"ASS" "U" "ME" --> Quoted from Mrs Loo

It is a day of assurance... Got pple having the same sentiments as me... Lots of pple are changing in the hotel, it kind of sux. It was once said "It is in changes that we find purpose." but kiss my ass on this situation... In the hotel, NONONO!!! It is not in changes that they find purpose, it is in changes that they find torture... HAHA!!! I looked around today, many pple have changed, not for the better but for the worse, not for the goodness of the place, but they failure of it. I'm not throwing wet blanket or wadever, it's a fact lor... Seriously, look around, who actually works like we did? I'm not as good, but at least i did my best. If they tell me they did their best, i'll chop my head off for u... Attitude problems not only applies to PT like us but it extends all the way to the AM... So, dun generalise anything... Hai.. I wanna find another job man... Bring the newspaper on!

Time has been passing fast, i haven't find the purpose of life... It's kind of sick doing stuff all over again, everyday, time to time, very single second... Get a life...

Work today was fine, a few pple showed me their too lan face for not much reason, they assumed too much... Dun make an ass out of you and me, as the word implies ( "ASS" "U" "ME") U see, pple assume too much, so they make more mistake and misunderstood the meaning of wad other pple want... So u can kiss my ass if u wanna make an ass out of u and me, ok? Heh!

I caught someone looking or rather staring at me today... Heh Heh! Flattered? No, strange... HAHA!!! Anyway, i looked so ugly in the cheongsome thingy, so i would rather no one looks at me...

Reached home just now, watching Discovery Channel. It's called "Megastructure" and some of the stuff it talks about is so interesting... And i know leh... HeH! Cannot blame, D&T student... Really, it's been a while since i read up or write anything... It kind of brings some educational purpose back to my life, who says TV is bad? I'm missing school, its a sad thing that i can never go back to Sec. school le... Missing it a lot... But well, that's how life goes right? We move on... Always...

U got anger? I have mine too! We're all human...

Homey...

Home all day slacking!

Just now, Uncle Jesher came to settle some insurance thing with my ma... Ermm... A man like him is admirable but sometimes the words that come out of his mouth is kind of provoking... HeH! Anyway, he's one of those successful insurance agent around, my ma bought an insurance policy for me when i was 5... A study insurance... heH! Now that my CPF has been transferred over to Great Eastern, everything can be handled much easier... Muhaha!

So, later on, i went to played some PS2 and i finally found one game that is DAmn fun... So it went on till 5 plus... A bit hungry so ate something...

Night came, i'm still slacking at home, watch TV then went on to play game again... It's good to be home... LOVE it! U know, after so many days of being outside, it is always good to come back home... That's why they say "Home sweet home".

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It's me...

Boring...

Home all day... Didn't go Sentosa coz i received news that they were not going but i think they did in the end... Anyway, i wasn't in the mood... So i cleaned up the mess i made during O level and got all the books out. Now, they're waiting for tHe karang guni man...

Bored and tired, asked yuting to go watch movie with me... The Chronicles of Narnia... Walt disney pictures, i always love their production, this is not an exception either... Initially, Terry Goh sms-ed me thinking i was at Sentosa, but then i wasn't, then he crapped a bit to me then i crapped bacK! HAHA!!!! Funny wor... red underwears huh, i doubt he can be superman with his size... HA!!!! CraP!

Anyhow, i was amazed last night when Yuting suddenly sent me a weird sms... K, i guess she's feeling down bout certain things which she refused to disclose and so i chose not to force her after much asking... Well, it's a part of growing up, crying for that someone u want so much but never can u get it... Sometimes, it is better to face it than to escape it coz no matter how much u tried to escape, u can never escape reality... Life is so... No choice... Face it...

I painted my fingernails black, it can only last for another day coz i'm working on Thurs... Hee~ It looks good... I'm gonna continue to paint it black after i finish this job... Time to plan when can i go for my rebonding liao... HArd Up...

Looks like life is still the same as it is... Not much disturbance.. Ermm... Not exactly so, there's some... I am kind of fed up with pple who dunnoe wad is, "i'm not interested." So stop pestering me when i show u that sickening face or refuse to reply ur sms lah hor... Thanks...

Dun ask for too much from someone who can only give you that much...

Woo...

Last night was just another day of weird happenings... Woke up at 1pm, actually wanted to continue to sleep de but then got work, so no choice, woke up, then went to pass Yuting's choco to her coz she left it with me the other night. Afterwhich, went to buy my lunch...

I went to work very late but luckily i was able to rush it out... HA! Reached just in time for briefing... Xmas dinner... Ermm.. The pple from the company is so Crazy... Fancy getting drank even when the dinner haven't start... Funny lor... I was like laughing at the guests instead of the Emcee...Hee~

I wasn't really happy bout working again... though it wasn't as busy or as tiring but the fun i had the other night was enough to kill me... Wah lao, I considerately told Hui Rui that she seemed tired so let her portion then she take it as let her do the easy job for the whole night... In the end, I was the only one doing most of the stuff... Quite pissed but well, who am i to say anything? HeH!

Christopher, a change of position means a change of person... Well, maybe that's true, but dun have to change till like that mah... Not that i wanna badmouth him lah but u know, Friday night, Sasa and co with me went to eat supper then went back for transport, k, let's say this, we're wrong to do that, but we never actually got a proper warning bout it. He saw us and scolded us, saying he had said it b4... I was too tired to respond to anything. Then, i thought bout it, he looked at us and scolded us but didn't scold the others... The others which included their PT coordinator, ex-coordinator and the present coordinator's brother... So?! Wad does that imply? U guess...

Anyway, last night actually wanted to join them for supper at Newton de, but something kind of happened so i stayed to listen to the story... It's bout some internal politics within the hotel. Ah mao was commending bout it while i sat there and listen... Another bad impression of "the higher u go, the more arrogant u r" HeH...

O ya, something freaked me out last night while working... WEi yi's friends played a prank on me, i was in a shock and really thought something is wrong with yi... HA! Good thing it was a joke arbo i am gonna get real embarass...

Also, i squeezed the cream out for the pudding last night! HAHA!!!! It was so quiet in the kitchen that we can actually play... HA! It was fun... Satisfying... Hee~

On the transport back last night, i was thinking bout a lot of stuff... Some stuff just crossed my mind... Seems like life is so much better with a whole bunch of great great friends rather than let it revolve around a single one.. U know how awesome it can be? Like when u strike a lottery, multiply by a million times... HA!

JOey admitted that he's not a good planner, so i need to admit that i'm not a good guide... So, on this, we are even but still, u didn't help during BBQ, i'm flaming u! HAH!!!

I'm not working for the next 2 days! CAN REST ALL I WANT!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!

Maybe we're different, but we are still the same, we got the same blood running through our veins... Remember every new beginning is some beginnings end...

Long Long blog...

It is time to blog!!! If i dun blog now, i wun have any other time liao, moreover, i'm waiting for my hair to dry...

Let's recap, on wed, Terry, PH and I went to IMM to buy the bbq stuff for the chalet... We waited for Fish like hell, and it's so hard to even reach her.. So in the end, i gotta pass her warranty card to Trish and i left with the 2 guys to East Coast. Once we reached, i buay tahan, sit down, rest, coz i'm just too tired from work on Tues. Also for the fact that i dunnoe the few pple there whom now, i know... HeH! The 1st day was rather boring coz the others came pretty late coz they got a banquet dinner to attend so the fun pretty much began in the night. The guys decided to go for a moonlight swim, so i tagged along... I watched them swim, slam and throw each other in the water with Wei Yi and 2 other unknow guys by my side. It was fun enough to watch em play. Then, wyman came and steal their clothes away... HAHa!!! Didn't really sleep, were watching TV, talking cock until 4 plus. O ya, between that time, i was helping some of the guys to shave their eyebrows... Began with Danial coz his brows were so bushy, so then one after another... HAHA!!! Also, i did make-up for WEI YI!! Yes, he's a guy... So pretty after that... HAHA!!!!! lights kind of just went off and we all fell asleep... Ok, my sleeping pose kind of affected me, cos there was a fridge there, i can't stretched my leg, moreover, the 3 girls were sharing a bed, i'd already done my best to sleep the smallest area... Legs got numbed a few times.

Thurs, woke up early but stayed at the place watched tv until afternoon, started raining, no one can go out, played blackjack and surprisingly, i won a lot... Fromt the initial $2 plus to the $8 plus... HAHA! Not bad, coz i dun play big... It was during that time that i started to fold Love shape using the $2 notes... Hee~

Then, after the rain subsided, the guys went for a swim again, the few of us stayed on to start fire... Guess wad, it's the 1st time i played a part in starting fire during BBq, most of the time, the guys did it... HAHA!!! But hor, i must mention this... JOEY CHAN WAS STANDING THERE LOOKING AND NOT HELPING AT ALL!!!!!!! SO DID MING MING!!!!!!!!!! THERE JUST STAND THERE AND WATCH THE GIRLS WORK!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA!!!! (See this, joey? Like it? HAHA!!!)

During BBq, KOk hong's jie and jie fu came, wah lao, i tell u or, the jie fu looks damn like somebody, somebody who i hate a lot lor! But leh, he's of coz different, from wad kok hong illustrated, he's a man of dignity, though he looks beng... HA! Anyway, the girls were submerged in TV and talking on phone while the guys were playing cards, i was kind of bored coz i wasn't interested in any, so i went out and sit, watch the nightsky and at the same time, waited for Ting to come... It was then when Weiyi came out and pei me... Then pple inside kept talking bout yi an me.. wah lao, cannot stand.. Finally, when ting called, i asked yi to come along with me to get her, in the end, ting got to the wrong place, which was partly our fault, so we went back with nothing... And pple were like, "Wah, come back liao ar?!" And everything, didn't think much, went out, continue to watch the sky... Now, Kok hong jie was bbqing again... Ting came, she ate, i ate as well, and after a while, i went in to get wash hands, and get another drink. Kok hong offered a glass of brandy with coke. So i say ok... A cheers, and 1 gulp down... Wah lao, the coke very little lor... Was expecting myself to turn red but surprisingly, i didn't. Ha! Ermm... Actually i drank quite a bit for the 2 days, just take bit by bit and drank.. HA! Then, Fish and all were going back, i didn't know fish drank a lot, so on the way out she said she wanna vomit so after a few steps, she did, and it's kind of disgusting... HAi... Dunno her limits...

So, just went back, played a bit of blackjack, and buay tahan, i laid down and sms... HA! When suddenly, pple started to fight... I sat up and saw Stanley and Ben fighting... Wah lao... A bit of bickering turn violent... Unsure of wad happened, i just followed instruction, went out, let the jie fu do the job... Scare me a little, and then we all went to the bench... Talking to ben bout it, it must have hurt a lot when he's elbowed on his back... Wah lAo!!! So we walked the beach, they carried to mumble bout me and yi but i ignored and pulled ting into the thing... HA! Walked all the way to MAc and drink Lemon tea then walked back and sleep... A lot talking was done along the way with everyone... It was fun...

So i met a few new friends from school... Ben, stanley and Yan xun, another few nice pple... ben gave me a real hilarious 1st impression, yan xun is the fake Jay chou and Stanley scare me when he fights... HA!

Next day...When i reached hotel it's like 15min b4 work starts and i haven't even tied my hair and all... Shit man! Rushed but still late for 3 min... HA! Lunch... Very cham...I was walking so much, coz there was no one to help me, i started to feel tired... Up till 12, Sasa came and i'm glad, but still, tired...1st time working with terry after almost a year, and he kept talking crap, like he usually did... And beat pple... Cannot stand hotel's pple lor, i was practically being tortured everytime i worked, mentally and physically... Kao...

Evening arrived, i was half-dead, just like a walking Zombie, YUsoff asked me to Usher, and i was a bit pissed... So i told him, "Wah lao, i'm like walking zombie leh..." but nvm, went to usher... LAter, when he came down, he said "Apple, u ok not, u go back, ask Aiying to come down.." I say "nvm, i'm ok, just tired" I tried to put on my very best that night and i supposed i did... Nice working with Siqi, hopefully, it wasn't bad for her... HA!

Wah kao, PH sms something and shocked the hell out of me, telling me wad if "somebody" is interested in you, will u accept? I ji tao got startled... And the rest of the night, was a bit distracted by it, good thing it's nearing the end... HA!

ANyway, night ended, i dragged my way down, waited for a long time, got my pay, and we went to eat... WAh lao! While cutting the chicken shop, my finger cramp... And it's the middle finger... It was so funny that i laughed till my tears came out... HAHA!!!!

Home, i smsed a few pple a bit and after a few seconds i concussed... Till 2pm this afternoon... U know 3 days without proper sleep, cannot...

Just now, went to celebrate xmas, or should i say being sprayed and dirtied all over... Wah lao! Buay tahan, the AH nehs so lust lor... Somebody touched my butt and i was damn damn pissed! If it's not on purpose then nvm, but he grabbed it lor! I ji tao shocked yi xia, and stared at that damn fellow... I was pissed for a bout half an hour... All the spraying made me coughed a lot... Still, it is the best Xmas i've had... Coz it's with the guys, and ling hui is around too... HAHA!!!! O ya, coz of the sms PH sent to me the night b4, i didn't talk much to the "somebody"... Ha! Paiseh leh...

Joey, u r lucky, i'm tired now, dun wanna continue le, so i wun flame u... We know wad i'm saying is enough... HA!

Pple, I love u all! Dun miss me too much and rmb to live life to the fullest... Apple Is always here!!!!!!! Merry Xmas!!!!!

Feelings exposed...

Geez... I just read my kor's and Hui's blog...

Bt kor's blog... Ermm... The beginning part was not really understandable coz of all the FYT stuff... U know, he's school work, which i dun understand... LAst para... My reply: Thanks kor, i appreciate it... Ya, probably i shouldn't have been so bad but it's not easy to control when u know that u r right but end up being wrong... Sick of trying... Very sick... ANother to add... Called my Ma just now b4 work start to tell her that i'm going chalet tml, her reply was "It's ur problem, i dun wanna care." I hung up without replying, and cried... I tried to make things better by making the 1st move, but wad she said hurt me... U know, it hurts... Anyway, if that's wad it's gonna be, then let it be... I dun wanna try anymore... That's the bottom line...

Hui's blog... So romantic... I was so totally touched by everything single thing she wrote bout the love of her and Nadhir... Amazed for the fact that the relationship is not really known by all, but still it is strong... And then, when she wrote, "evetually everything will turn out well" It touched me again, coz it is really hard to find someone who can say that without hesitating... I respect ur relationship with him, my friend... U have my blessing... Even if i gotta go attend ur wedding under the void deck, i dun mind... HAHA!!!! I'm just glad, u found ur baby... I'm still looking for mine... hee~

Feelings exposed coz i was touched and hurt... However, I smiled, coz i know that everyone else are happy...

Lots of news...

Just got back from work half an hour ago... Erm... Rotary club... WAh lao.. Just like Roy said himself, whenever he's doing rotary club, there would be a lot of pple... Indeed so... This is my 1st time seeing so many pple coming... The last time only had 4 or so pple... Heh! And they were singing Xmas carols.. I was a bit paiseh standing there lah... Anyway, the whole thing ended, and i was clearing Up... The last guy told me to wrapped up the cakes, so ok, i went up, wrapped it up for him... Afterwhich, he started telling me his life stories... AMazed as i was, i dunnoe wad to say... Ya, probably u have heard of him.. Detective Harmon Singh? HeH! One of the great detectives around... Tml night, 10pm, Channel 5, u'll see him... How i know? I had a long chat with him... HAHA!!!! He is a bit funny lah, he said if i got any prob can call him, 1am, 2am, nvm... HAHA!!! Ok, that's nice of him but i doubt i will do that... B4 he left, he took photos with me and Tony! Gosh... It's damn weird... But then again, he meant well.. Hee~

HAHAHA!!! Pleasant day at work, no torture, no tiredness, I'm so so happy... Working with Roy was, ermm... Nothing much lah, coz 3/4 of the time, he's not there, i'm pretty much working alone.. HEH!

Tml going Chalet liao... HAHA!!! Time to play again... A bit hard up though... No cash... Anyway, can go sun bath a bit and relax with old friends... HAHA!!!

Ermm... ACtually Bt kor wanna go Sentosa on Friday de, but can't, coz we're all working... So, a little sad but well, there's always next week... Speaking of which, Chris said bout going to Sentosa on Monday... HeH! Coz the whole Banquet team is off! Hee~ O ya, speaking of Chris, he got promoted, wah lao... No wonder he kept asking me to buy tie for him but leh, u think i will meh? I'm not Si wei... HAHA!!!! Congrats him le... And terry Goh is Promoted too! Congrats to the both of them! See, i'm so good at digging news... HAHA!!!! No lah, somehow, i just got to know it... I'm smart u know... HA!

Right, i chatted with Faizal yesterday... He's still in F&B work but he changed to another tourist attraction, Sentosa! HAHA!!! the last time was Night Safari, now, Sentosa... Cute lah him... Well, we're in the same line wor... Hee~ Well, glad he's doing well out there, afterall, Faizal is Faizal...

Kk, i'm gonna go prepare the stuff for the 2 nights' stay...

Ciao!

Trying no more...

I'm kind of sick and tired of trying so hard... Somehow wadever i tried to do goes down the drain... Y must i be me? Y must i be born in this family? With parents like that? With brothers like that? Did i do something wrong? Wad is wrong with relaxing at home, dun wanna be disturb, and not have to have any responsibility? Minor things like, keeping the laundry, must i be the one who does it? When i'm not at home, it's also like that! Y must it be me when i'm at home? Can't anyone else do it? Wad?! I'm a freaking girl who have to take all these damn responsibilities? JUst coz i'm a Girl?!

So wad if the 2 guys gotta work? I, too, am working! Part-time maybe, but i support myself... I dun ask for more! They?! They still got their everyday allowance! Me?! SUPPORTING MY OWN DAMN ASS!!!

Dun wanna say liao... I'm crying already... I've had it...

My day...

Tell u something that is really embarassing... I sent an sms out... Normal right? But it was not meant to be sent... Gosh... I accidentally did it... It was 8 parts of personal stuff... SO personal that i only tell myself... Gosh... This morning then i realised when that person called me and asked me... And i was in such a shock that i dunnoe wad to do... However, i was too tired... Woke up later and immediately gava a reply... Ok, he thought i was having some probs... No lah, personal thoughts only... damn paiseh... Sickening as it is, he is working with me... Y can't i accidentally pressed it to some classmates? Or rather, pple that doesn't know who i mentioned in the text...

Today's work was cool.. It's a bit damn initially when nothing was set up... There was a huge round VIP table and 3 other smaller ones... A bit stressed by the looks of it... However, got Aunty Yim, the experienced one, though she got a lot to say... And 2 whom i LOVE!!! And 1 other new staff... I got along pretty well with her... HeH... Elaine... WAd i was pissed bout - The fact that nobody actually did the gerdaon(dunnoe how to spell) and there were 12 pax, 12 pax, 10pax, and 17pax... Can u imagine that? And no napkins... I folded some of it... Sickening... And for the rest of the hour, Tingling, Zoe, Elaine and Me were at the stewarding trying to find the same brand, and clean bowls, plates, spoons... After all the commotion, everything were finally calmed... Went into ballroom, then into VIP holding room... And guess wad? Elaine and I stayed there for 45min and not a single VIP came... Chris told us to stand and wait... WAh lao.. So we chatted for 45min thinking the VIPs will come in...

Went back, and everything started... Everything was cool throughout the night... Nothing much to mention...

End of the night, while i was clearing the flowers to the BAr, i saw Carolyn and Ah seng... Find it weird coz i usually wun go up since i'm a staff... And they were all lovey dovey... I didn't say much and went to the Bar with Elaine... Back to the ballroom, was clearing the linens, when i saw the 2 open the door at ob3 and looked around, holding hands... Didn't think much bout it till i rmbed Tingling was working OT... Erm... For the rest, u guess...

After OT, went to newton to eat with the pple.. Nice, ate wad i supposed would be... And chatted... I noticed a few good-looking ang mohs at the other table... hee~ And they are so stylish... HeH! Along the conversation, out of no where, Chris mentioned Desmond's name... Wah lao! Si Bei feel like beating him... But care less... Then Firdaus' name came out, i told him i dunnoe where is he... And Chris said, "y u dunnoe? He's ur boy boy leh.." And everyone broke into laughter! I ji tao paiseh yi xia... Tao Yan...

So, took cabby home and here i am... Not very sleepy... Anyway, no work later, can sleep later... HeH!

KK, sleeping liao... Ciao!

Work today was....

Let's talk bout work the other day... Doing the morning shift... u wun believe how tired i was... Went to work, then immediately after a few minutes, was told to set for food tasting.. ALone... 2 of it.. Separately... Gosh... Dunnoe y, was extremely fast that day... Not long after, i'm done... I dun quite rmbed wad happened that day... At the end of the day, i was dead beat... After eating, i went home on my own, leaving Zoe, Sasa and yvonne together... Guess wad? I slept while standing... Really buay tahan... Found a sit and slept all the way to batok.... 12 am... WAnted to sleep, Wei yi suddenly called to tell me everything bout chalet... Hung up, Ashril called... Kind of shocked me... But carried on joking with the bit of strength that i was left with...

Yesterday went to Bugis with Mel, yuting and Fang ling... Walk around, went to sistic... Then, watched King Kong... Damn good movie... Definitely will take a lot of Oscars home... Went to orchard, and things went on... I went to hotel... WAh lao, Buay tahan Wee lOon de... they are all so fond of hitting pple's head, if not, the bun... HAha! The late night wasn't pleasant... Sasa, u know y right? Heh!

I am still irritated by that damn Bangla... I was telling JunChen how pissed i was coz that guy was calling me when Junchen was around... So fucked up... I was really pissed just now... i didn't talk to anyone in the stewarding except for saying, "Can take right?" Wan wanted to play, i ignored him... Azmi as well... U know, when u treat pple well, they crawl up to ur head and start peeing... Just a few smiles and i caused myself some unnecessary irritation which nobody can help... DAmn It!

After the setting of the night's Stuff, i went to the ballroom to find out that the napkins aren't there, went down and actually folded myself... Went back up and here comes the fucking thing... This China guy was moving the VIP table to the other side with another person... Both dun think properly one leh, u r lifting the god damn thing up lor, u think u superman ar, u can make it float without anything actually falling meh? In the end, wad happened? Soy Sauce spilled... Dirty the damn cloth... I looked at him and screamed, " Wah lAo, u See lAH!" He actually dared told me "Then wad u wan me to do?!" FUCKed UP! It's like his fault LOR! He say until like he's right in everything... DAmn Him! Good thing Astley came and help me do.. He released me for Dinner... Totally sleepy just now... I can even sleep while eating... Got myself a Nescafe... Later in the night was a bit more energtic...

I cannot tahan the 2 girls lor... It's a good thing pple are starting to carry oval trays... But please lah, a few plates only, u wanna leave... Can dun make unnecessary trip not? When i say, "I do it lah" They give me this "AS if u can..." So i end up not carrying and let them play with their silly, tiring, extra game... nearing the end, i cannot dong liao... aBout to fall liao, so i just slack around... Do things bit by bit... Let them be the heroine they wanna be... Who cares...

Specially didn't work Ot, went to wait for bus.... Wait and wait and wait, until i saw NR8... So damn lor... I was there like 11.40 leh... Should still have bus... Yet only 2 came, and both were full... In the end, i walked back to hotel, wait for transport...

O ya... I wanna say something... Just now, while i was waiting for the Muslim pax at the Muslim kitchen, Chef Eric appeared out of no where... he was kind of like scolding one of the chef saying "1 yr liao still cannot cook urself?!" Or something like that... So i was standing there looking at him... Close-up... Noticed his nose very high lah.. Then he saw me looking at him and he asked "Wad u want?!" I say, "1 Muslim pax" And smile, as usual... He told the chef then looked back at me... I was startled, coz he looked so fierce... Then he said, "very long nv see u liao hor?" I'm like, "HUh? No ah, i was here right after my exam ar..." He's like "U used to work here quite often right?" I say, "Ya..." and smiled... Then b4 he left, he kind of grab my arm and said "Anyway, be careful huh, it's very slippery here..." I kind of looked at him and thought, y this guy so funny one? How come he talked to me like he'd known me for a while... ANyway, he's a much better person than that arrogant chef i met the other day... HeH!

Today's mood was very good... I played a lot... With everyone i could see in the hotel... I HIT TERRY'S BUTT WITH A ROUND TRAY!!!! HAHA!!!! Coz b4 that he beat me very hard... SO HArd... Almost all the black JAckets today hit my head, or in some way, squeezed my bun, hit my back... WAh lao.. Extreme torture... PAinful.. But fun... HA! Nuts... Enjoying torture... HAHA!!!! Still, i missed the pple i knew back then...

kk... I cannot tahan liao... Wanna concuss liao...

Ciao!

Yes, u smiled, but is it from the heart? You are a happy person from what I saw, but is that truely you? Are the smiles you made all sincere? Or probably just a fake... Dun have to tell me... Answer the question in your heart...

Tired...

Something to blog bout... Today work morning de... 9am... And it was then i found out that Sasa and Zoe are both working... Quite happy, got pple to pei... However, after going up for a while, we are separated...

I went to set food tasting stuff, Sasa went to do coffee break then Zoe went with Terry...

Seriously the day went by very fast... I started to feel tired at 3... Coffee didn't help much... continue to feel damn tired until we are released...

Met up with Audris, bring her to write the form then actually wanna leave le but something happened to Zoe... Ermm... Some arguements with her boy boy, she ended up crying on the phone, Sa sa and me dunnoe wad to do so just let her continue to talk...

Then, went to Cineleisure, pastamania, eat pizza... Right at that point, i cannot make it liao... After eating, wanted to go home, but a hat caught my eye... Went in, looked, bought... Swift huh!
Left them, i went home... On the bus, i cannot find sit, so i stood, fell asleep a few times, but cannot, if not fall down... Found a sit, sat down, concussed.... Slept all the way to Batok...

Reached, went to westmall, get Mel's present... Left the place after a while...

BAck home, bathed... Now, blogging... Very tired...

So sick...

Dun wanna write liao...

Ciao!

Wad topic? 4get bout it...

"Apple to Christopher and Lawrence, dinner's starting at Juniper..." HeH HEH! Holding a walkie is tough... Too heavy, no place to put... End up forcing it into the small pocket... Kind of boring today as well, but well, it's better to be boring and quiet than to be loud and tiring... The only busy time was during clearing... 5 tables, and i'm the only one... No help no nothing... But well, it's fine... i'm basically slacking around the rest of the time... Pretending to be busy... Walk to store, then to Neroli, back to Juniper... That's all... During that time, i was sending sms-es with a total of 4 pple... HAhA!!!! Xueting was telling me the meeting time tml, Si en was telling me when she's free, Bt kor was saying a nice place for pool and TYS was asking me some stuff.. HAHA!!! So FREE!!!!

Work ended at 12pm... Afterwhich, went to play pool, not exactly play, just look coz the 3 guys are playing...

Home now, dun really feel like sleeping so i'm here... Still coughing, very very cham...

Right, not working tml.... LALAlA!!! GOING OUT!!!!

Ciao!

Relax...

Today's work was relaxing.... Extreme relaxation... I was lucky enough... If not i would be complaining like Sasa was... They were so caught up by all the snobbish Germans, even Lau and Astley were mad... HA! I'm too lucky working at the food tasting...... MuHAhA!!

The family is a bunch of good pple... They did not ask for all sorts of funny drinks, and just eat.. Along the way, the groom joked a little... It was kind of scary to be left in the room alone with the family... u know, it's not really right to stare at pple while they are eating, i can only pretend i'm a statue, and pretend busy... HAHA! Touching this and that, topping up drinks and blah blah... Good thing the family didn't ask for anything that i can't produce... Hee~ *prO*

Then, help with different stuff and very quickly 11 liao... No OT today, so everyone went to eat eat... Now then reach home... A bit tired liao... Gonna sleep soon...

Btw, i'm gonna go out on Fri... Care to join? With Mel, her mei... and might be meeting Firdaus O! Dun get the wrong Idea... Mel will be there... TeeHee~ U can join too...

CiAO pple...

Going to work!

Going to work soon. My throat really hurts... I've been coughing for almost 4 days liao and it's getting worse these couple of days... Gosh...

I'm going work for 5 days this week, heh heh... the old me coming back, i wun be home early this week O! Work till i Siao... Seriously...

Nothing much, just feel like typing some stuff... hee~

Ciao!

Why?

Went to Orchard today! With Mel and her mei mei... Nothing much lah, only eat then shop and took quite a lot of pics... new machine from Korea... It was at that time, Firdaus re-appear... HAHA!!!! Haven't seen him for a while le...

Actually, the plan was to meet Ying mei, Sa sa, and Tingling de, then if possible with Firdaus. But leh, when i was ready to go out, it was like 7pm, so didn't manage to meet up with any of them. Firdaus was at home watching tv... Well, good that he's still alive... HAHA!!!

Back home, Mama started scolding me bout my spending... HA! She saw my bank's savings, and started scolding and scolding and scolding... HeH! I am very angry lor, coz most of the time i use my own cash for my own stuff, which includes, half of my bills, my own allowance when she's not around, bought my own stuff and so on and so forth. She just never appreciate how much i tried to depend on myself financially... So sick of it... Just can't stand the fact that she's supporting almost everything my brothers are doing and only supporting half of my bills and my school fees and yet when i touched my own savings, she began to scold. Really lor, the savings are really mine! Most of which is earned from my scholarship de... Can't i reward myself a bit? My brothers? If anyone who needs to know how to save, it should be them, not me! They are the ones who need to take care of a family in future, not me. BUt now, it seems like i'm the one who deals with money better... WAY better! Gosh... Feel so sad sometimes... trying so hard to be someone but can never be that someone... Never... Lost hope liao... Nvm.. Life is still mine... I lead it my way... Forget bout the brothers, the scoldings, the not-trusting, will control myself, financially and emotionally...

Work starts tml, CAN'T wait to touch the $$!!!! HAHA!!!!

Wad to say?

Last night's work was really nice, as in, it's not tedious, and the pple were cool... The only tough thing was to keep walking to get drinks for them... The guests were very funny, and I saw 2 very very SHUAI Ang MOH!!!!! HAHA!!!! REALLy! -BlUsH- O ya, and i learnt quite a lot of stuff from Siqi. Ya, she may look very fierce but she's a nice person...

O ya, i wanna complain bout something... There's this very irritating guy from the stewarding... There's this one occasion when i was preparing something in the stewarding area when this malay guy joked that i'm his girlfriend and he told the other indian guy, fine, a joke is a joke, i laughed along. Then this damn Indian guy started throwing lusty look at me and telling everyone that i'm his! FOR GOD SAKE! EVEN IF I WANNA BE WITH AN INDIAN GUY, I WUN CHOOSE SOMEONE LIKE HIM!!!!!!!!!! Noyt prejudice or wad, but really, i got an expectation ONE LOR!!!!!! WAH LAO! The other day, i was asking something from the other person, he came over, tapped the guy and said, "She's mine". I stared at him and walked away. WAH LAO! Feel so harassed LOR! Then kept calling me "DARLING" and throwing those damn looks, i feel like kicking his DAMN ASS! Now, i dun dare to walk into the stewarding when there's nobody there... CAN someone just tell him off! He is so digusting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!! Feel SO SO SO SO SO SO GOD DAMN HARASSED!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn pple in a damn place... PhEw!

Just now, went to Mel's bbq... It was all good. Didn't feel like a stranger there lah coz i've seen most of the pple. Mel's ah mah actually rmbed me!!!!! Wah! Her ah mah's memory very good... Then, her aunts, uncles, ya, all r familiar pple... Her Mei mei as well... She has grown up A LOT! Back then, she was only a kid, HA! BAck then, i was only a kid... HEH! Then, a few other pple came and a guy called me, i'm like, "huh? I know u meh?!" Then, they explained that he was the guy who sent us food a few years ago when we were working... Ermm... But i totally dun rmb him.. HAHA! Anyway, it was cool, being able to fit in, though we dun really know each other... Well, i haven't got her a present, ermm... i got something in mind... hee~ *SeCreT*

See how, tmr may go orchard bah... See how... Kind of bored staying at home... Always alone, everyone not at home... Sian... But sometimes, home is the best place, all the times to be exact...

O ya, i was watching "Patriot" just now... GOSH! It was a great movie! So touching... That was how America fought for it's freedom 2 centuries ago... Ah... WATCH IT!

Ermm... Ting msged me and told me something bout my previous blog... I got 1 more thing to say... I thought she is a respectful person, someone who i can respect as a friend. Wad she had done was all thought to be "okay" coz feelings are hers but today i saw her true colours, wad she has done to make herself feel happier, someone who never spare a thought to another... Probably to a friend, to her love one, forget about it. She loves telling stories...( The shes above do not refer to Xueting) Well, Ting, if u wanna know wad i'm saying, call me when u r free bah, somethings are best kept unknown here... Just feel so betrayed...

Unpleasant stuff happening... HeH!

Take a look....

Since i can't sleep and i can't find someone to talk to bout something, so i come here and type something bah...

A year has passed by under my nose that quickly... A lot of stuff had happened, some are great, some are sad, some took my breathe away, some made me shed my tears, some make me smile and some just make me realised, i've grown up.

I used to think bout wad is it like to grow up, to be a woman, to make decisions of my own and to have a boyfriend. When i had the answers, i forgot the time when i wanted to know them so badly. And then i realised how much i've missed, in the midst of searching the answers. Really, think about it, how many pple actually remembered that they once thought bout some qns? Seriously, i've forgotten. When i sat down to think bout it, i only found out one thing, that i'm a grown-up.

When i was young, i have plenty of dreams, and i held on to it. As i grow older, the dreams became lesser coz i realised it's not easy to fulfill dreams. At a point of my life, i let go of all the dreams i used to have and focus on reality.

To be in love is not to sacriface the other stuff. I should've known but i made that mistake... I let go of my dreams for love... A foolish act. I might lost everything... All that i've worked for since i had a dream. I snapped out of that trap. It was hard to climb back on track when all the while, u were struggling to keep up. Now, i hold on to the dreams that i've always have.

Dreams are dreams, still, reality is there. I'm glad that my family is not as troubled as b4. I really suspect i had depression a few years back, it's just that i dunnoe. If not, y the sleepiness, the shutting up of myself and the dun-wish-to-bother. However, i was able to get out of it... With not much help, of coz... Now, i dun really have a lot of family probs le, except, the brothers' slacking too much issue, and the sometimes financial prob issue. I'm glad... Somehow, my family is able to survive through some of the darkest moments.. Still, it's dark, u dun wanna know...

Friendship... With the departure of a few pple from school and class, things are different. Without them, i find it hard for time to pass... True, i miss them... When they're around, i never treasure them well, but when they've left, something seems to be missing as well... It's a good thing that now, they are still around me, still able to come out once in a while. Sometimes, the closest pple doesn't necessary means the best friends... Recent happenings haven't really give me a good reflection of closest pple being the best friends... HEH! However, there are pple close to me who are real to me... I'm glad...

Looking for love... But i'm holding back... No idea y... Probably waiting for the ideal one... My ideal one... I can finally make out my type of guy... HAHA! Wad i look for in a guy is something only I know... It's ok bout the race, the religion, or the language(i'm a sinagporean right?! I dun care bout that), nothing bout the age, just not too old... Dun wan anyone younger though. An ok-looking person, a stable job, if not, someone who have an aim(if he's studying), who's able to control his spending and still have surplus. There're a lot more lah, u know, who wants to ask for the minimum when u can ask for the maximum! HAHA!!! but most importantly, HE lOves Me, and I loVe him BACk!!!! A passionaTe Onee!!!! hee~ Hopefully, a romantic one... HAHA!!! Too much for a girl like me!!! hee~

Yesterday at work...

Here's something funny to share...

While working yesterday, I was standing by the side of OHS's VIP table. Astley was putting all those alcohol on the table when i realised there was something sticking out of his pants. I was wondering wad was that, and thought he didn't pull out the toilet paper and it's sticking out of his pants. I was a bit shocked, so i told Hui rui to take a look, we were not sure wad, but it certainly was funny. When Ash came, we told him to remove it, it's a piece of maskinf tape... and then it was a bunch of laughter... HAHA!!!! damn hilarious... Imagine how embarassing it would be if it happens to u... Of cos, no offence, it's funny... Hee~

The very funny kelvin, i told him that will pass him the cash in the afternoon but he called me at 10am. WAh! His afternoon very early... HAHA! I was just too tired to get up... But no choice, got up, went down, gave him the money, back home, Ji tao faint on bed liao... HA! Till 1+ then woke up. Dun blame me lah, i only reached home at 3 last night leh... WAs damn tired... Then Buffet is so so so busy... Need to squeeze through the crowd, walk all the way out and in and out and in(repeat this a million times)... Sickening... Then pple just think too highly of themselves, like they are transparent, standing in front of me when i said "excuse me" still refuse to give way... WAH LAO! I would love to see them as transparent, and pour everything on them like nothing happen but please, I'm a PROFESSIONAL(HAHA)... SNOBBISH!

Right, i'm having a bad sore throat today, need to go get fisherman later on... Hai... Working later too...

O ya, we got a new midnight team? Ermm... One of whom looks like segaff and acts like segaff too... HAHA! Funny how i can still see some "school" at work... Hee~

Right, i'm ending here...

Ciao!

Ermm...

I was told that my blog skin is hanging some JAva thingy, though i dun quite understand but well, it hung... So here's one from the web... Put up with this for a while, new one will come soon... Or maybe, it'll stay for good... We'll just see...

Ciao!

Hai...

Hey, back again...

I was chatting with ting just now and we were kind of doing some catching up... She told me a few things which i felt very bad about... Feel like i'm the culprit of some sort of crime... Though i know her intention wasn't so but somehow, i know it's my fault... The worst thing is, i dun even rmb bout it...

Or maybe my very concern bout someone turned into a nuisance... Absolute embarassment bout my caring for others... U know, that was the very reason y i shut myself off from all things a few years ago... I knew it but i kept quiet coz everytime i try to help, i am deemed "KPO"... Few years later, it replayed... Fine, from now on, i'm gonna wash my hands off anything that doesn't concern me! If that's wad i get, then i will not care bout anything as from now... FINE!

Some catching up with my sister... She's hasn't been well, we're both sick? Surprised? Dun be, that's wad always happen when we're working so much... And talking came to a point when she said, when we least expects it, a lot will come out of it, when we expect more, nothing comes out of it. True... Like, last year, we didn't even worried bout couldn't get a job or wadsoever but then we got something more than it... This year, so looking forward to it but nothing came out... Absolutely nothing...

Very sian nowadays... No fun... Friends are all busy with their stuff... Didn't meet up.. No chalets, no steamboats... Nothing... Very sad... Feeling lonely... Hai... Starting to miss school a lot... See, it's always like that, when we have it, we never treasure it, when we lost it, we want it more, a lot more than when we have it...

When i see Bt kor's nick, suddenly feel so jealous... Coz he's a student again... Totally focusing on it like he used to, like i used to when i was a student... Now that i lost it, i envy other pple... HAi... been looking for a day when i am free and not tired to go back to school for Netball but seems like i can't... No time...

By the way, there's a big news to tell! BACKSTREET BOYS IS COMING TO TOWN!!!! AND MELANIE AGREED TO GO WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! HAHA!!!! Wah lao! Do u know how much i yearn for this day to come? 10 years! 10 long years... 1 whole decade! And finally, they're here!!!! Anyone else interested? Tell me!!!! HAHA!!!! One thing to be sad bout, best bud dun wanna go with me when i tot she would coz she's like the only one who listen to their songs too... HAi... Wadever, Mel agreed to go with me.... I'm So HAPPY!!!!

Still, i'm sick... Hai...

I miss you, like the moon misses the sun... I miss you, like the heaven without a cloud... I miss you, like Adam and Eve is separated now.. I miss you, like the dead and the living... I miss you so much that I can't breathe...

Fever....

I'm so very sick... fever... Hai... Didn't go work... informed Chris niao, asked Si en to work for me le... Gosh... I am so weak... Hai...

Man, i feel like killing those pple who sms early in the morning... SHit MAn! They dun have to sleep, i have to... Spare a damn thought for others!

Right... i'm gonna continue to rest so will recover faster... Hai...

BACK!!!!

When was the last time i blogged? Heh... Ya, my com was down for quite a while... Now, i'm back...

Right, so let me start with some stuff that i rmbed. I went to Johor last Wed i think, and immediately, i fall very deeply in love with Singapore... I mean, once i entered Johor, there's this very disgusting stench... Continue, the staff from malls sux, cab-drivers dun go by meter... Gosh... Besides the stuff being cheap, everything else is OMG!!!! And after eating some food, i went to the toilet and like fountain, everything came out.. Gosh... That was the worst day of the week... I'm loving Singapore a lot now... A LOT!!!!

Another thing, ting scare me the other day when she called me, crying... Not really crying but sobbing bah... She lost her phone... I was a bit shocked coz that's like very precious to her... Anyway, she got back her number back....

Went back to work with quite a lot of surprises... Lots of pple are banned( most of whom are friends). Then, even more China pple... Some more, Bt kor quits... Dun quite rmb much bout work le... i just rmb lots of dnd, lots of unhappy me, lots of sickening staff, and my legs are killing me...

Now, i'm a bit sick after lack of rest... Hai... Dun wanna work Ot for next few days liao... I'm like dying... Today, Fancy fair... woke up at 5am, slept at 3am... Look how pathetic that is... I'm just drained... The work was light but having to wake up and work early really is not for me... So i ended up being sick now... Hai...

Something to mention, the store is damn messy... y must i say, coz i was told to pack it! GOSH!!!!! I stepped inside and it's like "OMG, cannot take it.." Pple basically walked in, take, throw, leave... I'm like, please lor, at least throw inside trash bag nor... And i was telling the trainee, tony, "wah lao, the store very messy..." He looked at me and laughed, i said "Y leh?! Coz bt not around to control right?!" He laughed even louder and said "YA, how u know... Ever since he left, it's been a mess" I'm like... Gosh... No one care one ar... Sad...

Right, i'm really just going to work, take money, slacking when i can... HAHA! Sounds bad but wad's the use of putting 100% in when nobody really appreciates it? At least i did wad i should...

Btw, Chicken Little is a great movie. Though it's kiddy but somehow, i was touched my it... Coz i cried when watching... Family...

O ya, bought PS2 from kelvin... Haven't paid him the full sum yet but will.... Hai... The reason for his need of cash can be kept a secret but a bit not appropriate lah... No idea...

While working today, Aunty Santy was telling me terry's situation at that time... I really dunnoe wad to tell her coz even i, myself was kept in the dark... So i just told her the truth that i dunnoe... Later, got Terry's new number, comfort him a bit... Not much details... HAi... NVM, still got friends LAh! MuHAhA!!!

If i can understand Fish more, maybe i can help but i dun... ya, we are friends, but i'm not close to her... Wad to say? Can't say much right? Its, afterall, her life she's leading...

Right... I'm working the next few days... Will be damn free this weekend... Feel free to call me, sms me, ask me out, anything... BUT DUN CALL ME EARLY IN THE MORNING!!!!!!!! I WILL GET REALLY PISSED!!!

K, that's it for now, will blog more often de, coz com back liao mah! HAHA!!!

Ciao!