New Day...

Official day back to work... Nothing unusual, just that pple seems to be in a damn good mood... Dunnoe y... Also, with all the changes in the office, i got confused... I couldn't find stuff which i usually can find... HAHA!!! So funny, and i walked around the little office trying to find that hidden treasure... HAHA!!!

K, the day started off with the plasma tv... Then, began looking for replacement for MArvin(Zoe's Friend)... Ermm... I think we need to make another rule that no one else should touch the book except for coordinators and black jackets... Like in this case, whereby Zoe took the book from Jessica and booked for herself and Marvin but in the end, Marvin cancelled all his booking, make our job difficult... Quite a few happenings between the staff and Jessica the last few days... Some were infuriating, some were good ones... Hee~ Good for her...

Basically, i slacked a lot today coz there were not much things to be done after the bookings stuff and some minor things, other than that, Jessica did it.... I left work at 6.20pm... Hee~ Early... Walked all the way to take MRT... HAHA!!! Just feels like it.

O ya, speaking of pple in good mood. I really dunnoe y, everyone were really in a good mood. Lau doesn't have his black face on. Chris was smiling all over. Chee Wee kept asking and laughing. Yusoff kept grinning for dunnoe wad reason. Felicia kept laughing loudly over minor minor stuff. Andy was actually teaching pple how to lift pple up with a single move in the office. The most serious today should be Wee Loon, but in his seriousness, lie jokes... HAHA!!! O ya, Ivan is also in a good mood. He joined in almost every conversation that anyone of us were talking bout... Ha!

U know wad happened just now?! That fucking guy from the Security(the one i complained bout b4) came into the office, drank a cup of coffee and left the cup there. At 1st, both Jess and me thought that it was Andy but it wasn't. Then, we were quite mad coz after all the tidying up, we already told our own staff not to mess up the 2 tables. Once they've used it, throw away wadsoever. Then this guy, came in, put the cup there. Fine. When he came in later, he actually asked for his coffee and i said, "next time dun put there can?!" And he dared reply me, "Y cannot, put there for a while also cannot meh?!" Then i ji tao tu him, "This is our office lor, u wan, u put at ur office lah. It is not for u to put ur things." Then i just walked out and went to photocopy my stuff, when i came in, he was still sitting on the Ivan's chair. I think he's so used to sitting on Ivan's chair that he doesn't know how much Ivan dun likes pple to touch his stuff... So we ignored him, let him sit. Then, he asked me, "Who clear my cup one? Is it u?(refering to me)" Jessica ji tao said, "No, not her, is i clear one." Fucked up man lor. This is our office lor, u wanna drink, let u drink, cannot clear ur own cup meh, handicap ar? Know how to bring in, dunnoe how to bring up meh?! If it pleases him so much, go put at his own fucking table and own damn place lah, mess up all he wants, we wun care. This is the Banquet office! i dun care how much pple likes to do that in our office before, that was BEFORE! NOW, it's different! Respect Banquet can or not, we are one of those departments which earns a lot for the Hotel lor! Dun treat us like Junk, pple who sweep the floor that u've messed up, we are not just like that! We are more than that! LOOK! The sales are like that, the security are like that, who's next in the line?! Pissed...

Aiya... Late le, i wanna sleep liao... Working tml again, it's gonna be a tough day tml... So need plenty of sleep... NIGHT!!!

Back to Singapore!

Hai... I dunnoe whether should i be happy or sad... K, the fact that i went to Thailand is something to be happy bout but upon coming home, i heard the news of the passing of Mr Raja Ratnum....

Hai... Although i dun really know who is he, but the fact that he wrote the Singapore pledge made him a respectable man. It is not easy to write something like that out. Something that every single one of us in the country recite almost everyday, something which reflects the spirit of Singapore, something which we are proud of and something which only we, and only we have it. K, while watching the news just now, i couldn't help but to be moved to tears at the sight of his funneral... One of our founding father... Thank you, Mr Ratnum, for the contributions to Singapore... U'll never be forgetten.

Our Pledge:
We, the citizens of Singapore.
Pledge ourselves as one united people.
Regardless of race, language or religion.
To build a democratic society,
Based on justice and equality,
So as to achieve,
Happiness, Prosperity
And progress for our nation.

I am a Singaporean...

Well, we should look at the brighter side, death is inevitable, but we all know that this man passed away doing good things for our little island. That's wad we should rejoice bout...

K, last few days i was away from Singapore... 1st flight ever! WOOO!!!! That's cool... K, i was so amazed with the flying that i forgot all bout the pressure until i sat up straight and felt my stomach roll a little... So i calmed down and rest... Hee~ But i wasn't very happy with the flight attendant, attitude sux quite a little... The way she talked was like we owed her something like that... Hai... Well, i'm waiting for another trip to somewhere further and the next time round, i wanna take our own Singapore Airlines... something we're all proud of...

K, upon reaching Thailand, i felt the strangeness of the country... It's warm, it's dirty, it's so not home...

The tracffic sux! Always jamming... Damn lots of car... Took almost half an hour to travel a distance of like Gombak to CCk...

The toilets compared to Singapore SUX a whole lot!!!! K, not many countries in the whole can be compared to our cleanliness so i shall not compare... It stinks, that's it..

I went to Pattaya! Gosh... It's nice... Like a small town with lots of pubs?! HAHA!!! K, i went for the Thai massage, man, it's good...From top to bottom, nicely done... But a few parts where she brought my legs up, twist my head to the side and pressing on my arms, hurt a lot... But i enjoyed a lot sia... After that, went back to the hotel, slept till morning!

Went to see the Gay show... Nice!!! Most are beautiful, sad to say, many pple still point and talk bout them...

Ermm.... The tour guide is a Thai but he speaks Chinese and English, not very fluent though, many times, i couldn't understand him so i kind of just looked out the window... Something to point out,(this is for BT kor), this tourist guide resembles BT kor, the way he talked especially... HA! Other than that, he's good... Tries to give us the best ( Though i know he gets commission) but compared to the few previous guides that i've met, he's pretty good.

Gosh, can u believe pple actually gave 100 baht as tips?? 100 bahts is equivalent to bout S$4... Wah lao.. Some more there were 2 of them... Buay paiseh...

Well, papa is in this line so he kind of knows everything that's happening around but he acted like he dunnoe, many times, he just kept quiet... HA!!! that's my father...

I met with a very fierce tiger cub... So dot.... i wanna take pic with it but it got very fierce, then ah mah, and i freaked out... So we backed up... Kao... Very sad sia... Elephant show was cooll..The elephants were so so cute. U know, after the whole show, we kind of waited for the everyone in a corner. I was munching some chips and when i turned around, i saw an elephant coming my way, i ji tao run away! Scare the hell out of me..

It was during that time that the Tour guide showed us a video of the crocodile show. We watched it and found it dangerous, so he showed us the dangerous part. It was during one performance, this performer was showing how he can placed his hands into the crocs mouth, after putting in, the crocs bite it... OMG!!! Then the blood splurt out... While watching the video, i ji tao shocked... Scaryy...

O ya, i went for the Jetski!!! With a China girl... She wanted to play too so we took the 2-sitter de... Man, it was fun! But there's someone sitting bhind to guide us... I did the driving at one point, man, it's fun... Fast, slow, fast, slow, and we bumped up and down, one of which we went really high up and the butt hurts... -_-" But fun lah! Hee~

Then went for the parachute de... with the speedboat one... Wah! Like flying sia... Experience of a lifetime.. I was slammed into the sea twice, others from the group wasn't, i was... Damn... Still, i like the feeling of it...

Other than all those, there were also parts when i'm pissed off too... U know, Pa, ma, Ah mah... All old pple... I'm like, playing myself... no fun. Then, they kept talking, made me tulan... Most of the times i kept quiet, sometimes really cannot tahan, straight away blast... But so far, the blast didn't go too far...

Overall, the trip was good... Fun, nice... i love taking planes... Wanna take it again!!! Singapore looks beautiful from the top... I love my Country... At the end of the day, it's still, "Home Sweet Home" Nothing can be compared to it... I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!!

Cai Yan Yan=Slowly... Sabia Sabia=Take is easy... Kabunka=Thank you(Girls)... Sawantika=Hello(Girls)... Hongnam-toilet... Pang pang=Expensive... Wahhahaha!!! not bad, i rmbed...

Gone to THAILAND!!!

hee~ So, here i am, bidding goodbye to all.... HAHA!!! Only a few of my friends know that i'm gonna go Thailand le... But, all of my colleagues know that i'm going... HAhA!!!

Well, it's merely a 4-days trip, nothing much to be happy bout. I'm not at all excited or wadsoever. The next 4 days will be for me to relax, have good nights' sleep and be totally away from work... HAHA!!! No one can disturb me liao... HAHA!!! Hopefully, things will go well...

Ermm... After the Thailand trip, i need to start stressing pple to let me go already... I'm getting really tired of everything. However, b4 i go, i will write out all the necessary things and set up a coordinator's system... Things are very mess up from where i began, so when i leave, hopefully things can be stablized. Not saying that i'm doing everything, but there's also Jessica who work along with me. So, next time, when i go back, i can be proud to say, i used to be a coordinator(which i'm not very proud of now... -_-") ... Just now, talked to Lau bout everything that are in our ways and also, wad are the things that we wanna improve on in the office, staffing wise, tidiness, nametags and all... i can say, just now, was the only time, i felt human and useful as a coordinator... Gosh... Look how bad the coordinators are treated.

K, let's talk bout this afternoon. When i just arrived at the office, i ji tao shocked... y? Cos the whole god damn table is filled with things... Papers, pen-knife, BEOs... I'm like, wad the hell went on here?! I only came in later nia... So, as usual, i tidied up the table when Lau came in and said, "Y u tidy up the table? I wanna let them see.." HAHa!!! So funny... True lah, pple there dun really care bout the tidiness of the office until pple come in, see le, nagged le, they listen, but after a while, the same old thing happen again, and poor Lau has to go all over again. Pple take coordinators for granted, now, i can really see y all the previous coordinator left... HAHA!!! So, i should start taking the PPLE for granted... HAhA!!!! I'm glad i'm leaving soon... How i wish i can leave immediately...

Right, pple, i'm going on holiday!!! In the meantime, u pple have fun... I'll try my best to get something for everyone i know... Try lah hor... I'm not rich... Hee~

NiGHt!!!

Missing that someone...

Somebody suddenly brought his name back... All of a sudden, i began to miss him again...

Those days... Miss u lots... My Boy... Hee~

It's quite a good day...

Hai... It's like 2am already and i'm still typing here... Guess wad? I finished work very early today, left the office at 7 but ended up at home at 1.45am.... Y?! No, not clubbing... Went to eat Suki with Chris, Roy and Jessica, afterwhich, they went to Kim Seng to bowl, while waiting for lane, i was playing in the arcade, some old games and then sat down watch Roy and Eric play pool... Then, went to Shaw House to watch Movie... Wah lao, 1st time sia, one day do so many things with pple that i dun really know.

WAd movie? The Fog.... I was asking Jessica whether she wanna go watch Movie earlier in the day and Ivan talked bout "The Fog". I didn't take much notice coz i thought it is just another Korean movie and even until i was in the Cinema, i still thought it's a Korean Movie, up until i saw "Starring: Tom Welling" Then i realised it's Hollywood movie... HAHA!!!! Coz Tom Welling is a Hollywood star, one of those hunks... Gosh... It was quite a good horror movie... The storyline is pretty basic, but it is hard to guess wad is gonna happen next. At the end of everything, the moral is, "Wad goes around, comes around." Watch it and u'll know wad i mean... Still waiting for pple to watch "I NOt Stupid 2" with me... Sian...

Still got work tml... 12pm... Hai... Need to wake up very early tml, go central, bank in cash and top up ez-link... Wonder wad's in for me next week... Might be going to Thailand, but papa haven't really confirm, i dun really know wad to tell Lau... Been taking quite a lot of OFF days leh... Good for me... HAHA!!!

O ya, sat in Chris's car today... it's a nice car... Slightly smaller but for someone his age to have a car is already a good thing... O ya, speaking of driving, i didn't know Lau rides a Bike... Gosh... Amazed u know... Hee~

K, time to turn in.. Getting real late...

One last thing, working doesn't seem as pressurizing as b4, was it coz the "burden" is not there anymore? Or is it coz of Jessica's help? Or probably i'm getting hold of everything? Maybe it's all of the above... Good... Good...

Btw, Thanks Hui Mui, for ur support... It's nice to see some comforting words once in a while from pple so far, yet so close...

Ciao!

Hai...

No idea y, i felt pretty tired... It's another normal day at work. I didn't do as much as i did b4 but i just feel very tired, exceptionally tired... Y? Maybe i'm falling sick soon... Last night, i managed to get home early, so i slept very early, but i woke up in the middle of the night feeling uneasy... Warm all over, so i got over and drank 2 big cups of water... Next morning, went to work again...

Hai... I spent a lot of time tidying up the drawers of the office and the 3 tables... Feel so sickening that pple take things and never put it back, if not, anyhow put... Feel so pissed off u know...

Staffing for next week was done in a breeze... Only left with a few empty slots... Hai... Probably i should do some proper handover to Jessica le, coz i wanna leave.... And i'm serious this time... I'm sick of all the politics that're happening around, which i dun really wanna get involved with. Moreover, i really dun wan pple to know me around and talked bout me everywhere i go... Really Really sick of all these controversy... Hai... Sux...

Just now, Lau was asking me when do i wanna cut my hair, then i told him, "Huh? Can dun cut not, i wanna quit leh..." He's like, "Huh? Coz of ur hair, u wanna quit?!" I'm said, "no lah, coz school starting soon, can i dun cut le?" Hee~ It's time for him and Chris to find someone to replace me lor... Dun be surprised man... Anyway, he ain't feeling well today... Hope he'll get better... :)

Papa broke the news to me that we might be going on a cruise next week... Hai... Such short notice, i wonder whether i can take the OFF not, but then again, it's not confirm but the end of the week is drawing near...

O... Vincent's coming back.. Together with Wanqi and Olivia... WAhAHa!!! Our VIP servers... Need to add them into the Staff list lor... Nice to have them back on board... Hope it'll be a smooth sail...

Xueting bought new phone le, but she told me that the phone got no memory card... Sux... How come phone nowadays can sux like that... Hai... i guess i'll need to wait for a long long time b4 i can find one which satisfy me like 6260 does...

K, it's late, 12pm tml again... Hai... been working 12pm shift for many weeks le, i'm damn tired... Next week, same thing, 12pm... Oi, when can i come at the later shift... *DemAnDing* Too BAd, i'm not the one who plan it...Sad...

Once again, I lost track of time...

A proper blog

Alright, it's time to have a good blog. It has been a while since i really sat down and write one proper blog, it's either cut-short or not written. Kind of fed up with my sickening writings, now that i'm free, i'm gonna write something out.

K, work has been really bad, bad since i began. Well, not much choice right? Since i've taken up the job, i gotta do it. Many times i wanna quit, and i naively thought i could, who knew that they'd not let me go. Well, so, day by day, week by week, its already a month or so, but i'm still holding the post. Ha! Probably i tried too hard to be good, i expect too much from myself, and i ended up doing it good, for the hotel, but for myself, it's still far from good. So, i'm struggling to do better when i couldn't go on anymore. Up to the extend that i've ignored my family, my life and my health. I complained a lot, but there were still a lot kept inside. I took many shortcuts but still, i can't catch up. At the very end, i realised, i cared too much. Look at the number of 'I's i used... However, none of the "I"s are for myself. I was told to act selfish, to be less considerate and think bout myself. Initially, i hesitated, but then, i began to think more... More about myself. It's afterall, my choice, whether to stay on, to work hard, to finish my job. So, i began to complain in the right way, do MY own job and stay out of other people's way so that they wun be in my way. Like how? Like this, i told myself not to do things that doesn't concern me, for eg, buy coffee. I wun do things which are out of my work duties, eg, "Refreshing rooms when it's not my job." I wun care bout others when i dun have time to, eg "I'm not free, dun ask me..." I dun care bout wad others think, let them feel that i'm selfish, self-centred, wadever, it's my life, y make it difficult just to please u? Go do it urself. It's ur job anyway, u r paid to do urs, like i'm paid to do mine, no excuses and that's the bottom line.

Having said all those, i was still tortured by my "partner". I'm doing almost everything while she's doing nothing. And basically coz i'm doing everything, that's y when anything goes wrong, it's, "APPLE do one..." Ha! Wad a sickening phrase to hear. So, i still end up being the Victim. Gosh... Up until recently, there's a change. However, challenges still lies there. Why? Pple ASSUMED i know everything... Pushed all responsibilities to the one who they ASSUMED to know everything, and of cos, that's me. Who knows? I dun really know everything coz some pple are just too lazy to finish teaching me everything... However, i still gets into trouble, even though it's not my fault when i dunnoe anything...

Seriously, i dun really like OHS like i liked it b4. Back then, i'd go to work happily, even when i'm damn tired, and i dun have any days off, i still went on, coz it used to be fun, challenging and the pple are all good. Now, some pple are different, new staff, new attitudes and i can't seem to fit in. I dun wish to fit in anymore, it sux to try so hard. With old friends, old colleagues, still can put up with them, still can play and work with. Yup, things move on, change for some reasons, nothing can remain as it is and still gain, it seems like nothing can be retained in this line, in some pple. I missed the pple that i used to work with... Well, face it, it's the real world.

I do cherish the different times i had in OHS, the pple that i met, the new friends that i can treasure... Sounds like i'm leaving and not coming back right? Hee~ Soon, i will be leaving. Leaving the post of banquet P/T coordinator, which i'm not really proud of and also, leaving the post of banquet waitress... Going back to become a Full-time student... BAck to work? See 1st bah... Let the rest of the days pass faster...

Ok, life at home is almost the same. Some bickerings here and there, some laughter once in a while and some breaking of stuff... HA! I love my home... SO MUCH!!!! I still want a room lor... So long le.. 2 years lor... Still, empty promises... I'm still waiting... HAHA!!! However, it doesn't really matter now, but 1 month later, it'll matter coz start school le, i want a larger table leh, this table is really too small and too low for me to work... Hai...

One of the best time i had this year was going to BSB's concert. It's really great to watch ur idols. 6 years ago, i was wondering when BSB would come to Sinagpore? In my heart, i hoped but i know for a fact that, there is a very low percentage that they would come coz Singapore is afterall, a really small market which they, as international singers dun really have to put any effort to promote here and also, we're like a small dot, i dun think they'll even notice it when reading the map. However, my dream came true. A long wait, for the 1st time, i saw them. All 5 of them, so close to me... But really, it is not about their looks or their style, it's bout their music. It not only turns me on, it drives me crazy and most of all, it soothes my soul. Y i love them even after so many years of Hiatus? Coz the Backstreet pride stays alive no matter where they are. And also, the music is always there... That's one of the best things that happened to me.

Chinese New year was a bit quiet for me this year. I dunnoe, probably coz of working, i didn't manage to shop with my parents and go squeeze in the crowd at Chinatown and couldn't get new year clothes... Just sad that i can't celebrate it like i used to. I wasn't excited bout the Hongbaos at all... I didn't took out and count exactly how much i got, i just sort them out and leave it there. Then, went back to work again. Hai...

Another thing that i'm happy bout was, i was able to go out with Ling Hui again. It feels weird intially to actually go out with her. Ha! Isn't it weird? 5 years ago, we hang out everyday together, and were once the best of friends. Well, u know, young pple do young things, some little conflicts came out coz of some basketball team guy or something and there goes the friendship. We spent 5 years in the same school, not actually talking to each other much. Until she graduated. I'm glad that we are, well, friends again, if not, the best of friends.

Not to forget, there's one more person, Xueting. She remains as my sister... hee~ Of cos, 10 years of friendship doesn't come easy... We did have our ups and downs together. Those juvenile times, let's just forget bout it. We share everything with each other now. Isn't it good to have friends or rather Sister like that? LoVe her...

Yuting... Nothing much changes... She is still the forgetful person.. But she has grown up... Now, she thinks much more than she usually did. That's good for her... Good for her... Still, she'll be my best friend, afterall, we walked home together almost everyday de hor... And she's the only one who'll sing Wu Ding and Chuang Wai with me... HAHA!!!

Suddenly thought of Billy. He's one person who i'll never forget. Y? Coz he used to be my schoolmate cum boyfriend cum friend cum colleague cum listener.. Hee~ Most importantly, he's the one who counted my O level results for me when i took my result slip to a corner to calm myself down. Hee~ He told me, "WAh lAO, 11 LEH!" I'm like, "Huh!? Then all leh?!" HAha!!! A friend who i never regret knowing...

Then comes Melissa, Aiying and Yuting... hee~ The 3some who works with me. Seriously, i dun really know how i actually can be so close to them... We clicked a lot in many aspects. They're a bunch of cool girls... And Yuting... HAha!!! When she 1st came to work, i was the one who taught her the stuff, when she became VIP server, i was the one who taught her too... hee~ Melissa, Love her too much to say anything, "I NOT STUPID 2" very nice hor... HAHA!!!( U wun understand unless u r Melissa, hee~) As for Aiying, they describe her as "AUNTY" and they got a very good reason for saying that... HAHA!!! Well, 1 year le... It has been a long time...

I can't forget another, BoH tEck Kor... Hee~ Working with him... Ermm... not exactly, working under him is a better way of saying. He's, well, the Captain, right? hee~ Working wise, always complained to him but always finish the job. He's one fast man. In life, he taught me a lot, a lot more that i expect would come out of a 21-year-old, turning 22 this year. Hee~ I respect him coz he's a respectable guy... HA!!! The line is drawn very clear between us.. Brother and sister... For always.. Chris should read this...

Christopher... Another guy who i respect. Dun wanna comment much bout him coz he's just a real caring guy. Will missed him after leaving...

Lau, a man full of principles... Although he doesn't show them much, in fact, it's always there... Ego of a man, i suppose...

Love life? Few confessions here and there but none touches me... lots of confessions from pple to my friends, ermm... Nothing much to say, it's all up to them. Dun be blinded by love pple... Look properly, seek slowly, ur one will come one day, surely... Nothing to rush... I'm still waiting for my one to come... Really... Take time to think, find, see, and feel then slowly fall in love, that is the best part...

Not to forget, i got my O level results only a few days ago... I'm still rejoicing over it... I've chosen my courses, and i'm waiting... :)

Well, those summed up my recent life... I'm still holding on... Wanting to give up, shut my door, and let things stop but this is life, nothing stops. Even if i shut the door, someone else will open the door. Even if i have a key, someone else will duplicate it... Life... Wad a misery yet joys lurks in it... SmiLe!!! At the end of the day, Apple remains as Apple, Ai Ping is still Ai Ping...

By the way, it's Valentine's Day.. Wishing everyone a HAPPY VALENTINES!!!!

Every ending is a New beginning...

LA lA LA

Right, so i got my O level results... HAHA!!!! Probably i should share it with everyone... Hee~ I got 11 points for my L1R4 and 15 points for L1R5... Gosh, it's totally the same as my Prelim but for certain subjects, there's a fall of grades, but it doesn't matter... Wad matters most is that i PASSED!!!!

That very day, Xueting, Yuting, Elaine and I went to K box to celebrate!!! HAHA!!! It was a fun night, singing out LOUD! Heh! Last year, after our N level, we went to different clubs and drink a little... That night was fun, but now, thinking bout it, it wasn't as fun as wad i had for O level celebrations. Friends are still the best afterall!!! HAHA!!! The fun was beyond description...

However, i went to work the next day... Gosh... ANother tiring day... Saturday, i was stunned by a few things. 1st, i nearly fell down while walking to the office, 2nd, Priscilla said something that i dun quite understand and she carried on crapping even after i walked out of the office, and while waiting for the lift down, i saw a white figure flew pass the staircase area... Gosh... That scare the hell out of me, wheni walked closer to check out wad it was, i saw JP... Wah LAo! Wanna smoke also no need to walk here walk there one mah, some more didn't wear jacket, scare me leh...

Then, Lau asked me whether i can finish 4 days of job within that night, i'm like "huh?"(Ji tao dropped pen, jaws open) HAhA!!! But leh, it's fine lah, i manage to finish typing and printing everything by 2am... Ha! Was tired but entertained myself with Music... Also, Lau drank quite a bit that day, he suddenly went down to the canteen during the banquet payment and looked very drunk, smelled so too... Ha!

Back home very late... Very tired... Almost dying, ji tao concussed on bed le...

Woke up today, wanting to go back to work... In the end, woke up only at 10.30am when the meeting time was 10am... But i did told ting bout it. Went to office, finish up some minor stuff for the next few days, and went back le!

Back to batok, rebond HAI!!! After a damn long wait, finally, finally!!! Ha! So sat there for 4+ hours to do the hair... Hee~ End of it, Satisfied...

After much pondering, i got 11 choices out of the 12.. Very happy now... no more worries, hopefully, i can get into the course that i want...

Well, look how time flies... Not long ago, i was still complaining bout O level being difficult, afraid that i would do badly but now, not only have i got it, i'm going to do the admission tml le... Soon, i'll be leaving OHS Coordinator job and going to carry on with my studies. It will definitely be some better days... I can't wait to leave!

O ya, while rebonding just now, the stylist told me bout the hair colours and all... I'm interested... HAHA!!! But, let my hair rest 1st b4 doing anything to it...

I got 3 days OFF!!!! MUHAHAHA!!! I already got the days planned le... Tml going to school then K box, Tuesday will sleep all i want and find places to shop, and on Wednesday, sleep even more and stay at HOME!!! HOME SWEET HOME!!! ASk me Out leh!!! HAHA!!!

PS: Now that my hair is rebonded, next, save up for new phone and more clothes!!!! HAHAHA!!!

O LEVEL OUT!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Its ME!!!! I GOT MY O LEVEL RESULTS, IT'S WAD I WANTED... TO MY EXPECTATIONS!!!!!! IM HAPPY!!!!

Wad to say?

Hai... Though the load has been lifted, but i'm still feeling tired... Haven't been sleeping properly for a long time liao...

Orchard Hotel seems to become my home le... I've been spending days and nights in there, doing everything, talking to everyone, thinking of everything. Probably it's gonna be my 3rd home... Soon, i'll be leaving, wonder what is it gonna be like? I may missed the tough days, sleepless nights but i dun think i would wanna return to this kind of life.

Update on today. Ivan came back le, a bit stressed ar, coz he's always there, a bit scary when he dun talk, then today i think i click something and the printer went, print, print, print.... I'm like, wad's going on, man! Then he walked over with a face with all those seriousness... I ji tao stunned... HA!

Jessica came down today, i'm glad she's willing to learn and is open to changes and comments. Still, it is the 1st day, waiting to see.

Lau sat us down and talked to us bout everything, i wanted to cry a few times coz somehow, he knew wad was going on, he said everything out but did not pin-point who, but i know who he's talking bout. I was touched, for some reasons, he is a good boss. I like him more than ever. Many times during the conversation, i really wanna cry out, but for wad reason? I'm no longer gonna suffer le. Simple words, pure understanding, good observation, triggers a little part of me. Thanks BoSs...

I didn't know i was capable of doing the things that i've done so far... I'm proud of myself... I really thought i was gonna break down, lost it and totally go crazy but i held on tight. I did broke down, but after that, bite on, move on. I'm glad i'm me... Maybe i've let pple took too much advantage of me coz of my easy-going character, but i'm beginning to learn. Step by step. I'm growing up.

LAu asked me to do his Resume for him... I'm like, "HUh?!" Ha! My boss....

O level really coming.. Panicking!!!! 1 day more only...

Tired...

I very tired again.. There had never been a day which i'm not tired... New coordinator coming lor... Someone we all know... Hopefully i can stand everything b4 i leave... heH Heh!

Result day confirm le... Friday, 10th of Feb....

huh? DOt DoT Dot

HA... I got someone reading my blog telling me that my blog seems inquisitive.... Puzzled... Probably he's just someone who appreciates everything; his job, his life, his everything. Well, every individual has their own life, and he/she will face different pple, things, weather and all... Truth is, my life sux at this point of time, i do love my life, just the job now sux. So, dun have to worry too much, i'll start appreciating things as soon as i stop working or rather stop working with someone.

Sick, went back today, and Loon kept suan-ing me, saying "I thought someone dun wanna come back." For god sake, i dun wanna go back... I was so angry lor.... But i'm glad i went back coz there's a lot of amendments to the staffing... I, again, spent a lot of time changing everything... Hai... Finding staff was ok, except for the initial part where pple start to hang up my call or didn't pick up... Hai... sasa came to help me with looking for staff, she got 2 of her friends to work... Hai... Feel so bad for wanting her to stay for me, troubling her and all... Sad... We even resort to calling Boh Teck Kor and Gwen after Lau said can ask them back.. HA! But of cos, they can't make it... O ya, i called eric too... HAHA!!!!

I spent the whole day in the office... One of the awkward moment was, when i walked into the office harshly, thinking nobody was in there, and said, "Wah LAO!" But wad i didn't know was, Lau and Miss Wong was inside talking... HA, i was a bit paiseh lah, but no choice, still need to sit down and call pple... HA!

Very tired seriously... I also realised i'm working tml... I seriously am tired but still need to go back... Can i just not go work... Sickening... I'm not in need of money, nothing out there that i wanna buy, not interested in anything now, except for sleeping and eating right...

Gosh... I need to get some nap...

Ciao...

Damn days...

Pple, yesterday was a Fucking day, repeat again, FUCKING!!!! I am really tired of everything... When can i quit? Just when?

wad happened yesterday? I worked 12pm and i was making sure i can go home early, if not 11pm sharp. Then, i was doing my job, more than my job, figuring out how many staff are needed for the following week coz somebody haven't finish. So, i took a damn long time to transfer everything onto the Booking book... After that, was instructed to go help out upstairs, fine, 3 plus, went back down. Started to find staff... Wad happen? She sat there and watch me, eat things, drink water, everything else except working. Very angry but i was determined to HACK CARE, dun wanna help her. Which was basically the reason y i had to stay late to finish wad she has not done... i dun really wanna put everything up... End of the night, i was really very tired and angry... I laid my head on the table, tears rolling in my eyes but i act fine. Seriously, y must i be so soft-hearted? I could've just went home at 11pm. I could have but i did not. Sometimes, i hate being myself, so considerate for everyone else except myself... For god sake, wake me UP!!!!

Today, was very tired, but still went to see the Ngee Ann Open house coz i really wanna know the courses. I am very interested in Tourism and Resort management or Business Studies... Took some other booklets and see le... On the 10th, results' coming out... Nervous...

I was in a pretty good mood today coz i know i have the next 2 days off but wad happened? Yusoff ask me to go back to work... He said, LAu say one... I really dun wanna go back... Really dun want to... Y should i do that? Why? I'm only a part-timer... Part-timer... Son of a bitch...

Dun wanna say liao le, i vent a lot of my anger on buying stuff today... It's no use... Just let me quit...

SHOP SHOp!

Out today!!!! SO COOL!!!

Went back to Hillgrove today... Gosh, it's great... Though the old feelings are not there but did find some of it... Lots of friends walked pass and said hello... HAhA!!! And some pple who are not really pleasant... Hee~ Our main purpose was actually to see the teachers... It was a good thing that our teachers are still around... Some of them that is... SAw Mdm Khong, talk a little then went to look for Mr loh... TALKed A LOT.. Wanted to find Miss Teo but she's not around, probably had one of those headache day bah, so she went back early... Went to see Miss Lim, chat a little bout this and that, then went pass Miss Cheong and talked a little bout Netball... Afterwhich, went on Ah loh's car and we went to eat lunch at IMM... Hee~ It's an afternoon of chit-chatting with teachers... HA!!

Then, took a very long bus-ride from Ngee Ann poly to Bugis... Good thing my bus-sickness didn't act up. was cheated by ting's friend that there's Open house today but it is actually 2-4 Feb. So we waited for 61 again, and went to Bugis... Shopped around and i bought a Tee!!! Or should it be called Polo Tee? Should be and a BAG!!!! HAHA!!! no worries liao... Still waiting for a day which i can totally just shop and buy some other stuff... Hee~ Spend Spend Spend, u know... I've been tied down too long...

U know wad? Today is the only day which i had 3 proper meals... Gosh... It's been days since i last had 3 meals or even 2? Gosh.. How miserable...

Hai... Going back to work tomorrow, and i'm working the earlier shift one... Let me bet with u that there'll definitely be pple scolding me tml... I can pretty much guarantee that... HeH! Wait till i blog... So not looking forward to work... Crap!

By the way, there's a lot of rumours saying our O level results will be out next week, on the 6th? O, please dUN!!!! If not, around 10th to 14th... Gosh... i'm getting nervous as the days draw nearer... Wad if? Let's not have any wad-ifs, let's hope that i'll do well, make it to poly... Not expecting too much now... Please...

2 movies, Wahaha!!!

O my god... Can u believe this? Listen, i went to watch 2 movies in A roll!!!! HAHA!!! Together with Ting! It's awesome, i haven't felt so good for a very long time... I've been wanting to watch a movie since, since, i dun really know when le... Ha! But i managed to watch 2 today!

The 1st one was Cheaper by a dozen2 and followed by Fun with Dick and Jane, gosh! Both the movies made me laughed and cried all at the same time... Both promotes the importance of family value and the right track of life... LOVe them Both!!!

Nothing much to blog bout le... today had been like that, still getting all the calls but well, wad to do, WORK! Terry even asked me to go to work tml, i'm like, SIAO ar! HAHA!!! However, in the end, i started helping them look for staff... HAi... Where to find someone so hardworking like me? HA, this is just the nice way of saying... Other pple would say, "y u so stupid, u not working wad, dun care lah!" Hee~

Anyway, tml going out with ting and Hui... Lots of situation, i dun really know lah, but i'm fine with anything! Should be going back to school also bah...

Ciao!

Always blaming myself for the imperfection others made...

All i want...

So far, Chinese New year has been GreAT... Fact remains, after a few more days, gonna go back to be tortured... HeH! Wadever!

Today went to Mama's Ah mah there, same... Always sit there, watch tv... But this year a bit special, lao ma not there, i went to Jie min's place, had a chat and went out with her... Planned on watching I not stupid too de but HA, the queue was SOOOOOO Long!!! End up shopping around a not very shoppable JP... HAHA!!!

Came home, watched tov and came here liao... Hai, i got quite a few things to touch on, besides work...

One year passed by liao, and i haven't found a bf... HAha!!! Not that i'm desperate for one or wad, but U know, i'm a girl, one who needs care... To quote from ting, "You are not made of metal, break down when u want to" But breaking down is not as easy as said. A strong person never said no unless in time of difficulties...But then again, i'm not as strong as i thought i am... Still need a shoulder to cry on, a chest to be in... Hai... Love is such a mystery... By the way, i'm turning 18 this year, isn't that fast? I dun wanna grow up so fast... It is such misery to be old, to have to face so much of the facts of life... I was told by Chris that i will be a "Nu Qiang Ren"( just coz i type faster), and he continued that my future bf would suffer coz of my perfection but seriously, can i go that far? And even if i'm really gonna be wad he said i would be, can't i ask for a guy who suits me and not one who would survive under my ideality... Couldn't i have one who is professionally elligible and mentally capable to be with me? Y describe me until like i'm gonna be an old freak who will make my bf suffer? Sad... And then he started to introduce guys from the hotel to me... And he analyse everyone from Terry Goh, to Roy, to ANDY!!!! FOR GOD SAKE!!!! ANDY!!!!! PLEASE!!!! LOOK LEH!!!! HAHA!!! I can't stand them lah... I'm not desperate lor hor... Then, later, Terry and Chris came down to Yong Sheng and Joe... I'm like, "I bearly know them lor..." It was nice of them to play lah, but dun get too serious lor!

Okok, CNY is good... Got Hong BAos... Still dun like the calls that i continuously received when i'm not working... Can i basically quit... Sad to say, i can't...

I have to start to do wad i was told... "To take care of myself"...

O ya, need to get the right time to go rebond my hair liao... By the way, i saw the hairdresser who cut my hair the other day while doing my last minute shopping... Find him familiar, so i kept looking, until i recalled who he is... Speaking of which, i met Ronald Susilo, Spore's team(badminton), the other day, after BSB's concert, to think he's a fan too.. HA! Backstreet Spirit NeVer DiEs!!!!

XIN NIAN KUAI LE!!!! GONG XI GONG XI!!! HONG BAO LEH? Hee~