Pondering

Today, i feel, i'm getting old, like really getting old. Its April now, and my Birthday is coming. Another year older than the last. sigh....

I'm flying off to Seoul this weekend. Thinking about the trips i've been to ever since i joined the association. I feel really lucky and at the same time, not. Seeing all the real things happening around me, starting to lose that skill of survival. And dishearten by the facts surfacing everywhere. The government that I respected started to show their flaws, and its painful to see that.

Loving all the trips, taking each like a milestone reached but i dun think i can do this for long. Nothing really to be envious of, its just as hard as staying in Singapore doing the same thing over and over. Yet, i am telling myself to JIA YOU and have fun with all of it.

My friends aren't doing well in love, neither am i. Seeing those breakups hurts just as much, thinking back and recalling how they've loved but no longer doing so now. Its funny how people changed that fast, how those ideals suddenly switched tracks and how one has to put up with it and carry on with life.

I don't think i can do that.

Mr Eddie Hoo has been lousy and like my work, i'm trying to put them at the back of my head and ignore them for a while.

Smile, World. It'll be very much better.