累

最近实在不知道自己到底怎么了... 有时觉得实在累... 好像这一年里自己做错了很多事...

每一天的过去都像是一场战争的结束... 是不是真的做错了？走错了吗？

自己认为做过的都对的起自己也似乎十分有理。但我忘了，这世界不单只有我的存在，而是上万人的包围... 总是忘了，忽略了这最重要的。

有时只想好好一觉到天明但，当太阳升起时，我顿时发现，今天似乎没什么时间了...

Well Well

I bought Elva's new album and i like it! Ha! The songs are quite nice.

Feel like going to K box again but then leh, i just received news that there's gonna be 3 events running on Friday night so i guess i can forget it lah... Ass... Just when i wanna ask them out, just when i have the enthusiasm to ask them out. K, forget it. Never mind... I must understand, they are working... :q...

I guess i'm stuck at home again... However, am going out on Friday with the 2girls, at least something to be happy bout. Also, going for juniors' match on Thurs. K, I AM HAPPY!

This month has been a tough one... Seriously, the new year began so roughly. Many emotional ups and downs, many funny funny things that shouldn't happen which happened. Many things that were out of my control occurred. Well, ain't good for a start. Hopefully things will smoothen as the CNY approaches.

Thinking of picking up some stuff this holiday... Ermm... Considering... Calligraphy perhaps? HAha!!! Singing? Guitar? Ermm... Before i can decide on any, i need to earn enough to enroll and find the place of the lesson. Heh HeH!

Crazy ideas of you and me... Dreams built upon... Do you still remember the first time? Can you recall that night? Will you still be there somehow? I know... I should not...

My Monday

Finally, met up with Uting today. She seemed so busy. Then again, i am really busy too. So, there's really no one to blame. Besides meeting her, there were Ming Ming, Yong Soon and Cheryl came by all of a sudden. HAHA! We merely met up for a dinner coz well, its been a while. Not much catching up but a good meet up is always the best.

Bought pineapple and Honeydew from the fruit store, and the pineapple is so sweet. HAhA! I kept saying this from the moment i had the first bite until now... Heh heh... Its very sweet... YuM... Maybe they got put sugar or wad or maybe i should just trust the pineapple's sweetness... HAHA!

Yesterday something pretty ridiculous happened. I feel like killing people. Sometimes being accused doesn't feel good at all. When you know the faults lies in you, then fine, by all means, accused me but i made no mistake! So pissed... Woman... Such disaster... I better stick with my age group of girls better, dun wanna get into such crap again... Anyway, there's really no point explaining such crap. Forget about it.

Jiawen is very comedic today... For i-dunno-wad reason, she is acting really comedic. HAha!!!

The week began simple with flaws... I need to pack up my room for the CNY and revise Exam.

The wind kept blowing and it never fails to bring that lonely coldness to my heart...

金牛座

姓名:[张爱萍]
性别:[女]
血型:[o]
出生年月:[1988年5月15日]
年龄:[19]
生肖:[龙]
星座:[金牛座]


金牛座

特点
有耐心：收入很少的工作都有耐心做法。
有决心：如果你下了决心，谁都不能把你改变。
热情奔放：是你固有的个性。
具吸引力：任何人你都能把他吸引住。 等一下啦！我再观察一下、再想一下，我们到底能不能成为情人？
非常念婪：别人的东西你都想把它占有。
个性倔强：谁批评你都不接受。
有偏见思想：明明是个好人，你都说不一定是。 有自满心：自满令你常失败。


性格
金牛座的人如同树木植于泥土，成为大地恒久不变的景观－－有着根深蒂固的特质，一旦打定主意就很难更改的韧性和顽固。他追求永恒，因而性格上显得稳重而可靠；喜欢炫耀，最忌讳别人的顶撞和批评；周围的亲友须适时地给他一点激励，否则他会因为过度追求完美而显得步调缓慢,甚至导致精神涣散。 　　

无论家庭、事业或是婚姻上，最重视安全感－－不过常会为了突发的牛脾气而毁掉苦心经营的一切。也还不算暴躁易怒，但会将积压已久的怒气，一下子发泄出来，那时声势就相当惊人。因为此星座的人具有强烈的占有欲，所以在婚姻生活中的争吵，导火线多半是嫉妒有关。 　　

金牛座的人相当有耐性，待人也称得上诚恳、友善，因此具备吸引人的条件，不过有时也会显得呆板且惹人厌烦。　　

他习惯轻轻松松地去做每一件事，因而不适合时间性强的工作；此外，内敛的性格也不适合从事冒险；比较适合乡村，可从园艺工作中得到最大的满足。金牛座的人精于经商－－他懂得赚钱之道，更知道如何聚财。 　

　 　
爱情
金牛座在感情方面的占有欲，就像将情人或是妻子当作一畦需要悉心照顾的园地。银幕上的男主角热情洋溢的紧握着意中人的手，口中一再喃喃说道：“你是我的！”他的表现无疑是最标准的金牛座的作风。不过他的迷人和热情倒不会因此而显得逊色，反而更增添了安全感。他在生活上会过分以感情为中心，一旦发现妻子或情人并非专情于他时，对他会是严重的打击，因而会有激烈的报复行动。 金牛，你恋爱时，速度也快不起来，那仍然需要“时间”。那种缓慢渐进地了解到某人对你的意义的感觉，实在相当美味，所以何必赶忙着急？ 吸引你的是哪些人？哼，该从你的鼻子开始讲了，你敏锐的嗅觉并不逊色于一只警犬，所以你爱的人最好要带着好气味，那气味不用来自昂贵的香水瓶，事实上清新纯净的肥皂香很有效果－－或者甚至是新近刈剪的青草香（如果想得出方法来把它留在身上……） 还有什么是非常重要的？ 安定，金牛。那是你的目标，而爱是达成它的另一个方法，你会被冷静可靠的人吸引；如果你是个金牛小姐，便不会喜欢跟某个老是没有钱付账的人约会，而若你是个金牛先生就会恰好相反－－你会一有机会就运用你的金钱，来让自己觉得重要而特别。

你是最不可能在僵化的性生活下变得沮丧的星座，因为金牛座需要时间来适应改变。 不过你当然也会吃醋，所以你需要的是一个喜欢伴侣关系的人，而不是风流轻浮的类型，如果你的男友或女友想要空间，你就会想要走出那段关系。 感官的、稳定的，甜美的，这些听起来怎不令人神魂颠倒呢？


事业
此星座的人具有明显的艺术倾向，但因其注重安全感，所以他们多半受雇于人，而不像一般画家，在成名前，必须忍受三餐不继、或生活困顿无着的苦楚。金牛座对紧张的都市生活和枯燥的上班生涯不感兴趣，但因朝九五所提供的安定，能够满足他对安全感的需求，所以只要确定每个月会有一笔稳定的收入时，就会在工作上全力投入。他能在和经济有关的行业出人头地，并且会未雨绸缪地极端关心退休以后的福利。　　


友谊
金牛，你和蔼开阔的特质，对友谊来说是个亲切的邀请，但在你踏实的原则下，你总是一次只面对一件事。 一旦你决定要跟某人做朋友，而把自己设定于某种程式路线之中后，任凭免费搭乘捷运电车的诱惑也无法把你拉离轨道一寸。 忠诚而真实，那就是你，并且带有占有欲，这指的不是你想特定地拥有那位你在乎的人，而是你会但愿他不跟你以外的人做任何有趣的事。（或者但愿别人不要借走你珍爱的东西超过二十分钟。） 围绕在你身边的沉静气氛非常具有安慰的力量，常常能在狂乱的动物或婴儿或忘记数学作业的朋友身上奏出奇功，虽然有时候你也会变成一个能把一班士兵锻炼成形的士官长，那班士兵也许只是个感冒了而不想去逛街的悲惨朋友，但公牛的威吓力可是一流的，且你不会让这威吓稍稍破壤了你的沉静风格。 你需要什么才能感到舒适？ 你需要跟你能信赖的人在一起，而不是奇怪或难以捉摸的人，尽管你有着令人惊叹的沉着冷静，标新立异仍会让你神经紧张。 如果你的朋友忠诚、坚定而温暖，他们就会发现你明天仍会与他们同在，还有后天、大后天，直到永远……

I'm bored.

Having nothing left to do now after completing POA tutorial. Ahh....

Looks how time flies, the semester is nearing its end and soon, we'll be sitting for our papers and not long after, we'll be choosing our classes and then promoting to Year 2. Everything seems to be happening in such instant. The whole year's memory seemed so vague in my mind. I can't really recall something that had a great impact that i can't forget. Seriously, nothing from school.

This whole week will be a pretty calm one, and it will be time to start revising already. I maybe going to some other salons to straighten my hair, probably the shophouses near my place coz it's just straightening. Hope it won't end up bad. That will be left either after the exam or these few exam weeks. We'll see.

Shouldn't have trimmed my nails, after trimming and buffing it, one of my nails broke while i opened the fridge. Ain't that funny? Now i got 9 long nails and 1 short nail. GoSh...

I just trimmed my eye brow too... Nothing to do as i've said and my brows are getting so bushy, so i trimmed it. I look neater now. Hee~

Dun think any further, that's all i've trimmed so far, i'm not gonna trimmed anything else. Well, its all cleanliness.

A re-introduction:
It's 2007 already and I am turning 19 in a few months time. It doesn't sound pleasant to me at all. That's way too fast.

Ignore my crap, i'm bored remember?!

I dun feel like going out... Then again, i am not going out. AIYA! What am I talking about?!

Life at this point of time is pretty ironic. Yet this irony doesn't seemed like it will be resolving by itself. So, i'm gonna try to comprehend, compromise and most importantly accomodate to my wonderful life of controversy.... (I am exaggerating)

Singing Happy Birthday

Check out the blue eyes. HAHa!!!

Friday night was another blast... To think our Dear Terry Tan had nothing to do and asked me out. HAHA!!! Cute right?! And the rain started falling as we met. Sat at the void deck and asked Ping Hong to come down and they began discussing bout Kok Hong's present. HAHA! While i sat and laugh! Heh heH!

After that, went to Batok and they continued discussing while waiting for Silong to come. After that, last minute decision to get cake and while searching, met Xueting who was on her way back. Then, she joined us.

After eating, went through lots of trouble to get the cup cakes, and we couldn't find candles.. HAHA!!! Waited for Kokhong to come sitting outside one of those salons at central. Puzzled me why the metal door weren't closed. Anyway, BD boy came, and we sang him a BD song. HAHA!!! When we gave him his "box of cigarettes", he was thrilled. He thought it was really a PSP box of Cigarettes but HA! It was PSP, as simple as that. K, i didn't pay for that but i'm gonna pay for the cakes, so gotta pay Terry back the cash. Think Kok Hong is happy with the gift.

Walked Xueting back then they walked me back. After that i think they went drinking at clarke or boat, whichever, hope Kok hong had fun.

Supposed to go Sean's chalet today but in the end, i didn't go. 1stly, no one to accompany and it was raining. No mood so stayed home and watch DVD whole day. HA! bored...

Hee~ Ermm... And all my PRESENTATIONS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!

Ooo.. I odd to mention, that day while waiting for Mrs Ng, there's this i think lecture/tutor who walked pass and when she spoke to us, her voice was irritating. I imitated it and i didn't know it sounds so like it... HAHA! And we laughed like nuts... HAHA!!! So funny...

O... And Darl went home very late yesterday, scared me when he smsed me at 10.44pm. HAHA!!! And he was on his car back to JB. Heh HeH! He is so cute... But really poor thing lah, supposed to end work at 8.30pm but ended up working 2 more hours... Hai... And it was jamming all the way to JB... He said he would reached home at 1plus am... Hai... And i think he is damn busy today also... Poor him... Sadly couldn't accompany him much. Heh hEh!

Alright.. I guess that's all for tonight...

CiAo!

A choice to be made.

Today is Thursday, and i forgot my fellow juniors had their match and hence, forgot to go.

School was really tiring. Had a tough time going through the POA lecture with my eyes closing every now and then. After lunch, it was MAEC tutorial, and same thing happened, really tired. Thing was, my eyes didn't close coz half the time, she was right in front of me and would suddenly stare into my eyes. HAHA! It was the last tutorial with her. Seriously, she's one of the best tutors. Very good at sending any messages across and always crack some serious lame jokes. HAha! And i definitely rmb her name, Ng Mun Kit. HAHA!!!

Here's all to my AIAI:

Seriously, which path to really take? Read through and perhaps at the end u will know where u should go.

When i was in Secondary school, going to ITE has never crossed my mind, i dunno why. Its not like i dun do badly for any subjects but i know where my strength lies and i tried very hard and brushed on it.

Right, for Aiai's case. Here's some simple facts. What do you really want in future? Singapore's future seems like it will be going very well and there is no doubt that there will be a competition for any kind of jobs. U name it. Hence, do u think an ITE cert is enough? Or perhaps u want to continue to go to Poly after ITE? I dun mind if u are willing to take that step, no doubt it is longer and slower but helps u as well. However, do u think it is easy to even get into Poly after ITE.

If u have no longer have the passion to study, leaving Sec 5 and going to ITE won't make any difference because both requires studying. And also, u won't feel like studying even more coz its all project base and it will seem like u have a lot of time to spend. So, eventually, u'll say, u wanna drop out of ITE.

Seriously, why isn't Sec 5 good enough? For u to go step by step and allow u to have another year of comfort before stepping into another different world. I dun really understand. Why? Doesn't seem like u have a lot of stress and i think u have a group of very good teachers supporting u especially the one that always talk to u, so why still wanna leave?

U know, u have a lot of people to help u out along this path to O level. Will there be any in ITE? Will u be sure that u will get into the same course as your friends?

Studying is never an easy job, it will never be. For me, it is not. Force yourself and give yourself more discipline, maybe it will help u more... :)

End of the day, it is still your decision, Aiai... JiA yoU... No matter where you go, hopefully, u will gain from it and ultimately be able to succeed in future.

Those are my opinions. :)

Last presentation i'm gonna have tmr and there i shall be free for the weekend, except for one tutorial to do and next week, its only Monday that i got to go school, i am HAPPY. My study week starts one week earlier! After all the effort for everything, it is a good pay back, an extra week. :)

Night...

当你轻轻地吻着我的唇，我又想起了往事... 曾经几时，那份温柔是属于我的... 或许那是我一相情愿的想法吧... 因为此时此刻，我知道打从一开始，这一切，我都不曾拥有...

Restless

Have no idea where my tiredness is from. Feeling real tired for some reasons.

Very well, FABM presentation is finally over, comment i got, not a lot of eye contact, HAha! I realised that. However, she said it was good to add in figures. Our group overall is pretty good. Good effort she said and Mr cool was nodding. HAHa! O, i didn't know our menu is used during the open house, heh heh, flattering, but all thanks to Pearl. Finally, its over.

I kind of went to POA with a really tired mind and wasn't really listening bout what she says but i think still ok, am able to do the quiz.

After school, went to Orchard. Reached just in time to get my pay which means i dun have to go down tmr. Still, the same gloomy weather inside the chief cashier, wadever. Met this couple of Westerners going into the lift with me. Find it weird, i wonder was it coz of my dressing or coz i am a girl, they seemed very polite towards me. HaA! Didn't bumped into anyone familiar and had no intention to go find any.

Wheelock, my next stop, waited for a while and i got my baby back. I'm happy, sms is fast and it ain't that lag anymore. HaHA! So happy...

Went back on a damn bumpy ride, feel like killing the driver. Drive like some sort of crazy freak, what was he hurrying about? The bus really went UP and DOWN and braked like nuts, i started feeling nauseous on the bus. Seat was only available after Dover. Sat on it and i closed my eyes and tried to stop thinking bout the up and down. I fell asleep.

Alighted, went pass VK and saw the cute baby girl shikin was holding. I held her up but she started crying. Fine, i dunnoe how to carry a baby, but my baby cousins didn't cry when i held them. Too long nv touch baby? HAHA! Perhaps...

Terry called and pyshco-ed me to share gift for Kok Hong and it was ex. After muh persuasion from him, i reluctantly agreed. However, i smsed him just now to withdraw from it. I really have no money recently and i only earned $42 that day, i dun wanna spend unnecessarily, i rather choose to get him another thing. Feel kind of guilty coz i swear i'll pay if ting agreed but who knows Ting made a promise. Ha! I seriously can't spend on anything. I am really sorry.

I had a nightmare yesterday or perhaps its just a bad dream but it kind of bothers me a lot... I hope everything will be alright.

Revision lecture and MAEC tutorial tmr...

I wanna sleep earlier today...

Stop coming to me dreams... Let me have a good night sleep...

Working makes me tired.

So i skipped class yesterday to go work yesterday. It wasn't Kwek's place, it was some Lee's place. HaHA!!! Honey was telling us how big the place is and indeed, it is big but i won't put it as magnificent.

When the Van drove in, Honey says that carpark can house 10 round tables, i was shock! We walked through the back, and nearly went the wrong direction, imagine the crossroad. Into the kitchen, it wasn't all the big a kitchen though but they got an automated DOOR IN THE KITCHEN!!!!!!!!!!! GoSh... Unpacked the food and prepared the canapes and fruits. Canapes cosisted of, Morzirella Cheese, Goose live, Loin and lobster. Fruits served are tropical fruits, the only beverage available is Champange.

The female owner is very noisy, she kept asking us to hurry when things can be done so quickly and when we are done, her guest weren't there. Then when her guest came, we offered them canapes and champagne but none really wanted. She kept forcing us to serve.

Nvm, finally her guest took some stuff and after drinking and eating, they stopped again. Then she forced again. Poor pple, got stuffed....... Bet their stomachs were all bloated.

Anyway, they went to try the lift up but somehow got stuck inside and caused a bit of commotion there, i got a shocked. HAHA!!! Well, imagine a house with lift, gosh...

They were pretty much flattering each other with what they have. The host; their big big house. The mayors; their national treasures (which they say nobody can bring that out of the country except for them, Bleh...) HahA!!! It was boring the most part, the pple sat down in the living room and talk while the few of us stood there with champagne and fruits and canapes. Stoned. Then, with no other choices, i started listening to what they were talking about, still the same old flatterings of each other and the host keeping their image in front of the guest who don't speak Hokkien, u know what i mean. Haha!!!

Anyway, sort of ended really fast when the guest walked out. They settled the bill and the simple fruits and canapes and the service cost over a thousand bucks. Believe it.

I was lucky enough to walk out of the house and to the poolside and serve them champagne... It is so cool to have a pool at your house. goSh.. Its a pity we can't go upstairs, really want to see what is it like... Ahhh... When will i get a house like that? How long will it take to be a millionairre?? goSh...

One of the guest asked, "From ritz?" I said, "No, Orchard Hotel, sir." HAhA!!! Its been a while since i last said that.

Went back to hotel waiting for 5pm to come but damn, waited and waited and 5pm never came. Did so much... Laid tablecloths, did a table setting, coffe breaks, refreshed the whole god dmn coffee break for the next day with Aunty ah hoi helping me wipe cups.... Kill ME!

Ooo... Saw a very shuai staff. HahA!!! While laying table cloth, Li hong was asking me whether that guy shuang or not and i think he is very. While i was in the bar drinking water, he came in to set the bar. SO i asked is he a barman? And i dug a bit of his stuff out. He is a Eurasian, a mix of Malay and Spanish but he has never been to Spain and purely Singaporean in heritage sense. He is in NS and he speaks Spanish. OMG! So shuang!!!!!!!! HAhA! Forgot to ask his age though.

Work ended when i asked Eric whether i can go or not and he kindly released Aunty and I. Went to change then wash off the spray... Ahh... So tired by then. Walked to Old Chang kee and buy Sardine'O.

Walked to bus stop and i was half-dead. Bus finally came and i suddenly realised how long i haven't been on bus 106 back from orchard to batok at that particular bus stop. Its weird and the bus itself is different. Went to the very back, found a seat and sat down. Wanted to sleep but there's somebody beside so i waited for damn long b4 he alighted. I moved in and fell right into my dream. HA! For the rest of the journey, i knew nothing. Woke up when bus reached batok, and good thing i didn't drool. HAHA!!!

Damn hungry, went to buy dinner at S-11, got a packet of fruit juice and there, i dragged my feet down to wait for my bus.

Home, i bathed and ate my dinner like wadever, sat there, dieded.

Before i could jump onto my bed, i had to finish FABM slides, so i sat down, in front of my lappy and began doing with my tired eyes and body. Chatting with Darl while doing the slides when Ting PM-ed me and told her bout her printer bonker-ness. It was 12am, Hui and her walked over to my place to collect her stuff. I was totally dying, when she smsed that she was reaching, i waited for another 2min b4 i went to tell my ma, "mA, i go down and pass something to xueting hor..." Said that twice before i turned to the door and the back of Ting scared me... She was standing there........ HAHA!! Freaked me at 12plus am. And i saw Hui with her CutE specs. HAHA!!!

After that, i cannot tahan liao, concussed on my bed.

Next morning, didn't even know there's lecture, anyway, i slept through. Went to school for BCA review then FABM discussion.

Met Uting and Galileo.

Finished up with the discussion, went to library to stone for an hour b4 heading to LT22 for MAEC make-up.

2.30pm, went back home.

I was yawning away all along, after eating some stuff, i fell asleep on my bed and i missed meeting with Dear, she walked all the way to my house there. HAhA! She was returning my shoes.

After dinner, doing up speech for FABM presentation tmr.... I AM SO FREAKING NERVOUS! Ok, maybe not... Alright, not a single bit. I'm not feeling anything bout it. I just dun like the idea of presenting to a messed up module leader.... Wadever. So, my group got some fancy thingy, that's wad i am looking forward to. I finally shut myself and discard the responsibility that i wasn't supposed to pick up. Now, i am a bit too tired to bother much... Just doing my part. Sorry but i really can't go on, then again, after tmr, it'll be all over. Then, i gotta slog IAC. Wad THE!

Hai... So after this week, no more presentation, no more sleepless nights no more important submission. HAHA!!! Just plain old Tutorials... I'm happy...

Great, let me fuss over the presentation from now on.

We can self-select time table next year, love that, wanna make sure my fridays are the emptiest of all. HAhA!!!

Inspirational words don't seem to be coming by anymore, my mind is a mess and I have no way to fix it good. I am tired, drained and quite evenly exhausted... Mind, heart and soul seem separated... How do I put them back together? As one... I love you...

Last day of the week.

Waited for so long till the 2 guys appeared. I was so scared standing at my lift waiting for them in the middle of the night at 1.30am. HAha!!! They bought Fries, and the Terry Tan didn't wanna buy, in the end, still bought. HAHA!!!

Sat at my Void deck and talked talked talked, told them bout the asshole and all, so sickening... Then, Terry was sharing his work experience at F&N factory. Heh Heh! Interesting and we talked bout some stuff and ended at around 3am.

Tired, back home, i concussed.

Darl was on time, smsed at 10am and we went to makan again. I didn't feel like eating but he forced me to. Curry Mee... It was nice, a bit spicy but i like.

Went back, wanted to sleep but was meeting Dear at 1.30pm, so i waited, then she smsed and changed to 3.30pm. By then, i wasn't sleepy anymore, so i sat and watched CSI then went to do FABM slides then feeling very tired, lie down and slept for a good half an hour.

Then, went out to pass Dear my shoes... YaYA... We wore FBT shorts, tee and specs. HAHA! Good thing we weren't wearing the same colour tee as she said, if not we look alike. However, the very thing that separate us is something obvious, dun wanna say. Dear, u know right?! HAHA!!!

Back home, slacked and watched the rain fell like snow... Then, started doing tuts which hung me... I stopped and do FABM slides instead.

5plus pm, Darl smsed and asked whether to go out not... And he told me a limited edition Levis jeans that cost $800......... I was like, SIAO! 800 bucks for a jeans... What is wrong with the leg and waist? Too expensive to show? What is it with the jeans? Now i know why Levis lasted for 100 straight years... I supposed the quality is still there.

So, Darl came to fetch me and we went JP walk walk, shop shop and eat eat... HAHa!!! He met he SHIFU at the Jean Yip there and his ex (some ex-es ago...) HAHA!!! Sounds weird....

Then ate KFC, the same Zinger i had last night with ting and had some really long chattering! GoSh... When was the last time we talked so much? I'm so stun now, thinking bout it... HahA!!! We did....

He sent me back at around 10pm and back home, i just felt like doing IAC, so i kind of completed my part. Now, to wait for the whole thing to actually come out so can discuss the next step.

Tmr going to work. Outside catering with Honey... HAHAA!!! So happy! So long never work liao le... Heh Heh! honey was so cute in the afternoon with his last sms, "Muack Muack Honey" HAHA!!!

Decided to go make-up lecture on Tuesday instead, so dun have to worry bout tmr. HAHA!!!

K, i'm gonna accompany Darl till he feels like sleeping coz he accompanied me the other day and i made him tired. HAHA!!!

Joan, stop your Cool-ing thing!

The kiss that I yearned seems never coming back again...

Should have brought an umbrella out since i was bringing a bag. The rain began as drizzle and when we walked out of Far east, it was pouring. No choice, gotta go back to Wheelock and there, we ran passed the tracffic light, then after a bit of shelter, we ran from Shaw to OHS... Drenched, totally...

Dear wasn't feeling all that well and she kept feeling nauseous and tummy ache, so in the end, she cancelled her booking. Ting came to join us. After some chattering with Honey, Felicia, Aunty Santy and all, we left.

3 girls sharing an umbrella, through the rain. O well, it was not of much use but hAHA, think bout it, it was romantic. HAhA!!!

Walked to MRT station and said BYE to Dear. Saw these girls wearing Tiger dress, and spotted someone familiar, but we just walked away. Wrong direction, we went back, she came up to us. She was a schoolmate, back then.

Went to wait for our bus, it took pretty long. On the way back, we talked bout many funny things.

I almost hated this asshole who spoilt my name... Asshole... I didn't do anything to him nor am i the one who wanted to breakup, y would such a fool wanna spoil someone's name when that someone didn't do anything wrong... Ass... Almost hated but i retained afterall its over... Hope he becomes as asshole soon, or perhaps he already is? HAHA!!! Ok, very bAd...

Alright, i can work on Monday le, i need to double confirm with Honey though coz he didn't reply my last sms, scared i go down then nothing... HAHA!!! Gotta spray hair but nvm, can earn cash...

Haii... My sister betrayed me because of a dollar coin... She allowed me to be attacked... I am so sad...

Darl came by for a while just now, i think he got quite some stuff to talk bout... Hai... Another story...

Bought something for Jiawen... Quite costly... but alright i guess for something she likes...

Maybe... Somehow... Or perhaps I'm thinkin a bit too much... Just let it flows...

Time...

I found myself feeling bored this afternoon. It is Friday and there is no class today. I always love Friday coz it marks the end of an entire week and the beginning of a marvellous weekend(although sometimes it is not even close to marvellous) and i can sleep in the next day. So usually, my fridays last longer than any other days. However, today seems weird. I am at home, but i dunnoe wad to do.

So, i began doing FABM slides, and come to think of it, presentation is on Wed. Restlessly, i took my time to do it. In the midst of it, i turned on my Desktop and started watching Click, HAHA!! Gosh.. I so regretted not going to see it in the theatre. It is so touching... I teared myself like nuts at the last part. Other than that, it was hilarious.

Did the slides till 6pm and i started watching TV. Hee~ Endlessly... 9pm, began doing the slides again, still i'm not done and decided to stop. Left just a little bit more.

I am really bored. Going town tmr to send my phone to service. Hai... Poor baby, going hospital.

Didn't really feel like talking to Darl much... It didn't feel right this whole week. I guess keeping a good distance from him is still good. Always being too close will cut out all sources of chattering. Ha! And since my phone is malfunctioning, didn't really smsed a lot either. Sad to say but that's wad i gotten face. (: Do miss him...

Didn't see the 2 boyfriends the entire week, HAHA! Implying Hun and Ping Hong, guess we are all busy with our own stuff? Perhaps.

Hai... Bored nowadays, want to shop, but no money to shop, want to take money, but dun dare to take either. How i envy those people with rich parents, in their wallet, its always more than $50. GoSh... I wanna SHOP AND BUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"It really didn’t matter to me even an infinitesimal trifle; if there wasn’t the most optimistically Omnipotent of Sun outside my door; to timelessly consecrate every unfinished desire of mine; to the hilt of infinite infinity.

It really didn’t matter to me even an inconspicuous trifle; if there wasn’t the most vivaciously fathomless Sea outside my door; to unbelievably tantalize even the most evanescent cranny of my skin for an infinite more of my destined lifetimes.

It really didn’t matter to me even an obfuscated trifle; if there weren’t the most eternally invincible Mountains outside my door; to compassionately sequester every disastrously shuddering bone of my body; as diabolical hell torrentially rained down on earth.

It really didn’t matter to me even a cloistered trifle; if there weren’t the most enigmatically inebriating Forests outside my door; to perennially perpetuate the fragrance of symbiotic existence in every of my haplessly dying breath

It really didn’t matter to me even a fugitive trifle; if there wasn’t the most resplendently bountiful Waterfall outside my door; to inexhaustibly reinvigorate my sinfully deteriorating desire to survive,

It really didn’t matter to me even an ethereal trifle; if there weren’t the most sensuously crimson Clouds outside my door; to unabashedly catapult me into the most ebulliently triumphant realms of paradise

It really didn’t matter to me even a fleeting trifle; if there wasn’t the most unassailably ever-pervading Sky outside my door; to engender me to discover the ultimate horizons of my impoverished existence,

It really didn’t matter to me even an oblivious trifle; if there wasn’t the most mellifluously enchanting Sound outside my door; to unceasingly enshroud every dormitory of my frazzled life with victoriously untamed delight,

It really didn’t matter to me even a mercurial trifle; if there wasn’t the most seductively tranquil Shadow outside my door; to indefatigably cajole me into the wisps of celestially fructifying sleep,

It really didn’t matter to me even a disappearing trifle; if there wasn’t the most bounteously virile Woman outside my door; to tirelessly prompt me to explore every rhapsodically emollient intricacy of my potent manhood,

It really didn’t matter to me even a forlorn trifle; if there wasn’t the most wonderfully vibrant Meadow outside my door; to invite me back into the cradle of my amazingly impeccable and uninhibited childhood,

It really didn’t matter to me even a transient trifle; if there weren’t the most iridescently innocuous Stars outside my door; to unshakably enlighten the complexion of my every drearily asphyxiating and treacherous night,

It really didn’t matter to me even a dilapidated trifle; if there wasn’t the most impregnably Heavenly Moon outside my door; to steer me through every acrimonious hurdle of my life; with the ease of a newly born silken prince,

It really didn’t matter to me even a fleeting trifle; if there wasn’t the most astoundingly ameliorating magicians outside my door; to liberate me of even the most ghastliest of my tribulations; transform the monotonously dull space around me; into paradise divine,

It really didn’t matter to me even a feckless trifle; if there weren’t the most indomitably learned philosophers/saints outside my door; to endlessly soliloquize to me the ideologies of effulgent truth; love and beauty in the chapters of my vividly enthralling life,

It really didn’t matter to me even a teeny trifle; if there wasn’t the most glittering caverns of pure Gold outside my door; to forever ensure that the definitions of maliciously pulverizing poverty stayed an infinite kilometers away from my diminutively robust form,

It really didn’t matter to me even an indescribable trifle; if there wasn’t the most mischievously jubilant flirtation outside my door; to make me feel eternally young and fantastically virile; although I stood on the absolute brink of inevitable death,

It really didn’t matter to me even an insouciant trifle; if there wasn’t the most Omnisciently everlasting breath outside my door; to bestow upon me the prowess to holistically survive for a countless more blessed lifetimes,

If only; whenever I did open the door of my passionately throbbing heart; whenever I did open the door of my ecstatically emancipating soul; whenever I did open the door of my euphorically searching eyes; whenever I did open the door of my amiably unfettered dwelling; there was you and none else but you O! Heavenly Beloved to take me in your mesmerizing arms and immortally bond with the beats of my life; again and again and again; time after time after time; each time; everytime…"

Nikhil Parekh

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/time-after-time-each-time-everytime/

Thursday

HA! To much surprise, the lecturers at our open house didn't regconize us as Poly students, HAHA!!! So flattered, they asked, "are u waiting for O level results?" And our answers are, "Ehh... No, we are Np students" HAHA!!! And they all went, "......." So funny...

Met up with Dear just now and after buying Coffee Bean, we went to see XiuYing... HAHA!!! Dear wants to Li xiao her... Heh HEH! Saw Linda's Cousin, think is Jodie or something... HAHA!!! She got an Ah Pek dog... So cute...

Anyway, left after that, while waiting for the tracffic light, there's this guy who walked pass Dear and he kept staring at her Ahem, and i kept staring at him... Dear didn't even realised... HAi...

She went to trim her hair... And i believe most of the reason was coz of work. While waiting, there's this little girl inside who kept giving me faces... HAHA!!! Very cute but a bit irritating... HAHA!!!

Dear was cutting her hair while i was looking at the newspaper and watching the very sian Hokkien show... HAHA!!!

Then went to makan dinner and went home le... Somebody said wanna study lah then in the end, cut cut, eat eat and left... With my notes... HAHA!!! Some studying huh... Hee~

Back home, lazed around...

Waiting for nothing to happen... Need to start doing my slides and IAC project already... Tmr no school so i supposed i will be doing those... And maybe i will go to school to do it. HAHA!!! Make use of facilities ok ...

Losing my sanity...

I dunno...

When night falls upon our peaceful land, my mind seems to lurk outside... Boredness, that's how i would described that kind of feeling.

This week is really a very slackish week and i am so lazy to even do anything. Sometimes it feels like the end is near but as u are rejoicing over the end of something, it has yet to come to an end.

Learnt a new words, "tepid", which means not much interest. Seriously, not much interest about the things that i'm doing now. No, i'm still very much interested in the course that i'm in, but somehow something seems missing. I was thinking is it because the initial motivation of this course is no longer driving me anymore? Working in OHS was one of the reasons why i wanted to be in TRM and from the first sem onwards, everything was alright while i was still working but now... Seems like stopping work also stopped the interest. Could it be the case or maybe i am just a bit too tired recently having to carry the burden of the different projects.

There i go again with my grumblings.

Anyway, met up with Aiai this afternoon to pass her her lenses, and saw Xiuying also. HAHA!!! I guess that secret that ting told me isn't much of a secret at all. I think everyone should know by now. HAHA! XIuying's face is terrible, but she said she went to see doc le, hope her face will be better the next time i see her.

Saw Darl darl sitting by the door and shouted out, "AH PO!!!!!!!!!" Like oMg, him calling me Ah Po reminds me of Ivan so so much, please stop, i dun wanna be reminded of Ivan Tan although he is a really nice guy but NOO....

Went home after that and ate my lunch. After a while, took my nap. Lao ma woke me up from my nap coz of her talking to lao pa, i was so pissed. She was forcing me to go see furniture with them when i am very much not needed that. Basically, i refused to, she just kept insisting till i blew my top. What's there to see besides furniture, its not like they are buying a cardboard for my room. And please, its not my room yet. HAHA!!! Am just tired and needless to say, she didn't persist on.

O... Forgot to mention, Marche called this afternoon while i was in tutorial. I actually didn't wanna pick up the call since i was in the middle of the class but still, i picked up. And i could recognize the voice as that weird accent interviewer. HAHA!!! Excused myself and talked to him. Ya, so he said i need to go for a training on the 3rd of Feb at Marche at 9am. GOSh...

Ting asked me if i wanted to work on Friday at OHS, initially i wanted to but after that, i decided not to coz of my nails. HAha!!! Didn't really wanna cut off my nails, first time growing my nails so long and nobody catches me and ask me to cut them off. Still rmb, Mrs Loo doing that and Mr Lau too. HAHA!!! Freedom...

Met up with Darl in the evening. Didn't want to in the first place coz i was feeling rather bad but it began to rain and he said he couldn't go back, so met up. Went out to grab the A4 papers and by the time i stepped out of my house, it wasn't raining already. I thought he might want to go back but obviously no... HAHA!! We sat there and use my Baby to do bo liao stuff. Ha! 10plus pm, we left. Feeling feverish again. Ass, can't the fever just go away for good...

2 hours lesson tmr afternoon, MAEC tutorial. Will be waiting for Dear to sms me about her hair cut.

Mmmm... Feel like having a sumptuous meal... Mmmm... Sushi... Fastfood... Tidbits... Quit dreaming, its time to turn in soon.

真的还会爱吗？当结局已明显地摆在面前... 你说了太多，我已迷糊了... 到底哪一句才是真的？我不懂，我真的不懂... 可惜是为了什么？是不是该珍惜？我不明了... 你爱我，你真的爱我？很多事都是命中注定的，想改也改不了... 我不想改，因为这才是最真的，不是吗？未来的你我都会拥有各自的幸福，但在这幸福中，我们会回味当初的爱情... 可能，你的未来会有我在...

Still sick...

I am sure i was having a fever and i think i still am having a fever. I slept through the night waking up many times coz i had quite a few dreams. It was really uncomfortable.

Woke up only at 1pm and felt that i was in a mess. Studied WcOM and around 3.30pm, went to school for the test.

While waiting for the girls to come, suddenly feel hot again. GoSh.. And i didn't bring my jacket, bad day... Seriously, went into the exam hall feeling really bad.

Paper began and it was really cold, practically freezing. Hurried with the paper and i'm glad i know how to do most of it, hope i'm not wrong in the format.

Anyway, handed up the paper, went to toilet and went to wait for bus.

Oooo... Saw Joan's Rainy guy today... HAha!! Didn't really had a good look at him the other time, and today saw him and i felt ehhhh... Well... HAHA! Shall not elaborate...

Went to get a packet of Panadol and went home.

I was alright just now but now, feeling sick again, crap... Hai...

No mood for Tutorial tmr or to do it either... CraP...

Turning in soon... :)

Hope i can sleep well later...

Still, the dream goes on... 虚幻中成长？什么时候才会醒？

Sick...

Feel like killing my phone. It is only 4 months old and its giving me so many problems. So much so for 3g, for 3.2 megapixels and the looks of it! ASs... I've been treating it so well, so nicely yet it repays me by hanging so much, being so laggy and switching on and off! Hello!!! $500plus for playing the on/off button ar... Think i'm that rich?

Need to bring it to service soon, probably on Wed.

My neck is hurting badly after all the looking at com for long hours, it is really unhealthy and i think my eyes are suffering too. Hate this sort of feeling... Need to sit up straight and rest my eyes whenever possible.

I think i'm sick.. My lips are so dry throughout the day when i drank so much water. I had been feeling cold on my hands and feet every now and then and i had a really bad headache this morning right after lecture. My face started feeling hot again and before i knew it, its blushed. Was sleeping the entire afternoon and i mean really, i'm sleeping. Until my phone rang.

GoSH... My head really feels feverish...

There's a wcom test tmr and i didn't study at all... HaHA!!! Need to wake up early to study.

Gonna end here... really feels sick...



Mr Michael called me i was stunned, obviously i couldn't pay much attention when it says, "private number" Ha! I was still lost when he said he is Micheal and when he mentioned IAC when it dawned on me.

O my god, just read my tag and the dodge thing that Xiu Ying was saying is FUNNY!!! HAHA!!! O well, maybe she doesn't know its called dodge, dun blame her... Heh HeH... At least she got teach.

After blogging just now, went to lie down then Darl called to go causeway... Didn't really want to but after some pondering, still did. Hee~ Took cab but the cab uncle went wrong direction, shocked me lah, some very Uloo place but he kept apologizing and charged me only 6 bucks when he turned so many rounds. After i alighted, he continued to apologize but really, it was alright.

Then, walked in, i called darl, ass lah, he lied that he was at JB liao, i ji tao shock for 1 second, HAHA!!! Then, i thought he shouldn't be that heartless. Indeed, i saw him round the corner. Heh Heh... He wanted to eat Swensens so we queued but i told him bout the Siam Kitchen with no intention to go eat, then he said we go try. HAha!! But the food was alright then i told him i should treat him another time coz he had been paying too much. Then he insists no coz i am not working... Doesn't matter, once in a while right...

Anyway, we had a little bit of bickering just now and it was funny the way it was. I loVe Him...

Talked to Dear online just now and she's going back to work.... HAHA! ANd she wants to cut hair on Thurs.... Well, I love her....

Made so many confessions these few days from kok hong, terry, ping hong, sister, to dear and darl... SO much lOve... So i shouLd say i love AiaI and Lao gOng too b4 any get jealous......... Must balance relationship de hor...

Its cold outside... The breeze sends chill down my spine and all I yearn now is your wholesome hug... As it starts drizzling, my wondering soul brought you back to me yet those were just illusions made... I stood alone, drenched, in the darkest street, waiting for you to come back home... Come home to my heart...

Continuing...

And to continue from the meet up, i stayed up the whole night chatting online with Terry and Ping Hong.. With a teeny weeny bit of bickering.. HAHA!!!

Like Terry says, its very weird that he was telling me serious thing. HAHA!!! Then again, been friends for so long already... HAHA!!!

Turned in at 5am. GoSh... Imagine the tiredness... HAHa!!!

Slept all the way until 10am, Darl smsed. Haha!!! I was just telling ting and he did. So brushed up, went for breakfast or not really breakfast, i had a Milo and he didn't eat. He was telling me bout the things that are going on. Intriguing... U won't see this sort of things everyday in everyone. Its almost amazing... Peace and War exist.

He drove me back and i slept again till 2.30pm... So tired... GoSh... Ping Hong called me to go Vivo again, i was like, slEepy... Told him no then went back to bed. Then Terry smsed to ask whether going not, then i scold him pIg.. HAHA!!! Then he went back into his dreamland.

Took my time to finish my lunch, at the same time, watching DvD... HahA!!

Now, i'm still tired... Ar....

*YaWn*

I love them...

I am not aunty OK!!! So bad, KoK hOng kept calling me Aunty... DepRessed...

HahA!!! Went out the whole day... A little treat after many weeks of slogging for assignments, projects and tests. Finally, an shor break from it. Despite so, another week is starting and here comes all the work again.

Woke up early in the morning to meet ting for K lunch. It was great to sing... HAHA!!! So long since i went K-ing and i find the lunch very nice or perhaps i was just hungry... HAHA!!!

After that, went to Kallang to see the juniors play. Hai... Seems very lack of motivation. Although there were more laughters between the players but improvements weren't made after every match. The coach? I shall skip that part.

Took bus number 10 from city hall to Vivo city. Ting was shopping for her clothes there and i was just looking around for some that i liked but i only had the share of looking... Did saw a lot of nice casual tees that i really hope to buy, too bad, no cash flow. HAHA!! Saw some at Espirit and really intend to buy so i recorded down the number, need some consideration before deciding.

Then, Kok Hong Ping Hong and terry came.. We went to makan and talked some stuff before heading back to Batok. Went to Coffee Bean and by then, it was 11plus pm.

We began chatting and learnt bout many things. It was a nice catching up.... I just love my old friends, though the distance is present but that feeling never goes.. Ahhh.... I want another of this... Its GREAT!!!!!!!!!

有时不该来的，总要来... 当你不想时，却来了那么多... 是天意弄人还是命中注定？真心换来绝情... 心碎了，谁来坦？情费了，谁来惜？爱是什么？为了一个“情”字，我们忙了一身，值吗？
不理会，又值吗？恼人一世...

I like the font...

Downloaded these fonts and they are beautiful but too bad not everyone can see if i use them. Instead, i saved in as .gif so i can share to everyone... Those are for Aiai and Dear... :)

Here I am

Haven't blog about happenings recently. I was busy the whole week doing project... Haven't been sleeping well either.

GoSh... After Tues's ston-ing in the canteen, went on for MAEC tutorial which was brought forward to Tues from Thurs. The whole tutorial was almost the same as the previous except the topics reviewed. I was very distracted the whole time, not sure why but just distracted. Then, a freaky thing happened, the screen for the projector suddenly come down by itself... OMG!!! We were all shocked! Mrs Ng was acting calm but it was obvious she got a shock too. Never mind, after a while, the screen went up itself again. GOSH!!! From then on, i was focused. Its scary ok... Like all of a sudden.. It was a good thing that was not our permenent class, i would be scared to death... HA! Kidding...

Wednesday was another log day but that was a happy day for me... HAHA!!! After FABM lecture, went for the tutorial, then Mr Cool guy returned us our report. I was wondering where is the mark written coz all i saw was a 46 in the middle of the mark sheet but after looking at the top, i finally saw my marks, i got 80/100.. HAHAHAA!!! So happy ok... Like i did spent quite a lot of effort looking for all the informations inside and troubled Papa to go Marina to get the menu from Via Mar.. HAHA!!! And our cool guy likes it.. HAhA!! Shall go down and take a look at the restaurant one day. :D My effort pays off i guess, spending so much time looking for info and all.

Had POA quiz that afternoon, was so afraid i couldn't do coz i can't even solve the tutorial questions before that but during the tutorial, Mrs Lee went through and was happy, i can understand. The quiz came and i hurried to do coz i thought it was very late already but in the end, when i stepped out of the school, it was 3.40pm, so early.

Called Ting and decided to go back to Batok to meet her. Went to VK to mingle with the stylists. Poor DArl... He was sick... HAhA!!! Showed him some photos and they were so fascinated by it. Ting came and we left.

1st ever 1-1 job interview, is it considered the 1st? coz the IMF was 1 -2 interview, i think its 1st. The interviewer was crap, he asked qns that are not really linked to the job.

Him: In your opinion, which is most important, Friends, family, company?
Me: Family coz without them, there won't be me.
Him: But without company, how can your family support u?
Me: (Confused) eh.. Still without them, there won't be me, and i think even without money, they will still support me.
Him: Ok.... So, u rake friends last?
Me: (actually no, its company that i raked last, but just ans)
Him: this would give me a impression that u can't work with pple
Me: Oooo... But even if i dun like them, i'd still work with them
Him: Actually there's no right answer, u must come out with your own answer (Draws on paper with his doctor handwritting, upside down, trying to make me read)
Me: (took the paper and turned around and tried to figure out what he was writing, then realised, he wrote, "Equally important)

O please... He didn't say i can choose that....... then he wrote "Harvard Uni" which is where that theory came from. Dots....

HE went on asking and asking then penalised me for not knowing how to eat Sushi... "U must turn the sushi around, it is the salmon that should touched the soy sauce not the bottom. Not very good" I was thinking, please, i am not a Japanese, u ask me how i eat durian, i tell u everything.

I think he got nothing to rebute to me coz i am in TRM and he seemed surprised plus impressed with what i'm studying. HA! But poor Dear, he was laughing at her bout her POA. craP.. Like as if he's great...

After that, went to eat LJS, after that, bought Jelly beans from Candy Empire. Haha!!! then took MRT back.

Went home and i'm tired but spend my night finishing the report but still lack of a part. 3am, i gave up, slept.

Couldn't wake up the next morning, although i know i should but i just couldn't get up. So i gave up on trying, smsed Joan and Jiawen in my subconscious and i concussed till 11am... Like that was the first time couldn't get up like that and the reason was too much work.

So, went to school at around that time to do project. First to arrive and i began with the things. Then, one by one they came. We were doing the projects and i'm glad we really did some things. I was so lazy lah, i got so tired of doing so much that i told them dun do so much, just tell me whatever u think, i'd put them in... HAHA!!! And everything ended at around 5pm.

Took bus back with Mei Qing and her craziness started to come out. HAHA!!! She is so funny...

Anyway, went to WM to get herbal tea for Darl despite my tiredness... HAHA!!! Then, went back home after buying some snacks.

Slacked for an hour plus and began putting all the report together and cost me my whole night. Didn't touched a bit of MAEC till 11plus. Studied wad i can, i dun rmb wad time, but i fell back to bed.

Woke up late this morning also but good thing it was afternoon class.

LMS was alright, had our presentation and i am glad that it is finally over... Now, IAC to worry bout. However, before i start my engine on anything, i'm gonna relax tmr, do everything besides studying... HAhA!!!

Gonna be going K box and perhaps Kallang to see Netball carnival.

Hee~ I was having a really bad headache just now during the paper and believe me, i felt my face blushing and i could feel the warmness when i touched my face, think i am getting sick. Anyway, called Hun after the paper and we went back to batok together... Hee~ He went to buy cup noodles with me then we left.

Ate my cup noodles and paralysed in front of the TV when Darl smsed. Called him while he was jammed in the middle of highway. HAHa!! Poor thing, gotta face that kind of trouble everyday. HAhA! We were talking a lot of craps i tell you, we can just laugh our head off... HAHA!!

Finally know how to DL fonts and use them liao... SO happy... Hee~

Love me people coz i am AppLe...

Conclusion: achieved a lot this week and one project is finally over and the other is partially over too....

In school

In school doing project... This report nearly caused my life... I'm tired of doing report. I'm glad this is the last for this year. GrEat!!!!!!!!!!

I'm here again...

Hai... Early in the morning, i couldn't find the Tee that i intended to wear so after wasting some effort looking for it, i gave up. I took my black long sleeve, wore my jeans and left. I kind of threw a bit of tantrum at lao ma which i shouldn't had, So SoRRY lAo Ma..

Skipped BCA lecture then went on for the PBL presentation, i think we had quite a few marks deducted for it coz there were some mistakes.

After that, went on to to FABM report. Mei qing and pearl were late. I'm left with their 2 parts and my own, coz without theirs, i can't do mine. There's conclusion and recommendation to do also... GoSh... Will finish it by tmr night...

Darl fell sick. He was being real cute when he started apologizing for getting sick and couldn't go out. Find it funny... It was alright, he dun have to apologize for anything. I still love him.

Dear was telling me bout her talk tmr and that she needs to rush down to Vivo after that. I, too, need to rush down... So Dear, we'll both be rushing down. Ting may be joining us too. But after Vivo, need to go back home le.. Hai... So rush... Rush Hour??

To Lao GoNg Andy, there's just too many things going through in my mind so without someone i can talk to, it all appears in my blog, that explains the many updates last few days. Just feel like saying everything out although it may be some really random stuff... :)

Ahhh.... I'm in school, sitting in the crowded canteen, silently typing my blog with my friends all doing their own things... Imagine the scene... Its weird... Haha!!!

I miss Dear, I miss Sister, I miss Darl, I miss Lao Gong Andy and I miss my sons(Lovely WhiSky and JeDDy).... Arghh!!!!!!!!!!!! Oooo... And i miss playing Netball with the girls.... Gosh... Just too many things to do but too little time to complete...

是否只有时间才会让我们勤快？是否只有现实才是痛苦... 是否只有我才会想象虚构的幻想... 人生的定义是什么？是否只是我想不透？

So many things to do!!!!!

O my God... The organizer really kept me on my toe. Everyday is packed with certain events. I am serious.

I completed my MAEC tut coz tmr is the tutorial, then i carried on doing the POA tut and now i'm left with one last qn but before i can be happy about anything, i realised there is POA graded assignment on Wed which means i only have tmr late afternoon to study and finish that last exam qn and not to forget, i need to do the FABM report. While thinking bout it, there is also BCA presentation tmr at 10am. goSH... Then, i need to go Vivo on Wed after school, which leaves me with Thurs to finally collate everything for the report but then there is MAEC test2 on Friday... Wad the hell!!!!!!!!!!

There are things to do everyday! And i think i can't really cope with it. I wrote down what i need to do on my organizer and i got so stress up. By far, i only received one from the 4 persons in my group... GoSh...

I'm not gonna sleep on Wed, i'm gonna finish the report.

Sickening... So many things to do.

Joan is so depressed... Not nice to post wad but i hope she is doing ok.

Xueting told me a hilarious news... HAHA!!!! Retribution i call it.

Kk, i did wadever i can for the report already, i'm gonna go sleep... There's BCA presentation in the morning, need to get up and go through the PBL... GoSh...

Darl is so cute, I love HIm!

-Untitled-

Lying in bed
Thinking of you
The past we used to share

Falling asleep
With you in my head
Dreaming dreams we once had

As time passes by
Things change in time
No idea where the past had gone
No idea how the future unfolds

I heard everything
Seen through most
Yet there's more
When will it end
Is it till the end of days

Emotions are hard to cope
Yet life without it
Is not beautiful

So, when will I reached my destination
Through the hills and valleys

I guess
One day
When the rain stops
and the sun shines

My destiny shall then decides...

Report and more...

This is the picture i wanted to post but couldn't post last night. Ain't the cap nice... hAHA!!! My crush for caps is back with my hair growing back. HAHA!!! Sounds ridiculous in a way. Well...

Spent my whole afternoon doing the report. Wonder the rest did theirs or not. And the deadline for the submission is still vague. I wonder whether anyone else spotted and asked her, if they did ask, why didn't she repost the annoucement?? So troublesome.

The tip of my nose is so itchy... Hope it won't fall after my rubbing and scratching. Then again, why would it fall off? Its real... Opps...

Feeling so tired... Why Why Why...

Another week is gonna end and the accomplishment i had? Nothing much except for the fact that i passed my papers all really well and i bought a razor-back. I'm kind of worrying for the FABM report and may i suggest, i'm not the leader. GoSh...

Anyway, i think i'm gonna slack the rest of the night away although i still got 2 Tuts and the report to complete... ArGh! Dun wanna bother for just one night!

Throw me some gossips, i would really love to listen to some now. Seriously.

PS: Someone told me a real-life story on a Government Spy hitting on him... Its weird and funny... Melancholy? Is that even the word to use?

Orchard Boulevard

Heh HeH!!! Besides the picture with Darl driving, the rest were all taken in town. I tried on a lot of clothes and dress but i didn't actually get any. HAhA!!! No, actually i bought a Grey Razor-back at U2 and that was it.

Went to find ting at VK in the afternoon to grab hold of her voucher and IC before meeting Dear to OHS. Well, i had a stumble at VK and i was pretty embarassed by it, i said wrongly... HAHA!!!

Anyway, met up with Dear and went to OHS after that. She was complaining about her thirst, then she wanted to eat Ice cream but the Umbrella wasn't there so i told her, maybe Off lah... HAHA!!! Got a Big gulp at 7-11 then went to OHS.

Passed the voucher to Xueni then waited for her to knock off. So happy to ba back there talking to them. HAHA!!! Yusoff was talking crap with us and Andy came in and talk crap too. I was browsing through my blog and Andy saw my old pics and he kept saying my face is rounder, WAH LAO, NO LOR, i cut hair lor... HAHA!!! Well that was 2 years ago right??? So, well, doesn't matter.

Got hold of the news that Chef Eric is not the F&B director which i was shocked. No wonder he is wearing suit now instead of the chef clothing. OMG!!! Such a surprise... An unexpected choice.

More news came upon our ears but no point commenting. :)

Went around looking for stuff to do before we finally decided to leave hotel and go buy 4D.. HAhA!!! The 2 of us very cham ar.. Gamblers... HAHA!! No lah, just a small bet... Hee~

Went to Shaw house to walk and shop while waiting for Xueni to turn up.

Went to Taka and finally settled down for dinner.

After makan, went to shop around. Tried on all those stuff but just didn't get any. Tried on a very nice jeans at Taka, costs 50 bucks but didn't get it in the end due to much persuasion but now, i've regretted. Thinking of going back to get it again. Hope the sales goes on. HAHA!!! And a cap from Shaw, couldn't upload the pic in le... But is nice... Hai...

Well, was all drained after the whole day walking around. My legs still feel numb now.

HAHa!!! Jiawen told me she finally solved the BCA, sickening, i stayed up till 3am asking Bt kor about it, so tiring lah.... good that its finally over...

Still have MAEC tut, POA tut and FABM report to finish... GoSH...

Going to Vivo coming Wed for job interview, Marché. Hope will be able to work during the holidays... HAHA!!! See, already planning. Days without extra cash aren't good.

:) Well, i'm gonna continue with FABM report till i give up thinking...

GooD nigHt...

CiAO!!!

无意的话语，是我的错... 不该打岔，或许根本不该开始那话题... 只是我的无意... 已开始对你牙口无言，是怎么了？

I miss...

After reading dear's entry on missing work, i kind of wonder myself too. So i went to xiuying's blog and took a peek. I realized, just like Dear, i'm missing life there.

Missed being reprimanded for no reason, missed working hard the whole day and feeling pissed, missed working with people i dun like, missed having to tolerate with craps, missed entertaining the guest, missed standing at one corner watching the MC talk, missed pulling the chair for any VIP, missed the carrying of oval trays and mostly, i missed talking to the people there, those that i enjoyed working with.

I wonder... 2 years ago, i was all excited about working there, meeting new people and learning new things everyday. 2 years later, i actually decided to stop going back, to quit my life with them. How did i ever come to that decision? It has been a long time since i last stepped foot in Orchard Hotel, and without denial, i miss it.

When will the 7am shift starts again? The happy wedding and joyous Dnd and the crazy dances that continued till the late night... The counting of linens, packing of store and the scaring ourselves with scary stories...

I guess i am thinking a little bit too much. With my hair at the present state, working may still be out of the question.

No doubt, i miss OHS...

Fri-The-dAy

There wasn't any LMS presentation today. LMS was so sickening, acting in front of people just to know what is Fear... goSh... Its emabarassment but she insisted that that is a negative way of thinking. But, that's what pple feel mah... Haiyo...

IAC meeting, completed the slides and my eyes were hurting. Feeling sleepy i think.

Uting joined us. Then, Ping Hong and Ming came, followed by Hun.

We went to makan at Wen DonG ji. The aunty a bit irritating, we were deciding on wad to eat then she kept recommending... In the end, it wasn't a really full dinner.

Went on to WM without Uting and Ming then kind of just stroll around. Uting and ming suddenly come again. Went to eat dessert while Hong and ming was excitedly talking about games. uting kept spilling her Ice Kachang... Cannot stand her...

Went back home after some walking around.

Reached home, bathed. Accidentally wash my hair again. Heh HeH!

Did some report and ya, here i am.

Darl said he was tired and then went offline... HAHA!!! RicharD very bAd...

HAHA!!! I'm done here...

无聊...

Happy Birthday applegloryoflove.blogspot.com

After blogging last night, i kind of just read through my own entries for the past few months then i realised this blog is 3years old.

I didn't even realised it is 3years old. Oh My... 3 years. I was only 16 back then. Not that i'm 19 already. There's 5 more months before i turned 19. ARGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I'm 19 this year.

Hai... And then it goes, time flies... Many things had happened. This blog contains so much of my memories, so much. Wonder will i ever closed it up... Maybe one day...

Happy 3rd Birthday applegloryoflove.blogspot.com!!!

The story goes on...

It was yet another tiring day. Long and tedious.

I was late for POA lecture today, and the thought of taking cab kept coming but in the end, i took bus.

Took my time to the LT coz i was really tired. During lecture, i was half asleep, dun really know wad exactly was she talking about but some parts are understandable. Then, went for lunch. Joan wasn't feeling well and she went to see doc.

Went for MAEC tut and got back the test paper. I did well. I'm happy. Now, i'm just worry about the exam.

WCOM assignment, 20%, i kind of just write what i can and within half an hour, completed.

Home, i was beat. Feeling restless and i concussed on my bed. In the midst, received a lot of sms, so i end up feeling pissed. Didn't really rest much...

Then, around 7pm, went to Mac to meet Ping hong and hun. Heh HeH... I was doing my tut while they were eating and talking. Then i helped Ping hong with HIS MAEC..

10plus, we headed home.

My mood is so bad now... I feel like cutting my hair again... Its thick and irritating at the neck. Crap...

I kind of messed up my blog so i editted another one. I hope its ok now...

真的真的失去了所有... 若是当初，我会放不开吗？是因为长大了，还是因为，真的动了心？苦恼的我，还深信着愚昧的话，愚昧的人，愚昧的世界，愚昧的童话爱情故事...

Back to school

1st day back for the 2nd term of school, and it was a torturing 9am to 7pm. GoSh...

I was tired after FABM lecture, after lunch, went for discussion. Joan was sleeping so soundly. HA!

Anyway, after an excruciating 3hrs break, went on for POA tut. It was alright. Got back POA paper, did alright. Am happy.

After that, went for LMS shooting. Tired...

MAEC make-up lecture. Poo Poo man kind of wasted some time but the thing was, he didn't let us off late, in fact, he was early.

However, there was a slight jam at Jurong kechil, so the traffic was pretty slow. By the time i reached interchange, it was 7.30pm.

Went on to WM to get the organiser that i forgot to buy twice. I was so pissed by this group of people(not to mention the race), they were playing with the lift when there were people inside. HELLO! COMMON SENSE!!! The guy standing behind me was scolding them, but they dun understand. Wah LAo, the lift stopped on every level, i nearly bang my head.

Went to Popular and i got so pissed again with this lady. She kept walking passed my back, each time, she would banged on my bag. OOOOO, i feel like killing her! I was so tired already and so not in a good mood. DaMn...

Anyway, reached home, ate dinner, watch TV, and i dozed off for half an hour. Woke up, started printing all the stuff needed for tml and for the next couple of weeks. So sleepy...

Darl is online... HAHA!!! For the 1st time after so much hassle... FinaLLy...

I was a little bit angry with one of the sms i received today, adding on to my tiredness, i nearly scold the person, but i guess i didn't. Who am i again?? HAhA!!

Kk, i think i'm gonna turn in le... So tired... Another long day tmr.. Need to complete FABM thingy...

Life is once again taking a toll... Drained... 真不明白什么是什么...

2007

Who knew that i would be out all night yesterdaty?

Initially, i kind of decided to just spend this new year eve at home but the urge to go out kept coming. Decided to go visit Ting again to wish her Happy New Year.

Before going there, met up with Darl. We walked a little then went to makan dinner. He was so stressed about his life now that i feel like laughing at him. The kind of things that he worried about are things that not many man his age can get. HAHA!!! Ok, i am very bad. The only thing that i can do is to sit and listen to him, and hopefully that helps.

We exchanged our watches which i thought was only for a while but ehh, he drove my watch all the way to JB... And his, on my wrist. HAHA!!!

He was kind enough to sent me to JE and then left. ThAnks darl...

So, met up with Uting and Ming then went to visit Ting. GoSh... We wanted to sit around for a while longer but who knows the nurse came in and switch off the lights at around 9.30pm. HAHA!!! No choice, we left. Bidding byes to her family and wishing them Happy New Year. Glad she's doing better already, hurts to see her so weak.

After that, i kind of persuaded Uting not to go for the fireworks, HAHA!! Then i think Ming got a little angry at me coz of that but heh heh, it is not everyday i get to meet with Uting coz she is all to him... Hai... Love... So, met up with Yvonne at Lot1, wanted to go Kbox but no room till 1am, so they ate MAc before heading to Uting's place.

Played with Whisky, he was so hyper, still, very cute.

KoK hong called me to ask where i was and talk some craps as usual.

I am so happy this New Year, so many people called me!!! HAHA!!! I called Honey, coz it has been so long since i last see or talk to him, and since its new year, wanted to wish him. He didn't pick up the phone though, however, he called back later and i was so delighted to hear from him. HAHA!!! 1st thing that came out of my mouth was, "HONEY, I MISS U!!!!!!!!!!" HAHAHAHA!!! So crap ar... Then, we chit chatted here and there a little and he told me they are going to Genting this weekend, so good... YuP, then we hung uP coz he got to work.

When the clock strikes 12am, the New Year began.

Streams and streams of sms-es came and my phone nearly exploded. After it calm down, it was my turn to type my own New Year Sms to my friends. I sent to many many people. Roy called me, HAHA!!! SO HAPPY!!! It was like, he went missing, busy with all his stuff and suddenly on New Year's Day he called me and we talked like we always to, it is so good to hear from him. HAHA!! And he is still so generous, he asked me to call him whenever i need help in my school work... Hee~ Then, with the same old, "Happy New Year", we ended the convo.

At Billy's place, we were all up and high, throwing dice and drinking martell and vodka. We realised that Martell with orange juice is pretty nice. HAHA!!! I was like, staring at the rest drinking like nuts until Billy noticed my silence and i became the victim of their cruelty. HAHA!!! So, glass after glass, i tasted all the liquor with the different mixers, still, i'm fine. All the way till 7am, i had too much to drink. We finished 1 bottle of both martell and Vodka. Finally, decided to stop, i rushed to bed. HAHA!!! Coz i need to go school... GoSh...

Nothing happened while drinking but after i lied down on the mattress, my head starts to spin a little. HAHA!!! But doesn't matter, i fell asleep after a while with AiAi by my side. HAhA!!!

There was this point of time when i was kind of embarassed. All thanks to Ben. He was saying my face was red then Billy added that its always red then Ben said, "No ah, i thought u red coz u saw Billy?!" I was like, WAD THE?! It was at that time that i realised almost everybody knows bout the short "history". HAHA!!! Embarassing.

5plus am, Ah mAo called me to wish my Happy new Year... HAHA!! So happy yet another time, he called me!!! Heh HeH!!! After so long and he updated me some stuff about work... Well, new manager i supposed.

Ming Ming cannot drink still wanna drink, crazy, a glass of vodka with juice, he already became tipsy and his gf, my best friend, Uting, also like that. Dunnoe how they go out together in future to events where drinking is required. Congrats. But they didn't continue, they went out to pei Whisky while Ming was trying to recover from his tipsiness... HAHA!!!!

Ya... Billy's mAmA is a really nice person, very friendly. His house it pretty big but didn't really walk around to explore. And definitely, its a beauty.

Around 9plus am, i woke up and went down to wash my face and re-draw my eyeliner...

Walked back with Uting to her Condo(which was a really long distance from Billy's place) then headed home myself. I nearly dieded. Part of me regretted going to stay over but part of me was glad coz i enjoyed. Hee~

Darl smsed and ask y i woke up so early coz i sent the New Year sms at around 3plus am. My reply to him was, "I didn't even sleep" and i was hungry... HAHA!!!

Back home, i bathed. Felt really hot inside and i paralysed on my bed for a short 5min b4 i got up and left for school.

Went to get a nescafe to boost my energy a little then went to VK and unintentionally, i gave Richard a shock with my "Happy New Year" beside his ear. HAHA!!! FunNy... Wanted to get back my watch coz i think if i continue holding on to Darl's, i will kill his watch and then my heart will ache, coz i bought it, HAHA!! But he refuesed to return or should i say, he was just busy. At that point of time, my head was still spinning a little.

Went to school to do project and i was really tired, feeling nauseous but just couldn't vomit so my mood was a little bit bad. The whole thing ended at 5plus pm, and i was really tired.

Went to Westmall wanting to get some decent meal to eat since i haven't eat anything since the previous night at 7plus pm. But i just can't decide on wad to buy. In the end, i boought some pathetic Sushi.

Walked out of WM, sms-ing Hui, telling her i was really tired and i doubt i can go visit Ting with her. In the midst of typing, I saw 2hands raised in front of me, trying to hug, i got a shock and i nearly drop my stuff... Guess who? The boss of VK, Richard. Thanks for the shock Richard, we are even. HA! Then saw, Darl and Mad right behind him, said Bye then went to wait for bus.

While waiting for bus, I saw Richard's wife, and in my daze, i gave her a weird wave. HAHA!!! She looked at me and smiled then mumbled something which i think was that they are going to foot reflexology or something. So i just smiled at her and said wave Bye Bye...

Reached home, sent the stuff to Dorcas, and i cannot make it liao. Started eating and happily, i was full.

After a while, i dozed off on my settee, woke up, went to my bed, concussed.

Some asshole called me wanting to chat. Please lah, it is obvious i am not interested in whoever u are or wadever u do. Stop calling, ass... I hate it when somebody dunnoe their limits. Isn't obvious when everytime you called, i have an excuse to hang up? Wake up your idea!!! Hate It... regretted giving him my number, out of impulse... Irritating.

I woke up and couldn't fall back to sleep when i am still feeling tired but i just got up. Pissed...

Ok, i shall end my blog here today, its so long.

I am happy this New Year, some smses nearly drew my tears out and i am moved. I love how i spent the hours of the night. Although it differs so much from last year, but i love it.

PS: Happy 2007, ladies and gentlemen. Enjoy this year with me in your life. HAHA!!!!

Some recap

I am eating lollipop now, it's cola flavour.

Just check my mail and i spotted "Christopher Lee Kian Chuan", for the past 2 years, this man had never send me a mail and it is nice of him to send that Happy New Year message to everyone, early in the morning. HAHA!!! Wonder how is he already. Hope he is doing fine. That's Honey.

Haven't really talk to Dear for a long time also liao, but i did call her for some gossips yesterday. She must be doing her same old crazy stuff.

Very weird, almost all of the Sec school guys are going to Billy's house later to stay over, i wonder wad is so attractive bout his house(Besides the fact that its 3-storey) that they always go over. Its just weird. Uting kept telling me that Billy wanna see me, but really, wad is there to see? I'm still me, with short hair though.

Met skinny online the other day and i always wonder whether i'm talking to the same person i know in real life coz he kind of joke so much online and it makes me wonder, is it skinny?

I received an sms from Li Qun, one of the PT staff in OHS, telling me she had changed her number and i was kind of shock. I haven't seen her for a while already and surprisingly, her face came out in my mind when i received the sms. We weren't even close during work but i guess there's some mutual understanding between some of the China staff and I during those "C" days.

Well, in about 6 hours time, it will be 2007. New year... How? Darl sent an sms this morning to wish me Happy New year but after reading, i replied him, "I'm not really looking forward to 2007. There seems to be so many things to do."

To look back...
I spent January 06 to beginning of March 06 in Orchard Hotel, stressing over coordinator job.
During February, i got my O level results, and that day marks the end of young adulthood for me. I think i got a total of 15 for L1R5 and 11 for L1R4(If i didn't make any mistake). And i rmb Billy opened my result slip and told me my results. HAHA!!! We had our tears and then life moves on.
Beginning of April, Poly life started. I became one of the 80 students who got into Tourism and Resort management course, and my class is Tr01.
During that time, i met someone who make me smile so much.
April to early part of September, i spent days and nights revolving around the 6 modules.
August 2006, a major event took place in my life, it will remained unforgotten.
From Sep to mid Oct, we had our 2months semestral break. I spent most of the days working in OHS again.
2nd semester began, taking yet another 6modules.
Common test ended and now, we are having the 2 weeks break. When new year starts, it will be the 2nd term then the end of Year 1.

Everything went by so swiftly, and sometimes i didn't even know its over. Many people stepped into my life this year and some remain in my life.

So, my wish for 2007, to live happier each day.

May all of us be blessed.