Remember the flower i took of the other day, it bloomed last night. Heh hEh... Supposed to be a little bit more bigger at 12am, but i took it at 11 plus pm, and didn't dare to go out later. When i was brushing my teeth this morning, my papa told me that my licence is here. HAHA! So HAPPY!!!! In the afternoon, accompanied Yee Shan to Darling's to have her hair cut to her desired style. After cutting, since darling was free, he played around her hair. And it came out this way... Nice.... I like her fringe!Then, went to WM, she return her library books. Then she went to Face shop with me to buy my mama de BD present.
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Then i went back home to study.
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Dinner at BB east to celebrate mama de birthday. :D Da kor brought her gf, and darling came also.
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So we ate and chatted.
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Then the rest went back, papa drove darling to his shop there, and mama and i to WM buy tix for Money No Enough 2. :D
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The movie is pretty good i must say, the mocking government part not very nice, the rest are really good. :D Teared quite a bit.
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Reached home, bathed, gonna mug a little later then sleep.
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Yee Shan is HAPPY! I'm happy for her too!!! Darling is HAPPY too... :D
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Nights!

Slept pretty late last night, browsing at some stuff. Fell asleep quickly after that. Woke up late this morning as well.

Uting got her car, and i went over to her place to try out her car. Its a KIA Rio. Ermmmm.... Won't say its the best kind of car but for a first, its good enough. :)

We drove around, to WM, then i bought carpark coupons for her, went to WM to buy some stuff then returned to get the car where i drove back. Heh hEh! Great directions we have, we nearly lost our ways, went into the wrong path and all the way to woodlands. HAHA!!! But managed to find a U-turn to come back safely. Practiced parking darn lots of times but just couldn't get a hang of it, we endanger the life of a van by using it as our test material but well, its in 1 piece. Heh hEh!
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Went back to Uting's house, sat for a while, watching Olympics, then went to walk Whiskey, then she drove me to BB, fetch Ming, then i alighted at Darling's. Played his PSP while he went to cut hair.
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Went to meet Xueting after that. Had some finger food at MOS burger, then she bought some stuff for the teachers from Vietnam i think. Then, i walk with her back to her house then i went back.
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Ate some stuff that mama bought and watch some TV. Study a little but not a lot.
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Darling didn't come online. So, i guess i'm gonna turn in soon.
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Life always seem unfair... How many times do we get what we want at the time we want it? How long do we spent trying to convince that we are capable of? Its too tiring making the people who don't understand, understand... But look beside you, there is always that somebody, friend or lover, someone who can comprehend, someone for you to lean back on... I guess that is the most important thing...

Tiring days i had... Something great, nights had been very cooling to sleep. Ho! I slept well. :D
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9th August 2008: HAPPY 43rd BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!!!
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Beautiful skyline at Marina Bay. Proud to be a Singaporean, we have the largest floating stage in the WORLD! Can you believe it?! Everybody were so trained (I kept wondering wad if they fall into the water?). Hee~
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I saw LKY in red raincoat... HEh hEH! Look so weird... Anyway, the parade was damn cool, coz it was like drizzling non-stop. :D
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ONWARD SINGAPORE!!!! MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Olympic games were pretty boring... Ronald Susilo lost :(, i missed all the other games, but the results aren't good either. :( JIA YOU TEAM SINGAPORE!
This ice cream is so not good... I so regretted buying it.. $3.50 per cup can... Waste money...On Darling's car the other day, self-posing... :DAnd i spotted this phenonmenan at BB carpark. Mini cooper and Toyota Avanza... HEH HEH! With car plate EAxxx and JJWxxxx... Heh heh! Big and small car... Darling and I went KFC for dinner... HAHA! Its been months since we last patronzie KFC. It tastes pretty good. Ho! Then, went to City Chain to see whether they got the battery for Nike watch but sadly no.
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Went to Watsons to buy my Dettol body gel, and i bought Garnier mask. :D
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Great days...
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Another good few days to come! Mugging should also begin already.
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I LOVE SINGAPORE! I LOVE MY DARLING! I LOVE MYSELF TOO!!!!
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Will not let go...

Woke up to go school today and i realised i forgot to submit the soft copy of the report. I rushed back after STMO to submit.
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Supposed to meet Aiai but was cancelled coz of the insurance agent thingy. So, i slack at home.
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Decided to get Mac again, which i kind of got tired of already. Before i go to the lift, i took picture of the blooming flower that my ma planted.
Came back and sat infront of laptop watching DVD.
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Then i stood at the door of the masterbed room door and took pictures... HAHA!!! Before i sit down and shit. HAHA! Seriously nothing better to do can. I took a nap then watch TV. Smsed with Darling and watch TV. Did nothing today. Just slack.....................................
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Watched Olympics opening and waited for very long for Singapore team to march out. HAHA! So glorious! hEh hEh! Hope we get a medal this year! :D
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Besides Olympics, another event closer to home, NATIONAL DAY TMR! HAHA!!!! So many things to celebrate!
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Ok, so nothing much le... Shall end it here. :D
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PS: Its o8.o8.o8, really special date. Hope you spend this day with your special one too. :D

My chocolate craving on Tue before the SQTR test. And i ended up buying 2 Meiji choc, but this one taste nice nice... Hee~ The test was horri-gi-ble... The quiz and test this week were really tough... At night, was chatting with Darling online for a bit and as always, dou dou would climb onto his lap and she is like 2 already but still really petite. HAHA!!! Cute dou dou... On Wed, didn't go for Fare calculation revision although i could wake up. I was just thinking, it will just be repetition so decided to sleep instead. Then, i went to school at around 11am to tear down the RMTR window display, with a cup of green apple juice.
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Wen came to get her textbooks as well, then i went back to her house with her to put the books. 38 floor is so high! And from her flat, can see Singapore flyer... Almost the whole of Singapore can be roughly seen. So cool...
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Note: Jiawen's room is so messy........ -_-"'
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Head to Orchard after that. We went to Heeren for a while and Shan smsed that she's reaching. So Wen and i went to Paragon's Fish&co 1st.
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That outlet is different from the rest. Its more woody... HAHA!!!
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Ordered not a lot of things but all are yummy and got some extra stuff coz Shan works there. hOhO! The mussels are AWESOME!!! I LOVE THE SAUCE!!!!!!!!!
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I kept drowning the chips in the sauce! HAHA!!! YuMMY! Costs us $70 over, but worth it, so so worth it!
Then, we walk around, my shoe kind of spoiled so we went to Fareast to buy my footwear. Comfy... :D Both of them bought shoes also, but the problem is, i dun rmb the shop name. HAHA!
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Then they accompanied me to buy wrapper box for Terry's son, Travis, present. Headed to OHS to pass Terry the present. He looks tired but xin fu! He showed us his car, Hyundai Avante, so big, so nice!!! So blessed! Got job, got family, got car... Envious.... He allowed me to drive his car but i didn't coz i haven't master the skill of parking with poles... :(
Then, we went to Taka's Kino, and i browsed around all the shelves, wanted to buy but i think i shouldn't coz not much money left. The 2 of them bought some books. We had ice cream after that, yUMMY! I am so satisfied can!
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We walked to Cine after that. Browsed and walk around and while i was looking at a nice dress, somebody dashed towards me, its GRACE!!! Fancy bumping into her there. :D So happy to see her, reminds me of how long i haven't been back to ORQ. Bidded byes then.
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Wen got caught up with Meow Meow as usual. -_- while shan and i were exploring neoprints machine, i haven't been near that for so so long...
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Walked up and up, then after that, we headed home.
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Bus ride was pretty long, good thing Marley was with me. :D
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Reached batok and i thought Darling would've gone back by then but he smsed to ask whether i'm going not. So i went to find him and i saw douji sitting outside. He bought a lot of things from Vivo for his gf, he is returning to Sabah/Sarawak for 15 days. Ho! He is so happy. Heh!
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Darling, douji and myself went for a tea later on, chatted about some stuff and the coincidence happened again, Ipoh bitch walked past. Damn sian to see her... I hate bitches you know. Yesterday was a day full of coincidences.
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Went home, bathed and continue with my last report of the sem. Ting called to complain some stuff bout Hun which i feel was ya, she should complain. Not good to take friends for granted.
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Stayed up till quite late to complete the whole report and surprising darling came online at like 1 plus am to do up his phone stuff. O! He got a new phone, same as mine... SO ROMANTIC can! MY Darling is so romantic and he tried to hide it from me... Naughty! HAHA! No wonder he kept hinting about selling my 6500.
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Went to bed at around 3am. Awaken by Peggy's sms, supposed to get Halter from her but it hasn't reached me.
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I went to school to submit report and waited for her friend to call me to pass me the halter but hai... Didn't get it in the end. :(
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Received a news which shocked me a lot but i guess we all have our choice, she decided to make that choice and i respect her for doing that. Afterall, she did what she feels is right. :)
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Anyway, i headed to Darling's there coz of his phone stuff, lots of problem and i sat there, the whole afternoon, doing the things. Ting came by, and she accompanied me for my late lunch at Mac. Hee~ We chatted a little.
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Then, headed back and continued my task for Darling and Douji. Then Alvin was trying to set the MMS thing but doesn't work. I had to call M1 to do the job. In the end, its his SIM card, coz my SIM works well.
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After that, another person that i dun wish to see, appeared. So sian.... She is so rude, the way she talk is so impolite! Like as if he owes her million of dollars. Hai...
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Darling wanted to wait for bus with me to go home but the rain was really heavy, so we headed to WM, walk a bit and sat at Kopi Roti for a tea and bread. It was late, so darling ask me to go back 1st.
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While waiting for bus, papa called and said he can come fetched me. So i kissed darling goodbye, and went home with pa.
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Reached home, bathed, and Darling smsed. So sad.. He only left at like 11.40pm when the rain was less heavy.
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I came online to check stuff. And realised need to go school tmr. :(
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Chatting with Wen and Shan now. Shan is coming to cut her hair next week. So excited for her coz her hair is so long and i want to see the transition! Ho!
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I think i should turn in soon.
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PS: Itching to drive but no car to drive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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So in love with you... 很多事，旁人是不会了解的...

Tired... So tired...

All of a sudden, passing driving test didn't seem to be a happy thing. The people who i thought would be really happy for me, apparently are not the ones. The people who i didn't expect to be happy for me, are extremely happy for me.

Hun asked a favour from Eddie yesterday so i told Darling and he bought the thing that Hun needed this morning. So i called Hun to inform him, he came over and drove me to take the thing then, we went for a quick lunch and then he drove me to school. It felt kind of strange, suddenly he seems like a total stranger.

Went to school just for STMO quiz today. I took only a short while to finish it then headed back.

I did some of my PT individual report then rested a while.

Had dinner and watched some TV, before on-ing my laptop to study for SQTR test tmr.

Was just chatting with Ting and i realised something which i think i was hidden in the dark. It really didn't feel right.

Cindy gave birth already, last Saturday and both of them are well and fine. She is doing her confinement now. Will visit her after my exam on her 21st Birthday.

Darling called and told me he is going to have a drink with Andy and Clement (Dou ji), and i asked him not to drink too much, he needs to ride. He is so cute, trying to convince me he won't get drunk. I know he won't, just in case police want to check.

Aiai smsed about offence tix, and i just mailed her the e-mail i mailed the other time.

I smsed Tricia jie just now, she is flying in 3 weeks time, good for her. Will meetup together with ting when she returns. :D

Its a long day tmr. TRMK revision lec, tut, SQTR test and IAP briefing. Will be in school till 7pm i guess.

Somehow, i missed out a lot on my friends. Is it my fault that I dunno wad is going on in their lives anymore? Did i lost my balance? I really dunno. Have been so busy with school work, i can barely find time to go out with friends. I left my time for family and love matters. Perhaps i really lost my balance. I feel angry but who should i be angry with, myself or them?

If that's the way its gonna be then I might as well be me and not bother about other things. It felt weird, the people who used to be so close seems to drift so far. Maybe its really me.

Shall go study a bit more and turn in.

PS: I PASS MY DRIVING!!! The happiness stops right at that point...

I apologize of letting it go so far but time forbids me to make it up...

-Life's greatest-
-人生十四最 -

1. Life's greatest enemy is oneself.
一 ，人生最大的敌人是自己

2. Life's greatest failure is arrogant.
二 ，人生最大的失败是自大

3. Life's greatest ignorance is dupe.
三 ，人生最大的无知是欺骗

4. Life's greatest sorrow is jealousy.
四 ，人生最悲哀的是嫉妒

5. Life's greatest erroneous is self-abandon.
五 ，人生最大的错误是自弃

6. Life's greatest sin is to deceive oneself.
六 ，人生最大的罪過自欺欺人

7. Life's greatest pitiable disposition is self-abased.
七 ，人生最可怜的性情是自卑

8. Life's greatest admiration is choice of advancing.
八 ，人生最可佩服是精进

9. Life's greatest insolvent is despair.
九 ，人生最大的破产是绝望

10. Life's greatest wealth is healthiness.
十 ，人生最大的财富是健康

11. Life's greatest liabilities is in debt of human sympathy.
十一 ，人生最大的债务是人情债

12. Life's greatest gift is forgiveness.
十二 ，人生最大的礼物是宽恕

13. Life's greatest imperfection is melancholy wisdom.
十三 ，人生最大的缺欠是悲智

14. Life's greatest gratification is alms.
十四 ，人生最大的欣慰是布施

Came across this at Aiai's blog, its really meaningful. Anyone who has attained all can be as saint as god. We may not be able to attain all of it, but to have some of this virtues is already a great enough thing. :D

Its a great motivation especially in days like these...

Darling treat me Japanese to celebrate my passing of driving. hOhO! YuMMy! I LOVE SASHIMI!!!!!! MUACKS! His new specs look so GOOD! I want to make the same one!!! But other colours!I loVe my BaBe too much to give him up... MuAcks!
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Another sumptuous meal just now, Ah mah treat to congrats my passing also. Hee~
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Went fortune telling with my mother but i didn't quite believe the things she said. Dunno whether its true or not but there's a lot of loop holes in the things mentioned. I dun think i am lazy, coz there are lazier people out there. (she kept emphasizing that i am extremely lazy! ) O well, its just for reference, not to be believed. Too bad i'm not a believer. That's probably the 1st and the last time.
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I need to save money le... Not working has costs a huge hole in my bank. :(
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This week is gonna be slightly slacker than the previous, 1 last report to finish, 1 quiz and 1 test. After that, is a short 1 week break then exam, another week of break and attachment begins...
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:)
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Its time to let things rest...

Supposed to be an awesome day but it turns out otherwise...
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For the past week, we have been preparing for today. Our group hit a rough patch on Wed, after i presented and left, they told me, April told one of our group members off and said that AHEM shouldn't waste her time. :(
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So, after my driving lesson that afternoon, i rushed back to school to collect blazer and then fixed the slides together to get everything more consistent. O, had lunch at canteen2, curry don is nice... :D And had a dessert in the midst of doing the slides.
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And i realised, my period came.
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The next day was horrible, intended to go WISP but coz of the mock presentation, decided to just skip it. Cramp was horrible. After lunch, which i didn't have much appetite, we went to OurSpace to fix PT slides and do STMO. K, i admit, i didn't do anything for STMO. I just couldn't concentrate. Cramp was killing me.................. Which is the reason i didn't attend STMO also... :(
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Went to Popular to buy the nice papers for the menu, and it costs me $4.50 the 1st time. I went home, wanting to rest but i didn't, while printing the menu, i realised pages wrong... Need to get more papers. Hai...
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Went for extra driving lesson which instructor was really nice to clear out a last minute slot for me. Cramp was making my leg numb... But well, lesson ended pretty ok. :D rushed to WM to buy more papers.
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Printed all the menu and cut and paste each and every page. Wah lao...
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I stayed up till 2plus am to complete printing the slides and pack up my things.
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Still have cramp when i stepped onto my bed. :(
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Woke up at 6am and papa drove 2kor to work then me to Bugis. Hai...
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And there, the presentations... The group with all girls and the missing guy.Sook FANG! Ant in her laptop screen..There, the missing guy! Diving master, Wei Zhi.
Deary Yee Shan!
Wen Wen Wen... "Gang leader", my "lesbian" friend. HAHA!!! But no lah!Right after our presentation ends, the director of the un-named company was kind of funny, he began his "informal" presentation... HAHA! It was 12.15pm. I rushed to tell April i need to leave and left with all the LUCKS from my classmates. I changed into my jeans and rushed out to see papa illegal park outside to wait for me. Hai... So tired...
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I didn't have appetite at all. Papa stopped to buy curry puff and lemon tea but i just dun have the appetite.
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Reached Petrol station and instructor arrived at the same time. I went into circuit for my only circuit practice for this test. I was so so so so so tired, i nearly close my eyes. And i made all the mistakes i shouldn't make. I hit the pole when doing vertical parking, i mount kerb for S course, and and strike kerb for Crank course and directional change. Heh Heh! I hit everything i shouldn't, except for human and cars. And instructor was scolding me. Sadded. Really too tired.
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Didn't have time to redo many times, i went out to road for a round and had time to go home. Wah... I took 10min nap and shitted. Washed up and went out.
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I wasn't feeling nervous as usual basically coz i want to sleep. But i was afraid of the mistakes. And faces of Darling, Papa, Edwin and Jiawen kept coming out.... HAHA!!!
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Test route:5, tester: Rohmat.
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I was tested on everything in the circuit. 1st E-brake which i totally screwed the last time. Damn good feeling to "ZAM" brake! HEh HEh! Then, S course, Crank course and all... I made sure i did everything systematically and i CONFIRM ALL THE SAFETY I NEED TO CONFIRM! HAHA!!!
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So in circuit, i got deducted for rolling back and turning when vehicle is stationary. 4points.
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Went out to road, i admit it wasn't really smooth. There are just too many road works around and i need to swerve here and there. And my abruptness when i change lane. That is the worst! So many cars!
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Then i got deducted for wide turns and wrong checking of blind spots, HAHA! So funny!!!!
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I was so scared when we returned to BBDC. I went out of the car and instructor say, he is very good, if you fail i dunno how. HAHA!
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Then he tick tick tick and by now you should know, I PASSED!!!!! HAHAHA!!! SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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And he is really nice, he ask me to go practice more before i really start to drive. Heh Heh!
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So, i can drive NOW! (With Triangel plate)
I ji tao called instructor and mass everyone especially Edwin and Jiawen! HAHA!!! Edwin called me and the whole class shouted "CONGRATS" heh HEh! So happy!
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And here is the nice nice picture which will be on my driving license!!!!!!!!!!!!! HO! ShuANG! O, after that, i called papa to tell him i passed! Heh! So happy, so much for all his driving me around today. Ho!
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I lied to Darling that i failed and he believed! HAHA!!! I went to find him after everything and acted really sad like the previous 2 times. I said i got 24points. He said, "Aiya, fated to go for the 4th time" and guess wad, its not just him, fruit stall de aunty and alvin also believed i failed.
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After emo-ing, i took out the checklist and show him. He see see see and i saw him calculating then he said, "why like so littely ticks", then he turned back, and saw the "passed" and he was like, "WAH LAO, SI CHAR BO, YOU PASS AH!" HAHA!!!
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Then i headed to buy Mac, damn hungry.
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I am so so so happy to share my happiness with everyone!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you everyone for your LUCKS! It helped!
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While having dinner, quarrel with ma again. Aiya.. I am so tired of fighting and crying coz of wadever things she said. I'm just sick of it.
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I know wad she is doing is, yes, for my own good but i dunno... I think i am really old enough to choose the path i want to take. Anyway, i dun even feel like explaining.
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Wanted to sleep but just can't. Darling called to ask wad happen, i was lost for words and just sobbing away....................
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It sucks.
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I woke up and stare into empty spaces, wondering...
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I decided to go run. I ran around my neighbourhood, tearing....
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I'm almost done with fighting... I don't want to fight no more...
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I open the kitchen window, blast the songs in my ear and look into the sky. "What am i supposed to do?"
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30min, i stared into the endless dark sky...
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I'm not asking for too much... Just your understanding... It sucks to be caught in the middle...
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I think i dehydrate myself, drank a lot of water...
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Darkness surge within, Brightness lurks... I just want a balance, where happiness can be attained... That's all.

Soon... It will be done...
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幸福总有代价... 几乎会把人弄得疲惫不堪... 望回头看一看，发现到，付出也太多了... 总在最累人的时候，搀着彼此的手，缓缓走过...
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这一次，为什么，就算牢牢的牵着你的手，却还是有些难走...
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为什么有爱却得不到幸福？
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每每想起那些话语，伤痛了我的心...
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我还是坚持走这条路...有一天，若我不告而别，不要惊讶，不要担心，我会没事，我在寻找自己的幸福...
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看了看日记里写的每一句，想到从前的我们，多么小孩子气... 花了大半年，想要放弃，却因为你，忘记... 暧昧多久，微笑开始，但却再一次，选择离去... 来来去去，寻寻觅觅，绕了大圈，仍绕回你的身边...
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这就是缘分... 苦命鸳鸯,到了最后，一定会有幸福...
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我的承诺，在两年前，已经开始了...

Confession: Didn't sleep well last night coz a lot of things were going through my head. Feel really tired... Supposed to be really happy that a relationship is going well but hai... Its sucks to have to struggle so much to be in love.

Went running with ting last night at around 7.30pm and was good enough i didn't walk the 6 rounds. :D

Didn't feel like going to school today... Totally in no mood to. But i decided to go because i didn't want to stay at home and see you know... Hai...

Is this a sort of punishment?

STMO was cancelled coz we didn't know there was tut, actually i didn't check, so i dunno but everybody seemed to say nothing was uploaded. So we had to reschedule.

Went to find Darling to get earpiece and he returned me some cash. Drank a cup of juice and say Bye Bye to Darling...

Reached home and bathed, it was so hot. And then, you know, the same old thing happened. I didn't bother, just carried on doing my stuff. Maybe i shouldn't mention anything to her... Dun understand why she can't accept things and just wanna argue about it.

I'm tired of trying to make you understand.

After that, was taking down notes, did a bit of PT, then rested a little. I dozed off for 20min. Watched TV then started PT again.

Compiling everything up till just.

Good news: Edwin passed his TP. HAHA! So happy for him..

Now i'm worried about myself. Hai...

I really wish I have the courage... The tears shed is unbelievably more than what I imagined... Why can't I have a family who understands me more... I am no longer 12... I am 20... I have my own thinking... Don't you understand? I am so sick and tired... What if I leave for good? Will you be happy? What if i find another one? Will I be happy? Can't you just be happy for me... It sucks...

Its 11.11pm, 27th July 08. A wonderful weekend is ending soon.

Recap on wad had happened last few days. I guess the happiest thing that occured was the video George took of Edwin, that kind of make me laugh a lot. HAHA! I'm in a crappy class. :D

Thursday was WISP presentation, and well, it ended like that but we still have class. Hai.. He is really long-winded although the stories can be really captivating but 2hours straight, listening to stories, i cannot take it.

Then, i went to fix my lappy coz it kept hanging on me. Well, the guy from lvl6 said it was a good thing i brought my lappy there early, coz the problem was still pretty minor. Hee~ I really won't know wad to do after i graduate, all these virus and problems. GoSh...

Went to buy onigiri and pasta salad and head back to batok. Went to find Darling and gave him an onigiri, met the nice nice aunty again, she is so funny. Anyway, i left after a while.

I dun quite rmb wad happened again. Mama went to cut her hair, dun remember le... Ting saw me while she was on the bus.

Friday was a pretty long day in school. Went to school early for SQTR roleplay, i think i did badly, hope Chiam will be generous. Ha! Then, Val drove us to KAP for Mac breakfast. We had fun eating, chatting and all. Then sad thing was, Val got offence tix on her CAR!!!! And Darling told me, a white tix without price is really BAD! A white tix without price for bike is $70!!!! Heh hEh! Terrible, we shall all share the cost. Sorry VAL!!!

Went back to school, while waiting for Jialing to photocopy notes for us, we were sitting and waiting. I was writing card for wee Ting, its her BIRTHDAY! Hee~

Phone rang from an unfamiliar number, and i thought it was those prank call again but its not. Student from HMS i think. Remember a couple of weeks ago, in the midst of stressing for PT and all other projects, i couldn't take it and went to browse other thing online. In NP mail, there's this Hancock contest and coincidentally, i just watched it like a couple of days ago, so i took part in it. It just asked who is the actor. So i sent. So a couple of weeks later, i got the prize!!! HAHA!!!

Went for STMO, with Jiawen sitting beside me, she haven't been sitting beside me for very very long coz of grouping and project time difference. And we chat every once in a while during the lecture. HAHA! So funny lor...

After lesson, i went to Block 52 to collect prize. Kind of disappointed with the prize but haha, can't expect much. Got a bag, tshirt and a cap. I have no use for it, so i gave it to Darling. Hee~

Ting walked pass Vk and she went to WM with me to buy the things i need. then i walked to her house with her. So nice catching up. HoHo! I ate some stuff while she's having her dinner. Hee~ And i stayed and watch the 7pm show before i went home.

Tired.... Ermmm... I dun rmb wad happened after that.

I did some PT individual project research and really, there's like a bug chunk of information to digest, i really hope i can do well for this 20% report. hO! But not even half way there.

Bought a book at Popular about Marley the laborador, read a few pages already, think its really nice.

Darling has been really sweet, i think he know we shouldn't get mad at each other and he shouldn't have said wad he said, and coz of that, we've been treating each other as loving as ever.

O, i bumped into Terry, ting and liang cai, nice seeing them. Terry looks better with short hair. Hee~

Darling and I met his Shi fu while we were shopping, imagine 10plus years ago, he was learning how to cut hair. Heh HEh!

We had a really cheap and nice dinner... So totally in love with FOOD!!!!

O Ho! We took train to Lot 1 coz he said he was really tired and didn't feel like driving, so i say OK! And we romantic-ly took train to Lot1, hee~ So nice...

I bought 3 pieces of tops from Cotton-on at below $20. HAHAHAHAHA!!! I wanted to get the cardigan but sadly, 2 for $30... Shall wait till there's somebody to share.. So happy, got cheap and nice stuff. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Walked a little bit more, Darling went to try on Levis but he didn't like the shirt.

City Chain, our last stop then we took train back, then darling drove me home. It was about 10pm when i got home. We chatted till he reached JB which was about 10.45pm. We chatted about things like when i come out to work and all... Future... Dunno wad it holds, but i do hope it holds something really good for Darling and I. :D

I've been hovering online since and tmr, meeting for PT presentation prep.

This week is not as pack but its definitely not gonna be easy. JiA yOu!

还是很喜欢，你不自觉地牵起我的手... 喜欢你开车时，握着我的手... 我不会放弃这段感情，因为我知道，你为了我，付出了很多，舍弃了很多... 不会让你白等的... 我爱你，是不变的承诺...

Its 11:46pm.

Ladies and gentlemen, may i present to you the video which makes my DAYS!

Elaboration:

Wednesday/ 2pm/ RMTR Lecture

Actor: Edwin

Extra: Apple, Vincent, Juchi

Voice: Mrs Koh

Director: Guan Ji

"I have a friend, her name is apple, she is the apple in my eye. But there is a worm in the apple, so, she is the apple with a worm, in my eye."

He made my day, yesterday, today and i guess tomorrow.

Certain problems arises between my Darling and myself and that parent of mine. But i guess no amount of persistence can change my stubborn mind. I just hope Darling can understand that. Everything is fine at the moment, i hope it will be fine forever.

:)

I still love you, Darling... That's a promise for life... 唯有三个字，从未改变，希望你会明白...

Why is there always something wrong with my MSN?! Stupid runtime error!!!!!!!!! F*ck OFF!

Has been pretty rough recently. So much things to do and this family..... Hai... As much as i want to love it, i hate it. Dun understand why there can still be such old fashion people on this earth. Mind you, its the 21st century, there's a huge hole in the ozone layer, dino no longer exists, communication is typed on computer, not craved on rocks!

Sick and tired of the nuisance you continuously come out with. Just how will you accept things the way it is? Will you be happy to see the thing i see best slip away? Just when will you stop, stop your ridiculous protection.

I wish i can walk away... I wish i have the courage to...

NAPFA today was so disappointing... No longer as fit as a fiddle... :(

Shall turn in soon...

难得可以让自己休息一会儿... 虽然是有东西做，我却选择，偷个懒... 累坏了... 大家都累坏了...

Even my mood is not really good. I get pissed off easily recently by little things, even when i'm with Darling, i choose to remain silent most of the time in case i spark anything off.

Hai... Sucks... This feeling sucks...

Anyhow, assume driving lesson today, and i think i suck at driving. HAHA! Today wasn't really a good day. Already wasn't driving wear, my slipper just kept getting stuck while i was biting clutch. And, an accident occured at Teck Whye... Its not me, dun get the wrong idea... Its a cab and some car. The cab's butt was totally crashed. I hope everything is ok for the drivers and passengers. :( Driving is very dangerous, that's wad my instructor kept repeating to me.

Back home, i slack all the way... O no, i didn peer evaluation this afternoon, k, its only a bit. HeH!

Didn't do tmr's tut, shall leave it to class tmr. Wed got PT briefing and RMTR quiz, Thurs got WISP presentation, Friday is another freaking long day coz of STMO. Weekend need to begin on PT individual report, submission is due very soon, Wed got SQTR roleplay, Friday is the major presentation at Intercon and my TP. O... I need to slot in Thurs dinner with the old netball girls... Old... HAHA!

K, totally packed. How did i get through the sem this way?

不想在乎太多了，我想尝试放松些，让自己适应你的那一套... 让我说一句非常小孩子气的话，“你们那些女人，别想碰我的darling！” 幸福的我们，不需要任何吵杂... 因为有彼此才有存在...

Sick and tired...

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I will take time to analyse the situation, ask him in what state of mind did he betray me. If he did it on purpose, then i guess there's no point hanging on. If he did it by impulse, depending on reasons, maybe i will forgive. It all depends on how love is your love. :)

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Ermm... To have a more understanding family.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Dream wedding, I WANT IT BIG BIG BIG! Extravagant!!! But too bad, that's dream. I think i just want a normal wedding, just as long as its within our means and we are happy. :D

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Confuse? Maybe... Just a little bit... More of uncertainty.

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
Perhaps you wanna take a look at my Darling? Hee~ Just someone i love and loves me. :D

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both!

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Ermmm.... Let me see.... 1, 2, 3..... He will be online tonight leh... HA! Seriously, if this one is not the one i really love, i will wait as long as i can till he kneels before me. Ho!

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Ya, he is already attached, and he is attached to me. HEh! I'm being crappy! I won't do anything. I believe that if something or someone wants to come, that something or someone, will come.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yes... A LOT! School has been hard to get by, not having enough sleep, irregular period and the list goes on...

#10. Is being tagged fun?
Not all the time...

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Probably married with 2 or 3 children, have a stable career in tourism industry and a loving husband who has his own business. :D

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family, my Darling and some of the precious people around me (inclduing the person who tagged me!)

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
She is a young girl who has been through quite some stuff, someone who is pretty impulsive on certain things but still can be rationale on others. She is kind and lovely. She got long long hair, small eyes (which she always complains) and tiny lips which i think are very kissable... Ho!

She is my beloved Aiai. :D

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
Married but poor because at least there is somebody i can share everything with. :D And, we can always earn money. Correct? Hee~

#15. What’s the first thing you do every morning?
Switch off alarm clock. :(

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Again, that depends on how serious the relationship is. I would if my rational mind say yes.
60% heart and 40% mind (trying to achieve) Currently, its bout 70-30. Ho!

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Speaking from a Taurus point of view, taurus logically won't fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously. But if such a case arise, i won't do the picking, i'll let THEM do the picking because in this sort of situation, there's bound to be 1 who would give up.

#18. What type of friends do you like?
Friends who will be there for me when i need them to. Friends who share the mindset. Friends who, well, can do all sorts of crap with me. :D

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
Insensitive, arrogant, hypocrites, sadistic, ermmmm..... O, Bitches are a big NO NO!

Tagged by : Jennifer Ai Ai
I tag : Anyone who wants to do it! But i think cannot copy from my blog leh... Ho!

And this is the Window Display i was talking about on my previous post. Its for Retail managment, mimicking how to display if we wanna sell. If you happen to walk pass Blk 72 with all the glass door classes, you will see this, it'll be there for a week. The theme is: Exam PrepI won't say i did a lot because i wasn't really sure what happen after discussion with my group. Its a project for 2 groups from 2 classes, but that day, i helped out a little. Quite nicely done i think... Cheers to the 2 groups! :DAnd ya, nothing to do, post a pic of myself after darling's doing in the toilet. Heh HEh! Nice curls.... On Friday, went to school for PT, and April Ng commented on some stuff, but it was a good thing, the content is safe, just the arrangements and all.
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Then went for STMO, which was kind of ehhhh.... ya... You know wad i wanna say... As much as she wants to interest us, or maybe me, she just didn't get the whole of me. Heh hEh!
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Some of them went running after school, but i headed back. I got Darling to buy Green Apple juice for me, and i went home, and decided i should go run.
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After running, i conclude, i think i will fail my 2.4km. HAha! My stamina is damn bad can... Hai...
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Then, the rest of the night, i dun rmb wad i did again, i think i fix some PT stuff, and i wanted to go WISP reflection but i didn't. After that..... I think Darling came online so we chatted a bit and i headed to bed? I think...
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I had a bad dream i remembered, many dreams nowadays, making me dizzy... Dreams make people feel tired, i think i am stress again.. Whenever i kept dreaming, means i'm stress, whenever dandruff starts to develop, i am stress but i was wondering, is my dandruff from the cause of colouring my hair or i am stress... K, i think a bit of both.
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Anyway, i went to feast a little with Darling! HAHA! Japanese food is awesome! Ho! Shake Sashimi, just can't resist it! OMG! Its so so so so so so so nice can... The wasabi went all over my mouth, but it is still so good.... And Sashimi is so fresh. Even the California Maki tastes like heaven. HoHo! Somemore, the curry udon, muack muack muacks... OMG!!! O, and Jellyfish also... Its like all so good... Really... Can faint after eating, so satisfied! But well, it costs around 40plus for that, between 2 persons. Hee~ But, i guess its worth it, haven't had that for so long... Darling loves all of it tooo... We share the same tastebuds. Ho!
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I didn't sleep well last night, i dunno, insomnia... I guess... Stress... HAHA!!!
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Darling is so tired these few days, he has been very busy. Poor thing... Hai... I have been very busy too... Its nice to have each other to comfort each other though they're 2 very different thing. Hee~
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My Darling is officially 32 le, his birthday week is over and the aftermath of his BD, you know... Heh hEh! I need to start saving money again. :D He is HAPPY... I am HAPPY (with stress)!!!!
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Was just doing PT with the girls, making some big changes to the report. Feel so bad towards Sufang, she seems to be doing a lot. And she will go missing suddenly.. HAHA! Not in a bad way, she is doing up the report. HEh HEh!
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IBS networking tmr, formal again... I need to stock up some formal clothings soon but but but.... no $$$$$....
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Beginning to question myself, even when everything is so calm... 开始幻想，选择的对错... 但我仍相信，我行的！或许只是，最近，累了些... 日子会慢慢恢复正常...

Hai... I accidentally deleted some pictures i took today. I wanted to show everyone how childish Edwin is... Heh heh! And of course, I childish back to him... HEH! But too bad, i deleted the pictures by accident. O well, not meant to be i guess...

Woke up with red and swollen eye, scare the hell out of me, i thought i got sore eye... But good thing, after the whole morning, it wasn't so red anymore and now, only a bit of redness on some veins... No eyeliner to school... Hee~

Then, after IS, which we didn't do anything again for the 2nd week, i went to meet Jiawen and Joan for lunch, wai wah coincidentally joined us. So long since we last met her, she look so punk'd, haha!!! She is so funny can, her 25-year-old friend more funny. Heh Heh! But it was a short meet up only coz we gotta go do RMTR window display.

Did some stuff, display all the things for the window display then i got to rush to meet June and Dear to pass the angels.

Met up and went back. Looked for Darling and chatted briefly then headed home. Was feeling really tired...

Reached home and rested...

I received my ordered shirt, cheap deal...

I think i saw somebody just now but i purposely dun wanna look too much... O well, not somebody worth saying hi to, somebody i wished i nv know... O well...

Tmr another round of biang-ing...

DON'T SAY I NO LIFE! I AM FULL OF SCHOOL LIFE... (Assignments wise)

When you feel today is free, something has to crop up...

When you know you have plans tomorrow, something has to mess the plan...

When you think you can sleep early tonight, you just have to stay up to do something...

Something... School has been making all of us panting...

Today, i realised, i've given so much to make things work, to change things, to create a whole new thing... But to maintain it, is another thing.

I look back, something i haven't been doing for a long while... I've changed so much... I am no longer the person you knew me as so long ago... This is growing up... There are so many things that i've learnt, things which i have no idea when i was 15.

Crawling all over just to find a clue of what was of before... No longer where I was, standing at this point, clueless of the next step to take.

I am lucky, i am in a course which in future, i know i'll have this much. I will be able to have many alternatives, because what i am in is the key to many places. I am so lucky...

And... I am in love...

Feeling tired now but i shall blog before i turn in, been so many days...
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On Friday, during STMO class, i dun remember when, but Edwin was sitting behind me and i turned around showing him something, and then he drew this. HAHA! I still dunno why Edwin is an elephant.... On Friday night, was doing IBS prep for solution selling on Monday coz i know i won't have time on Sat and Sun. On Sat, was doing something, i know, but i dun remember wad... HAHA!!! Too many things to remember.
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On Saturday, i remembered i completed most of the things for IBS SSC, and was reading through STMO tut and there's a lot to do. Then, i forgot everything again. The only thing is, i rmb i kept asking Juchi IBS stuff and i asked Edith too. Heh HEh! That kind of occupied my memory, i guess i did do some PT, i guess...
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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This is the 2nd time i've officially spent his BD with him... I'm honoured, definitely. :D He seems happy the few days which we met up and definitely smiling and cracking jokes. Its nice to know that he is happy.
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Birthday comes with present.. And i made a card for Darling and bought him the most expensive stuff i've spent on. The card is so nice can, i actually ran out of ideas and use nail polish to write the words. Heh Heh! If you notice, those 2 little dots are from SK Jewellery...
I was kind of scared he'd get angry coz i spent so much on his gift coz he already warned me not to buy things over $50 but well, way over that limit. Heh! But he likes it, and he didn't get mad. He likes it! That's the most important thing.
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He gave me 1 of it, so we are wearing 1 each now, mine of side of my ear and the highest pierce, and his on the left side of his ear and the highest pierce as well. Heh heh! So romantic... Strictly speaking, today is the official day of his Birthday. So, after school today with the some presentations and many listenings, i went home, rested a bit and started cooking.
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I forgot to take pictures, i cooked Mian Xian and Red eggs for Darling and i bought a small chocolate fudge cake from EMI cake... He said, he haven't had those for more than 20 years already...
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Back home, did some update on PT and then looked through RMTR, then TRMK lecture notes, and looked through WISP and ya... There's a lot...
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很开心你开心... 希望简单的生日会让你开心... 你说你很开心，“这几天都很开心，简单也是一种美...” 我也开心，因为，你在我身边，因为，你开心... Wishing you a Marvellous 32nd Birthday, still 12 years my senior, 12 years more love to offer... I love you, darling...

Let the pictures say it all.... I miss you, girl...

BEST HAIRSTYLIST BOYFRIEND AWARD GOES TO........ *DRuM rOllsSSS*........... EDDIE DARLING HOO!!!!!

I'm just being bo liao... Nice curls ah...

Hai... Feel like killing myself again. Suddenly realized there's a lot to do again.

Met up with Aiai this afternoon for lunch, a slow catch up session, and to shop for gifts for Terry Goh's son and my Darling. And yes, i spent a lot on 2 things today.

Had Pastamania with Aiai, and yum Yum, haven't pampered myself that way for a while. Ho! Then we chatted bout some of the things that happened recently. Hai... SO sad... Chung Ee got 2 gfs, Aiai and Hun. Ho!

After that, i went to deposit some cash which i've saved then i went to find darling to show him the pressie i bought for Travis and make him itch for his! HA!

Then i played a bit of PSP and headed back home. :D Muacks my DarLing...

Came online to fix the surveys again. Didn't have for me to start off the report but i did a bit without much statistics.

That took me long enough.

Bathed, had dinner and watched some TV.

Came online and tried to do something for the report again. Hai... No mood to do it at all. Too much to do...

Tmr got WISP presentation. Crap, i just wanna get it over and done with.

PT's presentation is gonna be at Intercontinental... Such a big scene! Gosh... That's how stress everything is gonna be.

Hai...

At least i received some good news today, unexpected. Ho! :)

Nights!

She left.... She left today...

Where should I start? Been rushing for quite some stuff recently, projects. Though there aren't a lot left, but the few left requires that much of effort to be put in. I remembered survey collation and anaylsis, the rest, i got brainwashed.
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Quite a long day in school on Friday, again, i dun really rmb anything that happened. O! Jiawen forgot her laptop. HAHA!!! And i went back and found a tutor nice enough to lend me the classroom key to open the room. HAHA!
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After that, i was with Jewel all the while.. Brought her out to walk walk, feed her and all... She is cute. :D
Was a little bit emotional when Darling talked about Jewel leaving, and i kind of broke down in tears... HA! No lah, just teary, didn't broke down. This week seems to be so long, she has been a really good dog to be with, so human-like.
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I had a little tiff with Darling coz he finds me a nuisance when i tried to understand how he feels. Was so mad can... But i guess, i was partially at fault, coz i ask too much. He was funny, he senses i was angry and tried to make me un-angry. So bad! I try to make him un-angry cannot, he try to make me can. Heh! He is a good Darling... See the way he realised he offended me.. Hee~
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We had an awesome dinner at the quite ex de restaurant but again, the food did not fail us. :D
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I brought Jewel to walk walk and she shitted, she is so paiseh coz i was starin at her shit. HAHA! So cute!
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Darling let me park his car. Heh! Which i did not do a good job and a f*cking ill-mannered uncle honked at me for no reason, i already gave way for him can. It s Toyota Altis, Ass that uncle!
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Anyway, having la kopi and green tea, Darling and I decided to go watch movie, coz anyway its gonna jam at custom. Went to JP and bought Tic for Hancock then we roam around JP. Really nice to shop with Darling... :D Enjoyable as always.
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Hancock was awesome, not really hero hero, lots of love is involved, its a really nice one! Go watch! Worth it!
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11.10pm when he movie ended. Leslie, Andy was K-ing so Darling said we should dropped by since its the dunnoe how many times they asked him to go but he didn't. So we went to JE to join them.
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I didn't know K box on Sunday night is free, only charged on the drinks. So, there were Andy and gf, Leslie, Pamela and gf, Darling and me, and Zhu Zhu joined us too.
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Wanted to stay awhile only but it went on and on and on, heinken after heinken, till 3am. HA! Darling drove them back and came to my place to stay over. Poor him lah...
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O, i was already feeling itchy in my throat.
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Sure enough, i woke up with my throat sore and my nose blocked again! This is like the 2nd time this year. HAi...
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Walked Darling down to his car and kiss him bye bye, while i walk Jewel. I cannot tahan my mucus, so after she peed and pooed, i went back up to rest.
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Stayed at home to complete my TRMK/STMO slides and rested. Woke up, throat is alright but nose blocked. Hai...
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Hun called to go find Darling to check his bike, so i say ok. He came to give me a lift. HA! It wasn't really scary, he is pretty good, didn't like his braking though. HA!
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Darling was busy, so i chatted with Hun for a while about this and that, then Darling came to see his bike. He, then went to fix his bike while i wait.
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Suddenly, ting popped by and i went to WM with her to get her things.
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Darling gave her a lift back then me.
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Darling wanted to go have dinner, :p, but i thought he was tired. He was still jamming at 10pm. Hai.. I hope he is at JB already.
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Darling I love you.. I am trying very hard to comprehend... 我爱你，不是一瞬间的事，是如此如此多年的酝酿... 我们尝试不再纳闷了，可以吗？

Should i say i am busy these few days? Yes, very busy.... No mood to blog much so till another time. CIAO!

:D

Taking care of a dog is a tedious job. She is so active every now and then. I managed to tire her out by walking her to Darling's place. But at the same time, i tire myself out. When she came back, she just rested and drink lots of water. She is such a cutie but she kind of stinks, dunno how to bath her, waiting for kor kor to off tmr to bath her so she can smell nice nice again.

Acting just like a kid who needs lots of love... Heh hEh! mUacks to the little one, she's fat. HAHA!

Darling find her cute cute also. Hee~ Mama become very cute with her around too, Mama just start talking about her everyday. HAHA!!!

Just now, when i was shitting in the toilet, Jewel cannot find me, she sneaked to mama who is washing clothes in another toilet then mama came out to find me. HAHA!!!

Mama told me when i was sleeping, Jewel kept pacing in and out of my room, finding a place to sleep also, but didn't disturb me. SHE IS SO CUTE!!! HAHA!!!

I really can live with a doggy... Dunno Mama want not. But it sure is a tough job.

And now, she is laying under my table while i use my lappy, she is such a obedient one. O, her poo poo is yellow de. HAHA!!!

My period came just when the little one dragged me around. She makes the painful moments less painful.

Miss Darling these few days... Dunno wad is he up to... Hai... Ask him out for dinner tmr night. Yesterday chat with him a bit online, no cam, he sounded tired, so didn't talk much also. Ermmmm... WAD's GOING ON?! HAHA!!! No worries, i'm just being paranoid.

你是我的我的永远永远唯一的DARLING! 真高兴有你，牵着我走了那么长的路...

There is a dog at my house. Her name is Jewel. She is not lost neither is she stolen, she is a dog of my Da kor's friend, she will be here for 1 week.
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I'm already loving her... HoHo!
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She came to our house, and she dun dare to come in, so we tried to coax her so badly. Put her inside the cage and let her fall asleep. I was too worried, i woke up at 12plus am to see her again.
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Next morning, i woke up early and play with her a little bit. She is so obedient can...
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After school, i came straight home wanting to see her more, took her out of the cage and let her roam around. She looked at me ate lunch. I kind of know she wants to go out coz she started making weird sounds.
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So i rushed my lunch down my throat, and bring her out.
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She dashed out of the flat. And she kept running... WAH...
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Half an hour later, i brought her back. Wiped her feet and mouth then gave her water to drink.
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Then i cut an apple for her to eat. She is so cute, she ate the whole apple. HOHO! Its a Fuji Apple k.
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She kept going to the door and mama says she wanna go out, so i took her out again. WAH LAO! SO tired can. She kept runnin de!
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Now, she is resting beside me on her pink carpet while mama sweep and mop the floor after her salivas dripped all over.
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SO CUTE CAN!