My life since September

Here, let me make up for wad i've lost and i dun want these period to be empty when i look back a few years later.

Since my very last update on Ruth and Hui Ge's wedding, I also attended BT Kor's wedding before i set off for France. Really got a lot of weddings this year and I tried to attend those when I'm available for it.

BT kor's wedding was a good gathering with some of the oldest OHS peeps back then. You know, OHS was a big part of my life, growing up there really thought me a lot. I picked up a lot of things from there and a lot of great people I met. 

And then it was roughly 2 weeks in Paris. I was really sick before we set off for the trip and it didn't help when it was so damn cold there. The 15 hours flight kind of shortened to say 8 hours because half the time, i was in concussion mode, after drinking 10ml worth of cough syrup, fever pills, flu pills and headache pills. A heat pad was on my stomach through the entire flight.

I must say, that rest onboard really helped me recover from the 1 week long sickness.

And then it was work and Paris and the strike. :(

After my return from Paris, I had a busy 2 weeks dealing with local show and some loose ends for the coming trip. And then, i took off to Shanghai again while my colleague took off right away to Macau. The journey to Shanghai was really vague, I didn't get the best seat and I had be to squeezed with minimal space and again, I slept through it coz i was so freaking lack of sleep!

Most of the time, I was by myself. I didn't walk on my own too much, but was glad i had the company of a few bosses during one of the nights, contractor took me to dinner, organiser also took me to dinner, and the rest of it, i was by myself, in my hotel room, watching HBO (thank god there's HBO and MTV). Opps! I did walk on my own a bit near the hotel, shopping in the supermarket. HA!!!

Didn't get picture of Hui Ge, we took the same flight back from Shanghai, he came to pick me up coz his company allows him to hire a chauffeur and the few hours flight was shortened with him chatting with me, and the 2 hour long movie "3 idiots" made me laugh and cry.

I guess the happiest part of this trip was, I came home happy. My girls; Ting and Hui, gave me a HUGE surprise popping up at the airport during my arrival and my darling came to pick me up too.

I took a day off and rested after this chaotic 2 trips.

Went to a Burmese restaurant with Darling for a good treat.

Then it was Steven's BD. Can't believe how fast time flies. I still feel so new in this association but its already been a year.

In between, somewhere, Darling bought his new bike.

We had our annual Asia Pacific Food Expo, and i'm telling you, it was a dramatic year. There's no more senior to look up to, we're on our own and i can say, i'm on my own. Half hearted in all the things i've done, i have to admit i'm really bad at multi tasking. The overseas shows drove me almost mad and concurrently dealing with the local show, i was nearly out of breath but i'm glad i didn't have to take charge of too many things. But its times like these that i hope Feliz and Jesscy were around to guide me through but that's no longer possible.


The show ended dramatically too.

On the Sunday after the show ended, its the BIG walk from Marang trail to Hort park organized by the association. It was a little bit scary being involved in the Ops but i'm glad i pulled through safely.

Knowing my busy schedule at work and i admit i've been giving time only to my boyfriend and my family, i neglected my friends. And I tried to organize a meet up finally, after everything settled down a little 1 week before Christmas. Its been 1 million years!!!!

I went out with mama one of the Wednesday knowing ya, i haven't been going out with her for a while. It was a day long of shopping with her in Chinatown and then we went to Darling's shop and I gave mama a good hair wash. Hee~~~~

Met up with my Aiai last week too. Our always simple catch-ups together. :)

 Then with my baby forever.

Wedding lunch of Mr Wong's son, our entire association were instructed to arrive on time.

My day ended on 26 Dec with my lovely boyfriend.

Today, its 28 Dec 10. 2010 is coming to an end. Its been a really swift year. I never thought I would travel so much in a year, 8 times, that about 3/4 of the year. I really really appreciate everything i've learnt so far at work, its really an eye opener.

My relationship with Eddie has been really rocky this year, I don't know how many people actually knows but i tried to keep it well. I guess his shop and my work contributed to all the unnecessary fights, but we're trying. We know we still love each other... Very much. And soon, its time for us to settle down. Old enough? I think so. :)

And I guess 2011 will be a much much better year, extremely good year.

PS: I can't help thinking about what the Tarot card reader said about my life during our last CNY luncheon. It was casual but it seems like, everything she said, is slowly revealing. This is scary...

its my fault

We quarrelled again last night and i've been feeling bad since. I know i'm too sensitive. and i spoil it all...

I'm sorry.

The truth that can never be untold. I'm sorry Darling for causing the pain in your heart, I should've just sleep through with it... Darling, can you hold my hand again...

I forgot time existed

I was sitting in front of the television, after our lil gathering at the shop, watching survivor. Suddenly this thought just came to me; I forgot time existed.

Wad I've always been doing seems unrecorded and unreal. I forgot the importance of looking throug my answers and confirming my thoughts. So, this is the price to pay for growing up. When time is so scarce we can barely grip on to life.

There are so many things I want to do but so lil strength and enthusiasm to do. But time is running out, before I knew it, 2010 is already coming to it's end.

Dreams of those days are slowly but surely losing it's place in my heart.

I have plenty of dreams, and I hope to fulfill at least 1 in my life.

It's time I return to reality.

My blog is almost dying...

Been neglecting this space for so long. Almost squeezed this little frame out of my life already but this is where my life is well kept, well stored.

Busy period is finally over. When I think back, its actually pretty fulfilling, when you know nothing and slowly picked things up. It takes time and effort to know everything, and i still have a long distance to go.

My boyfriend and I have been fine recently, I am doing my best to give in and I can see, he is doing the same. An improvement I presumed. I guess i pushed this relationship too much, and made it so tensed for myself and for him sometimes and his lack of "bother-ness" drives the same relationshipt to the brink. But when i broke to him my thoughts, my willingness to give this up, if need be brought him back. At least now, I feel he thinks for me as well. And I, decided I shall not bother much anymore because there are too many other things in life to smile and laugh about than to be crying everyday.

So, we are fine, better than ever! I am looking forward to next year, Darling, with you. :)

His shop isn't doing too good. I, too, decided to withdrew from any decision or comments towards the rest of the shop.

Recent happenings caused too much trouble to me. I dun judge, and i hate to be judged. And when I do pass my judgement towards somebody, I will always say, that's my opinion. Apparently others don't think that way, others will assume that my opinion stands for someone else's opinion, and start to be bias against myself and the others.

I don't pull pple in for no reason. The only reason somebody else comes into the picture is because you associate them with me. In this instance, look at my boyfriend and me as 2 individual person, with our own opinion.

Its irritating when you see everybody putting in 100% effort to do things while others are not. And for those that did not, they talk too much, but do too little and they push blames to other people and the turn the table around and point fingers at others. And out of no where, I become a victim.

The services rendered FOC to me is reciprocated with services FOC for you. Yet the services rendered by me is FOC and need not be reciprocated with anything only because I was free and I had the interest to do it. Nobody is taking this for granted? I think everybody are.

For the past 3 months, while I was away, while i was freaking busy, where were the updates? No updates. It doesn't bother me, it really doesn't but when you start saying things like as if i'm not doing my job, I get frustrated and feels unjustified because to begin with, that is not my job.

It meant no harm but I guess its too much for others to take.

Its up to me from now on.

Pre-departure note

I had a tiff with Darling just now. Murphy's law i guess? Before I depart from Singapore, we never fail to get mad at each other and fight.

Mix feeling about this trip. Preparation work seems so vague, but i hope everything will be ok. My luggage is damn heavy coz of the brochures which i chose to carry myself instead of freighting over coz I know its too late already.

I hope pavilion will be fine <- work term so dun worry if u dun understand. Suddenly miss my ex colleagues because they are forever so zai, and me, i still feel so weak in this area.

Its sad to know the truth when everything seems so perfect... Now that I know, what can I do to follow? I wish we were like before, when nothing matters more than the two of us... Reality does take its toll on people don't they? I made my promise... My days away from home, I hope you will be happy, I hope it will be a good time for us to think through everything... My heart will always be with you, Darling... I love you.

Paris Day 3

Yup, its been the 3rd day in Paris, and there's really nothing but tiredness... Didn't go to any places, except for the hall. So freaking regretted staying at this hotel its an hour ride from the hall, wasting so much time travelling...

And the strike that's happening around here, scary... Funny pple kicking bikes are scary too... SiGh.

Pavilion is ok, things are fine, just some pple detest the existance of others... Crap right?

Its 6am now, i need to leave my room in 15 min time but i'm still so sleepy... Hai...

Somebody, HELP!!!

PS: its not going to make it to my best country list.

Flying off soon

Been rather caught up with a lot of things recently. And its getting on my nerves.

Shall not dwell too much on it..

I'm not really happy recently, so many things going on in work, in life and in love. Many times, I just choose to remain silent and stay away from these rowdiness. As these occurings become often, I find myself less involved, and that's when i realised my life is getting plain. You know, like when we were in school, we always tell ourselves not to let life be led by nothing, but let it be led by yourself. As I try to come back to life, there are deterrence in so many ways.

I'm taking a step back, doing what i should do, and trying not to step into other's boundaries, but when I do that, will these people do the same? No, they just keep coming forward, threatening to conquer you.

I know i'm young, i know i'm junior but i know what are the things i should do and should not do, i'm tired of your sickening talks, your seemingly harmless words are in fact hurtful. You can act like a spoilt brat and act as a saint, no one will criticize you, because of who you are, but not everyone are as lucky.

You know, i'm starting to detest life as a working adult, it kind of sucks. The money keeps coming in, and it keeps going out, non-stop. Everybody expects so much out of it, but nobody stood in my position and think about it.

I've been rejecting, saying no, turning down pple, and i'm kind of sick of it but when i do say yes, i made a promise to keep, but i hardly have that confident to do that anymore because i dun have the time and the strength to do it anymore.

Being able to stay at home and rest is the most precious moment nowadays.

Yet, i'm flying off again soon. I'm not a least bit excited about it...

Farewell to her, Mrs Lee Kuan Yew

It never occurred to me that this day will come... We are not related by blood, not by name, only similar because i, too, am a woman, living in Singapore. I am in no way comparable to this woman. Just like how i respect the person who built this nation, i give her my utmost respect as a woman... THANK YOU! MAY YOU REST IN Peace...

Hui Ge and Ruth Wedding 19.09.10

Being there for a wedding is a tiring affair, just the dolling up and the things to bring and how to make it a beautiful night.... I love going for wedding banquets, because those are the very few occasions when i can dress up and be pretty and also to meet up with some good old friends. This time round, its different.

Not just being there for the banquet but also for the entire day, from when the groom comes knocking on the door to going to the groom's place, then photoshoot and back to nian jia. Have to admit, it was really fun but at the same time, extremely exhausting.

A night before that faithful day, we stayed over at Ruth's place, I couldn't sleep coz the pillow was too hard and the air con was too cold, i tossed and turned till my alarn rang. And ya, the day began.

The bros are so irritating, they gave us $1 coins and we had to count them to $388. Hahaha!!!

Wasn't really pleasant when we heard some nasty things from the relatives but well, just act as though its none of our business and just do our thing. Come on, its a lot of effort from us too, we just want it to be a marvellous day for the newly-weds, let's not be a wet blanket.

As usual, where there is Lin Na, there is Cam whoring! Hahahahaha!!! We cam whored the entire DAY......... HAhahahaaha!!!!

Some photos to share... I can't wait for Ruth to send me the video montage, its really damn hilarious!