BONKERS!!!!

HA! I went bonkers today over a flying fishcake. U see, i was peacefully eating my much awaited recess and this fucking fishcake came flying over onto my shoulder. FuK lor! It's full of chilli and my U got stained by it. Wah lao! I was so fucking mad at it lor and basically the rest of the day sux..

Things were pretty much the same today. During HU lesson, i got so fed up with pple who dun answer when they know. Ok, i'm one of them... In the end, i basically say out the answer, loud and clear so Miss Ang wun feel so fed up. I know she feel very sad bout the fact that most pple in our class have given up on HU. HeH! Hai... So, trying to make her feel better and also, i know the answer mah, so just share lor... In the end, TYS and I were the only ones who bother to actually speak out the answers lor... Hai...

HA! I got another song of Rupee AND i finally found someone who have "dun ChA" HEH, Listen to it man! It's cute... HAHA!!!

Went to watch The maid today... Ermm... Wanna scold Bt kor liao... say it doesn't scare him, wah lao, 1st part scare the living daylight out of me, i nearly threw the chocolate away... HA! But after that, all are fine... It's quite an okay movie bah... Rate 6 out of 10 stars... Not bad...

I spotted one shade and i'm in love with it, gonna go get it and also, eyeliner!!! ZA de... On sale... Hee! Gonna buy too... hai... Keep wasting money.. HEH!!! That's wad i always do when i get paid. HeH! Naughty me... But i do save lor...

Tml teachers' day... heH! Another fun day i suppose.. And work after that...

ermm... Faizal fractured his hand... Hai... Poor him... he wasn't present for our last class photo... Sad u see.... Hai... Hope he's doing well le wor...

Chung ee... Ermm... Weird... He kind of went missing this few days... HeH! Ended up asking his ai ai, who later, told him and he called me when i was doing mock, i picked up the phone and everyone looked over... HAHA!!! Embarassed...

ok, that's it... Short sHort... Tml maybe more...

Intriguing...

CRAPS!!!!

Guess wad? GUess!!! Guess!!!!! HAha!!! There's nothing... HAHA!!! Ok, craps. I'm very hyper now... hee~ Maybe coz i had a great nap just now and i got my stuff done, most of it lah... At least for wad i've planned.

Msg i made caused quite a bit of trouble, maybe i should've put a "friend" there heh... Hai... Pple always mis-interpret wad i wanna say... HA! Anyway, most understood, only a handful. HA!!!

Anyway, school today was fruitful, was fun, though it's always tiring but i had fun today. Haven't enjoyed so much for a while in school liao... Especially during PE lesson, whole class rebelled against one evil-looking girl... HAHA!!! Really, class spirit wor...

Absorbed wad i should during physics practical today, unlike the other time... HeH!

HeH... Nothing much to say wor... Nothing interesting happened.

Pple going very crazy nowadays. Putting water on pple's chair, playing with nick on MSN, playing missing game... wah lao... Can't stand... Some more? Kick pple's butt from afar with a very loud spanking sound, throwing things around... HAhA!!! Grown-up kids nowadays... HAHA!!! SOCIety changing lor...

Ok... i dun wanna continue liao, arbo, more craps might come out, or even prawns! WTH!!! hAHa!

Tempted to touch... if I can...

All i gotta give...

Very bad of me.. I practically did nothing this weekend. HaH! No idea y, is the week too tough that i must let myself rest SOOO much on the weekend? Dunno y... Today, woke up feeling hot, feverish but well, it was ok.. Slept too late perhaps. Didn't feel like doing maths at all, in the end, force myself to sit down and do, but leh, i didn't finish... HA!

Then, i went out with mama, go temple bai bai... Hai... MAmA very lo so lor, keep saying this and that, i buay tahan... I just let her say, say say.... Until she finished. HEH! Then, saw Xiao qiang along the way, mama was like, "He kept looking at you, like u must look at him like that." I'm like, HA! Friends mah! Nothing nothing... HAHA!!! Mama always think so much... Hai...

Ting actually asked me out this afternoon, but i only saw her msg at bout 1.30pm, coz i was sleeping! HA! Pig... And feel very beat so decided not to, which i later regret, coz i dun have any books to read le... Tao Yan... Ermm.. Last night, we were sharing so much.. And i was in complete shock bout the stuff she told me, dunno y, she always surprised me with all this things, how come my life not so surprising one? Tao Yan...

LAst night, Kelvin called and he offered lots of advice to me which well, i kind of make jokes out of it but then, seriously, they are all absorbed into my head, so dun worry, i'm fine...

Wad else?? Ermm... I was a bit cut off from friends today... My phone was totally silent, except for ting's msg and for the rest of the day, totally silent... HA! Sian but then, it good coz i had some time for myself but at the end of the night, called felicia to ask bout this and that. HeHe~

Plans for next Wed/Thurs are officially off... Heh! Nobody seems interested like i've said. Likewise, my personal plan is disrupted too. Hai... So, i decided to go earn some extra bucks, from none other than OHS.. HeH! And to, fix some really strained relationship with pple... Hehe~ Other than that, this week will be one which i bury myself into D&T... I am totally behind schedule!!!! Sux wor...

Last night, i found out that they are more pple having their BD in sept than i previously thought there were... And u know wad, it's like 3 in a roll, 2 days away from each other.... Wah! Xiong ar.... Hai... Well, actually not really lah, coz i dun even know wad am i gonna get for them, or maybe not? HEH! I'm not so bad lah hor... Will find something nice and good for each one of them, no worries, Apple hen you xing de...

Tell u something, i had 2 really bad dreams this couple of weeks. One was bout Firdaus and the other was Bt kor... HAHA!!! Both are so ridiculous, i was so shocked when i woke up... And i'm like, WTF!!!! Haven't told anyone the details yet but i doubt i will, they are just too embarassing to be told... haiyo.. Too much sleep liao, must balance, arbo nightmares like that would really scare the hell out of me... HA!

Umm... Going back to school tml... A bit sian but at the same time, kind of anticipating the arrival of it coz seriously, there wun be many days left for us to actually enjoy in the SIAN times... HeH! Plus, teachers' day coming, our class had done things for them, and also, it's like our last year to officially celebrate teachers' day and have half-day away from school. Hai... 5 years... Just like that... Then, prelim will come, and then O level will come, then our chalet and that's it, that's practically the end of 5A1.... Hai... Can't bear to leave it, but well, everything got to move on, so do we, so does the school, and the class, and every single one of us... Hai...
Cherish the last...

Well, another week to handle, another week to stress, all i got to do is to make them all fair!

I nearly cost a friendship to end... But i'm sure i'll make it back... Apple StYle....

Stress? No yesterday.. Just tired...

I'm was very bad last night during work. Actually, i thought it would be a great night but after being post to work in lavender, i started to grumble... Heh! Quite a few reasons for it lah, but then dun wish to disclose anything coz i might offend someone. However, the pple there were alright lah and since it's not table serving, it's really ok... Heh!

The pple there very impressed with GM wor... Coz u see, beside, OHS is having their very own Dnd, and b4 the thing started, GM came over to talk to the pple there and he was real friendly so at the end of the night, b4 the pple went off, they actually said among themselves, "u know hor, the GM is very friendly, aiya, u weren't here, he came over and greeted us..." I'm like, cool huh, got this kind of boss up there. But leh, who knows wor, in front of guests mah... HAHA!!

End of the night, i was very tired le, but still got OT... Hai... Didn't agree to it but then ermm... U know, gotta do it. In the end, my face offended someone. Ermm... Feel so sorry bout that but u know, having to wake up early in the morning, go to school, rush home, get my stuff, then went back to school, until 4.30pm and teacher refused to release until 4.40pm, then i gotta rushed out and catch the bus. Though work was pleasant but tiredness climb onto me. PLus, not to forget, i didn't have my lunch and dinner... And the only thing i ate was like Mango pudding, and it's a pathetic bowl. Hai... Kept looking for pple who can give me food, Terry was good enough to put 2 peanuts into my mouth and Andy gave me something which i dunnoe, but it's like only a few.... Please... couldn't filled even 1/100000000000(until endless zeros) of my stomach. HeH! I just kept complaining that i'm hungry to many pple who walked past me or talked to me. HeH! must be very annoying...

Then, thanks to firdaus, i got a can of Nescafe, something to actually keep me awake. However, i dunnoe whether is it coz i'm used to drinking Latte, i didn't feel anything from the regular one. Hai... Then, i got stomachache later.... Sick wor... empty stomach yet it hurts. Peng... Lavender for me to handle is wad Firdaus told me, but everytime i went to get something then came back, someone else had taken them, sickening, dunno who's that freak... HeH! O ya... I accidentally hit a Malay guy's face(from the midnight team), with a napkin, actually i didn't feel like talking lah, so i wanted to reply him using napkin and in the end, it went really hard on his face(i can hear the sound) and he grabbed me on the neck and wanted to trash me up! I'm like, wad?! NONONONo! SORRY!!! HAHA!!! He didn't wanna give in, u know, until we were close to ob2 and the dnd was still going on, so then he let me off... I'm like... Wah Lao! In total shock lor... It kept me awake for a while lah... haha!

Felt so sorry to Sean wor... He kept wanting to make me laugh but the point is, i can't... In a very bad situation... HAHA! So at the end of the day, i apologized to him for showing him the moody face. Also, to Firdaus.. I kind of gave him the pissed off look when he told me to do things but the fact is, all the stuff he asked me to do were a far cry from those in the ballrooms... HeH! So i said sorry as well.. So many Sorrys... Haiyo... All because of my attitude.. Paiseh lah, Apple Attitude mah.... HeH...

In transport, i couldn't sleep coz the coffee is working really well, so i msged bt kor and told him i very hungry, haha! Ok, i got nothing better to do, so i kept disturbing pple with my craps. Hee~ Back home, nothing to eat, couldn't sleep, came in here and started chatting with kor and wei yi bout different things... i finally know what that girl looks like liao, from a very clear view... Hee~

okok... So work was just like that, met a lot of new faces.. However, there are also those that look new but in fact, i know them, like the one that tried to trash me up... HAHA!!

Continue tml.. Gonna talk to Ting Sister LIao... CiAo!!!

Still the same...

Weird of me to be in here at this time of the day huh? Well, feel like blogging now, dun wanna come here tonight, wanna complete more Production schedule instead of browsing the web.

Erm... " Life is always full of people that make things wrong. But they are also the ones who make life so much sweeter and enjoyable." How does it sound? True enough, life is full of pple who make things look like there's never an ending but they are also the ones who make this long run the most amazing one. Hai... Early in the morning, received a msg that kind of touched me... O my... Very bad to receive this kind of stuff at this time... However, i didn't say much. A promise is always a promise, never meant to be broken. Hai.. It is not just to pple who cares bout me, but also to myself, my own pride and dignity. Dun really have to degrade myself to that point. Very confused bout the things that are going on. Hai.... Look, it's getting no where...

There's 2 mock papers today. I supposed i'm gonna fail my SS paper... Wah lao... I got one whole question not done lor! Like 7 marks leh... sad lah.... Then Chinese leh... Gonna do badly this time, coz it is always the 1st part that boost my spirit but then, the 1st part, out of 5 i got 4 not sure... See... Cannot lah... That's y, dun wanna come in tonight liao... Gonna bury myself in revision today till 11 then do D&T.

Just found out that there's Chemistry practical tml, or should i say, Miss Wang only told us today. Sian lah... It's not that the lesson is sian, it's that i got work ar... And the practical is like until 4 which i think will definitely drag to 4.30 de lor... Sick... Then working at 6 wor... Hai... Dead meat... Might just be going down straight. Hopefully my bag is big enough to put my skirt and T... Hai... Can't expect myself to skip the lesson which i will never do, coz i kind of enjoy playing with the chemicals, hee~ And well, prelim nearing rmb? Dun wanna disappoint myself any further.

To express:
It is not everyday when you get to know something u don't. Sometimes, u purged your thoughts so much in search of an answer to some unknown questions. However, all seems to be to no avail. Then, there will be something that comes along and bring u further down.

You feel unloved in some ways, unappreciated for wad you try to do, uncertain bout the path you are taking and most importantly, unable to know wad exactly went wrong. It is not about who made it or y it went wrong, it is how it went wrong.

While resolving this uncertainty, you found out more, more than you wanna know and it is never pleasant to be kept in the dark. Sometimes, you closed one eye so as to avoid being continuously or openly mocked at, but deep within it's hurting just too much. You need someone to listen to wad you have to say but somehow, no one around you can be trusted or should i say, they seem like they can be, but they couldn't.

You see, people aren't born with everything, at every phase of life, they learned, gained knowledge, gained more exposure, but sometimes, they become so cunning, so much so that they didn't even realised. I wish, i wasn't there.. Always...

Some strangers sleep in my heart, unknowingly, they woke up, and take wad they want, leave when it's unexplained. It always hurt to see someone leave especially those that meant so much.

Am i a dreamer? Someone who locked my faith inside? Now, I'm climbing the walls.

Suddenly everything comes alive, i got to explain myself for wad happened, i need to let pple know that i am fine. I need to be worried by someone else. Guilt filled my body, crimson my face turned, still, i have to contemplate, to mull over the faults that i made, to make them right...

It is not as if i did anything deadly? Not anything like murder. Somehow, i betrayed myself, my thoughts, my pride, my dignity as a human being.

You see, i'm always a fighter, but sometimes, a fighter will fall from their place, lost their shield, dropped their weapon and then killed. Without having any backups, a tough fighter will also fail. At the end of the day, i'm still human, made of flesh and blood... And emotions.

Another turning point against the rushing tide, against all the rights and wrongs, but i believe no matter wad, good or bad, happy or sad, alone or accompanied, i will continue, moving along this path that i chose. A path of uncertainty....

I pray that this will help me leave the past behind.

I am still me.

So dark, so mysteriously... The life of me being a human, a mischievious brad, an implusive talker, a risk-taking fool, an emotional girl, and not to forget, a skeptical kid.
(How's my english? Hee~)

Ermm... 6 girls from different places, coming together for that one night.  

Bad MOOD

Hai... Wasn't in a good mood today, i showed my dun-talk-to-me face to a lot of pple today. Ok, 1st, i wasn't very pleased with wad was going on in class, pple not showing respect to wad teachers instructed to do. Some were asking questions that, well, we should obviously know. Then, pissing the EL rep. Hai... I can totally understand wad she's feeling, i kind of went to her during recess and said, "Dun be angry lah, i felt sorry for you." She smiled. Hai... Then, i was so pissed with pple asking me things when it is written clearly on the board, "Treat this as a mock exam!" Wah lao, pple, READ can or not?! PLUs, i was having some deep thoughts bout some other stuff. Hai...

Faisal, very concernly sent me a msg, telling me not to be so stressed up and well, coz of that, i smiled. Though he's one of the few that made a lot of noise... HAHA!!! At least there was someone there who noticed how pissed i was. HeH! Anyway, thanks for his concern. Find it weird, we always msged in class when we only sat like 1 sit away from each other. HA!

So, my bad mood carried on until Recess time. HeH! Seriously, i dun feel like talking to anyone at all, but well, dun really wanna be such a stubborn loner, i opened my mouth and talked. Hai... And well, i kind of realised, pple can really see how i feel man. Chung ee actually walked pass me and asked me y i looked like that. HeH! So i told him, somone made me angry.. And sort of talk to him a bit bout work...

Ermm... Rmb the kelvin i talked bout, the desmond's kor, the one whom i wrote one para bout. HeH! Ok, last night, i got a msg from him and he was so curious bout wad Cindy told me... HEe~ Guess wad? I dun rmb... Well, actually, i chose not to rmb. hAHa! Can't force me... :P He sort of called me just to ask wad is "tao yan"... I was like, huh huh huh? Coz when i picked up the phone, i didn't know it was a call, so i kind of put it there for a while b4 i actually realised it was a phone call and basically, it was coz i was too busy beating up some snails in MS... HAHA!!! Weird HuH!

Ermm... Well, i tried hard today to really behave myself. So, unlike the very hyper-active ting, i was very quiet, entertaining her all the way, or at least for the "carrying trays" part. Hehe~ Well, things aren't really bad if i really focus hard enough. Stress? Well, just that little bit. Probably coz i got things planned out... Ermm... Although i didn't really follow the plan... I might end up being in a mess but for the time being, still can make it lah...

Was studying SS's SBQ just now, well, after going through a little bit, i fell aslp on my table. My table is really not a good thing to sleep on, i woke up with my lips hurting, coz i put my mouth against it, hard... Woke up, decided to stop, well, it's SBQ, so it's the skills that is needed. Went on to do my D&T's assembly drawing... Wah lao... Extremely hard man!!! Well, at least i got most of it out, still acceptable.. Hai... Tml, go back to school to ask...

Ok... Stop here.... Still thinking bout who... Ermm... Hai... guessing game...

Ehh... Oral, Bt kor, D&T, life.. Horrible!!!

Well, I didn't mean to make anyone worried bout me but somehow, i did just that. I felt really bad coz i made someone worried bout the action i did. I am truely, deeply sorry. Well, i should say sorry to myself but then, this sorry is for making you worried bout me. Now, i know wad is the true meaning of being responsible for your own action. I got a taste of it. Hai... Tongues waggin?! Hai... Human are such ugly creatures, u know. Talking behind pple's back is never a good thing. Anyway, I promised to behave and to take care of myself and i will do just that. Being 17, i odd to have the ability to differentiate between right and wrong. And seriously, i shouldn't be making pple worried bout me... AiYo!!! You see, afterall, i'm still a kid who requires someone's protection and once in a while, admonishment. God Damn myself... Well, Thank you for knocking some sense into me ya? I appreciate it. Well, it is ok to find a comfort zone but gotta make sure that this zone is really a comfort zone and not a danger zone... heH!

Ermm.... Last night, talked to Bt kor a little bit and he kind of left me with lots of question marks above my head. Hai... Always playing guessing games, and i'm so so bad at that. Seriously, i am really wondering lor hor... HeH! Anyway, it's ok that i dunnoe lah, at least i know there's somebody... HAhA!!!

It is not a good thing to sleep late, i fell asleep only at 2am last night and in the morning, i was trying my best to stay hyper. If you'd noticed, i was talking more than usual. I thought this energy would continue but shortly after, i felt real sleepy, it was a good thing that there's PG today and i just lie on the table and sleep throughout. Ting told me that Ping hong was brushing his finger up my eyelashes, but i couldn't recall having any feelings.... Wah... Terrible... You know wad that means? It means, i'm sleeping like a pig!!! hAHA!!! Amazing huh...

No idea y, i kept talking to strangers today... HAhA!!! 1st, during oral, while we were waiting, i actually listened to 2 guys from 5A2 reading and corrected them, but i dunno who are they... HeH! Then, of course, i talked to the examiners... heH! Hai... Hopefully it was all good. The passage was fine, the pic was slightly harder, the conversation has is pros and cons. HeH! After that, i went to the D&t room, along the way, i saw this lower sec guy sitting on the staircase, and i asked him y was he sitting there... HAhA!!! Weird of me to talk to strangers like that... Maybe i was just trying to release some stress before and after the oral... Hai... So, overall, the oral was Ok bah.. It is always Ok, but the results, ermm.... WEll, let's be more optimistic, it will definitely turned out WELL!!! Bottom line...

Then, Ting and i were talking bout the whole thing, both of us were pretty uptight bout wad we missed out and wad we said... HahA!!! Ok, that's like the rountine of every exams lah!

Ermm... No EL mock today... No only for us but for the whole class... No idea y... Miss Teo wasn't here today, her mum fell yesterday and so, she's on leave, supposedly taking care of her mum. I sincerely hope her mum is doing well...

Ermmm... Just now, Cindy called me, kind of wanting to ask me to go China black or something on Sat. I didn't tell her yes or no but most likely it's a no. Well, i did promised to behave, didn't i? So, partying, clubbing is like totally out of the question. I should tone down a little. Should really just hang out with friends in school. For the others, can chit chat bout stuff, about life, bout everything under the sun. HeH! That's the way of life...

People getting very excited bout wad kind of job i'm gonna take up in the game, MS, and i'm like, oooo.... Ok... haven't got a job yet... Ha! I'm waiting for the exciting part to come... Coz for now, it's really BORING!!!!!

Ok, i started with my production schedule just now, i realised if i were to take out 15-30 min a day for it, i will only need like a few days to complete the whole thing, that is, if my speed can increase day by day. So, actually, it's pretty fast u know... YA!!! So, that is wad i'll do...

The balance is reached. Soaring for more...

Not bad, not bad...

Ermm... After all the partying, i'm finally back on school mode. Heh! I told myself quite a few times that i dun feel like doing anything but then i forced myself to do wadever that should be done.

Yesterday, i was reading and reading and reading, trying to get it into my head. Heh... I'm totally depending on reading and conversation u know, my pic hor... Hai... Hopefully i will be able to open my mouth and think more... HeH!

Had some chats with Firdaus, wah lao, he kept insisting that i'm drunk that day. Ok, maybe dizzy, but totally sober in my head and i rmbed every single details of everything that happened. Dun deceive me wor.. HeH heH! kidding... And i even rmbed how fierce my kor's gf was when she told me, "Dun you think guys nowadays are so disgusting!" HAHA!! I wasn't drunk... hEh! And Billy asked whether i was drunk that day not, i'm like, a bit bah... HAHA!!!

Hao... So i had a real fruitful day today, since the beginning of school. Learning everything from physics to maths... No lah, I didn't bring my paper for maths, so i'm like using an old piece of p1 to mix in, good thing Miss Chong didn't realised... Hee~ Well, once again, she said something which i dun agree again but hai.. No use complaining lah, it's nearing the end of the year liao.. let it be lor...

Ermm... Checked friendster just now, and this guy, who is Desmond Tan's brother, sent me a msg and kind of said that he's glad i had fun. Ya, truely, i did. Well, within the short few minutes that i hung around with him, he tried to tell me not to stress myself too much, well, msg received, trying not to stress myself too much. HeH Heh! Cindy told me something and heh heh heh... Shh... So i know this guy is call Kelvin, Desmond tan's kor kor, Cindy's friend, and a devoted person. Ya... ok, wondering y am i writing so much bout him? Coz i promised to write for him... HAhA!!!! So kelvin, satisfied with this? Hee~ Like writing testi like that... HAhA!!!

Ermm.. Ok, i got this sudden ache in my stomach just now, while i was napping, and it kind of just dug me out of the sofa and burst straight to the toilet,man, it sux... Too nervous? Maybe not, maybe it cos of the milk i drank... And i didn't have lunch.. So sad... So basically, i got 2 meals today, mere ones.... INstant noodles... Sian...

Ha! MS! I kind of got stuck at this place which i shouldn't be at. Ha! Sux... it's really a boring game.. Hai..

O ya, Bt kor wanted to ask me something? but he was busy when i called so till now, i still dunnoe wad he wanna know, asked him later... Heh hEh! And i called felicia and i'm able to work on FRIDAY!!! Ya Ya YA!!! CaSh flOw... Hee~ No lah, coz next week wanna go watch movie, then no $$ liao plus, planning to go somewhere else with some friends, well, not much planned out yet... We'll see... Now, worry bout tml can liao..

HUNGRY!!!!

I released myself from the pain I had before... Now, I'm back on track... If nothing goes wrong...

Orchard Hotel's Banquet DND!!!

Wor... Didn't expect that it would be such a tiring night. I did had a lot of fun, way too much i guess....

Went out pretty late and i ended up being the last to arrive at Jurong, heh! Then went on to meet up with Cindy and all at TP. Arrived at M hotel with lots of smoke... HAhA!!! Everybody smoking... Saw a lot of things last night that i suppose we wun be able to see during work, everybody were crazing around. PPle from SAles, from F&B and most of all, the Banquet ones...

Started out really sian, just sat there with yu and talk some craps, then the UNITY ones went to the toilet, and the both of us practically just sat there staring into the air. Then, i was helping Terry and Yu take pics. Come to think of it, Terry kept on hitting Yu for no reason and i got so pissed looking at it, and told him jokingly not to hit her anymore, and he stopped. Heh! Please lor, she did nothing for him to hit like that lor and it not those soft soft touches, u know, it's hard hits, which i could feel too... Sicko...

Found it weird coz didn't see Firdaus around, so msged him to ask whether he's coming not and then he told me that he's in lock up, and i'm like, huh?! he said he didn't wanna come anymore but later said he's coming and told me to go get him. GoD....

Yesterday was one of those nights where i can drink legally... Heh! With nobody stopping... HA! And i drink quite a bit... On own accord, drank a glass of white wine which kind of sux... It's taste was not nice at all, ended up mixing it with Sprite... HEh!! Then, had a few sips of shandy from Yu... Then, not having enough, yu and i went to get a glass of shandy each... Ok, those were just mere doses of alcoholic drinks. Later, after this cup, i went out to kind of walk a bit, and was talking to Firdaus asking bout wad happen and blah blah blah, then Chris came with a glass of red wine, asking both me and Fi to finish it, Fi had half and i took the other half. O ya, the glass was not wine glass, it's BEER GLASS!!! I'm like, totally gonna peng liao... Shit! And was pulled to one side by bt kor to take pic when i was totally blurping out the wine... GoD...

After a short while, i felt the hotness on my face, and pple started to tell me how red my face was... Oh my... Back inside, i was resting yet still trying to finish the half glass of shandy left... HEh! And there, i was starting to feel dizzy and feeling very HOT on my FACE!!! Went to toilet to relieve myself a little, and guess wad, i kept walking in and out of the toilet since... HeH! Chung ee was all red too... heH! And i couldn't talk to him. HeH! Well, i decided to stop with the drinks and started pumping water into myself to get rid of the nauseousness... i rmbed Vincent was trying to pinch yu and my face.. Heh! He's drunk too, like it was his wedding... HaHA!!! That's wad Terry said...

Later on, after lots of photo shots, went to RUSh with cindy and all coz it is her birthday... Ermm... When we've reached, i started to get a bit crazy, and danced like nobody's business... Ya, DANCE! Scary ya?! HEH!!! Never danced like that b4. Ermm.... Firdaus was in front of me and he kept bumping into pple and there was this girl who stared at him and i got a little shocked and i end up explaining to the girl that he's a bit drunk... HAhA!!! Good thing the girl is a nice person...

LAter, Da kor came with his gF which means it was about time for me to go, so after a while, we left... And i dropped my bottle of otard!!! And i broke right in front of my eyes!!!!! ArGH!!! Wad a pity... It's not everyday that i got lucky draw... But anyway, i wasn't into drinking, maybe my kor and pa and ma will like lah, but not me... HeH! So left it in the dustbin... HAHA!!!

Guess wad? My brother took my hp without returning and he didn't came home last night, so i'm left with no phone, and i promised to msg yu and cindy that i'm back safely... Sian... So i use papa's phone, msg here and there, finally got yu's no. but couldn't get cindy's... So sad... HEH! Too tired, headache, went to bed...

Woke up like 1.30pm today, if not for the rain, i might still be asleep... hee~

Well, that was the best day of the week... If u read my previous blogs, u should know.. HEh! I had lots of fun last night, without having to worry much. Kind of brought a lot of us closer in many ways... Heh! And the most drinks and dances!!!!

A lot of 1st times too... 1st time seeing pple that used to be serious to let it all out, 1st time after so long seeing many pple, Chua, Jesper, Elsie, Ruoyun, Yvonne, to name a few... 1st time having that much fun with pple outside school and also, 1st time seeing bt kor's hair up high! HAHA!!! ok, very lame.... heh!

I supposed that $40 was worth it afterall, no, it's $20 actually, gonna have a refund of $20 next month. Heh!!! YayA!!! Ok, i got my hair smell of Smoke which kind of sux... heh! Have to wash thoroughly liao...

Today, i wun be doing anything, i'm gonna practice my reading, revision will definitely start next week. Gotta be prepared for Oral on Tues.... YA!!! And my picture description... Will try to figure out how to... HaH!

Conclusion: I love DND!!!!!

Rat Rat rAt!!! 

ChunG ee!!!! BoTh Are So ReD... 

BabY BoY in WhiTe SpeCs...  

LawreNce!!!! Silence ChArm.. 

CooL gIrl... Peiying... 

SASA!!!!!!  

SeAn... plEase... 

FisHy, FiShY...  

Somebody's getting cRazy! HeH! YusoFf... 

The oNe with the same name... YUTING!!! 

Wah... really look like Fann Wong... 

AndY18... always called him that...Ha! 

Ying mei mei And Ping Jie Jie 

MooDy...

Can't imagine how exhausted i was, back home after school yesterday, i fell asleep until the sun set. HEH! FAbulOus!!

Did nothing today.. Later on, gonna go for dnd... Wonder wad am i feeling? Rather plain... HOwever, there's a slight bit of excitedness... Hai... Still i dun really know wad's the plan like.. Plan??? Ermm.... We'll just see... Go there, have fun, and that's it... CASHLESS!!!!

MS wasn't as interesting as i thought, it is a bit sian lah... So i guess i'll play a bit more, if it carries on to be so boring, i'll end it...

Alright... Short blog, nothing interesting... CiAo!!!

Surprised!!!

Heh HeH HeH!!! I just found out my da kor got a new girlfriend, and she is like only one year older than me... HAHA!!! Although i never talk to her but she is very funny lor, the way she talk, really naive... Haha! Very talkative kind of girl... HEH!!! Another girl who is erm... under my kor's hand... haha!!! Kidding lah... She didn't study liao, learning beauty things... Heh! Within a short 10 min, i got to know so much, thanks to my ma's enquiries... And i didn't even open my mouth to talk to her... HAhA!!! Ok, so the last one, was older than he is, now, this is so much younger than him... Might get along with me, but with my kor... HAhAha!!!! See how lAh!!!

How do i feel today... Well, not as bad as yesterday, at least i tried to buck up. I did had some laughs today, coming out of my heart, not pretending it. Hee~ Plus, got my D&T project's mark, and it turned out pretty well... Not to my expectation though. I thought it would be lower, something to make me smile... Or grin... HeH!!

Decided to try out this game call MS... Maple something... heh! But, wun indulge in it like everyone else... Will CONTROL!!!!

Teachers gave lots of encouraging words today, and really made me feel a bit better. HAhAhA!!!!

Bits and pieces are picked up...

Feeling lonely...

Ermm... Wasn't a good week for me. I've yet to begin my revision like i've planned. Several reasons for that. 1st, I was too tired from school. 2nd, pple started to jio me out at night. 3rd, i accompanied my ma to buy groceries. Hai... Tired from school is an inevitable factor. Accompanying my ma? Ermm... Though i can choose not to, I can't bear to, for a very simple reason, nobody would go with her if i dun. Pple asking to got out can be avoided, totally, i guess i made the wrong move.

Having a tough few days, both physically and mentally. Prelim's nearing and i didn't have time to start with revision, somehow, stress came upon me unknowingly. Then, there is the part of doubting my own ability, i dunnoe if i can make it. Looking at pple around me working so hard, i felt guilty, i know i shouldn't be making myself feel this way, but i just do.

Emotions rising, thoughts came, and i seeked some wise words from a wise man. He told me so much, so much so that i couldn't remember wad i initially asked. Feeling lonely along this path, very lonely. Although i'm used to being alone, to do things myself but somehow, this year, it seems really tough. Considering the pressure i had in the beginning of the year, then my own incapability to get the results i used to, lastly, it came to a point where i stopped, and think, and i realised how empty it is within myself, how things always doesn't turned out the way i wanted, how pple around me are lying to me, how they pretend in front of me, how scheming they can be and now, i started to be cautious of these people. There i was, trusting them, thinking they would treat me the same way, but i was wrong, utterly wrong. The true colours appeared right in front of my eyes, but they dunnoe. Although sometimes, i do have some attitude problems but those are just some blues that will go away sooner than it came. I am a person who have a strong will, who can think well, who treats things in a fair manner, in 2 simple words, I am like any another, "Average person", and i worked my way to where i am. Once, a person told me, "No lah, u r part of those smart clans", i turned myself toward that person and said, "No, i worked my way, i gave it my best, i worked hard." Unlike some lucky ones who have family to help them, i dun have. Unlike those who their family can afford to hire pple to teach them or to do things for them, i dun have. I wanted to have those, but i can't. I turned it to my friends, i thought they would be the one to help me through, to share the joys and pains, i guess i was wrong, partially.

On family, said b4, i had something on my shoulder, i dunnoe wad is it now, but i know it will be something real hard. Bt kor said i have my brothers to help but then to me, i think they will add on to the load. I got no choice, but he told me, never to say that i dun have a choice, coz i always do. I dunno wad happened, along the way, while talking to him, tears welled my eyes, y do i feel like crying? I dunnoe... He kind of open up the one-way street to a 2-way street, showing me another path. A person like him... I guess he is the only one around me who can really give me a correct view of the whole picture, considering everything he had faced b4.

I thought bout everything that have been said, friends, love, studies, family... Which can I depend on? Which can i fully trust? I would've said "I dunnoe" but today, at this very moment, I made it clear, I know which i can trust, and which i can't. I've always prioritise things pretty well, this time round it made no difference, I had it in mind.

I am fortunate to have a friend who's so close yet not that close to talk to. Like Ting once told me, they are the ones who see us clearly, who we wun detest from their quarky looks and who we can have a good time with. For me, someone who can give me some advice when i've reached the end of the road, or so i thought.

Glamorously lonely... Indeed... Feeling so lonely in this war between myself, my companions and the reality... I got a choice, it is just whether i want to make this choice or not.

ExtRemelY Burnt OuT!!!!

Ok... So who should i blame? I sweat myself for no reason... Sickening! darn iT! Ok, it was Billy and Cindy who asked me out in the middle of the night while i was trying to do my D&T, in the end, i didn't do at all. It's a good thing that there's no hw today, and i did touched a bit of the ACS paper. Hai... I guess i need to use tml's 3 periods of D&T wisely...

Y i went out? Coz Cindy wanted to see me, i tot something important... SIAo! I saw Xin ni just now, she's a bit... Ermm... Different... HeH! And saw Desmond Tan's brother... Look very much like him... And he sent me back home! HAHA!!!!

This morning, we had our Chem and Geog mock back. Well, i should be happy that i'm one of the 2 who passed the geog paper, not a good pass though. Miss Ang was trying to tell me that i could score higher if not for my manufacturing part, so i explained that i didn't study Manufacturing, it's coz the agri. part i didn't study the oil palm so no choice, chose that. As for chem, passed it, not really good of cos... hai... I guess i have to work hard on it too.

Maths mock... god! BPGH is tough, real tough.. I was unable to finished. plus, i wasn't in a very good condition today... really tired... Eyes were half-closed throughout the day. Coz of some reason...

Back home, i went to take a nap, between, CHung Ee sent 6 continuous, similar sms to me... HeH! I verified with him just now, it was his friend, i guess... HeH!

Now, i'm sweating hard, will on air-con today... Ermm... I learnt quite a bit out there with them... HAha! Not some good things, but it increases some outside knowledge.. HEH!!!!

Done... Tml Another long day, with chem practical, teachers are so demanding now, just to get us to a better place...

Not a bad thing, i guess...

I haven't been blogging for 2 days.. Nothing much to say after the results, so i chose to be in silent. However, i did found a new blogskin which i think is pretty nice. Since now, ting can navigate liao, so i can finally get one skin that is like this... hee~

I didn't really consider well about retaking CL O level, i just signed it. After Miss Goh's talk today, i sort of thought bout it, i mean, the good side is, end of year paper should be easier, but the bad side is, i might lost 6 periods of precious time for other subjects. Well, if it can help then i hope i will be able to do better. Hopefully, i can cope with other subjects too...

Saturday, went out with papa, mama to Chinatown shop shop, heh, end up, i was shopping for clothes in This fashion... Hee~ Actually, i intended to treat mama to a simple dinner for her BD but then papa was there, he sort of like, paid for everything... But, i did paid for the drinks... So it's like, for mama's BD, i treat her drinks nia... HAHA!!! Funny hor...

Hai... These days, i've been slacking quite a bit but then, there are always times when i am really hardworking... Dun really know wad's going on with my life, or rather, with my head. I suppose i gotta start making some plans to prepare myself for O level.

Today, during Maths lesson, kind of made a lot of noise with PH, arguing bout some stuff... In the end, got admonished by Miss Chong. heH! Well, i'm in the wrong, so i got nothing to say but when she said something, i totally got my jaws open up wide! I mean, come on, she really thinks she's working THAT hard for us? Please... I dun feel it. She doesn't even go thru thoroughly and yet she's saying so. Everything she went thru, is half-known in my head, in most of our heads. i just find her so, so.... So... I dunnoe, just, i really dunnoe... i dunnoe, or has Mrs Loo set the standard too high? I thought most teacher should be like her? Or is Mrs Loo just too good to be true... As time passes by, i started to miss her more... Her style of teaching, her style of making us understand... From the bottom of my heart, i miss her... very much... Maybe i shouldn't complain too much... but seriously, 10 years down the road, i might not rmb Miss Chong as my maths teacher... Very bad of me, i know... I just can't stand her way of doing things...

got back 2 mock papers today, they were ok i supposed... If i can let it remain as it is, i think everything will be ok, that is, if i can...

Hai... So not in the mood to study today... I guess it was a good thing Miss Ang wasn't here the last period, i had some really distracted moments. So after school, decided to go sweat a bit. Thanks to Yuting, i had a partner to pei me play badminton. I felt real good after sweating it out... heH! I guess once in a while, we gotta go work out a little.

Hai... Was a little surprised just now, billy msged me... HEH! Ok, not really something to be surprise bout, it's just the qn he asked. Ha! guess wad he asked? HeH HeH!!! Dun wanna TeLL YOU!!!! *EvIL*

Now, enjoying some time here... HeH, coz tml, i gotta start with school stuff again! No more long breaks like i had today... Gonna make a time-table for myself... Hee~

Considering whether to go back to school at night to study bo, coz at home, too many things to tempt me and since the school is open in the evening now, i could use it... No harm right? ok, will consider...

Will stop here... CiAo!

Laughing my heart out!

O level MT....

Ermm.... Not in a very good state today, mainly coz of the O level results. For mine... HAi... Though i'm not satisfied with it but i should be glad i got that coz most of the pple around me are devastated bout theirs. I should just smile on and calmly accept this very fact that i did well, just not to my expectation. Well, gonna do it again.

Almost everyone cried, or so i felt. I mean, those close to me did. I was holding my tears back... ASked y i feel like crying? Coz it kind of hurts to see pple u care bout cry so badly and u couldn't do anything to help, was just pacing up and down and out of the class... HAi... tricia was outside with me and we were trying to find some words to comfort ourselves. heH! Then Ping Hong came by to console a bit... Ermm.. Mrs yeow, Mrs Tham, Miss Ang, Miss teo were all trying to make those that were crying feel better. Ermm.. Felt really touched especially with Mrs Tham sudden appearance. Haven't really see her for a while in class le, and now she's here, wanting to make us feel ok... Really appreciate it...

Tense moment continued... We all know bout it but tried to avoid talking bout it, wanting to reduce some embarassment or wadsoever. Hai...

Read to Miss Teo today and she commented that my reading is not bad, just a bit too rush but she added, "I dun mind that it's too fast as long as u got the things right but it will penalise on the pronounciation part." Well, i supposed that kind of brighten up my day a bit. 1st good thing i heard from somebody. HeH!

A bit pissed after school coz of certain pple lah... Aiya... Forget it, pple always fang my fei ji. Never Mind... then comes some really funny things from ohs! HAHA!!! People from OHS getting weirder and weirder... Fancy gambling pple's result... God... Victim of their verbal brutalism... Anyhow, they got real hyper bout stuff... After all the choatic gambling, which i like to phrase it as, Chris called again to ask bout my "boy boy" ? HAhA!!! PeNgz! I said he got nothing better to do and he said nobody wants to talk to him and he's the outcast among them all... HAHA!!! LoL! At least it made me laugh a bit lah... Out of all the tensed situation in school.

Just now, was watching this Chinese talk show bout branded stuff and it came to point that the host asked, "They dun even know who our deputy prime minister is but they know so much bout Branded stuff, so who is our D prime minister?" To my extreme horror, nobody present know who's the DPM... I'm like, "WTF?! Nobody knows? SHIT!!! wad is Singapore becoming?!" Where exactly is the sense of belonging of this nation, where are the pple who really cares, wad the hell is pple thinking?! And i thought the political stuff that i know are basics already and yet, there are pple out there who doesn't even know who the DPM is... SiAn lor... If nothing is done, i suppose Spore got no way out... Maybe after our generation and that's it... Dun think i dunnoe who the DPM is hor, is TONY TAN!!! The most famous one, to me... HAHA!!!

SO, i didn't do anything today, i was sleeping all the way... I decided to just let it go for tonight. Tml will start bucking up again liao...

All smiles... To all that thought that it's the end, dun despair, there is always a solution to all. Never give up on things that still carries hope, even till the day ur heart has stop, life on earth still moves on. Even if u can't aspire wad u want, someday, somehow, indirectly, u'll find ur dream again. People, smile ok?! Show your spirit! Hours of sorrows is over, look up, and the sun is still shining above!

No, it was not a wrong step taken, it was the right choice made...

Hi LO!!!

LAst night, i actually didn't log on to the internet ,yet, i was on the computer... HA! Doing my D&T... I supposed i can say i'm really done with the choices liao bah... Next up for for weekend is Orthograhic Projection and gonna draw out the final design as well as rendering. From there, if i can, i will start with Production Schedule... HapPy!!!

Ermm... I got quite a lot of complains from friends today. Heh! One was telling me how much she hate the way of the other is doing. The other... Well, this one got the same sentiments as me. Well, we both work for wad we get and sometimes, looking at pple getting a result with somebody's help really sux quite a bit. HeH! Well, i suppose that's life. Some gotta work extremely hard for wad they want while some have pple around them to help them along the way. Lucky pple ya? Well, guess i belong to those which needs to work all out to be successful... Heh!

After school, preparing for CL mock paper by drinking some coffee. While we are preparing to go take the exam, it was cancelled coz we're gonna get our results tml!!!!! ARGH!!!! TML!!!! How?! WAd if i got A2? OMG!!!! Will I have the time to actually study for CL now? Wad if i got worse than that?! Oh God... Here I am, panicking again... Ermm... I pray.... Gosh...

Ok, i was attacked by the 3 usual guys today; Ping Hong, Faizal and Izwan. So sad wor... Can't stand them...

Ermm... Miss Wang today weird weird de, dunno wad is she thinking in her head... Sometimes, i just can't figure out. Maybe coz this is the 1st year we r with her bah... HA! She is just so weird... Can't stand..

O... I was telling yu that our school's teacher will be celebrating their teachers' day at Orchard hotel, probably a dinner?! Ermm... Ting warned me not to work on that day... Well, i guess i wun, 1st, to avoid words from teachers, 2nd, it's on a wed... Heh! Cool HUh?!

Something i missed today... Yuting suddenly told me that Chung Ee msg her mei mei... HA! Then she's afraid Chung Ee might wanna jio her mei. But, too bad, Chung ee just wanna know who is the "Person"(not knowing guy and girl) msging his ai ai... HA!!! Funny language huh... Hee~

Hai... I guess i got things that should be done by this week done liao... Sunday is lao ma's BD... Planning to treat her a dinner... So have to rush my stuff within Friday and Sat... HeH! And i wanted to go shopping... Maybe on the same night bah... Dnd next week... Well, a mixture of feelings? Dun feel like going but feel like going... HeH! Not very excited but also excited. Craps right? Ok, will depend on that day's mood bah.. hA! Still got CL result to go thru and have to prepare for EL oral... ArGH!!!

Ermm... Yesterday was wondering wad's Orleans from jesper @ and he told me Orleans Frizz is a kind cocktail and dunnoe y, he seemed so fierce... HAhA!!! But ended the conversation coz i just wanna ask bout that. hEh!

BaCk to school, back to busy days... hAI yet HA! so dot dot dot!

Dunnoe y, suddenly kept sneezing... Feel so sick... Hai... Which bug came to me?! Go AWAY!!!

Msia very hazy wor... Hope wun come to Singapore... This country hor... Pollution... HArm the earth's atmosphere... U see, pple cannot breathe, feel tightness in the chest... Hai... UN!!! DO something!!!!! hEh!

CrAps!!!

Pondering about my past... Was it a wrong step taken?!

8th and 9th August( fUn and National DaY)

9th August 2005, today marks the 40th year of growing for Singapore... My home... Heh! Well, it's awesome to be a Singaporean. Some Singaporeans hate being Singaporean. I suppose these people just doesn't know how to appreciate their country for wad it is. Look at it! Is there any other country that have a history like we do? Can any country out there be compared to wad we are today? Look at it, think bout it b4 saying "I wanna leave this place!" Have a sense of belonging ya? Dun forget ur root, dun make a fool of yourself in front of foreigners, and dun let those that have put in so much gone down to waste.... Be real, be A Singaporean!

Alright... Somehow, i feel that pple doesn't really wanna believe that Singapore is wad it is today, they just live in denial... When pple praised the country, they will feel jealous... Weird right? Some hate Spore coz of the way the country is run... Like TYS and ping hong... Supporting communists... I really wanna laugh at them sometimes. Maybe communists would work but u can't deny that capitalism is a better way out for this country. Ya, maybe the system in Spore is a bit blend, maybe wad they support are right but can they ever deny that the system we have today is working well? Making us become one of the most advanced state in the world? People, learn to appreciate ok... Dun be so "HISTORY"

Heh! Ok, all those are for National day... Singapore... HAhA!!! Tough to walk through those years... 4 decades ain't easy to come by for this little red dot. Changes of leaders changed things again and again but the faith remains, "One people, one Singapore..." Ya... Later in future, we will look back once more and see the once Prime minister said "MEDEKA!" and feel overwhelmed. Hee~ Rare to see everyone relaxing, joining hand in hand for a day like this... People ranging from the highest to the lowest.. Or is there? Equality ya!

Yesterday, went to Sentosa with Elaine and co... Somehow, things turned a little bad... I supposed i shouldn't have suggested not going... I was really anticipating it, but the weather kind of change things and there were some that doesn't wanna go... I was trying to make things right but i guess i turned the table over... Well, at least 6 of us made it... One doesn't feel like going anymore, the other got to work... Ermm... Sad bout it but went on to have fun.

After we reached Sentosa, the sun was shining brightly and started with the ball game... MuhAHA!!! Our way of playing and the involvement of everyone plus the shining of the sun acts as the catalsyt to all and soon we are on the way to the WaTEr!!!! People that doesn't wanna go initially, ended up in the water too... Except for 2 who we can't force(you know, girls' stuff) and Yuting kind of swim her way from one side to another... I only joined in halfway coz feel very bad letting her swim herself... Wah! I really need more practices for swimming, only swam like half-way nia and i'm panting like siao... Good thing i made it to the shore arbo i dunnoe who can come and save me. HAHA!!! And seriously, i didn't know i can make it... HeH! I was a bit surprised when i felt the sand... heH! LAter, after seeing some monkeys and some tanning alone, i went to bath... Felt refresh after everything but after a while tiredness came.. We went back to harbourfront and pple were having disputes on going where, and i was there waiting and waiting and waiting... Till i finally protested, two of them went home, coz one was pushed into water and got no shirts and was sticky all over, the other coz she doesn't wanna stayed too late. While Yuting, Yvonne, ru and me went along deciding to go bugis watch movie... But even b4 we boarded any train, they wanna go watch fireworks, not knowing yuting and me doesn't wanna... In the end, yuting and me still decided to go without them, but they decided to come alone...

Haiyo... So many disruptions... Still, didn't make it for movie coz was very Ex Wor... Should have knew it... Heh! Carried on shopping till 7+, can't tong liao... Damn tired le... Decided to head back home... Bought some food and, home we go...

On the train, saw this very SHUAI de ang moh sia... And in the midst of tiredness, i was making small glances at this guy... And when things got real out of hand, i nearly bumped onto him... I was so so nervous... HAHA!!!! And seriously, i was like 5cm from him, his chest was right beside my head... HAHA!!! Imagine the excited apple there... I nearly chase him home sia... haha!!! But didn't lah, coz different route mah... So Sad...

Finally, saw my block liao, b4 crossing the traffic light(ahem, good citizen)... SAw somebody talking to 2 guys and that somebody resembles my kor but then decided not to care coz in some angle, doesn't look like him, so i thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. However, saw this guy pointing my direction, crossed the road, this guy came down and guess wad? Really was my kor lor... Heh!!! And he asked "GO WHERE?!" I'm like "sentosa..." And he just walked away.. The 2 guys he was talking to, i have no idea who r they, so without saying hi, i went up.. And that was pretty much the day except, my 2kor kept saying he doesn't wanna eat, in the end, took quite abit from me... HAHA!!!

I was slacking today again... Wanted to do my D&T but decided not to.. I was just too lazy to... Sian... Hopefully, i got the mood to do tml bah.. Coz she'll be checking on Thurs... Plus, i got my maths to do... Very tao yan the Anglo-chinese de paper, very not clear de lor... Tao Yan... Anyhow, decided to stop doing it liao... Do my Zhonghua p2 tml and do Ortho for D&T... Ok, that's the aim for tml...

O ya, that day went to sentosa, saw my aunty at harbourfront with my cousins as well, they dun seem to recognize me, hope it's not that i've gained weight... HEH!!! PLEASE DUN BE!!!!

The skin starting to peel off from my nose liao... Hai... And i kept scratching it off coz it's so ugly hanging there...

Well, i guess the hoilday is almost over and it's time to be back on track again... Although sian, i hope there will be something to spice it up.

Quite a bit of misunderstandings between pple, hopefully it will clear the air soon.. Hai... Life is tough with all this avoidable misunderstandings... Never mind, if that is gonna spoil any relationship then i suppose that relationship wasn't meant to be...

Starting to miss some friends... I wonder when can we meet up and have fun again... Probably the end of the year... So long...

I carry on loving...

ElaiNe and I... Wet... SentoSa... 

On the 3 aspects...

Finally, i'm back home, relaxing the whole day through! Ha! LAst couple of days drives me to my very limit...

On friday, at work, well, it was supposedly relaxing but i was in total shackness... ha! Probably coz of school early in the morning bah. Wah! Good thing the guests weren't those fussy ones, plus only 12 tables so hai hao... I was just standing there, clearing, pouring tea, portioning was left to Andy, i just gotta serve! HA! Ok, i'm very lazy lah... Anyway, Andy got nothing to do mah! HAhA! Lots of Japanese there... "VACUMM?! VACUMM CLEANER?!" HAHA! If u can read this, then make sure u rmb it ya? Coz Japanese pronouns it as " VaH cUm?! VaH cUm CLeAna?!" HAHA!!!! I'm like "Wad? (Puzzled look on my face)" Just when i wanted to say i have no idea, they pointed towards the floor full of Green Tea powder... HEh HEh!Funny Wor...

Ended real early and i was looking for an opportunity to rest but seems to have lots of things coming up, one after another. The aunties very enthu bout packing up the linens sia... I wanted to go get trash bag but then they already got it. I was reacting to wad Firdaus said, they already told me "No need lah, just count tables can liao" Wah lao! SpeedO! No wonder they are call "AUNTIE" haha!! After the aunties left, i started to skirt the 2IBMs... Wah lao! 1st time skirt so many lor... My thumb was completely red! So dot dot dot! And there was this bunch of guys that came who i guess were the midnight team, chinese guys and immediately, wei Xing got so distracted, and b4 he left to help Chris out, he said "Very familiar.." And i tot those pple were from our school or something but nope, they are not.

The last part of the night was pretty embarassing but at that time i dun feel much, only after thinking bout it. HeH! We were released early at bout 1am. After taking pay, decided to go 7-11 to grab some drinks and food. So i called Firdaus whether they want anything bo. Nescafe for loon and red bull for daus... When i went back up, Chris was like "Buy for WHO? Firdaus ar?" Then i said "NO! For Firdaus AND LOON!" Then ermm... I said "I'm leaving! "And Firdaus blurted out "Msg me when u got home!" WAH!!!! And there they goes... "WAH!!! MSG ME Ar?!" And all the suspicious noises came out of Chris... HAha!!! But at that point, i was too tired to say anything... HeH! Only now then i realised how sheepish the situation was.. Guess it'll be some time b4 they forget those and good thing i couldn't go back next week... HAHA!

Yesterday! Ha! The scheduled thing was meeting them at 9.30am for breakfast. In the end, i couldn't make it coz i was just too damn stucked in the comfort of my bed. Heh! Went to find them at 10.30++ haha! All the way, KAiling kept saying i look very Lian with the sunglass... Which i insist is "STYLE" HA! And i still insist so! Hehe~

All started with their warm-ups. Ting and I were throwing the passes and it was FUN! HA! Too much of it weren't good coz my muscle ache liao... Hee~ 9 games... 15 min each... All the way till 5+... The games were well-played, only for a few bah... Not counting the winnings, they are a bunch of COOL GIRLS! HA!

At the end of the day, we were all burned by the scorching sun. Now, i'm red not only on my face, but my arms and my feet. COoL HuH?! Intended to go for Pizza with yuting but coz her family went to her place, it was cancelled. So went on to eat at Kopitiam... I'm so "sway" Lor! That MIAn got insect LOR! SO disgusting! Good thing i only ate like 1/4 only... HEh!

Then, went on the look for some stuff which i can buy for Monday's outing but couldn't find any... So bout 8+, went back.

Back home, mama nagging that i didn't join, go for wad. And i shouted at her, "Couldn't i go and see the juniors play? You mean, i should wash my hands off after i left? NO ren qing wei de! This is y Spore is such a nation!" She ji tao shoot me back say i a bit also want to shout... Then i'm like, who shout 1st one? She got nothing to say... I carried on eating my Sushi...

Fell alseep on the sofa at 10+. Woke up, tong bue tiao, went to sleep until 11 today. HA! Cool Huh?! Did some maths but haven't finish... Slacking now again... hee~ ANyhow, guess it's gonna be a pretty good day tml... But for some part will be awkward... Hai...

That's wad happened through the 2 days! My life! My STYLE!

Under the scorching sun, I see champions emerging....

LA LA LA

Just a swift update. Nothing interesting... Today was normal. Early in the morning, received 8 continuous msges from Dear Firdaus... HeH! Just some nice nice msges.. Wah... Quite wasteful wor... But sweet... Ermm... HeH HeH!!! Sh...

I was rather sick of the school's pple. From the Office, kept using the damn PA system for no apparent reason. Sometimes, i really wish that the PA will just burst! Always, disturbing our lessons. Then, there are those irritating students.. Dunnoe how to behave one leh... How old liao? Still running around the school, shouting, a bunch of monkeys! Suan le... No use de...

Ermm... Chem practical today was... HeH! FUN!!! Lots of funny things happened... BAz broke the chair and i was laughing like mad! My tears came bursting out... HAhA! Shi mei... Ermm... Sometimes, really feel like helping her but everytime when i tried to, she will ask me all those questions which after explaining, she confused me... HA! I'm like... WAd THE!!! That's y today didn't help her at all lor... HeH!

After that, stayed on and played netball or it's just look... Look at juniors play a bit... Ermm... The young ones are real cool ya... Some really got great potential to be a shooter, tall and nice skill. SAturday, another carnival coming along... Wad's different is that i'm not involved... HAi... But will be down to look at them play... This batch is a much better ones... Hopefully they can set some nice records.

Getting ready for tml.. HeH! So excited bout work... Coz i can get pay and Sat can spend spend spend!!! HA!

Ciao!

Redundant...

An awesome Wed!

HeH Heh! And i thought the day would be tough. It turned out fine. Classes were usual. Today, i was seriously being bullied by 2 guys! Izwan and Ping hong! These 2 guys just kept hitting me for no reason and i was like struggling to get my revenge but always, i failed. And i msged faizal to tell him that his brother was bullying me coz he promised to back me up(though most of the time, he did the same thing) Ha! Nowadays, feel much happier in school due to all these fun, though sickening, it's awesome!

After school, Geog mock was ok, nothing tough, the usual stuff. With the usual speed, manage to at least complete the paper, without checking... HA! Hopefully, it'll turned out well bah! Miss Teo was gone when we went to her after mock.. Hai... thought she said she would wait? Ermm... Nvm... Explain to her tml.

Back home, rested, then went to 10 mile junction with lao ma! Heh! I haven't been there for years! The other time i was there, it just started and got no shops at all, now it is so crowded. We shopped for all the value-for-money thingy! HeH! And i bought Alcohol in mama's presence! HeH! So happy to be able to grab a bottle and bring it home. I'm drinking it now! Ha! Ok, it's just something mere, not those with high alcohol %. A starter for me? heh! u think leh?!

Did my work liao, left with a few more qns for El and summary. Printed out D&T, stopped doing things at 10 today. Heh! A bit tired from the carrying of large bags... HeH! Excited bout everything that's coming along... Hee~

O ya, National day coming! Await that day to arrive and maybe u'll see something real fascinating post up here... heH!!

k, i'm ending... Wanna go relax liao!

Spirit's up high!

ARGH!!!!

Is it just me or is everyone slacking out there? When i finished my stuff just now, i happily took out the chocolate i bought and started munching till i remembered i got my D&T undone. KaO! Then, after some flipping of my organiser, i realised i didn't do my EL compre. Sick! I was so hardworking just now lor, completed my last graph of the Coral's sec paper, when i have given up last night, then continued with newspaper cutting then towards Chemistry punishment. In the end, i still got so much stuff undone. Very sad...

Geog Mock tml? Ermm... I merely browsed through the points. Guess it wun turned out well at all coz seriously, i dun rmb anything thought by Miss Ang this year, and from last year, maybe i still can remember a little. Hopefully, Tourism will come out instead of environmental degradation. Well, i really need to dig my head into ED and Dev during the holidays to get ready for the next mock. Hai... Geog is the one subject i swore not to do bad in. So i can't possibly let it go. Will BuCku uPu!

Rushing with my D&T now... Erm... I'm done with the choices except they're all in com. HeH! haven't printed out yet. Well, at least, i'm done with this part.

I'm getting all stressed up with all the workloads coming upon me. Or are there? Well, there are... Dunno how the others manage to continue to do so well while some have no worries hecking care bout their work. Sometimes, i just take my hat off for both of those types. One maintain so well, one just doesn't care... And i'm hanging in the middle, struggling...

There's gonna be a very long weekend for us. I guess after Friday's work, i'm gonna slack a teeny weeny more and then start to pack up the stuff. Compelling all the notes from the past few years together and then, rushed out D&T... Other stuff? Enjoy a bit on Monday. Start to buck up on Tues, hopefully, i can finished wad i want to by Tues. And as for Wed, ermm... Will, take some well-deserve rest and then begin to study liao.. Heh! If all goes well, then i guess this national day is a fruitful one.

I lost my way....

Demented by all...

On wad happened today.. Lots of running just to make a joke out of myself? HAHA! No lah, trying to grab some balls but ended up just running. Sweated a lot!

Again... Got beaten by Izwan for no reason, just for the sake of beating me? Sian... And Ping Hong, kept scaring me for no reason also. Plus, Faizal's poking fingers... O god... Pain and tickling... Ting, yuting and me are the victims of these brutality... Heh HeH!

Wad else? After recess, i started feeling real sleepy, my eyes could just close while listening to pple talk. And when my head had the chance to lie down, i would be asleep... However, every now and then, there are things that awakes me... Like Miss chong's talking, Ting, yuting and Ping Hong's asking and my own self-conscious telling me to listen... HA! Fancy having the self-consciousness when my mind is asleep... Hee~ Wadever...

HAi... Wonder wad's gonna happen next few days. In schedule, Maths mock tml, Geog mock on wed. Heh! Everything's bout school. Thurs... Ermm... No time to relax, gonna call felicia to tell her that i can make it on that day so there's no surprise if i am damn tired on Friday. Well, maybe u'll be asking y am i working on a weekday? HA! No $$... My bill came, $40+... Ermm... Recently, that da kor of mine kept taking money from mama and mama got no $$ herself... So i decided not to add on to her burden liao... Plus 2kor is asking for $50 for the bus stamp or something... So, there it goes again, 2 brothers up there taking all the $$ away from mama, mama is totally drained, and she gotta do a lot more than just giving us money, them to be exact. Just trying to lighten her burden by paying the $40+ bill myself. Friday's not gonna be enough. Seriously, this is not the way, i mean, i'm really neglecting my studies if i go to work. Results' already detoriating liao... But, wad to do? I'm not as well-to-do as some of my friends are, they got their parents to pay for them, they got siblings to help them... Me? None of those exists... Hai... Suan liao lah... WAd can i do? Earning is all i can do. But i'll make sure i will not neglect my studies... HEH! Enjoy myself bah... Anyway, i'm doing ok i suppose... For maths... Tml need to study for Geog... HEh! Sh...

Sometimes, I despise those that only say and doesn't do and those that kept boosting wad they have. It is so irritating. Wad do they get from showing off? Just some self-own satisfaction which make others detest their way of doing things. Some just talk too much without any action taken. Wad's the use of saying "ya, i will do it" and in the end, nothing is done... So sux! The other day, Ping Hong was telling me some pple from our class likes to get info from others on whether they are done with their stuff and he thinks that those pple are really cunning... Well, same thoughts i have... Y is the world so ugly? Y are pple putting on a front? Isn't there someone out there who just dun compare themselves with others but just themselves? Hardly... I admit i do compare with others but then in the end, wad do i gain? Just some foolish jealousy... However, recent years, i have stopped doing that, i dun asked for pple's result anymore... And i avoid being asked by anyone... So wad if i'm better or worse? There's nothing wrong with soaring a result which i call my own and it's only natural that sometimes pple fall... Some ingrates just enjoy making other feels guilty of their results, and then feel the joy of others failing. Ok, maybe i shouldn't blame them, they are ingrates right? Heh! Ok... Enough of my anger... I just got this sudden urge of expressing some of the unhappiness i have in me for so long, too long.. At the end of the day, i'll still proceed with wadever i'm doing and continue to do wad i insist on.

Mama today very good to me... Heh! Or maybe i should say she has always been good to me but today in particular. She serves me things when i didn't say i want. 1st, she brought the rice into the room, then she got me a cup of ice water then she sliced apple for me... I'm like, mama today a bit weird hor... ANd she doesn't have any motives in doing those stuff o! She never have motives in giving us the best. Just a bit too good.. Heh!

Anyhow, that's the end... Lots of unpleasant things happening... HA! I'm still me...

If you feel my love again... Do tell me so...

Bitching!

I'm still here... Did Maths le... This time round, i really did concentrate on completing them but then, i'm still left with 4 qns undone. Not that i dunnoe, just that i dun feel like doing liao... Very indulged in Music today... I was kind of lying there for like 1 hour listening and singing along, heh! Sick of me but i haven't do that for ages liao.. HAHA!!

Ermm.. WAD else? I broke an egg this morning! HAHA!!! Wanted to put it into the cup noodles but i didn't open the opening big enough, it came rolling down! HEh! Good thing mama didn't find out, arbo she's gonna kill me!

I got lots of msges today.. From different people... Got jokes, got greetings and questions, got chattings... Hai... So So... BuSY! Heh! Something to relax myself? Maybe... But strained my CASH! HEH! Hee~ This few days, when pple send me jokes, b4 i even finish, i guessed the endings... HAHA! very smart hor! HEE~ However, it still made me laughed a bit, knowing that these friends of mine thought of me.

Still, i find myself very clumsy bout a lot of things. People try to hint me bout something and i always dun get it. It's not just once or twice k, is most of the time! Most of my life... Pathetic right? Find myself so absent-minded sometimes... Wad a life! However, there are times when i know but act dunnoe... HAhA! Ok, that's on stuff which i dun like to talk bout or it is when i'm not in the mood to talk. HeH! So dun blame me lah.. My trademark, saying "I dunnoe" HEh! Some pple get fed up of me saying "i dunnoe" But fact is, when u dunnoe, u really dunnoe, can't force an answer out right? Better to say nothing than to lead wrongly. Ya?

Seems like i'm ignoring wad's happening around liao... I kind of pulled myself away from all the gossips and stuff coz i think it is better to be not involved in things like that. I'm only caring bout things that concerns myself. Now, when pple asked, then i'll answer if i know. If not, i will be concentrating on my own stuff, everything from my life, to studies... I haven't really talk to pple bout wad's happpening with myself for a while le... As in, those within me. Minor stuff like, tired with life, stress bout school, not gonna put myself in love, all this... Superficial things... Seriously, who can i say to... Ermm.. Actually can to talk to pple lah, but i chose not to. Rather kept them inside instead of attracting harmful criticisms. Hai... Bo liao me... Bitching again!

Done, dun wanna bitch liao, arbo i'll really become a bitch! CRAPS!

Looking at you falling in love... I felt the pinch...