Nerves tightening....

Tml CL O level liao... I managed to complete everything, or should i say, just those i think i should finish. Ermm... But i'm glad... I actually didn't hab much feeling for tml but just now, dunnoe y, started to get nervous, and panic a bit but calm myself down le... It is major, it is big, it determines how many As i would get, it shows how much i know myself as a chinese, it proves my worth to myself and it is very important.

Received lots of lucks from lots of friends... Was happy bout it. Today sort of just make myself study study study from 1pm onwards. Ermm... A bit nervous and anxious. But somehow, i guess we Sec 5 are calmer than the others bah, since we've been thru it once. I learned quite a lot of YAn Yu today, as well as, chen yu.

Hao lah... Nothing to say... Tml Will WORK my BEST... DETERMINED to... hee~

CiAo!

It's time to prove everything...

Some things bout life

Guess I should apologize to myself, I slacked a little today. Though I managed to complete my Sec 2's words, I still got my sec 1 to complete. Told u I slacked liao... However, still got tml. Well, this is not the right attitude, pushing everything to tomorrow, a bad attitude, but that's wad I'm gonna do. Plan disrupted due to my laziness. Hai... Sickening me... However, wad i'm left with is a little. i just gotta use my time wisely tml. Plan to finish words by 2pm tml. Then start with all PAper 1 formats and those idioms. Ermm... Will definitely finish everything and be ready for Monday's Chinese O level. I'm not feeling much for it, just telling myself that i have to study for it. Not anxious or anything, i guess it is good, coz i wun panics or over-stress myself. Keeping neutral all the time. Anyway, when it comes, i will take it seriously and give it my best shot.

There are some pple who would ask me things that they wanna know, but uses those indirect ways to do it, thinking i will fall for it... HeH! Maybe i would tell them wad they ask, but not necessarily the truth. HeH! Sometimes, it is irritating, sometimes, i felt so betrayed. It's like my husband thinks i have an affair and hiring a PI to spy on me. It doesn't feels good to be accused of. But then again, i didn't take it seriously these few days. I just take it as, they think i'm gullible, but they are the ones who are. HeH!

Suddenly realised time flies really fast. It seems like it is only the beginning of the year and we are all starting to get anxious bout O level but now, it is already half a year gone and we are taking CL O level liao. See... So many things happened along the way, and it all seems like a film. Lots of ups and downs, if i were to go thru my blogs, i can compelled them together and make it into a storybook. HaHA!!! Devoted myself to different things this year, different from the last. Like some heart affairs, work and family. I dun really had such things to devote to last year, now, i do. However, i'm left with family and work. Most important focus is still studies. Hai... 5 months, 29 days, 14 min, 20 sec, so fast, yet so slow.

This year, i got to know a lot of things bout life. Most of which came from Ting, bt kor, Trish, yuting, and myself. Each of them had their kind of life. They all looked happy on the outside and has a story on the inside. The same goes to me... I had so much things inside of me that i have never tell and i still refused to. All of them too... I might know their stuff but i guess deep within, there are things that they refused to expose.

Ermm... Bt kor haven't blog for like, a week already. Wonder wad's wrong, hope he's doing fine with life bah. He is someone who i respect a lot. Role ModeL? Some way or another. :)

Melanie msg me yesterday telling me i slimmed down le, i laughed, coz i didn't. I told her it's only pic, i'm still the same, cos the weighing machine tells me so.. HAHA! Promised to meet up with her after Monday and i swear i will... I really haven't see her so long le... Hai... Old friends are still the best i guess...

Talks bout my feelings...Should stop. I got O level to care bout. After that, i will bitch even more. Hee~ Just wanna put myself into the papers and get that A1 i have worked 4 and a half years for. Determined to get it!

My heart is telling me something which I don't understand, but I will not find that answer right now, 'cause I'm going to where my mind tells me to.

Mother.... HEH!!!

HAd enough rest last night, this morning, i was all focus in school. Got my mock back, results ok considered satisfying. After school, chatted with yuting quite a bit.

Just now, my ma very bad lor. She anyhow go make appointment to cut my hair when i didn't wanna go to that hair-dresser, coz that person very self-centered, she nv take my comments de, she cut whatever she likes, always cut my hair to short short. Very angry Lor! She never asked me then go and tell her, feel very angry,then i told her, that auntie psycho one, always like that, i dun wanna go and ma was like, now got money liao can like that, but the fact is, she cuts badly, never listen to wad i want and at the end of every cut, i will be very mad de lor. And it's not cos i got money lor, i got no $ now, and i didn't wanna cut it now, i wanted to cut when school reopens. It sux lor, she anyhow make decision and she dare says it's my fault. Sux... And started nagging bout all of my bad points and all those old and ragged stuff. She always do that. Some more, she always say she's right when the fact was she is not, then i always have to give in. Always says, i spent her stuff. I always think to myself, it's ok, coz she suffered a lot, so i give in, moreover, i'm her daughter. However, she nv think that way, i guess... When arguements arose, i'm at fault. When it's my fault, i would admit it, let her scold, when it's not my fault, i'll quarrel with her... She nv understands this fact. So SpeEcHless... Always find these troubles when i need to concentrate. Always making me depressed b4 exam starts, adding pressure on. Damn it... Rest assure though, i wun allow anything to block my way.

Didn't wanna come in de, but really very frustrated with wad she's done. Just wanna nagged a bit bout it. Some more Da kor's gf here, then she say until like that. I give her face nia.. Hai...So sad... She never understands... Guess i'm the only one who understands myself most...

Ok, calm down... Revision, completed my 2 upper sec. words. Left with 2 sets more... And that's bout it. Will start with some other stuff....

I find all of this upsetting... I find myself stucked for a moment... But I made it clear that nothing would stand in my way... Absolutely nothing...

Everything went on FiNE...

Last night had an ok sleep, the best for this week. Woke up pretty late coz of the coolness of the wind. This few mornings had been raining and it started the days really gloomy. However, the sun shines later and everything is back to normal.

As usual, in school, trying to concentrate on everything Mdm Khong was saying, and i did better than last couple of days. She gave us St. Gabriel's paper to do, i finished it as fast as possible and started to sleep again. Ok, very piggy, but i'm just tired. I really fell deeply asleep, unaware of wad's happening around me, when i woke up, there were noises all over. Ha!

Recess, ate pretty much today, or should i say, a bit more than the usual bread. After that, went back to AvA room, only yuting and me back there. So started to read the Xing Qi Wu Zhou Bao. Ermm... Slowly, more and more pple came back. Then, i saw somebody who looks like Billy but then didn't think much. Linda came to tell me that he's here. HeH! Anyway, lesson on Chem started, Miss Wang was very pissed with the classes, very noisy, i also cannot stand, i think i shouted a "Shut Up!", but nobody listen.. So sad... HaHA! After that, just started doing TYS.

After school, Mock again, this time round, i wasn't that tired bah. Anyway, after the paper, Miss Goh brief us bout next Monday and wish us all the best and all. MT teachers really did a lot to help us.

Went to buy coffee so i could prevent myself from sleeping. Back home, after walking around a bit, came online, saw ting and we started our sisters' talk. Haven't chat with her for a very long time le, so we kind of exchange some info bout this and that. Can't review wad, most are secrets between us.. HAhA! ACting secretIve again.

Received friendster msg from Sa Sa... She was asking how were everyone, so gave her an overall conditions of everyone. Ermm... Will see her again this holiday back at OHS, she said she's going back to work. Cool, haven't see her for some time le.

Competition once more... Suddenly realised i have got quite a lot of competition, some didn't tell me so, some told me straight. Ermm... The Ai Ping b4 might just panicked, but the Ai Ping now, just take it lightly coz for me, none are really my competition, not saying they can't be compared to me but I am numbed by it. Now, only I am my own competition. Overtake my previous results would satisfy me very much. So, y bother bout those pple trying to beat me? I'll just bother bout myself. They can chase me, but dun forget, i'm also running... Keeping myself out of reach.

Erm.. Finally completed Sec 3 words le... I forced myself to complete it by today and true enough, it was done by 10.40pm. Tml, i'll try to complete both Sec 4 and Sec 2 de. Then, Saturday complete Sec1 and then start with Idioms... Most probably memorise some confucious words, might be useful in Compo and as well as those Su yu... Ya... That's my plan, not gonna let any other stuff disrupt it...

Now, a bit hungry, ate little just now... Hai... Go cook instant bah or call papa or starve myself. Ermm... MAking sure i dun eat too much nowadays, dun wanna get very plump again... HeH! Can only slim down and not grow fat. HaHA!

Hao lAh... Nothing special.. That's bout it for the day... CiAo....

Creating a path for myself, walking alone to that goal.....

25 May

Heh hEh! Woke up late today, once again, i couldn't sleep last night, coz of the long nap i had before. In school, was feeling ok initially, later when we went to AvA room, the comfort once again, put me to silent mode and i started to fall asleep. However, i was able to control myself a bit. Ting's eye was not in good conditions, she's not in school today. Thinking bout it, ting have been absent for quite a few times this year. Her condition not very good hor. Mdm Khong mentioned her today bout certain stuff bah.

During recess, kept on feeling somebody touching me. 1st, it was Ee, he tickled me when i'm not aware, but i went to kick him. HahA! Then it was Jian Ming, this guy is from 3A1, i said he is short, haha! Not very familiar with him, he came to li xiao me... Then i poke him back. HAHA! Very sickening...

Back to class, played with yuting and Ping hong coz Miss Chong didn't wanna teach, since she doesn't have the whole class. However, i did calm down a bit to study. Then, back to CL lesson, once again, Mdm Khong was going thru the passages and started her stories again.. So sian, but listened... Today hor, Wei Xing and I exchange a few glances. Ha! Very funny. He was on the other side while i'm on this side, when i turned around, he did the same and we exchange glances, a bit weird sia.. Heh! CAn't smile to him in time.

AFter school, went to watch "Life is beautiful", an Italian film on the WWII. Germans killing the Jews and all. A story bout a father trying to protect his son when they are in the camp, in the end, while trying to protect his son, he was shot to death. Quite a pity, coz the day after he was shot, the war was over. The Americans won the battle and the Germans were forced to leave. At the end of the war, the Americans saw mountains and mountains of dead bodies, most of whom are being killed in the gas chambers, the olds and youngs. Hitler was a definite sinner.

B4 i went to take my nap, Wee Loon called. 1st thing he said was "Tml got exam ar?!" Then i told him no, he wanted to ask me to go to work but insisted i can't. Then he crap a lot of things, say others call me can, then he call me cannot, and blah blah blah. But, really can't lor, lots of things to do, and it was 4pm when he called, unprepared, homework not done, lots of revsion. Feel very sorry but really can't make it. Actually, Felicia asked me on Monday le, refused to go. Papa a bit angry i went to work on Monday, his face black black de. Anyway, i helped him called a few pple but none wanna work. So paiseh. HeH!

Revision in the evening after dinner. One junior was bitching to me bout some of the probs she faced with her friends while the other was asking me when i'm free so we can go play netball again. Wah.. They really got so much time, how envious i am. Can do wadever they want. Hai... Me old liao...

Anyway, later might be going back to write my words, have to buck up, lots of words to rmb sia. Hopefully, i will be able to rmb them well enough. O ya, i saw harvey norman sale... SAw a beautiful MP3, wanna go buy liao... During holiday earn bout $200 can liao.. lovely... HeH!!!!

Kk, that's it! Au revoire!

Working hard for a better tomorrow and leaving what shouldn't be taken, behind.

Worst day

It was an absolutely bad, lousy, unlucky, unpleasant, every bad vocabs, adjectives u can find, name it, i felt it, all at once, last night. Hai... Still, feel very bad bout yesterday. After doing my homework, i happily went to a nearby supermarket to buy a packet of potato chips and soft drinks, hoping to enjoy myself after the long day at work the other day. However, after only a few bites, bt kor called. Asking me to go to work. Initially, i insisted on not going but they seem to be really short of pple. I hung up, called a few friends, hoping there will be somebody to pei me to work, but none seems to be free. Billy was working, so it cindy. Both of them very weird, coz both asked me to join them to eat together. HaHa! A bit weird hor.

On the bus, i was msging with billy and reading reader's digest. The ride seem to be pretty fast, faster than it usually was. Walked into OHS slowly, changed slowly. Cindy came. chatting bout this and that, Billy came, same thing. 3 of us shared the same locker. HA! Went to eat, didn't feel like eating but pei Cindy, grab a bit only.

In the ballroom, i was already starting to regret on going to work coz i feel so sian, so tired, so dun-fit-in. No idea y, but those feelings were just there. Still, they were short of staff, I was totally dreaming out there. There was a lot of changes, and i was a bit confused. Later, end up with an Indonesian partner. The night SUCKS! Repeat again, SUCKS!!! Worst working day i ever had since i started working. It sucks so much. It was the 1st time i wanted to cry while working. I'm not joking lor, tears did come to my eyes twice. Sad sia... The partner kept on disappearing, and i gotta handle the 3 tables alone, taking care of beverage, portioning, serving... Wah! Then, pple there were asking and asking and asking and i kept forgetting, walk until i forgot the pain i had in my feet. Can u imagine a face that is so black yet had to pretend a smile in front of guests? Then the god damn partner, kept on clearing oval trays which are yet to be full... I can't stand lor... Told him le, but he treat it as nothing. I was so so frustrated! Along the way, i kept telling myself, "I shouldn't have come back." It was the 1st time, i worked till all the vulgarities came out, no matter is it, C*** B**, F*****, Sucks and everything... I got so worked up. Eric tried to joke with me but i looked at him with a very fierce face and said "Its not funny" Then he a bit shocked, didn't dare to joke with me. Hai... It was a good thing that the guests didn't complain when i forgot stuff. *swEat* Some more, the captain... Hai... Dun wanna say, hopeless... Very hopeless...

Along the way, Xian Wen tried to cheer me up, but i guess she was unable to, coz i am really dying liao. Some things to smile about, one of the chef tried to play with me, billy kept on disturbing me, Firdaus trying to persuade me, Lau joke with me, Eric tried to play with me... Ha! Not bad, so many pple to entertain me. Ermm... Firdaus couldn't find OT workers, he walked to me, hold my hand so tight and asked me to work for him but i couldn't coz i gotta go school, very sorry bout that, he was very pissed that he can't find pple, i treat him a sweet, that's the least i could do.

At the end of the day, i looked at my partner and i sort of left a lot of things for him to do, i purposely do slowly and let him clear the tables. This time round, he couldn't escape to anywhere, haha... Evil... But i was really beat lor, i mean, having to walked so many rounds alone, for 3 tables, of not just 10pax but 2 of which consists of 11pax and 12pax respectively. I stood there a few times with my head blanked. I was like, extremely pissed. Other guests from other tables kept asking stuff from me, and i have to do it, i can't just let them be. And i thought to myself, "today sucks, i didn't come back for the CAsh." I hope i was but i was not. HAi... Went down dragging myself, ignoring everyone around. Changed up and felt like dying. Then, realised my phone was with bt kor... Ha! So waited for cindy and billy, i nearly choked to death in the changing room, some of the guys were smoking and i'm like dying down there, so quickly open the door, went out.

Saw bt kor, he joked with me, wanting to confiscate my phone, ok, smiled a bit coz of that, coz it's quite lame...Got phone back, 1st thing i did, called papa to see whether he's around Orchard, so he can fetch me back, but he was already at home. Dun wanna wait for bus alone sia... Saw Bt kor again and Billy reminded me something, so i asked bt kor to send me back... Haha! Ok, very bad to ask for it, but i was really beat and really dun wanna wait for the bus alone. Went to Orchard tower with them, bought drinks and sort of just look at them talked. They seem to be so happy, while i'm there trying very hard to calm down. Ermm... Eric talked while eating and i find it so funny coz the rice kept coming out, then i told him... HAhA! Funny WoR... Then notice Wei Xing very tired also. At least there was someone like me.

Went back to OHS, waited for bt kor. Ermm.. Then, i looked around again, looked at billy, i felt a sense of relief. Well, he got a cigarette in hand and talking real loud. I looked at him and it just felt so weird. Just weird. Anyway, bt kor came, i was so happy, finally can go back le... HA! On the bike, felt nothing but wind, wind and still wind. HEh! And i was falling asleep on kor's back a few times. He let me off below my block and i was wondering is his lao po ok not, with me on it. Ha! Anyway, back home, i started to bitch to papa mama bout the night. CAn't stand. Mama wanted me to eat but i got no appetite so dun wanna eat, bathed, and lay down on bed, about to sleep. However, as tired as i am, i couldn't fell asleep, no idea y, till 2am, i'm still tossing and turing and i realised mama haven't sleep, she keep making sounds and putting her hand and leg on me. KaO.. Disturb me. Finally, i fell asleep bah, for a short while.

Woke up today with one eye red and swollen, dunno wad happen, not enough sleep i guess... It subsided bout noon bah. In ava room the whole day for intensive MT lesson, beginning was fine, after recess i started to blunt into the comfort, and dozed off... HAHA! Ermm... A few msges with bt kor, haha! Thinking bout it, haven't msg him in school for a long time lor. HeH!

After school, there was Mock, stayed till 3.40pm. Reached home, cannot stand, ji tao fell on bed, sleep till 7+... wah... sleep so long. Msg Terence, talked to him a bit, he got something he wants to know.

O ya, Ting was telling me she was puzzled when she read my blog, well, i guess that's my aim, i mean, i can't exactly write out every single person mah, something should be left unkonown. Hee~ Secretive...

Ok, started my revision liao. Crucial week for me and my class. After 30th May, can finally relax a bit, dunno whether can relax not. Well, that's the future, dun worry yet.

Ciao!

I hate the feeling of being alone. I hate the surrounding when it's in silence. I hate myself when I couldn't let my emotion off. Can someone be around me, be it my friends, my family or just some strangers, to make my world a better one.

Z.........

I saw somebody in friendster!!! And i WAS SHOCKED!!! EXTREMELY!!!! He changed so mUCH!!!! i Can't even recognized Him!!! Oh GoD!!! Haha... very weird once again... He, who is someone that i once treated very well... HeH! Changes are inevitable...

OMG!

Never really strained myself so hard for the past few months. Yesterday i did just that. Woke up at 7.30am, bathed, changed up, make-up and went out. Went to buy a bread and green tea as my breakfast. Took bus. Destination: Orchard Hotel. Along the way, i was wondering has Ting woke up already, so i msg her, but there was no replies. When i reached Orchard, just about to enter, she called me, and she sounds a bit panicky. Asked her to relax.After that, she told me she's gonna take cab down. After i've changed up, she called again and said she didn't bring her stockings, so i quickly changed back and ran out to look for it. Wah... sweat sia. In the end, met her at 7-11 and then went to guardian to buy. Wor....

She wasn't late at all, just on time. the work started with setting up and then pepper, vinegar, wine glass and so on. About 11.45am, went for lunch. Ermm... still quite normal.
Went back up and Chris said he's gonna give us 10min more and rest after that usher. Wah... this time round, ushering really makes me sick. 1 whole hour or even more, my back-bone really breaking le. And i still gotta bring the smile out. Some more, that Terry kept on li xiao-ing me, i was standing still then he kept hitting me and tapping my shoulder. Wah lao! Along the way, Chris and Lau stopped by to talk a bit. Ermm.. While i was a bit slacking liao, the GM came up, i a bit gong, and i didn't greet him but he came up from lift and once he was there, Lau was talking to him so I can't interrupt. hee~

Stewarding area, can't seem to find enough teaspoons, went back twice and waited. Ermm... While waiting, was msging someone, hahaha, bt kor came, wanting my hp, then i told ting, "bt kor a bit weird weird today." Ting didn't seemed to know wad happened till the 2nd time he came again and said the same thing, i was thinking, his mood very good today wor. HEh! Rare....

After that, was the tea break... During the tea-break, my mood swung a little, i was tired and very pissed with some of the guests, they act like i wanna steal their trophy like that. Please lor, wad's the use of taking that damn trophy of theirs, it's not like it's worth any cash. Sick! so wad if they are from the higher ends, Arrogant FoOLs! fucked up! That's y i got so pissed! And later, when terry was instructing me wad to do, i'm like a bit dun wanna do like that but i still did it, it's my job.

After everything, went on the ob1, 2 to helped out, actually wanted to help auntie saunty to push the cage somewhere but bt kor instructed to push the chairs and so i did it. Ermm... Got one tray-jack there, blocking the way, so i wanted to carry the oval tray back, but too heavy to lift up myself, so asked Lau to help. hahaha! then he asked the China trainee to help.. Heh! Save my strength.. Hehe~ Wee Loon very pissed yesterday, dunnoe y, i started to hear him scream and shout along the way. 5.38pm, allowed to go for Dinner. Ermm... didn't feel like eating so decided to just get a can of 100plus. Saw TingLing and her mama, went up with them. Went to store to sleep. Wah, my body, total break down sia. Lay on top of all those cloths and rest my legs and my brain. 6pm, went into ballroom. Still, laying on the stage, didn't care whether there were guests not, but think dun have coz nobody say. Haha! tingling was so hyper lor, she kept wanting to make me. HAhA! O ya, i open my eyes and saw a pair of black shoes in front of me and the next thing i know was my hair bun moving, bt kor was playing with it... very DoT dOt Dot... But still very sleepy. No choice, stood up, back to the original spot. Wee loon came and all the scoldings came... the black jackets were scolded cos they didnt' assemble on time. Yusoff was very pissed, very scared he would beat loon up... But doubt so lah... But the face was very scary lor. Then, after all the briefing and stuff, half was appointed to firdaus side, i was one of them.

Ermm... My mouth very big lor, go and tell Firdaus i can carry oval tray, god damn tired and yet my mouth still so big. Sad... But i was put with one auntie that is very experienced de. Heh! Dunnoe wads her name. After everyone had been appointed, bt kor was doing the presentation part. After that, Firdaus told me to go behind, arbo bt kor will come and asked me to go usher or cocktail so i quickly run along. HAHA! Firdaus real good to know wad i'm feeling.. Hee~ I guess i managed to escape bt kor's instruction but i think he also never wanna asked me to go lah. After a while, i kind of saw bt kor and he said, ushering at lvl1, wah lao, i ji tao shouted sia... But he was joking to me, i was really shocked lor, dun wanna usher anymore... Ushering phobia.Heh!

Function started... everything went smoothely bah. Except one of our table very slow, then cannot rush them. During the 1st course, they eat damn slow lor, then 2nd course came liao, theirs haven't serve, their 1st platter was still there, bt kor saw it and i gave him a face, told him, they dun allow... i think one of the Uncle saw my face and he told me with a smiling face that i can clear... HAHA!!!

The other 2 tables got 2 nice people. 1 from each. Got one guy, he keep helping me, or maybe he thinks it's basic courtesy bah. He passed all the plates to me, when i'm clearing and always said thank you and i'll smiled to him and said welcome. Hee~ Nice man there. The other table was one Ah mah. I went to clear plates and she asked me "That tray very heavy hor, y must u carry, very tiring, asked others to carry lah!" Then i told her "I'm younger mah.." In fact, i was very tired lor... Sweating liao. However, really appreciate it lor. Coz not many pple will go and see wad are we doing de. But this auntie did, and she didn't let me do a lot when i was serving them, she would say they'll help themselves. HeH! 1st time to have guests feeling pity for me.. HAHA!!! Along the way, while clearing or picking up, i saw bt kor and i told him "i wanna sleep liao" and he told me to lay down and sleep. Wah lao, feel like beating him, holding an oval tray and he asked me to lay down... HEH! very DOt Dot Dot loR... But knew he was joking lah.

And i took OT... I'm siao hor... Already a bit gong gong liao but still took OT. The worst part was my ankles hurting. Hai... But for the sake of having fun bah. haha! Was in the bar to drink water and rest a bit, then talking to everyone in there. Once again, my camera came out, took pics with everyone. Yusoff thought i'm not gonna work liao.. but told him no lah!

Ok, so just worked worked worked for the whole 2 hours. It was the night that i carried the most oval trays!!!!!! WTF! the pple took so many oval trays then i have to clear and there was no trolleys, my neck and arms breaking liao. packing store, 1st time, ermm... very warm...

Changed up, went to get pay. I was 3/4 dead this time, and Firdaus ran his finger up my nose then i'm like, "hey!!!"

Reached home, sat there, drink water, after a while, went to bed, sleep... Best sleep for the past 2 weeks... No tossing and turning, no dreaming, no nothing. Just slept till 2pm. HAhA! Longest sleep i ever had. wah... Very tiring lor... Strained so hard...

Somhow, i was glad.. Losing somebody but gaining even more. At least i know, there are some that cares bout me... A lot of whom i care bout and will continue to care till my last breathe. Some fools dun deserve my care, coz they sucks so much, not to mention who, but just somebody that i hate, hate even the sight of him. At least now, i have pple having fun with me... HAHAHA! No worries! I dun need someone to cuddle every now and then, i can have cuddling from my bunch of GrEAt ANd AweSomE buDdIes!

All in all, i had a great day with everyone that was there. Finally working day was over... Next week, is gonna be, cHinese ChinEse ChiNeSe.. O level LoR!

So i guess bt kor knew something le... Another load off my mind liao... MuHAHAHA!!! CIAo!

Still, my heart is sinking...

ThE bOYs Of 5A1 

PosiNg? Heh! YuSoFF anD Me...  

Ermm.. He's tHE oNE Who I liKe.... TO li XiAo!!! HAHA!  

SomebOdy Had A sTroKE??? haHA! kidDiNg... 

tiNGliNg and Me... y is shE so SmAll?? 

Sports' Day 2005

I lost my way
In a place I don't know
I try to find a way
But it seems to no avail

Should I just let it go
Should I just move on
Or should I stay here
At the original spot

I'm in confusion
I can't move on
I could not find that light
That would guide me through it all

Maybe I'll find the way
Out of these blues
And then I'll walk that path
To a brighter world


It might be today
Or maybe tomorrow
But I have that faith
That it will be here one day

Through the darkness
I will press on
For I know
That if I don't
I will be losing this battle
And you might be lost

Till then
I will
Watch the sunrise
Alone

Sports Day 2005... Ermm... Boring today. I didn't run, basically after getting into Sec, i have never ran for my house, cos it's not fun at all. I mean, running for my house? I would run if it is for my class. So i was dubbed the "betrayal" of Apache house. Heh! Coz i didn't wear house T-shirt and i migrated to Lakota house... HahA! However, along the way, i cheered for my house! HAhAHA! Then some Lakotas' stared at me. A bit paiseh but never mind, i'm cheering for my house.

Anyway, the thing went on very slow.. Was like totally dying liao and people were still shouting there to make the atmosphere higher. Apache got lots of trophies today but we did not trumiph as the overall Champs instead, Lakota got it again. heh! Well, they should, all of them were very enthu. However, for Apache to get B, C divison(girls and boys) overall champs is a bit not suitable since the overall champs weren't us. HAha!!! Nvm, Apache is Hillgrove's 1st ever Sports day Champs, but we only managed to hold it for a year. heh! Next year, we'll see.

Nothing much happened today lah. O ya, in the morning, when we were in school, i'm sneezing like siao lor, we were at the AVA room and i was like god damn cold, kept on sneezing, good thing Ping Hong got tissue paper, but not enough for the 2 of us to use. i'm like, 9.30 arrived!!!!! HAHAHA...

Ermm... This few days, my hp siao siao one, the ringtone change automatically. Good thing i was able to fix it back. hee~

Hao, end here, wanna go call yu le... Ciao!

Diao...

The day started with me dying... Heh... Last night, i couldn't sleep, was thinking bout lots of things, from results to him to friends and family. Somehow, i managed to force myself to bed at bout 2am. I was damn tired. Dragged myself out of bed and went to school. Once in school, my butt was stick to the ground, did not stand up, sat there and rest. Sickening start of the day.

However, Mr Loh gave us, or rather just me, plenty of time to slack coz he did not teach anything, just talking bout the BBQ that he's organising for us and stuff like that. Not much stuff happened in school today. Ermm... Ting went home in the middle of the day coz her eye was swollen... Hope she's ok now. Then, during PG, Miss Ang was telling us a pretty sad thing, she lost her grandma over the weekend... Feel sad for her... Other than that, CL mock was fine and so, school ended with nothing much to be happy bout.

After school, walked home with Yong Soon, he was complaining bout the chocolate milk he bought doesn't taste good, so i say HL one better. Hee~ There's a cockroach at his house, ha! His whole family is afraid of Cockroach so i told him, stand behind it coz it can't move behind. HAhaha! He was like totally freaked out cos it can FLY! HAHAHA!!!

Mama informed me to cook myself coz she got no time to cook. So i abided. Cooked for my 2kor as well.. Then da kor wanted me to cook for him then i'm like "Do it yourself lah, very tired le!" Then we started bickering again, not the serious type of bickering but those kiddy type... HAHA!

Ermm.. Received a call from ting, she was laughing on the phone when i picked it up, and i thought it was some crazy pple, she asked me Chris got call me not. I said no and she said that she's gonna work on SAt, 10am, asked me whether i'm working not, said no. However, asked her to ask Chris can work from 10am to 11pm mah, initially i was joking and i thought even if she asked, he might not agreed but to my astonishment, he agreed and i was a bit shocked and laugh laugh laugh but agreed to work lor. can earn quite a bit... hee~ Anyway, after Sat, wun go back till after 30 May, gonna concentrate on MT le... Work can wait, my bill can also wait. No worries. Maybe will missed some of the pple at work? HEh! I'm just kidding! For wad should i miss them... HAHA! Maybe will missed my "2nd boyfriend" HAHAHA, ting referred him as my "2nd boyfriend", so FUNNY! But, nah, i wun. I promised myself to focus. :P

Just now, Desmond wanna sent me something and i refused to accept coz it was an unknown stuff, asked him wad, he doesn't wanna say, i insist on not accepting and he was like "Dun wanna accept then 4get it lor!" Old tactics he's using, trying to make me feel bad, come on! I'm a changed person! No use, using those foolish words on me, i no longer fall for it anymore, and in the end i still didn't accept, i make it a point to make my own decision now and not let others play with my mind, especially HIM! Goodness! Foolish act. Didn't except myself to type so much bout him, wun do it again, dun worry!

Night was like that, watch TV the whole night, did nothing, very bad hor me, nv study, but trying to give myself a break, moreover, no tests and tml is sports day, half day only. Intensive MT lesson. Well, long day again tml.

Wad i'm gonna do? Next 2 days will be taking studies out of my mind, and when Sunday arrives, no more fun and hanging out, just pure study. That's my plan. Hope nothing will interrupt it.

I thought of him just now, I could not hold myself back this time. My thoughts run wild and all the questions came. Can I really go on without any distraction? Only I know.

Standing in the middle of everything but not falling.

Hai... So i guess the ending is set, i failed my EL for the 1st time... I felt that i've let Miss Teo down, she came to my table there and kind of gave me two taps and asked me "Wad happened?!" And she seemed very disappointed in me, likewise, i am very disappointed in myself. Hai... She was trying to console us by telling us that she is not very worried for us yet and that she will still help us along the way. I nearly cried upon hearing all the words she said, i mean, i have nv heard any teacher talked to us this way, not even Mrs Loo... She made me feel so touched, i guess she is truely a great teacher. Unable to describe the feeling, she just gave us so much encouragement, tears nearly fell down a few times but i hold it back. Well, gotta thank Miss Teo for that. Anyway, maybe coz the paper is difficult? Coz quite a lot of pple failed even those that pass only managed the most a B3. SAd lor... However, my mood wasn't as bad as it was yesterday, i got over the failure after a short while.

I kind of told Linda bout the unhappiness i had with that person. Ermm.. U should know who if u read bout yesterday. She was surprised that she said that to me. Then she kind of told me bout another person that she was upset bout whenever we got our EL paper. Ermm... Well, bitching to each other bout the different friends that we had some hatre bout.

Anyway, later got back Chem paper, ermm... Still, science ain't that good. got a B3 instead of my target. Sad... Then Maths paper, made me a little bit happy coz got 2 more marks. Still an A1 though but hopefully, it adds a bit to my %. Just hoping bah... Erm.. Then, it was Humanities, erm... manage to pass bah, not a nice grade for me... But i guess i did my best... Next round, i'm gonna catch it real hard.

ermm... K, so results stuff dun bother me anymore, it's done and that's wad i got, i got no control over it at all... O ya, the D&T, heh, i rushed out and got an A2. Thank god, at least there are 2 As. At least... Anyway, next up will be O level CL, i will buck up for it, and will not let Mdm khong or myself down! Will NOt!

I kicked someone's butt today. Jenn's butt then she actually pinch mine... So HArd! I was like.... WTH! But then i kicked her another time. Kind of brought my spirit up a little. Ermm... Just glad...

LAst night was talking to Tingling bout some stuff, ermm.. She gave me some encouragement, ermm... I guess she was not in a good mood herself either but thankful for her to be there to console me.

Ee kept thinking i'm not ok, he would asked me how am i every alternate day. the truth is i'm not really ok yesterday but i was entirely fine today. Hee~ Different mood on different day... Erm... "He" msg me today and i kind of felt weird cos is that suppose to happen?! HAhAha! Wondering lah, but anyway, it's ok de...

CL mock paper 1 today.. The atmosphere was a bit serious when Mrs yeow started talking and i kind of realised they are all very anxious bout our CL... Maybe its for the school but then again, we should know it is for our own good. In the midst of the paper, while i was starting to check, a disgusting stench came by. WTF! u cannot imagine how it smelled man! it started with a bit of rubbish truck kind of smell then slowly, it became like shit then lao sai... The pungent smell was killing me lor! I can't breathe, i nearly died sia... I was telling the truth lor! CAn never forget that stench. the mock paper, i kind of challenge myself a bit. i gave up the usual descriptive essay and went for narrative type... News... Ermm... Really a big challenge coz i nv was good at it, but i'm trying it out, a duel between the past me and the present me. Hope it will come out good.

Ermm.. very thirsty now... HA! Dunnoe y, later go make ice water drink. God damn thirsty. I broke the news of my failing to my mama, she didn't scold me lah, just say then how and nag a bit lor. Hai.. very sad... But i assured her that i will do better for prelim. Definitely! Did revision for Mt mock p2 tml, ermm... not really done but tml will continue.

So, i got all the results of my MYE, wasn't good at all basically coz i didn't put in much effort either. No sacriface, no gain, i guess... heh! Hope somehow, somewhat i will be able to remain at 3rd. PrAy.. but if it doesn't, i gotta accept my own mistake...

Tomorrow is another day, live it well then... Rather than all the bitching. MuHahA!

I saw the care she gave us, felt the warmth she sent. Most of all, the effort she has given just to let us know that we are better than we thought we are. -To Miss Teo-

In the toilet... HAhA! Bo LiAo!  

In the hotel, on the bed. 

it's me, just about to go out 

My results brings me Down...

Just another bad day. 1st time since the rise, i failed my EL paper 2... This is so impossible. Wad hurt me most was not the failing of the paper, it's the mocking of hers. How come she likes to do that so often. I mean, i never do that to her when she failed her test. Ok, she failed the paper too but her marks was higher than mine, and she goes "Huh?! How come like that?" Shit! I'm like, so wad if she got higher, so wad if i didn't do well? WAd sort of a friend is that? I never did that to her at all... Sometimes, her every moves just make me think, is she worth my friendship? Wadever, but she wasn't happy for long, she failed her Geog, but then again, i did not laugh at her, the most i did was "I pass my paper." And i even tried to cheer her up by telling her "Dun be sad lah" Sickening sia...

However, i should blame myself for all these mocking. I deserve it! Failing my EL, a serious offence in my own rule. Till now, i still can't believe i failed it... WAD can i DO?! Somemore CL came out so bad as well... Both my language are falling apart. The 2 subjects that i'm always proud of.. Falling apart... How can it be? Is the papers too difficult to handle? It doesn't seem so since others can do it... Y can't i?! I've disappoint myself badly, so bad that i wanna slit my own throat... A bit exaggerating but i'm just so frustrated especially when i saw that arrogance from that somebody. CAn't stand the fact that she is like that. How come i dun boost bout it, yet she always must when she did better? Ok, maybe part of myself is just jealous but the fact is, if she nv had said anything of that sort, i would have admit i lost with my hat off but she didn't. Not like others came boosting to me! HAi... Just my luck... Now, i'm just trying to focus a bit. EL, leave it aside for a while. CL is the most important thing now, i can't afford to get another B in the real paper. It will be a test for myself and a duel between Me AnD MYSELF! I wun allow myself to fall again. I will retain my glory once more. U can wait and see! No more mockings from those ......... people!

As for Geog, excepted that mark, i was just glad i passed it well... However, i dun except an A this time, wun be possible to get 40+ for my SS, just hoping i would at least get a B3. Really, degrading myself a lot this time round, i hope it is only coz our internal script is difficult. I pray that O level wun be such rough papers.

Awaiting the results for Chemistry paper, i hope maybe for science i can reach my target and remained as it is at A2.... So far, i only got my MAths that reached the target, one and only, sad... very sad... Hopefully, science would reach the target too. Somehow, i have a feeling that my position can no longer remained at 3rd. A premonition for MYE. Man, i hate this premonition. But, i hope miracle would appear and just let me stand at the place that i've had for such a long time, and the place that i strived so hard for... Please...

Seriously, i am a bit confused with all the results.. I dunnoe whether the one i'm holding is the final one that will be keyed into the report card. Only Chinese... I was wondering, how come i couldn't get an extra mark when some others can. A bit furious with it, i mean, come on, it's only a mark, it's not like they can't give it in compo or letter. Hai.. No point bargaining when the decision is out. I can only feel sad and disappointed and later strive harder...BAd exam.. I have only myself to blame. Honestly, i really didn't put in much effort into this mYE. But i did for CL!!! It came out making me cry! HAi...I almost broke down.... But then hold myself up and just console myself. Never mind, no more slacking le, gonna get everything together, and really focus on wad gotta be done. I will not let myself down anymore. I WILL NOT! I will get an A1 out of my CL O level, i will not retake, one shot and that's it, an A1, and i am determined to fight it all out with myself!!!!

As for the others, the holiday will be a good time to sharpen everything. Ok, enough of all the bitching, it's over. Dun wanna breed over it and get devastated...

Something happy, got 2 belated gifts from 3 friends, like i say, friends r the best when everything is crushing down. But not those arrogant ones!!! And i sort of got a bit Off at the end of the day and started to crap with Ping Hong a bit, he was like "wah lao!" And he kept on beating me today, wah lao, siao one lor! HAhA!

Back home, have an urge to go popular buy a book but then it was raining so i decided not to. Maybe tml? O ya, i still got my D&T not completed, i need an A2 for this sia... Tml will beg Miss lim to give me one more day to complete everything and for god sake, hope that i will at least get an A2 or better an A1 if i complete everything!!! Hope So!

k, from all this, i guess u should know i'm somebody who will get very bothered by my results and studies definitely is my 1st priority. So please dun mess with me, even my closest friends and dun blame me if i get nasty when i am doing work and u come bothering me coz i will get really mad... For now, i just hope everything will turn out fine. Especially my position... Hai... Fussing over it again... Dun talk le...

Hao.. tml will be another long day, CL p1 mock, i'm gonna treat this one serious, i dun wanna make myself disappointed anymore... At least a 50 /70, nothing lesser than 50! Or i might end up killing myself, Jk! I'm not so foolish... HeH!

Shut up and look at yourself! You are not any better! Stop all your mockery! Arrogance never bring you wealth but the loss of everything else! Bear in mind that I can always be better than you and I can also mock at you but that's my choice and I chose not to 'cause in my heart I know, that all this will just dampen your spirit and make u lost your soul. I am kind enough to let you off. Somehow, I am just a person who will be satisfied if you are just a normal person. I just felt sad 'cause you dampen my spirit on purpose, something someone whom I call friend shouldn't have done but u did it. Rest assure that the days of arrogance will not last 'cause I am determined to get my glory back and when that day comes, you can mock at me no more! My principle tells me, that I should not mock at anyone, so even if I have my glory, I will not show off to you and dampen that spirit of yours... -Sorry, i can't control myself-

Hai...

Raining early in the morning, didn't feel like getting up. Tossing and turning in bed but i just dun wanna get up. In bed till 6.30. Woke up and do everything damn slowly and went to school slowly. Reached school, was one of the earliest. Sian, sat there do nothing. Wai Leng came and she gave me a present, i was quite surprised by it coz i was nv close to her, but she, having a heart to do it for me, i, have the heart to appreciate it. Thanks! Then, it was ting and then yuting. Hee~ yu got suan by yuting a lot... HAhaha!

Lesson started. Got back my CL paper, wah lao! Mdm khong said i got 6/20 for Listening, i was like going to cry liao lor, but then i got back, is actually 14/20. Lao, bluff me! But overall, my Chinese Sux lor... 1st time ever in my sec. school life i got a B!!!!!!!!!! For me, it is devastating... I was shocked by it, i was surprised that i got a B3... 1 mark short to get an A2. Even if i got an A2, i wun be satisfied, it ain't my goal. But wadever it is, that is reality, i guess i really gotta study real hard for O level le.

Then, got Physics paper, i guess it was to my exceptation. I really got a full marks for a question which i'm confident. hee~ Happy bout that. Overall, hai hao bah. Now, it all depends on Chem to get a high score le.

Maths paper, only 4 A1s in class. I was one of them. 80/100. Not satisfying coz it ain't the result i used to get. 81% passes in our class... Another devastating news. We used to have 100% passes, nobody fails maths but this time round.. And Miss Chong was happy bout it... OMG, wad is she thinking?! God! Sad lor.. And now, we are no longer the top class... The saddest fact that we must accept. We, 5A1, falling from glory... However, my hopes are still high because we r 5A1. We have been through thick and thin, nothing would and will never dampen us.

That's bout it. I was dead beat today.. Didn't even go for D&T, went home and lie down straight, sleep till 6+... 1st time ever, sleeping for so long... Heh! Then watch SURVIVOR, best reality ever!

Just now, Hui Mui called to apologize for wad happen the other day.. A bit surprised, she sound like she was crying, i dunnoe wad to do, tried to tell her that sometimes we gotta tolerate for certain reaseons. I mean, likfe is like that. She thought that i thought she was unhappy cos i came... Heh! Not like that, i enjoyed my time with them, especially this yr, being my last. Well, she gotta face up with this fact. I got nothing to say...

Ermm... Today went around looking for Billy and Terry.. Hee~ Wanna kick them for certain reasons.

Most still doesn't know and it doesn't show... I wonder when will they know... Ermm... Quite difficult to tell... Well, not gonna expose...

I try to hold on to wad is left and never look back for I know, i can never turn back time. Missing you can never be harder but I've learnt to stop missing you...

15.05.05

Swissotel, The Stamford? Something like that? I was at that hotel for bout 15min. In one of the suite... Heh! PApa got access to it so mama and me went and relax and enjoy the view... It was breathe-taking, spectacular. Sky-scrapers in Singapore are amazing and i guess that's wad made Spore so unique. Hee~ A great BD gift from papa to allow me to have such view. 1st time in my life, and i swear it wun be the last!

If u can catch my sentence, today is my BD. It was amazingly the best yet. Ermm... no company from friends this year. One is busy with Exam, one is sick, one is working, one is i-dunno-where. All the others are not very close type so nv asked them out. Ermm....But throughout the day, i received msg of blessings from friends all over. Some from friends that are no longer in school but are still my best friends. Some from Netball Juniors. Some from pri schoold friends. Got one in particular was a guy that i chatted with long time ago in IRC and he sent me a friendster msg to wish me, heh! Feels very weird but thank him after that.

Went to hotel play ard then to Bugis eat Japanese cuisine. YUmmy~ Then went to outram shop the CK.. Bought quite some stuff... This yr, no red egga and Mee SuAng... Hee~ No usual hanging out with Si En and Melanie, no picture taking. Jusy outside with papa and mama. 1st time after i've grown up. Ermm.. At least this year is fulfilling. Me 17 le, have to really grow up liao. For me, it is already very old. I will try to make myself grow up mentally and physically. And just think better... Wishes? NAh, not gonna say out loud. When it's fulfill then i tell... HAHAha!!

Anyway, i'm very happy this year, no idea y, its better than last yr. I'm very happy! But there are a few parts of the days which i'm sad... Hai... Anyway, it's over...

The month is over for us and that was the end of the trial. If u r smart enough, u should get wad i mean but if u dun, then forget it lor. Will be obvious as time passes by. Ermm... It was straight, it was willingly. No regrets at all... I Have a great time this month and it was the month that brought me to the peak of my highest days... Now, i'm happy and i'm back to myself. No more sorrows, no more crying, just basically the APPLE that was b4. HAving more and more friends out there and getting more sociable in everything and not avoiding problems anymore! This is a better apple. Ermm... Well, i wasn't sad, i wasn't crying, i was actually pretty happy bout it, letting off a sigh of relief. Now, i can totalle focus on studies le... MuHAhAHA!

Hao lah, that's bout it! One last thing, HAppy Birthday to ME!!!! HAHAHA!!! NiGHT!

All those happiness have come to an end. However, i'm on top of the world, knowing i have got more that i thought i had....

Things can't be taken back..

Heh... Nothing to do so i decided to dl the Hello thingy so i can post pics on the blog. Changed the blogskin as well, cute! I like it. As usual, it is very simple and plain. good for me.

Ermm... Later's gonna go out with papa mama, papa wanna treat me eat. heH...

Wad should i say? Happy + Sad day of my life.... I will not think too much le... Will write more tonight. Buai!

Once again... Walking on this boulevard alone... Smiling...

Ting and Me wOr 

Bt Kor..... 

I'm at work.  

WAh... Muscles calling for help..

ArGh!!!!! My arms, my legs, my back, my everything, aching like hell!!! Hai... Too much workout leads to no good. Recap, Pool, badminton, netball, pool,work. 3 days of running, lifting, hitting, holding without warm-ups or cool-downs. I couldn't move myself now, without having to shout out loud. O god... Plans of going out sort of just got disrupted, but i still feel like going out, this evening... Hee~Will see bout that.

Yesterday, after CL p3, went straight to D&T. I started to do wad i planned to but after assembling the tracks, i stopped coz i have ZERO ideas wad to touch next. So i just leave my mechnic parts that way. Started to touch on the table. Very happy this time round coz i got the shape of a hexagon out with Miss Lim's help with the sawing machine and i did all the measurements. So happy, at least i did something. Found out my overall marks for D&T is 69, one mark short to get an A2, no worries, i'm gonna hand up my Further development and hopefully get that A2 i aimed for... heh!

While i was busy doing my "own" stuff in the D&T room, felicia called to go to work. Was a bit amazed once more, coz i'm in school! But then told her sure... After 3 calls, Ting was able to joined me at work. So, i rushed home later, got everything done, went to yuting house. Pool?! Play?! Nah, didn't play much coz there's too many pple there, and a little mei mei who keep running around taking away the ball.. Was a bit pissed but then, i didn't wanna show it, just crap along with Tu Fei(Yu jun's friend). I thought this time round, i can play quite a bit but then, well, never mind. Next time bah.

Then, went to central, meet Ting, bought bread, very hungry. Took bus to Orchard. KAo, the god damn bus driver was kNN slow lor. Boarded the bus at 5.20 like that. By right, at normal rate, we should get to orchard by 5.50 or 5.55. Very slow lor. In the end, gotta call Felicia to tell her we're gonna be a bit late. Very paiseh lor, 1st told her can't make it at 5 then she kindly change it to 6 then now, got late. Feel very paiseh for it lah. Hope she wun get angry lor.

Quite a lot of stuff happened during work(as usual). 1st unpleasant thing to happen, i broke a wine glass, kao. The tray was the plastic type which i'm not good at holding, some more, i'm still panting from all the rushing, and then, my arms are hurting, and it just fell down without my knowing anything. So sad... Told yusoff bout it and he just say "nvm nvm, its ok" Heh! BAd thing to happened at the start of work.

Was wondering wad event was that, very small, so asked the trainee, Sharon and she told me, was a VIP event. 6 tables if i'm not wrong. Didn't know wad to do even when the thing started so questioned Terence a lot, then he kept giving me those funny looks. Everything was normal lah, except, Lau and all the caps keep helping around lor. Some helped with portioning, some helped with serving. This is the first time the guests asked me wad sauce is that when i placed the chicken sauce. HahA! Wad else, I called terence "dear" twice last night... HAha! I'm like "not like that lah, dear!" Then corrected myself"call wrongly, not dear" HAHA! Nuts. Yusoff and Lau leh, talk bout those stuff which is so censored, and i'm like, "I dun wanna talk to u" Sick lor, their mood all very good last night, dunnoe y, Roy also.... Hai...

The dinner ended at 9. Then we started packing, moving green felt, table cloths and wad nots to the places. Then Ting started with the skirting, while i'm spraying water, moving the oblongs to one side, that is pretty much y my arms r hurting. Then, helped with the skirting but roy said no pins, so i'm like, huh? effort gone to waste. So left it to Ting to staple. Then i went over to ting there, a new black jacket was using the staple to staple his shoe.. HAHA! Then, when i turned around, i saw Bt kor smiling, then i'm like "BT KOR!!!!" Very surprised at his sudden appearance. Ran over and took a pic with him. Ha! O ya, very addicted to taking pics last night, with everyone at work. Even with Firdaus' team whom i have absolutely no idea bout. Heh! Nuts... At the end, Auntie took Orange juice to us, without much hesitation, we took it... HAHAHA!!!

At the end of everything, we were exhausted, and i got so tired of Tings' help-me thing, and i didn't wanna talk much bout. HAhA! Good thing, she stopped. Arbo, i might just end up killing her. Haha! In bus, was talking to ting bout wad happened to her side and my side. And all those new stuff that we think r new.

Overall, yesterday's work was quite relaxing. Partnering terence, though a bit blur sometimes when i talked to him but most of the time, he knows wad he's doing. And, chit chatted with the caps while portioning, not bad! HeH! Setting up not tedious and had lots of fun. Wah, if last night, Ting nv go then i'll be there going crazy myself. HAhA! (I nv win ting in getting crazy) HeH!

Didn't see ZHu the whole day. He was actually working but he was not feeling well and he said he's mum wants him to pei her, so he stayed at home. So fillial of him, fot that, it's ok i didn't see him. HeH!

So reach home, very tired, bathed and sat down there for a while and went to bed.Very tired... And slept till 12+ today. Now, still feel very tired. Anyway, got nothing to do, so can slack the whole day lor. Hee~

Stopped here! Ciao!

Smiling with the same rosy cheek of mine and living each day, calling it mine.

Just another day.

MuHAhAhaHA! My mOOd today was not bad as well, slightly lower than yesterday but still good. Woke up Early today to go play netball with my juniors.. Ermm... Walk a very long way to the netball court which is round Melanie's house... Had quite a good time working my body out with some of my juniors. Ermm... Then, was talking to Valerie bout some probs bout a person, then she was wondering how to inform Marianne... Ermm... Well, i dunno either coz it's the team's prob now, they gotta solve it themselves...

Came home, really sian, came inside here, nothing to do, called yuting, asked her wanna go out not, then she dun wan, sian sian at home do nothing. In the end, lay down there, half-dead. Muscles starting to hurt from yesterday's workout and today's Netball. A sudden urge came, baking... HEH! Went to buy butter and chocolate rice... Hee~ came home, wait for mama to go for work then i started baking... Hee~ Cam out ok lor...A bit black coz i think i put too much egg on top le... But can be eaten... Not bad, improved from last time le, Hee~

My kor suan me, say my cookies not nice, in the end, he take one after another, then i stare at him. Another kor saw it, say he wun eat, in the end, after much persuasion he took one... Hee~ So happy, at least they ate my cookies...

Was crapping with lao gong bout the cookies... He went to dentist just now, say got 2 wisdom teeth need to be taken out, then i told him will have 5 days MC... HAHA!

Received quite a bit of surprises today, one person told me another person die liao, scare me, but of coz it's a joke. Then another told me his relationship with his girl might end, another surprise. Then mama suddenly bought Slippers for me, surprised! Went to supermarket saw pple arguing... Wah, shocked! So fierce!

O ya, saw KoK Hong, Wei Yi and Jing hui just now, outside westmall, after netball. Wah, hong's hair getting more stylo sIA, so many colours. Then they were crapping bout Zhu thingy, then i entertain a bit and went home... HAHA! Good Old friends!

Wah lao, Ting told me they're gonna stay in school from 9+ to 3 sia... For D&T... Then i 'm like, huh, so long.... A bit shocked sia... So long... Didn't feel like staying but then now already May le, must faster do the Project. Tml go finish the mechanical parts then can start doing the outside cover and everything le. Like that will be ok... So tml, will stay lor but wun be staying that long, but must see 1st. Gonna play pool tml too... Hee~

Nowadays, my da kor have been li xiao-ing me... Very angry, but play along then complain to mama... He getting very childish... HAHA!! But brought our relationship closer. As for 2kor, same, still having an ok relationship with him. As for papa, think he cut down on drinking le lor, didn't come home very late at night. Hee~ Mama, still the same, doing everything she can for the family. Ermm... But she very mad bout kor kor's gf.. Ha! nothing to comment...

Tomorrow will be taking CL p3, nothing to bring, nothing to worry, just gotta concentrate.

Bad news, Melanie can't pei me, her eyes swollen... Hai... Poor thing. Will try Si en, but she's a bit busy wor... Thinking back, of all my BDs, it is Si En and Melanie who pei me... 2 close friends but went away for different reasons, heading to different paths... Well, of cos i still got friends ard me, some are close ones, some r not, i'll make sure i cherish them all b4 i lost that chance to.

Today, watch those entertainment News, a news bout the funneral of an artiste, Yi Min Ran, a comedian. ZHang Xiao Yan said "We should meet up with our old friends and not wait till things like this(Death) happens then we come together. We should cherish everyone when we can." I totally agree with it.. Instead of just taking them for granted, we should treasure them... HAi... Loads of emotions.

Hao le.. Will stop here today, go and li xiao Terry Tan......Heh!

What the Hell is life?! What the hell is moving on?! Why can't it just be mine?! And just let me decide it on my own?! Stop looking at me, like i'm wrong! This is the way I lead my life! It is none of your business at all! So get that god damn coloured eyes of yours, out of my bloody sight! And dun let me catch them at all, or I'm really gonna kick that god damn ASS of yours! -Some words of anguish-

LAte....

Late in the night, still dun feel like sleeping. Very active today due to the end of MYE. So kind of going around to li xiao pple. Even went to li xiao SHi Bin in MSN, haven't talked to him for a long time le, crap a lot. he sent me BSB's incomplete, so HAPPY!!!

Then was talking to Bt kOr, actually wanted to li xiao him too, but turned out his not in a good mood, in the end, trying to comfort him but dunnoe how to, cos life is something i can't explain at all... Just tried to comfort bah... He rmb my BD!!!! So happy! I didn't except him to rmb, tot only some close friends will rmb de. HEh! So HApPy to know he rmb. It's all worthwhile, treating him as my kor. Hee~ No lah, even if he dun rmb, he's still my beloved Bt Kor! Anyway, hope he will be happier after 14 days... HAHA!

Through him, i learned quite a bit bout life. He just reminded me, that we will never stay in one place for a long time and that we should be able to adapt well with new environment. For me, i will try to stay optimistic and not stress over it.

Just now, something shocking happened after receiving a call, ermm... Scare me a little but think it's gonna be alright bah.... HoPe so...

Went to play pool and badminton, back home, real tired, nothing to eat, cook maggie Mee, kor kor came back, ask me to cook, then still say not nice.. Make me cook until the noodle very LAN! SICKO!

Zhu told me something which left me with confusion, confusion after confusion, how to face it?! Hai... k, wadever, mi still mi, will cherish all of it!

Still talking to Jenn... Sharing some stories...

DelighTed...

Felt Very AweSome today! Woke up at 5.30am, bathed and started to go thru the maths paper1... Then, went to school feeling a bit tired but all along smiling. Talked to both Cheryl and Trish bout the paper. Then, ting came, she's a bit moody today wor.. No idea y, didn't dare to talk to her at all... O ya, my juniors came to find me and asked me bout tml, they asked me to go play Netball.. Heh, agreed, asked them to call me after their papers tml. HeH!

Then, when we were in the examination hall, I was still in a good mood. When paper came, i was a bit worried i might not know how to do. Then, when Mrs Lim told us to change some errors, i took the chance to take a look at the paper, and since then, i'm smiling all the way. Out of the 3 SEQs, there were 2 that i have learnt. I was so happy lor, coz i know... When paper started, i concentrate real hard on SBQ, trying not to go out of point by refering to the qns again and again, hopefully, will score better. Last minute, just in time to finished the last word "competiton" abd Miss Lim said "Put down ur pens" HeH! Manage to finish the paper, quite a few of them didn't finished. I'm quite lucky this time round, i concentrate hard.

Break... Finally, stomach grumbling since the paper started, got a bread and started to ask some questions bout Maths. Then the Junyuan Hor, pushed Bernice then they bumped onto me, i nearly fall sia, kao, i was looking at a qn, sia... But nvm lah, i'm not so petty. Zhu came to tell me that he slept the whole of his paper, haha!!! I'm like, so smart. Hai... Dunnoe how they can just give up like that. Real Pro...

Anyway, next paper about to start, i was once again, feeling good bout the things that happened, thinking that this should be a great day for me. Guess wad, the Maths paper was EaSy! HeH! Hao lah, dun say easy, is not tough. Almost all the questions i can do, only 1 or 2 qns i'm not sure... I hope this paper will pull up my grade for the overall paper, coz Paper2 very difficult. HAppy bout the paper, i was just so happy after the paper lor, laughing all the way. Ermm... Think i pissed some off coz of my smile, ok, i admit i shouldn't show all the laughters out when there are pple who think they can't score... Well, i'm just overjoyed.. Sorry if i offend anyone.

Indeed it's a great day, at least for the 1st part of the day bah. Somemore, this is the last paper that needs to be study.

Later gonna go play pool, very long never play le. Only started to get a hand of it a few months ago, but due to lots of excuses, no time to go play. Today, gonna practice and get a hand of it. HeH! Happy, the day is planned.

HAHA!!! Some relaxation... Next week gotta start working it again coz O level Chinese is round the corner, 30 May... The day b4 June holiday... Make sure i do well for it!

Can't work this week, sad lor, thurs, fri and sat free but too bad, no bookings so i'll just go round hanging out with Juniors, friends and hopefully Zhu ZhU... HeH! Well, things weren't as good as b4 but then again, it's ok, not that bad for me, i'm feeling real cool bout everything nowadays.

MAybe gonna take 50 bucks from the bank to go shopping... HeH! Been wanting to get a pair of jeans but got no chance to really go shop for it, coz most of the time, i got so fascinated with skirts, slippers and sandlers... HAHA!!!! Well, gonna go buy a pair... And wanna asked Melanie out to go shop with her and take PiCS with her, haven't took with her for very long le lor... HAHA!!!

I guess this is my life... CrAzy and Bo lIAo... Trying to recall some of the old times i had b4, can't get it back but will try make life similar to it, at least a bit bah. O ya, just now leh, dunno y i suddenly thought of Ziyang Wor... Heh! Very funny, his face suddenly came out... Then i'm like "SiAO!" Then continue... HeH!

Life is like an oscillation, oscillating within this small world. Making everything happened within that given period.

Feeling not bad...

Physics paper was, for me, not very bad.. I actually hab confidence to have one of the pages full marks. But ermm... Must see how it turns out lor. Lots of question requires all explainations, and most i used my own language, hope can be accepted. And u know wad, while doing the kinematic question, i actually spot a mistake made by the paper, and haha, i didn't care and carry on with the answer. Then, Miss Lim was annoucing the mistakes, pple were like "Shit lah" and all those words blurted out, while i continued to do my paper. HEh! *ProUd*

Then, later, kind of match answers with them, Ermm.. Ting got quite a few mistakes, hai... Can't help, ain't easy to score this year. Me? Section A, i think... Hai... MAi gOng lIAo...

B4 exam start just now, i saw Zhu came odown after his 1st paper, i ran to kick his butt then quickly run to join my class... HAHA!!!! So funny... Nv see his reaction. After that, he msg me say i run so fast. HAha!!! This days might be little, i'm just gonna go round kicking butTs!!! MuHaHA!!!

Tomorrow last 2 papers le or rather last 3. Cos still got CL p3 on friday. Tml is SS and Maths P1, hai... SS, haven't touch yet, some more, like i said last night, dunnoe how the teachers mark de, answer like dun consider if not in answer scheme. Sad lor, guess i have to focus on SEQ le.. SBQ, try to score bah... Try to...

Maths p1, ermm... revision needed as well, i will try to do this paper better than the last one. Hope it can pull up my grade bah... At least must have a 75 lor. Aim A1 mah...

Everything said will be done, promised. GOnna study le... Au RevoIre!

I'm just trying to make the days left the best... For me....

My thoughts...

Ermm... once again, in for the night. i still have a few chapters. 2 to be exact. Both very long, need lots of time. Wanna relax now, been sitting there since just now. Well, revision is real tough, tougher when i think i've known everything. Guess how many times have i gone thru those chapters? A LOT! LAst year's mid yr, then all the mocks, Prelim then N level. See, so many times. Then CT this yr, some more all the CAs... Wah lao, i really did so many times. Can't believe. When the book is in front of me, i thought to myself "Gonna go over again" Of cos, there are some which i've forgotten, it is the right time to recap on it. Ermm... great... so, i got tired le, and now starting to slack.

Seriously, i'm not very worried bout Physics tml or even Maths p1 on wed but it's SS that i'm worried bout. Hai... The criteria so high. Inferences that are not in the answer scheme cannot be counted, i did my SBQ and SEQ like i used to but the marks are TiAn yuAn Zhi BIe... Zhen CHam... And wad's more, i didn't touch it at all... ArGh... Tml, no afternoon nap le, must buy coffee again... But i doubt i can finished all the chapters lor. Will pick out some, hopefully, they come out bah.

To add on to wad happened this morning. I was a little moody. After Chem paper, i have absolutely no mood to entertain people, my face was dark. I can feel it myself. Go to canteen, while all the others r matching ans with each other, i quietly sat down with D&T txt and study. Dun feel like talking at all... Hai... wth is bothering me leh... HeH! Wun tell...

Today, dunnoe y, papa at home the whole day.. very weird coz he is seldom at home de. Probably no tourists bah. Hai...

Was talking to Chung Ee and Jenn just now. Ermm... Jenn is my new found friend, one that i talk to in MSN, ermm...She's from school as well, got to know her thru someone. Another girl that looks decent yet NauGhty. *duN judge a BoOk bY iTs CoVeR* Chung Ee and jEnn both helping me thru this tough road. Wondering y i didn't let closer friends know? I also dunnoe, dun feel like telling them. I guess sometimes, i should shut myself a bit lor. That's AppLe.

This weekend, will be turning 17. Wonder wad is it gonna be like. If everything turns out well, gonna spent it with Him, if not, will ask melanie Out and shop, haven't see her since New Year. My wish? Wun tell, it might not come thru.. HeH.. Acting secretive again... HAHA...

Hao le... it's like that... Ming tian hai you Physics. Wo yao qu du le... BuAi...

My love for you will never withers... Or so i guess...

Today....

Chemistry and D&T paper today. Heh... Both were ok bah. A few doubts on Chemistry, but overall, think can do ok bah. As for D&T, lots of common sense question, not in Txt de, hai... Completed very fast. 45min b4 times up, i'm already done. Hai... Hope can do well bah.

Afterwhich, went to coffeeshop thinking of buying lunch but then dun feel like eating so kind of went home next.

Ermm.. Something very hilarious happened, which i shall not disclose. When i'm waving to Xueting they all, ermm... Something just happened... HAHA!!! VERY VERY HILARIOUS!!!

Anyway, went on home. Was kind of tired. Was talking to ZHu bout something... And sort of just dozed off... Slept all the way. Good thing i've started physics le, gonna focus lots on the electricity part.

That's it... BuAi!

All the thoughts of it all, seem to vanish in an instant...

Another BlOg...

Me... Did revision le... A bit slack lah, didn't really went to memorise every little details. Most of the basic things r all in mind le, only some bah. Ermm... Dozed off on the table just now. Heh! Didn't mean it. Anyway, i'm not gonna sleep early today. i haven't touch D&T, decided to come in, relax a little then later go buck up again.

Lots of probs from different pple recently, trying to help them and at the same time, help myself. Hope all of them will feel much much better.

Just now, went to buy chocolate for mama, heh, decided it shall not be broom, ridiculous... Now, mama at ah mah house, spending the night with her this MAma's day.

Dinner was quite a feast, da kor bought Spring chicken. HeH! Everyone got a big piece, i eat till my mouth very tired. HAha! Delicious. But then, started studying again.

Studying seems to be a torture for most of us, but some look at it as a leisure. For me, it is both leisure and torture. Coz with it, i can work my brain, and sometimes, it is so interesting that i want another. However, sometimes, i just dun feel like studying at all. I mean, i dun hate it, but i will get so frustrated with it. Most of the time, is coz i can't get myself to concentrate bah. Hao, enough of the craps. Me will do my best de...

Talking doesn't help, actions do. Hao le... Wo yAo qiu DriFt yi sia, then start to jia you again. hee~

Counting the days... Smiling with hope...

Exams exaMs exAms...

AiYo.. Yesterday was A day of UpS And DOwNS... Not to mentIon wad but just Ups And DoWns lor... I studied a bit of physics, left with a few tough topics which i must really focused on it. I got the whole of Monday afternoon and Night to study it thru.

Just now was going through the Chem's moles and oxidation and reduction topic. ermm... Did the whole of the test papers again, and i was able to do it well.. Only a few questions. Kind of get myself clear on wad is OIL and RIG, how to solve, used to be very confused bout it. Later will touch up more. Aim to complete revision on this yr's topic by 6 or 7 later. Then, will go to last yr's topic, pick out those that i'm not good at and study till 10. Then will do some revision on D&T... That will be my plan. Not gonna waste time.

Today is mama day sia, later wanna go buy something for mama.. Hee~ Wad should i buy? cake? Chocolate? Or broom? HAHA!!! BROOM!!! FunnY... Mop might be better... HaHA... CrAps!

So i guess this week is gonna be another hectic one, with all the exams. Still worried bout SS sia, didn't touCh O... Hai... But hope can do well bah.

I'm cool with everything but still struggling with life....

Everything came crushing down....

It just came out of no where... Everything came crushing down.... There is definitely a name for wad u put me through.........

Last part.

Till one day, we went out and have dinner and kind of spend the night making fun of Chung Ee. After that night, we r still those type of guy and girl friends, or so i tot.

One night, he suddenly asked me whether i wanna find another guy bo. I was quite ermm... Speechless but find some words to say. Opinions from ting and yuting were crucial but most importantly is my feelings. LAter, i agreed.

I guess, somewhere in me, i've fallen for him unknowingly. From the time he started to comfort me and care bout it, he already had that special place in my heart. I know he understands me more. I will try my best to make this one work better. Get myself devoted? PArtially. He will be part of me. ZHU Zhu!!!

In a relationship: One got to give a little and take a little. It anin't easy to find someone that loves u and that u love.

A Story....

After my beauty sleep or is it just pure PiGGy lAziness? Wadever! Anyway, was dreaming bout something, that i can't recall but felt pretty weird.. HeH! lay on bed, dun wanna get up, then see the time, 1.30pm liao. Meeting yuting at 2.15pm, so i dragged myself out of bed. 1st person i saw was my da kor, he asked "No school ar" I said "exam..." And went into toilet. hee~ Didn't feel like going out, coz of the heavy pour. However, promised le, so went out.

HOuse Of wAx was OMG!!!! Nice movie... i'm always so fascinated by HorrOr movies.. Another one coming out, gonna go watch again. Hopefully with ZhU Zhu this time.. hEE~ After that, kinda shop around. Saw some clothes, wanna BUY!!!!! Sadly, no $ now, will save1st...

Ermm... Thought bout Zhu a little. Realised he's someone more suitable for me bah.. Ermm.. Both likes to fool around and play, both r students, both r ZHU... Hee~ But leh, he's much more sociable than i am, he has lots of friends. Most of whom, i know but not very familiar. Ermm... Feelings when i'm with him was totally different from D... Ermm... it's a bit... Or should i say just a little..... See, i can't describe. It's just different. Never had that kind of feeling when i'm with D... Even during the 1st couple of months which pple said it's honeymoon period or wadever. I will think of him more, more than i think of myself. However, though i'm indulged in it, but when it's time to study, he nv came cross my mind at all. He will give me the time i need to do my work, he wun force me to go out with him, he will feel guilty when he did things wrong like, sleeping at 4am in the morning when later, he still have to wake up at 6. HaHA... Very weird right? And somehow, i think, i've given him more time, more of my feelings. Y?! Can't answer...

Billy:
2001, our school was settled in YISS coz our building wasn't built. Had lots of fun there, as well as sorrows. Got to know a girl that would later become one of my good friends, Melanie. She was a girl that have personality that is slightly close to mine. We like to go out, shop, take photos, and blah blah. She was from Hong KAh, So is Billy, that is how i got to know a guy called Billy. At that time, i usually call him Hui Ming. Wasn't really close to him or wadsoever. He dun really know who am i bah, till sec3, i think, we kind of talked in IRC and he asked me who am i, and he knew who am i. Still, we weren't close. Till this year...

This guy came to our class and play around with the other guys. I looked at him, and he was like "See WAD!" Then i say "See u cannot ar!? Fight lah!" then he's like "come lah!" and it goes on and on and on. At that point of time, i'm still treating him as quite a stranger but a friend. He came for quite a few days and i thought he was just there to play with our class' guys. Honestly, that was wad i tot. One fine day, when i got back home from school, was dead beat. Lie on the bed and dozed off... Received a msg, and i tot was D when it was some anonymous. Ridiculous. 1st thing he said was "ZhU!" And i'm like, WTF, so impolite to call me ZHu and i was like so damn beat that day. Asked who he was, he refused to tell and kept saying guess lor and the shuai one... In the end, i got pretty pissed and wanted to end the conversation so i said "I'm not interested, Bye." And he finally reviewed who he was. It was Chung EE who gave him my no.

At that time, i was with D. I didn't think much bout his msges, however, got a weird feeling, he will asked "Wad r u doing?" And i will be like... Must i ans... Well, it went on, and one day he told me something bout he like me and things like that and said he was very sad bout his Ex and blah blah. All of a sudden, i became his listener... Well, carried on listening, and then he told me "I think i should stop all this act" and all sorts of thing. So i said "It's ok, we're still friends lah"

LAter, had some probs with the previous relationship. Had Xueting, Yuting and bt kor by my side comforting me and he is also one of them. Biggest impact from him bah... Also bt kor told me something which i kind of gave it a deep thought. I guess the most important one was from Chung Ee, the guy that saved me. He told me "If u really think u can't take it le, then end it now lor, if not, till the end of the year, ur O level will suffer a lot." And i decided, it's over.

Went back to work, thought bout the times back then, but was awaken by Bt kor and Firdaus(though he just make me laugh)... Went to chalet with a heavy heart... And it was Billy who talked me out of it all, brought me through the pain, he stayed up all night talking to me bout "He's a jerk, dun care, not worth".. And i was cheered up by that.

Was totally awesome one week after, i am living happily le... FreeDom!!!!! And he still remain as that bo lIao guy that always come to our class and li xiao... Hee~

Till one day.................................. *tO bE ContInuED*

Earlier Part of the Day

This morning, woke up pretty restless... Didn't mkae it on time to go thru everything again, instead, i was sitting there, in a daze. Went out of the house, slightly earlier than i usually did, and strolled to school.

In school, the 1st greeting i got was having saliva all over my face. I dun rmb wad happened, but Trish laughed and saliva was on me, i immediately woke up! HAhA! She apologized and said it's her blessing, i said "Please dun give me ur blessing..." HeH! Somehow, it woke me up a little lah.

Following that was NPCC day or something, they got a girl to command, then our class' seniors; Xiao Qiang, Yong Soon, Wan yu and Faisal were all complaining.. Well, can understand, being seniors of NPCC cadets, they have the right to comment. I guess all the CCAs juniors are getting worse year by year.

CHinese paper 2, i was a bit tired lah, the paper was considered not bad lor, didn't really have a lot of difficulties, except a few nia. Better than CT le bah. Last 15min, i completely shut myself up, closed my eyes and went into dreamland. Ermm.. eoke up last minute to check once more and that's it, the paper ended. 9.20am, and i'mon my way back.

Went to canteen expecting myself to see my zHu but didn't get to see him. So i went to buy something for breakfast. When i walked out with Hush brown on my hand, Alif came over and say "No mayonis ar" Then i'm like "Huh?!" And he goes "o, wrong person..." He actually mistook me for Xinhui, his lady, and i'm like laughing my head off after that. So funny... Hee~

Yesterday, saw Ziyang online, was a bit surprised to see him coz i haven't see him for like THAT long... Come to think of it, i got to know him better online too.. Hee~ Another long time friend that i missed pretty much. He sort of tell me bout wad happened and then went off.. Ermm... At least he still rmbs... I guess friends will never forget each other when they've become a true friend... Or not? HeH! Question asked.

Later going to watch Movie with Yuting... heH! HAppy...
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Now, doing nothing, gonna go ZuO ZhU le... Damn tired... CiAo!

MYE

Greetings to All, Apple in town, or should i say, apple in net? hee~ Aiyo, me a bit siao siao again liao. Hee~

Anyway, today was Maths paper 2 and Science(phy/chem) paper 1. Hai.... Maths was, tough, real tough. I didn't have time to finish lor. I left blanks thinking i could go back after i have finished, in the end, i can't. Wah lao, didn't managed my time properly. Very sad, almost everyone was sad lor, they also can't finish. Hai... Good thing the Transformation qn was easy, i rushed out 3 parts when there's only 1 min left and it really was 1min lor. Very sad.

Next paper was Science, 40qns, MCQ. Was quite ok... Hope can do well bah. As for Maths, still got Paper 1, will jia yOu for thAt. Hee~

Yesterday, Trish was very worked up when she came to talk to me. She found the girl's blog, the one from 3a1. Speaking ill behind our back. HahA! Win and lose must put on blog de meh? Most of the time when we played, i dun even know the scores, and yet, she remember the details. HaHa! Some more leh, say we act when some of us are studying for MYE... HeLLo! They dunnoe wad we are suffering lor! If we Act, we wun have 85% pass for N level and we wun be the top class! O ya, i forgot! They r only Sec 3, they DUNNOE wad is N LEVEL hor. Aiya, how careless of me... We know the pain, they dun, we r safe. They? Still struggling with SEC 3 EOY... HAHAHA!!!! Pathetic?! Or maybe, just pure jealousy! HAHA!!! Wad's more? They saY Ping Hong, say he act. Wah Lao, please lah, Ping hong Dun have to act one lor, he is very good as a player! Too bad for them, they dunnoe him. If wanna compare, look at their class boys lah. Some r like totally out of the world while some looks like hooligans. Even worst, they r all very violent, kept on pushing us. Knn, nv pushed back nia. Me Pushed back, they'll fly, given my size. HAHA! Only a few that looks decent. Wad's more? their class very not cooperative one, their malays all sit by the side, the class is so discriminatory! Unlike ours, we r ONE! HAHA... Hai... See, say so much bout us, now i gotta say back just for our class. It's all coz of some girl's blog. Hee~ If not, i wun be here talking bad things liao, i respect the people, but they show ZERO respect to senior, not a tiny bit. So disappointed in the younger generations of HGV.... Hai... Give up lah! As a athlete(as in netball player), i show sportsmanship, wun say le, till i really can't tolerate, i'll expose everything! HAHAHAHA!!!!

Very tired liao, yesterday stayed up till 1am to study, there aren't many times when i'll do that. Only times when there are just too much to study. Hope exam can do good Bah...
Targets set:
EL B3-B4
CL A1
Science A2
Combined Humanities A2
Maths A1
D&T A2
Can do it de!!!!!!! HAo! JiA yOu baH!

Hao, me going to take a nap, very tired. CiAo!

In no mood to bring the other side of me out...