Me... Very tired now. Not gonna write anything much.
The day was ok... Was VeRy WaRm once AgAin.. Can't stand the heat, very stuffy, very warm, very heaty, very smelly. Actually got up in the middle of a class to standinfront of a fan with yu. KaO...
Ermm.. Kind of talk to Trish bout her sit and she got lots to complain bout, well, i think i can understand bah. If i wasat that position, i guess i wun be able to fit in either, maybe will crap a bit with them, given my character, but for trish, she's unable to be like me. But assured her that "I can't fit into their world either, so dun worry, u r not the only one" HeH!
Spent some time with him.. GoOD...
Took Rong Hun's specs to play, coz he took mine, took a pic with it, quite funny. HeH!
K, stop here. Ciao
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Friday, April 29, 2005
HaRd WoRk mAde by everyone....
BlOg BlOg BlOg blOg! Back to blog yet another time. In school, all was fine...
Physics lesson; No denial that Mr Loh KP has become very hardworking this year. We nv used to have any homework, maybe once in a million years bah, but now, there's homework every lesson. Somehow, i feel that he is trying very hard to explain clearly to us. For some, well, can't understand his POLy-type of teaching, but for me, it's pretty good. I mean for me only lor, i dunnoe bout the others. Coz i like to study on my own, and figure out myself, sounds a bit self-centred, heh! Please, i'm not, i just love to do things alone, asking myself, solving myself and when i get the answer, i will be overjoyed. Ermm.. Still there are pple complaining bout Loh's style, some bitched bout it to me, but i didn't have much to comment. Well, appreciate wad i have now. O ya, he said, he got our marks for Chem le, he combined them together and said me and some of the others got A1.. Ermm... A bit dubious, coz my science, usually get A2 one, then the last chem test, i didn't think i did well.. Well, hope its an A can le...
Ermm... Zhu's phone spoil this few days, can't sms him or call him, very funny... Just now, i went to his class just to ask him gonna wait for me bo. A bit embarassing... Initially was alright, he came out, and we talked, then he walked me back to class, but suddenly realised all his friends are behind us, then i'm like "where are they going?!" He day "Escorting u mah, See, so good"! then they started with the "da Sao" thing again, i shouted bye and ran back to class... Extremely paiseh lOr... HAi...
Maths mock was, ok ok lah, only the questions at the back, a bit difficult but i managed to complete in the given time. Not very confident like i was b4 bout my every mock. No choice...i guess... Just now OHS's office called, but i was doing exam, can't pick up. Ermm.. Think they need pple for work again but i dun feel like working so didn't call back. After exam then go bah.
Went to buy coffee after that and went home. Zhu called to ask wad i was doing and the usual stuff... Then hung up. Was basically doing nothing. After dinner, went to start Hw.. Completed my D&T drawings le, tml show Miss Lim...
Just now, told mama i'm gonna gib Zhu tuition, then she say she wanna know wad he looks like, then i show her his pic.. HeH! Funny! Anyway, was doin sit-ups just now, for no reason, 40 of them.. hee~ Feels good after that. Ermm... mama suddenly asked me, "The desmond leh?!" Then i'm like "Dun care lah, dun talk bout him lah" Sick of thinking bout him. Hurt me too much or should i say, he nv knew he hurt me but i felt every stab he put into me. Today, read a column in LIME bout new relationships, realised everything it said bout the "not's" of new relationship were shown by him. good thing i made my choice. Aiya, think so much for wad, SHIT!
This few days hor, very warm ar, cannot stand, kept on sweating like mad, somemore our class.. Wah lao, every night air-con, harm the environment but if i dun on, can't sleep...
KK, tml gonna stay for D&t once more. Feeling good Wor... SaTurday GO out wiTh YuTing... HeH! Life have been pretty good, tired though...
When the sunrise, my mood shines. When the night falls, I dream... Of you...
Physics lesson; No denial that Mr Loh KP has become very hardworking this year. We nv used to have any homework, maybe once in a million years bah, but now, there's homework every lesson. Somehow, i feel that he is trying very hard to explain clearly to us. For some, well, can't understand his POLy-type of teaching, but for me, it's pretty good. I mean for me only lor, i dunnoe bout the others. Coz i like to study on my own, and figure out myself, sounds a bit self-centred, heh! Please, i'm not, i just love to do things alone, asking myself, solving myself and when i get the answer, i will be overjoyed. Ermm.. Still there are pple complaining bout Loh's style, some bitched bout it to me, but i didn't have much to comment. Well, appreciate wad i have now. O ya, he said, he got our marks for Chem le, he combined them together and said me and some of the others got A1.. Ermm... A bit dubious, coz my science, usually get A2 one, then the last chem test, i didn't think i did well.. Well, hope its an A can le...
Ermm... Zhu's phone spoil this few days, can't sms him or call him, very funny... Just now, i went to his class just to ask him gonna wait for me bo. A bit embarassing... Initially was alright, he came out, and we talked, then he walked me back to class, but suddenly realised all his friends are behind us, then i'm like "where are they going?!" He day "Escorting u mah, See, so good"! then they started with the "da Sao" thing again, i shouted bye and ran back to class... Extremely paiseh lOr... HAi...
Maths mock was, ok ok lah, only the questions at the back, a bit difficult but i managed to complete in the given time. Not very confident like i was b4 bout my every mock. No choice...i guess... Just now OHS's office called, but i was doing exam, can't pick up. Ermm.. Think they need pple for work again but i dun feel like working so didn't call back. After exam then go bah.
Went to buy coffee after that and went home. Zhu called to ask wad i was doing and the usual stuff... Then hung up. Was basically doing nothing. After dinner, went to start Hw.. Completed my D&T drawings le, tml show Miss Lim...
Just now, told mama i'm gonna gib Zhu tuition, then she say she wanna know wad he looks like, then i show her his pic.. HeH! Funny! Anyway, was doin sit-ups just now, for no reason, 40 of them.. hee~ Feels good after that. Ermm... mama suddenly asked me, "The desmond leh?!" Then i'm like "Dun care lah, dun talk bout him lah" Sick of thinking bout him. Hurt me too much or should i say, he nv knew he hurt me but i felt every stab he put into me. Today, read a column in LIME bout new relationships, realised everything it said bout the "not's" of new relationship were shown by him. good thing i made my choice. Aiya, think so much for wad, SHIT!
This few days hor, very warm ar, cannot stand, kept on sweating like mad, somemore our class.. Wah lao, every night air-con, harm the environment but if i dun on, can't sleep...
KK, tml gonna stay for D&t once more. Feeling good Wor... SaTurday GO out wiTh YuTing... HeH! Life have been pretty good, tired though...
When the sunrise, my mood shines. When the night falls, I dream... Of you...
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Paper 1 day
Today MYE EL and CL paper 1.. Woke up in the morning, took out story book to read to wake my mind a bit, then in school, started going thru all the formats for EL.. After that, went up to hall, as per normal, do things. Didn't feel any nervousness, probably is coz used to all this exams le... I felt real lucky wor, there are fans on both sides of the wall, didn't feel stuffy at all.. HAHA! I gave the paper my best shot, can pass, hope can be better than pass... Hee~ As for CL, mm... Pretty good too. Can pass well, included wad i thought should be enough.
That Miss Lim, very funny wor, she let our class go 1st coz we pushed in our chairs b4 we went for break, and she even noted down which class didn't push how many chairs in. I'm like, she is too principled liao... HAhA! But good lah, coz she praised us, felt a bit SONG! Hee~
Afterwhich, went downstairs, everyone didn't wanna go for D&T.. Ting also dun wanna go, then she sai ko everyone... Tao yan, but the fact is most of them dun wanna go lah. Ermm... Recently found myself caught in the middle of 2 persons. very awkward to be in this position as both r my friends... heH... Well, i just stand in the middle bah... Ermm.. Just now, i asked Trish bout the format thing, she asked me not to worry, but then told me the format, then i'm like trying to memorise it, then she suddenly say "Ai Ping, coz a lot of people asked me, then i'm a bit... U dun mind right?" Then i'm like, i didn't feel anything... She a bit FAN just now... I didn't feel much, dun worry, i'm very thick-skinned de... Hee~
Then, Zhu told me he going to swim, then i say Orh... Ermm... Ya... HeE~ Then, talked to him for a while, till his friends are leaving, said bye to him, and went on to find Cheryl and Trish. Miss Lim say can start at 1pm, so we happily go eat outside with Yong Soon joining. After that, drink coffee, it works, was pretty awake.. Go on talking craps. Started to mend my table and fill the holes, bent my acrylic, somehow, i'm satisfied with wad i've done today, though its very little, but at least got progress... Hee~
Then, came home, feeling a bit tired le, didn't sleep, was just resting. went to bath, eat dinner, started rushing my Homework. Till 10.30pm, cannot liao, hands very tired. wrote many pages, many words. Today, hand very stress... Morning, wrote 2 compos, 2 functional.. D&T, sand till my thumbs are "UP". Then came home write so much for Geog, all 8m, 9m qns, only some are 5m... Sad ar.. Hand sure pain de...
O ya, papa came back today le... He's fine after all the check-ups... Hai... Drink too much alcohol liao then stomache too empty, in the end, vomit transparent stuff, then affect heart beat... SEE lah, drinking not good for health right?! Dun believe me... see wad happened... Hope papa learned his lesson. glad he's back le, still the same papa, i hope... Hee~
Nowadays, my day extended a lot. Extra lessons after school, most of the days, reached home at bout 3+... LAst time i always end wad i'm doing by 10pm de, now extended to 10.30pm. very soon, i'll start burning midnight oil le... I never like to burn midnight oil de, try my best not to. Hope i wun bah. Coz i can't concentrate after 11 de, eyelids will start to feel heavy..
Just now hor, mama make me worry. Wah lao, her friend called twice, then the second time she said "Your mama carry a lot of things, very heavy, till now haven't come back ar" Then i'm, like, huh?! Wad happened sia. Make me very worry lor. Then i called papa, asked him, mama with him bo. then he say no... till 6 liao she still haven't come back... I very very extremely scared. Then, she came back, while she was outside digging her keys, i shouted "GO WHERE LAH?! SO LONG?! wah lao, this few days keep scaring me, dun have like that 1 lah!" Then she still smile, TaO yAn Hor! Hai... Later me got heart attack ar... 1st papa, then mama... TOUCH WOOD AR!!!! KAo!
K, so today is very filled up, with all sorts of stuff... Tml, another day. Got Maths mock... Well, jia yOu bAh... mUhahA! Tired, sleeping liao... CiAo!
I started to live my life to the fullest... I love it..
That Miss Lim, very funny wor, she let our class go 1st coz we pushed in our chairs b4 we went for break, and she even noted down which class didn't push how many chairs in. I'm like, she is too principled liao... HAhA! But good lah, coz she praised us, felt a bit SONG! Hee~
Afterwhich, went downstairs, everyone didn't wanna go for D&T.. Ting also dun wanna go, then she sai ko everyone... Tao yan, but the fact is most of them dun wanna go lah. Ermm... Recently found myself caught in the middle of 2 persons. very awkward to be in this position as both r my friends... heH... Well, i just stand in the middle bah... Ermm.. Just now, i asked Trish bout the format thing, she asked me not to worry, but then told me the format, then i'm like trying to memorise it, then she suddenly say "Ai Ping, coz a lot of people asked me, then i'm a bit... U dun mind right?" Then i'm like, i didn't feel anything... She a bit FAN just now... I didn't feel much, dun worry, i'm very thick-skinned de... Hee~
Then, Zhu told me he going to swim, then i say Orh... Ermm... Ya... HeE~ Then, talked to him for a while, till his friends are leaving, said bye to him, and went on to find Cheryl and Trish. Miss Lim say can start at 1pm, so we happily go eat outside with Yong Soon joining. After that, drink coffee, it works, was pretty awake.. Go on talking craps. Started to mend my table and fill the holes, bent my acrylic, somehow, i'm satisfied with wad i've done today, though its very little, but at least got progress... Hee~
Then, came home, feeling a bit tired le, didn't sleep, was just resting. went to bath, eat dinner, started rushing my Homework. Till 10.30pm, cannot liao, hands very tired. wrote many pages, many words. Today, hand very stress... Morning, wrote 2 compos, 2 functional.. D&T, sand till my thumbs are "UP". Then came home write so much for Geog, all 8m, 9m qns, only some are 5m... Sad ar.. Hand sure pain de...
O ya, papa came back today le... He's fine after all the check-ups... Hai... Drink too much alcohol liao then stomache too empty, in the end, vomit transparent stuff, then affect heart beat... SEE lah, drinking not good for health right?! Dun believe me... see wad happened... Hope papa learned his lesson. glad he's back le, still the same papa, i hope... Hee~
Nowadays, my day extended a lot. Extra lessons after school, most of the days, reached home at bout 3+... LAst time i always end wad i'm doing by 10pm de, now extended to 10.30pm. very soon, i'll start burning midnight oil le... I never like to burn midnight oil de, try my best not to. Hope i wun bah. Coz i can't concentrate after 11 de, eyelids will start to feel heavy..
Just now hor, mama make me worry. Wah lao, her friend called twice, then the second time she said "Your mama carry a lot of things, very heavy, till now haven't come back ar" Then i'm, like, huh?! Wad happened sia. Make me very worry lor. Then i called papa, asked him, mama with him bo. then he say no... till 6 liao she still haven't come back... I very very extremely scared. Then, she came back, while she was outside digging her keys, i shouted "GO WHERE LAH?! SO LONG?! wah lao, this few days keep scaring me, dun have like that 1 lah!" Then she still smile, TaO yAn Hor! Hai... Later me got heart attack ar... 1st papa, then mama... TOUCH WOOD AR!!!! KAo!
K, so today is very filled up, with all sorts of stuff... Tml, another day. Got Maths mock... Well, jia yOu bAh... mUhahA! Tired, sleeping liao... CiAo!
I started to live my life to the fullest... I love it..
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Not bad day...
Heh HeH! Today PE, once again, 3a1, They still, as usual, the same. Play pretty rough. Started out pretty good, we won! Both the games!!! JEALOUS?! Got pushed a lot by Elton, which is Esther's bro.. Wah lao, a lot of times lor, then i can't tong, played a bit rough lah! He nearly touch me .... AreA wor... wah, if he did, will beat him! HAHA... Overall, it was pretty good lah, we won, not much noise today, on the other hand, their class got lots of sounds... Heh, and yet, one of their girls say we make a lot of noise, PHew! And some more, say wanna dig trish's eyes, waH lAo, no respect Hor! Jealous trish got big round eyes wor! HAHAHA!!! CHildish, dun yi ban jian shi with them, Po Huai our Xing Xiang...
Went for Lunch WiTh zHu at KFC... After that, went to food court, saw the guys from our class and his class... Wah lao... Very paiseh, all shouted Da Sao... Then i'm like, bye! HAHA!!! K, a very sheepish situation. HeH! After that, went to BBDC, he check whether he can learn driving, found out he can, then he's like so HAPPY! Then we talked a while... Realised it's a pretty good way to improve relationship... not bad...
Wei Seng was telling me bout me and Billy... A bit funny... But appreciate everything he said to me... GlAd...
Think this one will go a much longer way than the previous one, a much happier and relaxing one too...
Gonna study Paper 1 format liao.. Tml MYE!!! CiAO!!!
A A B!!!! HAHAHA!!!!
Going down with the waterfall, I follow my fate, with you...
Went for Lunch WiTh zHu at KFC... After that, went to food court, saw the guys from our class and his class... Wah lao... Very paiseh, all shouted Da Sao... Then i'm like, bye! HAHA!!! K, a very sheepish situation. HeH! After that, went to BBDC, he check whether he can learn driving, found out he can, then he's like so HAPPY! Then we talked a while... Realised it's a pretty good way to improve relationship... not bad...
Wei Seng was telling me bout me and Billy... A bit funny... But appreciate everything he said to me... GlAd...
Think this one will go a much longer way than the previous one, a much happier and relaxing one too...
Gonna study Paper 1 format liao.. Tml MYE!!! CiAO!!!
A A B!!!! HAHAHA!!!!
Going down with the waterfall, I follow my fate, with you...
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Long Long Long Day!
Today, morning woke up real late, rushed outta house. In school, leg cramp, coz sit on the floor too long. Up in class, Do normal stuff...
During recess, i received a devastating news. Kor told me papa went into hospital... I'm like, WAD THE?! Run to toilet, call him, ask him wad happened. He say papa heart pain.. I'm like... HuH?! For the next few periods, my spirit a bit drifted away. Told yuting bout it, she's as worry as i am, Ping hong there, telling me some possiblity of heart attack, then i'm like, waH KAO! Can't focus on mAths... Real cham... Billy trying to cheer me up but i can't help but to worry bout it.
After school, went to westmall then to dover then to NUH... Like Miss Teo say, the emergency department, useless, SLOW!!!! EXTREMELY SLOW!! Papa in there since 11am, when i was there, it's 3+, after went to eat it's 4+... Till bout 5+ 6 then got admitted to ward. WTF! Been there for the whole afternoon right after school, in my uniform, waiting for them to finish things. Bluff WHO?! blood test so long, i give u AR! I'm like a walking zombie there in my stinky uniform and yet still hab to wait. Aunt elaine ask the nurse thing, she like fed up like that, HeLLo! She's paid to answer stuff k! ShiT... Finally, papa confirmed admitted to ward liao.. Bout 6+ then can get to see the whole face of my papa...
In ward, ah mah, da gu, xiao gu, mama, da kor, er kor and me, all tell papa not to drink so much, drink till like that... Then old liao, heart cannot take so much and blah blah... Then they all went outside to get some fresh air, while i stand inside, pei papa... Papa kept telling me he's alright then i'm like "U see lah, drink so much. Dun drink liao lah!" then he laugh laugh. I thought he's ok.. Suddenly realised papa eyes red red... I was a bit surprised... Then i say "Dun cry lah!" then turned away... Ermm... Haven't seen papa teared for a very very long time. The 1st and only time was when Ah gong passed away, when the coffin is closing. For the 1st time in my life, i realised the power of love between family members.. And realised a word of care can have such effects. I never knew papa take my words seriously, now, i know.
Back home bout 8+, tiredness overcome my whole body. Can't stand, faster bath and do hw... Didn't finish everything, at least part of it. Then came here, trying to fix the net, coz of the cookies thing. Can't do, called joey ask ask ask, finally can le... So HAPPY!!!!
me and Billy doing well, for all's info... Dun worry. Will write more bout another thing tml. Tired... niGht! Ciao...
Power of love, unbeatable...
During recess, i received a devastating news. Kor told me papa went into hospital... I'm like, WAD THE?! Run to toilet, call him, ask him wad happened. He say papa heart pain.. I'm like... HuH?! For the next few periods, my spirit a bit drifted away. Told yuting bout it, she's as worry as i am, Ping hong there, telling me some possiblity of heart attack, then i'm like, waH KAO! Can't focus on mAths... Real cham... Billy trying to cheer me up but i can't help but to worry bout it.
After school, went to westmall then to dover then to NUH... Like Miss Teo say, the emergency department, useless, SLOW!!!! EXTREMELY SLOW!! Papa in there since 11am, when i was there, it's 3+, after went to eat it's 4+... Till bout 5+ 6 then got admitted to ward. WTF! Been there for the whole afternoon right after school, in my uniform, waiting for them to finish things. Bluff WHO?! blood test so long, i give u AR! I'm like a walking zombie there in my stinky uniform and yet still hab to wait. Aunt elaine ask the nurse thing, she like fed up like that, HeLLo! She's paid to answer stuff k! ShiT... Finally, papa confirmed admitted to ward liao.. Bout 6+ then can get to see the whole face of my papa...
In ward, ah mah, da gu, xiao gu, mama, da kor, er kor and me, all tell papa not to drink so much, drink till like that... Then old liao, heart cannot take so much and blah blah... Then they all went outside to get some fresh air, while i stand inside, pei papa... Papa kept telling me he's alright then i'm like "U see lah, drink so much. Dun drink liao lah!" then he laugh laugh. I thought he's ok.. Suddenly realised papa eyes red red... I was a bit surprised... Then i say "Dun cry lah!" then turned away... Ermm... Haven't seen papa teared for a very very long time. The 1st and only time was when Ah gong passed away, when the coffin is closing. For the 1st time in my life, i realised the power of love between family members.. And realised a word of care can have such effects. I never knew papa take my words seriously, now, i know.
Back home bout 8+, tiredness overcome my whole body. Can't stand, faster bath and do hw... Didn't finish everything, at least part of it. Then came here, trying to fix the net, coz of the cookies thing. Can't do, called joey ask ask ask, finally can le... So HAPPY!!!!
me and Billy doing well, for all's info... Dun worry. Will write more bout another thing tml. Tired... niGht! Ciao...
Power of love, unbeatable...
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Working once more
Friday took Chemistry test, too many careless mistakes.. Depressed after that. Hai.. Standard getting very low now.. SAd...
Talks on the o level thingy was ok lah, a bit sian towards the end but considered ok lor. After that, rushed back home, prepare everything, then go to work.
5+ then reached. Bo bian. Yusoff getting very impulsive nowadays, not the yusoff i knew when I first started work. No idea y, probably coz he became a full-time captain bah.
Did 5 VIp tables with tingling, peiying, siao char bo, wei xing and yong xiang... NATAs travel agent's dinner... I was very slack. Yusoff asked me go lvl 1 do usher once again. Very sad lor, lvl1 very cham one, always got pple asked for directions when i have no idea bout wadsoever places. Anyway, saw the GM there. Ushering ended pretty early, 7.15pm went up. Started with everything. I was very slack lor, coz very tired lah, rushed down after school. But did wadever that should be done, just didn't help out much. Topping up of drinks... Serving, portioning, clearing, did them all, except for carrying oval tray. HeH! The VIPS not demanding at all, they all smile smile, very polite. They didn't asked for much either, so quite relaxing. Along the way, walked around half the ballroom to see got anything to do bo. Went back, look around the VIPs, still the same, they didn't asked. Heh! Good people there. Tired liao, so stand there and wait for next course to come.
Event ended very early, 10.30pm. Then clear tables, keep table cloths and blah blah blah. Then yusoff sat everyone down, started to summarise the standard, say 75% and blah blah. Hai.. Ting asked him not to bully me, he told me, i'll bully u more. Very bad. But he didn't do much to me lah. Helped out Firdaus's table, helped Chung Ee. Chung ee was thinking bout something then he broke some plates. HAHA, distraction is nv good.
After work, me breaking down, dragging my feet all the way, not in the mood to joke with anyone. Just smile smile... Waited to get pay, then left with Chung Ee and Zhu.
Zhu went to take 190 while Ee and me went to take 106. While waiting for the bus, Tingling and her mama came, ee was like, wah cham. But just smile lor. Then came Wen Hui, Wei Xing and Desmond TAn. Bus came, went up.. Tired.. Crapping with Wen hui and Ee in the bus. Reached interchange, bought MAc, went home.
Reached home, half-dead, wah lao, then dunnoe wad happened at home, mama there screaming, then i'm like WTF... In the end, i dun wanna care so much, went onto bed , lay there, sms-ing Zhu to tell him i'm sleeping.
O ya, in the midst of working, Christopher came to asked me who's Billy, then i pointed to Firdaus, haha! Ermm... wonder how he knew... Who told him leh?! PuZZled...
Anyway, slept till 12.30pm today. Still very tired... Then Zhu started telling me some stuffs which were quite.. ermm... Dunnoe how to describe but sort of made me kind of feel he's very understanding and also worry too much... HeH! But nvm. Honesty between 2 is the best.
Later gonna do some work, and i guess gonna end the day without going anywhere, rest a bit. Hee~
I understand you worry about me but I just want you to know that i'm fine...
Talks on the o level thingy was ok lah, a bit sian towards the end but considered ok lor. After that, rushed back home, prepare everything, then go to work.
5+ then reached. Bo bian. Yusoff getting very impulsive nowadays, not the yusoff i knew when I first started work. No idea y, probably coz he became a full-time captain bah.
Did 5 VIp tables with tingling, peiying, siao char bo, wei xing and yong xiang... NATAs travel agent's dinner... I was very slack. Yusoff asked me go lvl 1 do usher once again. Very sad lor, lvl1 very cham one, always got pple asked for directions when i have no idea bout wadsoever places. Anyway, saw the GM there. Ushering ended pretty early, 7.15pm went up. Started with everything. I was very slack lor, coz very tired lah, rushed down after school. But did wadever that should be done, just didn't help out much. Topping up of drinks... Serving, portioning, clearing, did them all, except for carrying oval tray. HeH! The VIPS not demanding at all, they all smile smile, very polite. They didn't asked for much either, so quite relaxing. Along the way, walked around half the ballroom to see got anything to do bo. Went back, look around the VIPs, still the same, they didn't asked. Heh! Good people there. Tired liao, so stand there and wait for next course to come.
Event ended very early, 10.30pm. Then clear tables, keep table cloths and blah blah blah. Then yusoff sat everyone down, started to summarise the standard, say 75% and blah blah. Hai.. Ting asked him not to bully me, he told me, i'll bully u more. Very bad. But he didn't do much to me lah. Helped out Firdaus's table, helped Chung Ee. Chung ee was thinking bout something then he broke some plates. HAHA, distraction is nv good.
After work, me breaking down, dragging my feet all the way, not in the mood to joke with anyone. Just smile smile... Waited to get pay, then left with Chung Ee and Zhu.
Zhu went to take 190 while Ee and me went to take 106. While waiting for the bus, Tingling and her mama came, ee was like, wah cham. But just smile lor. Then came Wen Hui, Wei Xing and Desmond TAn. Bus came, went up.. Tired.. Crapping with Wen hui and Ee in the bus. Reached interchange, bought MAc, went home.
Reached home, half-dead, wah lao, then dunnoe wad happened at home, mama there screaming, then i'm like WTF... In the end, i dun wanna care so much, went onto bed , lay there, sms-ing Zhu to tell him i'm sleeping.
O ya, in the midst of working, Christopher came to asked me who's Billy, then i pointed to Firdaus, haha! Ermm... wonder how he knew... Who told him leh?! PuZZled...
Anyway, slept till 12.30pm today. Still very tired... Then Zhu started telling me some stuffs which were quite.. ermm... Dunnoe how to describe but sort of made me kind of feel he's very understanding and also worry too much... HeH! But nvm. Honesty between 2 is the best.
Later gonna do some work, and i guess gonna end the day without going anywhere, rest a bit. Hee~
I understand you worry about me but I just want you to know that i'm fine...
Friday, April 22, 2005
Un-Restless DAy
ok, i only have 8 min to type this thing, later gotta study Chemistry...
LAst night, i slept pretty early, 11pm.. Well, not very early lah, but earlier than the usual time. Woke up feeling pretty energtic. Went to school happily.. Wah lao, i was chewing mentos spearmint, then trish say my mouth smelled of toothpaste. Heh, not to deny, spearmint do smell like toothpaste, but hey, it's not that.
Then, realise we have 4 periods free, EL and HU teacher didn't come. So it's like, we only have 1 lesson b4 recess, all the other periods are free. HeH! Basically sat there and talk but i did studied a bit for Chemistry lah, it's really a bit lor... Other than that, crapping with Linda.. HeH!
Fish, that siao lang, dancing like a sicko while i was singing. Let me tell u, it's really very disgusting, but very funny lah, entertainment provider... HAHA!!!! WaD The!
Then, took back our transformation mock, got full marks, so happy. 1st time sia... It boost my confident a bit. Hee~
Just now, told yuting that i'm going to have lunch with Zhu after school, then she's like, "huh?" then she went to complain to Linda that i nv pei her, then i'm like, hello, I've been with u after school for the whole week lor. She's the one that told me to balance properly, and that is wad exactly i'm doing yet she's complaining.. Hello, i only hang out with Zhu for 2 days this week, but with her everyday... Just feel a bit weird that she said that lor, i mean, I will feel guilty for not pei-ing her one but the thing is i did, yet she said that. A bit disappointed with her act lah but nvm, hope she really can understand.
After school, went to have luch with Zhu, then walk around westmall, he really very sociable sia.. Everywhere is his friend. Wad's more, we saw the girl that talks very loud, haha, then Billy avoids her... HAHA, so funny lor. Then went to my house there, sit sit, took photo... heH! SWEET!!!
Hao, going to study liao. Tml continue.
It's another great beginning...
LAst night, i slept pretty early, 11pm.. Well, not very early lah, but earlier than the usual time. Woke up feeling pretty energtic. Went to school happily.. Wah lao, i was chewing mentos spearmint, then trish say my mouth smelled of toothpaste. Heh, not to deny, spearmint do smell like toothpaste, but hey, it's not that.
Then, realise we have 4 periods free, EL and HU teacher didn't come. So it's like, we only have 1 lesson b4 recess, all the other periods are free. HeH! Basically sat there and talk but i did studied a bit for Chemistry lah, it's really a bit lor... Other than that, crapping with Linda.. HeH!
Fish, that siao lang, dancing like a sicko while i was singing. Let me tell u, it's really very disgusting, but very funny lah, entertainment provider... HAHA!!!! WaD The!
Then, took back our transformation mock, got full marks, so happy. 1st time sia... It boost my confident a bit. Hee~
Just now, told yuting that i'm going to have lunch with Zhu after school, then she's like, "huh?" then she went to complain to Linda that i nv pei her, then i'm like, hello, I've been with u after school for the whole week lor. She's the one that told me to balance properly, and that is wad exactly i'm doing yet she's complaining.. Hello, i only hang out with Zhu for 2 days this week, but with her everyday... Just feel a bit weird that she said that lor, i mean, I will feel guilty for not pei-ing her one but the thing is i did, yet she said that. A bit disappointed with her act lah but nvm, hope she really can understand.
After school, went to have luch with Zhu, then walk around westmall, he really very sociable sia.. Everywhere is his friend. Wad's more, we saw the girl that talks very loud, haha, then Billy avoids her... HAHA, so funny lor. Then went to my house there, sit sit, took photo... heH! SWEET!!!
Hao, going to study liao. Tml continue.
It's another great beginning...
Thursday, April 21, 2005
tHinking HarD...
This morning, kind of notice something different bout trish's eyebrows... True enough, she told me she draw it... HeH! A bit darker...
Lessons went on as usual, suddenly felt that Miss Wang is very hardworking, she never let a second go... She'll used them up even if there's nothing else she can teach. That's a pretty good point. I'm getting a good grip of Chemistry nowadays le, very happy, question asked can be answered without Txt... HeH.. So hAppy.. Good sign.. Science will be able to maintain at A2, i hope...
After school, stayed back for D&T. B4 that, was eating with the others.. Billy there as well... Ermm... Trying not to do wad he said to me the other time... very CuTe lAh... EnjOy his company AlwAYs!
After D&T, can't stand, came home, lie on settee and sleep... CAn u believe it, 2 days, same spot, almost same time. HAhA!!!! Tonight will sleep early liao... Dun wanna doze off in class...Again...
Ermm... Yuting a bit scary again, say i'm gonna go out with him, she like a bit jEalous like that, then i'm like, "ermm... Must balance mah" It's not like i nv go out with her lor, I mean, she's still my best friend and some more, i didn't neglect her lor... I think b4 doing anything now... So i hope she can understand BaH...
My new hairstyle, my new way of living, my loneliness, my Backstreet Boys, my friends and my ZhU, iT's all going on well... I'm ToTally Satisfied....
Never leave anyone alone...
Lessons went on as usual, suddenly felt that Miss Wang is very hardworking, she never let a second go... She'll used them up even if there's nothing else she can teach. That's a pretty good point. I'm getting a good grip of Chemistry nowadays le, very happy, question asked can be answered without Txt... HeH.. So hAppy.. Good sign.. Science will be able to maintain at A2, i hope...
After school, stayed back for D&T. B4 that, was eating with the others.. Billy there as well... Ermm... Trying not to do wad he said to me the other time... very CuTe lAh... EnjOy his company AlwAYs!
After D&T, can't stand, came home, lie on settee and sleep... CAn u believe it, 2 days, same spot, almost same time. HAhA!!!! Tonight will sleep early liao... Dun wanna doze off in class...Again...
Ermm... Yuting a bit scary again, say i'm gonna go out with him, she like a bit jEalous like that, then i'm like, "ermm... Must balance mah" It's not like i nv go out with her lor, I mean, she's still my best friend and some more, i didn't neglect her lor... I think b4 doing anything now... So i hope she can understand BaH...
My new hairstyle, my new way of living, my loneliness, my Backstreet Boys, my friends and my ZhU, iT's all going on well... I'm ToTally Satisfied....
Never leave anyone alone...
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Another day...
Very very ExtremelY exhausted toDAy... Can't open my eyes... While i was resting there, that IZWAN, very bad lor, shout my name very loud then i got a shOCked... SicKo.. Haha
Reading readers' digest, i was totally dozing off... On the way to PE, i couldn't even lift up my leg to walk properly.. But then, when PE started, went on court to play, initially was like sitting on the floor, then started running and i m no longer tired liao...
Back in class, a bit siao siao again, started singing, Linda can't stand, then i told her, i hab been like that for the past few years, Yuting was tolerating, and also singing with me... HA! Funny...
LAst night wor, 11+ went downstairs talk to Firdaus, he says he was going back to his parents' place, went pass my block then thought of APPLE.. It was then when i realised he was my DA kor's primary school Friend, together in scouts de.. HAhA, such coincidence... Yusoff was my kor's Primary school friend too.. The world is so small... They were my brother's friends, now they r my friends... HAHA!
Once again, 2 tests in a roll, one after another, SS and CL... Hai.. CL got such bad scores.. Heart pain wor... But consider hai hao le lah...
After school, went to MAc with yuting buy lunch... Back home, after eating, came in for a while, then feel very sian, so decided to go Westmall to look for Storybooks... Then, zHu was there, with his friends... I bought series 2 of the mediator by Meg cAbot, gonna get addicted once more... it's a very nice story, Meg cabot is a good AuThor... HEH! Then, sit there with them, talk talk, eat eat... When we walked out of Westmall, saw Kokhong and Silong again, they always hang around there, not surprise to see them.
Back home, dozed off on settee... Haha! It always happens...
Well, this time, the feeling is different, different from the one i previously had... Unexplainable.. Dunnoe y but i could feel the loVe at least... not crying for foolish reasons... Hope will go on bah...
I realised you've got a place in my heart..
Reading readers' digest, i was totally dozing off... On the way to PE, i couldn't even lift up my leg to walk properly.. But then, when PE started, went on court to play, initially was like sitting on the floor, then started running and i m no longer tired liao...
Back in class, a bit siao siao again, started singing, Linda can't stand, then i told her, i hab been like that for the past few years, Yuting was tolerating, and also singing with me... HA! Funny...
LAst night wor, 11+ went downstairs talk to Firdaus, he says he was going back to his parents' place, went pass my block then thought of APPLE.. It was then when i realised he was my DA kor's primary school Friend, together in scouts de.. HAhA, such coincidence... Yusoff was my kor's Primary school friend too.. The world is so small... They were my brother's friends, now they r my friends... HAHA!
Once again, 2 tests in a roll, one after another, SS and CL... Hai.. CL got such bad scores.. Heart pain wor... But consider hai hao le lah...
After school, went to MAc with yuting buy lunch... Back home, after eating, came in for a while, then feel very sian, so decided to go Westmall to look for Storybooks... Then, zHu was there, with his friends... I bought series 2 of the mediator by Meg cAbot, gonna get addicted once more... it's a very nice story, Meg cabot is a good AuThor... HEH! Then, sit there with them, talk talk, eat eat... When we walked out of Westmall, saw Kokhong and Silong again, they always hang around there, not surprise to see them.
Back home, dozed off on settee... Haha! It always happens...
Well, this time, the feeling is different, different from the one i previously had... Unexplainable.. Dunnoe y but i could feel the loVe at least... not crying for foolish reasons... Hope will go on bah...
I realised you've got a place in my heart..
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
MondaY bLuEs+reds....
Alright, packing up my emotions and went back to school. HaHA... I forgot to bring my MT txt today, and there's Chinese Spelling, can u believe it? But anyway, manage to borrow from friends and got the words in my head. Was very enthu bout stuff today, for some unknown reasons... Linda found me very weird. Well, i was. Dunnoe why, but still, a little bit of tiredness surrounds me. One more thing, learnt that there was CL prelim oral wor... Kao, didn't know at all..
Xiao qiang and Trish was forcing for an answer over Billy, HeH! Dun wanna tell them.. So FuNny... I guess, eventually there'll find out bah. Also, yu tried to dig it out, since we r such good friends, i feel that it's only right for me to tell her. Hee~
I was just wondering how would all this go... I'm given quite a bit of freedom and i lOve It... Hee~ I loVe to be free.. However, schoolworks still bugs me.. Bug... Making sure all the works are done, and are done correctly. I try to do it all right... O ya, got CL mock paper back, wah lao, can u believe or not, i only got 57/80 sia... Very sad lah, nv got so low leh... Was very sad, but after that, was fine le... HeH~
Recess, no honeydew, very sad... HAHA, i got so addicted to honeydew recently, YumMy! Then gave him his MP3 back... Bought a packet of tissue that is so big, no more small packet le...
After school, was a bit tired le, went downstairs buy some stuff to eat, at the same time, waiting for him to appear. And so he did... Went up to class, totally chaotic up there, dunnoe wad they were playing... SiAo.. Hee~ Didn't joined in coz i started to get nervous bout Oral coz i'm the 1st ONE!!!! ArGh!!!! However, Oral was quite easy lah... Teacher was Mr Yang Guang ShAn.. Hee~ he quite a good teacher lah.. His teaching very good. So after that, was waiting for yuting to finish, in the meantime, completing some homework.
Now, i'm very tired... Watching tv.. LAter gonna complete 5 maths qns and study for CL test. I guess that will end my day.
Ciao!
I've been thinking about your every moves...
Xiao qiang and Trish was forcing for an answer over Billy, HeH! Dun wanna tell them.. So FuNny... I guess, eventually there'll find out bah. Also, yu tried to dig it out, since we r such good friends, i feel that it's only right for me to tell her. Hee~
I was just wondering how would all this go... I'm given quite a bit of freedom and i lOve It... Hee~ I loVe to be free.. However, schoolworks still bugs me.. Bug... Making sure all the works are done, and are done correctly. I try to do it all right... O ya, got CL mock paper back, wah lao, can u believe or not, i only got 57/80 sia... Very sad lah, nv got so low leh... Was very sad, but after that, was fine le... HeH~
Recess, no honeydew, very sad... HAHA, i got so addicted to honeydew recently, YumMy! Then gave him his MP3 back... Bought a packet of tissue that is so big, no more small packet le...
After school, was a bit tired le, went downstairs buy some stuff to eat, at the same time, waiting for him to appear. And so he did... Went up to class, totally chaotic up there, dunnoe wad they were playing... SiAo.. Hee~ Didn't joined in coz i started to get nervous bout Oral coz i'm the 1st ONE!!!! ArGh!!!! However, Oral was quite easy lah... Teacher was Mr Yang Guang ShAn.. Hee~ he quite a good teacher lah.. His teaching very good. So after that, was waiting for yuting to finish, in the meantime, completing some homework.
Now, i'm very tired... Watching tv.. LAter gonna complete 5 maths qns and study for CL test. I guess that will end my day.
Ciao!
I've been thinking about your every moves...
Monday, April 18, 2005
Bear with it, it's long.
Woke up early yesterday to go OHS HR write application form. Really tired wor, after Friday's match, muscle ache all over. While i'm walking to the bus-stop, Chung EE called, unexpectedly. He wanted to inform me that HR closes at 1pm, but told him i already knew. However, he's hidden motive is to ask me bout Billy... HaHA... So CUtE. Well, talked to him a bit, and hung up.
Once again, the bus-ride was bumpy, wanted to vomit wor... Good thing brought some sweets along, arbo the bus will be full of dirt. HAhA! I was so happy when i saw GLENEAGLES hospital coz it means i'm reaching OHS liao... There, called Cheryl, told her i'm gonna write FoRm lIAo... End of it, it's only 12+... Walk around till i really can't stand liao, SmS Billy, asked him to come down pei me. In the end, wait till 2 then he appeared... So sad... Then, we sat there and wait for Chung ee... very sian, went into Shaw House, walk around.
When Chung EE arrives, went to Orchard tower to eat. After that, go work. In the locker, saw some friends, heh, happy... Somehow too tired to talk too much. But did crap a bit lor. Afterwhich, went up to office to put my bag. Went upstairs.
Once i stepped in, Wee Loon asked to change the table cloth... So Sick.. No choice, change it with a China trainee... Then, went on to listen to briefing, Chris said something bout having a D&D/chalet for part-timers like us, bout August? We'll see... It's then, when i saw Bt Kor kOr... Didn't expect him to be there coz i thought he was on leave. But nvm. I day-dream quite a bit last night, maybe coz too tired liao. 1st, was posted to YusoFF's station there... Yusoff very bad lor, 4 tables(it's ok, coz everyone got 4), then, near VIP tables... Cannot be drink server.. very sad. Wad's more?? He asked me to go Usher, when Bt kor say he wants 1 usher, 1 cocktail... Very bad sia.. Then Lawrence stand there laugh laugh, and said "Go lah, u got no choice." Wah Lao... Long time never go back then they bully me... Sad... HAi.. Then, when i walked out, i complained to Chung Ee and Billy... HAhA!!! FuNNy..
So went to usher. 2nd level, bt kor said. After that, yuSoff came and said go level1, so i did. Didn't wanna go, but since i've already suffered, no harm suffering more... Ha! Lots of things happened at level1. A lot of people come asked me things that i hab not much idea bout. 1 came and asked bout 17th storey thingy, so i just say, "u can try the lifts there." 2, a lot came to asked where Huating is, good thing i know. 3, got 1 lady came to asked me, can she go thru the building to reach duno wad street, then i say, "O, u can go thru the shopping Arcade." very ANg MoH... 4, one ang moh came to ask " I would like to get a bouquet of flowers, do u know where i can get 1?" I'm like, "huh? i have no idea, but i'll help u ask.." He's like so happy bout it. So i looked around, see got anyone, i know that i can asked. In the end, bo lang, but i saw the F&B ang moh... Very paiseh-ly, went to asked "Sir, can i asked u a question? The guest over there wants to buy a bouquet of flowers, do u know where they can get 1?" When he talk, i'm like, WAH!!!!!! Coz he sound so SINGAPORE!!!!! HAHAHA!!!! Then he was saying something bout Francis, so i complete it for him "Francis Cheong?" And he said, yesyes... So i lead the guest to Francis Cheong... After that, rushed back to usher. 5, one ang moh uncle, was pushing his wife on a wheel chair, when he saw so many pple going up the escalator, he asked "Wad's happening upstairs?" I told him " There's a function going on, a D&D" He said "O ic" Then asked again, "wad is it?", then i said "It's a company's Dinner and Dance." He nodded, then walked away... So weird. hAha... These were wad happened while ushering... Finally, yusoff came, say can go up liao.. I'm like, my back breaking liao wor... He said "MI TOO!" wad The!
Upstairs, busy pouring tea and checking all around... Talked to Lawrence, told him he gained weight, told him not nice leh... Then he suan me back. Sian..He's quite a nice Pig actually, OpPs! Did i say PIG? OMg, nono, its person. HAha! Pick-up time, was totally tired by then. Outside ballroom, was standing there waiting, crap a bit with loon.. Then i too tired liao, so stand there, close eyes, rest. Guess wad happened? I actually dozed off, while standing with a large platter on my hand. heh! then open my eyes with shock, Loon say " Wah lao, i yawn only, li kun ar!" Then i say, " scold me lah!" Then he say he never scold, then i say "Beat me lah!" Then he used his walkie-talkie, tell the people to give a person by the name of Apple a hard time.. I'm like, didn't press the button one, but nv say out. Hee~ Funny...
So the event went on, i'm doing stuff like i usually did. So it just went on like that.. End of it all, i was totally beat,my leg pain, back hurting. Can't stand. Yusoff let us off, i said bye to him. Went over to asked Billy and Chung ee can go bo, then they still can't so i helped Billy tied the napkins. Then i went over to say bye to Lawrence and said "WiLl miss U O!" HeH, then he laugh laugh... BillY saw it wor... HAha!!
They went to take lift while i went to office take bag. On escalator, saw Firdaus, said bye to him, he using phone, ignored me.. sAd.. Then i turned around, dun care.. He pressed my Shoulder to show that he heard me... Wah Lao, very hard wor.. PaIn...
Downstairs, i'm dying, changed slowly, untie hair slowly.. Let Ee and biLly wait.. heH! Waiting to get pay. Took le, saw Firdaus again and said Bye To Him once more. Went to orchard tower eat, didn't eat coz not hungry.. After that went back wait for transport. erm.. Said sorry to bt kor coz nv see him, didn't say bYe to him, he say nvm and said something which i'm so touched... To think he thought bout it... HeH! Till 1.30pm, finally can go back le... on the van, felt tired.. rest a little.. Reached home, bath, informed, sleep.
Early in the morning, forgot wad i dreamt bout but i started crying, haha.. Woke up feeling puzzled.. But went on to sleep. Till 1 then wake up... Typing this since then.
And so, that's everything that happened yesterday, now going to do homework le.
Having you by me side tops everything else.
Once again, the bus-ride was bumpy, wanted to vomit wor... Good thing brought some sweets along, arbo the bus will be full of dirt. HAhA! I was so happy when i saw GLENEAGLES hospital coz it means i'm reaching OHS liao... There, called Cheryl, told her i'm gonna write FoRm lIAo... End of it, it's only 12+... Walk around till i really can't stand liao, SmS Billy, asked him to come down pei me. In the end, wait till 2 then he appeared... So sad... Then, we sat there and wait for Chung ee... very sian, went into Shaw House, walk around.
When Chung EE arrives, went to Orchard tower to eat. After that, go work. In the locker, saw some friends, heh, happy... Somehow too tired to talk too much. But did crap a bit lor. Afterwhich, went up to office to put my bag. Went upstairs.
Once i stepped in, Wee Loon asked to change the table cloth... So Sick.. No choice, change it with a China trainee... Then, went on to listen to briefing, Chris said something bout having a D&D/chalet for part-timers like us, bout August? We'll see... It's then, when i saw Bt Kor kOr... Didn't expect him to be there coz i thought he was on leave. But nvm. I day-dream quite a bit last night, maybe coz too tired liao. 1st, was posted to YusoFF's station there... Yusoff very bad lor, 4 tables(it's ok, coz everyone got 4), then, near VIP tables... Cannot be drink server.. very sad. Wad's more?? He asked me to go Usher, when Bt kor say he wants 1 usher, 1 cocktail... Very bad sia.. Then Lawrence stand there laugh laugh, and said "Go lah, u got no choice." Wah Lao... Long time never go back then they bully me... Sad... HAi.. Then, when i walked out, i complained to Chung Ee and Billy... HAhA!!! FuNNy..
So went to usher. 2nd level, bt kor said. After that, yuSoff came and said go level1, so i did. Didn't wanna go, but since i've already suffered, no harm suffering more... Ha! Lots of things happened at level1. A lot of people come asked me things that i hab not much idea bout. 1 came and asked bout 17th storey thingy, so i just say, "u can try the lifts there." 2, a lot came to asked where Huating is, good thing i know. 3, got 1 lady came to asked me, can she go thru the building to reach duno wad street, then i say, "O, u can go thru the shopping Arcade." very ANg MoH... 4, one ang moh came to ask " I would like to get a bouquet of flowers, do u know where i can get 1?" I'm like, "huh? i have no idea, but i'll help u ask.." He's like so happy bout it. So i looked around, see got anyone, i know that i can asked. In the end, bo lang, but i saw the F&B ang moh... Very paiseh-ly, went to asked "Sir, can i asked u a question? The guest over there wants to buy a bouquet of flowers, do u know where they can get 1?" When he talk, i'm like, WAH!!!!!! Coz he sound so SINGAPORE!!!!! HAHAHA!!!! Then he was saying something bout Francis, so i complete it for him "Francis Cheong?" And he said, yesyes... So i lead the guest to Francis Cheong... After that, rushed back to usher. 5, one ang moh uncle, was pushing his wife on a wheel chair, when he saw so many pple going up the escalator, he asked "Wad's happening upstairs?" I told him " There's a function going on, a D&D" He said "O ic" Then asked again, "wad is it?", then i said "It's a company's Dinner and Dance." He nodded, then walked away... So weird. hAha... These were wad happened while ushering... Finally, yusoff came, say can go up liao.. I'm like, my back breaking liao wor... He said "MI TOO!" wad The!
Upstairs, busy pouring tea and checking all around... Talked to Lawrence, told him he gained weight, told him not nice leh... Then he suan me back. Sian..He's quite a nice Pig actually, OpPs! Did i say PIG? OMg, nono, its person. HAha! Pick-up time, was totally tired by then. Outside ballroom, was standing there waiting, crap a bit with loon.. Then i too tired liao, so stand there, close eyes, rest. Guess wad happened? I actually dozed off, while standing with a large platter on my hand. heh! then open my eyes with shock, Loon say " Wah lao, i yawn only, li kun ar!" Then i say, " scold me lah!" Then he say he never scold, then i say "Beat me lah!" Then he used his walkie-talkie, tell the people to give a person by the name of Apple a hard time.. I'm like, didn't press the button one, but nv say out. Hee~ Funny...
So the event went on, i'm doing stuff like i usually did. So it just went on like that.. End of it all, i was totally beat,my leg pain, back hurting. Can't stand. Yusoff let us off, i said bye to him. Went over to asked Billy and Chung ee can go bo, then they still can't so i helped Billy tied the napkins. Then i went over to say bye to Lawrence and said "WiLl miss U O!" HeH, then he laugh laugh... BillY saw it wor... HAha!!
They went to take lift while i went to office take bag. On escalator, saw Firdaus, said bye to him, he using phone, ignored me.. sAd.. Then i turned around, dun care.. He pressed my Shoulder to show that he heard me... Wah Lao, very hard wor.. PaIn...
Downstairs, i'm dying, changed slowly, untie hair slowly.. Let Ee and biLly wait.. heH! Waiting to get pay. Took le, saw Firdaus again and said Bye To Him once more. Went to orchard tower eat, didn't eat coz not hungry.. After that went back wait for transport. erm.. Said sorry to bt kor coz nv see him, didn't say bYe to him, he say nvm and said something which i'm so touched... To think he thought bout it... HeH! Till 1.30pm, finally can go back le... on the van, felt tired.. rest a little.. Reached home, bath, informed, sleep.
Early in the morning, forgot wad i dreamt bout but i started crying, haha.. Woke up feeling puzzled.. But went on to sleep. Till 1 then wake up... Typing this since then.
And so, that's everything that happened yesterday, now going to do homework le.
Having you by me side tops everything else.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Ciao Netball! Here i Come "O"
School was almost the same, except I'm a bit tired lah... D&T period, Ping hong came over to sit with me... ermm.... I think he knew that Ming2 doesn't really like him... NVM, at least he still got me, the 9yrs friend... Hee~ So i did the paper with him lor... Was very tired, but try to work with him.. And basically we did, faster than excepted. Was talking to YUting bout the THING, and she kinda opposes for the fact that i might not pei her... Hee~ Funny... But i'm still thinking lah...
Mt,Chem, maths and EL, was pretty good... Miss Teo was telling us the real meaning of international friendship day. It is the day everyone across the world commemorate the ties countries between countries made and not friends and friends... HahA... It's more on the political and economical edge lah... Then she go on to say that initially when we celebrate this day is the day when Spore joined the UN. She told us all of this cos she dun wan us to leave Hillgrove without knowing the true meaning of International friendship day... Hee~ Well, now we know.
Last period, Chemistry, at the end of it, ting turned around and laugh at me, i tot she wanted to ask me whether wanna tell Miss Wang we need to go bo, in the end it's coz she saw Billy outside.. HAha... So funny... yesterday was like that, recess was like that... So FunNy...
Netball...Was having a slight headache and can't really concentrate when doing warm-up... However, after the pour, i'm feeling better. The game started and i was running all around. I didn't do well for the 1st part of the 1st quarter, knew that coz i felt how i played. Sad, but ended well. 2nd part of 1st quarter, maintain the right stuff... I actually throw one of the ball wrongly lor, it ji tao went out of court, felt very bad bout it... But, no choice, carried on. Last quarter, the GS very EEEEEEE... keep acting like she very popular like that, kept on talking to guys, then i'm like, please, we're playing a game here leh... Wadever... She a bit weak lah, tries to shake me away by swaying her body left and right but i'm still able to block her.. MUHAHAHA!!!! Though we lost in the end, i think it was one of the best game played. 3 games played well, 2games so-so, 1 game won. That's the conclusion for netball this year. For the very 1st time, i dedicated all of myself into it. Today, the game seems very short, dunnoe y, maybe coz it's the last or maybe it's raining... O ya, we got drenched in the 2nd-quarter coz it was raining but we carried on playing... Hee~ Hope wun get sick lah..
Back in school, we celebrated or should i say a farewell party for coach and us? Well, coach is leaving, we r leaving as well... there's a cake, 4 pizzas, and uncountable KFC.. Enjoying all of it, didn't eat much coz stomach is full of water. They took the cake and smashed onto coach's face then it went to some girls, i was not kana,but out of no where, Amy took some cream and rub on my arm, and i'm like, SHIT!!! NVM lah, fun... Later, got a gift from juniors, it was so nice, didn't wanna read the letter coz afraid i might just cried but i hold my tears back, trying to be strong, HAHA!!! The gift was a surprise coz i didn't know they would give me and ting.. I was surprised. It was nice, a small T-shirt with my name, a netball, and my position on it... Amazing... They put in some effort, i was very very happy. Satisfied with my juniors. They wanted to do the splash water thing, but ting and me escaped it, went home... It was fun being with all of them. Will never forget every single day that i've had with them. :D
At home, was a bit tired, muscle started to ache despite warm-ups, well, it always happens, so nvm. Did pretty much nothing and just sit there watch TV. Billy msg and ask again.. Hee~ PaISEH!
Tml going back to work.. troublesome, gotta go before 1pm to write the form, coz HR closes at 1pm. Wah lao, wad if booking only got 5pm, then at Orchard do nothing wor... Sian... Must wake up early in the morning. NVM, bring my maths there. Very funny hor, working and i'm gonna bring maths to do, coz sunday i dun think i can finish the set lor... So bo bian... Can u understand my pain?! HAHA...
Today, i'm considered hyper+unhyper bah... Totally dying in the morning, but was crazy during match. I was singing all the way lor then the Shawn kept on kicking me... HAHA.. Juniors nowadays dunnoe how to respect one, XiuyiNg also. Tao Yan Lah... NVM, i'm senior, so i let them be... See! How kind am i to let them off... HeH!
Still pretty sad that it's the last match, put a lot of effort into it. It is the only match which i kept shouting JIA YOU!!! HAHA!!! I did shout b4 but not so many times lah. Today, juniors very good too... Learnt from Mas, the kneeling pass, haha... New addition to our passes... Hee~ Overall, everyone improved throughout the whole semester. Carry on BAH!
Ok, while netball girls are still striving hard. Apple me, old GK, Senior will be retiring, stepping down. Rest of the year, no more distraction, gonna StArt working hard for Exams le... Well, there is already some distraction liao lor... HAHA! However, just gonna carry it on this way, living like that is the best. O level is still the most important. Gonna concentrate on Maths And chinese liao, grades falling le... I very sad... Come to think of it, it's not just the 2, its all... ARGH!!!! I'm gonna go crazy! Wad to do? Jia yOU bah.
Anyway, there's something that makes me feel happy and that thing made me free of worries too... I'm glad, in the midst, there is something to make me feel good. Heee~
Well, that's bout it all. Netball, Goodbye, gonna missed it. O level, i'm coming to conquer u, so dun run away. "other stuff" well, hope u'll understand bah!
My heart went that way....
Mt,Chem, maths and EL, was pretty good... Miss Teo was telling us the real meaning of international friendship day. It is the day everyone across the world commemorate the ties countries between countries made and not friends and friends... HahA... It's more on the political and economical edge lah... Then she go on to say that initially when we celebrate this day is the day when Spore joined the UN. She told us all of this cos she dun wan us to leave Hillgrove without knowing the true meaning of International friendship day... Hee~ Well, now we know.
Last period, Chemistry, at the end of it, ting turned around and laugh at me, i tot she wanted to ask me whether wanna tell Miss Wang we need to go bo, in the end it's coz she saw Billy outside.. HAha... So funny... yesterday was like that, recess was like that... So FunNy...
Netball...Was having a slight headache and can't really concentrate when doing warm-up... However, after the pour, i'm feeling better. The game started and i was running all around. I didn't do well for the 1st part of the 1st quarter, knew that coz i felt how i played. Sad, but ended well. 2nd part of 1st quarter, maintain the right stuff... I actually throw one of the ball wrongly lor, it ji tao went out of court, felt very bad bout it... But, no choice, carried on. Last quarter, the GS very EEEEEEE... keep acting like she very popular like that, kept on talking to guys, then i'm like, please, we're playing a game here leh... Wadever... She a bit weak lah, tries to shake me away by swaying her body left and right but i'm still able to block her.. MUHAHAHA!!!! Though we lost in the end, i think it was one of the best game played. 3 games played well, 2games so-so, 1 game won. That's the conclusion for netball this year. For the very 1st time, i dedicated all of myself into it. Today, the game seems very short, dunnoe y, maybe coz it's the last or maybe it's raining... O ya, we got drenched in the 2nd-quarter coz it was raining but we carried on playing... Hee~ Hope wun get sick lah..
Back in school, we celebrated or should i say a farewell party for coach and us? Well, coach is leaving, we r leaving as well... there's a cake, 4 pizzas, and uncountable KFC.. Enjoying all of it, didn't eat much coz stomach is full of water. They took the cake and smashed onto coach's face then it went to some girls, i was not kana,but out of no where, Amy took some cream and rub on my arm, and i'm like, SHIT!!! NVM lah, fun... Later, got a gift from juniors, it was so nice, didn't wanna read the letter coz afraid i might just cried but i hold my tears back, trying to be strong, HAHA!!! The gift was a surprise coz i didn't know they would give me and ting.. I was surprised. It was nice, a small T-shirt with my name, a netball, and my position on it... Amazing... They put in some effort, i was very very happy. Satisfied with my juniors. They wanted to do the splash water thing, but ting and me escaped it, went home... It was fun being with all of them. Will never forget every single day that i've had with them. :D
At home, was a bit tired, muscle started to ache despite warm-ups, well, it always happens, so nvm. Did pretty much nothing and just sit there watch TV. Billy msg and ask again.. Hee~ PaISEH!
Tml going back to work.. troublesome, gotta go before 1pm to write the form, coz HR closes at 1pm. Wah lao, wad if booking only got 5pm, then at Orchard do nothing wor... Sian... Must wake up early in the morning. NVM, bring my maths there. Very funny hor, working and i'm gonna bring maths to do, coz sunday i dun think i can finish the set lor... So bo bian... Can u understand my pain?! HAHA...
Today, i'm considered hyper+unhyper bah... Totally dying in the morning, but was crazy during match. I was singing all the way lor then the Shawn kept on kicking me... HAHA.. Juniors nowadays dunnoe how to respect one, XiuyiNg also. Tao Yan Lah... NVM, i'm senior, so i let them be... See! How kind am i to let them off... HeH!
Still pretty sad that it's the last match, put a lot of effort into it. It is the only match which i kept shouting JIA YOU!!! HAHA!!! I did shout b4 but not so many times lah. Today, juniors very good too... Learnt from Mas, the kneeling pass, haha... New addition to our passes... Hee~ Overall, everyone improved throughout the whole semester. Carry on BAH!
Ok, while netball girls are still striving hard. Apple me, old GK, Senior will be retiring, stepping down. Rest of the year, no more distraction, gonna StArt working hard for Exams le... Well, there is already some distraction liao lor... HAHA! However, just gonna carry it on this way, living like that is the best. O level is still the most important. Gonna concentrate on Maths And chinese liao, grades falling le... I very sad... Come to think of it, it's not just the 2, its all... ARGH!!!! I'm gonna go crazy! Wad to do? Jia yOU bah.
Anyway, there's something that makes me feel happy and that thing made me free of worries too... I'm glad, in the midst, there is something to make me feel good. Heee~
Well, that's bout it all. Netball, Goodbye, gonna missed it. O level, i'm coming to conquer u, so dun run away. "other stuff" well, hope u'll understand bah!
My heart went that way....
Friday, April 15, 2005
tHE DAyS R........
So i guess the days just went by... Well, nothing much to write so told myself not to come in and put craps on... heH...
Received a mail from ting, telling me to press on... And well, i certainly am trying hard to...Hope she is too... She's a bit crazy today once again... During NAFA test, she accidentally bang onto a guy then she went to hug a girl who she tot was me? How can it be? So different... But very funny... HAhA, laugh the hell outta me... HeH! Still the hyper heR... CAn't stand but happy that she's still her...
Once again, i'm gonna bitch bout MatH's teacher! She! Maths test must go AVA room Do! WTF... YA, air-con, comfortable but hey, it's test we r doing, not going there to relax sia... The fucking table so small lor, can't even put my pencil case there, end up everything drop here drop there... Very SuX lOr... Trish asked her y must she bring us to different places just to do test then her face ji tao change, say it's coz got 2 classes and blah blah blah... EXCUSE!!!! PLAIN EXCUSE!! She just wanna make fancy things outta our simple life lor... We hab been living simply b4 she arrives but now, she tries to make it fancy thinking that we might like it but the god damn truth is, WE DUN!!! k, not to deny that she's quite a good teacher, just not to our standard. Coz for the last 4 years, Mrs Loo had been there, she has been our pillar of support, the stuffs she gave were all sufficient and taught, and we all know. However, with her, every chapter we learnt, we have doubts and it seems like she can't solve our doubts... She gave us too much time for every single work and we just got so laG.. Well, maybe we should buck up ourselves baH... Sad.. Just now, told Subash this then he said can go asked him, end up he's telling me that all teachers hab double degrees, and he has a Maths degree... ya, maybe should approach him when doubts arise.
Also, Humanities, not doing well with it lor... Hai... Dunno can achieve my target bo... The once top-scorer is now falling under... Hai... really need to work, very not used to Miss Ang teaching method wOr... Sad....
NAFA today, felt very uneasy bout everything, but manage to break some records that i've set... HeH, hAppY.. Went to Li Xiao TeRRy tAn a bit.. HeE, his reaction very cute, haven't talked to this friend of mine for a long long time liao.. He told me bout Silong, that he's not working, kind of looking for jobs.. Then, i went to asked Ping hong Wad happened, then he said, he dun wanna work at Kok hong there liao, for some reasons that i shall not exposed... Was thinking of helping him get into OHS to work, told ting bout it, but she kind of said Silong not cut out to be BAnquet.. Well, dun wanna bother with that, if i'm going to work again, will help Silong lor, coz he's not studying le then got nothing to do, quite sad lah, so should help him...
Ermm.. He told me something today and it made me feel quite ermm.. How to say... Surprised? Dunnoe how to describe that feeling, just weird bah... HeH...
SAw a person that walks like bt kor, as tall as he his, hairstyle same... Wondering was it him bo but nv went up to see, coz tired to run up so msg kor to asked, he say no lah... And kind of paiseh, always mistook someone else as him.. HAHA!!! Ermm.. I Shall Not Disturb him liao le lah, coz he got exam to study and many other things to do... JUst let him finish his stuff 1st... But, truely, missed ah kor a lot coz of certain reasons... HAi... Sad hoR?!
getting real emotional with Netball thingy, leaving leaving leaving!!!!!!!!!!! Last time, i hate trainings, now i just want more of it... But no more le.... Tomorrow last game liao... Gonna HAb a small party at school tml... HAhA!!! We'll just see how all of us will end up...
O MY GOD, HE'S ASKING A QN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Received a mail from ting, telling me to press on... And well, i certainly am trying hard to...Hope she is too... She's a bit crazy today once again... During NAFA test, she accidentally bang onto a guy then she went to hug a girl who she tot was me? How can it be? So different... But very funny... HAhA, laugh the hell outta me... HeH! Still the hyper heR... CAn't stand but happy that she's still her...
Once again, i'm gonna bitch bout MatH's teacher! She! Maths test must go AVA room Do! WTF... YA, air-con, comfortable but hey, it's test we r doing, not going there to relax sia... The fucking table so small lor, can't even put my pencil case there, end up everything drop here drop there... Very SuX lOr... Trish asked her y must she bring us to different places just to do test then her face ji tao change, say it's coz got 2 classes and blah blah blah... EXCUSE!!!! PLAIN EXCUSE!! She just wanna make fancy things outta our simple life lor... We hab been living simply b4 she arrives but now, she tries to make it fancy thinking that we might like it but the god damn truth is, WE DUN!!! k, not to deny that she's quite a good teacher, just not to our standard. Coz for the last 4 years, Mrs Loo had been there, she has been our pillar of support, the stuffs she gave were all sufficient and taught, and we all know. However, with her, every chapter we learnt, we have doubts and it seems like she can't solve our doubts... She gave us too much time for every single work and we just got so laG.. Well, maybe we should buck up ourselves baH... Sad.. Just now, told Subash this then he said can go asked him, end up he's telling me that all teachers hab double degrees, and he has a Maths degree... ya, maybe should approach him when doubts arise.
Also, Humanities, not doing well with it lor... Hai... Dunno can achieve my target bo... The once top-scorer is now falling under... Hai... really need to work, very not used to Miss Ang teaching method wOr... Sad....
NAFA today, felt very uneasy bout everything, but manage to break some records that i've set... HeH, hAppY.. Went to Li Xiao TeRRy tAn a bit.. HeE, his reaction very cute, haven't talked to this friend of mine for a long long time liao.. He told me bout Silong, that he's not working, kind of looking for jobs.. Then, i went to asked Ping hong Wad happened, then he said, he dun wanna work at Kok hong there liao, for some reasons that i shall not exposed... Was thinking of helping him get into OHS to work, told ting bout it, but she kind of said Silong not cut out to be BAnquet.. Well, dun wanna bother with that, if i'm going to work again, will help Silong lor, coz he's not studying le then got nothing to do, quite sad lah, so should help him...
Ermm.. He told me something today and it made me feel quite ermm.. How to say... Surprised? Dunnoe how to describe that feeling, just weird bah... HeH...
SAw a person that walks like bt kor, as tall as he his, hairstyle same... Wondering was it him bo but nv went up to see, coz tired to run up so msg kor to asked, he say no lah... And kind of paiseh, always mistook someone else as him.. HAHA!!! Ermm.. I Shall Not Disturb him liao le lah, coz he got exam to study and many other things to do... JUst let him finish his stuff 1st... But, truely, missed ah kor a lot coz of certain reasons... HAi... Sad hoR?!
getting real emotional with Netball thingy, leaving leaving leaving!!!!!!!!!!! Last time, i hate trainings, now i just want more of it... But no more le.... Tomorrow last game liao... Gonna HAb a small party at school tml... HAhA!!! We'll just see how all of us will end up...
O MY GOD, HE'S ASKING A QN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Nothing much...
I'm kinda normal today... Neither jokes nor craps... Just me... i went to hug Fish... She's one of those that is very good to hug, so keep hugging her... Hee~
Everyone was very nervous bout the 2 tests today, while i am sitting there wondering y r they so nervous. Coz, 1 is mock the other is another test on the same chapter so i tot it would be ok not to focus, but they all make me nervous, in the end, i took out notes and go thru a bit... Not bad, quite discipline... Hee~
BIlly was bored in class, msg me, so chit chatted with him bout yesterday's oral exam, told him i cried... Then he said he'll pei me... But in turn, i'm the one pei-ing him to relieve his borednes... HaHA... Wadever... The other day i "HAi" his Com got virus, haha! Didn't mean it, didn't know my blog got so many virus, then i helped him DL anti-virus stuff... So PaISeh... Hee~ Then he kept on calling me and say " see lah, cannot go in liao... AppLe!! ZHu!!! AipIng!!" HAHA... Called all my names... So funny... Nowadays, he got very fond of calling me Zhu, then i got so used to it liao and always respond to him... SuX Wor... HaI... Just now, after his oral, he called to complain that he's gonna fail and blah blah blah and CHung EE was beside him, so i screamed " J*****R!" ThEn Chung Ee scold me... HAHA!!!! I'm CoOl!
Not much happened today, same old stuff going on with life so i just live it lor... Hao, later go and do some maths and do the thing we promised for coach... Just a small token for her hard work of training us for 4 yrs... hee~
CiAo...
I saw your face today, and I can't get my eyes off you. Can you stand by my side?
Everyone was very nervous bout the 2 tests today, while i am sitting there wondering y r they so nervous. Coz, 1 is mock the other is another test on the same chapter so i tot it would be ok not to focus, but they all make me nervous, in the end, i took out notes and go thru a bit... Not bad, quite discipline... Hee~
BIlly was bored in class, msg me, so chit chatted with him bout yesterday's oral exam, told him i cried... Then he said he'll pei me... But in turn, i'm the one pei-ing him to relieve his borednes... HaHA... Wadever... The other day i "HAi" his Com got virus, haha! Didn't mean it, didn't know my blog got so many virus, then i helped him DL anti-virus stuff... So PaISeh... Hee~ Then he kept on calling me and say " see lah, cannot go in liao... AppLe!! ZHu!!! AipIng!!" HAHA... Called all my names... So funny... Nowadays, he got very fond of calling me Zhu, then i got so used to it liao and always respond to him... SuX Wor... HaI... Just now, after his oral, he called to complain that he's gonna fail and blah blah blah and CHung EE was beside him, so i screamed " J*****R!" ThEn Chung Ee scold me... HAHA!!!! I'm CoOl!
Not much happened today, same old stuff going on with life so i just live it lor... Hao, later go and do some maths and do the thing we promised for coach... Just a small token for her hard work of training us for 4 yrs... hee~
CiAo...
I saw your face today, and I can't get my eyes off you. Can you stand by my side?
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Cannot make it lah...
1st time ever, crying during oral... Wah lao... Good thing it was Miss Ang, arbo i dunnoe wad to do sia... B4 that, i was wondering how come Cheryl was crying then i realised y.. Topic "Describe a time when u are alone", Sad... Describe until cry.. Hope it wun affect the marks bah cos i thought i did quite good for my reading..
Just now in class, stomach cramp until i can't focus sia... I'm like holding my stomach and i can't move at all, every little moves is hard... Pain... KAo, ren until the end of the day, go toilet "cake" a bit, then took medicine... After that, felt better... Now, still a bit pain...
To-do list: Physics TYS 3 qn. Maths P2 and transformation worksheet. Study, vectors and CL.... WAh LAo... SAD Lor...
TmL got 2 tests which i'm not prepared at all... Dunnoe wad to do, a bit disorganised this days...
Hai... Wad to do? can't do much, just try to do wad i can bah...
Well, how's this skin, find it simple, original but delicate... HeH HeH.... Will keep it... not going put things in le... That's it, the simple me...
Going to do stuff le.. CyA, bUai!
And once again, I wonder...
Just now in class, stomach cramp until i can't focus sia... I'm like holding my stomach and i can't move at all, every little moves is hard... Pain... KAo, ren until the end of the day, go toilet "cake" a bit, then took medicine... After that, felt better... Now, still a bit pain...
To-do list: Physics TYS 3 qn. Maths P2 and transformation worksheet. Study, vectors and CL.... WAh LAo... SAD Lor...
TmL got 2 tests which i'm not prepared at all... Dunnoe wad to do, a bit disorganised this days...
Hai... Wad to do? can't do much, just try to do wad i can bah...
Well, how's this skin, find it simple, original but delicate... HeH HeH.... Will keep it... not going put things in le... That's it, the simple me...
Going to do stuff le.. CyA, bUai!
And once again, I wonder...
Monday, April 11, 2005
Losing This battle
I'm beginning to lost faith once again... It seems like i wake up everyday, go school, come back, sleep, do homework... That's it... nothing much going on...
I missed a lot of people...
KoK hoNg, SilOng, Wei Yi, ShAuN, Bt KoR, TinGliNg, MelANie, Si En, MeliSsa, Ai YinG, CinDy, DeSmoNd Tan... Somehow, thinking bout all of them makes me real SAd... I missed those days when we were together and having fun... No matter is it working or at school... Y can't this days carry on? I question myself...
Also, i missed Ting, trish, Yuting... They're not who they were... Maybe I'm not who i was too.. but I just can't bear to see those old things fade away... I just missed all of that...
Ziyang... Suddenly thought of him.. A guy that made a lot of difference in my life... I missed him in particular... Where is he? I really am thInking of him...
Sometimes, being human is not a good thing at all... Emotions Sux moSt of all... Y do we have all this emotions? Y? I............... Have nothing more to say... Thats life...
Once again, i tried to move on, but it seems to no avail... Question mark comes to me everytime a new chapter begins.
Can there be someone out there to make me happier? can there?? I wonder.... Y is life so dramatic? Y can't it be plain with a little bit of sparkle once in a while... I dun wanna Give up on anything.. Everything in my life is something, in both ways. I can't live without any of them... Can't do without...
Acting crazy, acting happy, acting myself.... I'm not an actor... Must i act at all??? Can someone give me that answer... The answer that might just open that unsolved puzzle... Please.. I plead for that person to appear... right before me...
That desire is almost gone.. I want that drive once more or i will not be able to carry on this life... That Substance i seek... i seek...
I guess, i still gotta carry it on... Tomorrow will be another day.. Plain and tedious.
I try to go on like I never knew... I'm awake, but my world is half-asleep, I pray for this heart to be unbroken, for without all of you, I'm going to be as incomplete... Awaiting the answer to my life..
I missed a lot of people...
KoK hoNg, SilOng, Wei Yi, ShAuN, Bt KoR, TinGliNg, MelANie, Si En, MeliSsa, Ai YinG, CinDy, DeSmoNd Tan... Somehow, thinking bout all of them makes me real SAd... I missed those days when we were together and having fun... No matter is it working or at school... Y can't this days carry on? I question myself...
Also, i missed Ting, trish, Yuting... They're not who they were... Maybe I'm not who i was too.. but I just can't bear to see those old things fade away... I just missed all of that...
Ziyang... Suddenly thought of him.. A guy that made a lot of difference in my life... I missed him in particular... Where is he? I really am thInking of him...
Sometimes, being human is not a good thing at all... Emotions Sux moSt of all... Y do we have all this emotions? Y? I............... Have nothing more to say... Thats life...
Once again, i tried to move on, but it seems to no avail... Question mark comes to me everytime a new chapter begins.
Can there be someone out there to make me happier? can there?? I wonder.... Y is life so dramatic? Y can't it be plain with a little bit of sparkle once in a while... I dun wanna Give up on anything.. Everything in my life is something, in both ways. I can't live without any of them... Can't do without...
Acting crazy, acting happy, acting myself.... I'm not an actor... Must i act at all??? Can someone give me that answer... The answer that might just open that unsolved puzzle... Please.. I plead for that person to appear... right before me...
That desire is almost gone.. I want that drive once more or i will not be able to carry on this life... That Substance i seek... i seek...
I guess, i still gotta carry it on... Tomorrow will be another day.. Plain and tedious.
I try to go on like I never knew... I'm awake, but my world is half-asleep, I pray for this heart to be unbroken, for without all of you, I'm going to be as incomplete... Awaiting the answer to my life..
Sunday, April 10, 2005
MuHAHA
The night was great... Went out with him and have dInner.. Well, he got so much to talk bout wor...
After that, saw kokhong weiyi and terry..HAHA
Then, saw something wor.. In my Hp memory now... HAHAHAHHA!!! Something real INTERESTING!!!!!
MuHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! I can be secret agent liao....
k, the day was awesome overall, meeting so many pple... Hab Lost of fUn!!!!!
After that, saw kokhong weiyi and terry..HAHA
Then, saw something wor.. In my Hp memory now... HAHAHAHHA!!! Something real INTERESTING!!!!!
MuHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! I can be secret agent liao....
k, the day was awesome overall, meeting so many pple... Hab Lost of fUn!!!!!
OMG
Oh MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm listening to BAckstreet boys' new single!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally, after waiting for 5 yrs, they're really back!!! It feels so good to hear them together agin... The song sounds awesome... "incomplete".. They are indeed so... O mY GoD!! I missed them but they're back.. i cannot believe that this day would come again.. But it did.. I felt incredibly shOcked!!!!!! They're gonna make a big hit once again! FOr always!!!
Well, last night, i kind of deleted my template and everything was gone.. I went to search for skins, but it seems that nothing suit my taste... Then, it comes down to this... DeViliSh skin, ok lah.. Still can make it... wIll change the music ASAP!
Netball was great yesterday, although we lost but Coach was happy that we all play according to wad we have learnt... At the end of the whole thing, she gave some talks about next friday... Its gonna be the last match this team will play together.. Felt a bit sad that everything is gonna end liao... She said: "I'm glad to see all of u getting along really well, like, Ai Ping can go around and Li xiAo geraldina despite ur age.." When she said that, that was pretty much when i started thinking, ya, Geraldina is my Junior... hee~ Hai... Looking back, I dun really treat them as juniors or think of myself as senior, until this year, when the express ones graduated, and ting and I are the only ones left then i realised that i should act like a senior... Especially during times when ting did not turn up when she's sick, it seems like all of them are looking at me for instructions... Yesterday as well, while doing Warm-up, Marianne was actually the one that was leading, suddenly, she and Hui mUi turn to me and say "we think it's more approporiate for u to lead the warm-up, since u r the oldest" I was like, nobody ever told me that b4, not when i was in the previous team... A bit heartening... Leaving is always hard but somehow, it is a MUST for every life... i gotta go through it...
Today went to visit some graves, qing ming, go bai bai... Erm.. quite a long trip but at the end of it, didn't feel very tired... Once again, when we visited Ah gong's grave, Ah mah's eyes turn red.. Though she never seems to feel much normally when we talked bout ah Gong but everytime, when we visited ah gong's grave, Ah mah will tear... Well, no matter wad, they are a couple once, and they've loved each other, being the one left behind, Ah mah will definitely be sad.. Although she has got so many filial children, i guess it is different from having someone always beside u and understanding u.. Sometimes, really wanna go comfort her, but my Hokkien not good, can only say " Mai Kao lah Ah mah" HAi... Incompetence...
Ok, later gonna go hab dinner with him... Hungry liao le.. Still gotta wait.. HAi....
BACKSTREET BOYS ARE BACK... Listening to their song once again kind of bring me back to 5 years ago, when i was only 12, buying every single thing that they've got, and chasing fashion like nobody's business... Those times were great, missed those days... Now i'm still able to do everything that i did back then, but, a little bit lesser bah... Their voice, their song, unexplainable feeling....
The feelings surge inside of me. I can't explain it at all. Maybe when u've lost something for a long time and when it comes back, u'll feel it too...
Well, last night, i kind of deleted my template and everything was gone.. I went to search for skins, but it seems that nothing suit my taste... Then, it comes down to this... DeViliSh skin, ok lah.. Still can make it... wIll change the music ASAP!
Netball was great yesterday, although we lost but Coach was happy that we all play according to wad we have learnt... At the end of the whole thing, she gave some talks about next friday... Its gonna be the last match this team will play together.. Felt a bit sad that everything is gonna end liao... She said: "I'm glad to see all of u getting along really well, like, Ai Ping can go around and Li xiAo geraldina despite ur age.." When she said that, that was pretty much when i started thinking, ya, Geraldina is my Junior... hee~ Hai... Looking back, I dun really treat them as juniors or think of myself as senior, until this year, when the express ones graduated, and ting and I are the only ones left then i realised that i should act like a senior... Especially during times when ting did not turn up when she's sick, it seems like all of them are looking at me for instructions... Yesterday as well, while doing Warm-up, Marianne was actually the one that was leading, suddenly, she and Hui mUi turn to me and say "we think it's more approporiate for u to lead the warm-up, since u r the oldest" I was like, nobody ever told me that b4, not when i was in the previous team... A bit heartening... Leaving is always hard but somehow, it is a MUST for every life... i gotta go through it...
Today went to visit some graves, qing ming, go bai bai... Erm.. quite a long trip but at the end of it, didn't feel very tired... Once again, when we visited Ah gong's grave, Ah mah's eyes turn red.. Though she never seems to feel much normally when we talked bout ah Gong but everytime, when we visited ah gong's grave, Ah mah will tear... Well, no matter wad, they are a couple once, and they've loved each other, being the one left behind, Ah mah will definitely be sad.. Although she has got so many filial children, i guess it is different from having someone always beside u and understanding u.. Sometimes, really wanna go comfort her, but my Hokkien not good, can only say " Mai Kao lah Ah mah" HAi... Incompetence...
Ok, later gonna go hab dinner with him... Hungry liao le.. Still gotta wait.. HAi....
BACKSTREET BOYS ARE BACK... Listening to their song once again kind of bring me back to 5 years ago, when i was only 12, buying every single thing that they've got, and chasing fashion like nobody's business... Those times were great, missed those days... Now i'm still able to do everything that i did back then, but, a little bit lesser bah... Their voice, their song, unexplainable feeling....
The feelings surge inside of me. I can't explain it at all. Maybe when u've lost something for a long time and when it comes back, u'll feel it too...
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Another Side oF APpLE tEo is ReviewinG, Bit BY BIt... HeH
Everyone dun seem to be in good mood today... Teachers especially... Miss Teo not feeling well, when she explain, she like wanna kill us like that... Then Miss Chong also scold us.. Not scary Sia... I'm doing my own stuff then suddenly realised she's a bit angry like that.. HeH...
Ermm... everything was, well, as usual lor... A bit tired today, dunnoe y... So tired with everything sia... But still trying to crawl.. HeH HeH, crawl... Hee~
BuSy? TmL will be the beginning... Netball match, CL essay... Surely very tired de... But no choice.. Wun be any chance to be that busy in future le... Enjoy It Now... EnjOy? How to Sia... HahA, i'm crazy...
Today leh, heard someone called me ZHU again, but pretend nv hear, good tactiCs wor... HeH...
Crap a lot with friends in D&T room... RoNG HUN RONG HUN!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA... He got so pissed off with me... HAHA!!! Keep on li xiao-ing him... He's Nice to plAy wiTh... heE~
Like i told bt kor the other day, i'm getting real evil nowadays... Always looking for chance to li xiao pple.. EvIL aPPle... Tao YAn lOr... Yesterday was telling bt kor something, then he nv reply me.. I was waiting till i can't tong liao, fell asleep... TAo YAn lAh.. MAke me wait... GOT GIRL DUN WAN MEI AGAIN!!!!!! Very SAD!!!!!!!!!!!! Hai...
Not much detail to write le... It just goes on like that... everyday is the same... Just very sad that kor kor treat me like that... *Sob SoB* Other than that, i'm still going ard disturbing pple... Still the naughty me...
Does it matter that I'm all alone? Does it affect my life at all? Silent it is, boring, it may be but somehow, it is the thing that I desire...
Ermm... everything was, well, as usual lor... A bit tired today, dunnoe y... So tired with everything sia... But still trying to crawl.. HeH HeH, crawl... Hee~
BuSy? TmL will be the beginning... Netball match, CL essay... Surely very tired de... But no choice.. Wun be any chance to be that busy in future le... Enjoy It Now... EnjOy? How to Sia... HahA, i'm crazy...
Today leh, heard someone called me ZHU again, but pretend nv hear, good tactiCs wor... HeH...
Crap a lot with friends in D&T room... RoNG HUN RONG HUN!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA... He got so pissed off with me... HAHA!!! Keep on li xiao-ing him... He's Nice to plAy wiTh... heE~
Like i told bt kor the other day, i'm getting real evil nowadays... Always looking for chance to li xiao pple.. EvIL aPPle... Tao YAn lOr... Yesterday was telling bt kor something, then he nv reply me.. I was waiting till i can't tong liao, fell asleep... TAo YAn lAh.. MAke me wait... GOT GIRL DUN WAN MEI AGAIN!!!!!! Very SAD!!!!!!!!!!!! Hai...
Not much detail to write le... It just goes on like that... everyday is the same... Just very sad that kor kor treat me like that... *Sob SoB* Other than that, i'm still going ard disturbing pple... Still the naughty me...
Does it matter that I'm all alone? Does it affect my life at all? Silent it is, boring, it may be but somehow, it is the thing that I desire...
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Light, I seek...
5th April, it's ting BD today.. Bout 12 am, i sent her a msg wishing her HappY Birthday... Glad she felt it.. Heh... 7am, at school, was sitting there when she came, wanted to give her the present but then hesitated, tot i could li xiao her a bit but later, when yu came, she passed her present to her then, i can't li xiao le.. Hai... So i took out the present, gave it to her.. It was much smaller than the one yu they all bought for her but of cos ,a lot of them shared, so can buy a big one.. they didn't tell me that they're sharing.. But nvm, i gave her mine, allowing her to hab a different gift to look at... That's wad i think... HeE~
During PE, while ting is in the toilet, bernice they all went in and sing BD song for her in the toilet... yes, in the toilet, a bit funny hor... heH! After that, played with a class... Hai.. How come kids nowadays dunnoe how to respect elderly one? Then got one girl hit my chest, man, she sUx.. Was very mad with this class, then the george so bIas... Hai... suX.. Wadever, next week, will get it back, take the ball "SAY" her chest... MuHAHAHAHA!!!! *eViL* o ya, Trish fell down, the skin on her knee swell... burning there.. Poor thing but bear with it, will be over de... It's just a minor injury that hurts a lot... I hate that kinda injury... The one on mine is better... Hee~
In class leh, same... Miss Teo talked, we listen, answered... Heh! Me, quite attentive as well... Erm.. still, its a little boring....
During recess, very Dot DoT dot.. Billy came over to ask something, then i didn't realise everyone was listening... Everyone as in, Ting, trish, yu, yuting, yvonne, cheryl... However, didn't feel much lah, they always stare at us when we talked... HeH!
Ting told me that if we're going back to work, gotta go rewrite the application form coz eric told her that, her name, yu's and mine is put under unregistered.. But i remembered clearly that i did wrote it Coz that is the 1st day i did 12 pm shift.. Erm... Suspicious, who kah Poh our forms leh? HeH! But nvm, no work this week, very sad, i'm really broke le lor...
2 tests in a roll, one after another, Ss then CL... Was glad that i'm able to write the points out and for CL, quite ok lah... Slept after the test as usual... Hee~
After school, saw Billy again, he kept on shouting like he got stroke... HAhA... Can't call my name meh? HeH~ Then, he tell his teacher something, and i'm like Dot DoT doT... HAhaHA!!!
Went home, sleep... Then went out for movie with yuting... She is so keen to watch House of Fury, so i promised her to go with her, and like i promised, we went.. It was an AwEsome mOvie lOr... goOD storyline.. Casts are ShuAi anD chIo... HeH Heh! Met my junior after that... Hee~
When i stepped outta Westmall, Somebody pushes somebody towards me, and i'm like, WTF, then looked at them, it's actually my DA KOr... SiAo one lor, can just call me out mah, he pushed his friend towards me... HahA... then the friend very tall(so is my kor), if he fell, then very funny one lor... SiAO lAng...
Back home, bathed, watch TV, eat instant noodles Yet another time... HeE~ Bo BIan... Started doing Maths transformation worksheet, completed wad i knew.. Now, relax... read a bit of the novel yu lend me.. Ermm.. Finished my D&T's form&shape drawing le... So dun hab to touch it, till tml, touch up a little...
Earlier on, i read Bt kor's blog, heH HeH... Very fascinated with the person he's talking bout.. Once again, his heart is telling him something.... Good fOr HiM... All tHe best wOr kor....
Ok, guess its time to set some aims in my mind le... Dun like the feeling of being lost in the dark... I want light!!!! Heh Heh...
Losing my way in the dark without anyone to guide me through. Looking for that glimpse of light coming my way. I will reach for it with everything I am....
During PE, while ting is in the toilet, bernice they all went in and sing BD song for her in the toilet... yes, in the toilet, a bit funny hor... heH! After that, played with a class... Hai.. How come kids nowadays dunnoe how to respect elderly one? Then got one girl hit my chest, man, she sUx.. Was very mad with this class, then the george so bIas... Hai... suX.. Wadever, next week, will get it back, take the ball "SAY" her chest... MuHAHAHAHA!!!! *eViL* o ya, Trish fell down, the skin on her knee swell... burning there.. Poor thing but bear with it, will be over de... It's just a minor injury that hurts a lot... I hate that kinda injury... The one on mine is better... Hee~
In class leh, same... Miss Teo talked, we listen, answered... Heh! Me, quite attentive as well... Erm.. still, its a little boring....
During recess, very Dot DoT dot.. Billy came over to ask something, then i didn't realise everyone was listening... Everyone as in, Ting, trish, yu, yuting, yvonne, cheryl... However, didn't feel much lah, they always stare at us when we talked... HeH!
Ting told me that if we're going back to work, gotta go rewrite the application form coz eric told her that, her name, yu's and mine is put under unregistered.. But i remembered clearly that i did wrote it Coz that is the 1st day i did 12 pm shift.. Erm... Suspicious, who kah Poh our forms leh? HeH! But nvm, no work this week, very sad, i'm really broke le lor...
2 tests in a roll, one after another, Ss then CL... Was glad that i'm able to write the points out and for CL, quite ok lah... Slept after the test as usual... Hee~
After school, saw Billy again, he kept on shouting like he got stroke... HAhA... Can't call my name meh? HeH~ Then, he tell his teacher something, and i'm like Dot DoT doT... HAhaHA!!!
Went home, sleep... Then went out for movie with yuting... She is so keen to watch House of Fury, so i promised her to go with her, and like i promised, we went.. It was an AwEsome mOvie lOr... goOD storyline.. Casts are ShuAi anD chIo... HeH Heh! Met my junior after that... Hee~
When i stepped outta Westmall, Somebody pushes somebody towards me, and i'm like, WTF, then looked at them, it's actually my DA KOr... SiAo one lor, can just call me out mah, he pushed his friend towards me... HahA... then the friend very tall(so is my kor), if he fell, then very funny one lor... SiAO lAng...
Back home, bathed, watch TV, eat instant noodles Yet another time... HeE~ Bo BIan... Started doing Maths transformation worksheet, completed wad i knew.. Now, relax... read a bit of the novel yu lend me.. Ermm.. Finished my D&T's form&shape drawing le... So dun hab to touch it, till tml, touch up a little...
Earlier on, i read Bt kor's blog, heH HeH... Very fascinated with the person he's talking bout.. Once again, his heart is telling him something.... Good fOr HiM... All tHe best wOr kor....
Ok, guess its time to set some aims in my mind le... Dun like the feeling of being lost in the dark... I want light!!!! Heh Heh...
Losing my way in the dark without anyone to guide me through. Looking for that glimpse of light coming my way. I will reach for it with everything I am....
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
LifE
Moving on, today got maths paper back, hai.. Again, marks not good but i guess i did tried my very best, at least i was able to complete the whole paper... Satisfied...
Bout my SIM card, got a new one le, number remain the same, very ex lor.. Hai... Guess i wun go and anyhow touch le... HAhA!!! Sick Of Me to TouCh It...
On my phone, a few msg from friends.. One that I find a bit unexpected was from JesPer, he send a msg to tell me he 4got his msn add le... Ha! Very weird HoR... NvM...
I was totally beat today, changed time-table, 1st period listen to Mdm Khong talked stories, sIan lor.. My eyes ClosiNg liao le... Kept on changing time-table... SuX... FeeDBack BOx might be the thing i will turn to... HEH
Couldn't believe how i've changed within the course of a weekend, talks with qi helps a bit.. HAHa.. Though most are joKes but somehow got a little msg from her... And ting also gave me some advice... I'm just happy i'm doing well Now... MUhAHAHA
Nothing very interesting happened this few days lah.. Very SiAn... O, i forgot to mention, somebody called me pig across the road today.. waS very ..... lor... Hai, i should say, used to it le... SAD... Dun talk bout it le...
Everyone a bit weird nowadays... Bt KOr is, Chung Ee is, Billy iS, trish is, Yuting is... So am i... Everyone Are!!! Kk... Wad ever BAh!!!
Tml, SS and CL tesT... Work hARd O!!
CIaO!!!
Moving on quietly with some craziness that can be triggered anytime by me, myself and I...
Bout my SIM card, got a new one le, number remain the same, very ex lor.. Hai... Guess i wun go and anyhow touch le... HAhA!!! Sick Of Me to TouCh It...
On my phone, a few msg from friends.. One that I find a bit unexpected was from JesPer, he send a msg to tell me he 4got his msn add le... Ha! Very weird HoR... NvM...
I was totally beat today, changed time-table, 1st period listen to Mdm Khong talked stories, sIan lor.. My eyes ClosiNg liao le... Kept on changing time-table... SuX... FeeDBack BOx might be the thing i will turn to... HEH
Couldn't believe how i've changed within the course of a weekend, talks with qi helps a bit.. HAHa.. Though most are joKes but somehow got a little msg from her... And ting also gave me some advice... I'm just happy i'm doing well Now... MUhAHAHA
Nothing very interesting happened this few days lah.. Very SiAn... O, i forgot to mention, somebody called me pig across the road today.. waS very ..... lor... Hai, i should say, used to it le... SAD... Dun talk bout it le...
Everyone a bit weird nowadays... Bt KOr is, Chung Ee is, Billy iS, trish is, Yuting is... So am i... Everyone Are!!! Kk... Wad ever BAh!!!
Tml, SS and CL tesT... Work hARd O!!
CIaO!!!
Moving on quietly with some craziness that can be triggered anytime by me, myself and I...
Monday, April 04, 2005
NeTBall = parT of My Life
I did something to my phone's PIN code and now, the SIM is blocked!!! Very sad loR.. y did i do such a foolish thing.. Guess i have to go ask tml... in the meantime, i cannot see any msg or pick up any phone call... Wanna CrY le loR.... :( SoB SOB...
Hai.. Wasn't a good day coz of that... Just now talked to Qi for a while... Also quite crappy... HeH... But managed to get pass it... Anyway, after that, wanted to go out de, but started raining, i decided to go tml liao... SaD...
The other day's netball, fell down once again.. It was quite a funny fall. i was trying to intercept the ball when i realise i used the wrong hand, in the end, both of us fell down, i was a bit pissed that i used the wrong hand... I roll on the floor once and i stood up... Saw ting's face, but i smiled to her, telling her i'm fine... Hai... But now, it hurts a bit... SAD LAH!!!!
I got over wad had happened a few days ago, maybe i should just relax a bit, care so much also no use, just live my life and care bout wad i should...
I was very sian this afternoon, i have this urge to li xiao ren but can't find anyone to li xiao, so li xiao Qi a bit, but i can't beat her... Qi, being 20, is much more experienced than i m, i admit my defeat.. heH... Still, my urge goes on, so i decided to calm myself a bit rather than go fan pple... HEh! Mischievious ApPLe....
Wah lAo, can't stand sia... My kor's hp keep on ringing when i can't use mine..very SAd Lah.. I'll go smashed his phone... HahA.. I'm kIddIng... :O
Boulevard of broken dreams.. Heard this song b4? Gonna put it here.. A real nice song... O ya, the other day i got the news that Backstreet's album coming out in June, entitled "Never Gone", HAHAHAHAHa, after a long wait, finally, they're back... First single "incomplete"... Once again, my idols are back, HEh HEH hEh!!!!!!!!!
After netball match the other day, was a bit sad.. Coz after the matches, Kailing gonna go for op, ting and me will be concentrating on our Os.. Netball, might not have a coach... Ermm... very sad, after 4 yrs, i'm gonna leave this CCA, which i dedicated myself to... I remembered i joined in coz ting and ling Hui wanted to join as well, then only ting and me went in.. After a while, both of us fell out with each other, i wanted to quit but was unable to... Then, i carried on.. Along the way, thoughts of quitting kept coming back... Until sec3, i stopped that thinking, dedicated myself to it, try my best in every match... WAs glad i played in the games, calling myself a goalkeeper... A bit sad to leave this post.. However, i'm glad my post is in good hands, geraldina.. It's gonna be over soon for me... Coz for the rest of the year, i'm gonna be concentrating on studies... Part of my secondary life is put into Netball, and i believe it was something that is worth spending my time in...Will definitely miss it a lot, but memories will always be kept there... :) O yA, got praised by coach a few times, one that matters the most " You all must be thankful to xueting and aiping huh, they are playing for u all..." Heh, appreciate this sentence a lot from coach to the juniors...
Right, guess will end here... :P
I'm glad to know that the effort i put in have not come to waste... The line will be continued even with our exits... I will remember the moments i had with them...
Hai.. Wasn't a good day coz of that... Just now talked to Qi for a while... Also quite crappy... HeH... But managed to get pass it... Anyway, after that, wanted to go out de, but started raining, i decided to go tml liao... SaD...
The other day's netball, fell down once again.. It was quite a funny fall. i was trying to intercept the ball when i realise i used the wrong hand, in the end, both of us fell down, i was a bit pissed that i used the wrong hand... I roll on the floor once and i stood up... Saw ting's face, but i smiled to her, telling her i'm fine... Hai... But now, it hurts a bit... SAD LAH!!!!
I got over wad had happened a few days ago, maybe i should just relax a bit, care so much also no use, just live my life and care bout wad i should...
I was very sian this afternoon, i have this urge to li xiao ren but can't find anyone to li xiao, so li xiao Qi a bit, but i can't beat her... Qi, being 20, is much more experienced than i m, i admit my defeat.. heH... Still, my urge goes on, so i decided to calm myself a bit rather than go fan pple... HEh! Mischievious ApPLe....
Wah lAo, can't stand sia... My kor's hp keep on ringing when i can't use mine..very SAd Lah.. I'll go smashed his phone... HahA.. I'm kIddIng... :O
Boulevard of broken dreams.. Heard this song b4? Gonna put it here.. A real nice song... O ya, the other day i got the news that Backstreet's album coming out in June, entitled "Never Gone", HAHAHAHAHa, after a long wait, finally, they're back... First single "incomplete"... Once again, my idols are back, HEh HEH hEh!!!!!!!!!
After netball match the other day, was a bit sad.. Coz after the matches, Kailing gonna go for op, ting and me will be concentrating on our Os.. Netball, might not have a coach... Ermm... very sad, after 4 yrs, i'm gonna leave this CCA, which i dedicated myself to... I remembered i joined in coz ting and ling Hui wanted to join as well, then only ting and me went in.. After a while, both of us fell out with each other, i wanted to quit but was unable to... Then, i carried on.. Along the way, thoughts of quitting kept coming back... Until sec3, i stopped that thinking, dedicated myself to it, try my best in every match... WAs glad i played in the games, calling myself a goalkeeper... A bit sad to leave this post.. However, i'm glad my post is in good hands, geraldina.. It's gonna be over soon for me... Coz for the rest of the year, i'm gonna be concentrating on studies... Part of my secondary life is put into Netball, and i believe it was something that is worth spending my time in...Will definitely miss it a lot, but memories will always be kept there... :) O yA, got praised by coach a few times, one that matters the most " You all must be thankful to xueting and aiping huh, they are playing for u all..." Heh, appreciate this sentence a lot from coach to the juniors...
Right, guess will end here... :P
I'm glad to know that the effort i put in have not come to waste... The line will be continued even with our exits... I will remember the moments i had with them...
Sunday, April 03, 2005
MystEriOUS bT koR And ChuNg eE
That day, ChunG eE askEd BouT nEtBaLl ThINgy, VerY wEIrd, unlike him to asked bout netball stuff, and he asked both Ting and me... asked him y, he dun wanna say, acting very mysteriously...
Bt kor as well... He was sad bout his friend, that, i understood... Then, on his BLOG... The person that make him smile... Well well Well... Who is she.... I wonder....
2 mysterious guy... Keeping things so well.... Ermm.... InTeReStinG.... HEh!
Bt kor as well... He was sad bout his friend, that, i understood... Then, on his BLOG... The person that make him smile... Well well Well... Who is she.... I wonder....
2 mysterious guy... Keeping things so well.... Ermm.... InTeReStinG.... HEh!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
ThEy r So FuCked-Up!
Wad An EnerGY-Consuming Day..... HAi... 1st, i couldn't wake up, 2nd, i can't seem to concentrate in class, 3rd, i got very distracted by every little things that is happening around, 4th, i haven't recover from my very emotional side, 5th, i got so worked up that there is no SS test when i studied already, 6th, i can't stand Mdm khong's comments, 7th, netball match, then training....
I was extremely not in any mood to entertain anyone today... My mood was totally at the very bottom.. However, it seems like everyone is trying to make me laugh out of all the other days when i'm hyper... Wad a "great" APril FoOl! I was so god damn tired from yesterday's match and i'm still suffering from muscle fatigue. Wad's more? I was unable to focus. I kept on telling myself to focus, but it seems like I was unable to... No idea why, I got very fed up with everyone ard, I tried not to show it, and smiled whenever i'm pissed.... Fortunately, i was able to do just that...
One thing to be happy bout was that i got my score for D&T's exploration of ideas, and it was considered wonderful within the class, but i'm not satisfied actually coz i know i shouldn't get that.. Miss Lim told me " A1 student, you should know the standard." But i was glad, she was good enough to give me such high marks.
Recently, Trish is a bit over the edge... She kind of got agitated easily which i dun really understand why. She said she is very stress with band and schoolwork, but i doubt that those r the only issue, coz no matter how hard it is to cope, she'll still be able to get some time out to rest... I'm just concern bout this friend of mine... We're not very close, but somehow, she's someone i can talk to every now and then and rest assure that she wun tell anyone... Just concern, i hope she'll be ok after a while...
I'm getting very very close to ting nowadays, i wonder is it right to be so close... I mean, we wasn't that close to each other in class last time, we just talked whenever needed, this time, i've been around with her everywhere... I'm just afraid i'll get frustrated with the way she treat stuff and i dunnoe... Being too close sometimes has it's side-effects... More importantly, i didn't have time to actually go out with yuting, she's sort of complaining that i'm always with ting... I should really give this some deep thoughts... Maybe like yuting said, i've changed in some ways which i can't notice... I just detest hearing that, but i guess i must accept this fact...
I cannot believe wad happened to myself last night... I was on the internet, i was so pissed, feels so disgusting, very down... I started to complain to bt kor and chung Ee... One tells me to keep my cool and not care bout so much while the other is trying to comfort me by offering his shoulder when i need 1.... Even though i was still very down after talking to them, but at least i know they bothered to answer me and tried ways to make me feel better... When i was in the room, on my bed, i started thinking, and tears just start to roll down... Have i become so timid, so cowardly, that i have to end up crying in bed? How was that possible?! I couldn't believe it either...
All these affected my performance the next day, it was a good thing that Test was postponed coz at least i will have more time to study.. Though i was quite mad when i was told that test is postponed, mainly coz i've studied for it... BUt nvm...
Wondering why i was so emotional? Well, it is an issue that has been there since 4, 5 years ago... I have 2 brothers that dun really care bout wad's going on at home. They are always not at home, and i'm always the one that saw what kids my age shouldn't... My da kor inherited my father's laziness to save up $ for future, now being 23, he is still thinking of fun... It became worst after he changed his job. He didn't care bout wad MAma told him, and just kept on spending... Wad is earned in a month can be spent within the course of a week... MamA used to take some $ from him to pay some utilities bill but now, he kept on giving excuses that he doesn't have $... How bout me? Even me, when i went to work last year, i gave mama $ though wad i earned was that little, wad is he thinking? Trying to escape his fucking responsibilities?!Wad's more, he keeps on bringing his Gf to our house, not that she's not welcome but hey, she gotta come at the right time... She comes here, use ours, eat ours and we have to treat her like a guest? Allow her to have everything b4 we have ours... I just hate it when there's a stranger at homeand we have to pay for wad shit she used, a burden to us. If they wanna know, i dun welcome her, not any bit, i hate to see her shoes at our door, i just hate the sight of it! And my kor just let her do whatever she wants... I am so so mAd! Sometimes, she would brush her teeth in the living room and at the same time talking, i was so angry when she did that in front of me the other day, i just can't stand her way of doing things...CAn't she show some respect tom this house, although it is not good-looking but it is a home to me, to my parents! JUSt LIKE MY DA KOR! I guess that this is the reason why they're together... Future? If they were to be together, then I'll have to pray for them....
2Kor leh... Though he is not as bad as da kor but he just dun care... At home, he hates listening to my Mama talks, he'll get pissed with her nagging, though i agree that Ma is sometimes very noisy but sometimes, she is right... I just dunnoe why he can't take some advice?
These two brothers of mine is very DoT DoT DoT... They may be good boyfriends but they aren't good sons nor brothers... Why wun they just think bout how hard mama have to work to support this family and at the same time have all this fucked-up problems coming from my pa? They just keep on adding to her back... Recently, she's always complaining that she aches around, i dunnoe wad to do... She's getting on age, she's no longer that strong anymore, she wun be able to cope with everything... I tried to make her less angry, less tired... Everything that she suffers, she dun really tell my kors, it's either they ignore her or just entertain her... I dun have any financial income, i can't let her enjoy luxury but my brothers... They r able to but they refuse to, selfish BrAts!
Both live their own life... While i am here, listening to Ma's heart-felt words, i can't do anything, i can't do much to help... I'm still studying, i cant' do anything... I wonder wad will happen in future, when i'm out in society... They might just push all responsibilities to me, not that i wun take these responsibilities but at least they should share it, if not, wad's the use of having them? Sometimes, i feel so unfair.. I am fillial, I go by the rules, but ma doesn't seem to appreciate it... It is always kor this and kor that, she always say she is not those kind that prefer for sons but her every action shows that.. No matter how harsh she scolded them, she will forgive them as soon as it began but for me, she will keep remembering it, it is so unfair... SOmetimes, i would think, wads the use of being good to her when all she cares bout is them... However, no matter wad, deep within i know she cares, they r my parents, without them, there wun be me, i gotta take up this responsiblity... With or without my brothers... I will not leave my parents alone... Will NOT!
This is wad i'm bothered with... I thought life would be great after him, initially, it did, but now... Family probs... Wad i'm afraid of is that i not only have to support my parents but have to support my brothers, i hope this will never happen coz i dun think i have that ability... THEY SUX!!!!! Brothers are meant to take care of their mei, now, i'm worried for their future, not them!!!!
Why are they so selfish? So self-centred? So irresponsible? So inconsiderate, so......................... Mother-fucking FuCked UP?! SUCKS!!!! I hate their attitude, i hate the way they lead their lifes, the way they repay ma for everything she did for them... Am i able to carry on living this way? Will i have the strength to carry on? In the past, i thought i have, but now, i have doubts... Can i still continue pursuing my dreams? I am hesitating...
Conclusion; I'm having bad feelings bout my future....
Family portrait isn't the truth... Happy on the surface, tedious below....
I was extremely not in any mood to entertain anyone today... My mood was totally at the very bottom.. However, it seems like everyone is trying to make me laugh out of all the other days when i'm hyper... Wad a "great" APril FoOl! I was so god damn tired from yesterday's match and i'm still suffering from muscle fatigue. Wad's more? I was unable to focus. I kept on telling myself to focus, but it seems like I was unable to... No idea why, I got very fed up with everyone ard, I tried not to show it, and smiled whenever i'm pissed.... Fortunately, i was able to do just that...
One thing to be happy bout was that i got my score for D&T's exploration of ideas, and it was considered wonderful within the class, but i'm not satisfied actually coz i know i shouldn't get that.. Miss Lim told me " A1 student, you should know the standard." But i was glad, she was good enough to give me such high marks.
Recently, Trish is a bit over the edge... She kind of got agitated easily which i dun really understand why. She said she is very stress with band and schoolwork, but i doubt that those r the only issue, coz no matter how hard it is to cope, she'll still be able to get some time out to rest... I'm just concern bout this friend of mine... We're not very close, but somehow, she's someone i can talk to every now and then and rest assure that she wun tell anyone... Just concern, i hope she'll be ok after a while...
I'm getting very very close to ting nowadays, i wonder is it right to be so close... I mean, we wasn't that close to each other in class last time, we just talked whenever needed, this time, i've been around with her everywhere... I'm just afraid i'll get frustrated with the way she treat stuff and i dunnoe... Being too close sometimes has it's side-effects... More importantly, i didn't have time to actually go out with yuting, she's sort of complaining that i'm always with ting... I should really give this some deep thoughts... Maybe like yuting said, i've changed in some ways which i can't notice... I just detest hearing that, but i guess i must accept this fact...
I cannot believe wad happened to myself last night... I was on the internet, i was so pissed, feels so disgusting, very down... I started to complain to bt kor and chung Ee... One tells me to keep my cool and not care bout so much while the other is trying to comfort me by offering his shoulder when i need 1.... Even though i was still very down after talking to them, but at least i know they bothered to answer me and tried ways to make me feel better... When i was in the room, on my bed, i started thinking, and tears just start to roll down... Have i become so timid, so cowardly, that i have to end up crying in bed? How was that possible?! I couldn't believe it either...
All these affected my performance the next day, it was a good thing that Test was postponed coz at least i will have more time to study.. Though i was quite mad when i was told that test is postponed, mainly coz i've studied for it... BUt nvm...
Wondering why i was so emotional? Well, it is an issue that has been there since 4, 5 years ago... I have 2 brothers that dun really care bout wad's going on at home. They are always not at home, and i'm always the one that saw what kids my age shouldn't... My da kor inherited my father's laziness to save up $ for future, now being 23, he is still thinking of fun... It became worst after he changed his job. He didn't care bout wad MAma told him, and just kept on spending... Wad is earned in a month can be spent within the course of a week... MamA used to take some $ from him to pay some utilities bill but now, he kept on giving excuses that he doesn't have $... How bout me? Even me, when i went to work last year, i gave mama $ though wad i earned was that little, wad is he thinking? Trying to escape his fucking responsibilities?!Wad's more, he keeps on bringing his Gf to our house, not that she's not welcome but hey, she gotta come at the right time... She comes here, use ours, eat ours and we have to treat her like a guest? Allow her to have everything b4 we have ours... I just hate it when there's a stranger at homeand we have to pay for wad shit she used, a burden to us. If they wanna know, i dun welcome her, not any bit, i hate to see her shoes at our door, i just hate the sight of it! And my kor just let her do whatever she wants... I am so so mAd! Sometimes, she would brush her teeth in the living room and at the same time talking, i was so angry when she did that in front of me the other day, i just can't stand her way of doing things...CAn't she show some respect tom this house, although it is not good-looking but it is a home to me, to my parents! JUSt LIKE MY DA KOR! I guess that this is the reason why they're together... Future? If they were to be together, then I'll have to pray for them....
2Kor leh... Though he is not as bad as da kor but he just dun care... At home, he hates listening to my Mama talks, he'll get pissed with her nagging, though i agree that Ma is sometimes very noisy but sometimes, she is right... I just dunnoe why he can't take some advice?
These two brothers of mine is very DoT DoT DoT... They may be good boyfriends but they aren't good sons nor brothers... Why wun they just think bout how hard mama have to work to support this family and at the same time have all this fucked-up problems coming from my pa? They just keep on adding to her back... Recently, she's always complaining that she aches around, i dunnoe wad to do... She's getting on age, she's no longer that strong anymore, she wun be able to cope with everything... I tried to make her less angry, less tired... Everything that she suffers, she dun really tell my kors, it's either they ignore her or just entertain her... I dun have any financial income, i can't let her enjoy luxury but my brothers... They r able to but they refuse to, selfish BrAts!
Both live their own life... While i am here, listening to Ma's heart-felt words, i can't do anything, i can't do much to help... I'm still studying, i cant' do anything... I wonder wad will happen in future, when i'm out in society... They might just push all responsibilities to me, not that i wun take these responsibilities but at least they should share it, if not, wad's the use of having them? Sometimes, i feel so unfair.. I am fillial, I go by the rules, but ma doesn't seem to appreciate it... It is always kor this and kor that, she always say she is not those kind that prefer for sons but her every action shows that.. No matter how harsh she scolded them, she will forgive them as soon as it began but for me, she will keep remembering it, it is so unfair... SOmetimes, i would think, wads the use of being good to her when all she cares bout is them... However, no matter wad, deep within i know she cares, they r my parents, without them, there wun be me, i gotta take up this responsiblity... With or without my brothers... I will not leave my parents alone... Will NOT!
This is wad i'm bothered with... I thought life would be great after him, initially, it did, but now... Family probs... Wad i'm afraid of is that i not only have to support my parents but have to support my brothers, i hope this will never happen coz i dun think i have that ability... THEY SUX!!!!! Brothers are meant to take care of their mei, now, i'm worried for their future, not them!!!!
Why are they so selfish? So self-centred? So irresponsible? So inconsiderate, so......................... Mother-fucking FuCked UP?! SUCKS!!!! I hate their attitude, i hate the way they lead their lifes, the way they repay ma for everything she did for them... Am i able to carry on living this way? Will i have the strength to carry on? In the past, i thought i have, but now, i have doubts... Can i still continue pursuing my dreams? I am hesitating...
Conclusion; I'm having bad feelings bout my future....
Family portrait isn't the truth... Happy on the surface, tedious below....
Friday, April 01, 2005
TirIng....
Very Paiseh during recess time..Wah lAo, trish, yuting, ting and yu all aim me... Make me very very embarassed... So mAd... But nVm... I'm too kind le...
Netball today, WON!!!! The FuCHun very pushy lor... Kept on pushing but i got it back lah... At the end of it, shake hands, they spit saliva on their hanDs... ImpOlIte, ImMorAL, InGrAtes...
Coach wan us to stretch so wun get muscle fatigue, but i already got le, on court, kept on running... Sad... 4 quarters played, everybody did, tiring but fUn...
K, went home, drink coffee so as to stay awake, after eating, study for SS test, hai... Hope can do well bah...
I was very pissed by PAPA ANd MAMA lor... Came home and started shouting and screaming, i was so so angyr, i'm trying to study there and they r so noisy, i bue tong, shouted at them kpkb... Then after a while, they kept quiet.. VeRy angry lor, everytime i got test or exam, they'll be Quarrelling, very wrong timing SIA!!! FURiOus!!!!!
Hai... I wonder how is bt kor le... Really hope he is fine lor... Ermm... HAi... Dunnoe wad to say...
k, i'm tired, will stop here le... CiAo
Its starting to get plain, no more interest in this pathetic life... Am i giving up? I hope I'll get my spirit back again....
Netball today, WON!!!! The FuCHun very pushy lor... Kept on pushing but i got it back lah... At the end of it, shake hands, they spit saliva on their hanDs... ImpOlIte, ImMorAL, InGrAtes...
Coach wan us to stretch so wun get muscle fatigue, but i already got le, on court, kept on running... Sad... 4 quarters played, everybody did, tiring but fUn...
K, went home, drink coffee so as to stay awake, after eating, study for SS test, hai... Hope can do well bah...
I was very pissed by PAPA ANd MAMA lor... Came home and started shouting and screaming, i was so so angyr, i'm trying to study there and they r so noisy, i bue tong, shouted at them kpkb... Then after a while, they kept quiet.. VeRy angry lor, everytime i got test or exam, they'll be Quarrelling, very wrong timing SIA!!! FURiOus!!!!!
Hai... I wonder how is bt kor le... Really hope he is fine lor... Ermm... HAi... Dunnoe wad to say...
k, i'm tired, will stop here le... CiAo
Its starting to get plain, no more interest in this pathetic life... Am i giving up? I hope I'll get my spirit back again....
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