME:
1. Samurai X
2. Cardcaptor Sakura
3. The thing that is a combination of human and demon?
THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:
1. 183Club - Yi Ba San
2. Harlem Yu - Jing Jing de
3. BSB - How did I fall in love with you?
MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER ANDOVER AGAIN:
1. TitAnic (Already watched it for more than 5 times)
2. LAke House (RomAntic...)
3. Stephen Chow and Jacky Chan's Movies
THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1. Monster House
2. The Break Up
3. Harry Potter Sequel
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Water
2. Toilet
3. Bed
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHTNOW:
1.Garfield Tee
2. 19 Black Bands
3. 6 ear studs
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Happiness
3. Hugs and Kisses
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THEOPPOSITE GENDERTHAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Butt (*important HA)
2. Hair (Style it pLease)
3. NosE (Pretty ones...)
THREE BAD HABITS:
1. Biting the back of pens, pencils, all stationaries to be exact.
2. Saying "Sickening"
3. Showing my bunny teeth... HA!!! It's Cute...
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Sleeping
2. Reflecting (Both in front of the mirror and in my mind)
3. Watching TV
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLYBADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go OUT!
2. HUG HIM
3. Make a new pair of specs...
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING ORCURRENTLY PURSUING:
1. Hotel GM, HAHA!
2. Owning a pastry shop... But i can't bake...
3. Tai Tai... HA!!!
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ONVACATION:
1. Taiwan, Taipei
2. USA, NewYork, California
3. Spain, Barcelona
THREE KIDS’ NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Ai Ping
2. Ai Ping
3. Ai Ping (Wad The....)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFOREYOU DIE:
1. Be A Billionairre
2. Find the man that loves me more than I love him
3. Marry that man and have a family...
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARESTEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (orguy):
1. I wear panties
2. I have boobs
3. I love MEN!!!
INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES:
1. Ermm... AJ MClean
2. Tom Cruise
3. ermm... Leave this blank...
Ya... Hope u have fun looking...
SLacking
ThIs looks so So niCe... Too Bad... Too Bad...Such a slacking day... I didn't follow my timetable... Hai... Woke up at 1pm today, very late... Smsed Yuting coz she wanted to meet up for lunch... She smsed me at 2plus am, and well, i was fast asleep, i sent her a very weird sms, which i kind of laughed my head off when i read it again... HAHA!!!! Anyway, met up with her, went for her good meal, and we walked around. After that, i treated her a cake. Hee~ Nice... After chatting and all, we went to get a drink, find a sit and talk... Hee~ Chit ChAt like girls Should... hee~ She bought alcohol drink(under my brilliant guidance) and she got really red later... The redness can't subside... HAHA!!!! And i could smell alcohol from her mouth... Cannot stand it... OmG... And i was laughing at her... But also a bit worry so got her an Ice Mountain...
Went to find Darl while Yuting was resting her giddiness and redness... Can u believe wad Darl tried to do? KiSS me... He grabbed my head so hard lah... So DOTS.... No WAY!!! Ooo... ANd i showed him my unbalanced hair... HAHA!!! Didn't dare to go tell Mad coz afraid Richard will scold him, so ya, kept quiet until today.. hee~ I decided to entrust my hair to him for his Test on Sep 10... HAHA!!! Hope he wouldn't make a mess out of it... Heh HeH HeH!!!
Anyway, wanted to go have dinner after the chatting with Darl but see Yuting like dying liao, so asked her to go back... So i head home myself too... 6plus pm already, watched TV till 8plus... Then started studying MIEC.... Hai... Nah, didn't do much.... Still at the beginning... So cham... Friday is the exam!!!! ArGh... Slacker! ME!
Wanted to go JB to shop tomorrow but no cash and no company... Stil in the process of discussing where to go tomorrow... Hai... Study...
Discussed with yuting just now, gonna make a chalet during the holiday for 5A1(2005), Yes! We're gonna do it!!! So, dun reject us... It's like so important coz we miss 5A1 So So muCh...
Ooo... Did AiAi get angry with me? Coz Xin Zhi called me AiAi and i called him AiAi no.2? HAHa!!!! SOrry Aiai... I will be faithful to you... HAhA!!! So cUte... LoVe my AiAi...
Am I supposed to laugh or cry? Bitterness lurks within my laughter... Sadness took over my bitterness... Do you know how much I wish to love you more?
Went to find Darl while Yuting was resting her giddiness and redness... Can u believe wad Darl tried to do? KiSS me... He grabbed my head so hard lah... So DOTS.... No WAY!!! Ooo... ANd i showed him my unbalanced hair... HAHA!!! Didn't dare to go tell Mad coz afraid Richard will scold him, so ya, kept quiet until today.. hee~ I decided to entrust my hair to him for his Test on Sep 10... HAHA!!! Hope he wouldn't make a mess out of it... Heh HeH HeH!!!
Anyway, wanted to go have dinner after the chatting with Darl but see Yuting like dying liao, so asked her to go back... So i head home myself too... 6plus pm already, watched TV till 8plus... Then started studying MIEC.... Hai... Nah, didn't do much.... Still at the beginning... So cham... Friday is the exam!!!! ArGh... Slacker! ME!
Wanted to go JB to shop tomorrow but no cash and no company... Stil in the process of discussing where to go tomorrow... Hai... Study...
Discussed with yuting just now, gonna make a chalet during the holiday for 5A1(2005), Yes! We're gonna do it!!! So, dun reject us... It's like so important coz we miss 5A1 So So muCh...
Ooo... Did AiAi get angry with me? Coz Xin Zhi called me AiAi and i called him AiAi no.2? HAHa!!!! SOrry Aiai... I will be faithful to you... HAhA!!! So cUte... LoVe my AiAi...
Am I supposed to laugh or cry? Bitterness lurks within my laughter... Sadness took over my bitterness... Do you know how much I wish to love you more?
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Friends
It's like 11plus pm... And we just board the MRT at Pasir Ris, on a Monday night... That's Si en and Me.....
Beautiful... No, i'm talking bout the background... Just a blog...
I was studying for BSTA a while ago... Ya, i stopped at chapter 3... Heh HeH... Feeling kind of bored... So decided to stop for a while... Now, listening to songs... Gonna take a quick rest and continue to finish till chapter5...
While studying, i was looking at my longs nails... I trimmed 2 of the nails yesterday coz there're cracks on it... Ya... Wondering wad my nails will look like if i paint it Maroon... HEh Heh... Devilish... HEh! Just some boring thoughts that came across my mind...
Ermm... I couldn't sleep last night. No idea why... Dun worry, it's not anything bout what happened... I was just tossing and turning on my bed thinking bout wad i'm gonna do to my bed after exam... HAHA!!! See, my room is damn messy, so, yes, there's a very good reason why i couldn't sleep coz of my room...
So, decided that i would sleep till really later today but Darl smsed me at 10plus... Seems like he is a great alarm clock, coz i always wake up when he smsed me(he always is the 1st to sms in the morning). HAHA!!! He was telling me he lost his wallet at home, so i was like, "How can u lost ur wallet at home?" HAHA!!! I kind of just anyhow replid him coz i was damn tired... Slept till 12plus... Woke up, 1st thing was to tell Darl not to worry bout his wallet... Ya... Then proceed to eat lunch...
Gosh... I took a long time to finish my lunch coz today's dishes weren't good. Shh... But i managed to finish them lah... Then, took my medicine... Ya, been a medicine-slave the last few days... Heh Heh...
"I love you dear dear"
"Did you send to the wrong person?"
"Is you la"
"Orh... Ok... Love you too Darl Darl"
"kiss kiss"
"*flying kisses* sent to you"
If only those were real... If only...
While studying, i was looking at my longs nails... I trimmed 2 of the nails yesterday coz there're cracks on it... Ya... Wondering wad my nails will look like if i paint it Maroon... HEh Heh... Devilish... HEh! Just some boring thoughts that came across my mind...
Ermm... I couldn't sleep last night. No idea why... Dun worry, it's not anything bout what happened... I was just tossing and turning on my bed thinking bout wad i'm gonna do to my bed after exam... HAHA!!! See, my room is damn messy, so, yes, there's a very good reason why i couldn't sleep coz of my room...
So, decided that i would sleep till really later today but Darl smsed me at 10plus... Seems like he is a great alarm clock, coz i always wake up when he smsed me(he always is the 1st to sms in the morning). HAHA!!! He was telling me he lost his wallet at home, so i was like, "How can u lost ur wallet at home?" HAHA!!! I kind of just anyhow replid him coz i was damn tired... Slept till 12plus... Woke up, 1st thing was to tell Darl not to worry bout his wallet... Ya... Then proceed to eat lunch...
Gosh... I took a long time to finish my lunch coz today's dishes weren't good. Shh... But i managed to finish them lah... Then, took my medicine... Ya, been a medicine-slave the last few days... Heh Heh...
"I love you dear dear"
"Did you send to the wrong person?"
"Is you la"
"Orh... Ok... Love you too Darl Darl"
"kiss kiss"
"*flying kisses* sent to you"
If only those were real... If only...
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Guilt...
Very bad of me... Supposed to go for fireworks with some of the ex 5A1 dudes but I put their aeroplane... HAHA!!! K, 1st, i woke up with fever(Ya, agAin...) and i wasn't in a really good condition to go far... So i told yuting that i couldn't go le... Heh HeH! In the end, my fever subsided in the afternoon... Heh Heh... But for caution sake, i didn't resume my "organizer" status... HAHA!!!
Instead, i asked AiAi out for tea... Coz i haven't see her for very long... Ya... We went for movie.. I promised to make this part fascinating... So look carefully ar... We went to the toilet, she was infront of me, suddenly, something dropped and I got a little shock... Guess wad drop? Her shoe... HAHA!!! NVM... I laughed it off... After our movie, we went to the same toilet, and the same thing almost happened, and I laughed AgAin!!!! HAHA!!! So FunNY lAh!!! ANyway, i still love her, although she is clumsy... Heh HeH!
Ermm... We watched "My Super Ex Girlfriend"... Hilarious movie.. It'd be damn cool if i got that sort of power... HAHA!!! Y aren't there meteorites in Singapore? HAHA!!!
Saw yuting and her "ZHu" at the escalator then i realised they were not going for the fireworks... Hai...
People i got a new Darl... HAHA!!! Darl as in Darling, Darl... Ya, with the "L"... Ya... GUess who? ASk me... It's someone familiar... Well, that's the best way things can go...
Went to VK just now b4 meeting AiAi, coz i waited for quite a while... Went to send THEMES(YA, AGAIN) to him... I think i looked weak in some ways, he said i look pure... Ermm... Maybe... Mad was playing with PSP lah, wah kAO, and that PSP is white... HeLLo! Stop being so rich can? And he changed phone!!!! WTH!!!! SO RICH LAH! He turned around and said, "Apple, u sick ar?" I was like, "So obvious meh? Eddie came over and touched my forehead, i'm like, "Ermm.... Please..." WAdEveR...
Tell u all something, Richard said he, 'Miss me' and 'Love me'... HAHA!!!! CuTe right?! HEh HEH HEh... miss my technology gadgets i guess... HAHA!!! (Laugh, this part is suppose to be funny)
I tried to turn away from you but I can't bring myself to do so... You touched me again, and I can't resist it again... You smiled to me... But I dared not look into your eyes no more... So, we made an agreement... I hope that holds...
Instead, i asked AiAi out for tea... Coz i haven't see her for very long... Ya... We went for movie.. I promised to make this part fascinating... So look carefully ar... We went to the toilet, she was infront of me, suddenly, something dropped and I got a little shock... Guess wad drop? Her shoe... HAHA!!! NVM... I laughed it off... After our movie, we went to the same toilet, and the same thing almost happened, and I laughed AgAin!!!! HAHA!!! So FunNY lAh!!! ANyway, i still love her, although she is clumsy... Heh HeH!
Ermm... We watched "My Super Ex Girlfriend"... Hilarious movie.. It'd be damn cool if i got that sort of power... HAHA!!! Y aren't there meteorites in Singapore? HAHA!!!
Saw yuting and her "ZHu" at the escalator then i realised they were not going for the fireworks... Hai...
People i got a new Darl... HAHA!!! Darl as in Darling, Darl... Ya, with the "L"... Ya... GUess who? ASk me... It's someone familiar... Well, that's the best way things can go...
Went to VK just now b4 meeting AiAi, coz i waited for quite a while... Went to send THEMES(YA, AGAIN) to him... I think i looked weak in some ways, he said i look pure... Ermm... Maybe... Mad was playing with PSP lah, wah kAO, and that PSP is white... HeLLo! Stop being so rich can? And he changed phone!!!! WTH!!!! SO RICH LAH! He turned around and said, "Apple, u sick ar?" I was like, "So obvious meh? Eddie came over and touched my forehead, i'm like, "Ermm.... Please..." WAdEveR...
Tell u all something, Richard said he, 'Miss me' and 'Love me'... HAHA!!!! CuTe right?! HEh HEH HEh... miss my technology gadgets i guess... HAHA!!! (Laugh, this part is suppose to be funny)
I tried to turn away from you but I can't bring myself to do so... You touched me again, and I can't resist it again... You smiled to me... But I dared not look into your eyes no more... So, we made an agreement... I hope that holds...
Friday, August 11, 2006
Well...
Ermm... Nothing much happen today... I drew up my study plan(Finally...) for the coming week and this weekend. I've decided to slack till tmr... Hee~ Time to start studying real real hard for the first exam in Poly...
Well, everything was quiet today... Too quiet i guess... Well, Dear called me and told me wad she saw.. Shock was the 1st reaction, sadness flows along with it... Well, no point lah...
Cravings for Mushroom today after my kor fried the mushroom egg... But i can't eat egg... Sickening... So i told mama to cook mushroom soup for me... HAHA!!! No lah, its for all of us... YuMMy!
I finished the chocolate mA bought for me yesterday....Shhh... I ate chocs again... Aganist my rule... HAhA!!! ShHhhh... Dun tell anyone oK!
Was organising the outing for 5A1 tmr... Hai... The guys hor... Really dunnoe when they will grow up lor... Cannot keep quiet and listen... Sickening... HAHA!!! They're still themselves... Still as sickening...
Ermm... Really got nothing to do at home... I just munched on anything i think i can eat... Logging on and off line, touching my laptop, lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, building sand castles... So Omg!
SiCkening...
I found the person he told me about.. She seems like a person with a cute personality... Ha!
Well... Life like this is better off i guess... Silent... In my own world... Dun have to worry bout any other thing... JUst me and wad i wanna care bout... Just me and my imagination... BlACk and WhItE... Colours coloured my world sometimes... Just like that... That's all i need now...
Ooo... I was thinking bout cutting my hair short recently... u know, i'm kind of sick of the long straight black-brown hair... It has been there since sec 2 or 3? My last short hair was sec1, that was mushroom head... thinking of something more style now... Ermmm... Still thinking lah.. Anyway, it'll be until next month then i'll do wad i wanna do... And will start stepping up for the weight-losing thingy, and will start changing style... Be ready to see a different me... After all the things that have happened the past couple of weeks... Ya, i supposed it's time for a new lifestyle, a new me...
Changes are inevitable in life... It is when we decide to change and how...
You trigger every little thing that is happening in my life from this moment...
Well, everything was quiet today... Too quiet i guess... Well, Dear called me and told me wad she saw.. Shock was the 1st reaction, sadness flows along with it... Well, no point lah...
Cravings for Mushroom today after my kor fried the mushroom egg... But i can't eat egg... Sickening... So i told mama to cook mushroom soup for me... HAHA!!! No lah, its for all of us... YuMMy!
I finished the chocolate mA bought for me yesterday....Shhh... I ate chocs again... Aganist my rule... HAhA!!! ShHhhh... Dun tell anyone oK!
Was organising the outing for 5A1 tmr... Hai... The guys hor... Really dunnoe when they will grow up lor... Cannot keep quiet and listen... Sickening... HAHA!!! They're still themselves... Still as sickening...
Ermm... Really got nothing to do at home... I just munched on anything i think i can eat... Logging on and off line, touching my laptop, lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, building sand castles... So Omg!
SiCkening...
I found the person he told me about.. She seems like a person with a cute personality... Ha!
Well... Life like this is better off i guess... Silent... In my own world... Dun have to worry bout any other thing... JUst me and wad i wanna care bout... Just me and my imagination... BlACk and WhItE... Colours coloured my world sometimes... Just like that... That's all i need now...
Ooo... I was thinking bout cutting my hair short recently... u know, i'm kind of sick of the long straight black-brown hair... It has been there since sec 2 or 3? My last short hair was sec1, that was mushroom head... thinking of something more style now... Ermmm... Still thinking lah.. Anyway, it'll be until next month then i'll do wad i wanna do... And will start stepping up for the weight-losing thingy, and will start changing style... Be ready to see a different me... After all the things that have happened the past couple of weeks... Ya, i supposed it's time for a new lifestyle, a new me...
Changes are inevitable in life... It is when we decide to change and how...
You trigger every little thing that is happening in my life from this moment...
You...
It felt wrong when I heard about you...
It didn't feel right when I received your sms anymore...
It felt wrong when u apologized to me...
It is so not you from before...
Why must everything become so strange between us? Why must our conversation contains figment of politeness? Why can't we be just friends?
I miss you a lot... But I dare not say it to you anymore...
It didn't feel right when I received your sms anymore...
It felt wrong when u apologized to me...
It is so not you from before...
Why must everything become so strange between us? Why must our conversation contains figment of politeness? Why can't we be just friends?
I miss you a lot... But I dare not say it to you anymore...
Thursday, August 10, 2006
NDP 06...
Some pics b4 i begin...
Ah mah and my 2 aunts came to visit us this noon.. Heh HeH!!! So funny, ah mah kept telling me wad she bought ask mama cook and everything... I was like, "Orh... Orh.... Ok" Hee~ Then, they left after a while...
An hour plus later, Dear came to visit me... Somebody lost her way at Bukit Gombak... HAHA!!! She actually walked all the way to Swiss Cottage when my house is on the opposite side... Told her just now, "got phone, dunnoe how to call ar?" HAHA!!! She spent the next few hours at my house talking talking, watching TV and all... Then we were looking at my pictures on my laptop... Heh HEH!!! Until 6plus... Then she very bo liao, just to take picture, we went down from level8 to level1, then from level 1 to level12 then all the way down again... Sickening... While waiting for bus, we were talking and talking, when the bus went right pass us and we were like, "YOUr BUS AR" HAHA!!!! Funny ar, my dear...
Well, he smsed some craps again... Craps it may be, laughters it brings... WAd ThE Hell!!!! HAHA!!!
I replied Joan's mail... Some random thing that she does... Heh HeH!
Well, i spent the rest of the night at home doing nothing.. Practically just finding things to eat... Heh HeH! And watching NDP06... It was cool... Every year, without fail, it amazes... Of coz it does... It's my country OK! It's also my birthday lah! BlEh!!! HAHA!!! O, the fireworks look so cool... Hope Friday i'll be fit enough to go Esplanade to watch... Hee~
We're 41!!!!!! Middle-aged but still young... Heh HeH!!! SinGaPore, SinGapore... I was singing the National anthem and reciting the pledge Ok! I'm a LoyAl citizen... Ain't easy to be a country, so i'm so so proud of this little red dot that i've spend my 18 years in... WahAHHAHA!!! LoVe U!!! here's to Another 41 years! By then, i'll be 59... OmG! HAHA!!!
I still feel you... Wonder when will you leave me for good? But then again, I can't bear to see that...
Ah mah and my 2 aunts came to visit us this noon.. Heh HeH!!! So funny, ah mah kept telling me wad she bought ask mama cook and everything... I was like, "Orh... Orh.... Ok" Hee~ Then, they left after a while...
An hour plus later, Dear came to visit me... Somebody lost her way at Bukit Gombak... HAHA!!! She actually walked all the way to Swiss Cottage when my house is on the opposite side... Told her just now, "got phone, dunnoe how to call ar?" HAHA!!! She spent the next few hours at my house talking talking, watching TV and all... Then we were looking at my pictures on my laptop... Heh HEH!!! Until 6plus... Then she very bo liao, just to take picture, we went down from level8 to level1, then from level 1 to level12 then all the way down again... Sickening... While waiting for bus, we were talking and talking, when the bus went right pass us and we were like, "YOUr BUS AR" HAHA!!!! Funny ar, my dear...
Well, he smsed some craps again... Craps it may be, laughters it brings... WAd ThE Hell!!!! HAHA!!!
I replied Joan's mail... Some random thing that she does... Heh HeH!
Well, i spent the rest of the night at home doing nothing.. Practically just finding things to eat... Heh HeH! And watching NDP06... It was cool... Every year, without fail, it amazes... Of coz it does... It's my country OK! It's also my birthday lah! BlEh!!! HAHA!!! O, the fireworks look so cool... Hope Friday i'll be fit enough to go Esplanade to watch... Hee~
We're 41!!!!!! Middle-aged but still young... Heh HeH!!! SinGaPore, SinGapore... I was singing the National anthem and reciting the pledge Ok! I'm a LoyAl citizen... Ain't easy to be a country, so i'm so so proud of this little red dot that i've spend my 18 years in... WahAHHAHA!!! LoVe U!!! here's to Another 41 years! By then, i'll be 59... OmG! HAHA!!!
I still feel you... Wonder when will you leave me for good? But then again, I can't bear to see that...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Chalet...
Monday morning... Went to school for BSTA revision lecture, no, not lecture, went to listen to exam format... WaD ThE! It was supposed to be 2hours but it ended 20min later, i was like, "Huh? Finish?!" So, decided to go get a hair cut... Y? Head too heavy, frindge getting on my nerves and just wanna get rid of some stuff... So, i called VK, asked Richard whether they free not... Jiawen and Joan went with me, but they didn't stay there with me, instead, they went to walk around...
Andy was the one who cut my hair... Ermm.. We chatted about some stuff... And he actually remembered he cut my hair b4 once, and rebonded for me once... HA! So i was like, "Tao Yan, u remember..." hee~ Me.... Then he used the hair dryer to blow my body... HAHA!!! Coz i was like, sweating and sweating... Heh HeH! He is so cute... And he was like," So, u wanna change your mind?" I told me, "NO... Dun have to..." He started getting serious and said he likes more mature ones... I kept laughing lah... Wad's there to be serious bout... So dots... Conclusion, he's a nice guy... short guy... HAHA!!!
Went back for Juniper's BSTA extra lesson... Whole didn't turned up except for Jiawen Joan and me... The rest are a bit mean lah hor... However, we did understand better bout hypothesis testing...
Afterwhich, went to meet Dear... I waited for quite a while bah... Until the train came and i saw her hair... And i concluded, she just woke up... HAHA!!!! Imagine... We stood all the way to Pasir Ris until the stop b4 the last... HAHA!!! Somebody told me second stop... Dun deny le dear... Xueni came to get us... Then we went in... Took a few pics, put my bag down and went to BBQ pit... Saw AStley!!!! So long never see him liao!!! HAHA!!! He grew fatter but the same old drunked... HAHA!!!
So we were eating, drinking and chatting till the sky is dark... Dear and I went to Ka Jiao Siqi's son, Davin Koh... So CuTe... He's 4 this year... And Siqi is pregnant le... HAHA!!! I touched her tummy... It felt so good... Soft soft de, felt normal but knowing that there's a life inside is so fascinating... HaHA!!!!
Later in the night, th rest of the departments came and I saw LAu... Turned around, JP standing there... i'm like, "Ermm... He's wearing Singlet..." HAhA!!!! JP happen to be OHS F&B director... Ha!!! And Dear told me Ivan was there too... Ya, saw him in red...
When i went there again later, he called out to me, "AH PO!" HAHA!!! Only he will call me that lah... I saw Si Wei too... She slimmed down so so much... So pretty... Time for Honey to have a make-over... HAHA!!!
Ok, JP scared me when we were bout to leave... went to bid goodbye to all, when he suddenly stood infront of me and said, "Y u leaving? You come here then stay upstairs, nv come down, then leaving?" I'm like, "I was here just now b4 u all came..." And laugh laugh laugh... Scare me lah... Then, i shouted 3 times, "Bye IvAn" But think he didn't hear me lah... After i walked a distance, he suddenly shout out, "AH PO!" So ya, guess the rest told him i was calling him... Then i shouted, "BYE IVAN!"
Ooo... Vincent Ah pek was there too... As usual, he's so crappy... HAHa!!!
Overall, i loved last night... It was a long journey back home though...
I had a really tough day today... I am SICK... Ya, a general name, SICK! Dun tell u the sickness... So i'll be resting damn long... Hai... Health is so so important...
He told me he got a computer le... I was like, "GoOD!" Hope he wun read my blog... I'm such nonsense...
MamA cooked me Fish porridge... YummY...
Anyway, in much pain now... So here's here... HA!
If only we were what we used to be, I may just kiss you on your cheek and say goodnight...
Andy was the one who cut my hair... Ermm.. We chatted about some stuff... And he actually remembered he cut my hair b4 once, and rebonded for me once... HA! So i was like, "Tao Yan, u remember..." hee~ Me.... Then he used the hair dryer to blow my body... HAHA!!! Coz i was like, sweating and sweating... Heh HeH! He is so cute... And he was like," So, u wanna change your mind?" I told me, "NO... Dun have to..." He started getting serious and said he likes more mature ones... I kept laughing lah... Wad's there to be serious bout... So dots... Conclusion, he's a nice guy... short guy... HAHA!!!
Went back for Juniper's BSTA extra lesson... Whole didn't turned up except for Jiawen Joan and me... The rest are a bit mean lah hor... However, we did understand better bout hypothesis testing...
Afterwhich, went to meet Dear... I waited for quite a while bah... Until the train came and i saw her hair... And i concluded, she just woke up... HAHA!!!! Imagine... We stood all the way to Pasir Ris until the stop b4 the last... HAHA!!! Somebody told me second stop... Dun deny le dear... Xueni came to get us... Then we went in... Took a few pics, put my bag down and went to BBQ pit... Saw AStley!!!! So long never see him liao!!! HAHA!!! He grew fatter but the same old drunked... HAHA!!!
So we were eating, drinking and chatting till the sky is dark... Dear and I went to Ka Jiao Siqi's son, Davin Koh... So CuTe... He's 4 this year... And Siqi is pregnant le... HAHA!!! I touched her tummy... It felt so good... Soft soft de, felt normal but knowing that there's a life inside is so fascinating... HaHA!!!!
Later in the night, th rest of the departments came and I saw LAu... Turned around, JP standing there... i'm like, "Ermm... He's wearing Singlet..." HAhA!!!! JP happen to be OHS F&B director... Ha!!! And Dear told me Ivan was there too... Ya, saw him in red...
When i went there again later, he called out to me, "AH PO!" HAHA!!! Only he will call me that lah... I saw Si Wei too... She slimmed down so so much... So pretty... Time for Honey to have a make-over... HAHA!!!
Ok, JP scared me when we were bout to leave... went to bid goodbye to all, when he suddenly stood infront of me and said, "Y u leaving? You come here then stay upstairs, nv come down, then leaving?" I'm like, "I was here just now b4 u all came..." And laugh laugh laugh... Scare me lah... Then, i shouted 3 times, "Bye IvAn" But think he didn't hear me lah... After i walked a distance, he suddenly shout out, "AH PO!" So ya, guess the rest told him i was calling him... Then i shouted, "BYE IVAN!"
Ooo... Vincent Ah pek was there too... As usual, he's so crappy... HAHa!!!
Overall, i loved last night... It was a long journey back home though...
I had a really tough day today... I am SICK... Ya, a general name, SICK! Dun tell u the sickness... So i'll be resting damn long... Hai... Health is so so important...
He told me he got a computer le... I was like, "GoOD!" Hope he wun read my blog... I'm such nonsense...
MamA cooked me Fish porridge... YummY...
Anyway, in much pain now... So here's here... HA!
If only we were what we used to be, I may just kiss you on your cheek and say goodnight...
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
today...
A lot of things happened today but i'm too tired to blog... Wait for me... One more day...
I'm gonna disappear for a while so it'll be normal if i dun blog...
A life changing experience...
I still miss you...
I'm gonna disappear for a while so it'll be normal if i dun blog...
A life changing experience...
I still miss you...
Monday, August 07, 2006
EEEEE... HHHHHH...If u can understand
I cried myself to sleep again... I thought about u throughout the silent night... Wondering are you doing well...
Woke up in the morning feeling your presence, but all I had was my pillow... I looked at my phone waiting for u to send me an sms, like u always did, even if it is just a simple, "Good Morning Dear..." I waited and waited but my phone remained quiet...
I pulled myself away from my bed and read wad i've written for you... I held back my tears... To keep the love going...
I decided to ask you whether u r free after work... U said u would be, but i just wanna leave u that letter, on your car... I did... I took a glance at the piggy that i always held on when i was on your car... But now, it is out of reach, just like u to me...
I told u that i've left wad was left of me on your car. But u asked me whether I wanna have dinner with you... I hesitated but told u to come if u wish... I saw u walked onto the escalator from afar, and saw u moving further and further away from me... I know by then, i've lost u...
U said u are not gonna join me for dinner because u feel sick, i told u to go back home and rest well, u replied and said, "Ya, I will, thanks..." I added on, "dun miss me too much..." And u replied, "I will too..." I wanted to cry but I stopped myself and smile at your unshield love... And told u to rest very well...
I told u to read my letter but u said u wouldn't, u'd rather to keep them as great memories... I insist u do because those were the memories with a tinge of request... U said no... I can only smile...
I lost myself when i let go of your arms... How i wish i can hold u again, hold u tightly...
Well, enough of my emotional self i guess... I need to wake up somehow... Today, Ashril, Si En, Ben Koh smsed me... It's so weird... Honey called me... Normal... AUNTY YIM CALLED ME, NOT NORMAL... HeH HEH!!! Funny how pple remembered me... Well, I'm apple right? Apple in everyone's eyes... Always there no matter rain or shine... I wanted to ignore them because of wad is going on now but i told myself not to because somehow, they dun owe me anything, they are my friends...
Well, trying to bring back my smiles without you... But it is hard to...
Woke up in the morning feeling your presence, but all I had was my pillow... I looked at my phone waiting for u to send me an sms, like u always did, even if it is just a simple, "Good Morning Dear..." I waited and waited but my phone remained quiet...
I pulled myself away from my bed and read wad i've written for you... I held back my tears... To keep the love going...
I decided to ask you whether u r free after work... U said u would be, but i just wanna leave u that letter, on your car... I did... I took a glance at the piggy that i always held on when i was on your car... But now, it is out of reach, just like u to me...
I told u that i've left wad was left of me on your car. But u asked me whether I wanna have dinner with you... I hesitated but told u to come if u wish... I saw u walked onto the escalator from afar, and saw u moving further and further away from me... I know by then, i've lost u...
U said u are not gonna join me for dinner because u feel sick, i told u to go back home and rest well, u replied and said, "Ya, I will, thanks..." I added on, "dun miss me too much..." And u replied, "I will too..." I wanted to cry but I stopped myself and smile at your unshield love... And told u to rest very well...
I told u to read my letter but u said u wouldn't, u'd rather to keep them as great memories... I insist u do because those were the memories with a tinge of request... U said no... I can only smile...
I lost myself when i let go of your arms... How i wish i can hold u again, hold u tightly...
Well, enough of my emotional self i guess... I need to wake up somehow... Today, Ashril, Si En, Ben Koh smsed me... It's so weird... Honey called me... Normal... AUNTY YIM CALLED ME, NOT NORMAL... HeH HEH!!! Funny how pple remembered me... Well, I'm apple right? Apple in everyone's eyes... Always there no matter rain or shine... I wanted to ignore them because of wad is going on now but i told myself not to because somehow, they dun owe me anything, they are my friends...
Well, trying to bring back my smiles without you... But it is hard to...
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Lost... So lost...
I find myself foolish... But i can't seem to wake up...
Today, i realised how much i've given to you... I felt ur care for me... I wanted to shove them aside but i couldn't bring myself to do it...
U gave me your warmth that i dun think i can find elsewhere anymore...
U looked at me several times thinking i did not see you... But i did...
U tried to tell the story out loud, making everyone think it was your history, but then i was right there, knowing i was the one who told u all those u've illustrated... I wanted to keep my ears close, but i couldn't, because i wanna know wad u think...
U touched me again... I tried so hard to resist but somehow those touches were just too natural... It is hard to get rid of something which is always there...
I walked off taking your jacket along... I forgot it is yours... I went back and returned to u... Sniffing what was left of it, knowing i can't do that anymore... U said goodbye... I tried so hard not to look at u but i did...
I know all these are just a torture to me but i want to feel them... Because i still wanna see u... Even if it is just a glance... I am so foolish...
U said u have something for me, and u passed me 2 honeydews, like u always did... I felt that sweetness turned bitter because i know chances like that will seldom come by anymore... I smiled at you, having tears in my eyes, and waved goodbye...
I talked to my best friend and tears came rolling down my cheeks once again... She told me, "It hurts me to see u like that..." But Yuting, i can't helped it... I know u know that... I thought i could laugh it off but i realised i can't.
I walked home looking at places where u once stepped on and felt an ache in my heart... I'm sorry, myself, i can't help...
I heard you worked for 3 more hours and it hurts me again, to see u having so little rest...
It's in the silences, the words u never said. I see it in your eyes, it always starts the same way. I see you looked at me, when u think I'm not aware, u're searching for clues just how deep my feelings are... All I know is wad I feel when I look into your eyes...
From this moment on... I know it can never be...
Am i just too foolish? I still yearn your calls and touches... How did I fall into this? How did I fall in love with you? I dun seem to be able to let go...
Today, i realised how much i've given to you... I felt ur care for me... I wanted to shove them aside but i couldn't bring myself to do it...
U gave me your warmth that i dun think i can find elsewhere anymore...
U looked at me several times thinking i did not see you... But i did...
U tried to tell the story out loud, making everyone think it was your history, but then i was right there, knowing i was the one who told u all those u've illustrated... I wanted to keep my ears close, but i couldn't, because i wanna know wad u think...
U touched me again... I tried so hard to resist but somehow those touches were just too natural... It is hard to get rid of something which is always there...
I walked off taking your jacket along... I forgot it is yours... I went back and returned to u... Sniffing what was left of it, knowing i can't do that anymore... U said goodbye... I tried so hard not to look at u but i did...
I know all these are just a torture to me but i want to feel them... Because i still wanna see u... Even if it is just a glance... I am so foolish...
U said u have something for me, and u passed me 2 honeydews, like u always did... I felt that sweetness turned bitter because i know chances like that will seldom come by anymore... I smiled at you, having tears in my eyes, and waved goodbye...
I talked to my best friend and tears came rolling down my cheeks once again... She told me, "It hurts me to see u like that..." But Yuting, i can't helped it... I know u know that... I thought i could laugh it off but i realised i can't.
I walked home looking at places where u once stepped on and felt an ache in my heart... I'm sorry, myself, i can't help...
I heard you worked for 3 more hours and it hurts me again, to see u having so little rest...
It's in the silences, the words u never said. I see it in your eyes, it always starts the same way. I see you looked at me, when u think I'm not aware, u're searching for clues just how deep my feelings are... All I know is wad I feel when I look into your eyes...
From this moment on... I know it can never be...
Am i just too foolish? I still yearn your calls and touches... How did I fall into this? How did I fall in love with you? I dun seem to be able to let go...
Saturday, August 05, 2006
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I lost u...
A day totally messed up... I lost wad was so precious to me... I could've held on but i chose to let go... I dun want something to be such a make-believe nor do i want you to suffer at all.
I thought everything was supposed to be... Everything seemed so perfect... I should've know that nothing can be perfect in this world. U can have something but be sure to lose something.
You came into my life offering me wad i lacked most but you left my life, lingering in my soul... Am i dreaming? Am i naive? I dun want to give up, i've yet to though... Because my heart still belongs to you...
I tried to make my day as normal as possible but i can't help but think of you. The look on your face when u saw me cry, the touch u tried to give but i pushed it all aside, the smile u squeezed from your face just to tell me u are alright and the smell that seems to keep coming when i laid in my quiet night... You seem to be everywhere when i know you're gone.
You told me u dun wanna give up, that u dun wanna let me go but that very heart of yours is too big for me to hold... U told me you couldn't sleep, that u felt the sense of loneliness and u told me i'm the cause of them all... I dun want u to linger no more... I tried utmost to tell u that wad is meant to be, shall be...
I woke up in the morning, with you by my side... No, u are just made-up by my simple mind... I hugged onto my pillow, feeling your arms wrapped around me, but i know, those were just me... Tears came streaming down my cheeks, unexpectedly... And u know, you are the cause of it...
I tried to pretend that everything was alright, to smile and laugh like i always do, but whenever i am alone, when nobody talks to me, my mind wonders off, to find that comfort zone where i used to be.
Despite the fact that you are gone, i know that you will always be there, so there... I hope you will be happy from this day on and dun let me take over your mind no more, because, there is someone else, you odd to have, to have your life taken over by... And I know, that is not me...
I miss you and I love you... Yet this essence of love can never be uncovered anymore...
I am sorry, friends... Dun ask me why, dun ask me wad happened... Give me some time before i tell u the truth... My mind is in a whirl now... Let me be... When u found tears in my smiles, please do not pursue the reason why. When u see me staring into the air, wake me up... When u no longer see my bubbly-self, find me and tell me that you are there for me... Thank You...
I thought everything was supposed to be... Everything seemed so perfect... I should've know that nothing can be perfect in this world. U can have something but be sure to lose something.
You came into my life offering me wad i lacked most but you left my life, lingering in my soul... Am i dreaming? Am i naive? I dun want to give up, i've yet to though... Because my heart still belongs to you...
I tried to make my day as normal as possible but i can't help but think of you. The look on your face when u saw me cry, the touch u tried to give but i pushed it all aside, the smile u squeezed from your face just to tell me u are alright and the smell that seems to keep coming when i laid in my quiet night... You seem to be everywhere when i know you're gone.
You told me u dun wanna give up, that u dun wanna let me go but that very heart of yours is too big for me to hold... U told me you couldn't sleep, that u felt the sense of loneliness and u told me i'm the cause of them all... I dun want u to linger no more... I tried utmost to tell u that wad is meant to be, shall be...
I woke up in the morning, with you by my side... No, u are just made-up by my simple mind... I hugged onto my pillow, feeling your arms wrapped around me, but i know, those were just me... Tears came streaming down my cheeks, unexpectedly... And u know, you are the cause of it...
I tried to pretend that everything was alright, to smile and laugh like i always do, but whenever i am alone, when nobody talks to me, my mind wonders off, to find that comfort zone where i used to be.
Despite the fact that you are gone, i know that you will always be there, so there... I hope you will be happy from this day on and dun let me take over your mind no more, because, there is someone else, you odd to have, to have your life taken over by... And I know, that is not me...
I miss you and I love you... Yet this essence of love can never be uncovered anymore...
I am sorry, friends... Dun ask me why, dun ask me wad happened... Give me some time before i tell u the truth... My mind is in a whirl now... Let me be... When u found tears in my smiles, please do not pursue the reason why. When u see me staring into the air, wake me up... When u no longer see my bubbly-self, find me and tell me that you are there for me... Thank You...
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Sad....
Darn tiring day... Just a short blog.
Presentation caught me off guard, first time in my life, i didn't have the chance to complete my presentation. Feeling sux but well, wad to do, that's the given time frame.
Got BSTA paper back, great, i passed it really well, happy for myself, after the setback of the just-pass for my common test. Guess what? I went in the the test hall with my mind pretty much blanked... Too nervous but did all i could to get wad i had, so HAPPY! On the other hand, i falied my OCOM paper... Heh Heh! Hopefully all the table topics, class participation and group work will add up to a C bah... HoPe!
Very tired after ITR, so went back home after that. However, didn't sleep, i was busy doing the MIEC newspaper hardcopy... Then, i felt bored, so i swept the floor... HA!
I'm very angry with my mother... Why can't she understands that i hate it when she talks bad bout my friends? Especially him... Feel so sad again... I dun like her for being so not understandable bout wad i want and wad i yearn. It's not bout the looks, the money or the brain... It's bout the feeling... Besides, he's not bad looking, he's not poor and he got brain... And the feeling is there... Why can't she just let me be, let us be, let everything goes wherever it should... Until it ends... Even if it is a wrong move to fall for someone like him, y not just let it be? Coz i will have no regrets, coz i did it willingly, coz i want this... Something that is so precious to me yet she never understands me... I just wanna have it... Even if it is hell i'm heading, i chose it... It's me... It's all me... Why can't she just let me be? Regrets? Even if i have any, it is myself that is suffering... It's, afterall, part of growing up... Why can't she just comprehend this?
I'm tired from all these things happening... I'm once again, once the edge of breaking down... SLEEP!!! LOTS OF IT...
I dun wanna lose you to somebody so close to me...
Presentation caught me off guard, first time in my life, i didn't have the chance to complete my presentation. Feeling sux but well, wad to do, that's the given time frame.
Got BSTA paper back, great, i passed it really well, happy for myself, after the setback of the just-pass for my common test. Guess what? I went in the the test hall with my mind pretty much blanked... Too nervous but did all i could to get wad i had, so HAPPY! On the other hand, i falied my OCOM paper... Heh Heh! Hopefully all the table topics, class participation and group work will add up to a C bah... HoPe!
Very tired after ITR, so went back home after that. However, didn't sleep, i was busy doing the MIEC newspaper hardcopy... Then, i felt bored, so i swept the floor... HA!
I'm very angry with my mother... Why can't she understands that i hate it when she talks bad bout my friends? Especially him... Feel so sad again... I dun like her for being so not understandable bout wad i want and wad i yearn. It's not bout the looks, the money or the brain... It's bout the feeling... Besides, he's not bad looking, he's not poor and he got brain... And the feeling is there... Why can't she just let me be, let us be, let everything goes wherever it should... Until it ends... Even if it is a wrong move to fall for someone like him, y not just let it be? Coz i will have no regrets, coz i did it willingly, coz i want this... Something that is so precious to me yet she never understands me... I just wanna have it... Even if it is hell i'm heading, i chose it... It's me... It's all me... Why can't she just let me be? Regrets? Even if i have any, it is myself that is suffering... It's, afterall, part of growing up... Why can't she just comprehend this?
I'm tired from all these things happening... I'm once again, once the edge of breaking down... SLEEP!!! LOTS OF IT...
I dun wanna lose you to somebody so close to me...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Happy day!
There are a few things that I need to touch on today.
It was raining cats and dogs this morning, i woke up pretty early, so i did everything in a relax way and then walked out, taking much attention on my slippers, coz it's slippery.. Slipped a few times but didn't fall. Upon reaching Bus stop, wondered a little whether I'd bumped into Ping Hong or not, but well, i didn't.
At the interchange, again i was thinking whether i'd bumped into anyone familiar or not, obviously, i did not. All the way to school, i was ston-ing and staring into the cold air, hugging myself, trying to keep myself warm under the air-con. Then, i kind of remembered chatting with Wei Yi online last night, he wanted to meet us for some catching up but Ma cooked so i didn't go out. So i was thinking maybe meeting him later in the afternoon bah.
Before going for CIP, i nearly slipped again at the stairway and guess who caught me? My SiSter... HAHA!!!
So, CIP started. As usual, sat there trying to finish the tutorial and also to finish off the E-portfolio. Took quite a while but didn't manage to get it done. VK came to talk to me bout something which, as usual, i dun really catch, so i assumed he was telling me something bout the blog thingy, in the end, he got the wrong person, he thought it was me who told him bout some mails or wadever... Then, he began asking bout tagboard again so i spent some of my time telling him wad to do but he couldn't get wad i mean... Then, Mrs Ang caught all of us using MSN and kind of admonished us and told us to off it, so there went the convo. Was really thirsty so decided to grab a drink. Jiawen went with me. Who knows just minutes after we left, she let us off... HA!!! Well, went back and packed up.
Went to eat with them but i didn't eat coz i was full from the Soya Bean. After that, decided to leave, initially thinking of sleeping, then thought of Wei Yi. So i asked him out. This sickening guy make me wait for an hour, dunno how to tell me to go home first meh?! Ya, so from 11.50, waited till 1pm... FOR THESE 2 GUYs! Silong and Wei YI! BuAy Tahan... So, went to food court and chatted some stuff, and laughed all the way. Pretty happy to meet up with them, at least i caught some laughs. Somehow, i caught something more... I tried hard not to think bout it but somehow, i got some hints or something. K, let's just conclude that i think too much so ya, i think too much. Well, Wei Yi said NS is hard, he wants to study, and this time, he is determine to. Hopefully, he's sincere bout it, better landing in future. All the best to this friend of mine. Come to think of it, i knew him since Pri1... Wahh.... HA!
Anyway, after much walking around and a FREE Mocha ice blended from Coffee Bean, contributed by Silong, Wei Yi went to get his gf while Silong walked with me to interchange. Well, he, for some reasons, got to know bout this somebody who cuts my hair and i got no choice but to admit... It's so funny the way i reacted and the way he told me.. HAHA!!! So, we went pass VK, so i told him bout it, briefly and told him not to tell anyone... HA! Saw Vk pretty empty so i walked in to see the 2 GuyS! Heh hEh! They are pretty free.. Richard started asking bout the tag again, so i patiently tried to explain wadever i meant this morning. Then, i showed them some videos that i got in my lappy... Funny... Richard finished half and left to do some PS2 thingy while Andy was so entertained by the videos. He's funny, kept laughing and laughing even when i dun think it's funny... And imagine their reactiong when they saw the Cats' video... HeH! K, it's disgusting... Anyway, i was kind of tired so after all the videos, i said bye bye and left.
At home, didn't take nap, started to do the E-portfolio and completed it at bout 6plus 7. Then, i logged off after a little chat with ting coz i needed the loo... Hee~ After that, i watched TV the whole night... HAHA!
Then, papa called back 3 times lah... Kept asking me i wanna eat not coz i haven't eat... HAHA!!! Ok, so in the end, decided to go kopitiam with both pa and ma. Ya, so we went cycling... Hee~
Before i got on the bicycle, got an sms from sister... Well, SmiLe my sister! I'm so always there, whether u want me or not... :)
O ya, dear told me she fell down... Dunno wad happen... hope she's doing fine...
Going to OHS tomorrow to get my pay and to watch movie with Jiawen and joAn! WAHAHA!!! LAKE HOUSe!!!
Right... So these are the stuff that i wanna say. I had a wonderful day today... Especially seeing Wei Yi and Silong... I love today... 31st July 06
O... It's chinese Valentine's today... Happy Chinese Valentine's to ALL!!!
MuAcKs!
NiGht!
CiAO!
I wonder...
It was raining cats and dogs this morning, i woke up pretty early, so i did everything in a relax way and then walked out, taking much attention on my slippers, coz it's slippery.. Slipped a few times but didn't fall. Upon reaching Bus stop, wondered a little whether I'd bumped into Ping Hong or not, but well, i didn't.
At the interchange, again i was thinking whether i'd bumped into anyone familiar or not, obviously, i did not. All the way to school, i was ston-ing and staring into the cold air, hugging myself, trying to keep myself warm under the air-con. Then, i kind of remembered chatting with Wei Yi online last night, he wanted to meet us for some catching up but Ma cooked so i didn't go out. So i was thinking maybe meeting him later in the afternoon bah.
Before going for CIP, i nearly slipped again at the stairway and guess who caught me? My SiSter... HAHA!!!
So, CIP started. As usual, sat there trying to finish the tutorial and also to finish off the E-portfolio. Took quite a while but didn't manage to get it done. VK came to talk to me bout something which, as usual, i dun really catch, so i assumed he was telling me something bout the blog thingy, in the end, he got the wrong person, he thought it was me who told him bout some mails or wadever... Then, he began asking bout tagboard again so i spent some of my time telling him wad to do but he couldn't get wad i mean... Then, Mrs Ang caught all of us using MSN and kind of admonished us and told us to off it, so there went the convo. Was really thirsty so decided to grab a drink. Jiawen went with me. Who knows just minutes after we left, she let us off... HA!!! Well, went back and packed up.
Went to eat with them but i didn't eat coz i was full from the Soya Bean. After that, decided to leave, initially thinking of sleeping, then thought of Wei Yi. So i asked him out. This sickening guy make me wait for an hour, dunno how to tell me to go home first meh?! Ya, so from 11.50, waited till 1pm... FOR THESE 2 GUYs! Silong and Wei YI! BuAy Tahan... So, went to food court and chatted some stuff, and laughed all the way. Pretty happy to meet up with them, at least i caught some laughs. Somehow, i caught something more... I tried hard not to think bout it but somehow, i got some hints or something. K, let's just conclude that i think too much so ya, i think too much. Well, Wei Yi said NS is hard, he wants to study, and this time, he is determine to. Hopefully, he's sincere bout it, better landing in future. All the best to this friend of mine. Come to think of it, i knew him since Pri1... Wahh.... HA!
Anyway, after much walking around and a FREE Mocha ice blended from Coffee Bean, contributed by Silong, Wei Yi went to get his gf while Silong walked with me to interchange. Well, he, for some reasons, got to know bout this somebody who cuts my hair and i got no choice but to admit... It's so funny the way i reacted and the way he told me.. HAHA!!! So, we went pass VK, so i told him bout it, briefly and told him not to tell anyone... HA! Saw Vk pretty empty so i walked in to see the 2 GuyS! Heh hEh! They are pretty free.. Richard started asking bout the tag again, so i patiently tried to explain wadever i meant this morning. Then, i showed them some videos that i got in my lappy... Funny... Richard finished half and left to do some PS2 thingy while Andy was so entertained by the videos. He's funny, kept laughing and laughing even when i dun think it's funny... And imagine their reactiong when they saw the Cats' video... HeH! K, it's disgusting... Anyway, i was kind of tired so after all the videos, i said bye bye and left.
At home, didn't take nap, started to do the E-portfolio and completed it at bout 6plus 7. Then, i logged off after a little chat with ting coz i needed the loo... Hee~ After that, i watched TV the whole night... HAHA!
Then, papa called back 3 times lah... Kept asking me i wanna eat not coz i haven't eat... HAHA!!! Ok, so in the end, decided to go kopitiam with both pa and ma. Ya, so we went cycling... Hee~
Before i got on the bicycle, got an sms from sister... Well, SmiLe my sister! I'm so always there, whether u want me or not... :)
O ya, dear told me she fell down... Dunno wad happen... hope she's doing fine...
Going to OHS tomorrow to get my pay and to watch movie with Jiawen and joAn! WAHAHA!!! LAKE HOUSe!!!
Right... So these are the stuff that i wanna say. I had a wonderful day today... Especially seeing Wei Yi and Silong... I love today... 31st July 06
O... It's chinese Valentine's today... Happy Chinese Valentine's to ALL!!!
MuAcKs!
NiGht!
CiAO!
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